đđđđ đ christian!sb X fem!reader 12k+ words smut / suggestive / humor MINORS DNI
á°.á religious themes sex in church bathroom dom!yn sub!sb kind of forbidden romance kissing yn rubs her feet on sbâs dick corruption kink if you squint yeonjun giving slutty advice
đđ đđ˘đĽđđ˘đâđŹ đđ¨đđ áš uhhh. Idk what to say about this lol. Iâm proud of it but I feel like I always lose the plot towards the end- and it's very demotivating. Enjoy though đ¤đ
Soobinâs dorm room smelled faintly of old textbooks and laundry detergent, a scent he secretly liked. He stood in front of his half-open suitcase, carefully folding his shirts, socks, and jeans. Each fold was precise, deliberateâas if the neatness of his packing could somehow impose order on the chaos he secretly feared summer would bring.
âMan, youâre pathetic.â
Soobinâs head snapped up. Yeonjun was sprawled across his bed, one arm dangling off the side, smirking like he was auditioning for the role of devilish roommate in a soap opera. âPathetic?â Soobin asked, raising an eyebrow as he folded a pair of socks with surgical precision.
âYes! You! Look at you, all neatly packed and wholesome, probably daydreaming about Bible verses and your momâs chicken pot pie,â Yeonjun said, gesturing dramatically toward the suitcase. âMeanwhile, Iâve got a summer of adventure lined up!â
âI really donât want to hear this,â Soobin muttered, sliding a stack of shirts into the suitcase and zipping it halfway.
âAh, donât be such a bore. Iâm just talking logistics,â Yeonjun said, leaning forward with the air of a professor about to give a lecture on debauchery. âIâve got the beaches mapped out, bars on the rooftop scoped, and a festival calendar thatâll make you question your life choices. And yes⌠there are girls.â He let the word linger in the air like a taunt.
Soobin stiffened. He could feel a flush creeping up his neck. âYeonjunâplease. I donât want to hear about your⌠girls.â
Yeonjun laughed, a rich, dramatic sound that bounced off the bare walls of the dorm. âNot interested? Bro, twenty-four years of careful, moral living, and you think you can dodge the reality of life forever? Itâs not just about kissing someoneâthough, letâs be honest, thatâs long overdueâitâs about experiencing the chaos, Soob!â
Soobin picked up a neatly folded pair of jeans and shoved them into the suitcase, hoping his calm, orderly movements would somehow shield him from the storm of Yeonjunâs commentary. âIâm perfectly content experiencing⌠textbooks and prayer,â he said dryly, zipping the side of the suitcase a little higher.
Yeonjun threw himself onto the floor dramatically, one arm across his forehead. âTextbooks and prayer? Seriously? Thatâs your entire summer plan? Man, youâre like a monk trapped in a human body. A very tidy monk.â
Soobin couldnât help but let a small, exasperated laugh escape. âI think Iâll survive.â
âYou think youâll survive?â Yeonjun echoed, sitting back up and wagging a finger at him. âSoob, youâre twenty-four! You should be living a little, learning a little, maybe getting⌠ahem, hands-on experience.â He leaned closer, lowering his voice to a mock-whisper. âYou know, before you end up writing a thesis on the virtues of chastity while everyone else is⌠well, not.â
Soobin groaned, pressing his hands to his face. âIâm not interested. And Iâm not going toââ
Yeonjun clapped a hand over his mouth, gasping in mock horror. âNot going to? Oh my god, I canât even! Youâre like a living, breathing cautionary tale. Twenty-four years of avoiding fun like itâs the plague. I honestly donât know how your parents tolerate it.â
Soobin gave him a flat look. âI think they like it.â
âYeah, sure. They like it until they start worrying youâre never going to experience a date night or⌠well, anything else,â Yeonjun said, lounging back on the bed like a general surveying a battlefield. âI mean, come on, Soob. Youâre going to the beach this summer, right?â
âYes.â
âAnd youâre planning onâwhatâreading a Bible in the sand? Coloring in a devotional while everyone else is⌠sunburned and kissing?â Yeonjun laughed so hard he nearly rolled off the bed.
âI really donât want to hear your commentary,â Soobin muttered again, zipping the last side of his suitcase.
âYouâre impossible,â Yeonjun said, pointing a finger at him like heâd just discovered a new species of human. âYouâre like⌠the poster child for un-fun. I donât even know why weâre friends.â
Soobin tried not to smile. âProbably because youâre loud and obnoxious and relentless, and Iâm too polite to kick you out of my room.â
âThatâs true! You are polite.â Yeonjun leaned back with a satisfied grin. âBut one day, Soob, mark my words⌠one day, youâll cave. And when you do, Iâll be there to witness every glorious, scandalous moment.â
Soobin could only groan and close the suitcase fully. He thought of home, of his parents, of quiet dinners and long, predictable evenings. Peaceful, safe, ordered⌠predictable. Perfect.
And completely unprepared for whatâor whoâsummer would bring.
⸝
You slump onto your bed, arms crossed, staring at the ceiling as if it might magically give you a way out of this conversation. Your parents sit across from you, both wearing those impossible âdisappointed-but-calmâ expressions they pull out whenever they want to remind you that youâre still a child in their eyes.
âYouâre going to stay with the Chois this summer,â your father says, his voice slow and deliberate, as if speaking too fast might let you slip out some excuse.
You blink. âWait, what? The Choi family?â
âYes,â your mother chimes in, hands folded primly on her lap. âMr. and Mrs. Choi have kindly agreed to host you while weâre away. Itâs⌠for your benefit.â
You bite back a laugh. âFor my benefit?â
âYes. We think itâs necessary for you to be in a wholesome, structured environment while weâre gone,â your father says, his tone calm but firm. âAfter⌠the recent incidents, we believe itâs best if someone else keeps an eye on you for a few months.â
You groan dramatically, rolling onto your side. âOh, because obviously hanging out at home is so dangerous. I might⌠I donât know⌠breathe too loudly or something.â
Your mother frowns. âY/N, donât make light of this. Weâve already discussed the situation with your⌠extracurricular activities. The partying. The drinking. The⌠immoral behavior.â
You sit up, glaring. âUnholy behavior? Really, Mom? Thatâs what weâre calling it now? I was at a concert. I had a couple of drinks. And yes, Iââ You catch yourself and roll your eyes. âFine, yeah, I slept with someone. But itâs not like Iâve been sacrificing virgins or something.â
Your father pinches the bridge of his nose. âThis isnât about dramatics. This is about maintaining your integrity and⌠your familyâs reputation. Youâve been given too much freedom, and clearly, itâs become a problem.â
You tilt your head, smirking. âSo, I get punished by being sent to hang out with someone elseâs obedient kid? Sounds fun.â
Your mother sighs heavily, the kind of sigh that carries all the frustration of decades. âItâs not a punishment, Y/N. The Choi family is deeply Christian, and their son is an exemplary young man. We trust that spending time with them will⌠help you reflect on your behavior and make better choices.â
You raise a brow. âBetter choices? You mean, like, not having fun?â
âYes,â your father says, like he just solved the worldâs biggest problem. âAnd not⌠succumbing to temptation. Youâve shown a pattern of poor judgment. This summer is an opportunity for you to learn responsibility, self-discipline, andââ
âBoring,â you mutter under your breath, earning a sharp glance from your mother.
âWhat was that?â she asks, lips pressing into a thin line.
âNothing, nothing,â you say quickly, holding up your hands in mock surrender. âI just⌠canât wait to help with chores and recite Bible verses with them every morning. It sounds⌠amazing.â Your voice drips with sarcasm, and you know they can hear it.
Your parents exchange a look, the kind that makes you feel simultaneously guilty and triumphant. They clearly know youâre being deliberately difficult, but they also know they canât make you behave through anger alone. Youâve grown too clever for that.
âY/N,â your father says, voice firm. âWeâre not asking for your opinion on this. This is not a negotiation. You will stay with the Chois. You will follow their rules. And you will behave as though you were raised in their household.â
You lean back, letting out a long, exaggerated sigh. âSure, sure. Iâll be a model guest. Help with dinner. Smile politely. Maybe even say a few prayers if you like.â
Your motherâs jaw tightens. âWe are serious, Y/N. This is for your own good.â
You nod slowly, putting on your best fake serious expression. âYes, Mother. Father. I will be perfect. Hallelujah.â
As soon as they step out of the room, you burst into laughter, collapsing onto your bed again. They have no idea what a challenge you are. No one knows how far youâve pushed the boundaries, how much of a ârebel with a causeâ youâve become.
⸝
The drive home felt quieter than usual, the hum of the tires on the highway blending with Soobinâs thoughts. Heâd packed everything neatlyâshirts, jeans, a few extra sweaters his mom would insist he neededâbut the quiet of the road gave him space to wonder how peaceful summer would really be.
Pulling into the familiar driveway, Soobin took a deep breath. The Choi family home hadnât changed a bit since heâd left for college: the tidy garden, the sun catching the roof tiles just so, his fatherâs old car parked exactly where it always was. It felt like stepping into a photograph, safe and predictable.
He grabbed his suitcase from the trunk and started up the front path. Just as he reached the door, it swung openâand before he could even say hello, his mother was on him, hands on his cheeks, squeezing.
âMy goodness! Youâve grown so much! Look at you!â she exclaimed, her tone a mix of delight and disbelief. Soobin squirmed under the affection, taller now than heâd ever been in her presence. âSix-foot-one, my little boy! Six-foot-one! Youâre practically a man!â
âEomma, youâre crushing my face,â he murmured, half-laughing, half-trying to escape the bear hug.
âDoesnât matter! Youâre perfect! You need to eat more, sleep well, study hard, and⌠andâoh! Do you remember your old room? I made sure itâs exactly the way you left it,â she said, still holding him captive.
His father appeared behind her with a warm smile. âSoobin, glad to see you. The house hasnât been the same without you. Sit, tell me everything. Howâs school? Friends? Are you eating enough?â
âYouâre growing up too fast,â his mother said, finally releasing him. She stepped back, adjusting her apron, clearly still fussing over him even as she gestured toward the door. âCome in, come in. Let me see your suitcase, let meâoh! Wait, youâre hungry, arenât you? You must be starving!â
He nodded, humoring her, and dragged the suitcase into the hallway. âIâll grab my stuff and unpack, Eomma. Promise I wonât starve.â
âGood, good,â she said, patting him on the shoulder. âAnd donât forget to say hello to your old room. Youâll feel at home in no time.â
He made his way down the hallway to his old bedroom, suitcase in hand, and pushed open the door. Thatâs when he froze.
Someone was in there.
A girl, standing in the middle of the room, one hand resting on a drawer as she rifled through the top shelf of his old bookshelf. She had a mischievous tilt to her head, and she was humming under her breath like she owned the place.
âUhâhello?â Soobinâs voice came out sharper than intended.
The girl jumped, spinning around to face him, eyes wideâbut not panicked. Amused, almost. âOh! Hi. I didnât think anyone else was here.â
Soobin blinked. âWho⌠are you?â
âIâm⌠uh,â she said smoothly, tilting her head in a mock-thoughtful pose. âY/N. Iâm⌠staying here for the summer. You know⌠helping out. Chores, stuff like that.â She smiled sweetly, but there was a spark there that immediately set Soobin on edge. Something about her didnât match her explanation.
Soobin straightened, feeling a strange mix of confusion and caution. âHelping out? I⌠didnât know anyone was coming to stay here. My parents didnât mention it.â
Her smile widened, just the tiniest bit of teasing in her eyes. âThey didnât? Oops. Mustâve slipped their minds.â She shrugged nonchalantly, like sheâd just confessed to borrowing a pencil without asking.
Soobinâs mouth went dry. Heâd imagined his summer being quiet, safe, predictable⌠and here was this girl, confidently standing in the middle of his old room like she had every right to be there.
âMyâmy stuff,â he finally stammered, gesturing to the suitcase.
âOh! Right, right, sorry. Didnât mean to intrude.â She stepped back, though not enough to leave. âYou just have⌠so much cool stuff. Canât blame me for snooping a little.â
Soobin opened his mouth to say somethingâand then closed it again. He had no idea what to do. Normally, heâd have asked someone to leave, politely but firmly. But there was something about her tone, the way she looked at him, that made him hesitate.
âUm⌠okay,â he said finally, trying to keep his voice steady. âJust⌠donât touch anything too important.â
âDeal,â she said, still smiling. âThough honestly, everythingâs fair game when youâre bored out of your mind, right?â
Bored out of her mind? That sounded dangerously like she wasnât just here to help out.
Soobin tried to shove down the flutter of nerves rising in his chest. He wasnât used to people barging into his lifeâor his roomâwithout warning. And yet, there she was, completely unbothered by his presence, already scanning a drawer like she owned the place.
This was going to be⌠interesting.
⸝
By the time the sun began sinking low outside the kitchen window, youâd already decided that this summer was going to be boring. Predictable. Utterly lame.
It wasnât that the Choi family wasnât niceâthey were very nice. In fact, they were so nice that you found yourself smiling and nodding so much your cheeks hurt. Mrs. Choi was warm and bubbly, bustling around the kitchen like a woman straight out of a lifestyle magazine, while Mr. Choi was kind but reserved, always polite, always perfectly pleasant. The house itself smelled faintly of laundry detergent and home-cooked meals, and everything was spotless, like no one had touched a single object since Soobin moved out for school.
Soobin.
Youâd met him earlier, sort of. More like startled him.
That tall, awkward boy with the wide brown eyes and the hesitant postureâhe had looked at you like youâd been caught breaking into a museum. It had been kind of funny, actually. Youâd half-expected him to tell you to get out of his room, but instead heâd just stammered something about ânot touching anything too importantâ and stood there like he wasnât sure what to do with himself.
Now, a couple of hours later, you were leaning against the kitchen counter, slicing carrots under Mrs. Choiâs supervision. You werenât thinking about Soobin much, not really. Other than the fact that, yeah, he was tall and handsome in that soft, boyish kind of way, but he screamed âobedient, Bible-loving, probably-virginâ energy from a mile away. Definitely not your type. Definitely not someone whoâd understand your world, let alone survive a weekend in it.
Still, his mother was lovely. And you knew how to play nice.
âThank you so much for helping, sweetheart,â Mrs. Choi said, her warm voice filling the cozy kitchen. She placed a bowl of peeled potatoes on the counter in front of you. âI hope you donât mind me putting you to work right away. I thought Iâd make something special for Soobinâs first night back.â
âOf course I donât mind,â you said sweetly, smiling at her as you took the bowl. âI like cooking.â A partial lieâyou could cook, but you didnât do it often unless someone was watching. You knew how to play the part, though: polite, helpful, the perfect guest.
Mrs. Choi beamed. âYouâre such a good girl. Your mother was rightâyouâre just like her when she was your age. Always willing to help.â
You smiled demurely, biting back the urge to laugh. If only she knew.
âSoobin!â Mrs. Choi called suddenly, wiping her hands on a dish towel as she turned toward the hallway. âCome here, honey!â
A moment later, he appeared in the doorway. Heâd changed into a plain white T-shirt and gray sweatpants, his dark hair slightly mussed from unpacking. He looked tired but still polite, like he was mentally preparing himself for a social interaction he didnât really want to have.
âYes, Eomma?â His deep voice was calm, polite.
Mrs. Choi clapped her hands together, smiling brightly. âI forgot to properly introduce you two earlier! Iâm so sorry about that. Y/N, this is my son, Soobin. Soobin, this is Y/N. Sheâll be staying with us this summer while her parents are away.â
Soobin blinked, glancing at you, and offered a small, polite smile. âOh. Um. Hi.â
You put the knife down and smiled back. âHey. Nice to meet you⌠officially.â
He nodded once, awkwardly stuffing his hands into his pockets. âYeah. You too.â
Mrs. Choi beamed, completely oblivious to the awkwardness. âSheâs been such a help already, Soob. You should thank her for keeping me company.â
Soobin cleared his throat. âUh⌠thanks.â
You fought the urge to smirk. Wow. Riveting conversation skills.
Mrs. Choi clapped her hands again, completely satisfied. âGood! Now you two should get to know each other. Why donât you sit down and talk while I finish up here?â
âOh, I can keep helping,â you said quickly, not particularly eager to sit in silence with this boy you barely knew.
âNo, no! Youâve done enough. Go on, sit. Keep him company.â She waved you toward the table.
Soobinâs lips pressed together in a polite, tight-lipped smile, and he gestured stiffly toward one of the chairs. âUh, yeah⌠we can⌠sit.â
You bit the inside of your cheek to keep from laughing. This guy was painfully awkward. You slid into a chair at the table, resting your elbows lightly on the surface, while Soobin sat across from you, his posture perfect and stiff, hands folded in front of him.
For a moment, neither of you said anything. The faint sound of Mrs. Choi humming to herself in the kitchen filled the silence.
âSoâŚâ you said finally, trying to be polite. âHow was school this year?â
âIt was fine,â he said, voice quiet.
You nodded. âThatâs good.â
More silence.
You tried again. âYouâre a senior, right?â
He nodded. âYeah.â
âOh.â You gave him a faint smile. âMe too.â
Another nod.
You blinked at him. ââŚCool.â
This was painful.
He seemed to realize it too because he shifted uncomfortably in his chair and cleared his throat. âUm. What⌠what are you studying?â
âMarketing,â you said. âYou?â
âEducation.â
You nodded. âNice.â
Silence again.
You resisted the urge to roll your eyes. He was handsomeâridiculously handsome, actually, up close. He had this soft, delicate kind of beauty that felt almost unreal, and his height only added to it. But good looks couldnât save him from being awkward. He looked like heâd rather be anywhere else.
Mrs. Choi broke the tension, sweeping over to the table with a tray of side dishes. âYou two are so quiet! Are you shy?â she teased, smiling between the two of you.
You forced a polite laugh. âJust⌠getting used to each other.â
âWell, youâll have all summer to do that,â she said warmly, setting down bowls of rice and kimchi. âSoobin, you should show her around tomorrow. Maybe take her to the park or something.â
Soobin nodded, obedient as ever. âYes, Eomma.â
Dinner passed much the same wayâMrs. Choi chatting cheerfully, Mr. Choi joining in with a few calm comments, while Soobin answered questions politely and you played the part of the sweet, grateful guest. You kept your voice soft, your smile bright, and made sure to say âthank youâ more times than necessary.
Inside, though, you were already bored out of your mind.
When Mrs. Choi excused herself to grab dessert, Soobin glanced at you briefly, then back at his plate. He looked so stiff, so awkward, that you almost felt bad for him. Almost.
âSoâŚâ you said again, trying to fill the silence. âDo you⌠like school?â
He looked up, surprised by the question. âUh⌠yeah. I do. Itâs⌠good.â
You nodded slowly, biting your tongue to keep from sighing. This was going to be a long summer.
Still, there was something oddly fascinating about him. Maybe it was the way he seemed so perfectly put together, so calm and polite, like heâd never even thought about breaking a single rule in his life. He was the exact opposite of you. And maybe, just maybe, that made you want to poke at him a little.
But not tonight. Tonight, youâd play nice.
You offered him a small smile. âThatâs good. Glad to hear it.â
He blinked, as if surprised by your friendliness, and gave a small, tentative smile in return.
You werenât sure why, but that made you feel like youâd just unlocked a secret level in a game.
⸝
You wake up late the next morning, sunlight spilling through the curtains and warming your bare legs. It takes you a moment to remember where you areâthis isnât your room, your apartment, or even your parentsâ house. This is Soobinâs house. Well, technically, his parentsâ house. You stretch your arms over your head, yawning, your cropped tank top riding up a little as you do.
You glance at the clock on the nightstand. Nearly ten a.m. The house is quiet.
Slipping out of bed, you pull on the first thing within reach: a pair of tiny pajama shorts. You donât bother with a bra; youâre not going anywhere. Itâs summer, itâs hot, and youâre just planning to grab some breakfast before showering.
Padding barefoot down the hallway, you follow the faint smell of toast and coffee. The kitchen is cozy, sunlight pouring through the window above the sink, glinting off the polished counters. You open a cabinet, searching for cereal, completely at ease.
You donât notice Soobin at first.
Heâs standing near the stove, pouring himself coffee. His hair is still messy from sleep, his plain T-shirt wrinkled, and thereâs something incredibly soft and domestic about the scene. But when he turns and sees you, he freezes. Completely.
You glance up casually, box of cereal in hand. âMorning,â you say, your voice still raspy from sleep.
Soobin makes a noise thatâs somewhere between a cough and a squeak. âM-Morning.â
You blink at him, confused by the way heâs staring. Then you glance down at yourself. Tank top, shorts. Nothing new. You shrug and pour yourself some cereal, sliding into a seat at the table.
But Soobin⌠heâs not moving.
You watch him from the corner of your eye, amused despite yourself. He looks like heâs seen a ghost. Or maybe an alien. His wide brown eyes dart to you, then away, then back again, like heâs not sure where to look. His knuckles are white where he grips his mug, and thereâs a faint pink creeping up his neck.
You smirk to yourself, spooning cereal into your mouth. Heâs flustered. Very flustered.
âSoobin?â you ask, tilting your head innocently.
He jerks his gaze back to your face, blinking rapidly. âY-Yeah?â
âSomething wrong?â
âNo! No, Iâm fine. Totally fine. JustâŚâ He trails off, gripping the edge of the counter like itâs his only lifeline.
You glance back down at your outfit. âOh. Is this⌠inappropriate or something?â
His face flushes deeper, and he immediately looks away. âN-No! Itâs⌠itâs fine. Youâre fine.â His voice cracks slightly on the last word.
You bite your lip to keep from laughing. You hadnât put this on to tease him; honestly, you hadnât even thought about it. But the way heâs reacting is kind of hilarious.
âOkay,â you say lightly, taking another bite of cereal. âYou seem tense.â
âIâm not tense,â he says quickly, voice a little too high.
You raise an eyebrow. âUh-huh.â
He sets his mug down a little too hard, the sound echoing in the quiet kitchen, and clears his throat. âDo you⌠want some coffee?â
You shake your head. âIâm good, thanks.â
âRight. Cool. Okay.â He nods stiffly, then turns back to the counter like he suddenly has very important business there.
You canât help but grin. Poor guy looks like heâs about to pass out. You wonder if heâs ever even seen a girl dressed like this outside of a TV screen.
âYouâre really jumpy in the morning,â you tease, leaning back in your chair.
His shoulders tense. âIâm not jumpy,â he mumbles, clearly lying.
You sip your milk from the bowl, watching him fumble around the kitchen, pretending to be busy. Heâs tall, painfully shy, and honestly kind of adorable in his awkwardness. Youâd pegged him as a lame virgin yesterday, and nothing about this scene is changing your mind.
Still⌠you canât help but enjoy how easy it is to get under his skin without even trying.
⸝
You didnât plan on teasing him at first. Really, you didnât.
After breakfast, youâd gone back to your room, scrolled on your phone, and killed time while Soobin busied himself with⌠whatever it was Soobin did. Probably cleaning his already spotless room or reading something boring. The morning had been uneventful, which was fine, except uneventful was starting to feel suffocating.
Then Mrs. Choi knocked on your door and cheerfully handed you a list of errands, asking if you and Soobin could âspend some time togetherâ while helping out. The smile she gave you made it clear it wasnât a request.
So now you were sitting in the passenger seat of Soobinâs car, legs crossed, wearing denim shorts and a cropped top, sunglasses perched on your nose as the summer sun streamed through the windshield. Soobin sat beside you, stiff as a board, hands gripping the steering wheel like it was a test of strength.
âThis is going to be fun,â you said lightly, glancing at the list. âGrocery store, dry cleaners, post office⌠oh, and flowers for your momâs friend. Youâre, like, the perfect son, huh?â
He gave a small, polite shrug, eyes on the road. âJust⌠helping out.â
You smirked. He wasnât much of a talker, that was obvious. He answered questions in short sentences, nodded a lot, and kept his eyes forward like a soldier on a mission. Which only made you want to poke at him more.
âYou drive like an old man,â you teased, leaning back in your seat.
His hands tightened on the wheel. âI drive safely.â
âSafely is boring,â you said, grinning.
He shot you a sidelong glance, his expression unreadable. âItâs better than being reckless.â
You hummed thoughtfully, turning your gaze to the road ahead. âMaybe. But reckless is more fun.â
He didnât respond, which was answer enough. You bit back a laugh.
⸝
The first stop was the grocery store. You followed him through the aisles, pushing the cart lazily while he methodically crossed items off the list. He seemed so focused, so serious about everything he didâlike picking out produce was a matter of life or death.
âYou know,â you said casually, leaning on the handle of the cart, âyou donât have to look so stressed. Itâs just groceries.â
âIâm not stressed,â he said without looking at you, carefully inspecting a pack of strawberries.
âYou look stressed.â
He sighed softly, finally glancing at you. âDo you always talk this much?â
You grinned. âOnly when Iâm bored.â
âThen⌠stop being bored.â
âHow?â you asked innocently, leaning in closer. âEntertain me.â
His ears turned pink. He turned back to the strawberries. âThatâs not⌠my job.â
You chuckled, enjoying how flustered he was getting. You werenât even trying that hard.
When you reached the cereal aisle, you grabbed the most colorful box you could find and tossed it into the cart. âWeâre getting this.â
Soobin frowned. âThatâs not on the list.â
âYeah, but itâs fun.â
âItâs full of sugar.â
âExactly.â You smirked, leaning against the cart. âYou ever even had this kind of cereal?â
He shook his head.
You gasped dramatically. âWhat? Youâve been alive for twenty-four years and youâve never had this? Your childhood was tragic.â
He gave you a look that was equal parts amused and annoyed, but he didnât take the cereal out of the cart. Victory.
The next stop was the dry cleaners. You leaned against the counter while Soobin politely spoke to the clerk, his posture straight and formal like he was at a job interview. You found yourself watching himânoticing the way his broad shoulders filled out his T-shirt, the way he said âthank youâ so earnestly it almost made your heart squeeze.
Almost.
When you got back to the car, you couldnât resist. âYouâre so polite all the time. Itâs like youâre afraid of offending someone by breathing wrong.â
He shot you a sideways look, starting the car. âIs that⌠a bad thing?â
âNo,â you said, smiling slyly. âItâs cute.â
That shut him up immediately. His ears turned pink again, and you bit back a laugh as he focused intently on backing out of the parking spot.
At the post office, you decided to turn it up a notch. While Soobin stood in line holding a small package, you wandered the aisles of random stationery, humming softly to yourself. You picked up a greeting card and handed it to him when he rejoined you.
âLook,â you said sweetly. âThis one says, âCongratulations on Losing Your Virginity.â Should I get it for you?â
His jaw practically dropped. He choked on air, eyes darting around to see if anyone heard you. âWh-What?!â he hissed, his face going crimson.
You burst out laughing, holding the card to your chest. âIâm kidding! Relax. Youâre so easy to mess with.â
He looked like he wanted the ground to swallow him whole. âWhy would you evenââ
âBecause itâs funny,â you said with a shrug, putting the card back.
He exhaled sharply, muttering something under his breath that you couldnât quite catch. You just smiled and followed him out, enjoying the fact that youâd managed to rattle him so easily.
The last stop was a small flower shop. The smell of fresh blooms filled the air as you wandered between displays, running your fingers over the petals of a bouquet. Soobin spoke quietly with the florist, choosing a tasteful arrangement, his expression calm and focused.
He was⌠interesting to watch, you realized. He moved carefully, deliberately, like every choice mattered. There was something endearing about it, even if it wasnât your style.
âHere,â he said suddenly, holding out a single daisy heâd picked from a display.
You blinked. âFor me?â
He nodded, looking awkward. âYou⌠seemed bored.â
You took the flower, a small smile tugging at your lips. âThanks. Thatâs sweet of you.â
His shoulders relaxed slightly, like your approval meant something to him. You twirled the daisy between your fingers as you followed him to the register, a little amused by how shy he looked.
By the time you got home, your arms were full of grocery bags, and Soobin was juggling the flowers and dry cleaning. Mrs. Choi greeted you both at the door with her usual sunny smile, praising you for being such a âgood team.â
You glanced at Soobin, who was quietly putting bags on the counter. He looked tired, but in that calm, content way. You couldnât resist teasing him one more time.
âHey, Soob,â you said casually, leaning against the counter.
He glanced at you, wary. âWhat?â
You grinned, holding up the daisy heâd given you. âYouâre not so bad. Maybe running errands with you isnât the worst way to spend an afternoon.â
His eyes widened slightly at the compliment, and he ducked his head, pretending to be busy unloading groceries. âThanks,â he muttered.
You smiled to yourself. He was easy to fluster, easy to tease⌠and kind of cute when he blushed.
Maybe this summer wouldnât be boring after all.
⸝
Soobin sat at the small desk in his childhood bedroom, phone pressed to his ear, laptop open but forgotten. His suitcase was mostly unpacked now, his old room looking almost exactly as it had when he left for college. Same neat bed, same posters of nature landscapes his mom insisted made the room âpeaceful,â same stack of untouched devotionals by his nightstand.
But the familiarity didnât settle him like it used to. Not tonight.
âSheâs⌠staying here,â he said, his voice low, like it was some kind of confession.
On the other end of the line, Yeonjun made an amused sound, somewhere between a laugh and a scoff. âWhat do you mean, âsheâs staying thereâ? Who is she?â
âY/N. A⌠family friendâs daughter.â He leaned back in his chair, rubbing the back of his neck. âMy parents forgot to mention sheâd be living with us this summer.â
âOkay, and?â Yeonjun prompted, voice teasing. âYou sound like youâre describing a hostage situation.â
âItâs not that,â Soobin muttered. âItâs just⌠surprising.â
âUh-huh.â Yeonjunâs voice sharpened with interest. âSurprising because sheâsâŚ?â
Soobin hesitated. âSheâs⌠not what I expected.â
Yeonjun immediately pounced. âNot what you expected how? Like⌠in a good way?â
Soobin groaned, scrubbing his hand over his face. âI donât know. Sheâs just⌠different.â
Yeonjun laughed, loud enough that Soobin winced and shushed him instinctively. âOhhh, this is rich. Youâve been home for, what, a day? And thereâs already some mysterious girl staying under the same roof. Bro, this is literally a setup for a rom-com. Or, like, a⌠bad K-drama.â
Soobin shot a nervous glance at his door, half-expecting Y/N to suddenly appear. âItâs not like that.â
âIs she cute?â
Soobin froze. His mind flashed back to that morningâthe way sheâd wandered into the kitchen wearing those tiny shorts, that cropped tank top, not even remotely self-conscious. Heâd nearly dropped his glass of water. Sheâd just grabbed a bowl of cereal and sat at the counter like nothing was out of the ordinary, while heâd stood there trying to remember how to breathe.
ââŚYes,â he admitted reluctantly.
Yeonjun cackled. âI knew it. Okay, describe her.â
âNo.â
âCome on!â
âNo, Yeonjun.â
âFine, Iâll guess,â Yeonjun said dramatically. âSheâs probably hot, effortlessly cool, a little rebellious. The type your parents would not approve of. Am I close?â
Soobin stayed quiet.
Yeonjun gasped theatrically. âOh my god, I nailed it, didnât I?â
Soobin sighed heavily. âSheâs⌠really different from me.â
âWell, yeah,â Yeonjun said with a snort. âEveryoneâs different from you, Soob. Youâre like⌠a walking hymn book.â
âThanks,â Soobin said dryly.
âYouâre welcome. Anyway, sounds like sheâs exactly what you need.â
Soobin frowned, sitting up straighter. âWhat does that mean?â
âIt means,â Yeonjun said, his voice suddenly sly, âthis summer is the perfect time for you to, you know⌠loosen up a little. Maybe learn a thing or two from her.â
Soobinâs stomach flipped. âYeonjunâŚâ
âIâm just saying!â Yeonjunâs laughter bubbled through the phone again. âYouâve been locked up in libraries and Bible studies your whole life. Youâve been what, single since birth? Donât you think itâs time youââ
âNo.â Soobinâs voice was firm, but he could feel his ears burning.
âNo, what? No, you wonât even think about it?â
âSheâs⌠sheâs not like that. And Iâm not like that,â Soobin said, flustered. âSheâs just⌠staying here. Thatâs it.â
âUh-huh,â Yeonjun said, clearly not convinced. âLet me guess. Sheâs flirty, huh? The kind of girl who knows sheâs pretty?â
Soobinâs mind betrayed him again, replaying scenes from earlier that dayâher sly smile when she teased him at the post office, the way sheâd called him ânot so badâ with that little grin. Heâd felt warm all over, and not just from embarrassment.
âShe⌠teases a lot,â he admitted.
âClassic,â Yeonjun said smugly. âSheâs bored, Soob. Girls like that love making shy guys squirm. And you, my friend, are the perfect target. Tall, polite, sweet, probably never evenââ
âYeonjun,â Soobin interrupted sharply, already knowing where that sentence was going.
Yeonjun burst out laughing. âIâm right though, arenât I?â
Soobin pinched the bridge of his nose. âThis conversation is over.â
âWait, wait, wait!â Yeonjunâs laughter was wheezy now, but he managed to get a few words out. âJust⌠think about it, okay? Maybe this summerâs your chance to, like, live a little. Stop being afraid of girls. Or, I donât know, hold hands with someone before you hit thirty.â
Soobin groaned. âYouâre insufferable.â
âAnd you love me,â Yeonjun shot back. âAnyway, seriously. She sounds hot. Hook up with her.â
Soobin choked. âWhat?! No!â
âWhy not?â
âBecause!â Soobin lowered his voice, glancing at the door again. âSheâs staying here. With my parents. That would be⌠wrong.â
Yeonjun snorted. âOnly if you get caught.â
Soobinâs jaw dropped. âYeonjun!â
âIâm kidding. Mostly.â Yeonjun laughed again, clearly delighted by Soobinâs horror. âBut seriously, donât be such a monk, man. Itâs just a thought.â
Soobin ran a hand through his hair, feeling like his face was on fire. âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd youâre blushing, arenât you?â
âIâm hanging up now.â
âFine, fine,â Yeonjun said, still laughing. âBut call me when something happens. And it will happen. I can feel it in my bones.â
âNothingâs going to happen,â Soobin muttered, but his voice lacked conviction.
âSure,â Yeonjun said, clearly not believing him. âNight, lover boy.â
Soobin ended the call, tossing his phone onto the desk with a groan.
He leaned back in his chair, staring at the ceiling. Nothing was going to happen. Y/N was just a guest. A⌠very pretty guest, with a sharp tongue and a mischievous smile, who had somehow already thrown his entire sense of calm off balance.
But that didnât mean anything.
Right?
⸝
The house was quiet in that cozy, suburban way that made Soobin feel like a teenager againâlike he was tiptoeing around to avoid waking his parents, even though they werenât even home. Theyâd gone to some Bible study group for the evening, leaving him and Y/N alone for the first time.
Heâd spent the last hour holed up in his room, trying to read, but every sound from downstairs had him glancing at his door. The occasional laugh, the clink of something in the kitchen. He assumed Y/N was scrolling through her phone or watching TV. He told himself he didnât care.
Until he heard a male voice.
With an accent.
Soobin frowned, setting his book down and straining to listen. The voice had that breezy Australian lilt, casual and low. He heard Y/N laugh softly, and something about that laugh made his stomach twistânot in a pleasant way.
He got up, moving quietly to his door and cracking it open.
The murmur of conversation drifted up the stairs, followed by the unmistakable sound of kissing.
Soobin froze.
No. No way.
His parentsâ house was sacred territory. A safe, orderly place where chaos wasnât allowed to creep in. And here was this strangerâa guy with an accent, no lessâprobably with his hands all over their guest on the living room couch.
Soobinâs ears burned. He wasnât sure if it was anger, embarrassment, or both, but his legs carried him down the stairs before heâd even decided what he was going to say.
And then he saw them.
Y/N was straddling the guyâs lap, her tiny pajama shorts riding up, one hand fisted in his hair as they kissed like they were alone in some dark club, not his parentsâ pristine living room. The guyâJake, Soobin vaguely recalled hearing her mention his name earlierâhad a hand on her thigh, fingers creeping higher.
Soobinâs entire brain short-circuited.
âY/N!â His voice came out sharper than he intended.
She startled, pulling away from Jake with a look of irritation. âWhat?â
Jake turned too, clearly unbothered, and flashed Soobin a lazy grin. âHey.â
âGet out.â The words left Soobinâs mouth before he could soften them.
Jake blinked. âHuh?â
âYou need to leave. Now,â Soobin said, standing straighter, his height casting a long shadow over the scene. He crossed his arms, trying to channel his fatherâs no-nonsense tone.
Y/Nâs eyes narrowed. âExcuse me?â
âMy parents wouldnât like this,â Soobin said firmly, ignoring how stiff he sounded. âYou⌠you canât just invite some guy over andââ His voice faltered as he gestured vaguely toward Jake.
Jake laughed under his breath. âRelax, bro.â
âNo,â Soobin said, his voice deepening. âOut. Now.â
For a moment, Jake just stared at him, sizing him up. But Soobin was 6â1, broad-shouldered, and visibly pissed. After a beat, Jake huffed a laugh, disentangling himself from Y/N. âAlright, alright. No need to get your panties in a twist.â
Y/N stood abruptly, glaring at Soobin. âJake, waitââ
But Jake was already heading for the door, grabbing his jacket off the couch. He shot Y/N an apologetic look, then gave Soobin a mocking salute as he slipped out.
The door clicked shut, and the silence that followed was deafening.
Y/N whirled on Soobin. âWhat the hell is your problem?â
Soobin swallowed, his pulse still hammering in his ears. âMy problem is that you were about toââ He stopped himself, cheeks flushing bright red. âYou canât just⌠do that in my parentsâ house.â
She crossed her arms, her glare sharp enough to cut glass. âI wasnât doing anything wrong.â
âYouââ He sputtered, motioning to the couch. âYou were practicallyââ He stopped again, his ears burning.
She smirked suddenly, stepping closer. âPractically what, Soobin?â Her voice was teasing now, low and slow, and the way she said his name made his chest feel tight.
Soobin took a step back instinctively, his back hitting the edge of the dining table. âThatâs not⌠you canât just⌠Itâs disrespectful.â
She tilted her head, her smirk widening. âDisrespectful? Wow. Youâre really that uptight, huh?â
âIâm not uptight,â he said quickly, though the heat in his face betrayed him.
âYes, you are.â She took another step closer, and he caught the faint scent of her perfumeâsweet and a little spicy, like vanilla with a kick. It made his pulse race even faster.
âYou really are, like, the perfect little church boy, huh?â she teased.
Soobin bristled, jaw tightening. âThereâs nothing wrong with⌠with having standards.â
She raised a brow. âStandards, huh? Or are you just scared?â
âScared of what?â he asked defensively.
âGirls,â she said simply, smiling like sheâd just checkmated him.
Soobinâs breath hitched. âIâm not scared of girls.â
âYouâre acting like you are.â She stepped even closer, close enough that he could see the mischief glittering in her eyes. She was testing him, pushing buttons she knew would get a reaction.
And oh, she was getting one.
Soobinâs hands flexed at his sides, his body going rigid. He wanted to say somethingâanythingâto regain control of the situation, but his mind was blank. All he could focus on was how close she was, the way her tank top clung to her curves, the bare length of her legs, and the fact that heâd just kicked out a guy she clearly wanted to be with.
âYou really are no fun,â she murmured, leaning in just enough to make his breath hitch. Her lips curved into a slow, wicked smile. âYou shouldâve joined us. Mightâve loosened you up.â
Soobin froze, every nerve in his body going haywire. He opened his mouth to respond, but nothing came out.
Y/N laughed softly, clearly pleased with herself, and pulled back. âRelax, Soob. Iâm just teasing.â She turned on her heel and sauntered toward the stairs, her hips swaying just enough to make him swallow hard.
âGoodnight,â she tossed over her shoulder, voice dripping with amusement.
Soobin stood rooted to the spot long after she disappeared upstairs, his heart pounding and his body buzzing with a confusing mix of anger, embarrassment, and something he didnât want to name.
He glanced at the couch, where her legs had been tangled with Jakeâs moments ago. The thought made his stomach knot.
This was going to be a long summer.
⸝
You couldnât sleep.
Again.
The Choi house was too quiet. No muffled music from the neighbors, no occasional hum of traffic, no comforting chaos. Just stillness. A holy, suburban kind of stillness that felt suffocating. Youâd been scrolling on your phone for an hour, bored out of your mind, lying in a bed that didnât smell like home.
Your gaze drifted to the clock on your nightstand. 1:36 a.m.
You sighed and tossed your phone onto the bed. If you stayed in here any longer, youâd lose your mind.
So, naturally, you thought of Soobin.
Your lips curled into a mischievous smile. The perfect, polite, boring Choi Soobin. Always blushing whenever you teased him. Always tense around you, like you were some sort of test he was terrified to fail. He was such an easy target.
The thought of messing with him was way too tempting.
You slipped out of bed, your bare feet quiet on the carpet, and padded down the hallway. The house was dim, lit only by the soft glow of a lamp in the hallway. You knew which door was hisâsecond on the left, the one youâd been snooping in on your first day here, him catching you.
You grinned at the memory as you gently turned the doorknob.
The door creaked open just enough for you to slip inside. You expected him to be asleep, maybe snoring softly in his perfect little bed, hair neatly arranged like he was starring in a toothpaste commercial.
What you didnât expect was⌠this.
Soobin was lying in bed, shirtless, his long, lean frame illuminated by the glow of his phone screen on the nightstand. His hand was shoved down the waistband of his sweatpants, his hips barely movingâbut it was obvious what he was doing.
Your lips parted in surprise, but you didnât back out. You stayed frozen in the doorway, eyes wide, watching.
âSoo-âŚâ His name almost slipped out of your mouth, but you caught yourself, biting your lip to stifle a laugh.
His head was tilted back against the pillows, lips parted, breathing uneven. Andâoh godâhe was muttering.
âForgive me⌠Lord, forgive me⌠pleaseâŚâ
You had to slap a hand over your mouth to keep from laughing. He wasnât just jerking off. He was praying while he jerked off.
You felt a wicked thrill shoot through you. This was gold. Youâd thought he was a shy virgin before, but now you knew it. The perfect church boy, caught red-handed in the most sinful act of all.
And the way he was trembling, whispering little apologies under his breath⌠it was almost cute. Almost.
You leaned against the doorframe, smirking, and finally spoke. âSoobin.â
The sound of your voice made him jolt violently. His eyes flew open, and he scrambled to yank his hand out of his sweatpants, fumbling for his blanket to cover himself.
âY-Y/N!â he stammered, his face going crimson. âWhat are youâwhy are youâget out!â
You crossed your arms, enjoying every second of his panic. âWow,â you said, your voice dripping with amusement. âAnd here I thought you were too holy for stuff like this.â
His jaw dropped. âIâI wasnâtââ
âPraying while you jerk off?â you teased, tilting your head. âThatâs⌠impressive, Soob. Multi-tasking.â
He groaned, burying his face in his hands. âPlease leave.â
But you werenât leaving. Not yet. This was too fun. You sauntered over, plopping yourself on the edge of his bed like you owned the place. He flinched, scooting back against the headboard, clutching the blanket to his chest like it was a shield.
âRelax,â you said with a smirk. âIâm not gonna bite.â
âY/NâŚâ His voice was strained, almost pleading. âPlease donâtâdonât say anything to my parents. TheyâdâŚâ He trailed off, looking absolutely horrified.
âOhhh, I know theyâd freak out,â you said, leaning closer, lowering your voice conspiratorially. âSweet, perfect Soobin, their pride and joy⌠praying himself off at one in the morning.â
âStop,â he groaned, covering his face again.
You chuckled. âYouâre adorable.â
He peeked at you through his fingers, scowling. âThis isnât funny.â
âItâs a little funny,â you teased. Then your smirk widened. âYou know⌠I could tell them. I could march right downstairs and say, âMrs. Choi, guess what your sonâs been doing instead of reading Bible verses.ââ
Soobinâs eyes widened in pure panic. âYou wouldnât.â
âWouldnât I?â you purred.
His mouth opened, but no words came out. He looked terrified.
You leaned in closer, so close he could probably smell your shampoo. âUnless, of course, you promise not to tell them I had Jake over the other night.â
He blinked, then frowned. âThatâs blackmail.â
You shrugged. âItâs insurance.â
Soobinâs jaw clenched. âFine,â he muttered. âI wonât say anything.â
You grinned triumphantly. âGood boy.â
His entire face turned bright red at that, and you couldnât help laughing softly. He looked like he wanted to disappear.
âRelax,â you said again, patting his knee through the blanket. âYour secretâs safe with me, Soob.â
He stiffened at your touch but didnât pull away. You tilted your head, studying him. His hair was messy, falling into his eyes. His chest rose and fell rapidly under the blanket, and even though heâd stopped touching himself, his arousal was obviousâhe was still hard.
You bit your lip to stifle a grin.
âCute,â you murmured, your voice soft enough to make him flinch again.
âStop,â he whispered, his voice tight.
You leaned back, smirking. âFine. Iâll stop.â You stood, smoothing your tank top, and shot him a wicked grin over your shoulder. âGoodnight, Soobin. Sweet dreams.â
His eyes followed you all the way to the door, wide and wary, like he couldnât believe what had just happened.
You slipped out of his room, closing the door quietly behind you, and padded back to your room with a satisfied smile.
If he thought this was bad, he had no idea what you had in store for him next.
⸝
You were already seated at the kitchen table when Soobin walked in the next morning, looking like heâd barely slept a wink. His hair was damp from a quick shower, his T-shirt slightly wrinkled, and he wouldnât even look at you.
Perfect.
Mrs. Choi was bustling around the kitchen, humming softly as she placed a plate of scrambled eggs and toast in front of you. âEat up, sweetheart,â she said kindly, before glancing at Soobin. âAnd you! Youâre finally awake. Sleep well, honey?â
Soobin muttered something that vaguely resembled âyeah,â and sat across from you, rubbing at his eyes.
You smirked over the rim of your coffee mug. âMorning, Soob.â
He froze at the nickname, his shoulders tensing, but he only gave a stiff nod in reply. He wasnât going to make this fun for you, huh? Well, that was fine. You had other ways of entertaining yourself.
âSoobin,â his mom said cheerfully as she sat down next to you. âWould you mind saying grace for us?â
He immediately straightened in his seat, folding his long fingers together. You watched his Adamâs apple bob as he cleared his throat and bowed his head, reciting the prayer softly.
You didnât bow your head. You just watched him, a slow smile playing at your lips. His voice was steady, calm⌠but you noticed the faint pink creeping up his neck. He knew you were watching him. He felt your eyes on him.
When he finished, his mom beamed at him and started eating. You picked up your fork but couldnât resist leaning forward slightly, lowering your voice so only he could hear.
âYou pray so well, Soobin,â you murmured. âI wonder if you were praying for the same thing last night.â
The way his entire body went rigid was delicious.
His eyes flicked up to yours, wide, panicked, and then darted to his mom to make sure she hadnât heard. She was busy spreading butter on her toast, oblivious.
âIâI donât know what youâre talking about,â he muttered, voice strained.
You smirked, swirling your fork in your scrambled eggs. âSure you donât.â
His face turned bright red, and he focused intently on his plate, shoving a bite of toast in his mouth like it would save him.
Mrs. Choi glanced between the two of you, smiling. âIâm so glad you two are getting along,â she said warmly.
You hid a grin behind your mug. Oh, if only she knew.
âYeah,â you said sweetly. âWeâre⌠getting to know each other pretty well.â
Soobin choked on his toast.
His mom immediately fussed over him, handing him a glass of water. He waved her off, coughing into his fist, and when his gaze flicked up at you, it was sharp. A warning.
You just raised an eyebrow, enjoying every second.
