yvette.

yvette/val ⤵︎ she/him

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lngshot (louis woojin bias)

nct wish (sakuya jaehee bias)

cortis (martin juhoon bias)

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but so uh, since June started and before my parents have always called me fruity, or compared me to rainbow things?? I got nervous ofc bc thats not a conversation im ready for. bc i know they'll ask, "but how did you know?" and what am I supposed to say??? "yeah this french girl treated me better than anyone ever could, and then left and broke my heart. but she made my standards so high that I knew women like her existed, and oh yeah ive had a girlfriend but she accused me of cheating on her with my now ex boyfriend!" NO IM NOT DOING THAT!!! too much, too much. the only thing that makes me nervous is bc my dumbass put a pride flag in my bedroom!!! right where when I leave the door open (which its open all the time for my cats) they can see it. I dont think they'd care abt me being bi...but i did come out as lesbian to my mom a few years ago (maybe like 6 years ago?) and she brushed it off and said i was "too young to know." They also know my whole friend group is queer, one of my bsf's having a gf and being pan, my childhood bsf being trans ftm and gay with a bf. they know that info and its not crazy to assume they would think it would "rub off on me."

and then theres the stuff with me being bigender. thats what might blow up in my face. ik my dad's opinion on trans ppl, which its changed significantly! once he learnt abt my bsf and I just talked to him more about it, he became accepting and I think he's chill with pronouns? my mom would (hopefully) support me, but there's always the looming though of "what if she sees me differently?" idk how to explain it to them other than just "i go by she/her and he/him, and I'd like if you used he more though."

ive always had second thoughts abt being bigender ever since i talked to my pookie wookie dookie abt it (yk who u r ily 🥹🥹), bc im just very feminine. my friend group knows my whole world revolves around pink and boy bands, but I want them to use he?? especially after some gender dysphoria I had a few years ago where I asked them to not use he/him at all for me?? its just, how will ppl use he/him if im obviously a biological woman? (sorry if that's the wrong terminology, correct me pls) but also I live in a rural area, no women r wlw and no men here would be okay with dating a bigender person bc "ew that would make me gay wouldnt it?" which i actually dont know how that would be labelled.