LUCKY SHOT āļø EOM SEONGHYEON
āļø synopsis: After accidentally kicking a football straight into your face, Seonghyeon is prepared to spend the rest of the week apologizing. You meanwhile, discovered that being mildly injured comes with some surprisingly enjoyable perks.
āļø genre: classmate!seonghyeon x classmate!reader, highschool!au, SLOWBURN.., fluff, teasing, kissing, mutual pining, footballplayer!seonghyeon, shy!reader, jealousy, lots of yearning, a lil angst in there, protective!seonghyeon, shy girl & popular guy or wtv, some cringeworthy scenes, introverted reader x extroverted? seonghyeon
āļø wc: 17,6k MASTERLIST
If anyone asked later, you would insist you saw the football coming.
You didnāt.
Not until it was already flying toward you at an alarming speed.
Then- well. Getting hit in the face tends to interrupt a personās train of thought.
The impact came fast and hard, sending a sharp sting across your cheek. Your eyes watered instantly as the ball bounced away somewhere across the field, but you barely noticed. All you could do was stand there, blinking in disbelief.
Seriously? Out of everyone on the field, it had to hit you?
A mixture of gasps and laughter erupted around you. Heat rushed to your face immediately, not from the pain, but from the sudden realization that half the football field was staring at you. Great.
Nothing was more humiliating than becoming the center of attention because a football had smacked you directly in the face. You pressed a hand against your cheek, hoping the ground would open up and swallow you whole.
A pair of hurried footsteps pounded across the grass, growing louder by the second. Before you could even recover, someone came to a stop right in front of you. āOh my god.ā
You looked up, it was Seonghyeon. His eyes were wide, his face pale. Judging by his expression, youād think he just witnessed a murder.
āAre you okay?ā he asked immediately. You opened your mouth to answer.
āI am so sorry.ā Then closed it again.
āI wasnāt aiming anywhere near you, I swear. I donāt even know how that happened. Are you hurt? Does your head hurt? Can you see properly?ā
The questions came so quickly that you barely had time to process them. You just stared at him. It wasnāt really because your head hurt, more so because Eom Seonghyeon, the same Seonghyeon who usually looked far too cool and confident for his own good, looked like he was seconds away from having a complete breakdown. Finally, you sighed.
āI got hit by a football, not hit by a truckāā
āāSome would argue that thatās worse.āā
Despite yourself, a faint laugh escaped you. The tension in Seonghyeonās shoulders eased immediately at the sound of your laugh. For some reason, that made your stomach do something strange.
āYou laughed,ā he said, narrowing his eyes slightly.
āāHm?āā
āIt means youāre okay.ā
You blinked at him. Then, before you could stop yourself you let out a quiet groan and pressed a hand to your forehead. Immediately, panic returned to his face. āWait. What happened? Are you dizzy?ā
āā¦Very.ā
The reaction was instant.
āOh god.ā
You had to bite the inside of your cheek to keep from smiling. āVeryā was apparently the wrong thing to say. Seonghyeon looked seconds away from calling an ambulance.
āI might die, it could be because of you.ā you said dramatically.
āItās that bad?!ā
Then he sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
āCome on.ā
āWhat?ā
āIām taking you to the nurse.ā
You opened your mouth to protest, then closed it again. Actuallyā¦that didnāt sound so bad.
A few minutes later, you found yourself sitting on a chair in the nurseās office while Seonghyeon hovered nearby like an anxious parent. The nurse had spent less than thirty seconds checking you over before declaring you completely fine. Unfortunately for Seonghyeon, he didnāt seem convinced.
āAre you sure?ā he asked. The nurse looked mildly offended.
āYes.ā
āBut the ball hit her pretty hard.ā
āSheās fine.ā
āHow do you know?ā
You looked away before either of them could see your smile. This was getting ridiculous. Yet you couldnāt remember the last time someone had worried about you this much. When the nurse finally sent you back out, Seonghyeon stayed beside you the entire walk down the hallway.
āYou sure youāre okay? Do you want me to get you something? Youāre not bruised, are you? Wait, let me check-ā Before you could respond, Seonghyeon was already leaning closer, his eyes narrowing slightly as he examined your cheek. You froze for a second, suddenly very aware of how close he was. After a moment, he leaned back with a small frown.
āI think itās going to bruise.ā
A few days have gone by, and Seonghyeon had somehow managed to become your personal caretaker. At first, it had been small things.
A bottle of water placed on your desk every morning with a bright smile that had you not doubt why everyone was charmed by him. When you carried many books, heād take them out of your hands without hesitation. Everytime he would walk past you, heād ask you this question:
āāHowās your head today?āā as if you were recovering from a life threatening injury. You have never met someone so commited. At some point you stopped correcting him because everytime he checked on you, his face softened in a way you have never seen before.
Before what happened in the football field, Seonghyeon had been one of those people you only knew from a distance. The kind of person everyone seemed to recognize. He wasnāt loud or constantly trying to be noticed, he never really had to. People gravitated towards him naturally.
Teachers liked him. Students liked him. Heck, even the security guard near the front entrance seemed happy to see him every morning. You had always thought Seonghyeon was cold and intimidating, which is why you have never spoken to him before. You werenāt exactly the type to walk up to people.
While Seonghyeon seemed to move through school as if he belonged everywhere, you preferred blending into the background. You kept your circle small, avoided unecessary attention and spent most of your time in your own world. The idea of starting a conversation with someone like Seonghyeon had never even crossed your mind. You were pretty sure he didnāt know who you were, or at the very least never bothered to pay any attention to you. Then he kicked a football directly into your face, now he wouldnāt leave you alone.
You really shouldāve kept your mouth shut. It had been a completely harmless comment, a passing observation. Something youād mutter to your friend while packing up your things after class.
āāIām hungryāā
You hadnāt asked anyone to get you anything, and you certainly hadnāt been talking to Seonghyeon. Yet somehow a few minutes later, he came back with a recognizable sandwich from the school cafeteria. You looked up in confusion.
āSo..ā
Before you could finish your sentence, Seonghyeon handed you the sandwich.
āYou said you were hungryā
You stared at him, then the sandwich, then back at him.
ā..oh.ā
Very articulate. His expression didnāt change.
āEat.ā
āI was going to buy one after class.ā
āNow you donāt have to.ā
You opened your mouth to argue, then closed it again. Because the problem wasnāt the sandwich. The problem was that half the classroom had suddenly become very interested in what was happening. You could practically feel the stares.
The girls sitting by the window had stopped talking. Someone behind you let out a suspiciously amused laugh. Your friend looked seconds away from exploding. She had many questions, the look upon her face says it all. Heat immediately rushed to your face.
āāTha..nks.āā You mumbled, taking the sandwich quickly in your hand while lowering your head. Seonghyeon was completely unaware of the crisis unfolding internally.
āāYour head okay?āā
āāYeah..ā
āāYou sure?āā
āāYes.āā
āāGood.āā
The conversation really shouldāve ended there. Instead, Seonghyeon remained standing next to your desk. Your face grew warmer. Why is he still here? Finally, after a few seconds he spoke again.
āāLet me know if it starts hurting.āā
Then, as casually as heād arrived, turned and walked away. You turned to your friend, you already knew where this was going.
āāY/n-āā
āāNo.āā
āāThereās like-clearly something going on that youāre refusing to inform me about.āā
āāLike what?āā
Her expression changed, as if it was obvious and self explanatory.
Choi Haejin was the complete opposite of you. You were reserved, she was sociable and open. You were in your own world and Haejin was in everybody elseās, gathering information to gossip about later. Somehow this dynamic worked extremely well. You needed a friend to do all the talking, and you really do enjoy it.
āāHello? Why is he practically working for you?āā
āāThereās obviously something going on!āā
āāWHAT IF HE POISONED THE SANDWICH?!āā
āāItās not reasonable for him to have any hatred towards you though..ā
āāHow are you so calm?!āā
Yes, one of Choi Haejinās many loveable qualities. Her overwhelmingly stacked questions.
Seonghyeonās concern didnāt seem to fade with time. If anything, it had simply evolved. A week after the football incident, you found yourself stuck in a conversation you had absolutely no interest in being part of. Youād only been trying to get to class. That was it.
Somehow, somewhere between leaving the cafeteria and reaching the stairs, a girl from your year had stopped you. You knew who she was, but not well enough to have a ten minute conversation in the middle of the hallway. Yet here you were, smiling politely, nodding occasionally and secretly praying for an escape.
ā-and then she literally posted about it!ā the girl continued. āReally?ā you replied.
You didnāt even know what you were saying āreallyā to anymore. The conversation had dragged on for so long that youād completely lost the plot. You shifted your weight awkwardly, glancing toward the staircase. Your next class started in a few minutes, but cutting her off felt rude. Standing here forever also felt rude to yourself.
āSo then I told her-āā
āThere you are.ā
The familiar voice made you look up immediately. Seonghyeon. For a second, you just stared. He stopped beside you, one hand shoved casually into his pocket.
āWhy are you still here?ā he asked.
You blinked.
āWhat?ā
āClass starts in like two minutes.ā
Your eyes widened slightly.
It did?
Before you could check your phone, Seonghyeon looked over at the girl.
āSorry,ā he said easily. āI need her for something.ā
Need you?
The girl glanced between the two of you.
āOh.ā
You felt your face heat up instantly.
āOh.ā
Seonghyeon, meanwhile, looked completely unaffected. The girl quickly stepped aside.
āYeah, of course.ā
And just like that, you were free. You followed Seonghyeon down the hallway, still trying to process what had happened. Neither of you spoke.
āYou didnāt need me for anything.ā You began.
āNope.ā You stared at him. He glanced over.
āYou looked like you wanted to escape.ā Your steps faltered slightly.
āWas it that obvious?ā
āTo me?ā he shrugged. āA little.ā
You looked away before he could see the smile threatening to appear. The strange thing was that you hadnāt even told him you were uncomfortable. You hadnāt said anything at all. And somehow, heād noticed anyway.
The next day, by the time you reached your classroom, you were expecting everyone to already be inside. Instead, a small crowd had gathered outside the locked door.
A few students sat on the floor scrolling through their phones while others stood around complaining about the teacher being late. Relieved that you hadnāt actually missed anything, you slipped into an empty spot against the wall and pulled out your phone, hoping to blend into the background until the classroom opened. It was working for about thirty seconds, then a familiar voice spoke beside you.
āYouāre late, Itās not because of your head is it?āā
You looked up to find Seonghyeon standing there. Before you could answer, someone walking down the hallway lifted a hand.
āHey, Seonghyeon.ā
āHey.ā
Another student nodded at him as they passed. A group farther down the hall called his name and he acknowledged them with a small wave. It was such a normal thing that he barely seemed to notice it. You did.
Before he acknowledged you, this was exactly how youād always seen him, from a distance. Someone who seemed to know everyone and be known by everyone. Teachers greeted him. Students greeted him. Even people who werenāt in his friend group seemed comfortable walking up to him. Meanwhile, you were usually trying to avoid being perceived altogether.
āWell?ā he asked.
You blinked.
āWhat?ā
āWhy are you late?ā You immediately looked away because the answer was embarrassing.
āI couldnāt find a pen.ā Seonghyeon stared at you.
āA pen.ā
āYes.ā
āYou were late because of a pen.ā
āIt was an important pen.ā
The corner of his mouth twitched, you felt strangely defensive.
āIt was.ā
A laugh escaped him.
