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a moment of quiet in Haguenau
i can tell iām sleep deprived bc i just made myself cry about tutankhamun and i have, like, negative interest in the kid
have now made the rest of the discord cry about this little boy who had multi-coloured ducks sewn onto a tunic that he loved so much he wore it to a Very Important Event because he was EIGHT and have you SEEN my DUCKS
sorry no iām not done iām gonna make you all cry some more iām bringing you down with me
there was once a little boy.
he is born disabled. his body hurts, and he canāt walk properly the way the other children do. he doesnāt understand why. heās a little boy. but he plays with wooden boats and pulls toys on a string.
somebody makes him a tunic. they sew ducks onto it in red and green and yellow and blue. the bright colours of a child.
the little boy is eight years old, and heās going to be king now. thereās a big ceremony about it. he doesnāt really fully understand whatās going on, because heās eight, but he wears the tunic with the brightly coloured ducks for the occasion because he loves it. look at his ducks! arenāt they great?
he is a child. the adults around him manipulate and coax him to gain more power for themselves. he still plays with toys.
as a teenager, not yet an adult, he fathers children. they do not survive. heās not even old enough to have full agency in his job and is still being manipulated, but he had babies and they died.
he does not make it to his twenties. at eighteen or nineteen years old he dies, and is buried. his babies, so tiny, are buried with him.
and so is his tunic with the little ducks that he loved so much he kept it long after it no longer fit.
there was once a little boy.
yeah i think that like. especially with historical figures in your mind people who were kings and queens or important nobles were adults. even if you know how old they were it doesnāt really click. it doesnāt seem real
but then you get something like a little tunic with brightly coloured ducks on it and it hits you like a fucking truck that this really was a little kid and no matter how far removed you are a little kid is still a little kid. their brains didnāt develop any quicker back then. he was just as developed/mature mentally as any 8 year old now. he had cartoonish animals on his clothes and he played with toy boats and probably terrorised the local cat population.
tutankhamun was a child and he didnāt make it to adulthood because he was unfortunate enough to be a very important child
his dad died when he was 8. he saw his own babies die when he was still just a boy himself.
but he had brightly coloured little ducks on his favourite shirt, and he kept it.
and he did not just keep the duckie shirt either
tutankhamun had a little pair of sandals with ducks on them. he had earrings decorated with ducks. he kept those, and other items of childhood clothing. some toys. keepsakes. things he loved, and treasured. he kept them all in a little wooden chest. the chest⦠was carved with ducks.
and that little duck chest, filled with things he kept from his childhood, was buried with him. maybe he was keeping them for the little babies who did not make it. maybe they just reminded him of good days and fun times.
but he was a little boy who thought ducks were just the best
WITH PLEASURE
(greyscale makes it hard but the duck head is on the right above the toe strap. always takes me a while to find it too)
I need David Walmsley and Matthew Mcnulty to be on this yearās Terror Camp SO BAD. PRETTY PLEASE.
can you even think about something more appealing and natural?
finally I present you my take on the nature of jopsonās shooting skill

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nobody was impressed with this cause they thought it was a photo so i spent like 50 hours painting it for nothing
My mate @cacodactyl painted this, thatās right he painted it and itās honestly so incredible so please go and show him some love cos he deserves it
YO LOOK AT THIS SHIT
YāALL.
oh my GOD
Look closer and youll see the truth THIS IS AMAZING
THIS IS A PAINTING?!
THIS IS A PAINTING
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THEY WILL GIVE US THE 20 MINUTES OF CUT FOOTAGE FOR EACH EPISODE. THEY WILL. THEY WILL. MANIFESTING IT. SPEAKING IT INTO EXISTENCE. THEY WILL.
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So today I want to talk about puberty blockers for transgender kids, because despite being cisgender, this is a subject Iām actually well-versed in. Specifically, I want to talk about how far backwards things have gone.
This story starts almost 20 years ago, and itās kind of long, but I think itās important to give you the full history. At the time, I was working as an administrative assistant for a pediatric endocrinologist in a red state. Not a deep deep red state like Alabama, we had a little bit of a purple trend, but still very much red. (I donāt want to say the state at the risk of doxxing myself.) And I took a phone call from a woman who said, āMy son is transgender. Does your doctor do hormone therapy?ā
I said, āGood question! Let me find out.ā
I went into the back and found the doctor playing Solitaire on his computer and said, āDo you do hormone therapy for transgender kids?ā It had literally never come up before. He had opened his practice there in the early 2000s. This was roughly 2006, and the first time someone asked. Without looking up from his game of Solitaire, the doctor said, āIāve never done it before, but I know how it works, so sure.ā
I got back on the phone and told the mom, who was overjoyed, and scheduled an appointment for her son. He was the first transgender child we treated with puberty blockers. But not, by far, the first child we treated with puberty blockers, period. Because puberty blockers are used very commonly for children with precocious puberty (early-onset puberty). I would say about twenty percent of the kids our doctor treated were for precocious puberty and were on puberty blockers. They have been well studied and are widely used, safe, and effective.
