Always Crying

i’m not getting better anyways so why not get worse

I have this silly little feeling in my chest that's making me want to die

i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

I'm sure being alive isn't supposed to be this painful

"It's just a bad day, not a bad life" but days been bad since the day I was born so what do you have to say about that you ugly bitch

im gonna block everyone and shoot myself in the head

i myself needed to be reminded of this today. the freedom of summer also means the risk of falling back into bad habits if i'm not mindful

BPD in a nutshell.

Maybe expressing my thoughts was not a good idea. Sorry for those that I bothered, triggered or annoyed.

You gotta make peace with being on bad terms with people you still care about, and also make peace with situations where you knew you did no wrong but was painted as the bad guy anyway. Shit hurts, but it’s life

„but you survived“ but i didn’t want to lol. i wasn’t supposed to. i hate that i did. i’m angry that i did. i want the pain to go away so badly.

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

Sending love to everyone who is just... tired. Life is a lot, and sometimes the answer to it all is to just be still and silent for a while. Give yourself space and grace. Whether it’s decision fatigue, anxiety fatigue, information fatigue, routine fatigue, getting life back together fatigue, career fatigue, social fatigue, financial fatigue, or physical fatigue—take a moment to breathe and recharge. You deserve it.