You & I

“your mother did not spend nine months growing you a fierce heart just so it could stop beating the moment love leaves it”

“Thinking of you is a poison I drink often.”

The thought of you

“I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself.”

Perhaps the most pleasant surface to touch

““No feelings.” He says. “No feelings,” I agree. “Just the here and now." He takes my hand. I dismiss the infinitesimal flutter in my stomach that seems to last an eternity. No feelings. He kisses me with the force of his entire being - until it leaves me shaking. No feelings. He takes my laughter and condenses it into a glass jar for rainy days. For when he’s gone. No feelings. He tells me his secrets and I tell him why I have trust issues and he lets me rest my head on his chest. "No feelings,” he says. “No feelings.” I echo. I hope he doesn’t mean it. I know that I don’t.”