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This is just going to a rant about my most recent heart break. No I wasn’t in love and I was with this person for not a very long time either.

However he is someone very special to me, long distance relationships can be hard as fuck. But we were doing very well. Our communication was fantastic, we spent texting each other, from the minute we were awake until one of us had to sleep. Yes, for some that may be too much, but for myself I’m needy as fuck so it was perfect.

Now by long distance I mean LOOOOONNNNGG distance, he lives on the other side of world, however I was willing to give it a shot. I am so glad I did, he made me feel so fucking happy, and that was only via text/face-time/voice call dates etc.

Now the reason I’m in so much pain right now, is because we are no longer together anymore. Yesterday he got some news that he is getting deployed for 9 months (he’s in the military), and he isn’t sure what the situation he is going to be in. Long story short he think he might get to talk either once a week via email or we might not be able to talk at all during those 9 months. 

He left the decision up to me as what I wanted to with our relationship, honestly I still have no idea what I want to do. I know what the right thing to do is, but I don’t want to be without him. He has helped me through so much, and I have NO fucking idea what I’m going to do without him. Especially after how much we have been talking lately.