After a moment, he leaned closer across the table, his voice low and shaky but tinged with something that almost sounded like defiance. âCareful,â he murmured. âWouldnât want me mentioning⌠Jake, would you?â
Your smirk faltered for a second. Oh?
He actually had a little bite to him.
Interesting.
You tilted your head, considering him. His face was red, but his gaze was steady in a way that surprised you. It was almost⌠hot.
You leaned back in your chair, a slow smile spreading across your lips. âYouâre learning, Soob,â you whispered.
Then you stretched your leg under the table.
He flinched when your toes brushed against his shin.
He froze, staring at his plate, gripping his fork so tightly his knuckles turned white. You bit your lip, stifling a laugh as you slowly dragged your foot higher, along the length of his calf, up his thighâŚ
He inhaled sharply, his entire body stiffening.
âSoobin, honey, can you pass the jam?â his mom asked casually.
âUhâyeah,â he croaked, fumbling for the jar and nearly knocking over his water glass.
You bit your cheek to keep from laughing. This was too good.
You let your foot settle in his lap, toes brushing against the obvious bulge beneath his pajama pants. You hadnât expected him to be hard already, but the moment your toes grazed him, his breath hitched audibly.
You stilled.
Holy shit.
You could feel him. Thick, heavy, even through the fabric of his pants.
You blinked, caught off guard for a moment, before a slow, wicked smile curled your lips. Well, well, well. No wonder he was so shy.
âSoobin,â you whispered, just for him. âYouâre⌠big.â
His entire body jerked, and he ducked his head, ears burning crimson.
âY/N,â he hissed under his breath, voice strangled.
âWhatâs wrong?â you murmured innocently, pressing your foot down more firmly against him, rubbing along his length.
He squeezed his eyes shut, his fork trembling in his hand. âS-stopâŚâ he whispered.
But he didnât push you away.
You felt a thrill shoot through you at the realization. For all his protests, for all his shame, Soobin wasnât stopping you.
You leaned forward slightly, your voice a soft, sultry whisper meant to torment him. âYou really want me to stop?â
He swallowed hard, his Adamâs apple bobbing. He didnât answer.
Your grin widened.
Mr. Choi, completely unaware of the battle happening under his kitchen table, calmly asked Soobin about his plans for the day. He stammered through a vague response, his voice strained and higher than usual.
You slid your foot up and down his length slowly, teasingly, feeling him twitch beneath your touch. You couldnât stop smiling. The power you had over him was intoxicating.
He was flushed, sweating lightly, biting his lip hard enough to leave a mark. You could tell he was holding on by a thread.
âY/N,â he whispered again, his voice breaking this time. âPleaseâŚâ
You tilted your head, pretending to consider his plea.
âPlease what?â you whispered back, pressing your toes firmly against the outline of his cock.
He let out a tiny, strangled sound that made you shiver. Youâd bet anything this was the first time anyone had ever touched him like this. And God, he was huge.
You pulled your foot back suddenly, leaving him panting and wide-eyed.
âBe a good boy, Soob,â you whispered with a smirk, stabbing a piece of scrambled egg with your fork. âWouldnât want your mom to find out what a pervert you are.â
He glared at you weakly, but his entire face was still red, and he was obviously struggling to calm down, shifting uncomfortably in his chair.
Mrs. Choi smiled warmly at both of you, oblivious. âIâm so glad you two are spending time together. It makes me so happy.â
You gave her your sweetest smile, all innocence. âOh, weâre definitely spending time together, Mrs. Choi.â
Soobin looked like he might die.
And you? You couldnât wait to see how far you could push him next.
⸝
Soobin was pacing his room like he was about to have a nervous breakdown.
The week had been hell. Pure, unfiltered torture disguised as polite smiles and quiet breakfasts. Heâd gone home for the summer expecting a few months of peaceâvisiting family, catching up on sleep, maybe reading a few books. Heâd thought that would be safe.
Instead, every waking moment was haunted by her.
Y/N.
The sweet, church-going, well-mannered guest his mom adored. The one who helped set the dinner table every night and cleaned dishes without being asked. The one who dressed modestly when his parents were around, all demure smiles and soft laughter that made her seem like a model daughter-in-law.
But the second they were alone, she turned intoâŚ
Soobin groaned, dragging his hands down his face. He didnât even want to think about what she turned into when his parents werenât looking.
He plopped down on his bed, grabbing his phone. He needed to vent. There was only one person he could call about this without dying of shame.
âYo,â came Yeonjunâs voice after a single ring. âArenât you supposed to be in, like, Christian suburbia right now?â
Soobin let out a long, miserable sigh. âI am.â
There was a pause. âYou sound like youâre about to cry,â Yeonjun said, amused. âWhat happened? Did your mom make you lead a Bible study or something?â
Soobin flopped back on his pillow, staring up at the ceiling. âItâs⌠Y/N.â
There was silence on the other end for a moment, and then Yeonjun snorted. âThe girl staying with your family? The one you said was sweet and polite?â
There was a pause, followed by a loud laugh that made Soobinâs face burn. âOh my God, tell me everything right now,â Yeonjun cackled.
Soobin groaned again, curling into himself like a wounded animal. âSheâs⌠she keeps⌠teasing me.â
âTeasing you?â
âYes! Sheâshe came into the kitchen the other day wearing barely anything! And she⌠sheââ He swallowed, his face going nuclear red at the memory. âShe touched me. At the breakfast table.â
Yeonjun burst out laughing so loudly Soobin had to pull the phone away from his ear.
âBro,â Yeonjun wheezed, âyouâre telling me this girl is flirting with you and youâre calling it harassment?â
Soobin sat up, glaring at the wall. âIt is harassment! Sheâsâsheâs not supposed toââ
âShe touched your dick under the table, didnât she?â
Soobin choked. âY-Yeonjun!â
âDude.â Yeonjun was still laughing, but his voice had an edge of disbelief now. âYou sound like a Victorian maiden clutching his pearls. What is wrong with you? Sheâs obviously into you!â
Soobin groaned, burying his face in his hands. âSheâs⌠sheâs not! Sheâs just⌠sheâs messing with me. She thinks itâs funny. And itâs working! I canât even look at her withoutââ He broke off, too humiliated to finish.
âWithout popping a boner?â Yeonjun supplied helpfully.
âYeonjun!â
âWhat? Am I wrong?â
Soobin made a strangled noise, tugging at his hair in frustration.
Yeonjun sighed like a tired older brother. âSoobin. Buddy. Youâre twenty-four. Not fourteen. This isnât sexual harassment. This is a girl throwing herself at you and you being too scared to do anything about it.â
âIâm not scared!â
âYouâre terrified,â Yeonjun said flatly. âYouâre acting like kissing her will send you to hell.â
Soobin flopped back onto the bed again, staring at the ceiling fan spinning lazily above him. âYeonjun, sheâs⌠sheâs not just any girl. Sheâs staying with my family. My parents love her. They think sheâs perfect. If they found out sheâs⌠like thatâŚâ
Yeonjun chuckled. âLike what? Hot? Horny? Into you?â
Soobin groaned into his pillow.
Yeonjunâs tone softened slightly, though there was still teasing underneath. âSoobin. Be honest. You like her, donât you?â
Soobin froze.
His mouth opened, but no words came out.
âYou do,â Yeonjun said, amused. âYou like her. You wouldnât be this freaked out if you didnât.â
âI⌠I donâtâŚâ
âLiar.â
Soobin sat up, glaring at the phone like Yeonjun could see him. âI donât like her! Sheâs⌠sheâs awful! She makes fun of me all the time, and sheâshe smirks when she knows sheâs making me uncomfortable, and she wonât stop! Sheâs not⌠sheâs not even nice!â
âYouâre obsessed with her.â
âIâm not!â
âYou are.â
âIââ Soobin stopped, running a hand through his hair in frustration. ââŚMaybe I am.â
There was a beat of silence, and then Yeonjun chuckled. âThatâs more like it. Took you long enough to admit it.â
Soobin collapsed back onto the bed with a groan. âWhat do I do?â
âEasy. You fuck her.â
Soobin sat up so fast he almost dropped his phone. âWHAT?!â
âYou heard me.â
âYeonjun!â
âWhat?â Yeonjun sounded completely unbothered. âYouâre both adults. She clearly wants you. You clearly want her. Why are you torturing yourself?â
Soobinâs face was burning so hot he thought he might combust. âBecause! Because Iâm⌠Iâve never⌠I donâtâŚâ
âBecause youâre still a virgin?â
Soobin made a noise of pure humiliation.
Yeonjun snorted. âSo what? You think sheâs gonna care? Dude, if anything, sheâs probably into that. Girls love being someoneâs first. Itâs hot.â
Soobin covered his face with his hands. âI canât believe weâre having this conversation.â
âBelieve it. And listen to me carefully, Soob. Youâve spent your whole life being this good, obedient Christian boy. Your parents are saints. Youâve never done anything wrong. But youâre twenty-four. Youâre allowed to want things. Youâre allowed to want her.â
Soobin bit his lip, staring at the ceiling. His heart was pounding.
âYouâre not gonna go to hell for having sex,â Yeonjun continued. âTrust me. Iâve had plenty, and God hasnât struck me down yet.â
âThatâs⌠not comforting,â Soobin muttered.
Yeonjun laughed. âLook. All Iâm saying is, stop torturing yourself. Sheâs not gonna stop teasing you. Sheâs making you crazy. Sooner or later, youâre gonna snap. And honestly? Maybe thatâs what you need.â
Soobin groaned, rolling onto his stomach. âYeonjunâŚâ
âYeah?â
ââŚWhat if I mess it up?â he mumbled into his pillow.
Yeonjunâs voice softened, losing some of its teasing edge. âYou wonât. Youâre Soobin. You overthink everything. She wouldnât be teasing you this much if she didnât really like you. She wants you, dude. You just have to let yourself want her back.â
Soobin closed his eyes, his chest tight.
He hated how much sense Yeonjun made.
⸝
Sunday morning was already off to a slow, painful start.
Youâd been up late scrolling on your phone, the glow from your screen keeping you awake long past midnight, and the knock on your door at 8 a.m. had been a rude awakening.
âY/N, sweetie? Time to get up for church,â Soobinâs mom called through the door, voice sing-song sweet.
Youâd groaned into your pillow but forced yourself to get up. Church. Of course. Youâd gone to church enough as a kid to know the drill, and while your parents still dragged you occasionally, you hadnât stepped foot in a pew for months. Years, maybe. It had always been boring, and now? Torture.
You slipped into a modest dress from the stack your mom had packed for youâone of those high-necked, floral things she loved. You hadnât even brought anything scandalous this week; your parents had practically triple-checked your suitcase before letting you leave.
When you came downstairs, Soobin was already at the kitchen table, dressed in a crisp white shirt and black slacks, hair neatly parted. He looked like heâd stepped out of a church brochure, all tall, angelic awkwardness.
âMorning,â heâd mumbled, glancing up from his coffee. Heâd looked at you for a moment too long before quickly dropping his gaze to his mug.
Youâd smirked to yourself, enjoying the way he couldnât look at you without blushing, even when you were fully covered. It was⌠cute. Pathetic, but cute.
The ride to church was uneventful, though you caught Soobin glancing at you in the rearview mirror a few times. His parents chatted about some neighborhood barbecue, his mom asking you polite questions about school and complimenting your dress, while you smiled sweetly and lied through your teeth. You were good at that by now.
When you arrived, you plastered on your best âholyâ smile as his parents introduced you to half the congregation. You shook hands, made polite small talk, and sat in the pew next to Soobin.
And then the boredom set in.
The choir sang. The pastor droned on about forgiveness and sin. You shifted in your seat, crossing and uncrossing your legs, your mind drifting.
You glanced at Soobin beside you. He was sitting up straight, hands folded neatly on his lap, listening intently. Of course he was.
You couldnât help but smirk. He was so⌠good. So obedient. Even now, after a week of your teasing, he was sitting like a picture-perfect Christian boy.
Your gaze lingered on him a little too long, tracing the slope of his jaw, the way his Adamâs apple bobbed when he swallowed. He was painfully handsome in a way that made your chest feel tight.
And then, as if God himself was listening, Soobin shifted. He leaned down slightly, murmured something to his mom, and then slipped out of the pew.
Bathroom break.
You bit your lip, your heart racing.
This was your chance.
⸝
You waited a minute, pretending to flip through the hymnal, then leaned over to Soobinâs mom. âExcuse me,â you whispered, offering her a polite smile. âIâm just gonna run to the bathroom.â
She nodded without suspicion, and you slipped out of the pew, smoothing your skirt as you walked casually toward the back of the sanctuary.
Once you were out of view, your pace quickened. You spotted Soobin disappearing into the menâs restroom down the hallway and smirked. Perfect.
When you pushed open the bathroom door, Soobin nearly jumped out of his skin.
âY/N?!â he hissed, eyes wide. He was standing by the sinks, washing his hands. âYouâYou canât be in here!â
You leaned against the wall, smirking. âRelax, Soob. No oneâs out here.â
His jaw dropped slightly at the nickname. Youâd only called him that a few times this week, always in private, always with that teasing lilt. And every time, it had made him blush.
He took a step back, looking like a deer in headlights. âWhat⌠what are you doing?â
You crossed your arms, tilting your head. âI was bored.â
He blinked at you like he couldnât comprehend that answer. âSo you⌠followed me into the bathroom?â
You shrugged. âWhy not?â
His mouth opened, then closed again, like he wanted to scold you but couldnât find the words. You stepped closer, watching him tense.
âYouâve been avoiding me,â you said softly.
âI⌠I havenât.â
âYou have.â You smiled, slow and knowing. âYouâve barely said two words to me all morning.â
Soobin flushed, glancing away. âWe⌠weâre in church.â
âSo?â
He looked back at you, eyes wide. âSo⌠weâre in church!â
You laughed quietly, stepping closer until his back hit the wall. He froze, his breath hitching.
âYouâre so dramatic,â you murmured, looking up at him. âWhatâs the big deal, Soobin? Afraid Godâs watching?â
His Adamâs apple bobbed. âY/NâŚâ
You reached up, brushing your fingers lightly over his chest, feeling the rapid beat of his heart beneath your touch. âYouâve been so tense all week,â you whispered. âI bet you havenât stopped thinking about me.â
His eyes widened, and his lips parted, but he didnât answer.
You smirked. âIâm right, arenât I?â
He squeezed his eyes shut like he was in pain. âYou⌠you canâtâŚâ
âI canât what?â you teased, leaning up so your lips brushed his ear. âTouch you?â
His breath hitched audibly.
You trailed your hand lower, fingers skimming down his stomach, stopping just above his belt. His entire body stiffened.
âY/NâŚâ His voice cracked, barely above a whisper.
You smiled, leaning back just enough to meet his gaze. His eyes were wide, glassy with panicâor maybe anticipation. Probably both.
âRelax, Soobin,â you murmured, your voice soft but teasing. âNo oneâs gonna know.â
You sank to your knees in front of him, and his face was red enough to rival a tomato.
âWaitâŚâ Soobin glances at the door as you take off his belt.
You pause just to let him lock it before you tug down his slacks, which makes him yelp quietly.
You smirk at the sight of his big cock straining against his boxers. âSo you do like this.â
Soobin doesnât have time to respond before youâre tugging down his boxers as well.
He was trembling, his hands gripping the edge of the counter so tightly his knuckles were white.
You looked up at him, smirking at how utterly wrecked he already seemed, and murmured, âYouâre so cute like this.â
He whimperedâa sound so soft you almost didnât catch itâand your smirk widened.
The thrill of doing something so wrong in a church bathroom making your pulse race.
It only took one slow lick from his balls to his tip to have him moan in surprise. His cock felt heavy and hot against your tongue, the taste of his slightly salty pre-cum filling your taste buds as you swirl your tongue around his red tip.
You ignore his noises and worries to attempt to deep throat him in one go. Bad idea. As soon as his tip touched the back of your throat, you gagged just a little and pulled back.â
âA-Are you ok?!â Soobin asks, panicking a little bit.
âYeah.â You nod quickly, redeeming yourself by just sucking what you could take.
Soobin moaned more loudly, his hips twitching towards your mouth.
Feeling his pleasure, you lift your hands to stroke what wasnât in your mouth.
Soobin was a mess, trying desperately to stay quiet, his head tipped back against the wall, hands shaking.
You knew he was going to cum already, and you couldnât blame him. So you hum a little as you bob your head and suck him harder, enough to make the poor manâs thighs shake.
He tried to push your head away because he didnât wanna finish in your mouth or your face or anything âdisrespectfulâ.
But you loved disrespectful. So you made sure not to get pushed away so you could swallow every drop of his pure virgin cum.
When you pull away, your lips leave his cock with a pop noise. You look up at Soobin, licking your lips.
His expression was wrecked. His chest was rising and falling rapidly, his cheeks bright red, eyes glassy with disbelief. âYouâŚâ His voice cracked, and he shut his mouth quickly, like even speaking was too much.
You stood, grabbing his shirt to pull him down into a kiss. He made a soft, startled noise against your mouth, and you smiled, deepening the kiss until he finally kissed you back, clumsy and desperate.
You pushed him gently toward one of the stalls, guiding him inside and locking the door behind you. His back hit the wall again, and you grinned at his wide-eyed, dazed expression.
âSit,â you whispered, giving his chest a little push.
He obeyed instantly, dropping onto the closed toilet seat with a thud, still looking like he couldnât believe this was happening.
âY/N, we⌠we canâtâŚâ His voice was shaky, but he didnât stop you when you straddled his lap, hiking up your dress just enough to settle over him.
You smirked, leaning in close, your lips brushing his ear. âYou donât want me to stop.â
A soft, broken sound escaped his throat, and you felt him tense beneath you.
âY/NâŚâ he whispered again, but it was less of a protest this time and more of a plea.
You smiled, cupping his jaw and kissing him deeply. He kissed back like he was starving, his hands hovering awkwardly at your waist like he wasnât sure if he was allowed to touch you.
You guided him gently, whispering soft encouragement, your teasing tone melting into something sultry as you coaxed him to relax.
You lowered yourself slowly, inch by inch, feeling him stretch you in a way that made your breath hitch. His cock, long and thick as youâd imagined, filled you completely. You gasped at the sensation, clutching his chest for balance.
âF-fuckâŚâ he groaned, voice breaking, hands gripping your hips like he was afraid youâd fall off. âIâdonâtâdonât move yet.â
âRelax, virgin,â you teased, bouncing lightly on him. âYouâre mine now.â
The first slow grind sent shivers up both your spines. His body tensed beneath yours with every tiny movement, each gasp, each soft curse from him fueling your own fire. You leaned forward, hands tangling in his hair, pressing your lips against his temple.
âYouâre so fucking big,â you whispered. âI can feel every inch of you. God, I could ride you forever.â
He whimpered, fingers tightening in your hair. âI-I⌠Iâve never⌠felt⌠anyoneâŚâ
âGood,â you breathed, bouncing a little faster. âThen let me show you how it feels.â
With that, you began to move in earnest, rocking your hips over him, your body controlling the rhythm now. He groaned loudly, head falling back, eyes half-closed, utterly undone by your touch. Every grind made his muscles tense and release, every moan that escaped his lips sending a thrill straight through you.
âFaster,â he gasped suddenly, voice cracking. âPlease⌠oh godâfasterâŚâ
You smirked, riding him harder, leaning forward to bite at his shoulder, teasing, cruel in the way only you could be. âYouâre such a good boy for me,â you murmured, âlearning your body like this⌠like I own it.â
His hips jerked wildly under you, hands gripping your sides, nails digging into your skin. You could feel his cock pulsing, every inch of him straining against you as you rode him.
âY/N⌠IâIâm gonnaââ His voice broke into a whimper, chest rising and falling rapidly.
âOh, youâre gonna?â you teased, slowing just slightly to let him beg. âYouâre not allowed to cum without me telling you to.â
He moaned, desperate, âPlease⌠please, I canâtâI canât hold itâŚâ
You leaned down, lips brushing his ear. âBeg for it,â you whispered, tone harsh but wet with amusement. âBeg me, Soobin. Beg me to let you cum.â
âI-I⌠Y/N⌠please⌠please let me cum for youâŚâ he whimpered, trembling beneath you, the tight coil of his tension about to snap.
You smiled cruelly, letting your hips roll one last time over him, feeling him explode inside you, his first release messy and overwhelming. His moans filled the room, guttural and raw, shaking your name over and over. You sank down onto him, letting him ride out his orgasm as your own shivers coursed through you, every nerve alive.
When he finally stilled, panting and slick with sweat, you leaned down, kissing his forehead lightly.
âYou did so well,â you said softly, voice almost gentle now. âThatâs what happens when you trust someone like me.â
He looked up at you, wide-eyed, still trembling, still overwhelmed. âI⌠never thoughtâŚâ
âShh,â you whispered, pressing a finger to his lips. âJust feel. Thatâs all you have to do.â
And for the rest of summer break, youâd let him. Let him explore, let him feel, let him learn what it meant to be yours.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Qualityâ Free Actions
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
Summary: You're tired of the college's emo tryhard skater boy making fun of you. It's not your fault you're so perfect and loved by everyone. So to make him eat his words, you seduce him and take his virginity to show him that he's not better than the countless people that fall at your feet in admiration.
Problem is, now he follows you around like a puppy.
Warnings: sub!beomgyu, dom!reader, reader has a fiance but it's not cheating.
GIF CREDIT
âSo when will the lovely couple tie the knot?â Soobin's mother speaks up. She's a petite elegant woman, so tiny and dainty in between Soobin and his father. But her pretty features were prominent on Soobin's face.
âWe haven't decided yet." You still haven't told your families that you're not planning on getting married before graduation. They wanted it as soon as possible and you were trying to hold onto some level of normalcy for as long as you can. "You know weâre still students.â You say carefully.
"Nonsense." Your mother cuts in, "Youâre young and in love and you have everything ready. Why wait?â
âWe just think we could maybe take it a bit slow."
"How slow?" Soobin's father speaks up, devoid of his wife and son's friendly demeanor.
"I⌠I'm not sure." You hesitate, not wanting to set off the intimidating man.
"You clearly know. I don't appreciate being made a fool of, little girl."
You clench your dress under the table. The atmosphere around the table gets tense, and you look to your own father to defend you, but it's not him who speaks up.
âLeave her alone." Soobin grits.
You look up at him in surprise, seeing the barely contained rage on his face. You put your hand on his thigh, silently pleading with him to calm down. You don't want him to get into trouble with his father because of you. You know how much he hates that.
âIsn't it enough that you're forcing her into this? The least you can do is have the decency to let her decide when she wants to get married.â
âBinnieâŚâ You look in fear between him and his father. Youâve never seen Soobin angry before.
âNo. This is so unfair to you.â He shouts, "We're doing what you want. Leave her alone."
You take his hand in your and pull him up, muttering to the stunned table. âWeâre going to get some fresh air.â
Once outside, Soobin starts freaking out.
"Shit, did I really just do that?" He hyperventilates.
You clasp your hands in his, laughing. "You did, baby."
âIâm sorry for making a scene. I probably looked like a fool.â
âYou looked dashing." You cup his cheeks in your hands. "Like my own knight in shining armor.â
He leans into your touch, smiling bashfully.
"But I didn't want you to get into trouble with your father because of me. I know youâre doing all of this for me, and seeing you get in a fight with your father over me makes me feel like shit."
You bow your head down, feeling guilty. Soobin props a finger under your chin and lifts your face up to look at him. "Don't say that. You have every right to want to postpone the wedding. This is all too sudden."
You start tearing up, feeling weak and stupid. "But it's sudden for you, but you're not being whiny and pathetic like me."
"That's just because I know I won't find a better wife than you." He smiles and you blush, burying your face in his chest. âHow did I get so lucky to be engaged to you?â
âGuess you gotta thank our families.â He jokes and you hit his shoulder playfully.
You stand in his embrace, leaning against his broad chest as he sways gently with you, and you know that you're safe and secure with him.
"How's Beomgyu?"
The sweet mood dissipates with his question.
It became a regular thing to have Beomgyu over. You quite liked playing with him. And just having him around.
You pull back to see his face, but you don't see any hint of anger or upset in his expression, and you feel safe to answer. "He'sâŚsweet."
"Why the hesitation? Is he bothering you?" Soobin buffs his chest out. "You saw what I just did. I can kick his ass for you, right?â
You laugh. âIâm sorry, babe. But I think even Beomgyu can take you.â
He clutches his heart in shock. âWhat happened to being your knight in shining armor?â
âI was just saying that to make you feel better.â You tease.
âIâm wounded.â He fakes heartbreak and you giggle, pulling him for another kiss kiss.
âSeriously, is everything okay?â
He wasn't asking you because he's jealous. He just wanted to make sure you're okay. It makes your heart flutter. But there is also a small part of you that wishes he was a bit jealous. Because you were very jealous about his own relationship.
âYeah. I like spending time with him.â You say and he smiles serenely.
âWhat about--â You clear your throat, gaze falling to his chest where you fiddle with the button of his dress shirt.
"What about you and Arin?" You didn't wanna ask, worried about what he might say. What if he says he likes her? "She's really pretty, isn't she?"
"Hey.â He cups your chin, making you face his eyes that look at you with sincerity. âI love you. We can stop this any time."
"No!â You felt stupid. Why were you so insecure when he wasnât? It was your idea. âI wanna do this."
"Are you sure?"
You smile, stepping away. "Of course." You wrap your arms around yourself. "Let's go back. They're probably waiting for us."
"Okay, darling." He sighs and plants a kiss on your forehead. âIf you ever wanna stop, all you have to do is tell me.â
___________
You almost invite Soobin to spend the night. You can tell he wanted you to. But you needed some alone time to think about what he said. You felt conflicted. Maybe you really should stop what you're doing with Beomgyu and get married already.
Lucky you didnât invite him, because when you step foot into your room, youâre met by a loud voice.
âWhere were you--â Beomgyuâs whine stops suddenly and he stares at you with his mouth hanging open.
You frown. âWhatâs with you, dummy?â
He quickly shuts his mouth and scratches the back of his head sheepishly. âUm⌠you look good.â
You smile, finding his reaction endearing. Could you really stop this right now? You haven't had your fill of him yet.
âJust good? Not jaw-dropping amazing?â You tease, and he groans. âShut up.â
âYou look good too.â You pull on his suspenders. âReally cute. Whatâs the occasion?â
âHad to meet up with some family members and my parents swore theyâd kick me out if I wore my usual clothes.â He murmurs, brushing his nose against yours, and you laugh, pulling away before he does something stupid and kisses you.
âWell, I like it.â
He pouts. âSo you donât like how I normally dress?â
âI like them too. You look pretty in everything.â You grin, appreciating the way he blushes at the praise.
You place your bag on the dresser then turn to him in excitement. âOh, Iâve got something for you!â
âWhat is it?â
You donât answer his question, instead grabbing his hand and tugging on it, dragging him downstairs.
âTa-da!â You shake your hands in the air, framing the brand new PS5 you just got.
âWoah, when did you get this?â
âOh, you know, this morning?â You shrug.
âIs this for me?â He smiles giddily and you roll your eyes. âActually yes. I wanted to see how you get excited over kidâs stuff.â
âExcuse you! Video games arenât just for kids.â
âWhatever you say, nerd.â
âCan I?â He asks, stepping to the console.
âOf course.â You say, and he gets to work setting it up. You watch him for a minute before you fondly pat his head. "I'll go change."
"Nooo, you look so sexy. Don't change.." He grabs onto your legs, pouting like a child.
âUgh, fine.â You canât refuse him when he looks so cute.
________
Soon enough, Beomgyu has everything set up and heâs immersed in his games and youâre immersed in watching him play. Heâs so animated, itâs a joy to watch. You find yourself laughing at all his stupid reactions and jokes.
âTake that. No one can stand in King Beomgyuâs way.â He proclaims in a deep voice, taking down his opponent.
âYouâre so dumb.â You laugh, playing with his hair. He sneaks a shy look at you, getting distracted and receiving a critical hit. âFuck, no!â He whines, looking so cute, you could almost kiss him.
To keep yourself from losing control, you decide to mess with him, massaging his thighs.
âWhat are you doing?â He asks nervously.
"Keep playing your little games."
"Stop calling them that. You're making me feel stupid." He whines, trying to hide just how affected he is already.
"That's because you are." You tease, not touching him where he clearly wants you to touch him. He spreads his legs for you and tries to scoot down the couch to get your hand on his dick but you purposefully avoid that.
He breaks way too quickly. "Please touch me."
"I am touching you."
"Not there."
"Where do you want me to touch you?"
"My dick."
"Aren't you a dirty boy? You know I just got home from dinner with my fiance and you're begging me to touch your dick? I thought you felt guilty about him."
"Fuck him." He growls.
"Hmm feisty." You cup his dick. "Your dick got you all worked up? It's so easy to control you. Just gotta rub your cock a little bit and you're putty in my hands. What would your emo friends say if they saw you like this under my touch?"
"They'd probably think I'm a legend for getting the hottest girl in school to give me a handjob while I play video games." He answers cockily and you lean in, pressing your body against his side to whisper in his ear, playing with one of the suspenders with your free hand. "You think I'm the hottest girl in school?"
He whines, having expected to embarrass you but ending up getting embarrassed himself. "You're so lame."
You don't shoot back, just content to cover his neck in kisses while you tug on his hard cock through his pants, enjoying watching him struggle to focus on his game.
"You enjoy this? So adorable.â You pull his dick out, pumping it. âYou're such a nerd."
âIâm not a nerd.â He whines, pushing up against your hand.
âWanna fuck?â You ask, cutting off his protests, and he immediately throws his controller to the side.
âNo, you have to keep playing.â You scold, putting the controller back in his hands.
âWhy?â
âBecause I like messing with you."
You pull your dress up and your panties off, not bothering to get his own shorts off, liking how he cute looks with the white shirt and suspenders as he plays his game. You can fuck him with his little outfit on. Getting on top of him, you face the screen before sliding down on his cock.
âOh, fuck.â He grunts, feeling your tight walls around him, his hands going limp.
âKeep playing or Iâll get off.â You warn him.
He puts on a huge pout but works hard to try to concentrate on the game. âYouâre pure evil.â
You giggle, staying like that and not moving an inch.
âI thought you said youâll fuck me.â He complains.
"I have to take it slow or you'll cum too early." You smirk, clenching around him and squeezing a small moan out of him. "I guess you can't help it when the hottest girl in school sits on your cock."
"Will you even let me live that down?" He groans, and you shake your head. âFine. Let me move my hips then."
"Alright." You lie back against him, letting him buck his hips up. It's a struggle since he can't use his hands to help him but to you it just makes it hotter, him struggling to fuck into you while he tries to play.
He can't do it for long though, not when you purposefully clench your walls around his dick, squeezing your pussy around him and milking his swollen cock. He throws his head back in a moan, losing his place and getting killed.
"Dumb baby, don't just focus on your dick." You tsk, the constant bounce of his hips making you breathless.
He does his best to focus--he really does, your obedient boy-- even getting a couple of kills.
"Good job baby. Killing them all." You say sweetly like you're talking to a child, bouncing a little on top of him as a reward. "My King Beomgyu is amazing."
He buries his face in your neck, whining at your mocking praise. "You smell good."
"You're such a simp." You chuckle.
A ping grabs your attention, and you look to your phone to see that Soobin has texted you.
How are you feeling now, darling?
You smile at his sweet message, and type in a reply.
I'm good now. Thank you for standing up for me. My shining knight.
"Are you seriously texting someone while I'm balls deep in you?" Beomgyu grunts, and bites down on your shoulder in punishment, making you yelp and jump in his lap.
You reach a hang back to grab at his hair and pull his head back. "You stupid pup! I'm talking to Soobin."
"I don't care. Talk to him later." He grunts, his hips moving frantically under you. "Focus on me. I'm winning for you"
"He's my fiance, you spoiled baby." You gasp, feeling the head of his dick slamming so close to your cervix.
"And youâre dripping on my shorts. So what?" He leans forward, trapping your thigh with forearms and steadying your body against his so he can properly fuck up into you.
"Beomgyu!" You gasp at the sudden intensity, unable to focus on your chat with Soobin.
"Yeah, that's right. Only focus on me." He moans dazedly, his moans ringing in your ear as your own ones fill up the room, the game long forgotten.
"I'm close. Want you to cum. Can I touch you, please?"
You grab one of his hands and shove it between your legs, helping him rub your pussy and guiding him on how to get you to climax.
"Thank you. Thank you." He shudders, feeling your pussy spasm around his cock as you cum and milking him in the process. "Baby⌠baby you feel so good."
Him calling you baby so erotically almost rips a second orgasm out of you. Why the hell does he sound so sexy? How are you supposed to cut it off with him when his every word and sound gets you hooked so easily?
Grunting, you go to get up to grab something to clean the both of you, but Beomgyu quickly pulls you back on the couch and stands up instead.
"Let me do the cleaning. Can't have the princess dirty herself."
You know he's making fun of you like always, but your stupid heart still skips a beat at the tender nickname. You sit there dumbly, letting him wipe you off with some wet tissues before he pulls your clothes back over your body and presses a kiss against your cheek.
âLet me stay the night.â
âWhat? Why?â
âI canât go home like this. You ruined my shorts.â
You look at his shorts to see a big wet stain on the front of them and you blush, groaning and covering your face, but he doesnât stop there. âI guess you really liked fucking this nerd, huh? Youâre really dirty, baby.â
âIf you donât shut up Iâll kick you out and have you go home like this.â You snap.
âSo youâre letting me stay?â He perks up.
âFine.â
âThank you, princess.â He smiles sweetly at you and you roll your eyes and get up. âIâm only doing this because Iâm nice.â
Thatâs a lie. You want him to stay. But youâll drop dead before you admit that to him.
Ëâ⎠TXT HOST CLUB 1. THE PRINCE CHARMING TYPE !
genre: smut, homie hopper y/n, ohshc au, mini series, dom! reader, crack, fluff, uni au, reverse harem, parody
pairing: sub! ot5 txt x dom! reader (yeonjun x reader in this chap)
summary: You enrol into a rich ass university under a scholarship scheme. You find out the university is not only famous for its prestigiousness, but also very famous for their host club: a club with five very handsome, very eccentric boys that entertain the bored and affluent students. When you accidentally land yourself in debt to them, you're forced to assist with five events each under a different host. What can go wrong�!
warnings: subby!yeonjun, dom!reader, afab gn reader, cringe flirting, making out, handjob, cunnilingus, fingering, cum eating, top! yeonjun, riding, finger sucking, feminisation of yeonjun, use of pet names âprincessâ, use of condom, inaccurate depictions of fashion design
word count: 9.1k Txt host club ml & char profile !
âcome on, just come with me after this. I donât wanna go alone.â Your friend, yoon, nudges you, not so discreetly chatting to you once youâre nearing the end of your two hour lecture.
Your eyes flicker from the board, which youâre still trying to concentrate on, but also, your attention is wearing thin and youâre waiting until the painfully slow last few seconds go by and it finally ends. âI donât get it. Is this some kind of society?â You whisper back to her.
âKindaâŚyeah, itâs a host club-â You donât hear the rest of what she says, everyone starts chaotically packing up their laptops and notes, abruptly leaving the lecture hall once it ends and flooding the exits with traffic.
You do the same, and so does yoon. Once youâre out in the hallway and away from the trampling stampede, she begins animatedly trying to sell the idea to you again.
âI went to that badminton taster session for you because you wanted to go! And I got hit in the face with a racket, so that means you totally have to come with me this time.â
You sigh inconveniently, adjusting the strap of your bag higher on your shoulder. You supposed you could go to it for her, you were free the rest of the evening. âFine, whatâs it actually about again?â
She rubs at the back of her neck, pausing, looking sheepish and surprisingly hesitant for a second. Your eyebrow raises at this.
âYou really donât know? Surely you must have heard of it? Itâs really popular.â
You shrug your shoulders, very intrigued. âNo.â
âWhat rock are you living under...â Yoon exasperatedly mumbles, âWellâŚyou know like, a normal host club? Where males entertain people with like, alcohol and pretend to be like, their boyfriends? WellâŚ.we have one. At the university. Except, itâs more like a tea-and-conversation, flirting, with the five most handsome and richest students here.â
You stop walking. She stops walking. Someone behind you nearly bumps into both your backs, giving you both an irritated glare as they walk past. You study her face, but sheâs looking at you with complete sincerity. âOh my god. Youâre serious.â You start walking again, faster this time, shaking your head. âYou rich people are bizarre.â
When youâd joined the university on a scholarship, you had come to find out just how terrible and outlandish these nepotism children really were firsthand. They operated on an entirely different plane of existence. This manages to top the cake though. They really do fuckall with their time, anything but actually studying. Itâs not like it really matters though, theyâll still become heirs of multi-million pound companies anyway.
âItâs not as bad as it sounds. Truly!â Yoon insists, jogging to match your pace.
âHow is this allowed?â
Yoon shrugs. âThe creatorâs family is like, the main funder of the university.â
Youâre not surprised. âOf course.â You tighten your hold on the strap of your bag. âSo, these people are whoring themselves out basically?â How is this ethical?
âCome on, itâs harmless and fun! Itâs Furry Friday!â
âFurryâŚwhat?â You try to blink yourself awake, staring off into the end of the hallway, dissociated. Why do you even bother anymore?
âYeah, and thereâs Maid Monday tooâŚitâs just like a cool events cafe. Thereâs themes. Itâs cute!â
âSo, do these people sleep with their guests too?â You joke, casting a sideways glance at your friend, giving up with the actual questioning of the existence of this club at a prestigious university.
Yoon looks to her left and right, covering her mouth with her hand and whispers. âSsh. Thatâs more of an underground thing. Theyâre very selective about it and itâs superrr expensive.â
Your face drops. âWhat?â This is not right. You drag a hand down your face, sighing heavily. âYou really want me to go to this with you?â
Your friend nods her head enthusiastically, clasping her hands together. âPlease. I need to get over my last scarring situationship.â
You give your friend a pointed look. âDidnât she like, borrow ÂŁ700 off you and you never saw her again? Thereâs not much to get over.â
Yoon grimaces as if sheâs living through it all again, not wanting the reminder. âYes, she had some gambling issues. But, she was so perfect other than that.â Yoon sighs wistfully. âCome on, I paid for both our entry fees already. Foodâs included.â
Your ears perk up at that, staring at your friend who now has a sneaky little smile creeping up on her face, knowing sheâs already won. You pause. Food is included? You wouldnât pass up on free foodâŚDamn that your friend knows you well. You huff resignedly. âOkayâŚIâll go with you.â
Yoon squeals, bringing your hands to hers and jumping up and down aggressively. âThanks! Youâre the best.â
Now, you stand in the endless queue of other students waiting to get into the club, a snake of a line going right to the end of the corridor and around the corner. It really must be popular. How had you never heard of it before? Thereâs a permanent sign on the door reading âTXT HOST CLUBâ. They even have their own personal room at the university? Even from outside, you can already hear loud squealing and high pitched screams at whatever is going on in the room.
Finally, eventually, it comes to both your turns, reaching the front. Yoon shows some ticket online and youâre allowed in, the big gilded doors opening, and youâre momentarily blinded by a sudden light.
Youâre not entirely sure what you were expecting, but itâs definitely not this; five guys in animal ears and paws, dancing to some girl group song on a raised platform. The spacious room is all pink with even pink marbled floor, fancy chandeliers hanging from the ceiling, and ribbons and streamers decorating the walls and pillars. Thereâs cardboard cutouts of the members all around the room in absurd outfits, vampires, maids, fairies, princes, sanrio, mermaids, knights, traditional clothing, and more.
Youâre escorted onto a free table with Yoon. Even the tables are decorated so lovely with floral lace cloth and a vase of flowers in the middle. Thereâs tiered cake stands with the yummiest looking sandwiches, cakes, pastries, tarts, and macarons. Laid too, are expensive-looking intricate painted tea sets and teapots. Maybe, perhaps, you could get behind this for the food.
Yoon doesnât pay attention to anything on the table though, sheâs too busy watching the performance, entirely enamoured and delighted by it, clapping and cheering them on.
âOh, wowâŚâ You watch it too, in disbelief, still trying to process your surroundings. All of this feels like a complete, bizarre, fever dream, but you have to admit, they were surprisingly pretty good at dancing, synchronisation quite insane for a bunch of random pompous dudes.
âI should introduce you to them all!â Yoon shouts over the music, excitedly pointing at one on the far right. âThatâs taehyun! Heâs super smart and stoic,â then she moves her pointed finger to the left each time, âthatâs Kai heâs super sweet and cute! Oh-and thatâs beomgyu heâs super emo and plays guitar, thatâs soobin heâs a sweet posh boy and the president, and thatâsâŚâ Yoon sighs dreamily at the man on the far left, clasping her hands together, âthatâs Choi Yeonjun. The It boy. Heâs my fav. Heâs such a prince.â She swoons. The poor descriptions werenât all that insightful to you, to be honest.
Their performance ends with claps and screams, and then, you can finally tuck into the foods on the table, trying every single different assortment of pastries. The hosts had stepped off the platform, coming to the guests and their tables, speaking and chatting to them, the music lowered to soft ambient jazz. You can hear giggling⌠and barks and meows, and the strange things some guests are requesting for.
âKai! Do a bark, do a bark!â
âWoof, woof!â
âSoobin, can you say that Iâm your owner?â
âBeomgyu, I wanna be your pet!â
âI just wanna be your dog!â
You may have lost your appetite a little. But you try for it not to deter you.
One second, youâre looking down, scoffing the sandwiches on your plate, then youâre looking back up and youâre suddenly surrounded by the five men out of nowhere, looming over your table. Youâre terrified, freezing mid-bite. Yeonjun, who youâd recognised as yoonâs favourite, comes to smoothly kiss her hand.
âAh,â he sighs, âMy lovely Yoon. Our loyal guest, will you be requesting for me again?â
Your friend is blushing and giggling, looking moments away from fainting. You raise a brow, gulping down the food in your mouth, turning your head her way with furrowed brows. âAgain? I thought youâd never been here before. You didnât want to come alone?â
Yoon coughs, embarrassed âUhhm. Ahem. I never said I hadnât been here before. Simply just wanted your company this timeâŚâ
You shake your head, finishing the rest of your sandwich, still feeling self conscious at the men still by your table. When were they going to leave?
âOoh weâve got a new guest, guys!â One of them says, noticing you, you think his name is Kai. The others lean in curiously at you, zeroing in. You feel like an animal at a zoo. This is very odd. Especially since theyâre the ones still wearing pet ears and furry gloves.
Yeonjun theatrically reaches for your hand, kissing the back of yours too, grinning and winking. âPleasure to meet you, beautiful being. Iâm yeonjun. Choi yeonjun. Whatâs your name, pretty?â
âThey look frightenedâŚâ Taehyun whispers to kai.
The rest of them introduce themselves, shaking your hand like a normal person.
Once youâre done with shoving the last bit of your sandwich down, you quickly dab around your mouth with a napkin and you abruptly rise from your seat, standing up, ready to leave. Your time here is more than done, and you so desperately want to get away from this uncomfortableness. âWell! Lovely to meet you all. Must get going haha...â
âWait! You havenât chosen a favourite yet!â Yeonjun stops you.
âEveryone picks one.â Beomgyu, the one with multiple facial piercings says with his hands in his pockets.
âUsually under twenty seconds.â Taehyun adds, checking his extravagant watch that probably costs more than your tuition fees. âThe average is 17.83 seconds.â
âYeah. Which one of us is the most handsome?â Soobin pushes the glasses heâs wearing gently up his nose bridge, tilting his head at you.
They all come even closer to you simultaneously, crowding you, staring at you intensely and expectantly, awaiting your answer. All of their jaws are raised up, sweeping hands through their hairs confidently, and posing for you, doing weird expressions with their faces as if they were in some modelling photoshoot.
âUmâŚI wouldnât know.â Theyâre all very good looking. How were you supposed to choose just one? And how would you have a favourite already?
Taehyun crosses his arms. âYou donât know?â
âJust choose one! Come on!â Kai urges you, jumping on the spot.
âYeah.â They all start saying and agreeing together, growing impatient and slightly agitated, wanting you to choose one of them already.
So, you try again, staring at each of their faces individually, trying to be pragmatic about it so you can finally get out of here. First, you analyse yeonjun, silky blonde hair, fox-like sharp eyes, piercings all on his ears. Then soobin, soft black hair, glasses, a bunny like nose and mouth, wearing a cute sweater vest. Then beomgyu, brown shaggy messy wolfcut, soft brown eyes, but dark thick eyebrows with a piercing on one of them, a dermal piercing, and lip rings too. Then at kai, fluffy white hair, angelic features overall and a pretty nose, holding a stuffed plush penguin toy in his hand. And finally, at taehyun, big round eyes, high cheekbones and a chiselled face, wearing a whole ass corporate suit for some reason.
âI really donât know!â
âYou have to. Gun to your head. Threeââ Beomgyu raises three fingers.
âTWO.â All five of them start to join in, shouting in unison.
âWhy are we counting?!â
âONE.â
âZERââ
The counting down, for some reason, and the fact that five absurdly attractive, very tall men are still crowded around you and shouting, makes you panic and stress and you feel very under pressure.
âOkay, okay! Oh-umm!-uh-Yeonjun!â You blurt out frantically. You donât know why you say that name, you just choose the most memorable one to get them off your back.
Thereâs silence and the others recoil dramatically, betrayed, and they give you such disgusted looks.
âTerrible taste.â Taehyun clicks his tongue. The others are shaking their heads at you.
Meanwhile, yeonjun looks moments away from ascending, âI knew it!â Yeonjunâs eyes are practically shining, grabbing your shoulders excitedly, ecstatic and smug and violently shaking you. He runs a hand through his blonde hair once more, sighing out at himself as if he were in some sort of shampoo advertisement. âI knew youâd pick me.â He punches your arm playfully.
âOwâŚâ You rub at your arm to soothe it, it actually hurts. He punched you pretty hard. He looks like heâs about to hit you again in excitement, you back away as far as you can, taking a few steps back, fearfully.
You bump into something behind you. It wobbles. And thatâs when you hear something smash so distinctly loud and hard onto the pink marble floor, exploding. Hesitantly, you slowly, dreadfully, turn around, thinking you already know what might have happened.
You had caused a very expensive looking sculpture of the five boys with roses in each their hands, to collapse straight onto the ground and smash into millions of smithereens, thousands of tiny little pieces scattered across and flying everywhere.
Everyone in the room turns their heads at the dissonant sound, gasping, teacups freezing halfway to their lips. You stare at the scene completely mortified. You can feel your soul departing your body, mentally already digging your grave to lie in. You could literally cry.
âOh my god!â Yeonjun runs and drops straight down to his knees at the death of the artwork. âOur most expensive sculpture, all the way from Italy! Custom made from the renowned artist Angelo Pasquarelli, he passed away recently! This was the last remaining piece of art he ever made!â
Well, that doesnât serve to make you feel any better. At all. You donât even know what to do. You donât have any parents that can pay this for you. You canât even begin to imagine how much it actually costs and how youâll ever be able to repay it, and how much debt youâll be in now. âIâm so sorry! Oh my-Iâm so, so, so sorry! I donât know-i wasnât looking where I was going.â
You can feel how ironic this is. You came here for the free food, now youâre massively in debt somehow.
Taehyun, the treasurer of the club, comes to crouch down beside yeonjun, staring at the remnants with visible pain and anguish too. âThis was supposed to be an art investment for the clubâŚI told you we shouldnât have kept it out here in the open.â He murmurs sharply to yeonjun.
âIâm sorry, but I canât afford to pay for this.â You admit. âIâm literally only here on a scholarship. Is there any other way I can help? Iâll do anything. Anything at all.â
âHm. You canât afford to repay for the damage?â Soobin raises a brow at you, thinking. He pulls the rest of the boys into a huddle. You hear intense whispering as they deliberate your fate.