Not loud enough to draw attention, but enough that you looked up in surprise. You werenāt sure why the sound caught you off guard. Maybe because Seonghyeon always seemed so composed around everyone else. Maybe because youād spent months assuming he was intimidating. Now he was laughing because you apparently make hilarious jokes.
The interaction hadnāt gone unnoticed, somehow you caught two girls nearby glancing over before quickly looking away. One of them whispered something to the other. Heat immediately crept up your neck.
For some reason, whenever Seonghyeon talked to you, it felt like everyone else suddenly became interested too. Seonghyeon either didnāt notice or didnāt care. A few minutes later, one of his friends appeared and nudged his shoulder.
āCome here for a sec.ā You expected him to leave but instead he glanced over briefly. āIāll be there in a minute, Keonho.āā His friend looked between the two of you before smirking slightly. āRight.ā
The second he walked away, you wanted to disappear. Seonghyeon meanwhile, looked completely oblivious. The conversation continued in small pieces after that. Nothing important. Complaints about homework. A teacher neither of you liked. The upcoming test everyone was stressing about. You still werenāt saying much but for the first time, the silences didnāt feel awkward.
That was what surprised you the most because before all of this, talking to Seonghyeon had never even seemed like a possibility. Now you found yourself hoping the teacher would stay late for a few more minutes.
If there was one thing youād learned from being friends with Haejin, it was that she was incapable of making a quick decision. She was supposed to buy a game for her younger brotherās birthday.
You were only there because sheād insisted she needed a āsecond opinionā. According to Haejin, this was a very important responsibility. According to you, she just didnāt want to go alone. Twenty minutes later, your theory was proven to be correct.
āYouāve been staring at these three games for like ten minutesā
Haejin gasped dramatically. āThis is a life changing decision.ā
āā¦Itās a birthday gift?āā
āāExactly.āā
You sighed and glanced around the store.
The place was busier than youād expected for a saturday afternoon. The game store was warm and slightly crowded, lined with shelves stacked with colorful game cases and collectibles. Bright lights reflected off display screens scattered throughout the store, while the faint sounds of racing games, button mashing, and excited conversations filled the air.
Groups of friends wandered between aisles, kids begged their parents to buy things and somewhere in the back of the store, a racing game played loudly through a set of speakers.
āāOh, what do i do? Haemin likes all of these.āā At this point, you were mostly waiting for Haejin to decide which game sheād buy for her brother so you could both leave. Then a familiar voice drifted across the store.
āāYou canāt blame me for that.āā
For a second, you thought youād imagined it but then another voice answered.
āāOh yes i can.āā
You turned your head slightly. Near the racing simulator setup stood two boys. One was sitting in the simulator, controller still in hand. The other stood beside him with his arms crossed. You recognized them immediately.
Seonghyeon and Keonho.
You simply stared. Not because seeing them was surprising, youāre sure many highschoolers come here.
Because seeing them like this was.
āāYou literally drove into me!āā Keonho blamed.
āāI didnāt-āā
āāYou did.āā
āāI barely touched you.āā
Keonho looked genuienly offended.
āāYou sent my car into a wall.āā
āāWell you suck at this game anyway.āā
A laugh escaped Seonghyeon.
Even after becoming friends with him, most of your conversations had happened between classes, in hallways, or during lunch breaks.
School Seonghyeon was confident, calm, and seemingly unbothered by everything. This version felt more relaxed, warm. More real. Like the moment he stepped outside school, some invisible pressure disappeared.
Beside you, Haejin finally noticed where your attention had gone. She looked at the two boys.
āNo way.ā
You already knew that tone.
āHaejin.ā
āNo way.ā
āHaejin.ā
āThatās Seonghyeon- and Keonho.āā
āI can see that.ā
She looked far too excited about this discovery. Fate apparently hated you because at that exact moment, Keonho looked up and spotted the two of you. His grin appeared instantly.
āOh, this is interesting.ā
Seonghyeon frowned.
āWhat?ā
Keonho tilted his head toward the entrance. Slowly, Seonghyeon turned around. For a brief moment, surprise flashed across his face. His eyes met yours. The first thing he did was smile, a genuine smile. Suddenly, becoming very interested in the floor seemed like a fantastic idea. Haejin had other plans. Before you could stop her, she grabbed your wrist and started walking.
āHaejin.ā
āNope.ā
āHaejin, come on-ā
āWeāre already committed.ā
āWe absolutely are not.ā
Across the store, you could hear Keonho laughing which somehow made everything worse. By the time the two of you have reached them, your dignity had already left the building.
āāY/n,āā Seonghyeon said.
The fact that he greeted you first did absolutely nothing to help.
āāHi.āā
Haejin meanwhile, had abandoned all subtlety.
āāWhat happened to fourth place?āā
Keonho immediately pointed at her.
āāTHANK YOU.āā
Seonghyeon closed his eyes briefly. āāYou are not helping.āā
āāYou came fourth?āā
You really couldnāt help asking. The look Seonghyeon gave you was almost enough to make you laugh, almost. Keonho looked delighted. Finally, someone was on his side. āYou see?ā he said, pointing at you. āEven y/n agrees.ā
āI didnāt agree with anything,ā you replied immediately.
āYou asked the question.ā
āThatās not the same thing.ā
āIt basically is.ā
āIt absolutely is not.ā
Seonghyeon looked exhausted.
āYou two are impossible.ā
The comment earned matching offended expressions from both you and Keonho which, unfortunately, only made Haejin laugh.
āWow,ā she said. āIāve never seen him lose an argument before.ā
āIām not losing.ā
āYou came fourth.ā
āI came fourth because somebody doesnāt know how to drive.ā
Keonho gasped.
The betrayal.
The audacity.
The complete disrespect.
For a second, the two of them resumed arguing while you stood there trying- and failing not to smile. It was strange. Before today, youād never really seen Seonghyeon with his friends. Not properly.
At school, people always seemed drawn to him. There was always someone talking to him, waving at him, asking him something. But this felt different, like it was more real, less intimidating.
āYou know,ā Seonghyeon said, glancing toward Keonho and Haejin, āI donāt think theyāre coming back.ā
You followed his gaze. Haejin was holding up two game cases while Keonho looked like he was defending his thesis.
āYeah.ā
āTheyāve been arguing about the same thing for like ten minutes.ā
āYou say that like you werenāt arguing over a racing game when I walked in.ā
Seonghyeon looked over.
āThat was different.ā
āWas it?āā
A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.
Neither of you said anything for a moment. You found yourself looking around the store instead, eyes moving over shelves packed with games you knew nothing about. Then Seonghyeon pointed toward one.
āHave you played that before?ā
You glanced at the cover.
āNo.ā
āWhat about that one?ā
āNo.ā
He pointed at another.
āNo.ā
Another.
āNo.ā
Seonghyeon stared at you.
āHave you ever had fun before?ā
You were slightly taken aback.
āExcuse me?ā
āIām trying to figure out why Haejin brought you to a game store.āā
āIām here to supervise.ā
To your surprise, he laughed.
Slowly, Your conversations started to flow naturally. It felt easier to talk to him. Maybe because it didnāt feel like talking to the cool guy everyone knew. Or the football player.
Just Seonghyeon.
Talking to him was becoming easier than talking to most people.
āYou owe me.ā
You looked up from your phone.
Across the lunch table, Haejin was staring at you expectantly.
āWhat?ā
āYou owe me.ā
ā..I donāt think I do.ā
āYou do.ā
You narrowed your eyes, then Haejin leaned forward.
āArenāt friends supposed to support each otherās interests?ā She gave you a cheeky smile.
āāMm..that depends.āā
āāOn what?āā
āWhether those interests involve dragging me somewhere against my will.ā
A look of betrayal crossed her face.
āWow.ā
āYou still havenāt told me where weāre going.ā
āHaejin.ā
She grinned. āWhat?ā
You gave her a knowing look before she finally decided to answer.
āThereās a football match after school.ā
You stared at her.
āSeriously? No.ā
The answer came so quickly that she looked offended.
āYou didnāt even think about it.ā
āI did.ā
āYou really didnāt.ā
āI absolutely did.ā
Haejin pointed at you.
āSee? This is exactly why I didnāt tell you sooner.ā
Unfortunately, that was how you found yourself sitting on the school bleachers three hours later, questioning every life decision that had led you to this moment. It seemed fun though.
The field was already crowded by the time you arrived.
Students filled up most of the seats, scattered in groups with friends, snacks and far more enthusiasm than you could ever relate to. The noise was conversations overlapping, people calling out to eachother, the occasional burst of laughter carrying across the field.
You adjusted your position on the bleachers and glanced around.
āThis is way more people than I expected.ā
āObviously,ā Haejin replied.
āWhy obviously?ā
She looked at you as if youād asked something ridiculous.
āItās the biggest match of the season.ā
āOh.ā
āYou didnāt know that either?ā
āNo.ā
Haejin sighed. Sometimes you genuinely worried about her blood pressure whenever she talked to you. The teams began gathering on the field below. A few students immediately started cheering. Others waved at friends playing.
You found yourself mostly observing, until a familiar figure stepped onto the field. The annoying thing was that you recognized him immediately. Not because of the jersey, not because he was standing the closest, your eyes had simply found him automatically.
You hated that, a lot.
Before he hit you with the football, Seonghyeon wouldāve blended into the crowd of players. Now he stood out immediately. The realization was embarrassing enough that you quickly had to look elsewhere.
When you looked back a few moments later, your eyes found him again. And again. And again. It was becoming a problem.
The whistle blew.
The game began.
At first, you paid attention out of politeness. Haejin had dragged you here, after all. The least you could do was pretend to care. A few minutes passed. Then ten. Then twenty. Somewhere along the way, you realized you were actually watching.
Not football.
Seonghyeon.
The thing was, youād never seen him like this before. At school, Seonghyeon always seemed relaxed and comfortable. The type of person who could walk into any room and immediately belong there. On the field, however, there was something different about him. He moved with an ease that made everything look effortless. Even from a distance, you could tell people listened when he spoke.
Teammates glanced toward him constantly. A few times, he called something out and everyone immediately adjusted. It was strange. Not because you hadnāt known he played football. Because youād never really thought about what that meant.
For the first time, you understood why so many people admired him. And for some reason, that realization made your stomach feel weird. Beside you, Haejin followed your gaze. Then smirked. You knew that smirk. It was never a good sign.
āWhat?ā
āNothing.ā
āHaejin.ā
āI didnāt say anything.ā
āYouāre thinking something.ā
āI am.ā
You groaned.
āPlease donāt.ā
The smirk only grew.
Thankfully, before she could speak, the crowd suddenly erupted around you. Cheers echoed across the bleachers. Students jumped to their feet. You blinked.
Apparently something had happened. Unfortunately, youād been too busy arguing with Haejin to notice.
āWhat happened?ā
Haejin stared at you, then at the field, then back at you.
āYou werenāt watching.ā
āI was.ā
āYou literally werenāt.ā
āWhat happened?ā
She pointed toward the field and you followed her gaze. Seonghyeon was jogging back toward the center, teammates crowding around him.
āOh.ā
āOh?ā Haejin repeated.
āHe scored.ā
āHe scored.ā
You nodded.
For some reason, a smile pulled at your lips. A small one. One you didnāt even notice until Haejin did. Her eyes widened immediately.
āWow.āā
Your smile disappeared.
