aching soul

every 5 minutes i go wow i NEED to kill myself and then i ignore it because i have things to do

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

I think one of the worst symptoms of bpd is the lack of emotional permanence no matter how many good and loving people you have in your life the second you are alone it feels like you were never loved and it was all just a figment of your imagination

all roads lead back to the loneliness i felt as a child

What doesn't kill you leaves you bleeding for the rest of your life wishing it did

bpd will never let me like things normally. oh you are attached to this? it will come with additional existential dread and sorrow and emotional agony. have fun. the other option is apathy. you pick

Do you ever see a post and think "ah yes, I'll send it to her, she'll find it hilarious" but then you remember you're no longer talking?

Every girl has experienced that one friendship that truly destroyed them

nothing is as painful as losing a friend who feels like a soulmate except for reminiscing on it years later and realizing as more time passes it becomes more and more likely they truly are gone from your life for good except for the bittersweet memories that will haunt you forever