Lost SouL

Do you think the universe fights for souls to be together? Some things are too strange and strong to be coincidences.

Palayain mo na, para hindi ka na mahirapan pa.

After med school, I came home to Mystic Falls. It felt right. It’s where I wanted to grow old and I did. And that’s my life: weird, messy, complicated, sad, wonderful, amazing, and above all epic. And I owe it all to Stefan. When I met him, I had lost my parents and I was dead inside, but he brought me back to life and I’m going to live it as best I can for as long as I can. Even after our long and happy life together, Damon is still worried he’ll never see Stefan again, that he’ll never find peace. But I know he’s wrong because peace exists. It lives in everything we hold dear. That is the promise of peace, that one day after a long life, we find each other again.

When moving on, moments will be missed. But don’t let those memories pull you back to a situation that was absolutely toxic for your life.

I think you need to just close the fucking chapter on him even if it was long enough to be a fucking novel itself. You’ve cried over this boy so many times before, when are you going to put yourself first? When are you going to realize this is not what you deserve? When you were little would you have ever wished this for yourself? Why are you putting yourself through this? You are so goddamn important and he is a fucking idiot who didn’t deserve to know you the way he did. Let him go, let him go, let him go. There is nothing more you can do.

“I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you. Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too. If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending. Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.”

I often wonder what it would be like if things played out perfectly for us.

And suddenly the excruciating realization that you will never be able to be with the person you are so deeply in love with hits, and everything you had to be happy about seems to disappear. Then there you are. Left with nothing but pain and grief. Oh what a tragedy this truly is. But as it always does, life goes on. And even if the pain seems too much to bear, things will get better.

And suddenly the excruciating realization that you will never be able to be with the person you are so deeply in love with hits, and everything you had to be happy about seems to disappear. Then there you are. Left with nothing but pain and grief. Oh what a tragedy this truly is. But as it always does, life goes on. And even if the pain seems too much to bear, things will get better.

“ I guess I wasn’t ready to understand how I was so easy to forget.”

You are going to be so much more than ‘enough’ for someone someday.