depression fucking sucks. especially when its around anniverseries. Today was the last day I saw my dad alive. and in a month from now will be the one year anniversiery since he took his own life. I have no motivation for anything. I cant focus on anything. It be work, school, art, or people. I have been slacking in all of it and I hate it I want to get better. I want to move on. I want to have focus and to enjoy life again. I just dont know how to do that. I really wish I did. This shit sucks. I wish I could take a year off from work and school so I can get myself together but that is just not feasible. I cant do it. I have to make money and have a place to live. I have to finish my education as soon as possible so my grant money doesnt expire. Tragedy makes life hard and almost unbareable.





