āWhat?ā
āYou smiled.ā
āSo?ā
āYou smiled because he scored.ā
Heat immediately rose to your face. You felt your ears swell.
āNo i didnāt.ā
āYou did.ā
āI did not.ā
āYou absolutely did.ā
You looked away before she could continue. You werenāt entirely sure she was wrong. That realization lingered for the rest of the match. Long after the cheering died down. Long after the game resumed. Long after youād convinced yourself you were imagining things.
Because every time something happened on the field, your attention drifted toward the same person. Everytime he did something impressive, you felt strangely proud. As if youād somehow earned the right.
Which was absurd.
You were still trying to convince yourself of that when the final whistle blew. The crowd immediately came alive. Students began standing, gathering their things, and making their way toward the exits. Some headed toward the field. Others were already talking excitedly about the game.
You stayed seated. Mostly because moving required effort. Partly because Haejin had disappeared five minutes ago after spotting someone she knew. Youād just pulled out your phone when a shadow fell across you. You assumed it was Haejin. Then a familiar voice spoke.
āI need an unbiased opinion.ā
You looked up.
And immediately wished you hadnāt. Seonghyeon was standing there. Still wearing his uniform. Still slightly out of breath. His hair was damp from the game, falling messily across his forehead. For some reason, that bothered you.
Not because it looked bad, quite the opposite actually. Judging by the expression on his face, something had clearly bothered him.
āHello to you too.ā
āThat can wait-āā
You blinked.
āThatās sort of concerning.ā
āI was robbed.ā
A pause.
āāDidnāt you guys win?āā
āāThatās not the point.āā
āāFeels like a pretty important point.āā
Seonghyeon looked genuinely frustrated, his breathing was heavier since the game had ended.
āāThe referee was seriously against me.āā
You stared at him for several seconds before you shifted in your seat.
āāYouāre one of those people?āā
āāWhat?āā
āāThe people who blame the referee everytime something doesnāt go their way.āā
āāIt didnāt go my way.āā
āāWell, you won.āā
āāOf course i did.āā
You laughed, the reaction was immediate.
āāYou didnāt even pay attention.āā
āāI was.āā
āāNo you werenātāā
āāHow would you know?āā
āāBecause if you did, youād be angry too.āā
āāIām not emotionally invested enough to be angry.āā
The look he gave you suggested this was the wrong answer.
āOkay, imagine thisāā
āāOh-āā
āāI score.āā
āāYou score.āā
āāA beautiful score.āā
āāAccording to whom exactly?āā
āāEverybody.āā
āāMm.āā
āāThen the referee- whoās job is to observe accurately, calls it offside.āā
You considered this, then shrugged.
āāWell- maybe it was offside.āā
The betrayal on his face creeped up fast.
āāI swear it wasnāt.āā
āāWere you the referee?āā
āāNo.āā
āāThen how do you know?āā
For a moment, Seonghyeon simply stared at you, then he pointed accusingly.
āāYouāre terrible at this.āā
āāAt what?āā
āāAt being supportive.āā
āāYou wanted an unbiased opinion.āā
āāI wanted you to agree with me.āā
āāThatās not quite what unbiased means.āā
The corner of his mouth twitched. You knew he was competitive, he shot a football straight at you a few weeks ago.
āāYou know what? Nevermind.āā
You laughed again.
This time, Seonghyeon shook his head dramatically and dropped down to the bleacher seat in front of you. The field behind him remained crowded with players and students slowly making their way home. Voices carried across the evening air while coaches gathered equipment near the sidelines.
āYou stayed for the whole match.ā
The comment caught you off guard.
āWhat?ā
āThe whole thing.ā
He leaned back slightly.
āI thought youād get bored and leave.ā
You narrowed your eyes.
āYou have a very low opinion of me.ā
āI watched you spend twenty minutes in a game store staring at absolutely nothing.ā
āI was being supportive.ā
āYou were wandering.ā
āI was observing.ā
āYou were probably lost.ā
āI knew exactly where I was.ā
āSure.ā
You hated how satisfied he looked, with a smile to follow up on. His smile was genuine, like you could argue about anything- and it would still feel like you won, simply because he gave you that smile.
Then again, you hated how often he made you laugh. Before either of you could continue, a voice called from somewhere behind him.
āSeonghyeon!ā
You looked up automatically.
A girl was jogging across the field toward the two of you, a bottle of water in one hand. She couldnāt have been much older than you. She looked pretty, and confident. The type of person who seemed completely comfortable talking to anyone. The type of person you immediately disliked for absolutely no reason.
She stopped beside him and held out the bottle. āYou left this.ā
āOh.ā Seonghyeon took it.
āThanks.ā
The interaction was completely normal.
The girl smiled. āNo problem.ā
Then she started talking, and Seonghyeon talked back. Which again, was normal. Because why wouldnāt he? But as you stood there listening to their conversation, a strange feeling settled in your chest. One you didnāt particularly like. The girl seemed familiar with him, she was comfortable like this wasnāt the first time theyād spoken. Obviously it wasnāt, Seonghyeon knew everyone. You already knew that.
Still, you found yourself looking away. Suddenly very interested in fixing the strap of your bag.
āYou coming to practice on monday?ā the girl asked.
āYeah.ā
āGood.ā She grinned.
āCoach wouldāve killed you if you missed it.ā
Seonghyeon laughed. The same laugh youād spent the last few weeks becoming far too fond of. Hearing it now felt different, a little less special.
Youād never thought it was special. Not really. Right? The realization hit, maybe that was the problem. You had.
At some point, without noticing, youād started treating every conversation with Seonghyeon like it meant something. When in reality this was just who he was. He was friendly, easy to talk to. He was comfortable around everyone.
The girl finally glanced toward you.
āOh.ā
For a second, she looked between the two of you then smiled politely.
āHi.ā
āHi.ā
The conversation lasted another minute or two.
You werenāt really paying attention anymore because the stupid feeling in your chest had only gotten worse. Thankfully, someone else called Seonghyeonās name from across the field. A teammate this time.
āSeonghyeon!ā
He looked over, then back at you.
āI should probably go.ā
The words were simple and harmless, but for some reason they felt disappointing.
āYeah,ā you said.
āSee you monday?ā
You smiled, disingeniously.
āSee you.ā
The second he stood up and walked away, you knew something was wrong. Not with him, but with you. You spent the entire walk home thinking about a conversation that hadnāt even involved you. You replayed everything, the exchanged conversation, his gaze, his laughter. You replayed him.
The realization irritated you more than anything else. It wasnāt as if Seonghyeon had done something particularly memorable. Heād talked to a teammate, thatās all. The interaction had been completely normal, yet somehow your brain insisted on revisiting it every few hours like there was some hidden meaning youād failed to uncover the first time around.
By monday morning, youād become so annoyed with yourself that youād practically banned yourself from thinking about him altogether. Unfortunately, that lasted less than a day.
School carried on as usual. Teachers assigned work, students complained about it, and Haejin continued collecting gossip the way other people collected hobbies, which was admirable really. Everything felt normal. At least until the end of third period.
Your teacher had been gathering her things when she suddenly bent down and picked something up from beside one of the desks near the front of the classroom. It was a dark grey hoodie, slightly oversized and folded in on itself as if somebody had shoved it underneath a chair and forgotten about it.
āDid someone leave this behind?ā she asked, holding it up.
A few students glanced over before immediately losing interest, you looked up too and knew exactly who it belonged to.
The answer came so quickly that you didnāt even question it at first. Seonghyeon. There wasnāt a moment of hesitation, you simply looked at the hoodie and knew.
Maybe it was because youād seen him wearing it countless times over the past few weeks. Maybe it was because it had become one of those things your brain automatically associated with him. Whatever the reason, the certainty came naturally enough that you barely thought twice about it.
Then somebody behind you spoke.
āOh, thatās Seonghyeonās.ā
Somehow, it felt odd. It wasnāt because theyād confirmed it, it was more so because they hadnāt told you anything you didnāt already know.
The rest of the class moved on immediately. The teacher placed the hoodie on her desk, someone made a joke and within seconds everyone was talking about something else. Everyone except you.
For some reason, that insignificant moment refused to leave your head. You spent the next hour trying to convince yourself it meant nothing. It was just a hoodie. People recognized each otherās belongings all the time. There was really nothing strange about it.
The argument wouldāve been much more convincing if you hadnāt immediately noticed he wasnāt wearing it during lunch. The realization hit you before you even saw his face.
Your eyes found him automatically across the cafeteria surrounded by Keonho, Martin, James and Juhoon, the same group of friends he was always with. The first thing your brain registered wasnāt the conversation he was having or the fact that Keonho was laughing at something.
It was the absence of the hoodie. Thatās why he looks different. You seriously didnāt like this, you in fact hated it. Seonghyeon, whom you hadnāt bat an eye on two months ago had occupied your mind the past four days. It was torture, simply because you refused to accept the thoughts. You denied everything, you brushed everything off and went about your day.
The following morning started with a problem. Not a particularly serious one, nor one that should have occupied more than a few seconds of your time, yet somehow you found yourself standing in front of your bedroom mirror far longer than necessary. Youād already finished getting ready.
Your makeup was done, your uniform was on, your bag was packed and waiting by the door. By all accounts, you shouldāve been downstairs eating breakfast. Instead, you were still there staring at your reflection as if it had personally offended you. Something felt wrong.
The frustrating part was that you couldnāt figure out what. Your hair looked fine, more than fine actually. You had spent enough time on it to ensure that. Yet your hand still reached up to smooth down a strand near your cheek before stepping back again.
A few seconds later you found yourself leaning toward the mirror adjusting something else, then immediately questioning whether it had looked better before. The cycle repeated itself often enough that by the time you finally checked the clock, nearly fifteen minutes had disappeared. You frowned. That couldnāt be right.
Normally, getting ready in the morning wasnāt something you thought much about. You liked looking presentable and usually put effort into your appearance, but there was a difference between effort and whatever this was. This felt suspiciously close to perfectionism, except there was nothing to perfect.
Every time you fixed one thing, your eyes immediately found something else to focus on. A different hairstyle. A little more lip tint. Maybe a different pair of earrings. None of the changes were dramatic enough for anyone else to notice, but you noticed them, and apparently that was enough to keep you rooted in front of the mirror like an idiot.
Moments later, your phone buzzed. Haejin was texting you.
HAEJIN
Overslept.
Canāt make it to first period.
Meet you second periodš“
Haejin was a bit careless when it came to school. You donāt think itās on purpose, she just doesnāt see the need to wake up at 7:30 AM for merely first period. She makes it so justifiable, so you guess you could see it from her perspective, however not today. Today, was an important day.
By the time first period began, you were already feeling self aware. Now, instead of sitting beside your best friend, you found yourself alone at your desk while the teacher droned on at the front of the classroom. The seat beside you remained empty, which felt strangely noticeable. Haejin had a way of filling every space she occupied, and without her there the morning seemed significantly quieter.
When the bell finally rang, you gathered your things and stepped into the hallway with no particular destination in mind. Your next class was on the opposite side of the building, leaving you with more than enough time to get there. Normally, you would have spent the break with Haejin. Today however, you found yourself wandering alone through the crowded hallways.
āY/n, hey.āā
The familiar voice made you turn immediately.
Seonghyeon stood a few feet away, one strap of his backpack slung over his shoulder. For a moment, your brain supplied an extremely unhelpful thought.
Did he notice?
You hated yourself instantly.
Notice what?
Your hair?
Your makeup?
