We are grieving so bad and never thought we'd feel that way. We are a median kind of non switching system (hard to explain). Recently we had gotten a fictive from a media I'm very passionate about, I was kinda excited to receive him. Only days later we figured out that he wasnt here. All signs of him were not here. I never thought we'd grieve that much. It hurts. I cried, it hurts, I don't know how to feel. He was barely there, we didn't even get to meet his likes and dislikes. For us, our system was seen much more as fractions of myself, i never thought id grief so much. I don't know how to feel, how to cope, I keep crying on and off and just feeling better and then feeling a void. I'm so lost, ive never felt like that.