I don't know anything

huh. i am both wound and blade. neat.

I live a very balanced life of noticing things nobody else does and not noticing the things that literally everybody notices

they dont tell you this but you carry your upset younger self in you like a parasitic twin

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life

a small thing i learned from my sister dying is that i really would rather the people i love be a burden than be whatever the hell else they'd be if they weren't. yes even if it's messy and not always fair and hard completely inconvenient for everyone involved. even if it's weird. even if i'm rolling my eyes a bit inside sometimes. i just want you to bother me. please always bother me

like "it's rotten work" "not to me not if it's you" actually sometimes it's still rotten work. even if it's you. and i'd still do it a million times over

Your self respect has to be greater than your desire to be loved.

very sensitive very aggressive

a lot of your suffering comes from treating your nature like a problem to manage instead of a design to understand

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

a big part of being happy is being excited. be excited for everything - making a cup of tea, decorating your future apartment, seeing a friend again, falling in love unexpectedly, the next episode of a show you like, finishing something stressful, buying something you’ve been saving up for, a new album, sunsets, traveling, road trips, and the feeling of going to bed after a long day. think of something to be excited about and daydream about it often when you’re sad.

i highly recommend for women and girls to be intellectually curious and difficult to shame

might fuck around and save my own life one day at a time