Yoon panics for you, stepping in. âItâs going to be okay!â She reassures you, feeling slightly guilty as she was the one who brought you here when you hadnât particularly wanted to in the first place. âIâll try and pay for some of it for you!â
âNo, thatâs alright. They wonât have to pay for any of it. No one has to.â Soobin speaks up, all of them finally pulling apart.
You feel so relieved, clasping a hand to your heart that had minutes before giving out entirely. âOh. Oh my god. Thank you, thank you-â
âYouâll repay us in another way.â Soobin thoughtfully explains. âNext week, the host club is holding a special events week.â
âFor the first time ever,â Kai interrupts excitedly, âeach host gets their own solo event where we can do whatever we want!â
Soobin nods. âYes, weâve never done events purely by ourselves before and weâll need additional assistance.â
âYou,â yeonjun says, flamboyantly pointing directly at you, âare going to become our assistant!â
âMonday to Friday,â Soobin confirms. âOne host per day. Youâll help organise events, carry things, run errands, and deal with guests. Youâll work off your debt to the host club.â
âJust five days? Thatâs it?â That didnât seem too bad at all, itâs an alarmingly good deal. You were expecting something significantly worse. How hard can it be? Only working five days to pay off the debt for a supposedly very valuable and rare sculpture? You can definitely do that. âAlright. Iâll do it.â You shake soobinâs hand, determined than ever.
âYayy! Yippeee!â All five of the boys start clapping and cheering delightfully at you. You donât know why theyâre so happy.
âAnd guess what?â Yeonjun grins gleefully. âMy event is the first one.â He takes your arm in his, interlocking and hooking your arms, and then completely drags you away. You throw one last pleading look at yoon through the gilded doors in case itâs the last time you ever see your dear friend again.
But she just giggles at you, calling out. âYouâll be fine. It will be fun!â She cheerfully waves at you being hauled out of the host club room.
âWoah.â
You stand in the doorway of yeonjunâs sleek studio apartment in awe, which hardly looks anything like student accommodation. You wander further inside, taking it all in. It is massive, everything down to the furniture and interior looking way too luxurious, with a fancy kitchen, living room, a big en-suite bathroom, and a walk in closet filled with designer clothes. That doesnât seem to be enough though since thereâs clothing racks near the windows too with garments, a mannequin, framed fashion sketches and artwork pinned on a wall, designer magazines stacked on a unique-looking coffee table.
Itâs Buckingham Palace compared to your place. Your student accommodation was one tiny shoe box room, a shared bathroom and kitchen. But you had chosen the very cheapest you could afford.
âDo you like it? Itâs a bit small. My bedroom is bigger than this in my mansion, but this is still cool and cosy.â Yeonjun stands in front of the wide floor-to-ceiling windows that showcase the city skyline. He looked genuinely apologetic about it too.
âMansionâŚâ You shouldnât be so surprised by now, so many people you have met at the university do live in them, but it still manages to shock you a little no matter how many times you hear it casually mentioned.
Yeonjun turns around excitedly. âHey, maybe we can go to my house after this and I can show you! Get you to meet my parents already, ay?â Yeonjun winks at you. âItâs just a five minute walk!â
âA five minute walk?â You gawk incredulously, âIf your house is so close to campus, why would you ever waste money getting student accommodation?â It fills you more with slight disgust at the wastefulness rather than jealousy.
Yeonjun huffs. âMy parents said the same thing. But I wanted to have that uni experience, you know? Plus, I needed to be more independent. Itâs a good thing. That student lifestyle, itâs pretty hard sometimes.â
âSoâŚyou've achieved this student lifestyle by moving five minutes away from your mansion into a luxury apartment?â Wow, this is certainly going on the list of out of touch things youâve heard students say.
âYep!â The confidence with which he answers is quite commendable.
âOh, okay, so youâre paying for it yourself?â You donât mean to pry, youâre just genuinely trying to understand a bit.
âNoâŚmy parents pay for it.â
You nod. âRight.â
âOh! Would you like anything to drink or eat by the way?â Yeonjun politely offers you.
âJust some water is good.â
He grabs two high-end bottled waters from his high-end fridge too and passes one to you. âHere you go.â
âThank you.â Both of you come to plop yourselves on his sofa. âBut you cook?â You ask him assumedly.
âI donât know how. But my chefs come from the house every morning to make me meals. Itâs lovely.â He obliviously beams at you, lounging comfortably against the cushions, one arm draped across the backrest.
You just nod along at this point, sipping on your water. You noted chef was plural, but youâre not sure where the independence is. âWell, anyways,â
He sits up right again, shifting closer to you, a bit too close. âYes! Letâs plan my event.â
âSo,â you say, âany ideas?â
âI already know what I want to do.â He seems very proud of this. âFashion is my passion- Hey, that rhymes! Maybe I could be a poet too.â
âSure.â You say tiredly, waiting for him to tell you what heâs got planned.
âFlirty Fashion Workshop.â He stares back at you expectantly, smirking like he was expecting some sort of praise for this.
Your face scrunches up. âWhat the hell is a âFlirty Fashion Workshopâ?â
Enthusiastically, yeonjun explains. âTheyâre sewing, Iâm showing them how to use the sewing machine like this-â he leans into you, placing his hands over yours as if he were showing you how to work some phantom sewing machine, feeling his breath on your neck as he guides your hands.
âOkay, I didnât need a personal demonstration on it.â You swat his arms away.
Yeonjun shrugs but winks cheekily at you once again. âYour loss. People pay for this, yâknow?â Undeterred, he continues to explain more of his idea, âIâll make step-by-step, visual demonstrations on how to make basic articles of clothing and they can decorate it however they want with different fabrics and beads and embroidery and creativeness. Iâll come around, helping and flirting, of course. Then, once everyone is done, weâll have a little fashion show where everyone can model and show off their work! Isnât that so great?â
You can see the appeal for it, from what you saw earlier, you have no doubt itâll work and keep guests very satisfied. Itâll probably be a huge success. You nod at him. âHm. What we need first is all the equipment and materials for this then.â
Yeonjun nods too. âIâll ask to borrow all the sewing machines from the fashion department. We just need lots of textiles and fabric, threads, scissors, pins, beads, buttons, decorative materials, and other things.â
âWhere should we get all of that from?â You query.
âWeâll buy it, of course. Taehyun made a spending card for the club. Off to the city centre!â
âAfter you.â Yeonjun gentlemanly opens the car door for you, rushing out of his to come around unnecessarily for yours.
The walk to the city centre was just under fifteen minutes, but he had insisted on his chauffeur driving you both there anyway.
Yeonjun leads you to a bustling street with independent craft & art shops and fabric markets. The energy is so totally different compared to the commercial, homogeneous high streets youâd passed on the way, itâs bright and welcoming and filled with such unique characters of shops.
First, you buy lots and lots of fabric as youâll be needing a lot of those. He seems to really be in his element, ecstatically showing you and speaking words about materials and their compositions only someone studying fashion would know, making you touch and feel them all too.
All of the vendors even seemed to recognise him, happily greeting and conversing with him, faces lighting up whenever he walked in, acting like he was some sort of long lost son of theirs whenever he stepped into a different shop. Yeonjun is very chatty, talking to them all for a while. One elderly woman even abandoned a conversation halfway with another customer just to pull yeonjun in for a hug and squeeze his cheeks. Heâs not just famous in the host club, you observed.
Youâre lugging along countless heavy bags of materials youâll need for the workshop by now, shoulders and arms aching, you and yeonjun exhausted, hours blurred and overloaded by endless textiles. But it was a little fun, thereâs a certain beauty in watching a person be passionate about something, oddly fascinating to follow yeonjun along.
You make one final stop to buy packs of sequins, and finally, you have all the equipment you need. Both of you make a turn on a street, noticing a brightly coloured ice cream shop. All the shopping, conversing and carrying must have clearly gotten to yeonjun, heâs drawn to it instantly like a moth to a flame, trudging you along with him, allowing you little time to protest.
Heâs staring at the menu in deep concentration, brows furrowed but practically salivating. âCould I have the largest tub with one scoop of tiramisu and one scoop of rose please?â
You take a little longer to decide what youâll like, settling on the smallest tub (itâs cheaper), and ordering a scoop of strawberry cheesecake and chocolate. Before youâre about to put your own card down, yeonjun dramatically steps in, practically shoving you out of the way and slamming his own down instead. âNo. Itâs on me, of course. A prince never lets anyone else pay.â He puts one hand to his heart, closing his eyes like he was reciting something religious.
âOh, thank you.â
The ice cream scooper seems more affected by the gesture than you are, completely swooning at yeonjun. âWow, what a gentleman!â
Yeonjun giggles at the compliment. âHehe. Thank you!â
âYouâre such a handsome young man. Ah, young love. Go on, Iâll give you both an extra scoop.â They lean in over the counter, hushing.
Yeonjun gasps. âYouâre so kind! Thank you so much.â
Yeonjun is giggling, the scooper is giggling back too. Youâre affronted by the whole exchange. Is life just this easily kind to Choi Yeonjun? But, you say your thanks too, not complaining about more ice cream for free. Everyone seems to be absolutely smitten by this dudeâs charms. Sure, heâs attractive and heâs got great social skills, but people act like heâs above human. Are they seeing something you donât?
Eventually, you can sit down at the tables, dropping the weighted bags to your feet. Youâre in a much better mood after sitting down and once youâre eating the well-deserved ice cream, the creaminess and flavour melting on your tongue, plus the fact yeonjun paid for it is a great bonus, both of you happily talking more about yeonjunâs event between spoonfuls.
âWanna try my tiramisu flavour? Say ahhh.â Yeonjun brings his spoon to you in an attempt to feed you, wriggling the spoon around your face, a generous scoop of pale brown ice cream perched upon it.
You flat out refuse, instead, bringing your own spoon to take a swipe of his yourself. âMm. Itâs good.â
Yeonjun watches you continue to eat without offering your own. âI wanna try the strawberry cheesecake one too.â Yeonjun leans forwards, tasting yours without asking. Heâd taken quite a large amount too. âMmh! This is yummy! I must get this next time.â
âHey, I never said you could try mine.â
âLetâs take pics of our date.â Yeonjun ignores your complaining, getting out his phone and taking a series of selfies with you.
You stop and stare at him across from you before you can take another spoon of ice cream. âItâs not a date.â
Yeonjun shrugs again, unbothered. âDid you know I have a seventy percent request rate?People would pay a lot to go on an ice cream date with me.â
You set down your spoon in the tub, reminded of something you wanted to ask. You donât get it. âWhy would you make a host club when you donât need any of the money?â
âI love entertaining people. Itâs my thing. Iâm good at it.â Heâs not looking at you, his brows are furrowed as he tries to fish out the last bits of his melted rose ice cream from the edges. Youâd noticed he furrowed his brows a lot when concentrating on something.
âFair enough.â You nod in understanding, you canât deny that. From today alone youâve witnessed just how many people he can amuse. It seemed people easily gravitated towards choi yeonjun.
âBut also I donât have any siblings.â He pulls his full lips into a slight pout, continuing, brows further furrowed, âI always wanted one, so many of them actually. I kept begging but my parents didnât want any more. And it got pretty lonely when they were overseas so often. Iâve always wondered what it felt like to have siblings. Now Iâve got them!â
Itâs your turn to furrow your eyebrows. âByâŚmaking a host club?â
âItâs something Iâve always wanted to do. I personally sought out all the members myself. Now, theyâre all like my four brothers! I cherish them and the club a lot. Itâs very important to me. Theyâre my family.â Yeonjun warmly beams.
He has that glint in his eyes from earlier on when you were in the fabric markets, and like before, you canât bring yourself to actually hate on it, heâs clearly passionate and sincere about it, so you just hum in agreement.
âThatâs actuallyâŚsorta nice, still bizarre though.â
Yeonjun grins. âDid that woo you?â
âNo.â
Youâre back in yeonjunâs studio apartment. Itâs completely dark outside by now, the city skyline view from his big windows look different after the sun had set, now itâs all just lots of constellations of scattered lights. You sit on one end of yeonjunâs sofa in the living room with the warm glow of orange and amber lamps heâd put on instead of his main lights, playing low music in the background from his turntable, the ambience nice to focus in.
Yeonjun is on the opposite end of the sofa, a large sketch pad sitting on his lap as he draws out the step-by-step demonstrations for the simple garments, you can hear his constant scribbling from his pencil meeting paper too. You are on your laptop, currently focused on the duration and structure of what should be happening in the workshop and making a small slideshow for it.
âDoes it look fine?â Yeonjun lifts his sketch pad for you to see the diagrams.
You scan the illustrations briefly. âMhm. Theyâre easy to follow.â
You continue typing. By the time you finish the final slide, your shoulders ache slightly from hunching over the laptop. You lean back against the sofa, stretching your limbs, eyes drifting to the other side of the sofa. Yeonjun is still sketching, completely absorbed, eyebrows characteristically drawn together as he focuses, lips in a slight duck-like pout and his blonde hair now having more of the resemblance of honey under the colours of the lamps.
âDone admiring me? Daydreaming about kissing me?â Yeonjun looks up, lazily grinning as he notices your stare.
You heavily roll your eyes at him. âYouâre not my type.â
âIâm everyoneâs type.â He confidently states. You shake your head, sighing out at his ego, but he starts again, âHey, youâre the one who picked me as the most handsome.â Yeonjun puffs out his chest, still pleased by that.
âYeah, under duress. I only picked you because your name was the first I remembered.â
For some reason, he remains proud. âSo what youâre saying is that Iâm very memorable.â
You drop your head back against the sofa and the wall behind you. âLordâŚâ
âYouâre bluffing. Bet you do actually daydream about kissing me.â Yeonjun goads. âI wouldnât blame you.â
You snort. âKissing? You wish.â
He places his sketch pad away from his lap and onto the part of the sofa next to him, smirking at you. âOh, I do wish.â
You narrows your eyes at him. âReally? What about?â
He cockily moves and leans forwards, coming close to your face, his stupid smirk never leaving, humoured. âLots and lots of things.â
You know he enjoys flirting without you doing anything back, meaninglessly flirting with you countless of times today without you reacting. You know he gets a kick out of it, so you decide to retaliate back this time, having had enough of it. If Yeonjun wants to play this game so badly, then maybe it's time somebody plays it back. Youâll see what he does then.
âYou know what I think?â You grab him by the collar of his shirt, pulling his face even closer to yours, grinning yourself and making your voice sultry sounding. âI think youâre all talk. Bet you couldnât actually even kiss me.â
He instantly pulls his face away, flustered, shocked by what you say, eyes wide, not expecting you to say something like that back to him. Especially since you hadnât entertained anything else heâd said this entire day. âWhat?â Yeonjunâs face flushes immediately, turning unmistakably bright, beet red from his neck and ears too. His mouth clamps shut. And for perhaps the first time since meeting him, yeonjun seems quite speechless. The legendary flirt of the host club couldn't handle being flirted with back, he was accustomed to being the one in control of every conversation.
Thereâs an attempt to regain his composure though, clearing his throat and trying to confidently smile back. âI could and I would. Do you want me to?â
âYeah. Go on then.â You challenge him, chin raised high, poking the bear with a stick.
Heâs not sure if youâre serious, and yeonjun hesitates. âFine.â He leans in, face close to yours again, staring at you falteringly with his narrowed feline eyes, but trying to make it seem formidable. Close enough once more that you can see the mole next to his eye, see the shadows the dark warm lighting casts on his cheek bones, making them that much more prominent, and smell the faint scent of his expensive cologne. Youâre equally staring back with heated, daring eyes. Youâre so sure youâve won. Heâs not going to do it. Itâs all just talk.
Your eyes flicker down to his pouty lips, his rich, cushiony lips. They had such a pretty, distinctive shape to them that youâve never seen before. For a small second, you wonder what theyâd feel like against yours if he did actually lean in more, but you shake it away. Are you slowly being charmed too? Has he put a spell on you? Is this how he does it?
At last, yeonjun draws back, running a hand through his hair.
Youâre just about to laugh in victory, knowing heâs lost, knowing his words hold no meaning to them, but then, yeonjun suddenly surges forwards, grabbing your face. His mouth mushes with yours fiercely and you gasp into it, startled. You find your lips move back with his, perhaps youâll still win if youâre not the first to break away.
Both of you continue kissing for a long time, mouths sliding together, teeth over lips, taking it in turns to suck his bottom lip, then his upper lip. You donât know if this is still part of the game but itâs starting to feel less significant as time goes on and your lips meet again and again, colliding with soft breaths. Youâre enjoying it, yeonjunâs heavenly lips feel good on yours. You definitely feel like youâre under a spell right now, all almost hypnotic. Maybe heâs a witch. Youâd like to believe that more than any of this being of your own will.
Barely an inch separates when you both pull apart for some air. Yeonjun is staring at you, entranced and dishevelled with rosy cheeks. His usually perfect hair has fallen into his eyes, and his plush lips were beyond swollen and tinted so red, all the blood vessels rupturing there from your kissing and biting. His breathing is totally uneven. The image and how stark it is makes your stomach flip and flutter.
Then, youâre kissing him again.
Youâre touching and gripping onto each otherâs bodies in different places as you continue to make out. Your lips reach yeonjunâs angular jaw, then down, brushing against the warm skin of his neck, leaving kisses and still being able to smell his lingering, delicious cologne thatâs been able to last the whole day. He lets you, tipping his head back as his eyes flicker closed and his hold on your waist tightens.
Playfully, your hand reaches down to stroke his thigh and then his crotch, grinding the palm against the hardening dick in his pants. You like leading the whole of this, itâs amusing. Yeonjun goes completely still with a sharp, shaky intake of breath, mouth falling open. But just as youâre about to pull his dick out to actually touch him, his hand slaps against your wrist, stopping you. âN-no. Let me.â
You tilt your head. âHuh?â
âLet me eat you out.â
Wow. You thought yeonjun would just want to get his dick wet. He certainly looks like he needs a hand wrapped around it right now, but heâs offering to tend to you instead.
You shrug. âOkay.â Youâre definitely not one to complain. So, you lie on your back for him.
Yeonjun sheds off all the articles of clothing of your lower half, grabbing the back of your knees to push you closer to him on the sofa. He spreads your legs, his sharp eyes heavily lidded at the sight, practically salivating. âPrettyâŚâ
He wastes no time in diving into your pussy immediately, shoving his face in and licking up a long stripe of your cunt, before completely messily making out with your pussy, groaning and grunting against you, holding onto the flesh of your thighs tighter. You satisfyingly sigh out at the dim ceiling your eyes are fixed on before closing your eyes all together, biting your lip.
You grab ahold of yeonjunâs hair, fingers threading through the soft messy blonde locks and tugging just hard enough to make noises escape his throat in response.
Yeonjun attaches his perfect pretty lips to your clit, sucking, suctioning so vigorously until the bundle of nerves are even puffier than his lips. They feel even better on your clit, like theyâre made just for that. He focuses completely on your pleasure, furrowing his brows as he eats you out, humming and whining and groaning, licking and sucking. The sounds of him smothered in your pussy are so audible, taking over the music still playing on the record player, and so obscene, so wet, you can only oddly describe it as if yeonjun is hungrily devouring a bowl of ramen, enthusiastically slurping and inhaling it all.
âAm I finally pleasing you? Werenât pleased with anything I was doing before.â Yeonjun lifts his head up to look at you desperately and obsessively. He clearly takes this very seriously, intent on making you feel good.
âMmh, sure. Keep going.â You donât really care for anything heâs saying, barely listening, youâre nearly reaching the edge, so you grab more of a fistful of his hair, grinding down on his face. You guess he wasnât wrong about being good at entertaining people.
Knowing youâre close, yeonjun brings his signet ringed fingers to your hole, quickly fucking them into you and lapping at your clit with his tongue, flicking over and over again, your slick gushing out as he does this. It manages to bring you over, thighs clenching around his face and cumming all on him. You moan out loud and so does yeonjun at the view of you orgasming, nuzzling into your cunt further and licking up everything you give out.
Eventually, he lifts up from between your legs, your juices coating all around his enlarged lips, that they look like he put on some kind of really shiny plumping lip gloss. With a happy, drowsy smile, yeonjun licks it all off around his mouth. Then, licks his fingers clean off too, his family heirloom ring, dripping in your cum. Usually effortlessly confident yeonjun, looks incapable of forming any actual thought.
âFuck me.â You tell him, looking down at the way his dick is practically crying to be let out of his pants, slight patch of precum dribbled out on it. You pull his zipper down, freeing his dick and pumping his achy red, leaky cock, rubbing your thumb over the tip and swiping at the fluid on his sensitive slit. Yeonjun curses, hips bucking and mouth hanging open, blissed out at the stimulation.
âFuck you? SureâŚYeah⌠I-i can do that.â Yeonjun breathes out, so far gone already.
âYou want to make me feel good, donât you?â You spread your legs again, holding his gaze.
âYes.â It seems to snap whatever restraint he has left. Yeonjun quickly goes to grab condoms from somewhere, nearly knocking something over in the process. When he finally gets ahold of one, he comes back, tearing the packet open with his teeth in a rush. Which youâll admit, does something to you.
He frantically pushes the condom onto his cock, and you can only describe yeonjunâs face as purely debauched after he lines up his swollen fat tip to your pussy and pushes in, bottoming out completely, your walls sucking and swallowing him in so good, filling you up so good, both of you gutturally groaning. âOh my g-ughhâŚâ He moans every single time he pushes back in, mouth slack, long pretty whines and cries escaping him.
You wrap your legs tightly around his waist, pulling him closer and sheathing his dick deeper into you. Your hands slide up his back, digging your nails into the muscles there and yeonjunâs eyes nearly roll to the back of his head at that. Itâs not long at all until yeonjun just completely loses himself in the feeling of you, his thrusts quickly building up in speed, slamming his hips harder and deeper, erratically.
Heâs so unrhythmic with it, sloppily still trying to fuck you as his brain turns to absolute mush, he can barely do it, his pretty lips staying parted with how delirious he is. Yeonjunâs hips are practically shaking with every roll and you think he might actually fall on top of you. He tries to hold onto you, face falling into the crook of your neck, biting down there, utterly wrecked, drooling all on your neck now with muffled moans and groans.
Youâve had enough of his dumb useless rutting, growing tired of the position. You roughly pull at his hair to bring his face back up and away from your neck. He looks at you practically cross-eyed, slurring. âShit, you canât even fuck me. Pull out.â You tell him.
Yeonjun panics, confused, shaking his head. âHuh? What-please, please.â
âJust pull out.â
He does as you say, whining and wailing at you like a hurt animal. You roll your eyes at his dramatics, shoving him down onto the sofa instead. âCalm down. Iâm fucking you myself.â
âNo, I-i can fuck you. âm sorry. I can do it.â Yeonjun tries to beg, profusely apologising, not wanting to feel useless to you, wanting to make you feel good, tears appearing in the waterline of his eyes from how muddled his mind is.
âSssh. Itâs okay.â You stuff two of your fingers into his mouth to shut him up, but also, wanting to watching him suck your fingers because youâre weirdly fixated on his gorgeously shaped, plump lips now. The sight of him sucking with sparkly tearful eyes is so hot and debasing.
Pulling your fingers out of his mouth, you straddle yeonjun, grabbing his dick. You place it at your entrance and unceremoniously sit down on the whole of his dick fast in one go, taking him all in to the hilt, until your hips meet his. It knocks the air out of yeonjun, theatrically throwing his head back and it has you sighing in pleasure at having his cock inside you again, stretched out at a more delicious angle.
âYou need me to fuck you, baby. Donât you?â You hold onto his abdomen, swivelling your hips around him and then beginning to ride him as yeonjun moans and mewls out so brazenly loud.
âYeahyeah-mmm.â Yeonjun is fickle as shit, not complaining at all once he feels your pussy, in fact, he likes it more now since heâs not doing any of the work.
You lift yourself off and slam back down, bouncing on him faster and faster at an unrelenting pace and yeonjun just lays there underneath you, looking pretty and almost doll-like with his blushed cheeks and glossed lips in the shape of an âoâ, happily taking it all in pure ecstasy, tongue lolling out and contently moaning high pitched like a girl.
You canât help but chuckle at the view of yeonjun beneath you, brushing a strand of damp hair from his sweat-beaded forehead. âYouâre more like a princess than a prince, yeonjun. Maybe you should be the princessâs host club instead.â
You thought he might objectify but yeonjun just mindlessly nods. âKayâŚlong as youâre still fucking me.â
You giggle, bringing your hand to the side of his hot face, stroking your thumb sweetly on his cheek. âYou like being taken care of by me?â
Yeonjun nods, leaning into your touch, purring like a cat. âUh huh.â
You can feel yeonjunâs dick twitching uncontrollably inside of you. âAww, princess, are you close?â You teasingly coo.
Yeonjun helplessly whimpers. âYes, so close. Kiss me.â
You tut at him. âYouâre not even going to ask nicely? What a spoilt princess.â But you do it anyway, leaning down, capturing his addictive lips with yours, kissing him hungrily, filthily, tongues tangling and swirling together as you ruthlessly ride him, both your brains clouded up by the other, sucking on his tongue nastily too. You clench down on yeonjunâs cock purposefully and he satisfyingly cries into your mouth, you swallowing down all his needy sounds.
You continue to bounce wetly on yeonjunâs girthy cock, going up and down at a mercilessly cruel speed as it creates sticky squelchy sounds, fucking the life out of him whilst his cries accelerate, your ass smacking his full balls every single time, grabbing his shoulders hard to hold onto as you do this, intent on reaching both your highs.
âOhhhmy god. Iâm cummingg!â Yeonjun cums first with garbled, mangled, pornographic whines, spilling his seed and filling the condom with his white gooey substance, back lifting off the sofa and arching as he sees stars everywhere. He pants and heaves, throwing an arm over his face at the overwhelming sensation, trying to come back down to earth, going boneless, feeling like a pile of nothingness, like melted ice cream in the sun.
You continue to use his spent dick and yeonjun just lets you, his lips bitten raw, so close to your own orgasm too, so in reach as you keep jumping on his cock hard, reaching up in a gummy spot inside of you, prodding it every time so good, eyes squeezed shut in complete bliss, sweating so much, thighs aching. You donât stop though, bringing your hand to rub at your clit too and youâre quickly able to let go, cumming around yeonjunâs throbbing overstimulated dick. You stay there, riding the after waves of it, slowly still moving on yeonjunâs cock, trying to prolong it until you canât anymore and it stops feeling good.
You collapse on top of yeonjunâs body, utterly exhausted, allowing him to weakly grab and cling onto you as you both drift off.
âShit, yeonjun. Wake up.â You attempt to shake yeonjun.
The both of you had managed to pass out on the sofa until the next day after the event planning had very abruptly turned into something else entirely. And now, youâre running a little bit late to set everything up for the workshop, neither of you remembering to set an alarm.
Yeonjun stirs in his sleep but doesnât wake up, pouting with knitted eyebrows.
âYeonjun.â You shake his shoulders more aggressively, shoving him.
âItâs too early.â He whines.
âNo itâs not. Check your phone.â
He groans, but reaches over to grab his phone, checking the time with one eye open, dragging a hand down his face. âUgh. We have to go already.â
âYeah.â
He gets up and so do you, quickly getting ready the best you can, grabbing the bundles and armfuls of supplies of everything you need and running over to the host club room.
Both of you rush to get everything prepared, checking the number of attendees, placing all the supplies each person and table will need, such as needles, measuring tapes, embroidery, fabric, scissors, pins. You make sure the screen and PowerPoint is up and ready. Yeonjun had gone to the printer to make individual copies of the demonstrations so everyone has one on a table. The sewing machines also needed to be carried one by one, all the way from the fashion department building and back to where the host club room is, which takes a considerably long time and effort. By the fifth trip, your arms genuinely felt like they were going to fall off and slither to the ground.
The room was finally ready, guests would start arriving any minute. You collapse into a chair, yeonjun dropping down on the one next to you.
And the event goes satisfyingly well. As you had expected, the guests love the idea, following the steps and learning how to sew simple clothes, particularly loving when yeonjun comes around to flirt individually and help with the sewing machines, giggling and blushing into their sleeves. As the assistant, you go around table to table, checking in and giving extra supplies when guests need them, making sure everything is running and working the presentation on the projector as yeonjun confidently talks and teaches. You have to admit, It feels nice and rewarding to watch the whole event actually come to together, seeing everyone enjoy it after planning it for a long while yesterday.
Yeonjun insists on you being his model, wanting to make a top fitted for your measurements.
You groan. âWhy do I have to be it, though? Thereâs plenty people who would love to be your model.â
âYouâre my assistant, so youâre my model. Plus, youâre gorgeous enough.â Yeonjun deviously winks, corners of his mouth curling upwards as his eyes rake over you.
You shake your head and defeatedly sigh. You thought his flirting would stop after you had retaliated back, but heâs flirting even more so.
You donât have much of a choice in being his model, so you stand before him, letting him get to work. You get to see his fashion designing skills in action. Heâs very focused, itâs a little endearing, measuring tape draped around his neck, pin held between his lips, catty eyes squinted in concentration. Yeonjun measures, cuts, sews, creating the top and then decorating it. Itâs a very pretty beaded, well fitted top with a gaping heart hole. Thereâs tiny red crystals, sequins and beads on the edges of the heart, cascading downwards like dripping blood, elegant and slightly unsettling. He even manages to make one for himself in the short time frame, making a matching one with a similar concept for himself. His featuring a similar heart motif, though slightly larger, with black crystal embellishments spreading across the chest like fractured veins.
Once everyone is done creating their pieces, thereâs loud music playing on speakers as everybody shows off what they made, walking down the makeshift platformed stage acting as a runway, all the guests cheerfully, clapping and supporting each other, the lovely atmosphere is quite infectious. Yeonjun grabs your wrist to walk down the runway together, yeonjun ridiculously posing, hands on his hips, flicking nonexistent long hair as guests scream and whistle so concerningly loud, losing their minds. You do the same, posing too, actually having fun as yeonjun does jazz hands around you.
The aftermath of the event looks significantly less glamorous, the room is a beyond mess, looking like some sort of natural disaster had taken place in it, and unfortunately, both you and yeonjun have to be the ones to tidy and put everything away. The sewing machines nearly killing you off yet again when you have to return them all back to their long journey home.
âIce cream?â Yeonjun suggests once youâre finally done with clearing the room, panting and sweat ridden from all those cursed sewing machines.
âYes.â You immediately agree, tired eyes lighting up, wiping sweat off your forehead yourself.
You donât bring yourself to complain about getting yeonjunâs chauffeured car to the ice cream shop now, despite how within walking distance it is, every muscle in your body so sore. You order the tiramisu flavour and yeonjun gets the strawberry cheesecake, swapping ice creams, having liked what the other got more last time.
Yeonjun jokingly offers you a scoop of his ice cream again to feed it to you, holding it out across the table for you. âSay ahh.â
You narrow your eyes, but challengingly accept, eating it just to watch the shocked expression appear on yeonjunâs face as he hadnât expected you to actually let him feed you. But then, the stunned reaction changes, the idiot is glowing, widely smiling.
âYouâre helping with soobinâs event tomorrow.â Yeonjun says after a bit, resting his chin in his hands and smiling at you across the table.
You had almost forgotten that this wasnât the end, and only the start. Four more events remained, and four more hosts. The thought alone was exhausting. Tomorrow would be soobin's event and you had absolutely no idea what it would involve.
âHopefully, you donât like him as much as you like me.â Yeonjun jokes, but keeps his eyes still lingering on you, something almost faintly wistful about it, though heâs still smiling.
Now that youâve come to think of it, youâll never likely be working with yeonjun again after this, feeling the tiniest bit melancholic about it. But you snort anyway. âWho said I liked you?â
âYou have to have liked me a little, otherwise sleeping with me would have been a very strange decision on your part.â Yeonjun raises a brow at you, grin only deepening.
You burst into laughter despite yourself, and so does yeonjun.
âUnless,â he adds, placing a hand over his chest in wounded exaggeration, âthe sex was so bad and you like me even less now, which would be quite sad.â A dramatic pout pulls at yeonjunâs lips.
As bizzare as yeonjun is, you supposed you get how people can be charmed and pulled in by this man now, because you do find youâre no different than anybody else who likes him anymore.
Please actually reblog !!!!!! and leave comments !!!! guys if you like the fic. Itâs really appreciated and so nice tysm !<3đđđˇItâs incredibly discouraging and disappointing when fics have such little reblogs. At least send an anon in the inbox if you donât want to rb, donât just like. Feedback is always appreciated it makes writers want to actually write more :)
A/n: Iâm so sorry if this is shit and everyone hates it đ¤Łđ¤Ł Im too scared to read it all back and then change it all and never post it đ¤Łđ¤Ł i kinda hate this sm. yes I am aware the ending is so poorly written 𤣠Ughh i do have a love hate relationship w this bc I do feel I could have done it wayy better but I just donât think I would have ever actually posted it so Iâm making my peace. but ayyy yeonjun debut on my blog ! I actually have another fic idea for jjun that I want to write so badly too
synopsis: your boyfriend, beomgyu, is exhausted by the overwhelming schedule for their new comeback. as a loving partner, you decided to treat him a scented candle to ease his stress, only for your plan to fire back.
pairing: idol!beomgyu x fem!reader
genre: attempted fluff, established relationship, idol!au
warnings: SMUT! softdom!gyu, needy!gyu, sub!reader, detailed explicit content, piv sex, unprotected sex (not cool!), bathtub sex, dubcon, scented candles as aphrodisiac (but they didn't realized it at all), bigdick!gyu, hints of coercion, riding, nipple play, begging, thigh riding, pet names (babe, baby), tons of praise from gyu, cursing, praise kink (f), creampie
word count: 2.8k
A SOFT BUZZ BROKE THE STILLNESS IN THE DARK ROOM. You flutter your eyes open, stretching your limbs by rolling into the bed. Mind barely awake, you fetch the cause of your disrupted afternoon slumber above the nightstand. Clutching your phone, you squint from the unfamiliar brightness, glazing at the line of notifications on your screen. The most recent being a message from the retail app where you ordered these new scented candles.
You finally stood up, eyes still glued to your phone, checking other notifications. A smile crept on your lips when you saw several notification bubbles with your boyfriend's name on the contact. With high hopes, you tapped the message icon, only to halt from your steps as you read his messages.
13:34 | alkong dalkong <3
hey baby, we're currently in a break
[one attachment]
gotta keep these muscles pumping
baby baby baby
babe?
oh right, you're probably nappingâŚ
sleep well, baby!
14:28 | alkong dalkong <3
we just had a brief meeting, they're escalating the schedule
probably gonna come home late again ):
i miss you
pls miss me as much
practice calls!
i love you always
This is the third time this week that he's working past his normal hours. Not that you are complaining. You knew how busy their whole group was during a comeback preparation. Especially when promotion season comes, he barely comes home within those days; only able to catch some sleep in car rides when they travel from time to time or in his studio inside the building, unable to drive in his tired state.
Yet, he never failed to be a perfect romantic partner to you. Constantly updating you on his whereabouts, what he is eating, recalling a dad joke Yeonjun shared and labeling it âa cornfieldâ by how bad it is. Beomgyu is always making sure that you never feel excluded in his dual life, that you are his ultimate priority no matter how hectic his job could be.
Sighing, you placed the phone on a nearby table, planning to reply after you picked up the package on your porch. You bought these scented candles as a little help to ease his nerves, give him comfort after a tiring day, and be a good caring partner for him. It suddenly popped up when you were scrolling through the app, planning to buy an early birthday gift for Kai. Filling in your curiosity, you found out that it has been rated with 4.7 stars, flooded with positive reviews. Especially among men, one even commenting that it is worthy of a thousand appraisal.
It is an impulsive decision, but your fingers have already checked it out. Even choosing the most expensive named âcattle stickâ just to ensure you had the best quality to offer to your loving boyfriend. The box was surprisingly elegant; rigid, high-end, and in a luxurious shade of red. Opening it was no sweat, the cream colored wax in a glass jar wrapped in a plastic bubble welcoming your sight. It was much bigger than you expected, a white ribbon surrounding its surface.
Seeing how lavish the package is, you grabbed your phone, taking a picture with a tiny amount of effort. Once you are satisfied, you send it to your boyfriend, flopping your back on the couch.
15:10 | alkong dalkong <3
[one attachment]
i bought something for u
u better come home before midnight, or else i'll throw it
i miss u !!!
please take care
IT'S BEEN 6 HOURS.
Your message is still on delivered, stuck with no replies in Beomgyuâs end. Hands fidgeting on the remote, you lazily browse the Netflix home page, trying to occupy your time. After finding nothing worthy of your enjoyment, you turned it off before throwing the remote. You stood up from your seat, finally deciding that you would just immerse yourself in the tub and drown with your own train of thoughts.
Entering your room with heavy steps, you began to strip off your clothes. Goosebumps filling your body when the cold air hugged your warm figure. Grabbing your fluffy robe in the rack, you carefully wrapped yourself within its comfort. Making your way to the living room, the candle peeping out of its box caught your attention. It wonât hurt to try it first, right? In a way, you are under stress, too.
Lost in your thoughts, the faint sound of Beomgyu's arrival failed to reach your ears. For a moment, he was confused at your frozen state, following your gaze. A grin crept on his face when he realized you still hadn't noticed him, closing the door carefully with a devious idea on his mind.
âBoo.â
âFUCKING SHITââ
Almost jumping in fright, you faced Beomgyu with a creased brow, eyes widely open. Blood ran to your head, pushing his face away from you before scowling at him. Your palm found your chest as an attempt to calm your heart down, exhaling heavily. Your boyfriend immediately bit his lip, cheekbones up high, obviously trying not to laugh at his successful plan.
Beomgyuâs laugh spilled out when you hit his chest with your fist, his duffel bag dropping on the floor as his shoulder uncontrollably shook. âI fucking hate you.â You huffed, removing his palms rested on your waist.
âAw, my big babyâŚâ He coos, gently touching your shoulder for you to face him. âI missed you, too.â
He then leaned closer to envelope you in his arms, his irresistible warmth melting your body. Feeling how heavy his breaths are, your heart swelled, worry filling your system. You buried your face on his neck, a quiet reassurance that he is now home. Humming softly, you're reveling with the familiar calmness he brings every time you are under his touch. With content, you hugged his figure, inhaling unhealthy amounts of his natural musk.
âCan I join you?â
Beomgyu asked calmly, fingers fidgeting with the band of your robe. You pulled apart, staring at his hopeful eyes. Small circles skimming on your back, his thumb rubbing it with ease.
âMy arms are soreâŚâ
He woefully added, shamelessly throwing hints at you. Heart fluttering in adoration, you cupped his cheeks with both hands to form his lips in a pout. Smiling within yourself, you tiptoed to give him a peck.
âI'll wait for you in the tub.â
Ears perking up with your statement, he eagerly nodded before entering the bedroom to drop his belongings. This gave you the chance to fetch the scented candle on the table, including the match that came with it, finally having the chance to use it for its purpose.
With careful steps, the cold tiles of the bathroom floor welcomed you. You opened the warm light, placing the jar in the small acrylic shelf near the tub. A peculiar sweet scent immediately pervaded the room, causing you to beam with victory. You twist the faucet, throwing a bath bomb after the water reaches enough height.
The creak of the door caught your attention, feeling a strong arm snugging you from the back before you could even turn. Beomgyu nuzzled his face on your neck, tickling your nerves.
âWhat did you buy for me?â He huffs before planting a kiss on your shoulder, âAnd what is that smell?â
His voice is muffled, lips latched on your skin. Shuddering at the feeling, you pointed a finger on his forehead to shove his head away. You finally faced him, taken aback with how he looked.
Beomgyu's face is covered with sweat, alluring lips parted, half-lidded eyes boring at you like he's about to devour you alive. And, all bare naked in front of you, chest also dripping with sweat while heaving loudly.
You carefully held on his shoulder, only for him to hiss at the contact. He's hot, almost burning.
âBeomie, are you feeling well?â
He shook his head, seemingly too clouded to utter a word. You're about to speak when he hastily goes for a kiss, lips moving swiftly in yours. Body going backward, you pull apart, palms on his shoulder to constrain him.
But to your surprise, he peppered your forearm with kisses, almost looking like a man possessed.
âDon't know... Need you, so so so much⌠Please, babyâŚâ
With his words, your gaze went down between his thighs. Your chest tightened at the sight, left in absolute disbelief. His thick cock is rock hard, veins evident at its curve, tip in deep hue of red leaking its precum.
Trying to compose yourself, you tried to ignore his effect on your core. Though the heat of his skin slowly travels to yours, prickling every nerve with undeniable pleasure. His whimpers are rough yet subtle, perfectly landing on your ears. Causing your thighs to rub together underneath your robe. You swallowed a hard lump, brushing his damped hair back to clearly see his glassy eyes.
âYouâll have me later, baby, but let's take a bath first, yeah?â
You whispered, wincing when he swung his head hard, arms falling to your sides in disbelief. Now in a deep thought of how to convince him, Beomgyu took the chance and untangled the belt of your robe. In an instant, wet lips found your exposed skin, showering your flesh with kisses.
âGyu, wa⌠wait!â
âPlease⌠Just please,â He breathes on your skin, warm palms peeling you out of your robe. Gently pulling apart, his dark eyes scanned you from head to toe. âI don't fucking care if we do it here, just say yes.â
There is something in his voice that weakens your knees, almost slipping on the wet tile as the long-ignored tub is now overflowing with water, bubbles heaping at its rim. Beomgyu saw the shift of your eyes, arms already clutching your hips.
âBathe me while you fuck yourself with my cock, pleaseâŚâ He begged in your ear, nearly airless, âI couldn't care less if you drown me, just let me be inside youâŚâ
Unable to resist the way he pleads, a whimper slipped from your mouth. That became his cue to carry you on his arms, securing you in his hips before dipping his foot in the water. A downpour flooded the bathroom floor the moment he submerged the both of you in the tub. His eyes remained at you, who were shivering from how cold it was. Beomgyu's palms settle on your ass cheeks, letting you adjust to the water first.
The remaining water reached the level of your delicate nipples, which your boyfriend soon gave his attention to. Large hands massaging your boobs, sending direct sensations to your pussy. You fixed your position above him, placing your wet folds on his right thigh. Beomgyu threw his head back when your cunt touched his skin, unconsciously gripping your breast harder to cope. The water splashed in the coral walls when you started to grind your cunt in his thighs, dragging it in his hard muscle easily with the help of the bubbles.
You chew your bottom lip at the sight of your partner all in need of you, his exhausted body yearning just for you. Placing your hands above his, you guided his fingers to play with your nipples, loud moans vibrating in your throat. The thought of bathing him slipping away from your mind, in too much pleasure overriding your ability to think. New forms of sensation flowed through you when he flexed his thigh, his hard muscles rubbing your clit in the perfect spot.
âBeomie.. hahmmhââ
âFuck, I love you so much⌠You're so perfect for me,â Beomgyu muttered, earning another moan from you. His praise just added heat to turmoil inside you, mind too focused on your cunt glazing on his skin that all you could do was nod at his words.
Feeling your thighs burning from humping on his, you gripped at the tub for support and planted your knees on his sides. You can feel how your hole is gaping, empty and waiting for him. Beomgyu follows your every act, letting you take control of everything as long as he gets to be inside you.
âWant you inside, BeomieâŚâ
You purred, now circling your arms around his neck to keep him close. The desire in his eyes are blazing, his lips finding yours once more. You are quick to return his kiss, pushing your hot tongue to his mouth. Beomgyu's hand went up to your nape, his tongue now clashing with yours. He inhaled each sound that came from your throat, plump lips now sucking your wet muscle. His other hand went to fist his aching cock under the water, accidentally biting your lip when a finger brushed on his slit.
Soon, you felt his tip poking your sloppy entrance, making your nails scratch his skin. He pulled away from the kiss, panting for air. You felt him drawing circles around your hole using his cockhead, body trembling in eagerness.
âYou're so good to me, baby⌠So fucking good.â
His words barely made it to your ear the moment you felt the big stretch of your walls as he entered you. Your fused moans echoed in the bathroom, face twisting in the delicious drag of his length inside you.
âFuck, always tight and pretty for me⌠Adorable little shitâŚâ
All you could do was clench around him, thighs squeezing his hips below the current. A contented sigh left his mouth when he bottomed out, head resting in your blades before giving its edge a peck.
âBe a good girl and ride it for me.â
Whimpering at his request, you planted your palms at his abs, lifting your weight to gain momentum. Gritting your teeth, you start to pick up the pace, and the sounds of your flesh slapping each thrust are muffled in a splash of water that has scattered everywhere.
Beomgyu is huge, you can feel how his cock always shapes your walls just to accommodate his size. And, you love him more for it. The way he stirs up your guts just to fit all of his length always leaves you dumbfounded, with your body yearning for more.
He hissed when your nails digged on his flesh, leaving pretty souvenirs in his toned stomach. Your every bounce on his cock forced your eyes to roll back, almost seeing stars. His hands moved under the water to your hips, positioning you in a certain angle before pushing you down again. A guttural scream left you when his tip poked that spongy spot in your cunt, stimulating you even more.
âFeel it, baby? Yeah? FuckâSo beautiful."
âMhmm, thank you⌠Beomie, mhhhpââ
The heavy scent of sex is now overlapping with the sugary smell of the candle near you. It's dulling your senses, brain to fucked up to think a simple coherent idea. Beomgyu let out a string of curses when he felt you clenching his cock as it continuously abused that sweet spot. His hands now assist your every move, knowing your legs wouldn't last any longer.
His hips began to meet you halfway, thus your hand went back to his shoulders. Your tits began to jiggle harshly with your sync thrusts, your whispers and his grunts heard in a chorus with the swash of water on the tub's surface. You can't help but watch your loving boyfriend below you, all pent up with busy schedules yet still have the energy to please your body, and use you like a valuable fleshlight. The thoughts of him being the perfect partner to you made your pussy snag him tighter, whimpering sweetly.
âFucking pussy is clinging to me, cute.â
Feeling a familiar build-up in your abdomen, your hands transferred to his knees. Beomgyu followed your movements, jaw dropping at the sight of you fully splayed at him. You tried to keep up with his pace, but your boyfriend became insatiable with the new position. Grasping your flesh so tight it would surely leave a purple mark. Your back curved when you felt his thumb toy your sensitive bud, brushing hasty strokes that sent sensations throughout your body.
The tight knot in your stomach suddenly snapped, your high crashing down on you. Eyes tightly shut as your body continues to shudder, pussy gushing out sticky juices. Arms immediately lose their strength, making their way back into your boyfriend's chestâwho are still drilling his cock inside you, chasing his own pleasure.
You helped him through it, giving his neck cute little licks, easily finding his delicate spot near his apple. Pressing your tits to his chest, you felt his breath start to get ragged. His quick thrust now stumbling, and with a last clench around him, you felt an overwhelming warm load filling up your insides. Too much that it leaked outside your hole, the white liquid floating around the tub's water.
âFuck, I think I'm gonna pass outâŚâ
Beomgyu blurted out of the blue, hugging your figure near him. You could feel how his chest went up and down, the beat of his heart relatively fast. You giggled at his words, resting your head at his shoulder. In full comfort between your boyfriend's arms.
âWill you carry me to the bed?â
âAsk me that when you didn't tire my legs out, moron.â
wawi's notes: this is a req from my pretty @xhoinicx <333 in total honesty, even i don't know what is this all abt... kinda rawdogged this one, so i hope it lived up to ur expectations </3 BUTTTT cattle stick is a real thing! apparently, it affects men's hormones more than women... thank u 4 reading... ur likes, reblogs, and comments are always appreciated! dms n reqs are open, too! mwaps <3
THE âSâ WORD ââ .ŕ¨ŕ§ park sunghoon one shot
Ego is a crazy thing and you shattering Park Sunghoonâs just makes him more determined to ruin your indifference and reclaim his pride, even if it means losing his mind in the process.