The fact that youād spent half your morning acting like a love island contestant? Thankfully, Seonghyeon seemed completely unaware of the spiraling thoughts currently unfolding.
āHaejinās late,ā you explained before he could ask. Before you could think of a more logical answer, like a simple hey.
Seriously?
What does Haejin have to do with this?
Why would he care?
Seonghyeon almost surpressed his reaction.
āāOh- right.āā
He was confused. Did you think he approached you to talk to Haejin? He didnāt read much into it though.
However, he did notice something was different about you today.
At first, he couldnāt figure out what it was.
Maybe your hair looked different. Maybe your makeup. Whatever it was, it gave you a slightly softer appearance than usual. Not dramatically different, just enough to make him pause for a second longer than normal.
āYou look tiredā he said instead.
You stared at him. Of all the things he couldāve said.
āTired?ā
āYeah.ā
A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.
āDidnāt sleep?ā
The betrayal you felt was immediate. You had spent an embarrassing amount of time getting ready this morning. An embarrassing amount. And somehow the only conclusion heād reached was that you looked tired. For a brief moment, you considered pushing him down the nearest staircase.
āThatās offensive.ā
His eyebrows lifted slightly.
āWhat?ā
āNothing.ā
āNo, tell me.ā
āIām choosing peace.ā
Seonghyeon laughed.
Unfortunately, the sound did absolutely nothing to improve your mood. If anything, it made it worse. Because now all you could think about was the twenty minutes youād wasted staring at yourself in the mirror. The universe clearly had a sense of humor.
āYou look fine, by the way.ā
The comment was casual. So casual that he probably didnāt think twice about saying it. You however, nearly forgot how to function. Before you could respond, Martin called Seonghyeonās name from farther down the hallway. He looked over his shoulder, then back at you.
āIāll see you later.ā And just like that, he was gone.
Leaving you standing in the middle of the hallway wondering why two completely harmless words had managed to ruin the rest of your morning. The rest of the day passed surprisingly quickly after that.
Haejin eventually arrived halfway through second period carrying the same energy she always did, immediately filling the empty space beside you with stories, complaints and dramatic retellings of how she had supposedly fallen victim to circumstances completely beyond her control.
According to her, the blame rested entirely on a combination of faulty alarms, unfair school schedules and a universe that seemed personally determined to make her suffer.
āI woke up and it was 9:12.ā
āYou start at 8:30.ā
āExactly.ā
āThatās doesnāt quite help.ā Haejin pouted.
The rest of the day continued pretty much the same way. Haejin spent most of her time insisting she was being unfairly persecuted by the education system. By the final bell, you had almost forgotten about the awkward interaction from that morning. Almost. Unfortunately, while you were fully prepared to go home, Haejin apparently had other plans.
āIāll be two minutes.ā
āYou said that fifteen minutes ago.ā
āThis time I mean it.ā
āYou also meant it last time.ā
Ignoring you entirely, she disappeared back into the building after being stopped by a teacher regarding an assignment she had forgotten to submit. So you waited.
The afternoon air was cool, carrying the familiar sounds of students lingering around school grounds before heading home.
Groups gathered near the entrance, conversations overlapping as people delayed going home for as long as possible. You had been scrolling through your phone for several minutes when a football rolled across the pavement a few meters away. Your eyes followed it automatically.
Several members of the football team had gathered near the edge of the courtyard, passing time before practice. Some were kicking a ball around while others leaned against a nearby fence talking amongst themselves. The sight wouldāve gone largely unnoticed if Haejin hadnāt finally emerged from the building at that exact moment.
āOh.ā
āWhat?ā
Her eyes lit up. āKeonhoās here.ā
Before you could stop her, sheād already started walking.
āHaejin.ā
No response.
āHaejin.ā
Still nothing.
Sometimes you genuinely believed she could hear only the things she wanted to hear. Unfortunately, Keonho seemed equally enthusiastic. A few minutes later, the two of them had somehow dragged everyone into the same conversation.
You werenāt entirely sure how it happened. One moment you were waiting for Haejin, the next you were standing in a loose circle listening to Keonho passionately argue that football players deserved special treatment during exam season.
āYou kick a ball around.ā
āThatās not all we do.ā
āThatās literally what football is.ā Seonghyeon let out a faint laugh. Keonho pointed at him immediately.
āSee? He understands.ā
āI didnāt say anything.ā
āYour silence supports me.ā
The conversation drifted from one topic to another after that. Homework became complaints about teachers, which somehow turned into stories from middle school and then an argument over who had the worst attendance record. At some point, Keonho glanced toward Seonghyeon.
āActually, speaking of people abandoning their friends.ā Seonghyeon already looked tired.
āYou spend more time talking to y/n than you do with me nowadays.ā
The comment earned a laugh from Haejin. You wished it hadnāt, because now everyone was looking at the two of you. Seonghyeon meanwhile, seemed completely unaffected.
āYouāre being dramatic.ā
āIām serious.ā
For a second, Keonho gestured vaguely between the two of you as though presenting evidence to a jury. The response came easily. Without hesitation. Without even a second of thought.
āSheās my friend.ā
The following morning began with rain.
Not the kind that belonged in movies, where people stared moodily out of windows while life changing realizations unfolded in the background. This was ordinary rain. Annoying rain. The sort that turned sidewalks slippery and made umbrellas feel completely useless because somehow you still ended up getting wet anyway.
By the time you arrived at school, your shoes were damp, your patience was gone and Haejin was already waiting by the entrance looking personally offended by the weather. She immediately launched into a five minute rant about how rain should be illegal before eight in the morning, only pausing long enough to complain about an upcoming assignment and the fact that she had forgotten to study for a quiz she apparently hadnāt known existed until fifteen minutes ago.
The conversation continued all the way to class. Then through first period. Then through half of second period. That was one of the things you liked most about Haejin. Being around her left very little room for overthinking. Unfortunately not no room, just very little.
The thought arrived sometime during lunch. You were sitting across from Haejin while she attempted to convince three people that she deserved compensation for having to wake up before sunrise every day. Around you, the cafeteria buzzed with the usual noise of conversations, laughter and the occasional argument over stolen food. It was normal. Completely normal.
Yet for some reason, you found yourself looking up whenever the doors opened. The first time, you didnāt think much of it. The second time, you barely noticed. The third time however, you caught yourself doing it and immediately looked back down at your food. That was strange. You frowned slightly.
Because you knew exactly what you had been looking for. Or rather, who. The thought irritated you far more than it should have. The problem was that it happened automatically. You had not consciously wondered where Seonghyeon was. You hadnāt been sitting there waiting for him to appear. Your eyes had simply searched the room on their own before your brain had the chance to stop them. Annoying. Deeply annoying. Across from you, Haejin paused mid-sentence.
āā¦Why do you look angry?ā
āIām not angry.ā
āYou look like it.ā
āIām thinking.ā
āThat explains nothing.ā
You stabbed a french fry with considerably more force than necessary. Haejin narrowed her eyes immediately. Never a good sign.
āWhat happened?ā
āNothing.ā
āThatās a lie.ā
āIt isnāt.ā
āIt literally is.ā
You sighed. The problem with having a best friend for years was that they became impossible to fool.
āYou know,ā Haejin continued, leaning back in her chair āmost people donāt glare at potatoes unless something is bothering them.ā
For a brief moment, you considered telling her. Not everything. Then immediately decided against it. Mostly because hearing your thoughts out loud would somehow make the situation significantly worse, and because deep down there was a part of you that already knew exactly what Haejin would say. The problem was that you werenāt entirely sure you wanted to hear it.
If someone had asked Seonghyeon whether anything had changed over the past couple of weeks, he probably wouldāve said no.
Life looked exactly the same as it always had. Football practice continued to consume most of his afternoons and Keonho remained committed to making every situation at least twice as loud as necessary. The days blended together in the way school days often did. One class became another. One week became the next. Nothing particularly significant seemed to happen. At least, that was what he thought.
The realization didnāt arrive all at once. It wasnāt grand. It wasnāt even particularly noticeable at first. Instead, it appeared in small moments and then disappeared again before he could properly think about it. A hallway conversation that felt strangely short. An empty seat during lunch that shouldnāt have mattered. The first few times, he ignored it. By the tenth, it was becoming difficult to.
Thursday afternoon found him sitting through one of the most painfully boring lessons of the semester. Even the teacher seemed tired of listening to himself speak. Around the classroom, students had long since given up pretending to pay attention. Some were doodling in notebooks, others were staring blankly out windows, and James had somehow managed to fall asleep while sitting upright. Honestly, it was impressive.
Seonghyeonās attention had drifted somewhere around twenty minutes earlier. His notebook remained open in front of him, untouched except for a few half finished notes written without much thought behind them. He wasnāt really looking at anything in particular when the teacher suddenly stopped speaking and sighed.
āSince nobody seems interested in participating today, letās try something easier.ā
Immediately, several students sat up. The word easier had that effect.
The teacher began asking questions instead, pointing at different students around the room whenever he needed an answer. Most people responded with varying levels of enthusiasm. Some answered correctly. Others guessed. One student somehow managed to produce an answer so incorrect that the entire class burst out laughing. Including Seonghyeon. For some reason, the moment reminded him of y/n. The thought appeared so unexpectedly that he almost frowned.
It wasnāt even a specific memory. Just a vague association. Something about the expression she wouldāve made if sheād heard the answer. The way she tried not to laugh when she found something funny. The way she usually looked away immediately afterward as if being caught smiling was somehow embarrassing. For a second, he found himself glancing toward the row she usually sat in. Then paused, because that was strange. He hadnāt spoken to y/n properly in what felt like ages. It didnāt make sense.
A few weeks ago, running into her had somehow become normal. Conversations before class. Conversations after class. Random interactions in hallways that stretched far longer than either of them intended. Nothing major. Just enough that heād stopped noticing when they happened.
Now he was noticing when they didnāt. The thought lingered for the rest of the lesson. Then followed him into the hallway. Then all the way to lunch. By the time football practice started, he still hadnāt managed to shake it. People got busy, that was all. School happened, life happened. There was no reason to think about it this much.
Unfortunately, that explanation became slightly harder to believe when he realized he couldnāt remember the last actual conversation theyāve had.
Instead, he found himself standing on the edge of the football field staring at absolutely nothing while the rest of the team warmed up around him.
āEarth to Seonghyeon.ā
Martinās voice snapped him out of it.
āWhat?ā
āYouāve been staring at the same patch of grass for thirty seconds.ā
Seonghyeon blinked.
Had he? Apparently. Keonho narrowed his eyes immediately.
āWhat are you thinking about?ā
āNothing.ā
āLiar.ā
Seonghyeon didnāt understand why he had thought about it this much. He wasnāt the type to. Heād logically examine situations, come up with a logical answer and move on with his day. Somehow this was different, yet he couldnāt pinpoint why.
Keonho had never been the type of person to let things go. In fact, if Seonghyeon had to describe him using a single phrase, it would probably be incapable of minding his own business. The moment practice ended, Keonhoās attention returned to the subject with the determination of somebody investigating a crime.
At first, Seonghyeon didnāt even realize it was happening. The team had just finished collecting equipment, everyone moving around the field in various states of exhaustion while the sun slowly disappeared behind the school buildings. Conversations overlapped from every direction.
Somebody was complaining about the coach, somebody else was arguing about where to eat afterward and a football rolled across the grass before being kicked back toward a storage cart. Everything felt normal. Until Keonho appeared beside him. That wasnāt unusual. The fact that he remained there in complete silence however, definitely was.
