invizigoth

her: have u been a good boy for daddy? me: No man earns punishment, no man earns reward. Free your mind of the idea of deserving, the idea of earning, and you will begin to be able to think.

zine chat /// I think making a zine that says Stop Buying Plastic Slop is not necessary/preaching to the choir, and furthermore I'm hesitant to make a zine that basically says "hey everyone who is selling print on demand keychains stickers prints t-shirts mugs of their digital art YOU are GUILTY" because everyone has to make a buck right but.... I'm continually thinking about this!! thoughts: 1) Simulacra 2) Possessing an image as a way of possessing the thing (John Berger Ways of Seeing) 3) images and sanctity -- the prohibition against images of people in Islamic art is really compelling to me. or even like. this image of a holy person is an icon and treated in a special way. and I think that it's a neat exercise to think about, are there people/places/things/events/etc that YOU want to hold sacred like this? 4) re: digital art print on-demand, the other thing is that there are actual people doing the printing/operating the machinery and idk there's maybe something in there about art and labor

translation project however is v on-track :^)

remember back in april or may when I was like. I think I can finish an extremely rough draft of novel by december. hm. well. seems unlikely but I think I will feel p bad if I don't achieve at least one of my big goals (#mygoals) before year's end so. allons-y.

actually I love the passage of time. I love that for example the months and years of actions and consequences which felt like some unescapable shame that would mark me for the rest of my life have not just lost their sting but lost their importance. for example, when you are 25, your early twenties (19-24) is an entire 20% of your life. but then you're 33 and that period only accounts for 15%. and it is just going to get less and less important vis a vis "who you are." the past isn't escapable but it definitely is like, almost escapable. like an asymptote.

rotating "The King of the Cats" in my mind like... it's simultaneously such a nothing story ("öne time this weird thing happened to me anyway that's all I have to say") and also so frightening. v different from but also v similar to me as "The New Mother"