Or the one where Sunghoon canât wrap his head around the fact that you just wanna fuck.
nsfw warnings ââ SMUT, unprotected sex, oral (f rec), face sitting, cum eating, insane power dynamics, desperate sunghoon is the best sunghoon. heâs cocky as fuck, someone humble him. bisexual!sunghoon x nonchalant!reader
word count ââ 4.7k
Sunghoon was used to being the prize, matter of factâhe was. As the university's bicon bi-icon he was accustomed to the hushed whispers in the lecture halls and the way peopleâregardless of gender because they knew he swung both waysâpractically tripped over themselves to catch his eye.
Sunghoon was well aware that his beauty was a universal language, he moved through the halls with a cold grace that acted like a magnet for everyone in his orbit. He wasn't picky about the attention either, whether it was the girls in the quad rushing to shove their numbers in his jacket pocket or the boys in the locker room staring at all his glory, Sunghoon drank in their collective thirst with a quiet greed.
He enjoyed the way eyes lingered on the line of his jaw and the curve of his shoulders, absolutely relishing the fact that he was the ultimate prize in every room. He had spent years letting people project their fantasies onto him, taking what he wanted and leaving them wanting more and he was perfectly content being the untouchable standard that no one could actually reach.
The man was perfectâtop of his class, a star athlete and a face like that?
So imagine his utter confusion when he brought you back to his dorm after some party, he already had the script written in his head. He'd fucked you into oblivion, with precise movements and be devastatingly thorough, so heâd leave you a shaking and totally breathless mess beneath him. He had fully expected to wake up with you draped over him, perhaps already asking what this meant or clinging to his arm as he tried to get to his eight oâclock class. He was even prepared to be gracious about it, maybe buy you coffee before gently explaining he wasn't looking for anything serious.
But when the sun hit his pillow the next morning and the space beside him was cold. With no note, not even the lingering scent of your perfume, just a neatly made side of the bed and a closed door, Sunghoon didnât know how to react.
After that came the ghosting.
One week became two and when two became three, Sunghoon found himself checking his phone during practice, scowling at the screen when he saw zero notifications from you. He'd see you in the quad, laughing with your friends and you'd give him this breezy nod as if he hadn't spent four hours exploring every inch of your body twenty one days, six hours, twenty minutes and twelve seconds ago. It was driving him insane, you hadnât just bruised his ego, you being all blasĂŠ had sent him into a full scale identity crisis.
He was sitting in the library, trying really hard to think about anything other than you, when his phone finally buzzed and his heart actually thudded against his ribs.
Y/n: hey. u free tonight? we should link againđ
Sunghoon stared at the screen, willing his irritation to subside. Not even a "How are you?" or a "Sorry I've been MIA." You were just directly requesting for his body, as if he were a some kind of high end vending machine.
He typed back immediately, his thumbs flying across the screen with suppressed fury.
Sunghoon: That's it? three weeks of silence and you just want to âlink againâ?
Your reply came back almost instantly but all it did was make his blood boil even hotter.
Y/n: lol yeah. what can i say? you know how to fuck. my place at 10?
Sunghoon stood up so abruptly his chair screeched against the linoleum floor and drew annoyed looks from the nearby students but he didn't care. He was the most sought after man on campus and you were treating him like a convenient late night snack.
He told himself he should text you back no and protect his dignity by telling you he wasn't interested in being your booty call. But even as he told himself that, he was already packing his bag as his mind racing with the need to get you alone again and it wasnât just because he wanted to fuck, he was now hellbent on making you look at him as more than just a good time. He wanted to break that casual, indifferent armor of yours until you were the one begging for a second date.
Or at least, that's what he told himself as he drove toward your dorm, his heart hammering with both wounded pride and an inconvenient hunger.
Sunghoon knew his pride was a dangerous thing but at this point his delusion might have been working overtime. As he took the stairs to your apartment two at a time, he adjusted the collar of his shirt and had managed to convince himself that he had cracked the code. Sheâs not indifferentâhe concluded, you were playing a high stakes game of hard to get, you obviously just wanted him to work for it. Fine then. He'd play along but he'd win by making this night so earth shattering that you'd be making him breakfast in the morning.
He had a whole plan, which involved taking his sweet time with you, being romantic in a way that only really special people got to see. He was going to go heavy on the eye contact and sweet words just cause he wanted to see you crumble.
But the second he walked through your door, the plan practically disintegrated. You didn't even give him time for a "How was your day?" or a lingering gaze because you were on him immediately, with your hands already pulling at his belt and your lips kissing down his neck hungry and focused. He tried to reclaim the narrative, pushing you back against your bed to eat you out, too keen on showing you a level of devotion that would force a confession out of you.
He only managed to get his tongue on you for four minutes before you were hauling him back up, you clearly didn't want the slow buildâyou truly just wanted fuck.
Before he could protest, you somehow had him flat on his back on your bed. You straddled him, tossing your head back in a giggle before guiding his thick and already leaking cock inside your dripping cunt in one stuttering motion. Sunghoon let out a sound that sounded like he was choking, his head hit the pillow as he felt your tight heat sucking him in.
He looked up at you, expecting to see the usual worship every other girl or boy would be giving him by now, he expected the flushed cheeks with the wide eyed adoration he received from everyone else. But your eyes weren't really searching his for a connection, you were looking past him or down at where your bodies joined, with your face all intense and concentrated. You were too focused on the stretch of him filling you up and the way you could make yourself cum by bouncing on him so expertly.
He felt like an object. A very, very expensive tool being used for your personal satisfaction, likeâŚa dildo.
"Look at me," he almost pleaded, his hands flying to your waist to try and slow your manic pace. "Come on, look at me."
You barely glanced down, letting out a huffed breath of a moan as you picked up the speed. Your pussy was incredible, gripping him so tight as you went down and spasming around his tip when you came back up with every downward thrust, it was already making him tilt dangerously close to his limit. His hips began to buck instinctively, attempting to meet your movements as he fought a losing battle against his own pleasure.
He was so conflicted he felt like he was splitting in two. On one hand, this was the best sex of his lifeâagain, your body was a masterpiece and the way you moved was driving him toward an humiliatingly fast orgasm. On the other hand, the silence in the room that was only getting broken by the wet sounds of your squelching pussy and your heavy breathing mix with some occasional moans, was driving him mad.
Why don't you like me? the thought screamed in his head as he felt his cum beginning to stir. I'm Sunghoon. Everyone wants me. Why am I just a body to you?
He gripped your hips tighter cause he knew he was at the very edge and as he finally began to spill inside you, he let out a frustrated growl. He was cumming harder than he ever had, completely ruined by you once again but he couldnât even enjoy it because he knew with a sinking certainty that as soon as he caught his breath, you'd be pointing him towards the door.
You shifted above him and looked down at your joined bodies, watching as the evidence of his orgasm pulsed out of your cunt and slicked your thighs.
You finally looked at his face and pouted at him. "I didn't even get to cum," you muttered, more to yourself than to him but then your eyes flicked to his like you just got them to focus. "Can I sit on your face?"
Normally, that would have been a hard line for him. The logic of his perfect persona dictated a certain level of decorum and the thought of eating his own cum out of your pussy was something he would have considered beneath himâa massive no in any other scenario. But as he looked at you and he saw the indifference in your expression, the way you were already preparing to stand up and end the night, like you were fine either way, that sent a surge of pathetic desperation crashing over him.
He didn't want to leave, he wanted to stay with you, he wanted you to need him, to realize that no one else could satisfy you like this, that no one was like him. He was one of one.
Without a single word of protest, Sunghoon reached up and used his large hands to manhandle you with a sudden urgency, he gripped your waist and pulled you off him cock with a squelch and down the length of his body until your stuffed heat was hovering directly over his mouth.
You let out a startled giggle as he settled you firmly against his face. The sound cut through his pride like a knife but he didn't care, by now he was too far gone.
He dove in with a fervor that was borderline manic, not minding the mess or the taste. The man just wanted to hear you moan his name instead of looking at him like a stranger. His tongue moved with so much focus, swirling it through the creaminess and the slick of your pussy, he was intent on erasing that pout and replacing it with the kind of broken screams that would prove he finally had a hold on you. He used his hands to spread you wide, his thumbs digging into your hips as he worked, worshiping the very part of you that treated him like an afterthought.
When your moans started bouncing off the walls of your room, his pride started to swell again, it was exactly what he had been fighting for. As you gripped his hair and your back arched when he latched his lips on your clit to suck it into his mouth, he felt that familiar confidence starting to return. He was doing it, he was breaking through that cool exterior of yours, making you lose control the way everyone else did for him.
But then, in the heat of your approaching orgasm, you let out a breathless sob. "AhâSungmin! Sungmin, right there!"
Sunghoon froze, lips stopping and all, just laying there for a beat with his lips just an inch from your pussy, he was struggling to process the name that definitely didn't belong to him.
Sungmin? He didn't even know a Sungmin.
He slowly pulled back even further, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand as he looked up at you. You were blinking down at him, your eyes glazed with lingering pleasure, looking almost confused by the sudden halt in his ministrations.
"What?" you asked in an airy voice. "Why'd you stop? That was so gooood."
Sunghoon's brow furrowed more he didn't just feel used like a dildo nowâhe felt completely anonymous.
He suddenly moved and shifted you once again, pushing you down his body so you landed between his legs, before he sat up to look right at you with wounded disbelief. "Who the fuck is Sungmin?"
Your eyes widened in a way that let him know you werenât just fucking with him, you genuinely thought his name was Sungmin. "OhâŚyouâNo way! Is that not your name?" You laughed right in his face.
"No," he answered slowly with anger and real hurt in his voice. "That is absolutely not my name."
He leaned in closer, his nose almost touching yours, his dark eyes searching your face for even a hint that you were joking. But you just looked back at him with that same casual, slightly bored curiosity.
"This is the second time weâre hooking up," he hissed, his grip tightening just a fraction. "I literally spent the last three weeks wondering why you weren't calling me and you're telling me you don't even know who I am? You don't know my name?"
The fact that the most popular guy on campus was currently having an existential crisis over a booty call didn't seem to faze you. In fact it was like you didnât know he was the most perfect popular guy in your school. You just tilted your head. "I thought it started with an s. At least I was right?" You offered weakly.
"It's Sunghoon," he snapped. "My name is Sunghoon." He suddenly shifted away from you, throwing his legs over the bed as the wind was completely knocked out of his sails. He looked at you, his eyes shimmering with a vulnerability he hadn't shown anyone since his primary school days. The rejection was now existential and there was no saving him.
"Why don't you like me?" he asked, hoping you didnât hear the way his voice cracked. He sounded less like the campus heartthrob everyone knew and more like a bewildered boy who had just been told his favorite toy wasn't actually his.
You reached out, your hand trailing down his neck. "What are you talking about? Of course I like you. I like that dick. It's easily the best I've had all year."
"No!" He flinched, batting your hand away and scrambling backward until his back hit the headboard. "Don't...don't touch me. Not if that's all it is." He wrapped his arms around his chest, looking genuinely pained. "Why don't you like me...as a person? Like, as Sunghoon?"
You finally sat up properly, pushing your hair back to giving him a look of unfiltered honesty. "Oh. Well, to be totally fair, I don't really know you that well."
"Well, no fucking shit! Because you ghosted me for three straight weeks after our first time!" he burst out, his voice rising in pitch. "I waited for a text. I was checking my phone every ten fucking minutes. I even walked past your building coincidentally three times in one day and you just...you didn't care!"
You let out an amused laugh and stood up, reaching for your discarded hoodie. "What did you actually expect? Honestly?" You pulled the sweater over your head, looking at him with an arched brow. "Let me guess. You wanted me to be the clingy girl, didn't you? You wanted to wake up and find me in your kitchen making you breakfast and looking at you like you're a god, just so you could get a nice little ego boost before you kicked me out to go to practice?"
Sunghoon opened his mouth to defend himself but his face flushed an embarrassed crimson. "I...I mean..." He stammered, the truth catching in his throat. "Yes! Butâno! I mean, not just that!"
He looked away with his shoulders slumping. He couldn't even lie to himself anymore or look you in the eye. He had wanted the validation of your obsession but instead, he'd ended up obsessed with the fact that you didn't have any for him.
"I just wanted you to remember me," he muttered quietly, looking so deflated it was almost cute. "Is it really that much to ask for you to know the guy whoâs making you cum?"
"Oh please. Making me cum is a stretch." You rolled your eyes at the wash he gasped. "No! Donât do that. Your attitude threw me off today. Thatâs all. I donât need you to tell me, I know I am a good lay."
"Whatever, bro."
Bro?
You stood over him, silhouetted by the dim light of the bedroom and leaned in close enough to see the real panic in his dark eyes. "Admit it," you said, "You only care this much because for the first time in your life, you're the one being looked past. It's driving you crazy that you can't have me hooked on you the way you want."
The silence stretched thin and his pride battled with the dangerous reality of the last three weeks, until he finally snapped.
"Fine! Yes!" The confession came spilling out of him in a desperate rush. "It drives me insane. I've spent every goddamn day wondering why I wasn't enough to make you want to stay. I don't know what it is about youâif it's the way you look at me or the way you actually don'tâbut I have never felt like this."
He reached out and curled his fingers into the fabric of your hoodie, to hold you there and make you hear him out. "I'm Park fucking Sunghoon," he whispered but it sounded like a plea. "People literally line up just to look at me and here I am, practically begging for a crumb of your attention. It's fucking humiliating. So please...just stop treating me like an object. Stop treating me like I'm just a body you can call up when you're bored or horny."
He looked up at you and all you saw was someone utterly wrecked. "Talk to me. Ask me a question. Ask about my day. Tell me your favorite color. You canât just have me leave this room thinking that if I disappeared tomorrow, you'd just find some other guy with an 's' name to replace me."
You let out a low laugh and crawled back over his legs with a hungry kind of grace. "Well," you whispered, closing in until your lips brushed against his heated ear, "maybe you're just going to have to fuck your feelings into me, Sunghoon."
His breath caught at the sound of his name, his actual name finally leaving your mouth. You reached down, wrapping your hand around his soft length and started palming him with a soft touch until he was straining against your hand, thick and pulsing with a newfound grit.
Sunghoon looked up at you with so much desperate devastation, as if he was completely stripped of his usual arrogance. It was the most pathetic he had ever looked and ironically to you, it was the most attractive thing about him.
"You know," you admitted, your voice thick with sudden heat as you guided his tip to your entrance, "seeing you like this...so this ruined over me...it might be the first real thing I actually like about you."
A jolt of something dark and possessive ran in his gaze at your words. You began to sink yourself onto his cock again, the stretch making your eyes flutter shut while he tore your hoodie off you but you didn't get to find your rhythm.
Before you could even settle your weight, Sunghoon's hands shot out like lightning and gripped your waist with an unforgiving force. With something close to an animalistic growl, he flipped you over and your back hit the mattress with a heavy thud that knocked the air from your lungs. He didn't give you a second to recover, he was between your thighs instantly, his body was a nearly suffocating weight as he drove himself into you with a punishing thrust.
"You're a such a bitch," he snapped, sounding completely unhinged as he started pounding into your pussy. He was done being composed and rational, this was straight up anger fueled by three weeks of bruised ego.
He gripped your wrists and pinned them above your head, his hips slamming against yours so hard your headboard rattled against the wall. "Who the fuck is Sungmin anyway?" he hissed, his thrusts becoming even more frantic, more desperate to mark you. "Is he better than this? Does he fuck you this good? Call me his fucking name again while I'm pounding this pussy, I dare you."
You couldn't even get a coherent word out, your was head tossing back and forth against the pillow as your breath came in short sputters. Your brain had turned into complete mush, just entirely focused on the way his cock was ruthlessly bullying its way into your pussy. It felt like he was trying to reach your very soul with every bottoming out thrust, determined to leave a mark that no guy or anyone else could ever erase.
He adjusted your position mid stroke, pushing your legs up until your knees were pinned beside your ears and he was crushing you into a mating press. The shift in angle sent him even deeper inside you and had his cock hitting a spot that made your toes curl and your vision go white.
Sunghoon seemed to have lost his grip on reality entirely. As he pounded into you, his eyes were blown wide and hazy before he started mumbling to himself like a man possessed.
"What the fuck do you mean you don't like me?"
"I'm Park Sunghoon. I'm the Park Sunghoon. You have to like me...everyone fucking likes me. It's supposed to be easy."
His movements were unruly, from both his athleticism and now his ego driven desperation. He reached down between your bodies, making space for his thumb to find your swollen clit and begin to rub it with an unending pressure that synched with the pace he set with his hips.
The double assault was too much and you started trembling violently, the pleasure turning into something so sharp it almost felt like pain. "S-Sunghoon...oh fuck," you sobbed, hot tears finally spilling over as your body began to break under him, making you dig your nails into his back. It was too goodâso good it was damn near terrifying.
"Shit, Sunghoon! SunghoonâFuck! Itâs so deep!" you cried out, your voice finally catching on his actual name, over and over again.
Hearing you scream his name with that much genuine pleasure seemed to flip a switch in him and he responded with a groan, his pace becoming even more eager. "That's it," his sweat was dripping onto your chest as he looked down at your fucked out face.
"Say my name again. Forget everyone else. Just me. You're going to remember this name for the rest of your life."
Sunghoon felt you hit that special peak when the internal muscles of your pussy clamped down on him and you squirted a little, the wetness slicked his thighs but he didnât let up. Driven by a crazed desire to be the only thing on your mind, he shifted again, leaning back with your legs over his broad shoulders so you were completely open and vulnerable, where you were pinned beneath his heavy body.
He thrusted back in, his thick cock finding that perfect angle again. You started screaming as your head was thrashing against the sheets as well cause you felt yourself teetering right on the edge of you cumming. "I'm closeâRight there, Sunghoon! Please, I'm so close!"
But suddenly, the frantic pounding stopped and you seemed to think youâd gone deaf when the sounds stopped before you realize heâd slowed down his movements to an agonizing crawl, transitioning into a slow grind right against your most sensitive parts. He stayed deep inside you, rotating his hips in a way that kept the pressure constant but denied you the friction you needed to actually fall over the edge. You started shaking again, your hands clutching and slapping at his forearms while you begged him to keep going. "No, no, noâSunghoon, don't stop! Please!"
He looked down at you, his face flushed and his eyes dark with a possessive kind of power.
"Say you like me," he commanded in a steady voice, despite his own labored breathing.
"What?" you gasped, your mind spinning.
"Say you like me or you aren't cumming," he repeated, his hips giving you one more delicious slow roll against your internal sweet spot. "Say you like Park Sunghoon. Not just my dick. Say you like me."
By this point, you're completely delirious and the sensory deprivation of the delayed orgasm is making you sob. You were sobbing and your whole body was vibrating with the need for release. You'd say anything to make him move again.
"I like you! I like you, Sunghoon, I swear!" you cried out, the words tumbling out in a broken rush. "I like everything about you, please justâjust let me cum!"
The validation hit him like a drug, he knew youâre probably just cock drunk but that didnât stop the triumphant smirk that pulled at his lips when he finally resumed his brutal strokes. He didnât hold back now, hammering into you with everything he had and in no time, he had you screaming his name as you squirted your juices all over his cock, your body arching off the bed in a violent, shrill climax.
Sunghoon watched you cum as his ego was finally fed by the sight of you completely ruined by him, he let out a groan and pulled out, his own cum hitting you hot and thick across your stomach. He collapsed beside you, chest heaving, looking at you with the gaze of a man who finally thinks he's won.
Sunghoon was still glowing from your frantic confession, his heart finally settling into a steady but prideful thrum. He had done it. He'd broken the code.
"My favorite color is blue," you said randomly in an airy and exhausted voice while you stared up at the ceiling.
Sunghoon's head snapped toward you, a boyish expression spreading across his face. He felt a surge of warmth that had nothing to do with the sex. You were finally talking to him, you were actually giving him a piece of yourself, however small.
"Blue," he repeated, committing it to memory like it was the most important piece of data he'd ever acquired. "Okay. That's good to know. We should go on a date this Saturday."
He was practically beaming, already planning the most perfect, over the top date in history to ensure you never ghosted him again.
He reached out to touch your cheek, in an uncharacteristically tender manner.
You let out a mischievous giggle that made his stomach flip. "Okay, Sungâ"
You cut yourself off, letting the syllable hang in the air for a painfully dramatic second. Sunghoon felt his entire body stiffen, he swore his heart stopped beating and he felt the familiar prickle of panic rising in his chest. His eyes searched yours, losing his mind over the fact that youâd forgotten his name again, wondering if you were about to shatter his heart all over again.
Hoon? Or...Min
"âhoon," you finished, a playful smirk dancing on your lips.
Sunghoon let out a long breath of relief, his shoulders slumping as he realized you were just teasing him. He rolled his eyes, a huffed laugh escaping him as he pulled you into his side, tucking your head under his chin. "You're a brat," he muttered, though there was no heat in it. "A complete brat. But you're going on that date with me and I'm going to make sure you never forget my name again."
"Mm. Weâll see." You teased
"Please stop that."
neneâs note ââ i was fully cackling when i was typing this cause not sunghoon in his kokomi teruhashi era. iâve had shit wifi/network all weekend so i havenât been able to complete any of my smausđ and i know i said i wouldnât post but im sure you guys are used to my little white lies by now! enjoyyyyy, you know i love feedback!đ
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Qualityâ Free Actions
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
i have never been summoned so fast by a set of soobin photos
soobin has a minor major⌠problem. a little urge to cockwarm that shoves aside all of his other thoughts, always there, teasing, tantalizing, demanding attention to the point heâs not sure how else to fix it. except to give in. or try.
soobin, âm a little busy, you giggle a little, turning around to your tall, pouting boyfriend, who looks like heâs going to die of desperation any second now, peering at you through long, messy bangs, his tie undone and hanging around his neck, barely home for 2 seconds and heâs already trailing you like a lost puppy. and itâs not just a welcome home kiss he wants⌠not with the bulge in his pants. but itâs not his fault, not when he comes home after a long day and youâre cleaning your shared apartment, looking so perfectly pretty and domestic, oh fuck, soobinâs weak.
soobin couldnât hide a boner if his life depended on it as you turn around, leaning the broom against a wall before leaning towards him on your tip toes, one quick kiss and soobinâs hands already find your waist, tugging you into him,, not even trying to hide how heâs already half hard in his pressed slacks, cute, awkward smile when you pull back, a little whine from him âcause one kiss isnât enough! angel, please, his big hands not so subtly slipping under the waistband of your pajama pants, lazily trying to tug them down. âm not done cleaning yet, trying to be stern, but soobinâs disarming your weak defenses quickly, your hands pulling his out of your pants, making him whine in complaint.
i missed you so much, he mumbles, youâre killing me, baby. bringing your hand up to his heart shaped lips, sucking on the tip of your finger, lazy, half lidded eyes gazing down, just for a little bit? one hand on your waist, pressing you up against his bulge, god, heâs irresistible and he knows it.. so easy to always have his way, the corner of his lip tilting up. just cockwarming, okay?
mmphâ n-needed this sâ much, doll, soobinâs breathy moan muffled by your hair, face buried in the crook of your neck, his breathing uneven and panting, warm, wet folds sinking slowly âround his heavy cock, soobinâs so big, leaking tip drooling all over your insides, clenched around him tight. manspread on the couch as you straddle his lap, legs trembling at the stretch, heâs too impatient for foreplay when all he wants is to cockwarm!
and it feels like his personal heaven, slacks not even off and just unzipped, boxers shoved down clumsily enough to free his heavy cock, neat dress shirt crumpled beneath your fingers, tie dropped somewhere on the floor, poor big dick boyfriend couldnât wait at all, could he? your arousal dripping all over his crotch, feeling him so deep inside of you, filled so full to the brim it makes you lose your senses, dizzy with the sweet, pleasuring sensation only soobin can give, arms wrapped around his neck. and itâs pure intimacy, his need to be buried in your sweet pussy, warm and it feels like love, stress evaporating as he settles, bottomed out and pressing sleepy kisses to your neck, breathing in your scent
â
oh, heâs so fucked. soobinâs not sure how long has passed, except that youâve fallen asleep, somewhat drowsy from the comfort⌠and his dick is aching, heavy and leaking. his hands slipping beneath your thighs, breathily moaning as he thrusts in a little, wet, slick squelch of your juices soaking his crotch, pussy sucking him in deeper as he sloppily fucks your hole, so desperate for release, pure need for sweet relief⌠and its a little embarrassing how fast he cums, hot, milky seed filling you up inside as you whine at the sudden fullness, tummy bulging a little with his cum and cock, barely awake and milking him of every drop as he moans, hands clumsily pushing your hips down, sticky cum seeping out from your cunt all over his boxers⌠surely you donât mind..?
girl i need to sleep fml this is so messy sorry lol will write smth better when i have brain cells
i have never been summoned so fast by a set of soobin photos
soobin has a minor major⌠problem. a little urge to cockwarm that shoves aside all of his other thoughts, always there, teasing, tantalizing, demanding attention to the point heâs not sure how else to fix it. except to give in. or try.
soobin, âm a little busy, you giggle a little, turning around to your tall, pouting boyfriend, who looks like heâs going to die of desperation any second now, peering at you through long, messy bangs, his tie undone and hanging around his neck, barely home for 2 seconds and heâs already trailing you like a lost puppy. and itâs not just a welcome home kiss he wants⌠not with the bulge in his pants. but itâs not his fault, not when he comes home after a long day and youâre cleaning your shared apartment, looking so perfectly pretty and domestic, oh fuck, soobinâs weak.
soobin couldnât hide a boner if his life depended on it as you turn around, leaning the broom against a wall before leaning towards him on your tip toes, one quick kiss and soobinâs hands already find your waist, tugging you into him,, not even trying to hide how heâs already half hard in his pressed slacks, cute, awkward smile when you pull back, a little whine from him âcause one kiss isnât enough! angel, please, his big hands not so subtly slipping under the waistband of your pajama pants, lazily trying to tug them down. âm not done cleaning yet, trying to be stern, but soobinâs disarming your weak defenses quickly, your hands pulling his out of your pants, making him whine in complaint.
i missed you so much, he mumbles, youâre killing me, baby. bringing your hand up to his heart shaped lips, sucking on the tip of your finger, lazy, half lidded eyes gazing down, just for a little bit? one hand on your waist, pressing you up against his bulge, god, heâs irresistible and he knows it.. so easy to always have his way, the corner of his lip tilting up. just cockwarming, okay?
mmphâ n-needed this sâ much, doll, soobinâs breathy moan muffled by your hair, face buried in the crook of your neck, his breathing uneven and panting, warm, wet folds sinking slowly âround his heavy cock, soobinâs so big, leaking tip drooling all over your insides, clenched around him tight. manspread on the couch as you straddle his lap, legs trembling at the stretch, heâs too impatient for foreplay when all he wants is to cockwarm!
and it feels like his personal heaven, slacks not even off and just unzipped, boxers shoved down clumsily enough to free his heavy cock, neat dress shirt crumpled beneath your fingers, tie dropped somewhere on the floor, poor big dick boyfriend couldnât wait at all, could he? your arousal dripping all over his crotch, feeling him so deep inside of you, filled so full to the brim it makes you lose your senses, dizzy with the sweet, pleasuring sensation only soobin can give, arms wrapped around his neck. and itâs pure intimacy, his need to be buried in your sweet pussy, warm and it feels like love, stress evaporating as he settles, bottomed out and pressing sleepy kisses to your neck, breathing in your scent
â
oh, heâs so fucked. soobinâs not sure how long has passed, except that youâve fallen asleep, somewhat drowsy from the comfort⌠and his dick is aching, heavy and leaking. his hands slipping beneath your thighs, breathily moaning as he thrusts in a little, wet, slick squelch of your juices soaking his crotch, pussy sucking him in deeper as he sloppily fucks your hole, so desperate for release, pure need for sweet relief⌠and its a little embarrassing how fast he cums, hot, milky seed filling you up inside as you whine at the sudden fullness, tummy bulging a little with his cum and cock, barely awake and milking him of every drop as he moans, hands clumsily pushing your hips down, sticky cum seeping out from your cunt all over his boxers⌠surely you donât mind..?
girl i need to sleep fml this is so messy sorry lol will write smth better when i have brain cells
i have never been summoned so fast by a set of soobin photos
soobin has a minor major⌠problem. a little urge to cockwarm that shoves aside all of his other thoughts, always there, teasing, tantalizing, demanding attention to the point heâs not sure how else to fix it. except to give in. or try.
soobin, âm a little busy, you giggle a little, turning around to your tall, pouting boyfriend, who looks like heâs going to die of desperation any second now, peering at you through long, messy bangs, his tie undone and hanging around his neck, barely home for 2 seconds and heâs already trailing you like a lost puppy. and itâs not just a welcome home kiss he wants⌠not with the bulge in his pants. but itâs not his fault, not when he comes home after a long day and youâre cleaning your shared apartment, looking so perfectly pretty and domestic, oh fuck, soobinâs weak.
soobin couldnât hide a boner if his life depended on it as you turn around, leaning the broom against a wall before leaning towards him on your tip toes, one quick kiss and soobinâs hands already find your waist, tugging you into him,, not even trying to hide how heâs already half hard in his pressed slacks, cute, awkward smile when you pull back, a little whine from him âcause one kiss isnât enough! angel, please, his big hands not so subtly slipping under the waistband of your pajama pants, lazily trying to tug them down. âm not done cleaning yet, trying to be stern, but soobinâs disarming your weak defenses quickly, your hands pulling his out of your pants, making him whine in complaint.
i missed you so much, he mumbles, youâre killing me, baby. bringing your hand up to his heart shaped lips, sucking on the tip of your finger, lazy, half lidded eyes gazing down, just for a little bit? one hand on your waist, pressing you up against his bulge, god, heâs irresistible and he knows it.. so easy to always have his way, the corner of his lip tilting up. just cockwarming, okay?
mmphâ n-needed this sâ much, doll, soobinâs breathy moan muffled by your hair, face buried in the crook of your neck, his breathing uneven and panting, warm, wet folds sinking slowly âround his heavy cock, soobinâs so big, leaking tip drooling all over your insides, clenched around him tight. manspread on the couch as you straddle his lap, legs trembling at the stretch, heâs too impatient for foreplay when all he wants is to cockwarm!
and it feels like his personal heaven, slacks not even off and just unzipped, boxers shoved down clumsily enough to free his heavy cock, neat dress shirt crumpled beneath your fingers, tie dropped somewhere on the floor, poor big dick boyfriend couldnât wait at all, could he? your arousal dripping all over his crotch, feeling him so deep inside of you, filled so full to the brim it makes you lose your senses, dizzy with the sweet, pleasuring sensation only soobin can give, arms wrapped around his neck. and itâs pure intimacy, his need to be buried in your sweet pussy, warm and it feels like love, stress evaporating as he settles, bottomed out and pressing sleepy kisses to your neck, breathing in your scent
â
oh, heâs so fucked. soobinâs not sure how long has passed, except that youâve fallen asleep, somewhat drowsy from the comfort⌠and his dick is aching, heavy and leaking. his hands slipping beneath your thighs, breathily moaning as he thrusts in a little, wet, slick squelch of your juices soaking his crotch, pussy sucking him in deeper as he sloppily fucks your hole, so desperate for release, pure need for sweet relief⌠and its a little embarrassing how fast he cums, hot, milky seed filling you up inside as you whine at the sudden fullness, tummy bulging a little with his cum and cock, barely awake and milking him of every drop as he moans, hands clumsily pushing your hips down, sticky cum seeping out from your cunt all over his boxers⌠surely you donât mind..?
girl i need to sleep fml this is so messy sorry lol will write smth better when i have brain cells
DREAM RECALL â¸â¸ He pulls away from you with a perplexed expression. Then he laughs, itâs short, cruel, he shakes his head. âDonât be funnyâ, he mutters as he runs a hand through his dark hair. âYou know I have a girlfriend, nerd.â He spits the words out like the venomous bite of a snake. His gaze drops to your unbuttoned blazer, briefly passing the harsh bruises on your chest. â âDonât think youâre anything else besides a quick fuck.â â¸â¸
wc â 26k
pairings popular/bully!yeonjun x nerd!reader(fem) college au !
warnings heavy bullying, violence, exploitation, cheating, drinking, yeonjun is an asshole for 80% of this, redemption arc, some angsty scenes, hurt-comfort sort of? this fic contains 3/4 descriptive smut scenes which include â oral (both f & m), penetrative sex, vaginal fingering, a handjob, lots of degrading (reader receiving) but also a splash of praise, some tit groping, implied marking, very soft sex at the end (yeonjun cries a little), reader is inexperienced = virginity loss, + yeonjun teaching her how to give a blowjob as always lmk if I missed any!
#serene adds â my god this fic has taken literal years off my life. But I could not have been happier with the outcome of it !! It's a long one, but I've tried to keep it interesting throughout it all for a lighter read. I'm not one to beg for feedback, but I will actually get down on my knees this time around. Please please comment/reblog or even send asks with your thoughts on it, I need it to be perceived in any way possible !! hehe please enjoy because I have slaved to get this done (if anyone notices the Skins reference in one scene, lets kiss)
(I was also slightly delirious when I read this through ahem...) anyway, ready, set go !
This story is part of a trilogy, find the masterpost here to make sure you're reading in correct order!
You donât exactly know how it started. The cheating, the lying, the sleepless nights, the crying, the heartbreak, Choi Yeonjun. One day he was justâŚthere. You had never met anyone like Yeonjun before yet you knew hundreds of people like him. He was everything, he was the cause of your pain, your tears, your self loathe. â But mostly importantly, Yeonjun was your first love. You would always remember him as that. You suppose it might have started on your first day at that college, back when you were only known as the junior transfer.Â
He was a senior. Perhaps it was a bit clichĂŠ, you donât know, you didnât think so. But you remember it clearly, the first time you saw him. â The air was hot, suffocatingly so, despite it being early October. Your palms were sweaty, and you squeezed them together as your hands remained neatly clasped in front of you. The eyes of the other students weighed a ton and you felt your knees buckle under the pressure.Â
Your professor clears his throat as he steps up beside you, gazing out across the classroom. âWe have a new student todayâ, he announces what was already painfully obvious and you felt your cheeks redden further. Apart from a few sniggers here and there, silence follows. âWhy donât you introduce yourself?â His direct question made you flinch as you quickly glanced up from the floor, your gaze flitting between your professor and the large ocean of heads turned in your direction.Â
Your introduction was meek, the words getting caught in your throat as you stammered out your name. You could almost hear the smirks plastered on their faces as they drank in your fidgety frame. You jump when you feel your teacher's hand on your shoulder, âyour new classmate is a year younger than you guys, but due to her impressive work ethic she has finished the majority of her classes already. She will therefore be joining us for the time being.â â His words of praise felt more like a set up for humiliation and you watched as students leaned over to whisper in each otherâs ears, grinning at the words being passed around. You could hear the rumors already.Â
âWhy donât you take the seat over there?â Your new professor points to an empty desk by the very back and you breathe out a small sigh of relief, glad to be shielded from the peering eyes of your new classmates. But just as youâre about to step down and make your way toward the safe haven, you lock eyes with him. â Part of his face was shielded by his dark hair but you could clearly make out his brown eyes, staring right back at your own. Heâs quick to catch on to your stare and you watch as his lips stretch into a menacing smirk.Â
Forcing yourself to look away, you grab onto your bag as you quietly make your way past the many rows of desks. An outstretched foot makes you stumble forward and you barely manage to catch yourself. âCarefulâ, one of the girls turns in her seat as she eyes you with a not so friendly smile, âwouldnât want you to fall.â You give her a small nod as you hurriedly continue toward your own desk.
Thankful to have stepped away from the spotlight, you lean back as you let out a small breath. But it wasnât enough. As class went on you continued to catch the multiple glances thrown your way, the small chuckles, the papers being passed around. It all felt too familiar, and your heart slowly sank. â You pushed the feeling away, focusing on what you did best, studying. Class was a nice distraction, but after an hour and a half it came to an end. And as soon as your professor had shut the door behind him, chaos erupted.Â
The scraping of chairs against the stone floor filled the classroom as students turned to get a glimpse of you. It didnât take long for a small half circle to form around you, and you swallowed the lump in your throat.Â
âHow did you do it?âÂ
The first one to speak up was a lanky guy, he leans closer as he studies your uncertain face. Before you could even process the meaning of his question, a girl interrupted him, the same one who had tried to trip you over at the beginning of class. âI bet she slept with them, I mean, she must have.â â Her statement is followed by laughter as people nod in agreement. âBut how did you get them in bed?â Another girl asks as she looks you up and down with distaste, âsurely it wasnât whilst looking like that?â More laughter.Â
Your face might as well have been on fire as you glanced down toward your notes. âWhat if she drugged them?â Another guy chimes in as he points an accusing finger toward you. Hurriedly you shake your head as your lips part in a reply, a reply that immediately gets stuck in your throat as youâre interrupted.Â
âYou guys are being too harsh.â Another voice speaks up, everyone falls silent and soon the crowd parts as the guy you had made eye contact with earlier steps through. Heâs followed by two of his friends and the small group stops by your desk. âItâs obvious you guysâ, he exclaims as he leans down to come eyelevel with you. When this close, his sharp eyes somehow felt like daggers, boring into your soul as his lips curled into a smirk.Â
âSheâs a nerd.â He draws out each syllable like it was his last, his lips stretching wider as he sees your face fall. Small gasps and hums of agreement fill the silent room, as if everyone just instantly agreed with whatever he said. âDonât think of her as anything elseâ, he drawls, straightening his back once more as he stares you down.Â
You soon found out that his name was Choi Yeonjun.Â
â¸â¸
Your first day had only proven to be a small trial of the school year ahead. Word had quickly spread of the transfer student who took classes with the seniors, and wherever you went, you had eyes on you. â You tried your best to keep to yourself, to focus on your studies. That was how you had made it through your previous schools. But it seemed futile here, because no matter how low of a profile you kept, they always found a reason to pick and pull at you.Â
âWhat the fuck do you think youâre doing nerd?â She yells as she shoves you against the red lockers and you groan in pain. You couldnât remember her name, but you knew that she was a senior too, she sat two rows ahead of you and to the left. â Confused, you look up only to be met with a harsh slap to your face. âDonât play stupid, I know thatâs the last thing you are.â She sneers and your lips part in objection, though no words come out.Â
The girl signals for her friends to block either side of you, shutting off any escape routes as she rolls up her sleeves. âYou think you can just go through my shit like that? That I wouldnât know?â Her statement baffles you and your eyes widen, âwhat?â Another slap to your cheek, âright, come on now. Give it back.âÂ
You frown, âgive what back?â Her friends on either side of you grip onto your arms and you wince as they twist your limbs. She scoffs, âmy lipstick you idiot, I know it was you. Who else would take it? Besides, Iâve seen the way you eye it whenever I put it on.â â While her words were partly true, you did think that her lipstick was really pretty and often found your gaze lingering whenever she picked it up from her bag, you would never stoop to such a level as stealing.Â
âI didn't steal your lipstickâ, you croak out and she lets out a huff of disbelief. She goes off on yet another rant but youâre suddenly distracted as your eyes land on the small group of students walking by.Â
After your first day, Yeonjun hadnât addressed you once. He never picked on you, never engaged in gossip about you, he barely even acknowledged your existence. But you knew that he was behind most of what happened to you, because everyone listened to Choi Yeonjun. If he didnât like what was going on, he would put an end to it, but he never did.Â
You often saw him in the halls, he was always followed by his two friends. On your second day you had learned that the three of them were practically inseparable. â To his left was a tall guy, his frame could easily tower over just about anyone, yet he trailed behind his friends quietly with his head hung low. If it wasnât for the scowl on his face whenever someone dared to glance in his direction, you would have assumed that he was just any other student. His name was Choi Soobin, that much you knew.Â
To his right, was perhaps Soobinâs opposite. He was shorter than his friends, not by much, but it made him stick out. His hair fell in uneven sections across his face and he often brushed it away with his pinky whilst he spoke. Unlike Soobin, Choi Beomgyu talked almost all the time, with the occasional input from Yeonjun. Though few of his words were kindhearted. He often picked on you, his comments were snarky and mean, you only ever caught a break when Yeonjun got fed up.Â
Then there was Choi Yeonjun, walking in the middle, he gazed ahead as Beomgyu blabbered nonsense into his ear, Soobin following slightly behind them. The Choiâs, that was what people called them. Something to do with their names all being Choi, you thought it was kind of corny. Yet you couldnât deny the way your eyes lingered on Yeonjun, just a little longer than the rest.Â
It wasnât like you thought that he was handsome or anything, but he was nice to look atâŚyou supposed. And even though you knew better than to pay him any mind, it was hard to tear your gaze away from him. Only when he passed you, did you feel your heart stutter. For the first time since your first day here, he looked at you, if only for a brief moment. His gaze flickered over your practically torn limbs and a small smirk etched its way to his lips. â You felt your knees go weak under his eyes and swallowed hard.Â
Though his attention soon returned to the girl draped under his arm, the same girl that had tried to trip you over on your first day. You had found out that she was his girlfriend, her name was Mimi. She twirled a strand of her hair as she whispered something in his ear and Yeonjun chuckled. â Their small party continued past you as if nothing was wrong before disappearing down the hallway, leaving you to face the fate before you.Â
â¸â¸
You convinced yourself that it wasnât a crush, that you simply found him appealing. The topic of crushes stopped being a thing after middle school, right? You, a twenty year old, have a crush? The thought was ridiculous. But no matter what lies you forced into your brain, your heart still beat a little faster whenever he was present, your eyes drifted in his direction and there was nothing you could do to stop them. â So what if you did have a small crush on Choi Yeonjun? It wasnât going to harm anyone, it wasnât like you were going to act on it. He had a girlfriend. Whenever you reminded yourself of said fact, a pang of guilt shot through your chest. You know you shouldnât feel guilty, but it was hard not to. Most of all you felt guilty toward yourself â guilty for letting yourself sink to such a level.Â
As October went by, you did your best to stay out of the firing line of your classmates, you kept your head down and did your work. And when there was no work left to do, you spent your time looking at Yeonjun. He really was pretty to look at. â You noted the way he would lean back in his chair, stretching his arms above his head before yawning, his eyes momentarily fluttering closed. Usually, he wasted his classes on his phone, or chatting with Beomgyu, it was unusual for him to be doing any of his coursework. Perhaps he didnât need to, or he simply didnât care to.Â
Occasionally, you would catch your name slipping past Beomgyuâs lips, your gaze immediately snapping down to your book as your heart practically beat out of your chest. But no matter how many times he mentioned you, pointed at you, sneered at you, Yeonjun never even as much as turned his head in your direction, simply shrugging along to whatever his friend was saying.
The only time Yeonjun looked at you was when everyone else did. That one time someone poured milk over you in the cafeteria, or when you got a basketball in your face during gym. Only when the whole school pointed and laughed, only then did he spare you a fragment of his attention. And maybe you did like it, maybe you did want him to look at you.Â
It was kind of pathetic.Â
What was perhaps even more pathetic was that one offer you hadnât been able to pass up. It wasnât like you could say no to your professor either, right? â âI think there are a few students who would benefit from studying together with you.â You blink up at him as you watch your teacher lean back in his chair. This was why he had called you? To be frank you donât know what you had expected when he asked you to stay behind after class, but this was far from it.Â
âStudying with me?â You repeat as you point a confused finger toward yourself. Sure you worked hard, but that was because you had your mind set on doing so. You doubted that your classmates would want to spend even a second wasted in your presence.Â
Your professor sighs as he pinches the bridge of his nose. âYou are a clever girlâ, he nods toward your latest test result on his desk and your gaze follows his movement as you swallow. âNot to mention the fact that you are a whole year ahead of your peers.â He then adds with a small smile and you silently thank him, even though you were certain that he could smell the hesitation radiating off of you. âLook, it is not something you have to decide on todayâ, he begins as he gathers the papers on his desk, âbut students like Mr. Choi could definitely use a hand in their studies.âÂ
Your ears perked up at the brief mention of his name, and it was almost embarrassing how quickly your head jerked in the direction of your teacher. Though you did not dare get too ahead of yourself. Shifting on the spot, you softly clear your throat, âChoiâŚChoi Yeonjun?â Your professor stops to look at you, âwhy, yes, but you do not have to decide today take the weekend to-âÂ
âIâll do it.âÂ
â¸â¸
Youâll do it? What a joke.Â
Your whole weekend was spent pacing back and forth across your room. Teeth gnawing away at your fingernails, your mind wrecked with different scenarios of how that following Monday would play out. What were you honestly thinking, saying yes like that? â With an exasperated groan, you flop down on your bed. Staring at the ceiling, you envision Yeonjun, a furious Yeonjun, or maybe a jeering one, you didnât know which approach he would take. But surely he wouldnât be happy once the news reached him, unless they already had?