For several seconds he simply walked beside him without saying anything. Coming from Keonho, that was concerning enough on its own. When Seonghyeon finally glanced over, he immediately regretted it. Keonho was already staring at him. āWhy are you looking at me like that?ā Seonghyeon asked.
āIām thinking.ā
A sigh escaped him. The evening air had turned noticeably cooler now, students gradually filtering away from the field in small groups as the noise around them slowly faded into the distance. For a brief moment it almost seemed like Keonho might finally drop the subject. Then he spoke again.
āYou know what I think?ā
āNo.ā
āI think youāre lying.ā
Seonghyeon barely reacted. Mostly because this conversation happened at least three times a week.
āAbout what?ā
āI donāt know yet.ā
The answer was so stupid that a laugh almost escaped him.
āNo, seriously.ā Keonho adjusted the strap of his bag before continuing. āYouāve been zoning out lately.ā
That got his attention. It wasnāt the first time heād heard something similar. Over the past week different people had made almost identical observations often enough that it was becoming difficult to ignore. Martin had asked whether he was tired. His mother had asked whether something was bothering him. Even the coach had commented on him being distracted during practice yesterday.
At the time Seonghyeon had brushed all of it off. Now however, standing on the sidewalk outside the school while Keonho kicked absentmindedly at loose gravel beside him, he found himself wondering whether they all had a point.
The problem was that he couldnāt figure out what exactly was different. Or rather, he could. He just didnāt particularly like the answer. Because every time he started pulling at the loose thread of the thought, it somehow led back to the same place. The same person. The same question. When was the last time heād actually talked to y/n?
Not seen her. Not waved at her from the other end of a hallway. Talked to her, a proper conversation. The answer shouldāve come immediately. Instead, he found himself drawing a blank.
And for reasons he couldnāt explain, that really bothered him.
By the time he got home later that evening, dropped his bag beside the door and collapsed onto his bed, the thought was still there. Which was annoying, because he had homework to finish and football practice again tomorrow. He had significantly more important things to think about. Yet somehow, while staring at the ceiling of his room, his mind drifted back to the same thing. He dug deep into his thoughts.
The first time was almost laughably insignificant. Class had just ended, and students were spilling into the hallways at every direction. Seonghyeon had been halfway through putting his books away when he spotted y/n a little farther down the corridor.
She was standing beside her locker, listening to something Haejin was saying. Or rather, dramatically performing. Haejinās hands were moving so aggressively that even from a distance it looked less like a conversation and more like an emergency press conference.
Without really thinking about it, Seonghyeon started heading that way.
Then suddenly y/n grabbed Haejin by the wrist and dragged her around the corner. Gone. Seonghyeon stopped walking, he had simply stared at the space where sheād been stadning.
āāWhy are you just standing there?āā
He looked over and Juhoon was staring at him.
āāNothing-āā
Juhoon looked unconvinced.
The second time happened during lunch, Seonghyeon had just entered the cafeteria when he noticed y/n sitting at her usual table. For some reason, the sight made him smile.
He grabbed his tray and joined his friends. Halfway through Jamesās completely unecessary rant about him having to balance both the exams- since heās a few years older, and football practice, Seonghyeon glanced across the cafeteria again.
The seat was empty, he frowned.
āāHow dare they stack up on exams the second football season gets serious? I canāt be expected to memorize biology and score goals.āā
Yeah that was just background noise for Seonghyeon.
The third time was when it had actually started bothering him. School had ended, and the campus was filled by students and chatter. Seonghyeon, Keonho, Juhoon, Martin and James stood in front of the school, talking while Martin shot the basketball into the hoop continuously.
Suddenly, he spotted y/n coming out of the main entrance. She was carrying a bag over her shoulder, already heading toward the front gate. He considered calling her name, the thought had appeared automatically. Then he paused. Because that would be weird, wouldnāt it? He wasnāt even sure what he wouldāve said. Hey? Hello? Why have we apparently forgotten how to exist in the same space lately?
Before he could decide, a group of guys crossed between them. By the time they passed, she had already disappeared around the corner. That annoyed him.
He found himself looking for her the next day. Which felt ridiculous, thatās what he told himself while scanning the cafeteria without realizing he was doing it. He didnāt understand why it had bothered him so much.
Everytime he looked up, she seemed to walk the other way. He couldāve sworn she stood wherever he saw her, then poof sheās gone again. He missed talking to her. The more he thought about it, the more he realized y/n hadnāt actually disappeared. She was still around.
The strange thing about time was that it continued moving whether you wanted it to or not.
A few weeks ago, youād convinced yourself that liking Seonghyeon was some life altering catastrophe. Every conversation felt important. Every interaction lingered longer than it should have. Youād spent an embarrassing amount of energy thinking about things that in hindsight, probably didnāt deserve nearly that much attention.
Now however, life had begun settling back into place. It wasnāt really because your feelings had disappeared, they hadnāt. You still liked him, that much obvious.
The difference was that it felt like your entire existence no longer revolved around it. Somehow, focusing on all ordinary frustrations had made everything else feel smaller. For the first time in a while, you felt like yourself again, which was probably why you agreed to help one of your teachers after class.
It seemed harmless enough at the time. It was just a simple favour, five minutes of your time. Unfortunately, teachers had a very different understanding of the word simple. Twenty minutes later, you found yourself carrying what felt like the entire contents of a storage room through one of the academic buildings.
A stack of folders was balanced precariously against your chest, several textbooks were tucked underneath one arm and a plastic container filled with miscellaneous classroom supplies kept threatening to slide out of your grasp every time you took a step.
You couldnāt see properly.
You couldnāt walk properly.
You were beginning to suspect your teacher had deliberately chosen you because you looked too polite to say no.
The hallway itself was mostly empty. Classes had ended nearly half an hour ago, leaving only the occasional student lingering behind for clubs, sports or whatever mysterious activities seemed to keep people at school long after everyone else had gone home. The combination of limited visibility and questionable balance meant you didnāt notice someone approaching from the opposite direction.
Not until it was too late.
The collision wasnāt dramatic, nobofy went flying across the hallway, well just the stack of folders that immediately tilted sideways, and the plastic container that slipped- oh and a pencil case launched itself onto the floor.
And before you could react, several sheets of paper had already escaped and scattered across the hallway like they were making a run for freedom. For one dreadful second, you simply stood there staring. Of course this was happening. Then a voice spoke.
āWhoa.ā
You froze. Slowly, you looked up.
Seonghyeon looked just as surprised as you felt, then he looked down at the disaster surrounding your feet. Then back up at you. Then back down again. A smile appeared.
āDonāt.ā
āIām not saying anything.ā
āYouāre thinking something.ā
āI am.ā
You sighed.
āGreat.ā
The smile widened slightly.
Without another word, he crouched down and began gathering the papers scattered across the floor.
You hated how familiar the sight felt.
A few months ago, seeing Eom Seonghyeon kneeling on a hallway floor collecting your homework wouldāve felt absurd. Now it barely registered as unusual. Together, the two of you began collecting the mess. Most of it in silence. The kind that had somehow become normal between you before either of you noticed.
The strange thing was that for the first time in weeks, you werenāt hyperaware of him. You werenāt overthinking every word, you werenāt wondering what something meant. You were simply trying to stop your papers from disappearing underneath a nearby vending machine.
āYou know,ā Seonghyeon said eventually, handing over another folder āfor somebody who was late because of a pen, I feel like this tracks.ā
You stared at him then immediately groaned.
āNo.ā
āOh, yes.ā
āThat happened once.ā
āYou were defeated by a mere pen.ā
āI wasnāt defeated.ā
āYou absolutely were.ā
To your annoyance, a laugh escaped before you could stop it. The sound earned a grin from him. The folders had been restacked, the notebooks gathered and the loose papers that had scattered across half the hallway had been retrieved. Only one sheet remained. It had drifted farther than the others. The hallway itself had grown noticeably quieter during the few minutes.
You moved first, or atleast you thought you did. The second you stepped forward, Seonghyeon did too. The realization seemed to hit both of you simultaneously. You stopped, he stopped. The paper remained exactly where it was.
āāGo ahead.āā
You looked up.
āāWhat?āā
āāYou saw it first.āā
āāNo i didnātāā
āāYou did.āā
āāI was being polite.āā
āāYouāre never polite.āā
The response left his mouth so quickly that he seemed to realize what he had said only afterward. You stared at him, and he stared back. Then a smile appeared, it was small. The kind that always seemed to show up before he could stop it.
āāYou know what i mean.āā
āāDo i?āā
āāNo.āā
You smiled- it was stupid. You loved the conversations, you missed them. Both of you moved at the same time again. The result was immediate. Your shoulders bumped together.
āāOw.āā
You immediately laughed in shock. He was being dramatic, it was a small bump.
The past few weeks suddenly seemed a little ridiculous. Seonghyeon spent so much time wondering why something felt off only to discover the answer was embarrassingly simple. Heād missed this aswell.
Haejin had never been particularly interested in making your life easier. The first sign of trouble appeared at exactly 5:34 PM on a Saturday.
Your phone buzzed.
Haejin
Can i come overrrr~
You stared at the message. Of course she could, rather it was weird she didnāt show up at your door to ask that.
You
obv
Three dots appeared almost immediately.
Haejin
keonho is coming too apparently
You
Oh
Why?
Haejin
because heās annoying and wonāt leave me alone
he just texted me
heās already on the bus
Before you could gather your thoughts to respond, another message arrived.
Haejin
oh Seonghyeonās coming too
You nearly dropped your phone.
The thirty minutes Haejin had promised turned into forty three. Not that you were counting. You absolutely werenāt. The problem was that once somebody informed you that Haejin, Keonho and more importantly- Seonghyeon would be entering your house, suddenly every insignificant detail became a problem.
The blanket draped over the couch looked wrong. The cushions looked wrong. The stack of books sitting on the coffee table looked wrong. Even the framed photo sitting on the shelf near the television somehow looked wrong despite having remained in the exact same position for nearly three years. You were in the middle of rearranging the cushions for the third time when a voice spoke from behind you.
āāIs Haejin coming over?āā
Your mother stood in the doorway between the kitchen and living room. Her eyes moved from you to the perfectly arranged couch, then to the freshly folded blanket, then to the coffee table youād wiped down approximately fifteen minutes ago.
You nodded, before following it up.
āāAnd two other friends.āā
āāThatās fine- Should i go make something? A snackplate? Cut up some fruits?āā
āāNo, thatās okay.āā
The doorbell rang. The sound practically echoed throughout the house. The second your hand touched the doorknob, you could swear your heart dropped, like seriously. The door opened, and Haejin immediately walked inside without waiting for an invitation.
āāHello to you too.āā You said.
āāThank you.āā
āāWhat?āā
Behind her came Keonho, then Seonghyeon.
For some reason, seeing him standing on your doorstep felt stranger than seeing him anywhere else. Maybe because heās become so firmly associated with school that your brain momentarily struggled to place him here. There was no football field, no hallway. Just your front porch, and Seonghyeon standing on it looking mildly uncomfortable beneath your scrunity. There was a long pause, it felt awkward.
āāHi.āā
Immediately, you wanted to throw yourself into traffic. It was a groundbreaking greeting, really. Thankfully, Seonghyeon wasnāt much better.
