anyways I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not that Taylor forgot about Speak Now the way we joke she did. the writing process was largely while she was being manipulated by a man almost twice her age at only 19, it came out and she started feeling like she was no longer something shiny and new, and she spent the whole tour and entire remainder of that era with such an impending sense of doom and horrible anxiety wallowing in these fears - simultaneously going through the worst heartbreak of her life by another man nearly twice her age who manipulated her. trying to cope with it all, so lost and devestated and needing cover it with a smile on tour each night while loneliness and fear of fading away completely overcame her all at the same time. the entire era, that from the outside we see as something so magical and wonderful and incredible, was coated in misery for her while she was living it. and I think maybe for her sanity she just needed to block it out for a while and I think I might throw up thinking about it