Briefly you considered calling in sick that Monday. You had never called in sick before, at least you couldnât remember doing so; recalling the multiple times you had ignored the fever in your body as you marched on to class. Not to mention that time you had the flu and still sat through your three hour long exam. â Were you really considering calling in sick over a mere guy. But it wasnât just a guy, it was Choi Yeonjun.Â
Regardless of the situation, you still went to school on Monday. But as soon as you stepped inside the classroom, you could tell that something was different. It was like the air had shifted. And as you made your way to the back of the room, carefully taking your seat, not a single one of your classmates bothered to pick on you. Instead they all occupied themselves with whatever they had in front of them. It was odd to say the least.Â
In regular fashion, the classroom door swings open during the very last minute as Beomgyu saunters inside. Behind him follows Soobin and Yeonjun, both in the midst of a hushed conversation. You find your gaze instinctively lingering by Yeonjunâs tall frame, fingers twirling your pen mindlessly in your hand. It isnât until you glance up and find his eyes already boring holes into your own, that youâre suddenly ripped from your trance.Â
Yeonjun was looking at you. He was actually looking at you, no, he was glaring at you. The realization was enough to send your heart into a frenzy as you swallowed a gulp. His gaze is unwavering as he approaches his desk, still conversing with his friend, but his eyes remain entirely on you. â Sweat builds on your forehead and you grip your pencil tightly. No matter how hard you tried, you couldnât find yourself to break his gaze. You knew that you were giving him exactly what he wanted by letting his eyes practically tear you apart, so why couldnât you pull away?Â
It isnât until the classroom door opens yet again that he puts out the fire he had momentarily created between the two of you, his eyes shifting toward board as your professor clears his throat, ready to begin todayâs lecture. As his monotone voice fills the room, you breathe out a sigh of relief, glad to be out of his sight.Â
He had to have known by now, the nasty looks he shot you throughout the day were more than telling. For someone who never even paid you as much as a second thought, it was most unusual for Yeonjunâs full attention to be directed toward you. Even during lunch, you could feel his eyes on you as he sat by his usual table. With Mimi on his lap and Beomgyu talking in his ear, his gaze still remained on your slumped figure as you focused on your plate of food.Â
â¸â¸
Your professor had helped set up todayâs session, but after that you would have to schedule them on your own. You were supposed to meet by the library, at 5:15pm that Monday. â You were there by 4:55. It took you about five minutes to pick a suitable table, not too close to the door, not in a corner somewhere, but also not in the center of the room, perhaps you were overthinking it. Deep breath in, deep breath out. Desperately you tried to calm your nerves as your trembling hands brought out your notebook and pencil case.Â
By 5:15 you were ready, actually you had been ready for the past ten minutes. The small library had been vacant even when you arrived, you didnât know if you felt relieved at the fact or not. â By 5:25 you started to think that he might not show up. Out of all possible scenarios fabricated in your way too creative brain, the one of him not even bothering to come hadnât crossed your mind at all. What would you do then? Accept defeat? Tell your professor? Talk to him in class? Neither option seemed too appealing.Â
Itâs 5:32 when the doors creak open. Hesitantly, you lift your gaze as you watch Yeonjunâs eyes wander across the room, finally landing on you. His face morphed into a scowl and you felt your stomach drop. You notice that he hasnât brought any study materials along with him and you bite the inside of your cheek. The short breath he lets go of echoes out into the silent library and then he marches toward you. â You donât have time to think before heâs by your table, the palm of his hand slamming against the wood with such force that your pencils rattle, and you flinch.Â
âDo you think this is some kind of sick joke?â He sounds agitated, his hot breath searing through his gritted teeth as his nostrils flared. Your once tense jaw falls open as your brows draw together in a confused frown. â âI mean, I knew you had a thing for me. But donât you think this is going too far?â He sounds almost hysterical as a grin spreads across his lips.Â
You felt color rushing to your cheeks at his words. Did he know? Could he tell by your small glances? But you thought you were being subtle. Yeonjun seems to be reading your mind as he runs a lazy hand through his hair, âoh come on now nerd, for someone so clever you really are quite oblivious.â
âDid you honestly think I wouldnât notice the way you eye-fucked me every single opportunity you got?â He sneers, tilting his head to the side as he watches you with a cruel look of distaste. Your lips part but no words come out. So you shake your head, you didnât know who you were trying to convince, him or yourself. âIt wasnât like thatâŚâÂ
He scoffs, âno?â Suddenly his face is only inches from yours, and you had to force your gaze not to stray down to his lips as he spoke. âThen what is it?â He murmurs, so close that you could almost taste his words on your tongue. You swallow, hard. What was it? You didnât know, you didnât want to answer, he couldnât make you answer, could he?Â
His grin widens as a low chuckle rumbles in his chest. âNo wayâ, he shakes his head as one of his hands grip the backrest of your chair, easily twisting you to face him fully. His previously cocky expression was replaced with a look of sympathy, his voice now laced with pity.Â
âDonât tell me youâve got a little crush, nerd.â He spits the words out and youâre quick to shake your head, denying his blunt accusations. âI donâtâ, you stammer, leaning back as far as your chair would allow you to. â âYouâre telling me youâre doing this out of goodwill?â He asks as he tilts his head to the side. He hardly seems moved by your denial, but when you quietly nod his smug face turns into a snarl. âDo you think Iâm stupid?âÂ
âWhat? No, no, no thatâs not what I-â You stop yourself before getting another word out, it felt like no matter what you said, you only worsened the already sour situation. Yeonjun exhales, his warm breath slamming against your already hot face. He leans back, taking a seat on the edge of the table as his hands dig into the pockets of his uniform. Confused, you watch him as he silently gets comfortable.Â
âWhat do you want then?â He finally asks and you blink up at him. âMy number? Is that it?â He wonders as he fishes up his phone, unlocking it as he pulls up his contacts. You shake your head and he frowns, âthen what?â â Your lips part and you motion toward the books in front of you, âjustâŚâ
âDonât tell me you want me to fuck you, because that would be pathetic, even for you nerd.âÂ
His statement catches you so off guard that you almost hit your leg on the chair opposite your own. âWhat?â You whisper, unsure of the fact that you had even heard him correct. You knew that there was no such universe in which someone like Choi Yeonjun would ever view you in that way, so it felt almost bizarre to hear those words leave his lips so casually.Â
He sighs as he gets up from the table, leaning down to become eye level with you once more. âI mean, I get that youâre desperate, believe meâ, he lets his gaze drop to your chest for a brief second. âLooking like that, Iâm sure itâs hard to get byâ, he hums, and in that moment, you wished for the ground to swallow you whole.Â
It had been a foolish idea to even consider doing this, even more to say yes. If you had only turned your professorâs offer down, none of this would have happened. Because in all honesty, if this was how Yeonjun looked at you, with such menace and fabricated pity, you think you preferred it when he paid your existence no mind.Â
âBut youâre luckyâ, he murmurs before leaning even closer, his breath mingling with your own. Lucky? What a joke, you thought. â You flinch when you feel the light caress of his fingers on your shoulder as they slowly entangle themselves in your hair. âIâm feeling particularly nice todayâ, he smirks and your eyes involuntarily dart down to his perfectly plump and pink lips. âBesidesâ, he drawls, his hand moving to cup your cheek.Â
âIâve never fucked a nerd before.âÂ
You barely get the chance to second guess his words when Yeonjun presses his lips against yours. Immediately you freeze as your shoulders jerk up and your back curls against the chair. The hand on your cheek moves to your chin as he grabs ahold of your face, forcing his tongue inside your mouth and you let out a small shriek. â He hums against you, his eyes fluttering closed, lips moving on top of your unresponsive ones.Â
A moment later he pulls back. âYou kiss like a virginâ, he states as he wipes his mouth with the back of his hand. As soon as the words left his lips, he grins, âbut I bet you are.â â Still too stunned to even speak after his sudden course of action, you merely shake your head as you glance between him and the floor. You werenât a complete virgin, you did have a boyfriend back in high school. Not that the two of you ever went further than kissing though, and even then, his kisses were nothing like Yeonjunâs.Â
Hesitantly you meet his gaze, swallowing down the nerves bubbling in your throat. âCome on now nerdâ, he murmurs as his hands grip onto the armrests of your chair, large arms entrapping you against the old wood. âYouâve done it now havenât you?â â âYou got me here all to yourself, why donât you use it to your advantage hm?â His eyes gleamed with mischief and you knew better than to trust his persuasive ways. Still you found it hard to do anything besides gawk at him, in utter disbelief of what was currently happening.Â
Biting your lip, you let your eyes flit down to his parted lips, focusing a little too long on the sheer layer of saliva that coated them. Yeonjun is quick to pick up on the subtle shift in your focus and he chuckles. You clearly see the way he moves closer, but it still doesnât register that heâs kissing you again until his tongue molds against your own. Despite your initial shock, you try your best to kiss him back this time. You knew that you were probably horrible, but even then, he didnât say anything.
Your breath catches in your throat when his hand envelops one of your breasts, groping it softly. âDonât tell me youâve never had your tits touched?â He drawls, easily noting your uncertain approach. Your silence is almost deafening and the way you squirm when he pinches one of your nipples tells him everything he needs to know. With a small frown he pulls back, just enough for you to see his face. He looks conflicted, tongue prodding against the inside of his cheek as he runs a hand through his hair. âFuck, you really are a virgin arenât you?â He sounds almostâŚserious and you find yourself slowly nodding as you grip the hem of your skirt tightly.Â
Yeonjun sighs and you hear him mutter something under his breath. His gaze snaps back to you and you can see the shift in his eyes once he settles on a decision. âAlrightâ, he states before quickly dropping to his knees. Baffled you follow his direct movement, shrieking as his hands on your knees part your legs. âWeâll start slowâ, he hums as his fingers dance across the exposed skin of your thighs, your weak arms easily giving up when he pushes your skirt up.Â
âNo need to be nervousâ, he reassures you as his fingers hook around the hem of your panties, âIâve done this plenty of times.â With that, he tugs your underwear down, past your knees, letting them pool around your ankles before his attention shifts to your exposed core. Your legs close in an attempt to shield yourself from his invasive stare but Yeonjun only gruffs out a short breath as he breaks your knees apart once more. â When he doesnât say anything you grow worried, clearing your throat awkwardly as you shift on the chair. You had never done anything like this before so you had no idea if his silence was a good or a bad thing.Â
You donât have to ponder for long as his fingers suddenly graze your folds. The touch was unexpected and you jolted forward as you tried to suppress the surprised noise threatening to escape. The smirk stretching across his lips only grows as Yeonjun basks in the way you react to his simple touch, you were far easier than any of the girls heâd been with. â âEver had anyone touch you like this?â He asks, his voice a low murmur as his attention remains on his fingers sliding against your cunt, gathering the slick that formed as he smeared it all over you.Â
Meekly you shake your head, breathing out a small âno.â He seems satisfied with your answer, his ego inflating by the minute as he watches you writher under his small touches. Everything still felt so surreal, there was no way that this was actually happening, was it? Youâre reminded of all the times you had watched him from afar, sneaking shy glances at him during class, before and after school, in the cafeteria, where he sat with his friends andâŚand his girlfriend. The reminder is enough to pull you from whatever euphoric state that transpired within your body as you jerked away from his touch.Â
Yeonjunâs eyes snap to you with a hint of curiosity and you bite the inside of your cheek, drawing in a small breath before daring to speak. âM-Mimi⌠w-what about her?â â He groans, a frustrated groan, and you wonder if you overstepped. âNerd, someone like you, doesnât count as cheating, got it?â He holds your gaze, speaking clearly, as if giving instructions to a toddler. He grins, a menacing grin, âbesides, shouldnât you be happy? Iâm giving you what your perverted little mind has craved since you first stepped foot here.â Sheepishly you nod, heat rushing to your cheeks at the blunt statements he made.Â
Choi Yeonjun was bold, his words were harsh, and a lot of times they hurt. For some reason that made you like him even more.Â
âNow stop asking obvious questionsâ, he grunts as his hands trail along your thighs, pulling you forward on the chair, ignoring the way you squeal when he nuzzles his face between your legs. â It felt far from what it looked like in the movies, or even in porn. Yeonjun's hot breath against your core, his tongue dragging across your folds, it made the hairs on the back of your neck stand and you gasped as he flicked your clit.Â
It was almost impossible to control the way your thighs twitched, squishing either side of his head as you fought to remain composed. A small whine left your lips as he latched on to your sensitive flesh, licking and sucking on it as if it was the only thing he was capable of doing. You barely register the way one of his hands grab onto your trembling ones, guiding them to his hair as he hums against your cunt. âDonât be so awkwardâ, he mutters, his tongue dwelling deep inside of you, eliciting a moan from you as your fingers immediately twist in his dark locks.Â
Never in a million years had you thought that the study session that you had been far too eager to agree to would turn into something like this. And that Choi Yeonjun of all people would be the first one to see such a part of you. â You didnât know if it was such a good thing. But it was impossible to form a single coherent thought with him between your legs, mouth falling open in surprise as his nose bumps up against your clit. He doesnât seem to mind when you push yourself further onto his face, practically grinding your hips on his mouth as small noises of pleasure ripped from deep within your throat. You were thankful that the library had been vacant for hours.Â
âY-Yeonjun!â His name falls from your lips without registering in your brain beforehand and you almost slap a hand over your mouth as realization washes over you. Yeonjun on the other hand, only chuckles, the sound sending vibrations against your sensitive cunt and you whimper as he withdraws his tongue from within you. â A somewhat familiar sensation bubbled in the depths of your stomach. It wasnât like you hadnât had an orgasm before, but the occurrence was rare, you didnât exactly spend much time with yourself like that.Â
His name is pulled from your chest once more and his grip on your thighs tighten. âYou got something to say, nerd?â He wonders without leaning away from you, hot mouth working against your throbbing core as he draws moans and whines from you. âC-close..â you mumble, feeling your cheeks redden at the small statement, and you were suddenly glad that he was unable to see your flustered face.Â
âCum on my face then, bet youâve never done that before.âÂ
The comment was mean, possibly even degrading, but it still made you clench incoherently around nothing as you released against his waiting lips. To your surprise, he doesnât immediately pull away, his face remaining between your legs as he laps up the aftermath of your orgasm, drinking in the taste of you with a small satisfied groan. â And when he does finally tear himself from your sore cunt, you can barely look him in the eyes, ashamed at what had just transpired between the two of you. Yeonjun doesnât seem affected in the slightest, his thumb wiping away the sticky fluids on his chin before popping them in his mouth. The sight should not have made you throb but it did and you bit your lip.Â
Without warning, he suddenly gets up as he dusts off his pants. âW-where are you going?â Youâre unable to stop yourself from asking. He shoots you a glance that says âwell isnât it obvious?â He sighs, frustrated by your blunt obliviousness, âour session is over, isnât it?âÂ
You blink at him, still recovering from your climax as you pull your panties back on. âBut the study-â â âYouâve got what you wanted, havenât you?â He states as he stares down at you, much like he had on your first day, and your words suddenly fall short as you meet his gaze. Shaking his head, a small chuckle escaped his lips, âIâll see you tomorrow, nerd.âÂ
The last thing you hear are the library doors slamming shut before the room is enveloped in a deafening silence once more.  Â
â¸â¸
Everything had returned to normal the following Tuesday. You could barely wrap your head around it. The snarky comments were back, the pestering stares, whatever had roamed the air yesterday seemed to have completely vanished and you were left dumbfounded. â There was only one exceptionally different thing. Choi Yeonjun.
Part of you had hoped that he wouldnât come to class, but that was a foolish thought. You hear him before you see him, or rather, you hear Beomgyuâs obnoxiously loud voice echoing off the hallways as The Choiâs approach. The classroom falls into a hushed murmur as the door swings open and the three of them enter. â You had told yourself that you would avoid him at all costs. That meant not speaking to him, not looking at him, not even glancing in the same direction as him.Â
You found it to be very hard. But the shame over what had happened not even 24 hours prior kept your gaze trained to the pages of your notebook. Not even as he pulled out his chair, making an agonizingly scraping noise that cut through the otherwise quiet room, did your eyes stray from the words in front of you, rereading them over and over as you tried to get your brain to register them. â You lasted approximately two minutes.Â
One small peek his way confirmed your every fear. Leaning back in his chair, Yeonjun paid you no mind as he scrolled through his phone, one of his hands rubbing the back of his neck as he did. He actedâŚjust like he usually did, as if nothing had happened between the two of you. For a moment you had worried that he would tell everyone, that was a shame you wouldnât be able to bear. But perhaps he was trying to spare his own reputation, you could only hope he would keep quiet. Did he regret it? Probably. Why wouldnât he?Â
What was perhaps even worse than his indifferent mannerism toward you was when Mimi greeted him with a kiss. Flinging her arms around his neck, she pulls him close as she practically shoves her tongue down his throat. Beomgyu makes a vile comment before turning to Soobin but besides that, no one else paid them much mind. Except you. The guilt was eating you alive, and you werenât even the one who had cheated. What would happen if she found out, would she break up with him? Surely she would find a way to put the entire blame on you. You did not dare think of how miserably you would be treated if she found out. It couldnât happen. You would have to talk to Yeonjun about it, one way or another.Â
But how?Â
You tried approaching him at lunch, but you only managed one step in his direction before you chickened out. Then you tried again before English, this time you made it halfway before Soobin swooped in right in front of you, his tall frame covering Yeonjun completely from view and you sighed. Your last shot was after gym. As everyone ventured toward the locker rooms you trailed behind, Yeonjun had, too, stayed to talk with your professor but just as you were about to approach, a tap on your shoulder freezes you in place.Â
âThe hell are you staring at, nerd?â Beomgyuâs voice is filled with distaste as he eyes your sweaty figure, his nose turning up in disgust. Stunned, you fumble for words as your eyes dart between him and Yeonjun, just a few paces away. âN-nothing I was justâŚâ â âJust leaving, right?â He cocks an eyebrow at you and you quickly nod. âY-Yeahâ, you squeak out before rushing off. Why did his friends never stray from his side? It made things so difficult.Â
You were always the last one to leave the changing rooms. Hiding away in the bathroom, you waited for the other girls to finish before you dared to venture out and get changed yourself. It had become somewhat of a routine, not that it was particularly comfortable, but as it was your last lesson of the day, you weren't in any rush. â Whilst you get dressed, your mind concludes with a ton of ideas to approach Yeonjun. It would have to be when there was no one else around, before or after school seemed like your best bet. The only remaining problem was his friends, who seemed to be glued to his side.Â
Grabbing your bag, you walk over to the exit as you think of a way to get him alone. But as the door to the locker room closes behind you, it seems your problems have solved themselves for you.Â
âWhat took you so long?âÂ
Yeonjunâs sharp voice startles you and you almost drop the bag in your hands as your head snaps in his direction. Leaning against the wall, his own gym bag swung over his shoulder, Yeonjun studies you with an indifferent expression plastered across his face. Your mouth falls open as you peer down the empty hallway, completely at loss for words. âY-you waited for me?â You splutter as your attention shifts back to him.Â
He purses his lips as he clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth, âyes, but Iâm starting to regret it.â â âDo you always take this long?â His voice is laced with annoyance and you swallow as you shake your head. âI- I mean IâŚI didnât know you were waiting I..âÂ
âWhatever, it doesnât matter.â He waves your meek explanation off as he shifts against the wall. Still confused on why he was even here in the first place, you bite your tongue as you wait for him to speak first. But out of everything he couldâve said to you, you had not expected the next words that were to come out of his mouth.Â
âWhenâs our next study session?â
What? He wanted to have another study session? You had been prepared to confront him about yesterday, to tell him, no beg him, to keep quiet. Yet he was asking for another session? You were sure he could read the bewilderment on your face as his lips drew into a grin. âN-next session?â You gawk out as your mouth repeatedly opens and closes. He rolls his eyes before huffing out a short breath of air, âyes our next session, we never settled on a date.â â Well you didnât think he wanted to, you had planned on telling your professor that the whole ordeal had been unsuccessful but here he was, asking for a redo?Â
Was it a good idea to say yes? Considering how last time had played out, the answer was probably not. â âI- Iâm free whenever.â But you obviously were very bad at listening to your gut instincts. However the smile that spread across his face made it all worth it, you felt your heart speeding up at the endearing sight. âPerfectâ, he chimes, âthen weâll do tomorrow 5:30.â You nod but before you can get another word out he adds, âthird floor, room 291.âÂ
Would you guys not be studying in the library? Despite your slight uneasiness, you nod, âalright.â â âMake sure no one sees you on the way there, and donât be late.â He warns before turning on his heel and walking off. You were left stunned as you leaned against the wall, still gripping your bag tightly in your hands as you tried to process what had just happened.Â
â¸â¸
Wednesday rolls around, the day progresses just like any other would. But something feels different, you feel different. Itâs a different kind of excitement, bubbling in the pits of your stomach. You had barely gotten any sleep last night, which was a warning sign on its own because you always made sure to get 8 hours. But you donât feel tired, not in the slightest. And as the last bell of the day rings, you hurry to the bathroom.Â
You never fussed over your appearance, far too busy with having a book stuck under your nose. But today felt different, sure the two of you were just studying, it didnât mean that you couldnât make an effort if you wanted to look nice, right?Â
The sound of bathroom stalls slamming behind you shifts your attention to a group of girls passing by. They all stop as they watch you apply a clear gloss to your lips, their noses scrunching up in disgust. âWhatâs gotten into that freak?â One of them mutters as she makes a move toward you, only to be stopped by one of her friends. âDonât, you might get contaminatedâ, she sneers and the small group burst out into a fit of giggles. â Holding back a small sigh, you ignore them as you wait for them to leave before daring to do the same.Â
Your shoes echo off the now almost empty hallways, it was late enough to where few students lingered behind. Still unfamiliar with the building, you made your way to the third floor. You took no classes here and you had to rely on the numbered doors in order to find 291. It takes a while but soon youâre standing in front of it.Â
Your hands tremble as you hurriedly glance down the hallway, making sure no one saw you. When your gaze returns to the door you realize that it was a lot smaller than the others, its red paint standing out amongst the otherwise beige ones. That was odd. Yet you push any concerns aside as you reach out to twist the handle.Â
Upon stepping inside you quickly realize that this was not a classroom. The room was small, crowded shelves pushed up against all walls, displaying a large range of items, from old books to tools such as screwdrivers and wrenches. Your eyes scan across the multitude of contents as your mind tries to piece together the scene before you.Â
âYouâre awfully punctualâ, Yeonjun drawls as he emerges from a shadowed corner. You jump as you turn to him with a confused frown, âwhatâs this?â â He grins, his hands digging deep into his pockets as he leans against one of the shelves, âthis is where our study sessions will be taking place from now onâ, he explains as he motions for you to have a look around. From now on? But there was hardly room to study here, was there?Â
Quickly noting your perplexed expression, Yeonjunâs grin widens. âWell come on now, nerd. You didnât actually think I was planning on sitting down and doing algebra with you?â Your frown deepens, lips parting as your eyes dart between him and the cramped space. âBut whatâŚthen why are we here?â You ask as you readjust the rather heavy bag on your shoulder. â He chuckles, shaking his head as he takes a step forward, that single step is enough to get him right in front of you, his chest dangerously close to yours. His hand slides up your arm, reaching your shoulder as he hooks two fingers under the strap holding your bag. âUse that clever little brain of yours for something other than your studies, and maybe you will start to see the bigger picture.âÂ
Your bag hits the floor with a thud as Yeonjunâs hand returns to your shoulder, fingers twiddling the collar of your blouse as he waits for the wheels in your head to finally turn. And when they do, you glance up at him, your eyes wide with realization. âYeonjun I⌠I donât knowâŚâ Your eyes flit toward the door, mind altering between your options, stay or go, stay or go, stay orâÂ
âTell me now.âÂ
His voice is calm and his posture remains stoic as he peers down at you. âIâm not about to waste my time on a loser like you if youâre not even into it.â He sneers as his hand lets go of your collar, pushing you back, only slightly, but enough for you to hit the shelf behind you. Was he seriously asking for your opinion right now, for your consent? Choi Yeonjun was willing to spend time on you, with you. The news were hard to melt and you found yourself awkwardly gazing up at him as your mind fumbled for an answer.Â
âWhatâs it going to be, nerd?â He tskâs before leaning forward, one of his hands resting on the shelf next to your face as he cages you against it. Briefly you considered turning back, walking away, to return to your otherwise dull life as you watched him from afar. You remembered Mimi, his girlfriend, the guilt and shame, suddenly it came crashing down all over again. But you also remembered his words: âsomeone like you, doesnât count as cheatingâ. Had he really meant that? If not, why else would he be here right now?Â
In the end, you nod. âO-Okayâ, your voice comes out as a small peep and you curse yourself for not controlling it better. The smug smirk that immediately crawled onto his face should have been a waving warning flag, yet you ignore it, too caught up in the way his eyes darted to your lips, eyeing the clear coat of gloss youâd previously applied. His thumb swipes across the sticky substance. âI was about to tell you not to disappoint meâ, he murmurs before pulling your lip down, âbut I can already tell that you wonât.âÂ
Your heart swelled at the small praise, and you leaned into his touch. You hear him scoff at your blunt advances, his lips twitching as he eyes your eager figure. âYou virgins really are gullible.â â He presses his mouth against yours, making you gasp in surprise as your pupils blow wide. In what you guessed to be an attempt at loosening you up, his hands roam up and down your sides, settling on your waist as he pushes himself closer, grinding his hips against yours.Â
You had no clue of what to focus on, his tongue in your mouth, his hands on your waist, or the way his thigh pushed between your legs, rubbing against your panties in a way that had you practically squealing. â You knew that he was enjoying the reactions he pulled from you, ever so sensitive to his smallest of touches. Itâs not long before his hand is on your thigh, gradually moving along your skin before reaching the hem of your underwear. He pushes the fabric to the side, fingers sliding across your already pathetically wet folds before finding your clit, as if they had done this a hundred times.
The moans you emit are all swallowed by his hungry lips on yours as he lets you grind yourself onto his hand. None of the previous hesitation you had felt during your session in the library was present in your mind, all you could think about was how good he felt, how you didn't want him to stop, and how you wanted more, a lot more.Â
âMore.âÂ
You can feel him smirk against you, your desperate whine ringing out into the hot air. â âYeah?â He muses before pulling back, his lips are coated in your clear gloss, the sight was strangely enticing and you find yourself nibbling on your own lip as you sheepishly nod. He chuckles, pressing his lips against yours whilst he hikes your leg around his waist, the small adjustment bringing you even closer to him, and as you feel the hard bulge through his pants, reality slowly sets in.Â
But you canât stop now, you donât want to. The sound of him undoing his zipper becomes a muffled noise somewhere in the background as your arms wrap around his neck, clinging to him in every way possible. â He breaks the kiss, confused, your eyes flutter open as you try and peer at him in the dim light of the storage room. You briefly catch him tearing a small package open with his teeth and for a moment youâre left completely dumbfounded before realizing that it mustâve been a condom.Â
People wore condoms for one of two reasons, either they were avoiding knocking someone up, or they were afraid of catching diseases. But what disease could you possibly be carrying? So that would mean⌠You donât have time to ponder on the matter further as you feel the tip of his cock against your folds. Immediately your eyes shoot open as your hands grip onto his shoulders. Suddenly everything seemed very real, perhaps a little too real.Â
âTell me if it hurtsâ, he murmurs, his forehead leaning against your own and you meekly nod. Was it supposed to hurt? You draw in a sharp breath as you feel him slowly push inside, the stretch of his fingers had been nothing compared to this and you felt completely unprepared. His movements come to an abrupt halt as he leans back to gauge your reaction with a wary expression. Quickly nodding, you loosen your grip on his shoulders, breathing out a small ââm fine.âÂ
âYeah?â He wonders and you nod once more. Only when heâs fully inside, do you dare let out the breath you had been holding in; feeling your body relax against his. âYou feelinâ okay?â His genuine question catches you off guard and you give a small nod of assurance. âY-Yeah I am..â â He smirks, then he captures your lips in a small kiss, the gesture distracts you from the moment he begins to move, gently rocking his hips into you and you gasp against his mouth.Â
âFuckâ, he grunts. With one hand around your waist and the other maintaining a steady grip on the shelf behind you, he slowly thrusts inside of you. âAre all virgins this tight?â He murmurs, the question was rhetorical and he doesnât give you the chance to answer, âor is it just you nerd?â â âI bet it is.â He sounds menacing but his ragged breathing makes it hard for you to tell if heâd really meant it or not.Â
The items on the shelf rattle as his pace grows quicker, harsher, drawing moans and whimpers from you with every move his hips, cock stretching you wide as you claw against his shoulders. He leans back, enough to where he can watch the way your lips part, your now smudged gloss spread across your cheeks and chin as you whine. His gaze drops to your chest, fingers quickly beginning to work on the buttons that concealed you from him. Flicking them open one by one, Yeonjunâs hand quickly tears your blouse apart, eyes darting to your plump breasts as they bounced in rhythm with his movement.Â
âYouâve got some nice tits for a nerdâ, he muses, his hand groping your chest as his thumb flicks along your covered nipple. Feeling your cheeks redden, you only moan as he draws deeper inside of you, the tip of his cock brushing against parts of you that made you squirm. â Yeonjun made you think of yourself, see yourself, in ways you never had before, and it was exciting.Â
âHas anyone ever told you that, hm?â He sneers, his hand pushing your breasts together as he watches the flesh squish against one another, groaning at the sight. Unable to form a single coherent thought, much less a full sentence, you merely shake your head. âWell you do. You got some of the nicest tits Iâve ever seen.â He grunts, hips snapping against you. The compliment makes you throb around him, your orgasm approaching at a rapid pace and your fairly short nails dig into his shoulders.Â
âP-Pleaseâ, you wail and Yeonjun rolls his eyes, letting out a gruff sigh. âThought you would last longer than this, nerd.â â âBut donât worryâ, he murmurs, leaning in close as his lips trail the shell of your ear, âit comes with practice.â He moves down your neck, prepping your skin in soft kisses before he pulls it between his teeth.Â
You whimper when his thumb rubs at your clit, legs trembling around his waist as your hands move to his hair, fingers threading through his dark locks before securely latching on. It doesnât take much for your high to hit, your cunt clenching down around his cock as it pulls him in further. â Yeonjun curses under his breath as his hips jerk forward before stuttering. In the pure ecstasy of the moment, you roughly pull his face from your neck as you crash your lips against his. You knew that it was messy, sloppy and uncalculated, but you didnât care as long as you got to feel him this close to you.Â
You hear him sigh, you canât tell if heâs content or not. But a moment later he breaks the kiss, gazing at you with a clouded expression as a small grin tugs at his mouth. He bites his lip, eyes dropping to your chest one final time before he pulls out, making you wince at the sudden feel of emptiness. â âNot too bad for a first timerâ, he comments as he rids himself off the condom. You open your mouth to say something but he beats you to it.Â
âSame time Friday, got it?â  Â
â¸â¸
Your study sessions with Yeonjun became a regular thing, and every instance was just like the former. They would take place after school, in room 291, shielded away from prying eyes as he had his way with you. You were there, at his every beck and call, never once showing up late nor canceling. â It was both thrilling and excruciating. You knew that whatever transpired between the two of you was nothing personal and only temporary. Yet you couldnât help but long for something more; you longed for Yeonjun to like you back.Â
It was probably a selfish thought, a selfish fantasy. But the images of Mimi flashing before your eyes, which had previously filled you with both dread and guilt, were suddenly replaced with a feeling of superiority. Because even if she didnât know it, her boyfriend fucked someone else on the side, her boyfriend was cheating on her, with you. And it felt good. Often you had to hold yourself back from letting said fact slip past your lips. The scenarios would sometimes look something like thisâŚÂ
âWatch where youâre going, nerd.â Mimi spits after purposefully crashing into you in an almost empty hallway that provided more than enough room for two parties to pass. Her friends turn to you with a scowl as they fold their arms across their chests. Your eyes dart between them and their vengeful leader before flitting down the long corridor, down to where The Choiâs were hanging out.Â
Making the mistake of letting your gaze linger, garners her attention as Mimi snaps her fingers in front of your face. âWhat the fuck are you looking at nerd?â She barks as her eyes follow yours. She scoffs, her lips curling into a smirk, âdo you think my boyfriend looks good or something?â Her question rips your attention back as you feverishly shake your head. â Mimi only laughs, her friends quickly joining in as she tucks a strand of hair behind her ear.
âItâs okay, I donât blame you, really.â She tries to appear nice, perhaps even pitiful, but the malicious intent behind her words linger. You shake your head once more, âno I wasnât I..â She holds up a finger to silence you, âcome on now, itâs obvious. Everyone knows you have a thing for him.â She practically giggles as she covers her painted lips with a hand. Your cheeks feel as if they were on fire, your gaze dropping to your shoes as you bite the inside of your cheek.Â
âBut donât worryâ, she leans closer, her breath, which reeked of the strawberry bubblegum she always chewed, fans across your face. âYouâre not exactly his type.âÂ
The statement almost made you scoff. Not his type? Was that what it was? You briefly considered telling her, telling her what her boyfriend was doing behind her back, and with the school nerd at that. The one girl she thought she didnât have to worry about. It was almost a bit comedic. But you held your tongue. No matter how bad you wanted to crush whatever illusion she had going on, you couldnât. Besides, Yeonjun would probably just deny it, and who would believe you?
Speaking of Choi Yeonjun. â He had become almost insufferable outside of your sessions. From barely looking at you in class to bringing attention to you at almost every possible second, Yeonjun was now the sole epitome of the bullying you endured. Whether it was the nasty and mean comments he shared with Beomgyu, his words echoing out through the classroom as he brought the whole class to laughter. Or the multiple times in which heâd trip you over in the hallways, undoubtedly peeking up your skirt as he did, but of course, no one noticed that, and if they did, they didnât fault him.Â
Choi Yeonjun did nothing wrong. He never did. So when he invites you to a party, your very first one, you don't know what to say.Â
âThink about itâ, he huffs as he zips his pants back up. The air in the small storage unit felt hot and stuffy, your clothes sticking to your sweaty body as you pulled your panties on. âI donât know..â you quietly murmur, glancing down toward the dark floor as you twist your hands behind your back. â Yeonjun sighs, running a hand through his hair before he tries again. âWhy not? Donât tell me youâre scared.âÂ
You shake your head. âIâm not. ButâŚI donât know anyone, I donât⌠I canât just show up there.â You argue before swallowing the lump in your throat. It had been an outright baffling proposal on his side. What would people think if you just turned up? â âTell them I invited you, theyâll let you in.â You blink up at him, was he being for real right now?Â
âY-You?â He nods, as if it was a given. âMake sure to wear something half decent at least.â He says, giving your shoulder a pat before he pushes past you and out of the small room, leaving you in the dark once more.Â
â¸â¸
Something half decent? What was something, half decent? You didnât know, and it took you about an hour to pick out a dress you thought would be suitable. It wasnât particularly short, stopping at your knees, the dark purple complimented your skin nice, you thought. But it felt uncomfortable to walk in, and with one hand wrapped around the fabric, you pull it down as you near the driveway of a large villa.Â
Your eyes flit across the scenery, it was dark out, but the house remained lit despite the late hour. Music was playing, loud enough to where the beat echoed out across the empty street. Swallowing a gulp, you run a hand through your styled hair one final time before daring to step inside.
Immediately youâre greeted by a large number of perplexed eyes, everyone slowly turning to you as you venture further into the villa, reaching the filled kitchen space. âWhatâs she doing here?â âDid someone invite her?â âI canât believe she would actually show up.â â You cringe at their remarks, trying your best to ignore them as your eyes scan for Yeonjun. What if he wasnât here? What if this had all been a ploy to draw you out and humiliate you further. You shouldnât have come here, you really shouldâÂ
âWhat the fuck are you doing here?â
Mimiâs harsh voice snaps you from your small trance as she immediately corners you. Freezing on the spot, your hands curl into fists as you turn to her. Desperate for a way to defend yourself, to explain the situation, or to just escape all together, your mind spirals with excuses. Your lips part but you canât seem to get a single syllable out. âCome on nerd, I asked you a question.â She huffs, growing impatient as she takes a step forward, her chest almost touching yours.Â
âIâmâŚI..â Could you really tell her that her boyfriend invited you? Would she believe you? No, of course not, no one would. You bite the inside of your cheek, eyes flitting across the crowded kitchen. â âDid you come here to make a scene or something? I mean come on, youâre not even a senior.â Her comment makes everyone hum in agreement as they nod, some even sharing a couple of laughs.Â
She was right, and even if she wasnât, it wouldnât matter. You stood no chance against anyone in this room. Tears prickle in the corner of your eyes and for the first time since you came here, you actually felt like crying. Taking in a small breath, you slowly exhale again. âWell IâŚâÂ
âI invited her.âÂ
Your heart practically froze over as Yeonjunâs voice cut through the tense air. Quiet murmurs carry out through the room as everyone redirects their attention. Somewhere in front of you, you can hear Mimi scoff as she takes a small step back. âWhat?â She questions and you finally dare to lift your gaze, your eyes immediately locking with Yeonjunâs as he leans against the kitchen island, seemingly unbothered by the small uproar taking place.Â
Mimi on the other hand seemed to be fuming as she glanced between her boyfriend and you. âWhat do you mean you invited her?â She seethes, her voice laced with hatred and spite. Yeonjun shrugs as he digs his hands into his pockets, an indifferent look on his face. âCome on now, loosen up a little. Itâs our responsibility as her seniors to take good care of her, donât you agree?â He lets his gaze wander across the multiple eyes directed at him, everyone seeming to break under his stare as they quietly nod.Â
He cocks an eyebrow in the direction of his girlfriend, âthen thereâs no problem, hm?â Mimiâs mouth had fallen open as she watched him win everyone over within a matter of seconds. Though quickly regaining her composure as she nods, muttering out a quiet, âwhateverâ, before she pushes past you with such force that you almost lose your balance.
Yeonjun sighs as he moves off the countertop, placing a hand on Beomgyuâs shoulder, âget her something to drink wonât you?â His friend frowns, âwhy me?â But Yeonjun doesnât pay him any further mind as he, too, takes his leave, most likely in search of his raging girlfriend.Â
As soon as he leaves, the previous tension seems to lift as everyone returns to whatever conversation they had been preoccupied with earlier. You breathe out a small sigh as you wrap your arms around you, leaning against the kitchen island as you keep your gaze down. â A drink is shoved in front of you, itâs reddish hue making you frown as you gingerly take it from Beomgyuâs outstretched hand. âT-Thanksâ, you mumble as you grip the plastic cup tightly.Â
Youâre surprised when he doesnât leave, instead he groans as he takes place beside you, resting his hands on the countertop behind him. âYâknow I really donât understand why he invited you of all people.â He begins and you can feel his eyes roam your body with distaste. Swallowing, you quietly nod as you sip on the drink, it wasnât at all as bitter as you had expected it to be, rather it tasted kind of sweet.Â
âIâŚI donât know eitherâ, you shyly mumble, keeping the cup to your lips as you occupy yourself with gazing down at the liquid swirling around. Beomgyu scoffs as he shakes his head, âOf course you donât. No one knows whatâs going on in that thick skull of his.â â His words came outâŚalmost insulting, and you wondered why he chose to speak in such a way about his friend.Â
âYouâve got some guts though, Iâll give you that.â He states, running a hand through his messy hair as his eyes fixate on something in front of him. Surprised at the sudden almost compliment-like statement, you glance up at him in sheer bewilderment. âNot many people in your shoes wouldâve come hereâ, he adds as he gives you a quick one-over. âNo offense yâknow, but you kinda lookâŚâ His nose scrunches up in what you could only guess to be disgust and you bite the inside of your cheek as your gaze drops to your dress.Â
âO-Oh yeahâŚI guess.âÂ
Beomgyu chuckles, âMy, are you gullible.â You internally wince at his words, a small grimace flickering across your face as you take another sip of your drink. You can feel his eyes on you as Beomgyu studies you closely, a little too close. âYâknow, maybe I do understand why he invited youâ, he sniggers, pushing himself off the kitchen island, he leaves without saying another word.Â
Left confused and yet again, alone, you chew on the plastic of your cup as you wonder how long you would have to stay before it would become appropriate to leave.Â
â¸â¸
You think an hour had passed, it felt like three. Back pressed against the wall of the open-spaced living room, your eyes roam the makeshift dance floor as you watch the way your classmates enjoy their evening together. Your presence had soon become old news and after your first encounter, Mimi had left you alone, and so did everyone else. You were thankful, you supposed. But you still didnât know why Yeonjun had invited you, much less why you had even decided to show up. Because right now, he was nowhere to be seen.Â
You think that you might be able to just sneak out, leave, go home and forget that this evening ever took place. This wasnât for you, that much you could tell. You would face the embarrassment come Monday, but today, now, all you wanted to do was evaporate.Â
Standing up a bit straighter, you tug your dress down once more, preparing to leave. Itâs only then he makes an appearance. Itâs quick, so much so that if it werenât for the subtle tap to your forearm, you wouldâve probably missed him as he passed you by. Your eyes follow Yeonjunâs retreating frame as he aims for the staircase, leading to the second floor. Before climbing the first step, he throws a quick glance over his shoulder, eyes finding yours as he flashes you a small smirk.Â
You gulp as you watch him disappear again. Nervously chewing on your bottom lip, your gaze flits across the room, no one was looking at you. Still you wait another five minutes before aiming for the stairs as well. Each step forward made your legs feel like jelly and you steadied yourself against the railing.Â
The second floor consists of a long hallway, with doors either side of it, reaching down to at least four of them. Your heartbeat picks up at the thought of having to push all of them open as you carefully peeked inside. But your attention is drawn to the third one on the right, slightly ajar as a yellow light seeps through its cracks. Hesitantly you venture forward, coming to a halt in front of it as you debate your next move. Did you knock? Call out for him? Was he even there? Maybe you were seeing things. There was only one way to find out was there?Â
Mustering up whatever courage you have left, you gently push the door open. The room is⌠a bedroom. A small onesize bed, pushed up against the window alongside the empty bedside table, tells you that itâs most likely a guest room. Your eyes flit to the armchair in the corner, widening as they land on Yeonjunâs figure, sprawled out against the cushion, a hand down his pants as he lazily strokes himself. He watches you with a faint smirk, his head leaning back against the backrest, eyes half lidded as they peer over at you.Â
What was going on? You glance back and out into the hallway, afraid that someone, anyone, might walk by. What if Mimi came looking for him? But you were almost certain heâd meant for you to follow him. Quickly you shut the door behind you, locking it for good measure. Yeonjun watches your hurried movements with an amused expression, the hand on his cock unwavering.
âW-Whatâs all this?â You quietly wonder, willing your eyes to look anywhere but him, anywhere but the hand down his trousers. He doesnât say anything, lifting his free hand, his index finger beckons you over and you hesitantly comply. Stopping by the chair, you awkwardly clasp your hands together in front of you as you wait for him to break the stale silence.Â
âYou look nice tonight.â He finally says, his voice seemingly indifferent as he shamelessly lets his gaze roam your body, stopping at the slight cleavage your dress provided. In the dim light casted by only a small lamp on the drawer next to him, you were unsure if he could make out the blush coating your cheeks or not. âThank you..âÂ
He hums, readjusting himself on the soft cushions as his legs spread further apart. It takes everything in you not to let your gaze drop. For a moment everything is quiet, and you wonder why he had even bothered to get you up here in the first place. But then he sighs, the small exhale easily garnering your attention as you shift on the spot.Â
âHave you ever blown someone before?âÂ
He asks the question as if it were any other and you feel the color on your cheeks intensifying. He canât just ask someone something like thatâŚBut then again, there was little Choi Yeonjun couldnât do. Part of you doesnât understand why he even bothered to ask, wasnât it obvious? Another part of you suspects that he wants to hear you admit it, wants to see you get flustered as you shake your head, squeaking out a meek âno, never.âÂ
Thatâs exactly what you do. â He smirks, a wide smirk, exposing his sharp teeth as his free hand grabs onto one of your own. You let him pull you to your knees, the soft carpet beneath your bare skin felt nice but it was hard to focus on anything but the bulge in front of your face, the movement of his hand visible through the material of his pants.Â
âIâll teach youâ, he mumbles, letting go of your hand as he pushes your hair back, gaze wandering across the light makeup you had applied, lingering by the cherry red lipstick on your lips. You slowly nod, hands gripping onto the hem of your dress with such force that youâre surprised it doesnât tear.Â
Without further warning he leans back, swiftly pulling his cock free from his jeans as he continues to stroke it, now only inches from your face. Sure you and Yeonjun had hooked up before, in the darkness of the small storage unit, in places where you never paid his dick much attention apart from when it was inside of you. This was the first time you actually saw it, you think, and this close too.Â
Your jaw goes slack as your eyes trail across the large veins climbing up his shaft, coated in a sheer layer of arousal, seeping through his fingers as they wrapped around the length of it. Gulping, you eye the tip, a bright red hue as droplets of precum spilled from the slit. You would be lying if you said that the sight didnât make your thighs clench together. â Obviously enjoying your stunned response, Yeonjun groans as he gives himself a particularly harsh tug, making your eyes widen further as they flicker from his cock to his face and back again.Â
âCome hereâ, he directs you to scoot forward and you do, offering your hand for him to take as he guides it to wrap around his shaft. He felt hard and heavy in your palm, and you bite your lip as you try to gauge his reaction. Letting his hand drop to his sides, Yeonjun sinks back against the cushion as he peers down at you. âStart slow, donât use too much pressure but donât be afraid to touch me. Iâll tell you when you can speed up.â He instructs as he lets his head fall back, getting comfortable as he pays you little mind.Â
Your attention returns to his cock in your hand, doing as he said, you slowly let your palm glide up and down, fingers quickly becoming coated in the shiny layer of his arousal. You canât tell if he likes it or not, he gives little reaction as he stares up at the ceiling. You want to ask him, you want him to reassure you, but it feels stupid to ask, and you hate feeling stupid.Â
His hand joins in on top of your own, guiding your fingers to his tip, which you had purposefully avoided as you didnât know how to approach it. âFlick your wrist like thisâ, he murmurs, letting your palm glide over the head before returning to stroke him. He only shows you once before his hand moves back to his side. But you can tell that heâs watching you now, eyes tailing your every movement as you repeat what he had just showed you, rolling your hand over his tip, drawing a small huff of air from him.Â
âUse your thumbâ, he breathes, and your gaze flickers to his face in slight confusion before catching on. The next time you twist your wrist over his head, you press the surface of your thumb against the slit. He shudders under you, a small groan passing his lips and your heart speeds up at the small confirmation you just received. It managed to boost your confidence enough to where you gripped him more firmly, experimentally squeezing his cock, just like he had done moments prior, relishing in the way his breath hitched.Â
âYou can go -f-fuck- faster.â He grunts, his hands sliding against the armrests of the chair, fingers digging into the plush cushion. Quickly nodding, youâre happy to oblige, repeating your previous movements but with an increased pace as your eyes dart between his leaking dick and his slightly contorted face.Â
When he first twitches in your hand, youâre taken back. Surprised by the sudden movement yet you felt yourself throb as you tugged at him even harsher, wanting to pull that very same reaction from him once more. â Heâs stopped guiding you, biting down on the inside of his cheek as he tries to muffle whatever noises threaten to escape. You donât mind, in fact it only spurred you on further as you flicked your wrist over his flushed tip once more.Â
His hips buck up against your hand as he lets out a strangled noise. His hand quickly finds its way to your hair, brushing it back as he breathes out through his nose. âFuck, slow downâ, he mutters, tugging at your hair as he forces your face up to meet his, âIâll cum before youâve even blown me at this rate.â The statement made your chest swell with pride, still, your hand slows down as you settle back into a more languid pace.Â
He takes a moment to open his eyes, drawing in a few ragged breaths before he does. The hand in your hair moves to your face, cupping your cheeks as he pulls you closer, the tip of his cock merely inches from your lips and you swallow. âRelaxâ, he says, fingers pulling your mouth open and you let him. âBreathe through your nose, and donât use your teeth.â â You slowly nod, your hands bracing themselves on his thighs as he taps his cock against your parted lips, smearing his arousal all over your cherry lipstick.Â
He pushes inside slowly, you wince at the stretch, your mouth widening as much as it allows. The first thing you note is the salty taste, it isnât particularly strong and youâre relieved. But no matter how hard you tried to relax your jaw, when his cock hit the back of your throat you instinctively pulled back with a small gag. â Yeonjun tskâs above you, the hand on your cheeks gripping you firmer as he pulls you back onto his dick. âThought I told you to relax, no?â He murmurs, letting out a breathy moan as you let him slide himself back into your hot mouth.  Â
Your eyes screw shut as you focus on evening out your breathing, taking steady breaths in and out through your nose as you allow your tense frame to relax under him. âThink of it as the same as what you did with your hand.â His fingers relax against your cheek, thumb grazing your skin as he feels the way his cock slides in and out of your pliant lips. â It feels weird at first, uncomfortable too, but after a while you slowly get used to the feeling of him in your mouth.Â
Hesitantly wrapping your lips around him, you press your tongue flat against him as you carefully bob your head up and down. He groans somewhere above you and your eyes flutter open as you peer up at him through your mascara coated lashes. Yeonjun always looked good, but there was something about him like this, from this view. A sheer layer of sweat that made his dark hair stick to his forehead, his parted lips and furrowed brows, you clenched at the sight, taking him deeper and with much more urgency.Â
Something about tonight feltâŚspecial, perhaps even more intimate than all your past encounters. Maybe it had to do with the change of scenery. The dimly lit bedroom, the plush armchair, the fine carpet, you canât place it, but something is different. And for the first time, you can only think about Yeonjun, not his girlfriend, his friends or even your classmates. It was only him.Â
Remembering how you had pressed your thumb against his slit earlier, you pull back to refocus your attention to only his tip, your hand joining in to stroke the rest of him. You press your tongue flat against his head before swirling it to the best of your abilities, watching intently as Yeonjunâs brows drew further together, a breathy moan ripping from deep within his chest.Â
âF-Fucking hellâ, he groans, his head falling back against the cushion. âFuck âm gonna-â His hips jerk forward, the tip of his cock hitting the back of your throat and you pull back with a small wince, unprepared for when his hot cum spurted into your mouth. Not really knowing which approach to take, you continue to suck him off, cum dribbling down your chin as you fought to swallow the rest without losing your breath once more. Yeonjun slumps back against the armchair, his hand releasing its hold on your cheeks as he lets it fall to his side.Â
Carefully pulling off of him, you sit back as you begin wiping your chin with the back of your hand. You steal a glance at him, his chest heaving as he catches his breath. Yeonjun runs a hand through his hair, shaking his head as a small grin etches its way to his lips. â âWasâŚwas it okay?â Your words are barely above a whisper, and he cocks an eyebrow at you, his grin widening.Â
âSure it was, nerd.âÂ
You blink up at him, âreally?â â He chuckles, tucking himself back into his pants with a small grimace. âWould I have asked you to do it if I had doubts?â He retorts and you bite your lip, no perhaps not you supposed. âYouâll get even better with a bit of practiceâ, he reassures you, giving your head a light pat before getting up.Â
Heâs reached the door before he turns back to you, âwait another fifteen minutes or so before leaving, yeah?â Without waiting to hear your answer, he unlocks the door and steps out, slamming it shut behind him.Â
â¸â¸
You spent another thirty minutes aimlessly wandering around the large villa, astonished by how someone could afford a place this big. You still had no clue whose house this even was, and no one seemed to care for the sake either. â Halfway down a long corridor, filled with what you could only assume to be modern art, you suddenly freeze in your tracks as the voices of someone else joins your quiet footsteps.Â
After spending a rough minute trying to locate the source of the sound, you finally realize that itâs coming from behind one of the larger pillars a few paces ahead. Debating your choices for a solid ten seconds, you opt to try and eavesdrop, if only for a moment. And as you quietly creep forward, their conversation suddenly becomes a lot more clear. â Shuffling to squeeze yourself behind another pillar, you lean against the cool marble as you try and pick up on whatâs being said.Â
You knew the voices belonged to two of the girls from your class, but you were unable to pair them with any faces. â âDid he really?â One of them asks, her voice is slightly high-pitched, almost a bit squeaky. Her friendâs voice is fairly deeper as she replies, âYes! And it was a week before her birthday too!â A small gasp. âYou donât mean⌠But with whom?â The first girl asks.Â
Thereâs a brief pause, and you, too, find yourself holding your breath as you await the second girl's answer. âWith Hera..â You frown, unable to recognize the name but the other girl seemed more than aware as she let out a small shriek, earning a sharp âhush!â from her friend. â âBut thatâsâŚâ the first girl begins only to be interrupted by her friend, âher best friend.âÂ
Their conversation made little sense in your ears, and with a small sigh you turned to walk the other way when suddenly, a familiar name surfaced. â âBut it was kind of obvious was it notâ, the girl with the deeper voice begins, âYeonjun has cheated on Mimi with practically all of her friends. Sheâs bound to find out some day, itâs only a matter of time.âÂ
You felt your face fall as your heart plummeted through your stomach. Had you heard them right? You hoped you hadnât but the first girl quickly butts in as she confirms what you dreaded. âI told her from the start that Yeonjun was promiscuous, but she didnât listen of courseâ, the girl huffs as her friend hums in agreement. âBetter her than meâ, she adds.Â
You had heard enough. That was it, you were going home. Turning on your heel, you quietly dart down the long corridor. â You knew that you didn't have a reason to be upset, hell he had even cheated on his girlfriend with you. It still didnât stop the tears that pricked in your eyes as you pushed past the crowd in the kitchen. A small part of you had thought, perhaps even hoped that maybe, maybe what he saw in you was different from what he saw in Mimi. God youâre so stupid. You quietly mutter, reaching the open living room just in time to see who you had hoped you wouldnât.Â
Near the front door, leaning against the wall, was Yeonjun, arms wrapped around his girlfriendâs frame as she pressed sloppy kisses to his neck. Your mind flashes with the images of what had taken place between the two of you not even an hour ago. Yet here he was, shamelessly buttering his so-called girlfriend up as if he hadnât had you on his cock moments prior. And to think that you had allowed yourself to become part of his crowd, it was disgusting.Â
You finally saw Choi Yeonjun for what he really was. A fucking asshole. And with that clarification in mind, you forcefully push past the pair as you march out of the front door, leaving the still lively party behind as you begin your journey home.Â
â¸â¸
Monday came all too fast. The aftermath of the party is still fresh in your mind as you rummage through your locker. You had spent the whole weekend reanalyzing your every interaction with Yeonjun; from the day you first met to the thirty minutes spent in the guest bedroom just two days ago. You questioned his true intentions, more than twice. But no matter how many hours you tossed and turned in bed, you got no closer to solving the mystery that was Choi Yeonjun.Â
Slamming the red steel door shut, you almost drop the books in your arm as you come face to face with the person you least wanted to see. â Yeonjun leans against the locker next to yours as he studies your face intently. Quickly you turn around to see if anyone was watching the two of you before shifting your attention back to him. âWhat are you doing?â You whisper as you watch him with a wary expression.Â
He only shrugs, a small grin playing on his lips. âSee me after classâ, he nods in the direction of the stairs, leading to the third floor and you internally sigh. Still, you should talk to him, you really should, so you nod. âOkay.â â His grin widens as Yeonjun pushes himself off the locker, continuing down the hallway without another word.Â
You find yourself counting down the hours, lesson after lesson, your eyes remain glued to the clock on the wall. In fact, youâre so focused on the afternoon ahead that the insults thrown your way merely passes over your head. â Then finally, after what feels like an eternity, you find yourself walking up the steps and past the doors as you neared room 291.