āāHi.āā
Behind him, Keonho sighed dramatically. āāThis is painful.āā
The two of them stepped inside while Haejin continued acting like she had lived there for years. Almost immediately, your mother appeared from the kitchen.
āāHello, dear.āā
āāHi!āā
The response came so naturally that it sounded like a part of a routine they had performed hundreds of times before. Then your mother looked toward the boys. Before Seonghyeon could do anything, Keonho stepped forward.
āāIām Keonho,āā
āāNice to meet you.āā
āāAnd thatās Seonghyeon.āā
A brief silence followed. Seonghyeon looked over, Keonho looked back.
āāI can introduce myself.āā
āāYou were taking too long.āā
āāYou spoke first.āā
āāExactly.āā
Your mother laughed.
āāItās nice to meet both of you.āā
āāNice to meet you too.āā Seonghyeon replied, then bowed out of respect, Keonho followed. Hearing him speak to your mother felt oddly surreal. Your mother smiled politely.
The second everyone made it upstairs, the energy somehow shifted.
Maybe it was because school had become such a permanent backdrop to all of your interactions that seeing those same people inside your house felt strangely unnatural. Haejin immediately made herself comfortable. Keonho wasnāt much better.
He wandered around without shame, examining random objects on your shelves with the confidence of somebody who had been granted permission despite the fact nobody had actually given him any. Meanwhile, you found yourself standing near your desk, suddenly hyperaware of everything around you.
The room wasnāt messy. That wasnāt the problem. The problem was that it was yours.
School only allowed people to know certain versions of each other. Hallway conversations. Lunch breaks. Shared classes. Small pieces. Nobody saw what happened outside of that. Nobody saw your room at midnight when you were studying for exams. Nobody saw the stuff lying on your vanity or the old concert tickets tucked into your mirror frame. Nobody saw the photos you had forgotten were hanging on the wall until this exact moment.
And Seonghyeon seemed to notice everything.
Not in an obvious way. He wasnāt walking around inspecting things. If anything, he seemed quieter than usual. While Keonho was busy making himself at home and Haejin was already flopped across your bed scrolling through her phone, Seonghyeonās gaze occasionally drifted around the room before moving elsewhere again. Small observations. Brief glances. Yet somehow those felt worse. You couldnāt tell whether he was actually paying attention or whether your brain was simply inventing reasons to be nervous.
āYou definitely cleaned.ā
You immediately looked at Haejin.
āNo.ā
āYes you did.ā
āI didnāt.ā
āYou moved something.ā
āI didnāt.ā
Haejinās eyes slowly travelled across the room.
āThe cushions downstairs.ā
You hated her.
The smile spreading across her face told you sheād won.
āOh my god. You did move the cushions.ā
āI hate talking to you.ā
From somewhere beside the bookshelf, a laugh escaped Keonho.
āYou cleaned for us?ā
āIt wasnāt for you.ā
The room fell silent for half a second before Haejin started laughing because of Keonhoās reaction. The next hour passed surprisingly quickly. Conversations drifted from one topic to another without much direction. Somebody brought up an old teacher. That somehow became a discussion about embarrassing middle school memories. Then football. Then exams. Then an argument, nobody actually cared about the answer. The argument continued anyway.
At some point, somebody stole your blanket. At some point, Keonho and Haejin became invested in a debate so stupid that the original topic had long since been forgotten.
āYou are fundamentally misunderstanding the point.ā
āI understand it perfectly.ā
āNo, you donāt.ā
āYouāre just wrong.ā
āIām always right.ā
āThatās not how opinions work.ā
Watching them argue was a bit like watching two people accidentally start a fire and then continue pouring gasoline on it.
Eventually, they ended up sitting on the floor near your television, completely absorbed in whatever nonsense they were discussing now. For the first time all afternoon, the room became quieter. You were sitting near the edge of your bed, scrolling through your phone while the sound of Haejin and Keonho arguing faded into the background. Beside you, Seonghyeon sat comfortably against the wall. Neither of you were really speaking.
The silence wasnāt awkward. A few months ago, silence between you wouldāve felt unbearable. Now it barely registered. You scrolled past an old photo without thinking, then immediately scrolled back. A small laugh escaped you.
āWhat?ā
You glanced up.
āNothing.ā
āThatās never true.ā
You looked back down at the screen.
āIt was from middle school.ā
āLet me see.ā
Without thinking, you handed him your phone but the second you did, you regretted it. Because the photo was awful. Seonghyeon looked at the screen, then looked at you. He smiled.
āWhat?ā His smile widened.
āYou look twelve.ā
āI was twelve.ā
āYou look younger than twelve.ā
āGive it back.ā
You reached for the phone. At the exact same moment he pulled it slightly away, your hand brushed against his. The movement was tiny, it was barely anything. Yet both of you froze for a second. The noise from the rest of the room suddenly felt strangely distant. You werenāt sure why, it was stupid. People accidentally touched hands all the time, nothing shouldāve happened.
Then Seonghyeon handed the phone back.
And somewhere across the room, Haejin suddenly yelled:
āTHATāS LITERALLY NOT WHAT I SAID.ā
Seonghyeon didnāt realize he was still thinking about it until he walked straight into his bedroom door. The impact wasnāt hard enough to hurt, but it was embarrassing enough that he immediately looked around despite being completely alone. A second later he let out a quiet groan and rubbed a hand over his face.
A few minutes later after showering and changing into comfortable clothes, he found himself sitting on the edge of his bed with a towel draped around his neck. His phone had been abandoned somewhere beside him. Downstairs, he could faintly hear the television playing. Everything felt normal. The day was over. There was absolutely no reason for him to still be thinking about it.
Nothing important had happened. They had gone to y/nās house, wasted an entire afternoon doing nothing productive, listened to Keonho and Haejin argue about things neither of them cared enough to remember and eventually gone home. That was it. Yet every time Seonghyeon tried focusing on something else, his mind drifted right back there again.
The strangest part wasnāt that he had seen y/nās room for the first time. It wasnāt even that he had spent several hours with her outside of school. It was the fact that every new thing he had learned about her somehow felt oddly expected. Not because he knew those things already, but because they fit.
The way everything looked slightly messy until you paid attention and realized there was a system behind it. Even the way sheād reacted whenever somebody pointed something out. Half embarrassed. Half annoyed. Like she wanted people to know her but only on her own terms.
A quiet laugh escaped him before he could stop it. He could already imagine how offended sheād be if she knew he was sitting here psychoanalyzing her bedroom.The thought shouldāve ended there, instead another one immediately followed.
The look on her face when Haejin exposed the fact that she had obviously cleaned before they arrived. The way she tried denying it despite the evidence being painfully obvious. Then the laugh sheād let out later. Then the smile sheād been trying not to show when he teased her.
Seonghyeon dropped backward onto his mattress and stared at the ceiling. There it was again. That same problem. Every thought somehow led back to her. It was infuriating, itās like his brain had no originality.
He had known y/n for what? A couple of months? Yet lately it felt like she kept appearing in places she wasnāt even supposed to be. In random thoughts, in conversations, in moments where he was supposed to be focusing on literally anything else. It was getting harder and harder to ignore. For the first time, Seonghyeon found himself staring directly at a possibility he had been avoiding for weeks. Not accepting it. Definitely not accepting it. Just looking at it from a safe distance. Then immediately backing away.
Nope, absolutely not.
For a long moment he simply layed there with one arm thrown across his face, feeling increasingly annoyed with himself. Because the more he thought about it, the worse his life defense became. Maybe there wasnāt some complicated explanation. Maybe the reason he had spent weeks looking for her in crowded hallways, noticing when she wasnāt around, and wondering why everything felt different lately wasnāt because something weird was happening.
Maybe the problem was much simpler than that, and thatās exactly why he didnāt wanna think about it, didnāt wanna consider it.
The problem started with a pencil.
Not because the pencil itself was important. It wasnāt. The pencil belonged to Keonho, who had somehow managed to drop it three separate times during a single class period. By the third time, the teacher looked ready to launch it out the nearest window.
A few people around the classroom were already trying and failing to hide their laughter, while Keonho seemed completely oblivious to the fact that he was seconds away from becoming someoneās least favorite student.
Normally, Seonghyeon wouldāve found this entertaining. He probably wouldāve made a comment. Maybe laughed. Maybe joined Martin in making fun of Keonho later. Instead, he was staring out the classroom window, his attention drifting somewhere beyond the teacherās voice and the half finished notes sitting in front of him.
He wasnāt thinking about anything in particular. At least, that was what he told himself. The lesson had become background noise a long time ago, blending together with the scratching of pencils, turning pages and the occasional sigh from students who had already mentally checked out for the day.
Outside, students crossed the courtyard below in small groups. Some were heading back toward the academic building after lunch while others lingered near the benches despite the fact that the break had ended nearly ten minutes ago. From up here everyone looked smaller, moving through familiar routines without much urgency. It was the sort of thing he wouldāve glanced at for a second before looking away.
Then movement caught his attention. Someone familiar stepped through the courtyard gate. Immediately, his eyes followed. Which wouldāve been fine if he hadnāt recognized her from half a building away. That felt excessive.
The distance alone shouldāve made it impossible. He couldnāt even properly see her face from here. Yet somehow he had known it was y/n before he consciously registered any actual details. Before he thought about it. Before he even realized he was paying attention.
She was walking beside somebody. Just some guy from their year that Seonghyeon vaguely recognized. For a moment, he found himself watching longer than necessary. Not because anything unusual was happening. The opposite, actually. They were just talking. The guy said something and y/n laughed before shaking her head slightly. Then the conversation continued as if nothing had happened.
Have they always been friends?
Worked on a project together?
Why was he even thinking about this?
Because he genuinely didnāt care. He shouldnāt, atleast. His eyes remained fixed on the courtyard for another moment before he finally looked away. The strange thing was that nothing about the situation actually bothered him. Y/n was allowed to talk to whoever she wanted. She was allowed to have other friends. The thought shouldnāt have occupied more than two seconds of his attention.
The thought lingered for the rest of the lesson. It followed him when the bell rang, when students immediately began shoving books into bags and when Keonho somehow dropped the same pencil again while standing up.
Seonghyeon barely heard Martin laughing about it beside him. His attention had drifted elsewhere. Not toward the courtyard anymore, but toward the uncomfortable realization itself. A few months ago, he wouldnāt have noticed.
A few months ago, y/n wouldāve blended into the hundreds of students moving around campus every day. Not really because there was anything forgettable about her, but because she had never given people a reason to look twice. She wasnāt loud. She didnāt try to draw attention to herself. Half the time she seemed perfectly content existing just outside the center of things.
The weather was unusually good, good enough that nobody wanted to spend lunch indoors. The football field, basketball court and every bench around campus were crowded with students taking advantage of the rare sunshine. Conversations echoed across the courtyard.
Seonghyeon sat on a low concrete wall near the basketball court with Martin, Keonho, James and Juhoon. Or rather, everyone else was sitting. Martin had somehow convinced himself he was the next basketball prodigy and had spent the last ten minutes repeatedly shooting the same ball at the hoop missing every time.
āYou know,ā James said, watching another failed attempt, āat some point this becomes a public safety hazard.ā
Martin caught the rebound.
āYou people donāt understand greatness.ā
āStick to football, please.ā
Martin looked offended.
Beside them, Keonho was lying dramatically across the wall as if heād just survived a life threatening event.
āIāve decided something.ā
Nobody reacted.
āIām serious.ā
Still nothing.
