Innermost Me...

It would mean to let go

Again

Falling in love is the scariest thing. The high lifting you up and up until you are so far gone you no longer recognize the world around you. What was once ground has turned into something so profound. Light as the air floating looking outside in at everyone below. For love has created a bubble of euphoria leaving one in a daze of what else exists around. Therefore, when that feeling begins to fade as you fall back to dirt the aching begins as the heart, it hurts. Clinching pains that do debilitate. Yearning to rise above. To hold hands and float back into the fluffy blue. But once nothing can hold you together, not even loves glue… Darkest days fallow. The sorrows and horror of gloom. So once you find that next lift to the sky it’s so hard not to be afraid to fly. Lessons of gravity have shown what goes up, must come down. But dear friends please remember why you were so high to begin with. Remember how you were so lifted. Feel what made you soar. It was the best of your days; moments to be valued. Sweet memories not to be forgotten. After all, it wouldn’t hurt so bad to lose it if it wasn’t so lovely to begin with. It would be easy to let go if it wasn’t so damn wonderful. Enjoy the start, remember the start. Never fear new beginnings and remember the end, as a reminder of why it’s so worth it to be again…

Codependent Me

Sometimes the only way to learn is to break your own heart

Blinded by a love so bright That came in a flash too soon Yet felt just right Ascending to the moon Anticipating when and how They must one day fall For what goes up It must come down Warning signs flash among the haze Gravity's law will abound Tugs with cavalier leisure Disengages from the craze Love ostensibly innocent and pure No one is the leader in a trap When both are blind Stuck they will stay Circling the drain as they nap Cloud nine separating behind As they sift into the gray

And we looked at the clouds together I knew that it had been a while Shadows and light that cast upon us Winked down on us with a smile Lying adrift among the wafting waves My spirits light as a feather Tugging anchor sunk me deep But only for a moment And then Absolved I drifted off to sleep Back in the peace of freedoms breach

Romeo and Juliet - Baz Luhrmann soundtrack. Radiohead "Talk Show Host"