He was already there, waiting for you. And as soon as the red door closes behind you, heâs got you pressed up against it, hungry lips on yours within a matter of seconds as his hands roam your body. It was easy to get caught up in his world, his kisses and his touches, you have to remind yourself of why you came here. His name falls from your lips, but itâs not the usual desperate whine, itâs serious, you know that he can tell, humming against your lips yet his hands donât stray away from wandering beneath your shirt.Â
"Yeonjun, wait."Â
He stills, if only for a moment, leaning back slightly as his lips brush against yours. Taking in a deep breath, you prepare yourself for the conversation to come. You had rehearsed it many times in your head, but as you glance up at him in the dim light of the storage unit, you find it hard to even look him in the eyes. âIâŚIâve been thinkingâ, you slowly begin, watching the faint smirk that surfaces on his face. âDonât you always, nerd.â He mutters, his hands resuming their journey up your chest, flicking the buttons to your shirt open as his mouth leaves hot kisses against your neck.Â
You try to ignore the burning sensation sparking through your body, forcing yourself to go through with what you wanted to say. âYes but, Iâve been thinking aboutâŚabout us.â â Your words make his hands around your breasts stutter and he goes quiet against you. Biting your lip, you hold your breath as you wait for him to say something, but he doesnât, only humming against your skin as he continues to litter you in red marks.Â
âWhat makes you think there is an âusâ?âÂ
His question makes your composure fall as you let out a shaky exhale. âThere isn't?" You hesitantly ask, already anticipating the answer you were bound to receive. â He pulls away from you with a perplexed expression. Then he laughs, itâs short, cruel, he shakes his head. âDonât be funnyâ, he mutters as he runs a hand through his dark hair. âYou know that I have a girlfriend, nerd.â He spits the words out like the venomous bite of a snake. His gaze drops to your unbuttoned blazer, briefly passing the harsh bruises heâd previously left on your chest.
âDonât think youâre anything else besides a quick fuck.âÂ
Oh. There it was. He finally said it, he finally confirmed what you had been dreading all along. You werenât stupid, you knew that whatever the two of you had was nothing romantic. But hearing those words come out of his mouth, it hurt more than you ever thought it wouldâve. Still, it was just what you needed. With your palms pressed against his chest, you push him back, as far away from you as the small room allowed.Â
âI donât think I want to be that.âÂ
Your voice is trembling as you speak and you have to force your gaze not to drop down to your shoes. Letting your hands fall back against your sides, you draw in a small breath, holding it as you watch Yeonjunâs face form into a confused frown. âWhat the fuck is that supposed to mean?â He huffs, sounding almost angry as his hands clenched into fists before relaxing again.Â
You bite the inside of your cheek, giving a meek shrug of your shoulders. âI donât want to be just a⌠a quick fuck.â You murmur, unable to maintain his intense gaze, you let your eyes drop to the floor. He scoffs, leaning back against the shelves with such force that the items behind him rattled. âDo you honestly believe that anyone else is even going to consider fucking you, nerd?â He was pissed, that much you could tell.Â
Shaking your head, you blink away the tears that had managed to form in your eyes. âI donât care, I justâŚâ, you exhale, praying that your voice wouldnât break as you continued, âI just donât think this is for me.â â Yeonjun laughs, the same laugh that echoed off the classroom walls as he made fun of you. You realize then just how fucked up your situation had become. How could you have allowed yourself to stoop to such a level?Â
âI gave you so much, and you⌠you donât think that itâs for you?â He jeers, taking a step forward as he comes face to face with you once more. But now none of the previous lust and desire remained, only fury. All you can do is continuously shake your head, not daring to meet his gaze. âNo. Itâs not.â You state as you tear your eyes from the floor, it takes everything in you to not have your resolve crumbling as you peer up at him.Â
âSo letâs stop.âÂ
You motion toward the small unit you were currently standing in. âWhatever this is, was, letâs end it now.â You swallow, hard, the sound ringing in your ears. Yeonjun runs a hand through his hair once more, tongue prodding against the inside of his cheek as his eyes flit between you and the door. âYou want to end things? Fine.â His voice lacks all the anger it previously held, now sounding almost monotone.Â
âBut donât come crying when you realize just how much youâre about to lose.â He drawls, eyes boring into yours one final time before he pushes past you, knocking you back against the wall as he rips the door open. Darkness envelops you as soon as it's slammed shut behind him, and you finally let out the sob you had been holding in.Â
â¸â¸
You didnât go to school that following Tuesday, nor Wednesday. It was the first time you had missed a whole day since your junior year in highschool. Was it pathetic? Probably. Curled up on your bed, you spent the two days in front of your laptop, binging whatever show seemed appealing as you sniffled into a tissue. â You wanted to go back in time, back to when you only knew Yeonjun as the obnoxious leader of bullies from your class, back to when things were simple.Â
You wondered what he mightâve said about you in your absence. What kind of lies he mightâve conducted, surely he wouldnât just sit still. You dreaded returning, but you knew that it was inevitable, and as Thursday rolled around, you pulled yourself from bed.Â
The classroom was empty when you arrived, there was another thirty minutes left but you had chosen to get there earlier to save yourself perhaps at least a few stares as you walked toward your desk. You had missed a lot, you were sure, two days was a long time to be away from school and you worried that you would have a lot of reading to do when you came back home. Though you supposed the distraction of studying would be nice.Â
Itâs about ten minutes left until class when the first few students emerged from the doors, swinging their bags down on their desks as they chatted loudly with one another. âWatch it nerd!â A girl sneers as she gives the leg of your chair a harsh kick, you grip onto the edge of your table as you hang your head low. But beside that, nothing happens, and you frown. You were sure it was going to be worse than this, but it wasnât. For the first time ever you felt relieved that your classmates were treating you indifferent. Well, all except one.Â
Yeonjun doesnât show up to first period. And just as you think heâs about to be absent for the second one as well, the door is pushed open as he walks inside. Yeonjun seldom did what he was supposed to in class, but he always brought his bag, not today though. You tried to not let your eyes linger, inevitably failing as you watched him pull out his chair and sit down, his hands remaining in his pockets as he leaned back to gaze across the board with a lazy expression. In regular fashion, Beomgyu goes off about a random topic next to him as Soobin twirls a pen between his fingers, seemingly bored out of his mind.Â
Class begins, and ends, and nothing happens. Not even as much as a glare in your direction. It was just like before, before the two of you were ever intimate, Yeonjun acted as if you didnât exist, and you watched him. But this time, you didnât feel a sense of longing, honestly, you didnât know what you felt. Relief, a sense of mourning, regret? You didnât like the way your stomach felt when you looked at him, so you stopped.Â
â¸â¸
Weeks went by, the bullying never stopped, why would it? You kept quiet, your gaze downcast as you moved through the hallways. It worked, because you rarely saw him anymore. You didnât know if he was avoiding you or not, you didnât care. It felt nice to not care. The only thing tugging away at you now⌠was the loneliness. It wasnât like Yeonjun acted friendly with you, especially not during school hours, but he had made you feel less alone. In the most fucked up way possible, he was the only one you had ever had some kind of relationship with since your first day here. And a small part of you missed it.Â
But even the loneliness would one day stop.Â
You blink up as a plate is placed opposite yours in the crowded cafeteria. Confused, your eyes darted between the boy before of you and the plenty of empty tables. He doesnât seem to care as he slides down on the chair in front of yours. âYouâre the junior girl who takes classes with the seniors right?â He asks as he tilts his head to the side, studying you with wide and curious eyes. â Still wary of the intentions behind his move to sit with you, you slowly nod, âI am.âÂ
He smiles, it was perhaps one of the first genuine smiles you had received since you started here. Shuffling a bit closer, he offers his hand for you to shake, which you hesitantly do. âIâm Hueningkai, but you can just call me Kai.â He says as you let go of his hand once more. â âIâm a junior too, but Iâm stuck with everyone else our ageâ, he explains with a coy smile.Â
You nod, taking a small sip of your water. His eyes shift to the book placed next to your tray. âLord Of The Rings?â He asks and you hum as you turn it around for him to see. âI love those books!â He exclaims as he brings it to his face, studying the back intently. âIâm re-reading them..â You quietly mumble as your gaze flickers between him and the glass in your hand. Kai sets the book down as he turns to you, âyou mean youâve read all this more than once? Sick!âÂ
That was how you met Kai. You donât know why he approached you, you didnât care to ask. All you knew was that you had finally found a friend. And though the two of you still took separate classes, you always stayed behind to study together, ate lunch just the two of you, and walked each other to class. It felt nice to have someone to talk to, even though you didnât tell him about you and Yeonjun, he still listened to you as you explained all of the bullying.Â
You were amongst the last to return to class after lunch one lousy Tuesday. Kai and you had spent the entire break discussing quantum physics, and you had only realized the time once you went to search something up on your phone, making you rush to class. Not thinking much of the rare occurrence, you make your way over to your desk by the very back of the room, only freezing when one of your classmates addresses you.Â
âWhatâs got you coming in so late, nerd?â He sneers as he leans back in his chair to see you better. With the intention of not replying, you take your seat as you begin rummaging through your stuffed bag. But when another girl butts in, you feel yourself go stiff. âDonât you know?â She drawls, easily garnering the first guyâs attention as well as everyone around her. Even the Choiâs seemed to be listening as Beomgyu put down his phone. You held your breath, anticipating the worst yet it somehow ended up being so far from anything you couldâve ever imagined.Â
âNerdâs got a boyfriend.â She exclaims, watching triumphantly as everyone began whispering amongst each other, hushed murmurs carrying around the room. You felt your face burn as you glanced toward Yeonjunâs table. â He was still scrolling absentmindedly on his phone, but the way his jaw clenched, accompanied with the small frown of his brows, made your stomach sink just slightly.Â
âThatâs such bullshit!â Mimi exclaims as she throws you a harsh glare. But the girl whoâd announced the news merely shakes her head. âIâve seen them myself!â She retorts as she folds her arms across her chest. âThat junior boy, yâknow the blonde one.â â âIâve seen them too!â Someone else chirps in and the girl is quick to nod.Â
âThey always eat lunch together tooâ, the girl turns to you with a wide smirk, âisnât that right nerd?â â Your fingers curled around the pencil in your hand, gripping it with such force that it might break. You donât look at her, gaze dropping to your table as you merely shook your head, earning a scoff from the girl as she turned back to the rest of the class.Â
âShit, are you serious?â Beomgyu wonders as he leans forward in his chair. But before the girl has a chance to reply, Yeonjun cuts her off. âDonât be stupidâ, he mutters as he pulls Beomgyu back by the collar of his shirt. â âWhat the fuck man, itâs just a questionâ, he whines as he rubs his now sore neck. Yeonjun huffs as his gaze remains glued to his phone screen, âof course she isnât serious. Stop believing her bullshit.âÂ
Beomgyu falls silent at his words and so does everyone else. The next few minutes are awkward as everyone scrambles to occupy themselves with whatever they could find, desperately wishing for your professor to walk through the doors.Â
â¸â¸
The sound of the old library doors being pushed open shifts your focus from the book in your lap as you glance up just in time to see Kai approaching your desk. He smiles, waving his hand enthusiastically and you find yourself reciprocating the small move. â âSorry Iâm lateâ, he apologizes as he takes the seat next to yours, pulling a few books from his bag. âItâs fine, reallyâ, you assure him as you place your own book down.Â
It had become routine for the two of you to meet up and study together, well, you often just talked the hours away, but neither of you seemed to mind the lack of work getting done. âWhich chapter are you on?â He wonders, and you slide the book over for the two of you to share, âfifteen.â He nods as he scoots closer, your shoulders practically touching as you take turns reading and scribbling down notes.Â
Usually you didnât mind the close proximity, but when thinking back of what had transpired after lunch earlier that day, you felt different. Ever since your break up with Yeonjun, if break up was even what you could call it, you had little desire to enter into a new relationship. But the more you mulled over your classmateâs words, the more sense it all seemed to make. â Eating lunch together, walking each other to class, even now, you both sat so close that you could hear the pattern of his breathing.Â
Kai was cute. He was the type of cute that made you look back twice when you passed him on the street, the type of cute that made you want to revisit the small cafĂŠ because of the waiter that had served you, the type of cute that you wanted to bring home to your parents. â Not only was he cute, he was nice too, you felt happy, comforted, in his presence. Unlike Yeonjun, Kai only made you feel giddy inside as you longed to see him. He never made you second guess his intentions or yourself.Â
But there was still something missing, something that you couldnât quite place. Something that Yeonjun had made you feel by just stepping into the same room as you. You hated yourself for comparing your new friend to someone like him, but it felt almost impossible not to. You didnât care about Choi Yeonjun anymore, so why did he continue to haunt the subconscious parts of your mind?Â
As if on cue, Kai turns around in his seat, his nose almost grazing your own due to how close you sat. âHey are you following along?â He wonders, seemingly concerned as a small frown tugs at his brows. Blinking, you shake your head, âsorry no..â â You swallow, willing yourself to be honest with him, you need to be.
âCan IâŚcan I tell you something?â You hesitantly ask, gnawing on your bottom lip as you twirl your pencil anxiously between your fingers. He nods, a small smile painting his lips, âof course!â â Awkwardly clearing your throat, you think of a way to begin the whole thing. âW-Well basicallyâŚEveryone in my class they-âÂ
Your words get stuck in your throat, not because you were afraid of uttering them, not because Kai made you in any way feel uneasy. But because the oak doors to the library opened once more, the sound almost deafening to your ears, eyes becoming glued to Yeonjunâs frame as he enters. It doesnât take him long to spot you, his already spiteful expression seemingly worsening as his gaze locks with yours.Â
He grasps a book tightly in one hand, walking over to the front desk as he practically slams it on the table, making everyone inside the room jump as their heads turn in his direction. Yeonjun however, pays them little mind, his eyes never straying from yours as the old librarian goes to check out his book. â Even Kaiâs attention had shifted toward your classmate, watching as Yeonjun leaned against the desk with a scowl on his face.Â
âIsnât he in your class?â He wonders as the frown on his face deepens. You nod, âignore himâ, you mumble as you shift uncomfortably under his intense gaze. âBut heâs looking at you..â Kai states and you shake your head again, âplease letâs just ignore him.â â Finally, Kai tears his gaze from him as he gives you a small nod, âof course. So whatâd you want to tell me?âÂ
Oh right. âWell I⌠Itâs a bit weird, promise you wonât be freaked out.â You begin as you bite your lip, feeling an evident blush rise on your cheeks. Kai nods as he takes your hand, the small action somehow making the whole thing even worse but you couldnât find it in you to push him off. From the corner of your eye, you can make out Yeonjunâs figure as he watches the two of you, his mere presence made the hairs on the back of your neck stand.Â
âMy classmates theyâŚthey sort of think weâreâŚwell they think weâre dating..â You quietly mumble, the last part becoming nothing more but a faint whisper. You can easily read his surprise as Kaiâs eyes widen, his gaze flitting down to his hand on top of yours as he swallows. âOh.â Is all he says. â âI hope it doesnât make things weird between usâ, you quickly add, your voice near pleading as you search his gaze.Â
Biting the inside of his cheek, Kai slowly nods as he keeps his eyes on your hands. âNo I suppose it doesnât⌠I mean, itâs not like itâs true..â He says, offering you a small smile as his gaze returns to your face. You nod, ây-yeah, exactly..â â Daring to steal a glance in the direction of Yeonjun, you barely manage to catch his retreating figure as he exits the library, oak doors slamming shut behind him.Â
Kai follows your gaze, his hand on top of yours moving back to rest on his lap as his eyes flicker between the spot where Yeonjun just vanished and your almost longing expression. He sighs.Â
â¸â¸
Itâs nearing 6pm when you finally part ways outside the library. And after waving Kai off, you turn to walk up the flight of stairs leading to your locker. The hallways are vacant, your low heel shoes clacking against its floors as you readjust your heavy bag on your shoulder. â Your footsteps come to an abrupt halt about halfway down the long corridor, your eyes spotting a tall figure, leaning against the red lockers by the end of the hall. You swallow, easily recognizing his lean frame. Itâs too late to turn back, you know that heâs heard you already.Â
âHave you been waiting here all along?â You wonder, stopping a few paces from him, maintaining a good distance as you shift your weight over to one leg. Yeonjunâs head, previously leaning against the red steel behind him, lazily turns in your direction as he studies you with a tired expression. âNo.â â You knew it was a lie.Â
âThen why are you here?â For once, itâs your gaze boring into his, and not the other way around. Yeonjun remains silent, his hands digging deep into the pockets of his pants, his eyes roaming your body just like they had so many times before. He doesnât say anything. You wait for him to speak, you wait for two whole minutes. Nothing.Â
With a small huff, you give up as you approach your locker. Now only inches from him, you type your code in as the red door clicks open. Pulling your books from your bag, he watches you as you place them neatly inside the small space. You bite your tongue, refraining from saying the many things on your mind. It would only complicate the situation further. â Itâs not until you close the locker again, turning around as you get ready to leave, that he finally breaks the silence.Â
âIs it true?âÂ
You freeze, slowly turning back to face him with a small frown. Still leaning against the lockers, he tilts his head to the side, his expression holds no amusement, not even anger, justâŚemptiness. You had never seen him like that before. â âWhat?â The surprise is evident in your voice, and you watch as he pushes himself off the lockers, moving to face you completely. âYou and him, is it true?â He repeats his question and your breath gets stuck in your throat at the mention of Kai.Â
You didnât want him to become the next affection of Yeonjunâs harsh bullying. More than anything, you wanted to maintain the only friendship you had, you could not have your past mistakes getting in the way of it. â âDoes it matter?â Your stance remains guarded as you fold your arms across your chest. He cocks an eyebrow in your direction, his lip twitching, âof course not.âÂ
Confused, you frown, you had forgotten how near impossible he was to read. âWell then there you have your answer.â You firmly state. He shakes his head, and you couldâve sworn you caught the small grin on his face before it vanished again. âSo then it is true..â â âYes.â The small word of confirmation slips from your lips without you even realizing it. But it was too late to take it back now. Yeonjun frowns, he seems almost surprised at your immediate response.  Â
âItâs true that we hang out everyday. Itâs true that he makes me smile, and laugh. Itâs true that he cares for me and I for him. All of it is true, is that what you wanted to hear?â Youâre almost out of breath by the end of your small rant. â Yeonjunâs jaw clenches, hands curling into fists inside his pockets as he draws in a sharp breath through his nose.Â
âSo does it really matter if itâs true or not when he treats me in a way that makes me feel loved and appreciated?â Youâre unable to hinder yourself from letting out all the emotions that you had kept pent up during the past weeks. And by the end, your voice sounds as if itâs about to break at any moment. â But he doesnât say anything. His expression remained as indifferent as possible, watching the way your chest heaved as you caught your breath again.Â
His silence felt heavier than a thousand words. Part of you wants to swallow your statement again, another part is relieved to finally have gotten it out. You quickly realized that you probably wouldnât get another response from him, and thus you made your second move to leave. Except this time, he acts faster.Â
Fingers wrapping around your wrist, Yeonjun prevents you from taking another step away from him. His grip is tight, but not enough to hurt, you can feel the slight tremble to his hand and your gaze dart between his hold on you to his now determined expression.Â
âI could too.âÂ
His voice is low, yet the sentence echoes off the empty hallway walls. Your heart thumps loudly in your chest, blood rushing beneath your skin as your wide eyes meet his. â âI could make you feel like that too.â His voice is clearer now, steadier, and he takes a step forward. You find yourself shaking your head, making him frown. âWhy, donât you believe me?âÂ
The question made you scoff. âOf course I donât.â You exclaim as you withdraw your arm from his grip, he lets you, briefly glancing down to his now empty hand before letting it fall to his side. âYouâve said it yourself. Iâm nothing besides a quick fuck, right?â â He bites the inside of his cheek, your words undoubtedly true.Â
Maybe three weeks ago, his small statement wouldâve been able to sway you, to make your heart beat a little faster. Now it only felt like he was rubbing salt onto your barely healed wounds. Just as you had gotten over him, just as you had finally made a real friend, he had to go and ruin it all again by saying exactly what you both dreaded and longed to hear from him. And you hated him for it. You hated Choi Yeonjun.Â
Tears stung in your eyes, threatening to spill down your cheeks. You couldnât let him see you cry. â He grabs onto you a second time as you turn to leave, pulling you flush against his chest with such haste that you barely have time to register whatâs happening before his lips are on yours. âDonât goâ, he breathes into your mouth, kissing you with such urgency that you thought he might just be on the verge of dying.Â
Your hands are on his chest within seconds as you pry him off. âStop. Just stop.â Your pleading voice cuts like knives through the air and he pulls back with a stunned expression. Shaking your head, you tear yourself from him as you take a step back. âI donât know whatâs gotten into you. But it better stop.â He opens his mouth to say something but you beat him to it. âDonât let me get my hopes up only to crush them again.âÂ
Refusing to hear him out any longer, you quickly turn on your heel as you hurriedly walk down the hallway, leaving him behind as he runs a hand through his dark hair.Â
â¸â¸
The next day, Yeonjun doesnât show up to school. Youâre just as confused as everyone else, your eyes darting toward the door every other second, thinking that it might be him, but it never is. â âIs he sick?â Someone asks but Beomgyu only shakes his head, leaning back in his chair with a small huff, âbeats me.â Ah, so he didnât know either. Gnawing on your bottom lip, youâre suddenly filled with worry, was it because of what happened yesterday? Was he actually hurt by it? No, surely not, it was Choi Yeonjun after all.Â
Itâs not until the doors bursts open once more, revealing a disheveled Mimi, that realization slowly starts to set in. Her usually put together face is in ruins as makeup has been smeared across her cheeks. Heads turn in her direction as one of her friends guides her over to her desk. â âWhat happened?â A guy asks only to be hushed by her friend, quietly mouthing out the words: âhe broke up with her.âÂ
Everyone seems to fall silent after that, allowing Mimiâs quiet sobs to fill the room as you wait for class to start. â He broke up with her⌠You blink, glancing down to the empty page in your notebook as you swallow. Did that also have anything to do with what happened yesterday? Once again youâre left feeling guilty, Yeonjun always seemed to make you feel that way.Â
When your professor finally arrives, the lecture moves slowly, agonizingly so. And for once, you didnât find any joy in your studies. Sure it might also have something to do with the persistent feeling of being watched. â Turning your head ever so slightly to the right, you find Soobinâs eyes locked on your unnerved frame. Not even when he knows that youâve caught him does he turn away.
He continues to watch you throughout the day. Wherever you went, he seemed to be there too. Eyes boring into you at all times, an indifferent expression on his face. He knew something, that much you were sure of.Â
â¸â¸
Finally, as your last lesson comes to an end, you manage to slip past Soobinâs prying gaze as you hurried down the stairs to meet Kai. The two of you had begun accompanying each other on the way home as you both took the bus from the same station. â You find him waiting by the entrance, a large smile plastered across his face and as soon as your eyes fell on him, all worries were washed away.Â
âHow was class?â He asks as you walk down the courtyard. You shrug, swinging your bag in front of you cheerily, ânothing out of the ordinary.â â âNo mean comments, no nothing?â He wonders and you bite the inside of your cheek, ânoâŚactually not.â After the news of Mimiâs breakup, everyone had fallen into this sort of trance where no one seemed to want to bring attention to themselves. Thus you had been left alone all day, which felt both nice and incredibly weird.Â
Kai hums, the two of you were walking so close that your arms brushed together, but you didnât mind. Once you reach the large gates leading out onto the streets however, you freeze. Stopping a pace in front of you, Kai turns to you with a small frown, âsomething wrong?â â You shake your head, ânoâŚI just.. think I left a book behind, you go ahead.âÂ
He opens his mouth, as if to object but you quickly interrupt him, âitâs fine! I wouldnât want you to miss your busâ, you reassure him as you offer a small smile. âThen what about you?â He wonders but you just wave it off in a disregarding manner, âIâll take the next one, donât worry about me.â He doesnât seem entirely convinced but the small hug you give him makes him nod. âAlright, text me when you get homeâ, he says and you quickly agree as you send him off.Â
You watch him disappear down the pavement with a small sigh. Not until heâs completely out of sight do you turn to cross the street. You walk with long and determined strides, not stopping until you reach the large tree by the sidewalk. â Yeonjun isnât wearing his usual school uniform, instead heâs dressed in a dark pair of jeans, a black jacket wrapped around his torso to prevent the chilly December air from getting to him. He leans against the naked tree trunk, his gaze flickering from the concrete beneath him and over to you as you approach.Â
Feet planting in front of his, you cross your arms as you peer up at him with an expectant look on your face. He doesnât say anything, tongue prodding against the inside of his cheek. Unable to bear the silence, you break it. âYou didnât come to school today.â You donât know why you stated the obvious, perhaps you wanted him to explain himself, but he doesnât, only nodding silently.Â
Frustrated, you run a hand through your hair. He wanted to talk to you, right? Thatâs why he was waiting across the street from your college, openly risking being spotted by your classmates. So why wasnât he saying anything? â Huffing out a short breath, you part your lips to say something, but heâs quicker than you.Â
âI broke up with herâ, he calmly states. His posture remains relaxed as he speaks but his eyes search yours with something akin to desperation. â âI know.â You mumble, biting the inside of your lip before continuing, âshe was crying all day, did you know that?â He scoffs, âso?â His nonchalant approach made you frown, âso? Donât you care?â Your question is met by the mere shake of his head as he shrugs, âno, do you?âÂ
âI do.âÂ
He hadnât expected your answer, you could tell by the way his face dropped, if only for a moment. âWhy? Itâs not exactly like sheâs a good person.â He jeers, shoving his hands deeper into the denim pockets of his jeans. âAnd you are?â Even though your voice remains steady, thereâs a linger of hurt between your quiet words. â He goes silent in front of you as his gaze flits between yours and the entrance behind him.Â
âWhy are you even here, Yeonjun?â Your tone is near accusing and he looks almost guilty as his attention shifts back to you. He swallows, rubbing a hand along his neck, as if stalling for time. You bite your tongue, waiting patiently for him to speak. â âWhy do you like him?â, he finally asks. It hardly took a genius to guess who he was referring to.Â
You sigh, observing the way the naked branches of the tree moved against the mild breeze. âI told you, didnât I?â You drawl, readjusting the bag swung over your shoulder. The corner of his mouth twitches as Yeonjun shakes his head, âthatâs not what I wanted to hear.â â âAnd you think youâre in a position to make demands like that?â You snort, watching as he pushes himself off the tree before taking a step in your direction.Â
Leaning back to glance up at him, you try your best to hold your ground as he tilts his head to the side, cocking a questioning eyebrow at you. âThen tell me what I need to do.â â Your mouth falls open as you gawk at him, what was he implying? Taking a step back only ends up with him taking yet another forward, his hands coming up from his pockets to rest on your shoulders.Â
âTell me how to be like him.âÂ
Slowly you realize just what he was asking of you. Immediately shaking your head, you take yet another step back. âIt doesnât work like that.â You quietly murmur, averting your gaze to avoid looking him in the eyes. He frowns, a confused frown, âsure it doesâ, he says, sounding almost hopeful as he grips your shoulders tighter. âJust tell me what I need to do and Iâll do it.âÂ
Did he honestly think that everything could be undone just like that? The pain, the tears, the bullying, that he could take it all back just because he wanted to? Just because he had a change of heart? The thought was almost as ridiculous as his proposal. â This was Choi Yeonjun, he wasnât about to change his ways just because of you, you should know that. Whatever this was, this moment of confusion, it wouldnât last, and you had to pull out before you got hurt, again.Â
âI donât know what you want from meâŚâ You bite back the harsh insults waiting on your tongue, shaking your head once more. âI donât know what it is, and I donât care. Please just stop confusing meâ, you almost beg as you try to pry his hands off of you. â Yeonjun looks perplexed as he lets you push him off. âConfusing you? I donâtââÂ
âDo you think Iâm stupid?â You retort, your voice growing in intensity as you failed to hold back the anger and resentment you held for him. âI let you screw me over, I let you use me, humiliate me, I put up with all of it, becauseâŚâ You exhale, taking a step forward as you point an accusing finger to his chest. âBecause at one point I thought that I liked you, but I donât. I know exactly what you are and I know that you wonât change.âÂ
He frowns, his fingers wrapping around your wrist on his chest. âYou donât know the first thing about m-â â âI do.â You cut him off, aware of the way his jaw clenches as his grip on your wrist tightens. âI know that you cheat, you lie, you use people as you please, and worst of all, you donât even feel guilty about it.âÂ
You tear yourself from his grasp, stumbling backward as you cradle your sore wrist. âI know far from everything about youâ, you state, watching him bite the inside of his cheek as he fights off the remark he so desperately wished to fire. â âBut I know that I hate you. And thatâs enough reason for me to stay as far away from you as possible.âÂ
âSo please, leave me the fuck alone.âÂ
As soon as you turn around to dart down the street, the tears spill from your eyes as you sob into your open palm. More than anything, you regret ever becoming infatuated with him.Â
â¸â¸
Yeonjun didnât come to school the following day either, nor the day after that. People stopped asking about him, only becoming disregarded by both Beomgyu and Soobin as the two kept to themselves. Yet the tallerâs persistent stares remained as Soobin watched your every move, like a hawk stalking its prey. Even now, as you sat by your usual table, listening to Kai as he rambled on about a random topic, did you feel his gaze on you.Â
âD-Did you hear me?âÂ
Kaiâs hesitant voice snaps you from your trance as your eyes shift to his fidgety frame. Nervously twisting the hem of his uniform, he gives you a sheepish smile. You blink, âIâŚsâsorry what did you say?â You wonder, feeling a bit embarrassed by your lack of engagement as he spoke. But Kai only shakes his head, the tips of his ears turning pink as he clears his throat. âI was wondering if⌠if you would maybe want to study this weekend a-at my place?âÂ
You could tell that it had taken almost all his courage to ask the simple question. But somehow you find yourself comparing it to how easy such demands had fallen from Yeonjunâs lips as he shamelessly took whatever he wanted. Internally you curse yourself for letting your mind so comfortably shift to the subject of Yeonjun when you had tried so hard to forget about him.Â
âSure I would love to!â You smile, heart swelling at the endearing sight before you as Kaiâs face practically explodes in an ocean of red. âR-Really?â He asks and you nod, âof course!â â Youâre about to ask him what time would be suitable when suddenly a large shadow is casted over your table. Squinting up your eyes lock with none other than Choi Soobin as he peers down at you with a vacant expression.Â
âI need to talk to you.â He states in a monotone voice, jutting his chin toward the large entryway of the cafeteria. Your gaze flits between him and Kai as your friend shifts uncomfortably in his seat. âO-Okayâ, you quietly mumble, giving Kai an apologetic look as you get up to trail after Soobinâs tall frame.Â
He walks fast, and you almost have to jog in order to keep up. Pushing past the crowded hallways, Soobin doesnât seem to mind the multiple glances shot his way. The two of you walk for a good five minutes without stopping, and just as youâre about to ask where youâre going, he comes to an abrupt halt, making you almost facepalm against his back.
With the light kick of his foot, the door to a vacant classroom swings open and he steps inside, seemingly waiting for you to do the same. â Once the door is shut behind you, he turns to lean against the wall, folding his arms across his chest. Nervously, you tug at the collar of your blazer as you glance around the dark room.Â
You donât think you had been alone with Soobin, ever. Nor did you think that you had ever heard him utter more than two words out loud. And he had never directed a single one to you. So to say that your current situation was surprising, would be a grave understatement. â You think a whole minute must have passed when he finally speaks. But the words coming out of his mouth made you wish for everything to be silent again.Â
âWhatâs your deal with Yeonjun?âÂ
His voice is low, barely above a murmur, and deep too. Not at all like his snarky friends whose laughs would echo off the hallways. You swallow, hard, the sound is audible in the otherwise quiet room. Unlike Beomgyu, Soobin never once picked on you, nor did he join in when the others were laughing, at best or worst, he would give a small grin. â If it were Beomgyu you would at least expect him to be mad in a situation like this, but Soobin remains eerily calm as he watches you from a distance, just like he had these past three days.Â
âI donât think thatâs any of your businessâ, you stand your ground, despite the fact that it felt as if the floor was literally shaking beneath you. He chuckles, itâs breathy, almost inaudible. âYou donât need to act so prideful, heâs told me everything about you.â â It feels as if all air has been knocked out of your lungs. So he did know something.Â
âEverything?â You exhale, your breath near trembling. He gives a curt nod, âeverything, except for why he isnât here todayâ, he mutters, seemingly displeased with the fact. â A small frown etches its way to your face, lips parting in confusion. âI know youâve got something to do with it.â He states, tilting his head back as he gazes up toward the ceiling. âBut he wonât tell me what.âÂ
Biting the inside of your cheek, you glance down to the floor, the uneven wood planks suddenly seeming very intriguing. âI couldnât possibly know why heââ â âDonât bullshit me.â He snaps, his eyes flickering back to you within milliseconds. Your breath gets caught in your throat as you flinch, taking a small step back before your thighs hit the table behind you. Soobin ignores your skittish reactions as he continues. âI donât know what heâs getting at, going for someone like you.â He says it with such distaste that it makes your skin crawl.Â
Before you know it, he takes a step forward, then another one, and another one, until heâs got you caged against the desk. He doesn't say anything, one of his hands reaching into his pocket as he rummages through it. Pulling up a folded piece of paper, he shoves it into your open palm. âHe asked me to give you this.â â He brushes his hand against his jeans as he takes a step back.Â
âFix whatever you caused.â Is all he says before turning on his heel to leave again. Upon yanking the door open, heâs met with Kaiâs alarmed frame as he jumps to the side. Sparing him a mere side glance, Soobin shoves past him as he takes off down the hallway. â You shove the small paper in the pocket of your blazer as you walk over to your friend with a sheepish smile. âHey how long have you been standing-â
âYou and Yeonjun?â He asks, almost baffled as he eyes you, full of distrust. The smile immediately vanishes from your face and your throat suddenly goes dry. âW-What?â You ask, still not registering his question fully, hoping that maybe you had heard him wrong. Kai shakes his head, his jaw momentarily clenching. âJust how much exactly did you hear?â You quietly whisper.Â
He gives you a small shrug, âenough.â â He sighs, looking almost defeated as he runs a hand through his blond hair. âI thought youâŚI mean the two of you, I never thoughtâŚâ Frowning, he gives up with a small huff and you bite your lip, reaching out a hesitant hand to place on his shoulder, but he only jerks away from your touch.Â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â He sounds hurt, you can tell he is. The guilt was slowly seeping back into your veins, Yeonjun always made you feel guilty, but this timeâŚthis time it was your own doing. âIâm sorry.â The apology is genuine, you hope he can tell. Because you really are sorry, sorry for not being honest with your only friend.Â
Kai looks at you, his eyes hold so much pain that you wondered just how deep your lie had stung. âDo you like him?â He asks, his voice sounds strained, as if he was holding back tears. The question catches you off guard and you blink. Did you like him? No, of course not. You hated him. You hated Choi Yeonjun.Â
âNo, nevermind, donât answer.â He shakes his head, âI donât care.â â You fumble for words, wanting to say anything that would comfort him. It felt almost impossible. âI- Iâm sorry I shouldâve told you Iââ â âYeah you shouldâve.â He bites back, his unusually harsh tone making you wince. âYou shouldâve told me a long time ago. Before I..â He cuts himself off, biting his cheek as his gaze drops to the floor.Â
âBefore what?â You quietly wonder, noting the way his shoulders slumped as he exhaled a shaky breath. âBefore I liked you.â His voice is merely above a whisper, his attention strained to the floor as he refused to look you in the eyes. Your mouth falls open, it wasnât like you were completely unaware. Kaiâs lingering touches and stares didnât go unnoticed but you had never imagined that his feelings ran this deep.Â
âYou like me?âÂ
He scoffs, dragging his feet leisurely in front of him. âI thought that was obvious.â He pauses, his gaze briefly meeting yours before fleeting down again, but it was just enough for you to catch the shiny layer of tears coating his lashes. You swallow, it felt almost as if you were about to throw up, the guilt slowly eating away at you.Â
All you could do was stare at him with a stunned expression, not knowing what you could possibly say to mend the situation. Kai draws in a sharp breath before he wipes his face with the back of his hand. âItâs alrightâ, he mumbles, âitâs not your fault.â â Your heart might as well just have been ripped out and stepped on at this point. Why was he being so kind to you, when you so obviously didnât deserve it.Â
âWeâre friends stillâŚarenât we?â He wonders, looking up from the floor with bloodshot eyes. âT-This doesnât change anything, right?â â You wanted to tell him that this changed everything, that things might never be the same again. But you couldnât, you couldnât hurt him like that. So you shake your head, wrapping your arms around him as you hug him tight. âOf course not, Kai.âÂ
You wondered if things had turned out differently between the two of you, had you never gotten involved with Yeonjun.Â
â¸â¸
Itâs early, earlier than youâd like to admit as you leave your apartment that Sunday morning. The sun has yet to rise and the city is still asleep, but you haven't been able to shut your eyes and relax for the past three days. No, you had waited, dreaded, for this day to come. â The bus is almost empty, save for another young woman, but she looks far more comfortable than you as she rests her head against the window.Â
The air is cold as you step off, and you hug your coat tighter around your body. You walk for about ten minutes before a large building comes into view. Pulling the small note from your pocket, you glance between the address scribbled down and the number on the building in front of you, they perfectly align. â The note, the one Soobin had so hastily shoved in your hand three days ago, the note you had reread at least a hundred times throughout the weekend. An address, a day, but not a time. â Perhaps you were a bit early, but as you trudged up the stairs, you no longer cared. You had waited for three whole days, youâd had enough.Â
You take the stairs instead of the elevator. To get some exercise in, you tell yourself. But there was no mistaking the fact that you wanted to prolong the moment for as long as possible, despite your urgency to get here. â Finally, you reach the fifth floor, out of breath, you lean against the wall as you take a moment to gather yourself.Â
The first time you read the note you had considered not showing up at all. It was a cowardly move to send his friend in his place. But at the same time, your mind longed for answers, answers that you would hopefully get today. â You bring the paper to your face, rereading it one final time. The address, the day, and the small sentence, at the very bottom.Â
âLetâs talk, please.âÂ
Fine, if he wanted to talk, then you would talk. Your fingers curl into a fist, lightly tapping the dark wood. Had it been anyone else, you wouldâve been mindful of the still early hour. But right now your mind was set on one thing alone. â Your heart beats obnoxiously loud in your chest, the wait seemingly eternal.Â
Then the door creaks open. And as soon as your eyes fall on him, you can tell that heâs had trouble sleeping too. The bags under his eyes were a most unusual look, his hair too, laid messily sprawled on top of his head. Heâs still dressed, almost as if he hadnât gone to bed at all. â âHiâ, his voice is low, raspy, like he hadnât spoken in days. You give him a small nod of acknowledgement and he steps aside as he lets you in.Â
Yeonjunâs apartment is clean, minimalistically furnished. It wasnât like you had ever tried to imagine what his home would look like, but this somehow felt just like him. Your gaze trails across the few paintings on the walls, you can tell that he hadnât picked them himself, most likely they came with the flat. The white couch, situated by the large windows, catches your eye.Â
Upon walking over and taking a seat, you find that Yeonjun does the same, maintaining a respectable distance as he glances down towards his hands. For a moment, everything is quiet. Part of you wished to stay like this forever. But that was of course impossible. â He clears his throat, shifting awkwardly on the sofa. âDo you want something to drink?â You bite your lip before nodding, âwaterâs fine.âÂ
He gets up, walking over to the joint kitchen as he turns on the faucet. You can hear him grabbing glasses, filling them to the brim before returning to place one in front of you on the marbled coffee table. Quietly thanking him, you take the glass, bringing it to your lips as you take a sip. You wait for him to speak first, he was after all, the one who had reached out.Â
Yeonjun looked very different like this. In the comforts of his own home he resembled little of the person you had grown accustomed to in school. You wondered if he often brought people over, judging by how awkward he was acting, you supposed not. â He draws in a sharp breath, his gaze remaining downcast as he speaks.Â
âYou got my note..â He mumbles as you set your glass down. âI didâ, you state, leaning back against the soft cushion as you turn your head in his direction. âWhy didnât you give it to me yourself?â You frown, feeling rather hurt by his choice of using his friend, his friend who definitely didnât seem to like you. Yeonjun is silent, heâs silent for a good while, fingers intertwined with one another as he bites the inside of his cheek.Â
âI was scared.â He quietly admits and your eyes widen at the confession. âY-You were?â You canât shield the surprise in your voice, Choi Yeonjun, scared? He scoffs, and for a moment, his usual self emerges as his face turns into a small scowl, but the way his eyes flicker as he speaks gives him away. âOf course I fucking was, I still am.âÂ
âWhy?âÂ
He doesnât answer straight away, as if considering his next words with great care. Running a hand through his disheveled hair, he lets out a small almost inaudible exhale. âBecause Iâm scared that Iâve fucked things up so bad this time⌠That thereâs no going back.â â You uncomfortably shift on the couch as you distract yourself by taking another sip of your water. Yeonjunâs body is taut as his jaw clenches, refusing to even glance in your direction he keeps his gaze steadily fixed on the window in front of him as the darkness outside slowly shifts into a deep blue. Â
âI wantâŚâ He slowly begins, his sentence falling short as he takes another couple of breaths. âI want to apologize.â You blink, your eyes shifting from the water in your glass and over to him, you donât think you had ever heard him speak with such sincerity. â And for the first time since your arrival, he looks at you. He swallows, adam's apple bobbing as he does.Â
âIâm sorry.âÂ
When you donât say anything he hastily continues. âI know that it doesnât fix shit, but IâŚI still need to say it. And if I could I would go back and undo all the pain I caused you, I really would. I donât expect you to forgive me, quite frankly I donât even expect you to ever talk to me again, I suppose thatâs fair. But if I donât tell you how sorry I am now, Iâm afraid that I never will.â He takes a deep breath, holding it for a few seconds before letting it go again, his shoulders slumping, almost like a deflating balloon.Â
âSo, Iâm sorryâŚfor everything.âÂ
He holds his tongue after that, gaze dropping down to his fingers once more. You donât know how to feel, much less what to say. It was all so surreal. Hearing those words come out of his mouth felt almost like a fever dream and you wondered if you had perhaps managed to fall asleep after all and that this was just a fragment of your imagination, the universe pulling a sick prank on you.Â
But then you turn to look at him. Heâs nothing like the Yeonjun who had hurt you for so many weeks. Right now he looks small as he sits on the couch, biting the inside of his lip as he nervously rolls his thumbs together. In the end you realize that no matter how you feel, thereâs only one thing you can say to him.Â
âI forgive you.âÂ
He freezes, teeth letting go of his lip as he slowly lifts his head to peer over at you. An almost puzzled look paints his otherwise tired face, âyou do?â He sounds almost disbelieving as he studies you with a wary expression. â You slowly nod, watching as his eyes widen with recognition, he swallows. Then everything becomes silent once more. This time itâs a different kind of silence, itâs not comfortable but the air somehow feels lighter, if only a little.Â
You find yourself staring out the large windows. The sky had turned a deep orange now, shades of pink seeping through the cracks formed by the clouds. The darkness slowly makes way for the light as a new day rises before you. â You want to say something, now feels like a good moment to get things off your chest. But you canât seem to find the words, your throat feels thick and it becomes hard to swallow. Â
âPlease like me instead.âÂ
At first you thought that you had imagined it. The faint whisper of his lips. But when he shuffles next to you on the couch, turning to face you fully, thereâs no doubt about it. You tear your gaze from the warm sky as you glance over at him. In the morning light, Yeonjun looked like he was glowing. Despite the dark circles under his eyes, his dry lips, or even his unkempt hair; he looked truly beautiful.Â
âWhat?âÂ
Your voice is soft, a low murmur, unsure and hesitant. He scoots closer, your knees touching as he places his hands on the cushion either side of him. âLike me instead. Instead of him.â Instead of Kai. He searches your gaze desperately as he bites his lip, leaning closer. â You donât say anything, if you do, his statement would become real. Youâre scared, you think.Â
But he doesnât give up. âI know that you hate me, but please, I canât stand it when-â Â
âI donât hate you, Yeonjun.âÂ
His mouth shuts, and he blinks at you, confused, brows knitting together. âWhat?â â âBut you said..â You shake your head, turning away as you feel tears prick in the corner of your eyes. You hated how easily he made you cry, even when he didnât intend to. âI lied.â You confess, shame and guilt overflowing your senses. âWhy?â
âBecause I was scared.âÂ
As the words left your lips, you think that the two of you might not be so different after all. Maybe, just maybe. â Yeonjun doesnât say anything, his attention dropping to your knees, barely grazing one another. His hand on the sofa twitches, as if he held himself back from reaching out, from touching you.Â
âI was scared of liking you.â Your quiet whisper felt like a weight being lifted off your shoulders. A small murmur was all it had taken, so why had it seemed so hard? â His gaze shifts back to your face, his eyes wide as his lips part in surprise. âYou were right all alongâ, you give him a half hearted smile, watching as his frown deepened. âIâve always liked youâ, you swallow, âeven when I didn't want to.â  Â
A pang of guilt takes over his expression for a moment as he internally cringes at your words, more so his own actions. âI thought it would go away if I told myself that I hated you.â You shake your head, glossy eyes dropping to your hands, the first tears threatening to escape at any moment. âIt never did.â Your vision slowly becomes blurred as you blink away the salty droplets that fell down your cheeks.Â
You can barely see it, but you can feel it, the warm caress of his hand on your cheek. It feels nice, comforting, you donât push him off, you donât want to. He wipes your tears, the very same that he had caused. The faint whisper of yet another apology lingering on his lips. â Then he hesitates, you never saw Yeonjun hesitating, he always took what he wanted, did as he pleased. But you can tell that heâs uncertain of his next move. His eyes flickering between your teary eyes and parted lips.Â
In the end he decides to be brave. Slowly initiating what had been on both of your minds for weeks now. But when his lips meet yours, it feels different, this kiss is nothing like your previous ones. It holds no guilt, no shame, no secrets, it doesnât feel forced nor desperate. It feels like an apology, remorseful of the past, and like a promise, a vow to the future. You can tell that he expects you to pull back, to tell him off, just like you had days prior.Â
Instead you cling to him, part of you thinks that this might be just what you need, another part says itâs stupid and reckless. But in the end, you want to be brave too. Even if that meant being stupid and reckless. â The stupid and reckless part of you lets him push you back against the soft cushion, lets him kiss you deeper, lets his hands trail across your body.Â
âIâm sorry.â He chants it like a prayer, littering your body in the light caress of his lips. You know he means it, every kiss, every touch, every apology. â His hair feels soft between your fingers, you twist the strands lightly, feeling him sigh against your skin. Yeonjun was usually one to talk in moments like these, but today there are no sarcastic remarks on his tongue. Heâs quiet, attentively listening to the hitch of your breath, the small moan passing your lips, he doesnât want to miss a single thing.Â
He tugs your tights off, his hands immediately soothing the goosebumps erupting on your naked skin. You think he looks pretty like this, basked in the first rays of sunshine, half lidded eyes rapidly moving as he trails them across every inch of your body. â His lips return to yours, fingers sliding between your legs just like they had so many times before, but this time itâs different, everything is.Â
He touches you slowly, he pays attention, he wants to know exactly how he makes you feel. Treating you as if you were made out of glass, worshiping you as if you were made out of gold. You become hyper aware of the way his body moves against yours, the soft pattern of his fingers sending sparks through your stomach.Â
You had been intimate with Yeonjun more times than you could remember. Yet as he lines himself up alongside you, it suddenly feels like the first. It feels new, nervous, perhaps even a little scary. But that was okay, you knew that he was scared too. â He goes slow, savoring the moment as his face rests in the crook of your neck. âIâm sorry.â He canât stop saying it, itâs never enough, it never makes up for the damage heâs created, he knows it. But you forgive him, you would continue to forgive him for eternity if he apologized for as long.Â
He groans against you, his voice is near trembling. Your hands are on his back, feeling the smooth surface of his skin, then theyâre tangled in his hair, pulling him to look at you. For the first time it feels as if youâre seeing him clearly. Behind the lying, the cheating, the bullying, it was just him. Just Yeonjun.Â
As soon as the first tear rolls down his cheek, you kiss him. Tasting the saltiness on your lips, he sobs into your mouth. His chest heaves against yours, his once slow and deliberate thrusts becoming jagged and uneven as he fights to stay composed. You want to say something, but you donât know what. Instead you pull him closer, so close that you canât feel anything but his body against yours.Â
You stay like that, melted against one another. Hours pass, neither of you seem to mind. His breath is warm against your chest, your fingers are soft in his hair. The silence is light, comforting, reassuring. Your mind is filled with him, heâs all you can think about, all you want to think about. You know he feels the same, itâs comforting to know. Itâs also scary, youâre not sure if youâre ready. But even then, youâll at least be scared together, just the two of you.Â
Itâs nice to not be alone.Â
â¸â¸
Monday morning also feels different. Maybe because youâre walking down the hallway side by side, you and Yeonjun. People stare, he tells you to ignore them, you try, and it works. You glance over at him, he looks happy, his step is light, his arm securely wrapped around your waist. You find yourself smiling, biting the inside of your cheek as you gaze ahead.Â
Itâs not until you reach the all too familiar door, leading into your classroom, that you halt. Confused, Yeonjun stops a pace in front of you. âIs something wrong?â He asks as he studies your nervous posture, your eyes flickering between the now almost empty hallway and the door in front of you. The corridors were one thing, but the classroom held so many memories. Memories that wouldnât just vanish over a day.