āYou guys never support me.ā
Juhoon didnāt even look up from his phone. āThatās because your ideas are usually terrible.ā
āSee? Exactly what Iām talking about.ā
James sighed.
āWhat realization have you had now?ā
Keonho sat up immediately.
āI should get priority in the cafeteria queue.ā
āāWhy?āā
āāBecause iām an athlete.āā
āāā¦and so are we.āā
āāYeaaaaah- whatever.āā Keonho immediately leaned back again.
The bookstore had always felt different after sunset.
Because there were fewer people around, or because the street outside became quieter once the shops started closing for the evening. Whatever the reason, everything seemed softer at night. The warm yellow lights reflected against the shelves, the air smelled faintly of paper and old wood and somewhere near the front counter low music played quietly enough that it blended into the background. It was one of the reasons you came here so often. Nobody bothered you. You could spend an hour staring at the same shelf and nobody would question it.
Which was exactly what you had been doing for the last ten minutes. At least until a familiar voice drifted from somewhere deeper in the store. You didnāt react immediately. At first your brain simply registered the sound as familiar. Then a second passed. Then another. And suddenly your head snapped up.
For a brief moment you genuinely convinced yourself you were imagining things. The possibility wouldāve been less embarrassing than the alternative. Slowly, you stepped around the end of a bookshelf and glanced down the next aisle. Immediately, your stomach betrayed you.
Because standing near the back of the store was Seonghyeon. Not somebody who looked like him. It was him. Seeing him here felt like spotting a teacher at the grocery store. Not wrong exactly, just unsettling enough to force your brain to restart.
He was standing beside a rolling cart filled with books, listening while the owner explained something. Every now and then he would nod before reaching over to place another book onto a shelf. Judging by how comfortably he moved around the store, this clearly wasnāt his first time here. Then the owner noticed you. His face brightened instantly. āY/n.ā
Oh great, Seonghyeon was turning around too. For a second, surprise crossed his face. Then he smiled. The same smile that had become increasingly dangerous for your emotional wellbeing over the past few months.
āHey.āā
It still managed to make your heart forget how to function. The owner looked between the two of you before immediately deciding this was the most entertaining thing that had happened all week.
āYou two know each other?ā
The silence that followed felt unnecessarily heavy. Technically, the answer was simple. Still, none of you spoke immediately. Eventually Seonghyeon answered first. āWe go to school together.ā
The owner looked unconvinced. You understood why. Because there was something suspicious about the way Seonghyeon had smiled while saying it. As if the answer was technically true. Just not the entire truth.
The owner eventually disappeared toward the front of the store after receiving a late delivery, leaving the two of you alone with several half empty shelves and a cart stacked with books that apparently needed to be reorganized before closing. The task itself wasnāt particularly difficult, but the aisle he had assigned you to was.
It was narrow enough that every time one of you moved, the other had to adjust accordingly. At first neither of you paid much attention to it. The conversation flowed naturally. It should have felt normal. In theory, it was normal. Still, somewhere between reaching for the same stack of novels and arguing over whether a book belonged in the mystery section or literary fiction, you became increasingly aware of how little space actually existed between the two of you.
You noticed gradually rather than all at once. One moment you were focused on sorting books, the next you found yourself noticing things that shouldnāt have mattered. The sleeves of Seonghyeonās hoodie were pushed up to his forearms. His hair kept falling into his eyes every few minutes. Every time it did, he would push it back before continuing whatever he was doing. It wasnāt remarkable.
It wasnāt even interesting. Yet for some reason, your attention kept returning to it. Across from you, Seonghyeon wasnāt doing much better. He had spent the last several weeks trying very hard not to think too deeply about certain things, only to discover that being alone with you outside school made that task significantly more difficult. At school there were distractions. Friends, classes, teachers, noise. Here there was only the soft hum of the bookstore, the occasional turning page from a customer somewhere in the distance, and you.
You reached for a book resting near the top shelf at the exact same moment Seonghyeon stepped forward to place another back in its place. Neither of you noticed the timing until it was already too late. The aisle was far too narrow for both movements to happen at once. One second you were focused entirely on the shelf in front of you, the next you found yourself stopping abruptly as Seonghyeon did the same. Far too close.
You hadnāt walked into him. Neither of you had. Yet somehow the distance between you had disappeared anyway. The narrow aisle had trapped both of you in the same small space and now neither of you could move without brushing past the other. Instinctively, you took a small step backward. Though, your shoulder bumped lightly against the bookshelf behind you, leaving nowhere else to go. The movement seemed to catch Seonghyeonās attention. His eyes flickered toward you before immediately looking away again. Then back. That was worse.
Because now he was actually looking at you. Not casually. Not the way he normally did. The kind of look that lasted a second too long. The kind that made you suddenly aware of every inch separating you.
Neither of you moved. Somewhere outside, a car passed by. Somewhere inside, somebody turned a page. Neither sound felt real. Not compared to this. Not compared to the fact that Seonghyeon was standing close enough for you to notice details you never should have been able to notice. The faint scent of his cologne. The slight rise and fall of his breathing. The way his gaze kept dropping for the briefest moments before returning to your eyes again.
Seonghyeon wasnāt doing much better. A normal person would have stepped away by now. That was the logical thing to do. The obvious thing. Yet for some reason, neither of them seemed capable of being the first one to move. His hand was still resting against the shelf above your shoulder. Not touching you. Close enough that it felt like it.
Close enough that every rational thought in his head had abruptly stopped functioning. He couldnāt even remember what book he had been reaching for. Couldnāt remember what either of you had been talking about thirty seconds ago. All he knew was that you were looking up at him and that suddenly felt like a very torturous thing. The silence stretched. Your eyes dropped briefly, then lifted again.
Mistake.
Because the second your gaze met his again, something shifted. Neither of you moved, yet the distance felt smaller than before. Small enough that for one completely irrational second, the possibility crossed both of your minds at the same time. And judging by the way Seonghyeonās breathing faltered, he knew it too.
The sound of a stack of books being dropped somewhere near the front counter shattered the moment instantly. Both of you stepped back so fast it almost hurt.
The rest of the evening felt strangely disconnected after that.
You had left the bookstore not long after, mumbling some excuse about needing to get home before it got too late. The owner had teased you for leaving earlier than usual, but you barely remembered what you had said in response. Your brain had been somewhere else entirely.
The walk home shouldāve felt familiar. You had taken the same route hundreds of times before. The same streets. The same convenience store on the corner. The same traffic lights that always seemed determined to turn red at the worst possible moment. Yet everything felt slightly off, as if somebody had shifted the world half an inch to the left without telling you.
The problem was that your brain had apparently become incapable of behaving normally whenever he was involved. Every time you replayed the evening, you found yourself stopping at the same moment. Your thoughts kept drifting there on their own. The narrow aisle. The silence. The way neither of you had moved. The way you suddenly became aware of absurd things you never paid attention to before, like how close he was standing or how easy it wouldāve been to reach out and touch him.
Meanwhile, Seonghyeon made it approximately twelve minutes before realizing he was completely screwed.
The bookstore owner had eventually returned to find him standing in the wrong aisle holding a book he had already shelved three separate times. Seonghyeon wasnāt usually the type to get distracted. If anything, one of the things people liked most about him was how calm he was under pressure. Football matches didnāt stress him out, presentations didnāt stress him out. Exams stressed him out a little, but not enough to make him lose sleep. One interaction with y/n had completely destroyed his ability to focus. The owner had asked him a question and Seonghyeon had stared at him for three seconds before realizing he had not heard a single word.
Every time he thought he had moved on, he would remember some tiny detail and immediately get distracted again. The way she looked up at him. The way she froze. The fact that neither of them had stepped away immediately. That part bothered him most. A normal person wouldāve moved. A normal person wouldāve laughed it off and continued shelving books. Instead, they had both just stood there staring at each other like complete idiots until somebody dropped books near the front counter and snapped them back to reality.
The days after the bookstore felt strangely normal on the surface and completely unbearable underneath. Y/n would be halfway through listening to Haejin before suddenly remembering the look on Seonghyeonās face in that aisle and immediately losing track of the conversation. Seonghyeon wasnāt doing much better. Looking for y/n had somehow become a habit. Not a conscious one. His eyes just seemed to find her automatically now, and what bothered him most wasnāt seeing her. It was when he couldnāt.
By Thursday afternoon, students flooded out of their classrooms as the bell rang. Conversations echoed through the hallways while people pushed toward their next lesson. Seonghyeon was walking with his friends, half listening to whatever argument Keonho was currently having, when he spotted y/n a little ahead. She was walking through the crowd. He didnāt think about it. Not really. The words left his mouth before his brain had the opportunity to intervene.
āāYou coming this friday?āā The second he said it, she turned around.
āāWhat?āā
Seonghyeon blinked, for a moment neither spoke.
āāWhere?āā
And suddenly every functioning thought in Seonghyeonās head disappeared. Apparently, he had skipped an entire conversation.
āāYou know..āā He started. No, obviously she didnāt know.
āāThe game.āā She stared. āāThe football game?āā
āāYeah.āā Only now did Seonghyeon realize how insane this looked. They had never actually discussed her coming. Not once. For some reason though, it had already become a possibility in his head.
āāOh.āā The hallway suddenly felt far too crowded. āāYou donāt have to.āā The words came out faster than he intended and he immediately regretted them, because now it sounded like he didnāt care. Which wasnāt true. Not even remotely. āāYou could- you-āā He paused, then looked at her. Actually looked at her. āāIād like it if you did.āā
Y/nās heart had stopped functioning. There was no reason that sentence shouldāve affected her the way it did. It wasnāt a confession. It wasnāt even flirting. Yet standing there in the middle of a crowded hallway, it felt dangerously close to something else. And suddenly she realized he actually meant it.
He wanted her there. A smile threatened to appear, she fought it immediately and failed. āāOkay.āā The answer came out softer than she had intended.
Something shifted in Seonghyeonās expression. The tension in his shoulders eased and the smallest smile appeared.
By the time you arrived, most of the stadium was still empty. The match wasnāt starting for another hour, leaving the school caught in that strange period between preparation and chaos. Staff moved equipment across the field, a few students wandered through the entrance gates and somewhere deeper inside the athletic building, the football team was getting ready. You honestly hadnāt planned on coming this early. At least, that was what you kept telling yourself. The hallway leading toward the locker rooms was nearly deserted when you spotted him.
Seonghyeon was standing beside a row of lockers, already dressed in his uniform, one hand resting against the metal door while he searched through his bag for something. For a moment, you simply watched. It felt unfair how normal he looked. Like he hadnāt spent the last few weeks slowly becoming the cause of half your problems.
Maybe he felt you staring, because a second later he looked up and smiled. Not the polite smile. Not the one he gave teachers. The real one. The one that always seemed to appear before he could stop it.
āYou know the gameās not starting for another hour, right?ā The greeting caught you off guard.
āWhat, youāre kicking me out already?ā
āNo,ā he said immediately, a little too quickly.
āIām just trying to figure out why youāre here this early.ā
You adjusted the strap of your bag. āMaybe I have nothing better to do.ā
āThatās depressing.ā You stared at him.
āYouāre about to play an important match.ā
āAnd youāre making fun of me.ā
āIām helping you stay humble.ā A laugh escaped him, and for a moment neither of you said anything else. The conversation shouldāve ended there. It didnāt. For some reason, Seonghyeon was still standing there. For some reason, you were too.
