MEMORY LOSS. . . PART 2 𝜗ৎ LEE HEESEUNG.
boyfriend!heeseung x girlfriend!reader. . . . ʚɞ
CONTAINS. .✦ ݁˖ angst. fluff later on. reader is in a very distraught state and heeseung is desperate for her to remember him. pet names. affection. the need for love.
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it had been months of crying. alone in the dark. months of.. hardly taking care of himself. staring at the ring he had planned to propose to you with. how much longer was it going to take? you could either gain all of your memories back—or half.. or none at all. which would it be? there was still no answer. your parents kept him updated. it was a long journey. a painful one for not only him, but your parents and of course.. you. how could he be so selfish? he wasn’t the only person who was struggling with this new life without you. your poor parents and friends. that had to be the worst part of it all. your family. heeseung felt so defeated and done.
until he received a call from your mother who had been crying. “what’s going on? is everything okay?” he felt his heart beat quicken with each sob heard from over the phone and finally, your mothers voice spoke up. “s-she remembers you.” the phone fell from his hands. tears immediately fell from his swollen, dry, and red eyes. tears he thought were impossible to form at this point. “but heeseung—” but it was too late. he was already out the door heading to your parents home.
“where is she?” his voice was quiet, small, and broken. although your mother had said you remembered.. you didn’t remember him clearly. “i know.. there was a very special person i was with, right mom?” your mother’s eyes widened and she nodded in a quick manner. her hands grabbing ahold of your own. this was also the first time you had called her ‘mom’ since you’ve been home. did you remember her? she didn’t bother asking and wanted to keep you focused on heeseung. “but..” and there it was—but. “i don’t remember his face or the feeling of him. i just.. know he was there and i had to be with him. i have a feeling but it’s so hard to explain and it’s frustrating me.” you wanted to cry. scream. ask why this is happening to you but.. never did. heeseung made is way into the living room where you sat and he was slow to take a seat. his eyes never left you. he felt so overwhelmed since this was the first time he’s seen you since that day at the hospital. he hated that day.
you turned your head, eyes meeting his own but it still wasn’t clear to you. all you knew was it was the man from the hospital that day. “why are you here?” the question wasn’t to be rude nor negative. it was out of curiosity. the man who claimed to be your boyfriend was in your home. your family home. you hadn’t seen him since that day so you thought he left. for good.
“just checking in.” heeseung kept it short. sweet. to the point. another tear rolled down his cheek and again you were so confused. you turned to look at your mom and she had the same expression he did. “honey?” your mom finally spoke and you quietly hummed. “this is heeseung and i think it would be a great idea for him to stay with us for a while. that’s okay.. right?” well, sure. why not. he seemed like a nice guy and maybe if he stayed then, you’d remember.. right? “okay.” is all you said before pulling away from her to stand and as soon as you turned to leave—heeseung’s warm hand slowly reached for your own. you didn’t pull away and he felt so familiar. it was almost like a spark, the intensity of his presence was enough to make you.. cry. “you said your name was heeseung?” you asked and it took him a few minutes to respond and even so it wasn’t a yes or no response in words. he couldn’t speak. he couldn’t move. his head nodded and you nodded back to him.
“goodnight heeseung.” and you pulled away from him but the feeling of him lingered. he fell to his knees the second you left. your mom was quick to run to his side and hug him in a tight motherly hug as he sobbed into her shoulder. you don’t remember him exactly. it was the feeling of him. the familiarity wasn’t enough to bring back the memories and that’s what hit him the absolute hardest. how could you still not remember?
the next morning, you sat at the table with him and ate breakfast. he helped your mother cook and watched you the entire time. why were you smiling at your phone so much? were you.. texting someone? and just as his lips parted to speak—you spoke. “hey mom? did i ever like a group called ateez? for some reason.. they feel so familiar and i like them! i think i’ll go see them in concert next week if i can get tickets.” your mother replied but he wasn’t listening. it was almost as if the entire world had gone quiet. his ears rang and all he could do was stare at the kitchen table. you were living a life.. that didn’t involve him. you were living just fine and comfortably without him. why is this his reality.
he watched you get ready for the ateez concert. he also dropped you off with a.. friend. you met her at the hospital and she was with you constantly. he picked you up and listened to the entire conversation about how much you liked this specific member and how he pointed you out in the crowed. stared at you. winked at you. he felt sick to his stomach. it felt like a punch to his stomach. a punch.. over and over and over again.
“hey! do you think we’ll ever get married? what if we both get married at the same time! that would be so cute.” married. marriage. thank god he had just pulled up to your parents home in time. he felt like he was going to be sick. heeseung ran into the home and to the nearest bathroom, his breathing picking up and it almost felt like a panic attack. he couldn’t keep staying here to watch this. it was unfolding into something far much worse than he expected. his world was crumbling and.. it only got worse. much worse. especially the day you came home and announced that you had met a guy and started dating him. heeseung was defeated.
your mother dropped the glass plate and you gasped. “what did you just say?” since the accident and the.. memory loss. you didn’t quiet act like yourself anymore and it was pure agony for not only heeseung but your entire family. “mom?” “please tell me.. again what you just said.” and it was like this for a few more weeks but you would disappear for hours and not come back until late. heeseung would be up and hear the soft laughs of another male before you came through the front door.
it only wrecked him more. so he started wearing the cologne that you loved so much on him. he wore all of your favorite hoodie and sweatpants you once adored. he would hum along to a song that you loved and even played movies that you two constantly watched while cuddling in bed. the doctor told him to push things at a slow pace so why not now? he continued this for a while. two more months to be exact. until you stopped going on. you didn’t meet up with that unknown man again and you slowly.. so slowly started to remember your mom and dad in a different way. a way that you once knew them before. heeseung watched you cry in their arms and he could only feel the sharp pain in his chest again. you still couldn’t remember him.. at all.
“i’m.. so sad to see you go, heeseung.” your mother had walked him out to his car while he put the last bag in the backseat. “i’ll come back to see you one day.” is all he said before heading to the front seat. he wasn’t going to hug your mother or stay to chat for much longer because it made things worse. why bother when.. there was no use. as soon as his hand touched the handle, he froze. you stood there in your pajamas, shaking your head with tears streaming down your face. he had gotten so use to seeing this and you’d remember everything but him so he continued with opening the door but froze once again after hearing your voice. “seungie.” his heart dropped. his stomach dropped. at this point everything dropped and he felt himself breathe for the very first time in a whole year.
“what?” he spoke quietly. maybe he heard it wrong. maybe, he was hearing things but you slowly moved towards him. “my seungie.” and it heard it again but this time he seen you say it. he watched you come closer to him and the keys that were once in his hand dropped. he broke. he broke and you were finally there to catch him. your arms wrapping around his shoulders to pull him close to you as he fell to his knees. you fell with him but he finally held you. “i remember..” you said in between a soft sob. he didn’t say a word. all he could do was hold you close to him, so afraid to let you go again. he could never do so. you couldn’t ever slip from his fingers again. “i’m so sorry.” you apologized over and over again until he lifted his head up to look at you. brushing away any hair piece or braid that had fallen into your face, “please don’t ever apologize again.”
“baby? i was looking at places for our honeymoon and i thought maybe we could…” heeseung stopped once he seen you standing in front of him with a soft but very nervous looking smile on your face. you hid something behind your back and he smirked. “what is my pretty girl hiding?” and you waited a few minutes while he sat up and placed his large hands on your waist. “hmm..” you slowly pulled the test from behind your back, a positive pregnancy test. “surprise!! i’m pregnant!”
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