He notices your hesitation, a small smile tugging at his lips as he shakes his head. He reaches out, his warm hand enveloping yours as he grips it firmly. You glance between your interlocked fingers, and the small grin splayed across his face. â âIâve got you, nerd.âÂ
The small reassurance makes you smile, and you nod, letting him tug you closer as Yeonjun pushes the classroom door open.
đđđđđ đđđđđ â¸â¸ And you donât know why you took a step forward, why you let your hands brush against his, why you didnât stop when you saw the bewilderment on his face. You donât know why you leaned in closer, when you should be pulling back. â And you donât know why you couldnât look away, why you couldnât tear your gaze from the flames dancing across his eyes.Â
You donât know why you kissed him. â¸â¸
đ ŕŁŞË Ö´ÖśÖ¸ wc, 25.5k ŕźŕźŕż
đšairing bully!beomgyu x fed-up!reader (f)
đarning friends to enemies to lovers, bullying, implied violence, violence, beomgyu's a dick, reader's also mean at times, college au, kissing, fingering, mutual masturbation, unprotected sex + pullout, angsty confessions, hmm um um what else, I have no clue..
#serene adds â... HAPPY BEOMGYU DAY !! (because it's still the 13th here) ⯠and oh my god have you guys been waiting for this fic... how long has it been, 6/7 months? maybe even more... I have no words. I feel like this fic is a little all over the place, you might notice the inner monologue changing and so on, but that's because I've been writing it over 6 months roughly, my view on the story has changed with each month... I hope it'll still be worth your while >.< happy gyu day, my love <33 - rain says I need to mention her
This story is part of a trilogy, find the masterpost here to make sure you're reading in correct order!
People change for the stupidest of reasons. At least Beomgyu thinks so. Heâs been told that his view of the world is narrow, that change is something good, something that everyone goes through. That change is important. What a load of bullshit. Look what change had done to his best friend. â Ever since Yeonjun had gotten together with that stupid nerd heâd changed. Changed for the worse. And it seemed as if Beomgyu was the only one who could see it.Â
He glares at his classmates, but his once sharp gaze seems to have lost its touch. They whisper, talk, murmur, gossip, they speculate about him. Because everyone knew that something had happened between The Choiâs, that something was no longer the same. â But why him? Beomgyu wasnât the one whoâd changed, they changed, not him. Yeonjun was the one whoâŚHe was the one who became infatuated with that good for nothing nerd, and Soobin heâŚhe just accepted it?Â
Beomgyu almost snorts at the thought. Fine. If they wanted to give everything up just like that, they could, why should he care? But the lingering glances he receives as he pushes through the crowded hallways are near impossible to shake off. So what if he was walking alone? He didnât need his friends, they werenât his friends anymore, they were just side pieces in a much bigger picturâÂ
âHey! Watch where youâre going freak!â He seethes as a small boy crashes into his chest, a freshman probably. Beomgyuâs eyes narrow as he seizes the kid. The younger male swallows as he scrambles to gather his belongings, clearing his throat awkwardly as he pushes his glasses further up on his nose. â âI-Iâm so sorry I wasnât looking where I was going and I..âÂ
What a pathetic being. Beomgyu grimaces at his petty apology, âstay out of my way next time, alright? You weak piece ofââÂ
âWhy donât you pick on someone your own size?âÂ
The voice is familiar as it pierces through the crowded hallway and suddenly the previous buzz of students surrounding him diminishes as Beomgyuâs gaze flickers past the small boy in front of him. â You.Â
His teeth grind together at the sight of your cocky figure, that smug grin you always wore, as if you were better than everyone else, as if you were better than him. What a joke. Ever since him and his friends broke apart, you seemed to have been actively plotting against him, singling him out now that he was alone. â Beomgyu would die before admitting that your schemes ever proved successful. Because if there was one thing he hated, it was people who meddled in his business. And you seemed to know nothing else.Â
The young freshman scurries off before Beomgyu has the chance to grab him and he bites back a frustrated groan. Instead his attention shifts to your approaching frame. With the small squeak of your sneakers against the floor, you stop inches from him, your eyes near level with his. â Blood rushes within his body like never before, anger soaring through him at the mere sight of your pestering face.Â
âPick on someone my own size? And that would be what, you?â He scoffs, eyeing you with disdain. The grin on your lips only widened further and he refused another grimace. Then it clicks, and Beomgyu has to hold himself back as he feels his jaw twitch. â âYou.â The acknowledgement is a short huff of air, it hits your face and you squint as your eyes pierces his. âYouâre the one whoâs been running their mouth about me all week.âÂ
Suppose you had been mentioning his name a little here and there. A few comments, nothing crazy, nothing that wasnât true. It wasnât exactly unwarranted either. Choi Beomgyu was a nuisance. And without his friends to protect him, you were finally able to sharpen the knife that had been so diligently resting behind your back for three years. â You had longed for an opportunity to get back at him for all the shit he caused you through freshman and junior year; and finally, the universe presented you with one.Â
You glance over at him, it would merely take a small raise of your heel for your eyes to become leveled perfectly with his. Without that tall friend of his, looming behind his back, or Yeonjunâs authoritative status, Choi Beomgyu was really nothing. â That didnât change the fact that you absolutely loathed him. And you would be sure to have him know.Â
âWhy, has something interesting caught your ears?â You drawl, feeling the grin on your lips threatening to bloom into a smirk. Beomgyuâs face morphs into a scowl, undoubtedly familiar with the rumors of him youâd conducted during the past weeks. â âYou must think youâre so smart, sitting on your ass all day and spewing nonsenseâ, he grits as he takes a charging step forward, chest colliding with yours and you almost stumble backward.Â
It takes some effort but you manage to remain fairly unfazed as you eye him with indifference. It only serves to make him angrier. Beomgyu was like an open book, a book in which you only had to read the paragraph on the very back to understand exactly how it would end. He was predictable, and without his friends, he was an easy target for someone whoâd been studying him for so long.Â
âI doâ, you chirp, hands clasping behind your back as you sway on the spot. Beomgyu scoffs, giving a small roll of his eyes before his firing gaze centers on you again. âJust stay out of my way.â â His attention drops to the uniform you wore, the one school handed out at the beginning of each year, much different from the designer one he had tailored each semester. It was subtle, but different, and Beomgyuâs grin widened as his eyes raked across your worn out shoes and old bag. âThink youâve got other things to worry âbout.âÂ
Without another word, he continues down the hallway, though not before giving your shoulder a harsh shove. â Your lip twitches into an uncomfortable grimace and with a small huff you readjust your backpack. Fucking asshole. Your tongue prods against your teeth, tsking slightly as you watch him disappear.Â
â¸â¸Â
âOh come on, do you really think itâs that bad of an idea?â You whine as your cheek rests against your forearm, eyes trained on the words being written out on the paper before you. â âI doâ, Taehyun states without lifting his pencil from the sheet, brows slightly furrowed as he focuses on his work.Â
With a small huff you peer up at him, the glasses on the bridge of his nose are crooked and you resist the urge to snatch them from his face. âAnd what does Mr. Class President presume I should do then?â You sarcastically wonder; though the question makes him raise a disbelieving brow as he glances toward you. âI suggest you stay out of trouble.â â Just as you open your mouth in objection, does he cut you off; âand not spread rumors about him.âÂ
Your expression contorts into one of disagreement but you remain silent. In a way, you suppose you should feel thankful for him. Taehyun was your only friend, if friends were even what one could call you. â The mutual acquaintanceship consisted of you sharing the latest events of your quite dull life, recapping the drama youâd picked up on your way to the school cafeteria, and most importantly; Choi Beomgyu.Â
Though he was originally opposed to the friendship, Taehyun had begrudgingly come to accept your persistent presence as you lingered by his desk between classes. And by your senior year, he knew everything that was to know about Beomgyu and why you so loathed him. â âShouldnât you let go of him? Weâre about to graduate next yearâ, he states, his voice monotone as always but you could clearly decipher a hint of pleading as he urged for you to stop fawning over the guy.Â
âLet go?â You scoff, sitting up a bit straighter as you eye him with a frown, âI do not need to âlet goâ, I need revenge, besides, Christmas break is coming up, I need to act fast.â â Seemingly unimpressed by your enthusiasm, Taehyun merely shakes his head as his focus returns to the piece of paper in front of him, scribbling down a few lines before he sighs; âand how exactly do you plan on doing that?âÂ
The way your face lit up was unmistakable and you could practically see him regret his words as you shuffled closer. âWell, I happen to have a planââ But before you can finish, the classroom door swings open and your professor enters. With a small scowl, you lean back in your chair as Taehyun immediately disregards you, turning his full attention to the lecture about to take place. Jeez, what a try-hard.
History was far from your favorite, but the mention of a group project sparked your interest. Your professor was old, a tall and lanky man, and as he announced the presentation you were to hold regarding a historic event, the class groaned. â Immediately turning to Taehyun with hopeful eyes, youâre met with a small glare before he sighs and nods, announcing that the two of you could partner up. With delight you open your mouth to thank him when your history teacherâs raspy voice suddenly interrupts you.Â
âThough seeing as your parallel class is taking the very same course, I thought itâd be a good idea to merge the two of you. â Itâll save me some time when grading as wellâ, he huffs as a small grin tugs at his wrinkled lips. â It doesnât take long for the room to be drowned in a chaotic murmur. Your brows pull together in a confused frown and you twist in your seat, âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â â Taehyun merely shrugs as his eyes flicker between you and your professor by the board, and for once he seemed equally lost.Â
A quiet cough makes your gaze snap back to your old teacher as he rummages through his bag for a small piece of paper. âNow I know you arenât too acquainted with the other class, so Iâve taken the liberty of pre-arranging partners for you.â His statement is met with another wave of complaints and displeased groans as students leaned back in their chairs and shook their heads.Â
âWait, does this mean we wonât get to work together?â You wonder to which Taehyun gives a small nod, âmost likely.â â You felt your heart drop at least ten floors as you watched your old teacher fasten the small piece of paper to the board. The sound of chairs scraping against the hard floor fills the classroom as everyone scurries toward the front, eager to see who theyâd been partnered up with.Â
Without thinking you, too, rise from your desk as you pull Taehyun by his arm, yanking him toward the board. It takes a few shoves to get through the crowd that had formed, but soon enough, youâre standing in front of the list. â Your eyes fervently scan the names, going over the rows at least twice before you find yours. It was as if all air had been sucked from your lungs, your throat uncomfortably dry as you eye the jagged scribbles. Next to your own name was âChoi Beomgyuâ.Â
Behind you, Taehyun lets out a short huff, his lips pulling into a menacing smirk as he eyes your expression. â âWas this also part of your âplanâ?âÂ
â¸â¸
âIâm doomed!â You exclaim, hands feverishly tugging at your hair as you cling onto Taehyunâs shoulder. Met with a shrug from your friend who trudges forward, you pout, jutting your chin out as you whine in his ear. âWhat do I do?â â Taehyun sighs, pushing his glasses further up on his nose as his eyes scan the nearly empty hallway. âThis is exactly why you shouldnât have gotten on his bad sideâ, he scolds and you huff.Â
âCome on nowâ, you mutter as you release your grip on him, âa rumor here and there has never hurt anyone.â â âBesides, arenât you supposed to be taking my side?â You finish with a small frown, the crease on your forehead only deepening when he doesnât say anything. âYou told everyone that he threw up in one of the school bathroomsâ, he then states and you snort, a small grin seeping onto your face. âSo? He mightâve.âÂ
Taehyun shakes his head, âmy point is, youâre already off to a bad start.â â His statement makes you slow down, the shift in your pace causing him to nearly stop as Taehyun turns to you with a confused look. âYouâre talking as if Iâm the one who should watch myself. â Tae, heâs an asshole, if anything, he should feel ashamed.âÂ
Your friend bites his lip as his gaze flits between the floor to the books in his hands, and you wondered if you had said something wrong. Choi Beomgyu had earned himself quite the infamous reputation at your college along with the other Choiâs, everyone knew that they were bad news, so why did no one speak against it? â Why did Taehyun cower at the name?Â
You couldnât possibly understand their unreasonable fear.Â
But you donât have to ponder for long, because mere moments later, an all too familiar voice calls out. â âHey, class president!â Beomgyuâs nasty drawl echoes off the desolate walls as he nears you. His hands are shoved in the pockets of his expensive uniform, and he walks with an allude of confidence.Â
Upon hearing his name called, Taehyun freezes beside you as he hesitantly turns to face the source of the voice. Stopping mere inches from your friend, Beomgyu leans forward with a smug smirk and Taehyun hastily blinks under his glasses. You watch their small exchange with a puzzled expression. â âYou got my essay?â Beomgyu asks as he quirks a brow in the shorter male's direction. His essay?Â
Taehyun nods as he reaches for the bag swung over his shoulder, undoing the zipper as he rummages through its contents. Beomgyu watches him with a look of nonchalance, seemingly unaware of your presence as he focuses on your friend before him. â âHereâ, Taehyun murmurs as he hands him at least four pages worth of paper, neatly stapled together.Â
Beomgyu scans through it leisurely before giving Taehyunâs shoulder a harsh pat, making the shorter wince. âWhatâs the meaning of this?â You spit, unable to help yourself as you witnessed the person you so loathed go after your only friend like that. Finally, he seems to acknowledge you as Beomgyuâs eyes snap in your direction, his hand falling from Taehyunâs shoulder as his face contorts into a small scowl.Â
Despite the lack of his friends, he still made do with the reputation he had left. Your rumors seemed to have made an insignificant dent in the power he held. ButâŚTaehyun? Of all people, he wouldnât possibly⌠Your gaze flits down to the essay in Beomgyuâs hand and over to your friend who avoided your gaze as he urged for you to come with him without causing a bigger scene.Â
âWhy donât you stay out of my business.â Beomgyu sneers as he eyes you with distaste. âBusiness? You call this business?â You frown as you shrug Taehyunâs hands from your arm, stepping between your friend and the menace before him. â Your nose could practically graze his as you let out a short breath of air, meeting his furious gaze with one of your own.Â
âBullying people into doing your work? How do you expect to make it outside of college?â The comment makes his already angered expression flare up and you catch his hands curling into fists by his sides. â âWorry âbout yourself wonât you?â he scoffs, ready to push past you.. until your next words catch him off guard.Â
âWell thatâs going to be difficult, seeing as weâre partners now.âÂ
He stops, dark eyes snapping back to yours within milliseconds and you feel Taehyunâs hand urgently tug at your arm as he silently pleads for you to back down. â âWhat?â The word comes out as a mere hiss and you canât help but feel a triumphant grin pull at the corner of your lips. Ah, so he didnât know yet.Â
âHavenât you heard?â â You let your head fall to the side, an amused expression flashing across your features as you take in his puzzled and angered state, so predictable. âMr. Brownâs class, the history project, weâre partners, you and me.â The dread that had previously consumed you seemed minimal when you with satisfaction watched Beomgyuâs face practically explode in a multitude of enraged questions; none of which you were planning on answering.Â
âThe fuck is that supposed to mean?â He spits, a look of disbelief presenting itself across his otherwise arrogant face. You shrug, letting Taehyun pull you back as you send him a small wave, âthat weâll be seeing a lot more of each other I suppose.â â Before you can get another word out, your friend has pulled you down the hall in a most hurried manner; scurrying to get away from Beomgyu's piercing gaze as he leans against the wall with a small huff, eyeing you with a mixture of fury and intrigue.Â
âWhat the hell was that?â Taehyun grumbles as he drags you along, walking with determined strides. You merely roll your eyes as you let yourself be swayed down the long corridors. â âI should be asking you thatâ, you counter, still not over the fact that he had written an entire essay for the scumbag.Â
Not late to catch on, Taehyun bites the inside of his cheek as he fiddles with the glasses on his nose. âNothing you should worry aboutâ, he mutters, intent on disregarding any further questions. âNothing I should worry about? What are you, his slave?â â âDonât say it like thatâ, he groans and you frown, stopping completely as you break yourself free from his grasp.Â
With an exasperated sigh, Taehyun turns to you as he runs a hand through his short hair. âListen, it was a one time thing and..â â âThatâs how it always startsâ, you huff, rolling your eyes as you shake your head. âSoon heâll be asking you to write his exams for him as wellâ, you exclaim, throwing an accusing finger down the hall.Â
But Taehyun only shakes his head as he waves his hands in front of him in denial. âIâm just helping him out..!â â Your gaze narrows down on your friend, helping him out? Sure Taehyun was many things, friendly? â was not one of them. And to think that he was willingly helping one of the Choiâs with something so trivialâŚÂ
âDoes he have something on you?â You ask, watching as Taehyunâs eyes widened, âis that why youâre slaving away like this?â â âNo I..â He begins but quickly seals his lips in a tight grimace, âyou donât understand.â Like hell you didnât. Why on earth would anyone stoop to such a level. For over two years you had watched as the Choiâs ruled your school, and to say that you were sick of it would be an understatement.Â
Perhaps your hatred for the small trio was rooted deeper than your peers. Especially your hatred for Choi Beomgyu. â Because you hadnât always hated him, in fact, at one point, you think you mightâve even liked him.Â
â¸â¸Â
âHey, is this seat taken?âÂ
The voice is warm, kind and friendly. It makes you blink as you tear your gaze from the small pile of nail polish that had accumulated on your desk, your nervous habit of picking at the paint evident. â First day of freshman year, first day of college, that had been the day.Â
With a small nod, you motion toward the chair next to your own. He takes the seat, grinning from ear to ear as he studies you with curiosity. âNervous?â He wonders as he tilts his head to the side. âYeah..â Your quiet whisper is near inaudible but he still seems to pick up on it as his lips stretch further. âMe tooâ, he says and you canât help but frown, he didnât look nervous in the slightest as he comfortably leaned back in his chair, fiddling with the collar of his shirt leisurely.Â
He was way out of your league. â Yet he reaches a hand out, eyes darting from yours and down to your own intertwined fingers. His palm is soft and warm against yours, his grip unwavering as he shakes your hand. âIâm Beomgyu, Choi Beomgyuâ, he smiles, itâs a kind smile, and your heart flutters at the sight.Â
Choi Beomgyu. What a pretty name.Â
You spend your first week with him, it was nice to have someone you could call a friend. Someone who made you feel less alone, and Beomgyu did, the two of you were friends, you think.Â
You ate lunch togetherâŚÂ
âTofuâs the best when grilledâ, Beomgyu hums as he shoves a forkful in his mouth, barely swallowing as he loads yet another one. You giggled as your gaze returned to your own plate, a small smile tugging at the corner of your lips. The cafeteria was both crowded and loud, you had dreaded the days you would spend alone in here.Â
But as Beomgyu found a nice and secluded table for the two of you, even pulling your chair out with an over exaggerated bow to which you rolled your eyes, you felt hopeful. â Perhaps college wouldnât be so bad after all.Â
And you studied after schoolâŚ
âIf 9 is the value of âxâ then all we have to do is replace the variables with suchâ, you say as you scribble across his notebook. Beomgyuâs frown was nearly dented into his forehead, his bottom lip caught between his teeth in concentration. âBut how does nine become âxâ? Isnât nine a number and âxâ a letter?âHe wonders to which you shake your head.Â
âNot in this caseâ, you state before drawing a small âx = 9â. Scratching the back of his neck dumbfoundedly, Beomgyu gives a deflated sigh as he slumps against his chair. â âIâm never graduating.âÂ
You even saw one another outside of schoolâŚthough only once..Â
âI donât think Iâve ever been here..â You quietly mumble, eyes flitting across the expensive looking furniture. The restaurant was small but reeked of wealth, the meals here were surely out of your budget but Beomgyu had insisted on you joining him one friday evening. â âWhat?â He exclaims in bewilderment, âAre you kidding? This is the best place in town!âÂ
True to his word, he paid for your meal, not hearing you out on trying to pay him back in the near future. â âSpending time with you is more than enoughâ, he says as a matter-of-factly, arm wrapping around your shoulders as you walk down the empty streets.Â
Not to forget that one time heâd asked for your numberâŚÂ
âI mean itâs just⌠I think youâre cool and..â He clears his throat, sending you a sheepish smile before continuing. âJust yâknow, for staying in touch and things..â â The timidness of his request made your heart flutter as a grin spread across your lips.Â
âOf course Iâll give you my number, silly!âÂ
The relief immediately flooding his face was palpable as he sighs, eagerly fishing his phone up for you to put the digits in. He made sure to add a pink heart next to your name, promising to be at your every beck and call should you ever need him.Â
It was friendship, right?Â
Doing stuff together, noticing things about each other, like the cute little mole on his left cheek, accentuating his already endearing grin. Or his habit of pushing his hair from his face with the help of his pinky, carefully touching up the dark strands, almost absentmindedly.Â
You wondered if Beomgyu noticed things about you too. Did he see things you didnât, and did he like them? Did he like you? Perhaps you wouldâve gotten answers to all of those questions, had things turned out differently.Â
It was inevitable, of course, you were all enrolled in the same class after all, they were bound to bump into one another soon enough. But things changed when Beomgyu met Choi Yeonjun, changed for the worse. And it didnât take long for him to become someone completely different, someone unrecognizable.Â
Slowly he stopped showing up to your study sessions. More often heâd make excuses to not walk you to class. You began eating lunch alone, and before you knew it, Beomgyu was no longer part of your life. â Except he was, just as someone else. Someone cruel, someone who didn't care about what others felt, someone who only lived to make others suffer.Â
His new friends were no different, and together they earned themselves an infamous reputation as the schoolâs bullies. It hurt. Seeing them act so nonchalantly when toying with others, with people whoâd done nothing to upset them. â And as you catch him in the hallway one day, a much smaller student hoisted up by the collar of his shirt, Beomgyuâs grip unwavering as he spits insults in the youngerâs face.Â
It was then you grew to loathe Choi Beomgyu.Â
â¸â¸Â
Your finger hovers over the block button as you lay in bed that night. Back then, just as you applied to switch classes, as you tried to get as far away from him as possible, you had rid yourself of his number too. Part of you thinks you shouldâve deleted the old chats along with blocking him, but something held you back. It feltâŚoddly comforting, re-reading the old messages between the two of you, a glimmer of what youâd once had, of what heâd once been. How pathetic.Â
With a small groan you let your phone fall down onto the mattress next to you, shifting to lay on your side as you prepare to let sleep overtake you. He would have to bring it up, because there was no way in hell that you were unblocking and texting first. â âFucking piece of shitâ, you tiredly murmur, letting yourself fall into a very uncomfortable slumber, plagued by the thoughts of your upcoming weeks.Â
Beomgyu did not text you first. In fact he didnât text you at all. The whole weekend goes by, and not a single word. Taehyun on the other hand, had been paired up with some stuck up bitch, heâd told you her name, something on MâŚM, M, M⌠Ah yes, Mimi. Sheâd dated one of the Choiâs, until he left her for that shy nerd, served her right. â But even the two of them had already gotten together to get working on their presentation.Â
You had until Christmas break, but that was a mere three weeks away, and at this rate, youâd be lucky to get done by graduation. â Finally, your gloomy reality sets in, and you heave a loud sigh as you drag yourself down the hallway. History classes had become optional, and without your partner, there was little to be done. You spend the hour roaming the third and second floor, sneakers squeaking against the uneven tiles.Â
Upon passing that one peculiar little red door, your ears are met with the muffled sounds of what could only be someone getting their guts absolutely plowed. Your nose wrinkles in disgust, âroom 291â, you could only imagine how many girls had lost their virginity in there. â Shaking your head, your gaze returns forward, but instead of continuing your eternal journey down the long corridors, you freeze.Â
The object of your affection was standing right there. You thought heâd skipped. Anything to avoid the project at hand youâd supposed. But Beomgyuâs eyes meet yours, and though heâs all the way down the hall, you still catch the disgust lingering in them. His lip twitches, jaw clenching for a split second, and then heâs turned on his heel, marching down the hallway faster than you could blink.Â
You scramble to catch up, upping your pace to a light jog as you call for him. âHey asshole!â But he isnât listening, nor is he stopping. In factâŚWas he walking even faster? What a dick. âHey wait up!â Fuck, was he really going to make you chase after him? How immature. â Thankfully having made the girlâs football team in seventh grade seemed to have paid off, and you managed to reach him soon enough.Â
Fingers clasping around his forearm, you yank him backward, making him spin around on the spot as he collides with you. The crash makes you wince and you retreat, blinking to regain focus before turning your attention to him. Beomgyu was already watching you, his lips curled into a nasty scowl as his brows furrowed. âWhat?â He spits, his voice barely above a hiss.
Suddenly, you realize just how close the two of you were standing, chests nearly grazing one another, and the scent of his cologne invades your senses; it was the same one heâd worn for all of college, at least that hadnât changed. â You clear your throat, quickly scanning the empty hallway before you turn to him, plastering on the sternest of expression you could muster. âThe projectâ, you say, subtly straightening your back. Beomgyu raises a questioning brow as his hands dig into the pockets of his uniform.
You frown, and only when you add the word âhistoryâ does he seem to catch on. âOh yeah, that oneâ, his features relax, lips pulling into a small grin, âhowâs it coming along?â Your mouth opens and closes again. âExcuse me?â You huff, the anger in your words palpable. Still running with his act of obliviousness, Beomgyu shrugs, it was clear that he enjoyed the easy rise he was getting out of you. How you would practically explode over his mere existence. You think he liked making you like that, perhaps it made him feel in control.Â
Well he wasnât. Not anymore.Â
âItâs a group projectâ, you state, folding your arms across your chest, âthereâs no way Iâm doing this alone.â â Beomgyu looks almost as if he's considering your words, his lips pursed and head tilted to the side. âSo ask your little friend to tag along, Iâm sure heâd be more than happy toâ, he jeers, flashing you a nasty smirk. Was he talking about Taehyun? Your Taehyun. The same Taehyun that heâd made write his essay.Â
Your feet move on their own as you take a quick step forward, jabbing an accusing finger to his chest and Beomgyuâs face contorts into a small scowl at the action. âYouâre hilarious if you honestly think Iâd let you off the hook this easy, that Iâd just let you sit back and take credit for my hard work.â You move to shove him backward but his hand is already clasped around your wrist, restraining any movement.Â
âGet your fucking hands off of meâ, he spits, yanking you from his chest with a force that was near bruising. â âWhy? Scared that Iâll dirty your expensive attire with my grimy hands?â You retort as you gesture toward his clothes. Beomgyu sneers as he shakes his head, his long hair falling in front of his face before he pushes it back again. âYouâve already tarnished my reputation with that dirty mouth of yoursâ, he barks, eyes flickering with malice, âgot nothinâ better to do than spreading shit about me, do you?âÂ
He shifts on the spot, his gaze wandering down the hall briefly, as if checking for witnesses before his attention returns to you. âIâm not stupid, I know itâs you, and I know youâre behind this whole group project too.â â Woah there, way to get ahead of himself. You scoff, arms falling to your sides as you regard him with disbelief. âYou think I set this up on purpose? As if Iâd want to be anywhere near you-â
 âWell you sure act like itâ, he cuts you off, gesturing toward the two of you and the empty hallway you were currently occupying. âChasing after me like this, trying to get me alone, and the rumorsâ, his face flashes with something akin to contempt, a spark of his usually crude and mean demeanor simmering through his facade of hate. âI mean come on, itâs obvious.âÂ
Your jaw could practically sweep the floor at this rate and you almost wanted to laugh at the near comical situation. âWhatever it is youâre implying, I can assure you, youâre way offâ, you huff, quick to defend yourself. His fingers are still locked around your wrist, an almost tingling sensation spreading through your arm. Upon trying to tug yourself free from his grasp, Beomgyuâs hand only tightens around yours, dark eyes boring into your own as he scoffs: âCut the crap. Youâve been chasing after me for years.âÂ
The blunt accusation makes you pause, and for a moment every single comprehensive thought completely evaporates from your head. Chasing after him? No. Youâd been trying to make his life a living hell, so what if that included knowing his entire schedule and who he hung out with? It was all part of a much bigger picture, a picture his tiny brain failed to comprehend. â But then again, Beomgyu had always had an ego made out of steel. It wouldnât be the first time he would twist and turn a situation entirely in his favor.Â
âWhatâs it that loser friend of yours said? To let me go?â He chuckles, warm breath hitting your already flaring face. How did he know about that? Just how much had Taehyun told him when doing his essay? â Your usually sharp mind canât seem to conjure a single witty remark, and youâre left biting the inside of your cheek as you send him a bitter glare.Â
His hand lets go of your wrist, and Beomgyu takes a step back. âPerhaps you should listen to Mr. Class Pres, it might do you good.â With a final cruel smirk, he shoves past you, shoulder slamming against yours as he ventures down the hallway with his hands leisurely stuffed into his pockets.Â
You want to scream, throw something at him, possibly advocate for murder, but you do nothing, nothing but watch his retreating figure as he disappears down the corridor. Fucking asshole.Â
â¸â¸
That night left you in a flammable state. Anger gnawed at your very being as you paced the small space of your dormitory. Who was he to speak to you like that? And how would you ever make this project work? Talking to him was useless, a complete and utter waste of time. â Then it hits you. Like a small lightbulb being turned on over your head. Talking to him was pointless, you knew that. But what if you just didnât speak?Â
The cafeteria is as packed as it could get that following Tuesday, and you have to paddle through the large ocean of students, all eager to find an empty seat. You, on the other hand, couldnât care less for todayâs plain lunch menu, and instead of searching a clear table, your eyes scan for the most crowded one.Â
It doesnât take long for you to spot him. Surrounded by a heap of what you could only assume to be acquaintances, Beomgyu sits perched on a table in the center of the room. Conversation flows around him but his gaze is glued to his phone in his hand, mindlessly swiping across the screen in a bored manner. You wondered if he even knew the names of those surrounding him. You guessed not. Beomgyu had a.. unique way of making friends, if friends were even what they were. They looked more like tokens, perhaps he used them to appear less alone.Â
His attention suddenly shifts from the device in his hands and you follow its direction, eventually landing on a table not far from his. â Occupied sparsely by a mere three students, three students whom you easily recognized. Choi Yeonjun leans forward, his arm wrapped around a girl you recognized as his girlfriend. He looks to be in deep conversation with the third of their small party, Choi Soobin.Â
They used to be friends, Beomgyu and them. You remember it clearly. The harsh words, the glares, the distaste on their faces whenever they passed you by in the hallway. But something had obviously happened, a small rift in an otherwise unbreakable circle. And youâre not late to pick up on the way Beomgyu continues to glance their way, even when surrounded by at least a dozen others. You recognize the look in his eyes, the longing. It was the same way youâd been looking at him for the past two years.Â
Perhaps he had a weakness after all.Â
Your fist slams against the firm surface of his table, making everyone around you snap their heads in your direction. Their eyes boring into you suddenly made you waver, but you shake it off, turning your attention to your target, now only inches from yourself. â Beomgyu glances up from his phone, brows immediately furrowing as his lips part. Surely he had an insult waiting on his tongue, but you cut to the chase by shoving a small piece of paper in his free hand.Â
His confused gaze flickers down to the note as he begins unwrapping it, only to be stopped by your hand on his as you shake your head. You mouth the words ânot hereâ, and he scoffs, though shoving the paper in his pocket. â His token friends all burst out into âooooâs as they wiggle their eyebrows suggestively.Â
Beomgyu pays them little mind as he rolls his eyes, instead he watches your retreating figure as you push past the crowd in which you had emerged from. A subtle smirk playing on his lips as he mindlessly fiddles with the note in his pocket.Â
â¸â¸
You had no idea if your plan was even going to work. Would he show up? Or had he thrown the paper in the trash at the first opportunity he got? â Running a frustrated hand through your hair, you sigh, casting a quick glance at the time on your phone, 5:27 pm. He still had three minutes.Â
Gnawing on the inside of your cheek, you start to reconsider the choice of bringing him to your dorm room, was it really such a good idea? Though it was hardly like heâd show up anywhere in public with you. This was your best bet, you think..Â
The minutes tick by and your anxiety levels only rise, heart hammering in your chest as you pace the small space of your dormitory. By 5:47 you realized that he was a no-show. A weird mixture of disappointed relief floods you, itâs strange, you had expected the disappointment but why did you feel relieved? Did the idea of spending time alone with him scare you? No. That was impossible.Â
Flopping down onto your bed, you emit a small sigh, letting your eyes flutter closed as you replay todayâs scenario in your head. Scared? What a joke, Beomgyu didnât scare you, he was nothing but an immature, selfish, rude piece ofâ
Knock knock.Â
Your body jolts forward, flying off the bed like a deer in headlight as your head snaps in the direction of your door. He came? He actually came. You didnât know whether to cry or laugh as you gingerly got up. â As you head for the door, you stop by the small mirror by your clothes drawer to check your reflection. Quickly running a hand through your hair, your eyes scan for a lip balm. You catch yourself mid-act, almost cringing at the way you tried to appear presentable. What the fuck were you doing?
Swallowing the lump in your throat, you twist the handle as the door glides open, revealing no other than Choi Beomgyu on the other side. Heâs still wearing his school uniform, and his gaze quickly lands on the loose t-shirt and plain sweatpants youâre dressed in, a glimmer of distaste overshadowing his otherwise expressionless face. You ignore the silent insult as you clear your throat, âYouâre late.âÂ
Beomgyu scoffs, his eyes darting down the hall either side of him before pushing past you as he steps inside. âYouâre gonna nag me about that too?â He drawls, hands digging into his pockets as he saunters about, taking in the small space you resided in. You notice that he hasnât brought along any study materials, and you internally groan. âYes, I am. If this is going to work out then weâre going to have to work togetherâ, you state, folding your arms across your chest as if to prove your point.Â
Your partner merely hums as he fiddles with the papers scattered across your desk. âCute room youâve gotâ, he comments as he points to the entirety of your dorm. Your jaw slacks as you blink dumbfoundedly. Did he just give you a compliment? No, you catch the smugness in his voice, and the small glimpse of a smirk as he turns back to your desk. Asshole.Â
âIâm seriousâ, you huff, âthis project is important to me, we need to do well on it.â One thing you couldnât afford to screw up were your grades. Not that they were anything spectacular of the sort, in fact you were flunking French. But as long as you did well in a few of your best subjects⌠History being one of them.Â
Shoving the pen he was previously twirling between his fingers back into its container, Beomgyu turns to you with a sneer. âIf itâs so important then I reckon youâd do better by yourself, I might just slow you down.â He regards you with an apathetic expression, almost as if he was waiting for you to snap, to lash out on him and to yell. You suppose it must surprise him when you instead only shake your head, dragging yourself over to your bed as you flop down with a heavy thud.Â
âLetâs just get startedâ, you mutter, pulling your computer out as you power it on. Beomgyu cocks an eyebrow in your direction but doesnât say anything as he leans onto your desk, hands returning to their default position in his pockets. â âHow about one of us gathers information and the other one writes it down onto a powerpoint?â you suggest. He looks to be considering your words as he scratches his chin thoughtfully.Â
âFairs.â He shrugs as he pushes himself off the table and before you know it, the mattress dips next to you as he sits down. Your whole body tenses up, your eyes remaining glued to the computer screen in front of you as you avoid as much as peeking his way. You werenât scared of him. But a part of you felt so oddly on-edge whenever he was around, you couldnât quite place the feeling.Â
His body radiates warmth, a warmth that spreads over to your own, a bead of sweat accumulating on your forehead as you swallow. You werenât scared of him so why did your heart feel like it was going to beat out of your chest? â The smell of his expensive cologne, usually sickly strong as it tickles your nose, now only feels nostalgic as you breathe in. Heâs so close that your hands are on the verge of touching, his pinky inches from yours.Â
Beomgyu on the other hand seems unfazed as he peers over at your screen. âIâll do the research partâ, he states as he leans back against the headboard, âsounds less demanding.â You silently exhale in relief as he creates a safe radius of distance between the two of you, nodding as you hum in response.Â
The two of you work like that, side by side in silence for a good while. At first youâre so engrossed in your work, doing anything to distract yourself from the fact that Beomgyu was quite literally less than three inches away, on your bed, in your dorm. But as time goes by, you finally dare to tear your gaze from the screen in front of you, and sneak a small peek at him.Â
It felt almost surreal. Two years of being strangers in the halls, two years of constant insults, two years of hatred. Yet here he was, so close to you, just like he had been before everything changed, before he changed.Â
But now, the two of you were doing something so mundane together.Â
Your gaze lingers on him, even though it probably shouldnât. But you canât help the way your eyes trail across his seemingly relaxed expression. From the small, almost unnoticeable, furrow of his brows, the subtle pout of his bottom lip and the natural flush of his cheeks. Your attention strays by his dark eyes as they move along the words on his screen when reads. If you tried really hard, you mightâve been able to forget about everything that had happened, if only for a few minutes.Â
Maybe. Just maybe.Â
Suddenly, you want to reach out and touch him. To run your fingers through his long and unkempt hair, feel the skin of his hand in yours. And you almost do. Until you remember. â Things werenât like that anymore, they hadnât been for over two years. You almost recoil at the slip of your thoughts; for having allowed yourself to fantasize like that when reality was far from it. The Beomgyu before you wasnât the Beomgyu you knew back then. No. You didnât know this Beomgyu, and itâs with a bittersweet taste in your mouth that you accept said fact.Â
You think half an hour mightâve passed when you notice that somethingâs off. Thirty minutes of radio silence from his otherwise enthusiastic mouth. And as you peer over your shoulder, you find him leisurely swiping across his screen, eyes glued to something that looked far from the information he was supposed to gather. â âWhatâre you doing?â The question slips from your lips without you actually thinking it through. Beomgyuâs head turns in your direction and he watches you with an expression that said, âwhat the fuck does it look like Iâm doing?â
âI thought we agreed on working on the projectâ, you say as you point a finger toward your open laptop. Beomgyu merely shrugs, his eyes flitting back to the phone in his hand. âIâve done my partâ, he sighs and your brows knit together in confusion. A small tap of your finger leads you to the first slide of your powerpoint, in which heâd copied and pasted in what could only be pages worth of information.Â
Seemingly noting your flabbergast expression, Beomgyu huffs, âWhy, you canât expect me to seriously read all of that?â â âSo youâre saying we should just cheat our way through it?â The disbelief in your voice is palpable but he doesnât seem to pick up on it as he gives a nonchalant shrug of his shoulders. âItâs not cheating. The information is out there to be used, doesnât say how to use itâ, he states. You have to bite your tongue in order to not let your words slip as you stare back at the computer screen with a puzzled face.Â
He did have somewhat of a point. But youâd rather die than admit that. Besides, his ways would surely land you a âbarely passedâ at most. And you wouldnât have that. â Grumbling out a quiet, âwhateverâ, you turn back to the powerpoint as you begin sorting through the paragraphs pasted in there. You quickly become immersed in your work, and fail to notice how Beomgyu discards his phone on the bed as he glances around your room with curious eyes.Â
You swallow a groan as you re-read the same paragraph for a third time, seemingly unable to focus with him around. Perhaps he was right, perhaps you shouldâve just bit into the lemon and done this project on your own. â âFuck, you kept this?â Beomgyuâs almost taunting voice snaps you from the text you were so close to giving up on, and you turn to him with a confused frown.Â
Though your eyes quickly widened as they landed on the bracelet Beomgyu was holding between two fingers. Suddenly your heart is racing and your breaths are coming in short. The already thick air feels even heavier and you emit a shaky exhale. The brown leather, interlaced with streaks of blue, immediately sends your mind to places you hadnât allowed it to wander for nearly two years..