āYou nervous?ā you asked eventually.
āAbout the game?ā You nodded.
āUnless youāre secretly taking a math exam afterwards.ā His smile returned.
āA little.ā The answer surprised you, it sounded genuine.
āYou?ā he asked. You frowned. āWhat?ā
āNervous.ā
āWhy would I be nervous?ā Something shifted in his expression. āGood question.ā The look he gave you made your stomach drop because suddenly it didnāt feel like you were talking about football anymore.
The silence that followed wasnāt awkward. That was the problem. It felt too easy. Too comfortable. The kind of silence that only happened when you genuinely liked being around someone. You looked away first, which immediately turned out to be a mistake because the second you did, you became aware of how close he was standing. Not close enough to be strange. Close enough to matter. When you looked back up, Seonghyeon was already looking at you.
Neither of you moved. Neither of you spoke. The hallway felt quieter than before, and you couldnāt remember what you had been about to say. His gaze dropped for the briefest second before lifting again. The movement was tiny. It still made your heart nearly stop. For the first time since you had met him, Seonghyeon looked completely thrown off, like he was realizing something at the exact same time you were.
The realization hung between you. Neither of you acknowledged it. Neither of you looked away. The distance somehow felt smaller now. A lot smaller. You werenāt sure whether one of you had stepped forward or if you had simply stopped paying attention to everything except him. Seonghyeon let out a quiet breath. His eyes flickered down again. This time neither of you pretended not to notice. The moment stretched. One second. Two. Three. Long enough for your pulse to start racing. Long enough for him to look like heād completely forgotten where he was.
Long enough that if either of you moved even slightly-
āSEONGHYEON!ā
The shout echoed through the hallway, making both of you jump apart so fast it was embarrassing. A teammate appeared around the corner. āCoach is looking for you.ā Seonghyeon genuinely looked annoyed. Actually annoyed. Which somehow made everything worse.
āYeah.ā he muttered. The teammate disappeared again, leaving the two of you standing there in the aftermath of something neither of you seemed willing to acknowledge.
Then Seonghyeon rubbed the back of his neck and let out a short laugh. āI should probably go before he benches me.ā
āProbably.ā
Then he looked at you properly. Not past you. Not around you. At you.
āāStay until the game finishes.āā
You blinked.
āāWhat?āā
āāYou came all the way here, itād be rude to leave earlier.āā The excuse was terrible, both of you knew it. You were smiling. You gave him a reassuring hum. His own smile softened.
The whistle blew before you were ready for it.
Almost immediately, the atmosphere shifted. The scattered conversations around the stadium disappeared beneath the sound of cheering as both teams surged forward. Whatever relaxed energy had existed before kickoff vanished entirely. Suddenly everything felt louder. Faster. More important. You tried focusing, you really did.
For the first few minutes, your attention stayed where it was supposed to. The ball moved rapidly across the field, players weaving around each other while the crowd reacted to every near miss and interception. It was impossible not to get caught up in it. Even people who barely cared about football seemed invested tonight.
Then your thoughts wandered. Without warning, your mind dragged you back to the hallway. To the silence. To the way Seonghyeon had looked at you. A collective groan erupted from the crowd. You blinked. Apparently you missed something.
āThat wouldāve been such a good goal!āā Haejin complained beside you.
āAre you even watching?āā
āāI am.āā
āāYouāre not!āā
Before you could argue, the game resumed and your attention returned to the field. This time it stayed there for a while.The match itself was good. Really good. Both teams were evenly matched which only made the atmosphere more intense. Every attack felt intense. Every mistake earned a reaction from the crowd. By the time twenty minutes had passed, even you had stopped pretending not to care. A player from the opposing team broke through the defense. The stadium collectively held its breath. The shot missed by centimeters and the entire crowd exploded. Students jumped to their feet.
And before you realized it, you were standing too. For a moment, you just stared then slowly sat back down.
Huh. Maybe football wasnāt completely boring.
The final minutes of the match passed in a blur. The score was tied. Every touch of the ball seemed to pull a reaction from the crowd, every mistake earning groans and every opportunity drawing people to the edge of their seats. Even students who barely cared about football were standing now. The atmosphere had become infectious. Somewhere beside you, Haejin had completely abandoned any attempt at acting normal. She was half standing, half leaning over the railing, reacting to every play as if her life depended on it.
The clock was running down when Seonghyeon received the ball near midfield. The crowd immediately reacted. Maybe it was because everybody trusted him. Whatever the reason, the second he moved forward thousands of eyes followed. Including yours. The play happened so quickly you barely had time to process it. A pass. A turn. Somebody shouting. Then suddenly the ball hit the back of the net. The stadium exploded, the noise that had erupted was unbelievable.
Students jumped to their feet. Teammates rushed across the field. People screamed loud enough to make your ears ring. Somewhere beside you, Haejin grabbed your shoulders and started shaking you like she had personally scored the goal herself. You laughed in surprise.
The first thing Seonghyeon did after his teammates swarmed him was lift his head and look at you. The distance between you was enormous. The field, the track, hundreds of people, yet he found you.
The final whistle blew moments later. The match was over. The celebration wasnāt. Students immediately flooded toward the exits, some heading for the field while others crowded around friends and teammates. The entire stadium seemed alive with movement. You lingered for a while, letting people pass before eventually gathering your things.
You werenāt entirely sure where you were going. Only that suddenly being surrounded by hundreds of people felt overwhelming. The night air was cooler outside the stadium. The noise became quieter with every step until it faded into the background completely. For the first time all evening, you were alone with your thoughts.
You had almost reached the corner of the building when you heard footsteps behind you. You turned around, it was Seonghyeon. He was still wearing his uniform, still slightly out of breath. He looked at you, the corners of Seonghyeonās mouth lifted first.
āYou were leaving.ā
You laughed softly.
āWhy does everybody keep accusing me of that?ā
āBecause you keep doing it.ā
āI wasnāt.ā
āYou were.ā
Maybe you wouldāve argued. Maybe you wouldāve defended yourself. You found yourself smiling instead. The noise from the stadium felt distant now. The world seemed smaller somehow. Reduced to the stretch of pavement between the two of you and the fact that neither of you seemed interested in leaving.
A group of students passed somewhere behind Seonghyeon still loud from the match, still arguing over goals and missed opportunities and who deserved credit for the win. One of them called his name. Normally he wouldāve responded automatically. You had seen it happen a hundred times before. Yet he didnāt even turn around. His attention never left you. Something about that made your stomach flip.
For months, Seonghyeon had existed in constant motion. Surrounded by teammates, friends, conversations. There was always somebody looking for him. Always somewhere else he needed to be. Now, after one of the biggest matches of the season, after scoring the winning goal, after spending two hours being pulled in every direction, he was standing here looking at you like the rest of the world had become background noise.
The smile on Seonghyeonās face faded slightly. Your pulse sped up immediately, you knew. Not what he was thinking, not exactly. However, you knew this moment mattered.
The distance between you felt ridiculous, like it was the only thing both of you could focus on. Every second stretched longer than it should have. Your heart was beating so hard, you became painfully aware of it.
Seonghyeon took a step forward. You hated how quickly your breath caught. You hated how your eyes immediately dropped before finding his again. You hated that he noticed. You were standing close enough to notice details you never shouldāve noticed. The faint flush lingering across his cheeks from the match. The way his hair had fallen messily across his forehead. The fact that he looked just as overwhelmed as you felt.
Your hand found the sleeve of his jersey before you even realized what you were doing. The second your fingers curled around the fabric, Seonghyeonās eyes dropped to your hand. Then back to you. Something in his expression completely softened. Then finally, after a dreadful amount of missed chances and interrupted moments and terrible timing,
Seonghyeon kissed you.
The football field, the crowd, the noise from the stadium, all of it disappeared into the background until there was nothing left except the overwhelming realization that this was actually happening. The kiss wasnāt rushed, it felt like both of you had spent so long circling around this moment that neither of you quite knew what to do once you had reached it. Your grip tightened slightly against his jersey without meaning to, and something about that made his hand find yours.
You had spent weeks turning Seonghyeon into a problem inside your head. Something complicated. Something impossible to ignore. Yet standing here now, there was nothing complicated about it.
Then, your lips crashed against his. Off-center at first, your nose bumping his jaw accidentally before you corrected. You were pulling him closer. Seonghyeon had reacted immediately, his hands reached to cup your face delicately. His lips were warm and softer than you had expected for a boy who felt so intimidating and cold at first. The contrast sent something sharp down your spine.
He shifted one of his hands to your waist, the touch light at first, like he was questioning if youād pull away. You didnāt, you kissed him harder. He tilted his head, adjusting the angle, and suddenly the kiss fit differently, better, deeper. His chest was pressed against yours. Your heart was pounding, he could feel it. Or maybe it was his own heart.
His thumb was brushing along your cheekbone, tilting your face up to meet his more fully. He kissed you properly now, he matched your energy. He kissed you until his lips were numb, he kissed you with genuine love. He kissed you like he was trying to get inside your skin. He was a mess for you. He took over the pacing, guiding slowly through it.
At some point, neither of you seemed to care how long you had been standing there. When you finally pulled apart, it wasnāt because either of you wanted to. It was because breathing had become somewhat important. The distance between you barely existed. Seonghyeonās hand remained at your waist, his forehead nearly brushing yours as both of you tried to remember how to function.
You simply looked at each other. Weirdly, after months of wondering and guessing and pretending not to notice, that felt like enough. For the first time since all of this started, neither of you had to question it anymore.
Seonghyeon liked you.
You liked Seonghyeon.
And after everything it had taken to get here, It felt so good.
The next morning felt strangely normal. The school building was still crowded. Students still dragged themselves through the hallways half awake. Somewhere down the corridor, Martin was already being unnecessarily loud before first period had even started.
He was greeting everyone with the biggest smile plastered across his face, he was way too happy at 8:30 in the morning. Not as happy as you though. Your cheeks hurt, genuienly hurt reaching the main building. Everytime you remembered yesterday, another smile appeared before you could stop it. You were very warm, you just hoped it wasnāt obvious externally.
āāYou look happy.āā
You looked up, Seonghyeon was standing beside your locker. Immediately your smile got worse, a strange feeling in your stomach had come from nowhere when you looked at him.
āāHi.āā
He smiled.
His hand found yours so naturally it almost sent shivers through your body. His fingers slipping through yours as though theyād belonged there since forever. The action sent a completely unreasonable amount of warmth through your chest.
the two of you started walking toward your classroom. The hallway buzzed with conversation around you, people moving in every direction. A few students greeted Seonghyeon as they passed. He greeted them back automatically. Everything felt familiar. Yet every few steps your attention drifted toward your joined hands again. It was such a small thing.
āYou know,ā Seonghyeon said after a moment, glancing sideways, āyou look less tired today.ā You immediately narrowed your eyes. āYou said I looked tired.ā
āI said you were tired.ā
āNo.āā
āI meant it differently.ā
āSure.ā
You tried very hard not to smile. Failed immediately. Beside you, Seonghyeon looked equally hopeless. The two of you reached your classroom far too quickly. Students were already filtering inside. The bell would ring any minute now. Neither of you seemed particularly eager to acknowledge that. Eventually, Seonghyeon stopped outside the door.
āSo.ā
āāSo.āā
A smile appeared, and a matching one answered it. Then Seonghyeon sqeezed your hand once before letting you go.
āāIāll see you later.āā
āļø
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