Well. It turned out, the doctor I worked for was the only doctor in the state who was willing to do this. And word spread pretty fast in the tight-knit community of āparents of transgender children in a red stateā. We started seeing more kids. A better drug came out. We saw some kids who were at the age where they were past puberty, and prescribed them estrogen or testosterone. Our doctor became, Iām fairly sure, a small folk hero to this community.Ā
Insurance coverage was a struggle. I remember copying articles and pages out of the Endocrine Society Manual to submit with prior authorization requests for the medications. Insurance coverage was a struggle for a lot of what we did, though. Growth hormone for kids with severe idiopathic short stature. Insulin pumps, which werenāt as common at the time, and then continuous glucose monitoring, when that came out. Insurance struggles were just part and parcel of the job.
I remember vividly when CVS Caremark, a pharmaceutical management company, changed their criteria and included gender dysphoria as a covered diagnosis for puberty blockers. I thought they had put the option on the questionnaire to trigger an automatic denial. But no - it triggered an approval. Medicaid started to cover it. I got so good at getting approvals with my by then tidy packet of articles and documentation that I actually had people in other states calling me to see what I was submitting (the pharmaceutical rep gave them my number because they wanted more people on their drug, which, shady, but sure. He did ask me if it was okay first).
And hereās the key point of this story:
At no point, during any of this, did it ever even occur to any of us that we might have to worry about whether or not what we were doing was legal.
It just never even came up. It was the medically recommended treatment so we did it. And seeing whatās happening in the UK and certain states in America is both terrifying and genuinely shocking to me, as someone who did this for almost fifteen years, without ever even wondering about the legality of it.
The doctor retired some years ago, at which point there were two other doctors in the state who were willing to prescribe the medications for transgender kids. I truly think that he would still be working if nobody else had been willing to take those kids on as patients. He was, by the way, a white cisgender heterosexual Boomer. I remember when he was introduced to the concept of āgenderfluidā because one of our patients on HRT wanted to go off. He said āthatās so interesting!ā and immediately went to Google to learn more about it.Ā
I watched these kids transform. I saw them come into the office the first time, sometimes anxious and uncertain, sometimes sullen and angry. I saw them come in the subsequent times, once they were on hormone therapy, how they gradually became happy and confident in themselves. I saw the smiles on their faces when I gave them a gender marker letter for the DMV. I heard them cheer when I called to tell them Iād gotten HRT approved by insurance and we were calling in a prescription. It was honestly amazing and I will always consider the work I did in that red state with those kids to be something I am incredibly proud of. I was honored to be a part of it.
When I see all this transgender backlash, itās horrifying, because it was well on the way to become standard and accepted treatment. Insurances started to cover it. Other doctors were learning to prescribe it. And now ⦠itās fucking illegal? Like what the actual fuck. We have gone so far backwards that it makes me want to cry. I donāt know how to stop this slide. But I wrote this so people would understand exactly how steep the slide is.
btw the palestinian childrenās relief fund is currently running a fundraiser & is more than halfway to their goal of $10,000 !
hereās a link for anyone who is willing & able to donate, please share so it can reach more people, especially as the weather grows colder & these children are desperately lacking resources.
(at $5,314 / $10,000 as of December 1)
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You love that Buck is bi so much that you want his boyfriend to be biphobic and invalidate his sexuality.
You love bi Buck so much, but, oh, wait!! He hasnāt experienced that insane high sex drive that all bisexuals supposedly have, which makes them want to sleep around with both men and women. So, letās not put him in a committed relationship just yet.
You love that Buck is bi so much, but the idea of him ending up with one guy, the first guy heās ever been in a relationship with after officially coming to terms with his sexuality, doesnāt make sense. He needs to sleep around to figure out who he really wants. Also, that kinda comes off as a bit misogynistic. Are woman not good enough for him?
You love that Buck is bi, but you need that biphobic storyline so badly. You donāt think itās good representation without it. Itās okay for you to say all of this, though, because youāre bisexual. And even if you arenāt, you have a few bisexual followers who agree.
Yāall are friedā¦