â¸â¸
âA friendship bracelet?â you question as you eye the small piece Beomgyu had just handed you. The fine leather felt expensive and you wondered just how much heâd spent on this. It was braided together with a thinner blue thread, the cold shade a stark contrast to the warm brown leather, and your thumb slowly traces its outline as you bring it to your face.Â
Beomgyu coughs into his hand, shaking his head as he rocks back and forth on the sole of his shoes. âWhen you put it like that it sounds childishâ, he mutters, the tip of his ears radiating a warm pink and you feel your lips tug into a grin at the sight. â âItâs more like..â He hesitates, biting the inside of his cheek as his gaze strays by the bracelet in your hands:Â
âLike a piece of me.âÂ
Your eyes widen when he suddenly takes a step forward, reaching for the accessory as he plucks it from your fingers. âSo that, in a way, Iâll always be with youâ, he says as he wraps the leather around your wrist. â Itâs impossible to refrain from smiling and your cheeks heat up as he carefully fastens the bracelet around your arm. â Then your curious eyes suddenly fall on the leather around his own wrist, a darker and cooler brown intertwined with a warm red.Â
A weird and tingly sensation spreads throughout your stomach as you swallow. And before Beomgyu can withdraw his hand again, do you stop him, fingers clasping around his wrists as you bring them together. â The blues and the reds, they remind you of the friendship necklaces you wore back in elementary school. Two halves of a heart, a childish but sweet promise to be what makes the other one whole.Â
Was it childish? Probably. But it was Beomgyu, and you found that you did not care for such matters when he was around. In fact, you think you might even like it. â No, you did like it. You liked everything Beomgyu did, you liked everything about him. And though you were too shy to even admit it to yourself, you probably liked him too.Â
âItâs okay right?âÂ
His sudden question snaps you from your train of thought and you blink as your gaze returns to his warm eyes. He looksâŚnervous? Youâd never seen him like that. Beomgyu was always so adamantly prideful, and you donât think youâd ever seen him waver. But you decide that you like this side of him too, the bashful and almost cute one.Â
âI love it.â And you do, you really do. You love it so much that you keep it even when he stops wearing his. Even when he no longer represented your other half. You keep it for two years, tucked inside the top drawer of your bedside table where it resides, waiting for the day where you might finally be able to look at it without bursting into tears.Â
â¸â¸
âWhere did you get that?â Your tone is harsh and snappy but it barely makes him flinch as Beomgyu leisurely twirls the bracelet between two fingers. â You reach for it, but youâre too slow, and can only helplessly watch as his whole fist envelops the leather. âI expected a lot from you, granted that youâre still running your mouth about me and allâ, Beomgyu drawls as he leans back against the pillows. âBut you even kept this piece of shit?â â âI mean come on, itâs pathetic.âÂ
His words stung. Pathetic? Did he really think of your time together as that? Did he think of you as that? Of course he did, you idiot, get that through your thick skull. You hate Beomgyu. One half-successful study session in the privacy of your dorm didnât change that and it never would.Â
He probably threw his out, it would make the most sense if he did. Perhaps you shouldâve too. You switched classes, blocked his number, and avoided him as best as you could in the halls. So why had you kept that? Why did you cling to something so insignificant? Why did it bring you comfort to feel the cool leather against your palm?Â
âJust give it backâ, you groan as you meekly try and pry his closed fist open. Beomgyu looks as if heâs going to put up a fight, say something nasty back, but he doesnât. Instead he lets you untangle the bracelet from his fingers, watching as you snatch it back before throwing it on your bedside table once more. â An uncomfortable silence falls over the two of you, weighing down like dark clouds on a previously sunny day. You wait for him to say something, but he never does. He only watches you with that nearly permanent half-smirk of his, brows tugged slightly upward as his eyes flicker across your flustered frame.Â
âI think weâve done enough for today.â The statement sounds monotone and gray as it falls from your lips. And even now, you expect a reply. Foolishly so, for Beomgyu merely shrugs, swinging his legs over the mattress as he gets up from your bed. â You donât dare look up as he rounds your bed, your gaze stays by your discarded laptop. The sounds of his footsteps suddenly vanish and you carefully crank your head in the direction of your door.Â
With one hand on the handle, Beomgyu looks back at you, his eyes glimmering with something you canât quite decipher. His lips twitch into a full smirk, and for a moment, you think he might spit another insult on you. He doesnât. â âSee you in class, yeah?â Is all he says before twisting the doorknob and vanishing down the hall.Â
And as the door slams shut behind him, youâre left in an unbearable silence. Carefully you reach for the bracelet, only to find it torn in half. Â
â¸â¸
Beomgyu shows up to class after that. It takes you by surprise, and apparently everyone else too as heads turn in his direction when he pulls out the chair next to you. And though his work effort is minimal, heâs still there. You hate the satisfied feeling that blooms in your chest at the accomplishment. And you hate the fact that a small part of you has started looking forward to history class. But you would never tell him that, you would never tell anyone that, not even TaehyunâŚÂ
âCome on, itâs just one tiny little essay!â You complain in a distraught tone, dramatically kicking at a few stones on the road in front of you. The small rocks clash together as they roll down the gravel pathway that takes you around campus. â Taehyun squints against the bright sun that shone despite the cold December air. He shakes his head, exhaling a small cloud of condensation. Â
âItâs less than fourteen days until Christmas breakâ, he argues as he shoves his hands deep into the pockets of the large coat he wore. âWell thatâs exactly why I need your help!â You whine, throwing your frozen hands in the air. â âWith everything going on, you know the history project and all, Iâm going to seriously flunk French at this point Tae..â You sigh, turning to him with the biggest eyes you could muster as you stick your bottom lip out into a pathetic pout.Â
âPlease Tae, isnât that what friends do?âÂ
Taehyun merely spares you a quick side glance before his focus returns ahead. âYou canât pull the âfriend cardâ whenever youâre falling behindâ, he huffs. Biting the inside of your cheek, you think of another way to persuade him. âBut if we study together? Then Iâm bound to learn!â You suddenly exclaim, causing Taehyun to flinch due to your unanticipated outburst.Â
âFine..â He begrudgingly agrees, though quickly groaning as you wrap your arms around him in a tight hug. âI knew I could count on you!â You cheer before carefully letting him go again. â Itâs when you pull back that you notice the figure by the benches a few paces away. You frown, gaze narrowing down on its hunched posture. It was odd for any student to be outside between classes during the cold and harsh winter months, let alone sit perched on one of the usual summer hangout spots.Â
âWhoâs that?â You question, your footsteps coming to an abrupt halt on the rough gravel. Taehyun groans as he turns to see where you might be looking, a small noise of disapproval passing his lips. âNo one important, letâs go back insideâ, he says as he pulls you along once more. â But in the bright light of the early afternoon-sun, the black hair atop the lonesome shadowâs head seemed awfully familiar.Â
âIs thatâŚBeomgyu?â Your inquiry is met by yet another groan from your friend. Taehyun tskâs as he shoots a sneer in the direction of the lonely figure. âWouldnât that be even more reason to go back inside?â â Despite his greatest efforts, you ignore him as you venture off the small path and over the grass. Taehyun calls out for you, conflicted as his gaze flits between you and the entrance not far away.Â
With a small roll of your eyes, you stop to wave him over. But Taehyun promptly shakes his head. âFine, then go on inside, Iâll be right with youâ, you say as you readjust the bag on your shoulder. He looks puzzled for a moment, lips pressed into a thin line as he regards you with a concerned frown. âWhat are you going to do?â He asks, albeit somewhat hesitant. You merely smile, and though it didnât quite reach your eyes, Taehyun chooses not to pry further when you say: âIâm just going to ask about the project.â â He gives a curt nod before disappearing down the graveled path, hands still stuffed deep in his pockets.
Your footsteps crunch against the frosty grass and they fill the crisp winter air. The closer you get the more certain you become. It was Beomgyu. Sitting on the wooden table, his feet rest on the accompanied bench. Heâs not wearing a jacket, only the blazer he had gotten personally tailored. If he was freezing, he didnât let on to it as he remained still, his eyes focused on the ground below him.Â
The real question was, why was he out here alone? Surely he should be spending the lunch break in the cafeteria with his friends, and not on a cold bench outside in the middle of the winter. â You stop in front of him, so close that your worn out shoes break the circuit of his limited vision. He knows that youâre there, you can tell by the subtle twitch of his jaw, and the way his fingers curl against one another as his hands mold together.Â
âHey.âÂ
You greet him. Itâs polite, and when you think about it, you canât recall ever uttering the word âhelloâ to him, not for the past two years at least. It takes him a moment to finally look up, and when he does you immediately notice how sunken his eyes are, the almost grayish color of his cheeks and the pink tint to his nose. â He looked like shit.Â
Part of you wants to say something about it, to finally jab back at him for all the crude comments heâd made about you. But you canât. And suddenly, you donât know what to say at all. Why had you even approached him in the first place? The two of you hadnât spoken in private since⌠Well since the bracelet incident. Thankfully he had yet to bring it up again, but you didnât know if you could trust him not to. It was already awkward between the two of you.Â
Had you just made things worse?Â
Beomgyu looks too tired to bite back himself as he lets his gaze leisurely drift across your frame. âWhat are you doing out here?â â Fuck, that wasnât the question you were supposed to ask. Fucking idiot. But you couldnât deny the curiosity that lingered around you. What was he doing out here?Â
âThatâs none of your business.â He spits, lips curling into a small scowl, but you can tell that itâs taking him a great deal of effort. And for some reason, you care. You hate that you do. Because you should feel anything but concern. You should be celebrating his downfall. This was what you had been waiting for. So why did it feel so bittersweet?Â
You think it must have something to do with the afternoon spent on your bed. Almost an hour of complete silence, no bickering, no insults thrown. You blame yourself for getting too caught up in the moment. For letting yourself view him in a different light. â You hate Choi Beomgyu. And he hates you. Thatâs how it was supposed to be.Â
When you donât reply, he lifts his head once more. His eyes are dark, lifeless. He frowns, and for a second he looks almost irritated. âWhy do you even care?â He grunts, a flicker of disgust tracing his features, as if the mere thought of sympathy from you was enough to have him gagging. It was nice. It felt familiar. It felt like the Beomgyu you knew.Â
âI donât.â You simply shrug, letting your bag fall from your shoulder as you heave yourself onto the bench next to him. He doesnât move, but you can feel his gaze on you as he studies you intently. â You donât dare look at him, instead you keep your eyes set forward. Despite the cold and chilly temperatures, snow had yet to fall. And the naked trees now only looked dystopian as you glance around the campus grounds.Â
âWhere are your friends?â You suddenly ask, the question coming out light, just like any other. You donât expect an answer, not from him. In fact youâd prepared yourself for him to get up and leave. But he doesnât. â Beomgyu is silent for a second, you hear him draw in a slow breath, holding it for a moment before letting go. âWhat friends?â He then says, and this time he actually sounds tired.Â
Your stomach twists in an uncomfortable way, a way that was nowhere near satisfying. âWhat about the ones from the cafeteri..â â âDonât be daftâ, he cuts you off, his voice gaining a sudden sting. âYouâre not stupid. Donât pretend that you are. Itâs unattractive.â He jeers, fingers twisting against one another, as if he was trying to crawl out of his own skin.Â
âIsnât that why youâre here?â He huffs, shuffling to the side as he creates a cold metaphorical wall of distance between the two of you. âTo poke fun at me? To shove it in my face?â He sounds almost distressed, and before you can reply, he turns to you. âYou think it hasnât been already?â â For the first time since you approached, heâs looking entirely at you. And when you return his wide gaze, it feels like youâre looking at a shell of who he used to be.Â
You tell yourself that itâs the cold air. That itâs the already depressing surroundings of the dying nature around you. But Beomgyu looks just as malnourished as the trees, as pale as the sky and as beat as the frozen grass you walk on. It was easy to take pity on him like that. It was almost like he was begging for it. Begging for someone to sympathize with him. You canât imagine that anyone ever did.Â
âThatâs not why Iâm hereâ, and your statement is true. You donât know why youâd come here, but you knew that it wasnât out of malice. Because even if you did hate Choi Beomgyu, you donât think you could ever say it to his face. â He didnât know that of course. Part of you wished he did. Beomgyu scoffs, his gaze returning to the frosty ground as he bites the inside of his cheek.
Youâre scared that you might pity him forever. That things might never change. That the two of you might just be stuck in an eternal loop of hatred and unspoken feelings. â You donât know what you want, but you know that it is not that. Perhaps this history project was the start you had been looking for. MaybeâŚÂ
âAre you free friday?âÂ
â¸â¸
Your study sessions became regular after that. Beomgyu appeared to have nothing better to do with his time, and to be frank, neither did you. And though you were far from friendly with one another, none of the insults lingered. You studied in silence, him by your desk and you on your bed, as far away from each other as you could get. It was quiet, so quiet that you sometimes forgot that he was even there, save for the occasional sigh or click of his tongue.Â
At first, he would bring his phone, checking it every other second, like he hoped for something, for someone, to be there. But after four days, he stopped. And your curiosity only grew.Â
Now a mere week remained until christmas break. You and Beomgyu had been studying together for the past six days, without fail. Your presentation was nearly completed, and part of you thinks this might be amongst your last sessions together, if not your very last. â It felt strange, almost melancholic. Would you miss him? Or would you miss the company? Taehyun was your friend, sure, at least that's what you called him. But as soon as the bell rang, as soon as class ended, it was only you again.Â
So was it really so wrong to look forward to a bit of company after school? Even if said company was a grumpy and quiet Beomgyu who did his best in ignoring you whilst he was there. Maybe. â Maybe it was the slight urgency of losing the temporary comfort these quiet hours had provided you that led to the act of stupidity you were about to perform next.Â
The sun had set hours ago, casting your room in a dim glow provided by the small lamps on your bedside table and desk. You and Beomgyu had been working quietly for the past while. Now that the information was gathered and all that remained was for you to edit the last paragraphs, he used his time to decorate the powerpoint, adding relevant pictures and messing with the fonts. It wasnât hard work, but the fact that he did something, made your stomach flutter in an unfamiliar way.Â
âAre you busy next week?â You wanted to ask him if he would like to practice the presentation together. But Beomgyu kills your last glimmer of hope with a small huff, âYeah.â He doesnât turn to look at you, his eyes steadily fixed on the computer screen in front of him despite the fact that he was now only aimlessly flipping through the slides.Â
Biting the inside of your cheek, you refrain from asking if he was busy all week. You would most likely only receive a half-hearted âyesâ anyway. Instead your gaze flickers down to your keyboard, your nails quietly tapping against the keys as you think of something to say. Every second spent in his presence only seemed to pull even more questions from your already curious mind. There was so much you wanted to ask him about, even though you knew it wasnât your place.Â
Just let him go.Â
You can hear Taehyunâs voice in the back of your head, pleading for you to not pry, to keep your eyes down and mind your business. It wasnât that easy. He didnât understand. He didn't know. He didnât know Beomgyu like you did, like you thought you did.Â
âAre you sure you donât have time to come by and practice?â You canât stop yourself, the question slips out anyway, and you watch as Beomgyuâs shoulders tense before relaxing again. âI told you Iâm busyâ, he repeats in the same monotone and tired voice heâd been using for the past week. â âRightâŚâ You hold your tongue, fingers brushing over the keys on your keyboard, hovering above the space button. Your lips part, then they close, and then they part again.Â
âAre you meeting Yeonjun?âÂ
You shouldnât have asked that, you know it. Yet you did. Perhaps you wanted a reaction from him, perhaps you wanted to hear him raise his voice for the first time in over a week, perhaps you wanted him to get angry, to insult you, because it was the Beomgyu you knew.Â
His shoulders go rigid this time, and though you canât see his expression, you can still catch the twitch of his jaw. Heâs stopped swiping through the presentation slides, now stuck on the first one as he gazes ahead. For a minute, everythingâs quiet, you think he might not say anything at all. But when he speaks up, he doesnât raise his voice, instead he lowers it, until itâs nothing but a low drawl of his tongue.Â
âYou think this is funny?â The cold words send a shiver down your spine, and even though he isnât looking at you, you felt as if you were being judged under a microscope. âI⌠Iâm sorry..?â You squeak, your voice nearly inaudible but Beomgyu catches it. â He chuckles, pushing his chair back as he turns to you.Â
The fiery brown in his eyes is long gone, replaced with an ashy looking color, like he was drained of all life. His lips, usually pulled into either a scowl or a menacing smirk, remain just as unreadable as the rest of his face. â âDo you enjoy this?â He asks, but it hardly sounds like a question.Â
You gulp, fingers pressing so hard against the keyboard that you have managed to insert a whole paragraph of nonsense onto the powerpoint. Quietly shaking your head, you think of a way to salvage the toes youâd accidentally stepped on. âNo I, Iâm sorryâŚâ You swallow once more, âI justâŚI donât know what happened between youâŚI..âÂ
Beomgyuâs loud scoff cuts you off, and you watch as he gets up from the chair, kicking it back against the desk. With two long strides he reaches you by the edge of the bed. Though he was barely an inch or two taller than yourself, he somehow managed to appear menacing as he loomed over you. âHas it ever crossed your mind that it might not be any of your fucking business?â He says, his tone remaining indifferent as he glares down at you with those empty and dying eyes.Â
You bite your tongue, refraining from intervening and saying that practically everyone at school knew it. Though you were sure he already knew that too. â Beomgyu huffs out a sharp exhale, shaking his head. âEvery single fucking dayâ, he mutters, his eyes narrowing as they linger by your slightly sheepish expression. âEvery day, people like you, stick their nose where it doesnât belong.âÂ
The way he spoke, grouping you together with the other students, it shouldnât have made your chest churn the way it did. âPeople like me?â You repeat the words, tasting them on your tongue, and finding that you donât like them. Beomgyu, on the other hand, merely sends you a small look of distaste, the only emotion that had managed to pass his features in a whole week.Â
âWhat? You think youâre something else?â He jeers, frowning when you get up from the bed, straightening your back as you come face to face with him. â âI know I amâ, you say, forcing your voice to remain steady. You knew that you werenât the only one whoâs thoughts lingered in the past. You knew that he must still think of the two of you from time to time, even if only for a brief moment.Â
Beomgyu finally seems to catch on, his brows rising on his forehead when he does. He looks like heâs about to burst into laughter, you think that he might. âOh thatâs rightâ, he muses, âYou think youâre special because I was nice to you back then, because I took pity on you.â He pushes a strand of dark hair from his face with the help of his pinky, âBet it was the first time something like that happened.âÂ
You didnât want to admit that he was right, that it had been the first time someone had ever gone out of their way for you. That it had been the first time someone had ever gifted you something, apart from your own family, that it was the first time someone willingly sat with you during lunch. But your mind gets caught on that one word heâd used. Pity.Â
Was that all it was to him? A game of play-pretend, a chance for him to play hero? You shake your head, it couldnât be, it wasnât. â For two years, you had blamed Choi Yeonjun. You had blamed him for taking Beomgyu away from you, for turning him into someone you couldnât recognize, for ruining your only chance at an actual friendship, perhaps even something else.Â
It was easy to blame Yeonjun, you didn't like him, you never had. But you could never bring yourself to actually blame Beomgyu himself, because that would mean he was a bad person, and you didnât want him to be. You wanted him to remain the perfect version you had created in your head, the version you thought you liked. It became clear now, that he wasnât.Â
âYouâre a liar.âÂ
You state, fingers twitching by your sides as you resist the urge to wrap your arms around yourself. Beomgyuâs expression morphs into one of confusion, then he scoffs. âA liar?â He asks, his voice hollow: âDo you hear yourself talk? You sound fucking crazy.â â âIf you think for a second that what we have is different from any other piece of shit person in this school, youâre wrong.â He spits, eyes flaring up for the first time in so long, a small fire igniting within them.Â
He continues to list reasons, reasons to hate you, reasons to hate him, reasons to hate everything. You weren't listening. All you see is his eyes, burning with rage, with life.Â
Itâs unexplainable, the feeling that surged in your chest, that pounds against your ribcage and pulls on your lungs as it sucks the air from them. And you donât know why you took a step forward, why you let your hands brush against his, why you didnât stop when you saw the bewilderment on his face. You donât know why you leaned in closer, when you should be pulling back. â And you donât know why you couldnât look away, why you couldnât tear your gaze from the flames dancing across his eyes.Â
You donât know why you kissed him.Â
But you did.Â
And now it was too late to ever go back. â Though you're not sure you want to.Â
His lips feel soft against yours, not that you had ever stopped to think about how it would ever feel. Yet this somehow seemed right. You donât open your eyes to look at him, you donât think you could bear that. Still, youâre surprised when he doesnât immediately jerk backward, when he doesnât push you away. â Beomgyu hesitates. You think itâs the first time youâve ever seen him do. Â
The moment lasts forever, and somehow it seems to have vanished within the blink of an eye. The bed squeaks when you crash against the mattress, you can still feel the flat of his palms on your shoulders as the force heâd used to shove you away from him lingered.Â
When you peer up at him, you find him already watching you. The flames in his eyes seemed to burn even brighter now. His jaw clenches, fingers curling into fists by his sides as he struggles to keep his composure. â Your lips part, but no words come out. What was there to say? Sorry? But you werenât. I hate you? But you didnât.Â
Beomgyu speaks before you get the chance to, his nostrils flaring as he takes a deep breath. âYouâre fucking insane.â Itâs all he says, not waiting for a response as he turns back to your desk. He shoves his laptop in his bag with such force that you thought its seams might break.
Then he heads for the door, reaching it in four long strides. He doesnât turn to look at you, not like he had that day. He rips it open, ignoring the squeaking sound it made when he slammed it shut behind him.Â
The silence that follows echoes through your small dorm. And you remain on your bed, motionless, staring ahead as your fingers reach up to touch your lips. â Still burning with the fire heâd igninited.Â
â¸â¸
That night was a quiet one, your dorm room basked in the eerie glow of the moon. Nothing but the soft sounds of your hushed sobs filling the confined space. Your pillow is wet, stained with your tears as you cry into the cotton. It was pathetic, really. In fact, you didnât even know why you were crying. â But as soon as the door had slammed shut, and you had been left alone with nothing but your lingering thoughts, everything had become too much to bear.Â
The events of the past few weeks finally catching up to you, breaking the dam of pent of tears youâd been so carefully keeping at bay. It felt as if it would never stop. You didnât know whether you felt humiliated, rejected or just straight up insulted. Part of you just felt stupid. What the fuck were you even thinking? Kissing him like that. The image itself makes you grimace, and with a heavy sigh you pull yourself into a sitting position.Â
After fumbling in the dark for a few moments, your fingers manage to grasp your phone. The bright light of its screen blinds you, and you squint as you scroll through your ridiculously short contact list. â The line rings for almost a whole minute, all the while you anxiously bite on your short nails, chopping the last bits of green polish from your nail beds. And when he finally picks up, itâs silent, save for the deep breaths he emits as he waits for you to speak.
âTaehyun?âÂ
Your voice comes out a lot more hoarse and strained than you had anticipated, causing you to immediately clear your throat. Taehyun groans, and you hear him shift slightly as he mutters something incoherent. âDo you know what time it is?â He finally asks in a groggy, sleep-laced tone. A spark of guilt blooms in your chest, and you throw a quick glance toward the time on your phone, showing that it was well past midnight.Â
âIâm sorryâŚI justâ, you bite your lip, hesitating for a moment. It wasnât like you didnât trust Taehyun, it was just different. You and Taehyun were different. Part of you thinks he wonât understand, that he might judge you, no you know he will. Still, he was the only one you could turn to. â âTaehyun, I think I messed up.âÂ
He doesnât answer right away, but you know heâs still there. You sit in silence for a while, just listening to his breaths, and for a moment you wonder if heâs fallen back asleep. But then he speaks, this time he sounds more awake. â âHow bad?â He asks, and somewhere in the background, you think you can make out a light being flicked on.Â
âReally bad..âÂ
â¸â¸
You had never been to Taehyunâs house before. Two years of so called friendship and you would think that youâd progressed further. But as you heave the last step leading up from the subway, you stop in order to relocate yourself. The neighbourhood looked average, yet inviting. Its quaint little houses, lined up along the dimly lit street, all reflected one another.Â
Number 14, that was the one you were looking for. Your worn out sneakers hit the asphalt with heavy thuds, and a small cloud forms when you exhale out into the cold December air. With your fingers stuffed deep in the pockets of your duvet jacket, you make a slight turn, coming face to face with house number 14.Â
It looked just like the rest, a small mailbox by the fence gate, its white paint chipped in places. You push it open, stepping up the small graveled path taking you to the doorsteps. Taehyun told you not to ring the bell, but to quietly knock. He didnât live alone, you knew that much. â He shared the small flat with one of the juniors, you think his name might be Kai.Â
You knock once, proceeding to wrap your arms around yourself as you wait anxiously for him to open. It takes him a mere thirty seconds, and when the door swings aside, you're met with the still sleep-laced figure of Kang Taehyun. â Heâs dressed in nothing but a pair of checkered sweatpants and a black t-shirt, the glasses he always wore nowhere to be seen. He looked far different like this, it takes you a moment to even recognize him.Â
Your silence mustâve been unusual, because he soon cocks an eyebrow, stepping aside as he motions for you to get in. Â
Taehyunâs place looks nothing like youâd imagined it. It was far messier. With clothes hanging off the kitchen chairs, lecture material spread over the round table and piles of books crowding the already small countertop. Still, he doesn't seem to mind the slight chaos as he reaches up to fetch two glasses from the cabinet, not saying anything as he fills them both with water from the tap.Â
This eternal silence covers you both like a thick blanket, enveloping you in a false sense of ignorance, like the fact that you were currently in his kitchen, at 3am no less, was completely normal. â Taehyun remains quiet as he walks past you and into the joint living room, you trail behind him, eyes lingering on the discarded guitar that rested against the wall.Â
The large green sofa takes up a good third of the room, and Taehyun sets your glasses down on the wooden coffee table in front of it as you take a seat. â âDo you play?â Itâs the first thing that comes to mind, not a âHello, sorry for bothering you so late at night and barging into your home.â But you canât help yourself, somewhere in the back of your mind, you hear Beomgyu, clearly remembering the day heâd told you about his love for music, no less the guitar.Â
But Taehyun merely shrugs, and when he speaks, his voice is groggy. âKai does.â The statement doesnât leave room for further questions, and you thought it was probably wise to not bother him with more small talk.Â
Reaching for the glass, your fingers wrap around its cold surface as you bring it to your lips. You sip slowly, prolonging the inevitable confession you were to make. And as the refreshing water slides down your incredibly dry throat, you sneak a glance in his direction. It felt odd, seeing Taehyun outside of school like this.Â
Your gaze lingers on his bare arms, something his uniform never allowed even as much as a glimpse of. He leans against the soft cushion of the couch, mindlessly fiddling with a small string which you had no idea where heâd gotten it from. â It mightâve been the late hour, or the change of scenery, hell it mightâve even been the fact that youâd probably made the biggest mistake of your life not even eight hours ago. But had Taehyun always looked this⌠Good wasnât the right word⌠At least you didnât think it was.Â
You suppose he looked⌠Ordinary. He looked far more relaxed than he ever did at campus, in class or in the cafeteria. This Taehyun resembles little of your class president, right now he just looks like, well him.Â
âWhy are you here?â His sudden question snaps you from your trance and your eyes immediately snap toward the water in your glass, the clear liquid swirling around slowly. Why were you here? Because you were alone, because you were scared, because you didnât have anyone else to turn to. â âI⌠I messed upâ, your deflated sigh rings out in the living room.Â
Taehyun continues to fiddle with the small string, twisting it around his thumb. âThe presentation?â He asks, but you can tell that was not what heâd actually meant. Still, you nod. âWell that one too, thatâs for sure..â You didnât even want to think about having to face him next Tuesday, much less going through with that presentation together, in front of everyone.Â
âItâs about him, isnât it?âÂ
The question was hardly needed, and you mumble out a quiet âyesâ as you set your glass down. Taehyun hums, his eyes trained to his hand. You wait for him to say something, but he doesnât. Biting the inside of your cheek, you inhaled slowly. It was better to get it out right away, wasnât it? Besides, there was no way you could sugarcoat it, no way for you to lie yourself out of this. You wanted to be honest with Taehyun, because it was easier to be honest with him than with yourself.Â
âI kissed him.âÂ
There. You said it. So why didnât the lump in your throat ease? Why did your chest still feel tight and your palms sweaty? Why couldnât it all just go away, you did what you were supposed to, you confessed. Was that not enough? â Taehyun doesnât look surprised. In fact he looks almost amused. As if he was betting with himself, ultimately ending up winning as you said what heâd already expected you to.Â
âI think he hates me even more now. No - I know he does.â You canât stop the words from flowing, all your pent up emotions rolling off your tongue in one swift motion. âI donât think heâs ever going to talk to me again. And Iâll probably have to do the presentation alone. But I donât reckon heâll tell anybody, Iâm sure heâs embarrassed about being associated with me. Fucking entitled asshole.â The last part comes out with slight distaste.Â
âDonât you agree?â You turn to Taehyun whoâs been listening quietly. Finally, he glances up from the string heâs fiddling with. He sighs, âI think you shouldâve stayed away from him just like I told you to.â â His words made your chest tighten even further, but they were not surprising. You knew what his response would be, you had known before you even picked up the phone to call him. Still, you did it. Because even if he told you what youâd already heard so many times before, it was something, and something was better than nothing.Â
âWhy did you do it?â You quietly ask him, your question coming out nearly inaudible. âHm?â His dark eyes, the ones you used to watch behind the thick lens of his glasses, shift over to you. â âWhy did you write his essay?â Your sudden change makes him pause, his fingers stilling around the thin thread heâd been twirling for the past minutes. Taehyun looks at you, but you can tell heâs not actually looking at you.Â
âWhat do you mean?â It takes him almost a whole minute to reply. That had never happened before. Holding your tongue, you consider your next words carefully. Youâd been wanting to ask him about that day in the hallway for so long now, it had been pestering you for weeks, like an itch you couldnât quite scratch. Because if it was one thing you couldnât understand, it was why someone like Taehyun, would do something like that, for someone like Beomgyu.Â
âDoes he have something on you? Is he bullying you?âÂ
Taehyun shakes his head, his jaw clenching as he discards the thread between his fingers. âNoâ, he finally states, his voice firm. He was lying. He had to be, right? â âThen why?â You knew you were pushing far, too far, but you wanted, no, needed answers. But he only averts his gaze, his attention fixed on something far ahead. You try to follow his line of sight, your own eyes landing on the crowded bookshelves.Â
Books. Your lip twitches at the sight of pages worth of study material. But as you survey the shelves closely, you find that theyâre neatly organised, unlike the chaos that spread through the rest of the house. From different subjects, all neatly categorized, yet one book remained alone, separated from the rest. You didnât recognize its cover.Â
âLatin.âÂ
Taehyunâs thoughts seem to align perfectly with yours as he, too, eyes the lonesome book. âI didnât know you took latin..â You murmur, still not tearing your gaze from the shelf. Beside you, Taehyun hums before going silent once more. That silence lingers for another thick and heavy minute. The darkness of his living room closing in on you, the sounds of your quiet breaths remaining the only signs of life.Â
âHardly anyone picks latinâ, he then adds, nodding toward the book on the very edge of the shelf. You nod, even though you donât exactly understand where heâs going with this. Taehyun sighs, and he sounds tired, âPicked it âcause I felt bad.â â âThe professor would hardly have a class to teach this semester if it wasnât for me.âÂ
You frown, shifting back to him as your lips part in an unspoken question. But Taehyun doesnât need to look at you to know what goes on inside your head. â He shrugs, âYou asked me why.âÂ
The silence that follows his last words did not feel as heavy as the others. It merely feltâŚconfusing. Your gaze drops to your hands, placed neatly on your lap. Exhaling through your nose, you begin picking away at your already chipped nail polish, watching as the red flakes fell to your knees. Latin⌠He picked it out of pity? Not because he enjoyed it but because he felt bad?Â
But what did Latin have to do withâŚÂ
âDid you want to do it?â Taehyun suddenly asks, and it felt weird, because he hardly asked questions about you, and especially not about Beomgyu. â The lump in your throat bounces back twice as big this time, and your fingers still. âYes.â If there was one thing you were sure of, it was that. You wanted to kiss Choi Beomgyu, and you had.
âI donâtâŚâ You begin but quickly trail off. Taehyun is patient. He waits for you to continue, he waits for two whole minutes, until finally, you say: âI donât regret it.â â âAnd I wish I could tell him that.âÂ
Taehyun shifts on the green cushion, turning so that heâs now facing you. His gaze isnât the narrowed and sharp one youâd grown so accustomed to. This oneâs gentle, almost soft. â âSo why havenât you?âÂ
â¸â¸
âWhat the fuck is your problem?âÂ
The voice is sharp, and you think you might recognize it. It makes you halt, stopping just as you were about to round the corner taking you to the dormitories. With your back now pressed against the cool wall, you freeze, listening to the conversation taking place. You had mindlessly been returning to the place you called home after a long day of classes, when suddenly two arguing voices caught your attention.Â
âMy problem?â, Beomgyu spits, his tone harsh and defensive, âFucking hell man, have you even seen yourself lately?âÂ
The other voice, which you now recognize as Yeonjun's, cuts back with an equal bite. âOh come on, just admit that you have something against her. â Itâs not like youâve ever tried to hide it.â
Beomgyu remains quiet, the air feeling dense and heavy with unspoken feelings. âI donât have anything against her.â He pauses and you wonder what his face might look like right now, furious, deflated? He exhales, âItâs you, okay? Youâre the issue here.âÂ
You could almost hear the surprise as it radiated off of Yeonjun, and you manage to get a glimpse of one of his arms as he shifts on the spot. âThe fuck is that supposed to mean?â He sounds confused, agitated almost.Â
âIt means..â Beomgyu begins, though quickly cutting himself short as he inhales. âIt means youâve changed, alright. â And I donât know what the fuck is going on with you but you..â He trails off, the frustration at not being able to say what he wants, what he feels, is palpable and you shift uncomfortably against the wall as you hold your breath.Â
Yeonjun scoffs, it sounds almost like laughter. âOh, so I get a girlfriend and suddenly canât hang anymore?â â âYes.â Beomgyu immediately responds. âYou and that fucking good for nothing ner-âÂ
Thud.Â
It sounds almost as if one of them had shoved the other against the wall and your eyes widened as you resist the urge to take just a single step forward, to round the corner and see for yourself. â Yeonjun is the first to speak. âYou fucking watch your mouth!â He snarls and you can make out Beomgyuâs low groan as he splutters against what you presumed to be Yeonjunâs chokehold on him.
âOr what?â He counters in a strained voice, the teasing edge evident, the one he used to mask how hurt he was.
The sound of Yeonjunâs fist connecting with what could only be Beomgyuâs face echoes through the otherwise empty hallway and your heart drops to your stomach. But Beomgyu merely chuckles. âShe ruined everythingâ, he grumbles, merely adding fuel to the fire.Â
âShut your mouth.âÂ
Beomgyu snickers, and Yeonjunâs frustration bounces off the walls. Youâd heard enough, and you certainly werenât going to risk staying and ending up in the middle of it. So you turn around, and just as quickly as you had come, you retreat again.Â
â¸â¸Â
You nervously pace your room, mumbling the words to yourself over and over, trying your hardest to memorize them. It had dawned on you that you would be doing this alone, and now what remained was to learn everything. But no matter how many times you circled your bed, you always found yourself off track, needing to double check your laptop over and over.Â
You were slowly becoming desperate. Nothing seemed to work in your favor. â You curse yourself for letting your feelings get the better of you. For being naive, for thinking that he actually felt something, anything for you. Had you just restrained yourself, had you just held back⌠You wouldnât be in this situation right now.Â
Anxiously gnawing on your nails, your teeth scrape their beds as you re-read the paragraphs written on the powerpoint for the fifthteenth time. The sentences had started to blur, the words merging with one another slowly. â You shake your head, willing yourself to stay focused, to not let your emotions get the better of you, again.Â
But then there it is. A loud, almost frantic, knock at your door. â Knock! Knock!Â
Your head jerks in its direction, the presentation long forgotten about as your eyes narrow on the dark oak. You throw a glance at the time, 8:29 pm, what could anyone possibly want you at this hour? â But the knocking persists.Â
Knock! Knock! Knock!Â
Itâs loud, flaring like thunder through your dormitory and it makes you jump. Naturally, you do the only thing that comes to mind; you approach, with both curious and wary steps. Your hesitant hand reaches for the handle, the other one twisting the lock as you pull the door open. â The sight that greets you on the other side is nothing you couldâve ever imagined.Â
Beomgyu looks even worse than he had a week ago. The bags under his eyes were a permanent look now, dark and sunken in. His long hair falls in uneven sections down the sides of his face, a few strands sticking to his forehead, covered in a sheen layer of sweat. Even his expensive uniform was messed up, tie hanging loosely around his neck and his white shirt torn by the seams.Â
You can only make out half his face, the rest shielded by his unkempt and dark hair. But what stood out was the large and angry bruise covering his cheek. Its blue and purple hues were a stark contrast to his honey-like skin. You knew where heâd gotten that. His breaths come out ragged, shallow, like heâd ran here. Perhaps he had. Your lips part, but before you can get the question out, heâs barging inside, slamming the door shut behind him. â âBeomgyu what..â Your words fall short as he pushes his hair from his face, revealing his dark eyes to you.Â
They were burning with the same fire they had been that night, the night you kissed him. The flames dance across his bottomless irises. You think that if you got too close, youâd end up burning yourself. Another part of you thinks itâs too late to take cover. That you had already walked inside and sealed the door shut behind you, and now you would burn with him.Â
He takes a step forward, the fire drawing in closer and you squint against its flames. His chest heaves, it clouds your narrowed vision as he backs you up against the nearest wall. Something had happened, something had made him like this, because this was not the Beomgyu you knew. The Beomgyu you knew would be repulsed to even as much as near you, to even breathe the same circuit of air as you.Â
He is not the Beomgyu you know. Because the Beomgyu you know would never kiss you.Â
But this one does, and itâs without hesitating that his hands reach for your face, cupping both cheeks in his blazing hot palms as he brings your face to his. â Your eyes widen, alarm bells going off in your mind, screaming for you to push him back, to demand answers from him. So why donât you? Why do you let him kiss you, why do you let him toy with you like this?Â
Beomgyu did not like you. He hated you. That was a fact. Not because heâd said so himself, or because he treated you like he did. But because it was the reality you had been feeding yourself for so long. It put you at ease, knowing that he hated you, because if he did, then he at least felt something for you. You werenât just another face in the halls, your time together wasnât just a figment of his or your imagination, it had been real. The two of you were real, and the resentment and hate was a confirmation of just that.Â
So when his lips press against yours, warm and wet, his tongue slips inside your mouth without waiting to hear your startled yelp.. The reality you had built for yourself suddenly starts to crumble. Everything was wrong, this was not how it was supposed to be. â You had allowed yourself a slip up last week, a moment of weakness. You had kissed him. For a brief, short and awfully painful moment you had let your own desires consume you. And you had paid the price.Â
This time Beomgyu was acting on his desires, not yours. And that scared you.Â
His chest is flush against yours, his grip on your face unwavering as he forces your lips to meet in a searing kiss. You donât understand. You thought you had him all figured out, this wasnât supposed to happen, why is he⌠â âBeomgyu, stop!â Your nails dig into his shoulders, tearing him off of you with all your might. He separates from you, if only an inch, the kiss coming to an abrupt stop as youâre left panting.Â
His lips are coated in saliva, a small string connecting the two of you before it breaks just a second later. You barely recognize him. âWhatâs going on?â The question is accusing, your voice laced with confusion and anger.Â
Beomgyu remains silent, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand as he exhales a final heavy breath. His jaw clenches when he swallows, and his dark eyes flicker down to your lips once more. â âShut up.â Itâs all he says, but thereâs no malice in the way he does. It sounds almost like a plea. And the fire within his eyes seems to burn even brighter as his gaze meets yours. âPlease just shut up.âÂ
You did not want to shut up. You wanted to ask what the fuck he thought he was doing. You wanted to show him just how it felt when he rejected you just days prior. You wanted to tell him that he was âfucking insaneâ and slam the door shut in his own face. â You did none of that.Â
The next kiss is initiated by you, not him. Itâs soft, and it reminds you of the one youâd given him last week. Slow, hesitant, but tender. And Beomgyuâs hands reluctantly drop from your face, gently sliding down your arms and sides before settling on your waist. â You had known for a long time now that you felt empathy for him. That you pitied him. Perhaps it was why you let him use you.Â
Tomorrow he would not speak of this. He would act as if it never happened, he would bury it as deep as he could. He might think that this is his only solution today, that this will be his solace for whatever mightâve set him off. But it isnât, and when this night morphs into dawn, he will realize that. â You donât want him to.Â
You should tell him to stop right now. Heâll only end up hurting you, not that he cares, he never had. But you, you should care. So why donât you?Â
Your fingers tug his already loose tie off, letting it slip from his neck before you work on his shirt, hastily unbuttoning it. Beomgyu follows in your tracks, letting you shrug the torn garment from his shoulders before he reaches for the pajama pants you wore. â You stop him, your hand on his wrist. âOn the bed, pleaseâ, you whisper against his lips.Â
His nod is barely noticeable before he hoists you into his arms. The sudden action startles you and you cling to him in shock as he gently places you down onto the mattress. He just about bothers to shove your laptop to the floor, muttering something incoherent about being able to get you a new one if it broke. You canât find it in you to care, not when he climbs on top of you, the bed squeaking beneath his weight as he does.Â
You feel warm, fuzzy, intoxicated even. Bleary eyes finding his as he hurriedly presses his lips against yours again. It was almost as if he was trying to drown out whatever thoughts plagued his mind as his hands grabbed at whatever part of you he could access. â His fingers hook around the waistline of your pajama pants, attempting to tug them off once more, and this time he succeeds.Â
The air of your dormitory is cool against your naked skin, causing goosebumps to flare across it as Beomgyu slides your clothes down your body. He was moving fast, almost too fast. For some reason you let him, even though you know you probably shouldnât. He was being selfish right now, wasnât he? Using you like this, only to quiet his own worries, to soothe his own pain. He didnât care for your feelings and he never would, not even now as his hands hover above your panties, fingers tracing their lining with eagerness.Â
Or perhaps you were the selfish one? He clearly wasnât thinking straight. The Beomgyu you knew would never stoop to this level, he would never go for someone like you, and you would never allow it.. Right? â Were you selfish for using him in this state, for egging him on even when you knew that the two of you were to regret this in the morning?Â
Maybe.Â
You donât care.Â
His fingers slide beneath the fabric of your pantines, running between your folds, circling your clit once as he pulls a shaky gasp from you. Your hands are still gripping his shoulders, nails digging into the skin there, leaving crescent like shapes in their wake. â He doesnât wait, doesnât drag the process out. You can tell that his mind is set on one thing. Thatâs okay, so were yours. Right?Â
You cry out when he pushes two fingers inside of your aching cunt, curling them meticulously as his lips trail down your jaw. Your hips arch off the bed, meeting his movements as you wordlessly beg for more. â âBeomgyu, we⌠we should..â You didnât even know what you wanted to say, the feelings swirling within your chest were difficult to convey.Â
But he wonât have a word of it. âShut upâ, he grunts, the palm of his free hand pressing against your pelvis as he shoves you back against the mattress. Heâs rough, surprisingly so. Youâd always taken him for a little bitch. But his strength startles you, as well as sending a shot of heat through your stomach, making you clench around his fingers.Â
If he notices it, he doesnât bother to comment, which is unusual for him. Something bad mustâve happened, thatâs all you can think. Something so bad had happened that his only resolve was you. The thought of him using you to get over whatever had hurt, it should upset you. It should make you feel small and insignificant, but it never did.Â
Beomgyu tugs your panties down, throwing them over his shoulder as he parts your already spread legs. â Your hands glide over the apex of his shoulders, and you blink up at him expectantly. He doesnât return your gaze. That hurt.Â
Instead he focuses on the zipper of his uniform pants, undoing it with a harsh tug before slipping hand down his pants. His low groan pierces the thick and hot air, the sound is one so sinful, one you could have never imagined coming from his lips. â Your eyes dart down to his cock when he pulls it free, tongue subconsciously darting out to wet your lips as you regard the way he languidly strokes himself.
âTouch yourselfâ, he says, his voice low and gruff as he eyes your dripping cunt. â Surprised, you hesitantly comply as you reach a hand down between your thighs, fingers experimentally dragging across your core. The small moan that slips off your tongue makes your face heat up as you avoid his gaze.Â
You push two fingers inside of your pleading cunt, not even bothering to put on a show for him as you let yourself become immersed in how it feels, how good it feels. In fact everything felt good, a little too good, when you know it shouldnât. â You watch him through the corner of your eye, catching the bead of precum that slid down his veiny shaft. And your stomach flutters uncontrollably when he squeezes around himself, letting his head tip back with a strained moan.
When heâs evidently had enough, he pushes your hand away, ignoring your cries as you lose any semblance of pleasure. Though your loss is soon replaced by the head of his cock as he slides it between your folds. It bumps against your clit, making you shudder as your fingers twist in the bed sheets. â Your lips part, but Beomgyuâs hand covers them again.Â
âDonât.â He grunts, his attention focused on the way his thick cock gently eases itself inside your warm cunt. Your eyes widen, a small and muffled noise of pleasure leaving you as you squirm beneath him. â âDonât say anythingâ, he nearly pleads, his dark and burning gaze flickering to your face for a brief moment.Â
Your chest contracts, you didnât understand.. Yet you complied, sealing your lips off to anything that wasnât a cry or a moan. â Beomgyuâs pace is rough, leaving no room for you to argue as he snaps his hips against yours. The bed frame rattles against your wall, and you briefly worried that the sound would carry into the next room. Beomgyu doesnât seem to care.Â
His hand slides off of your lips, resting on the mattress just inches from your face as he hovers above you. â Stifling a small whimper, you reach up to touch him, any part of him that you could. This was your chance, no?Â
You can feel every twitch of muscle as you drag your fingertips along his arms, letting your hands glide across his tense shoulders. Beomgyu shudders when you reach the nape of his neck. â He complies when you pull him down for another kiss. This one starts out slower, but quickly morphs into something that could easily match the pace he was keeping. His teeth pull your bottom lip into his mouth, biting down with a force that startles you, a surprised moan ripping from your throat.Â
He made you feel nearly delirious, like you didnât exist, nothing felt real. But at the same time, you could feel everything at once. He was so close, closer than he'd ever been to you. Not even back then, back when you considered him your friend. Not even then did it feel like this.. Raw, scorching hot, burning and most importantly, alive.Â
Your chest is already hurting, already mourning the loss of him that was to come. Why couldnât you just allow yourself to live in the moment, to give in to your desires completely, even if they were beyond what you knew to be possible. This was real, he was here, with you. For now, for tonight, everything was different, and you should let it be just that.Â
âI love you.âÂ
The confession slips past your lips. It carries out into the dim room, bouncing off the walls, ringing in your ears and pounding against your ribcage. Beomgyu stills inside of you, his dark eyes immediately landing on yours as they narrow. â Fuck. You shouldnât have said that. Did you even mean it? Or had you let your flimsy emotions get the better of you once again.Â
But this wasnât just a small peck on the lips. Something you could pull back from, something you could wipe off your mouth and forget about. This was you baring your heart to him. This was you showing your most vulnerable self. â This was you being selfish.Â
Beomgyuâs face twists into a scowl, the way it did whenever he tried to mask how hurt he was. Because thatâs what he was tonight. Hurt. Itâs why heâd come here. To use you. To let himself forget. Heâd begged you to be quiet. â And you had done the exact opposite.Â
âYou donât.â His statement is cold, and it sends a shiver down your spine. âYou donât know what youâre sayingâ, he grunts. And his expression hardens when you insistently shake your head.Â
âI doâ, your lips press into a thin line, determination flickering across your features. That was a lie. You did not know if you loved him. But you knew that you pitied him, that your heart ached for him. It was like every punch to his gut went straight to your heart. â Perhaps the hurt was so strong that you had confused it with love. Maybe your empathy for him got mistaken for real feelings in your mind. Â
How should you know? It wasnât like youâd ever felt it before.Â
And he hadnât either. You were sure of it.Â
âI know what Iâm..â â âI said you donât know anything!â Beomgyuâs voice cuts you off, it sounds like a scream. Ear-piercing and deafening. Beomgyu was yelling at you. And it scared you.Â
He shifts above you, elbows digging into the mattress and you suddenly remember that his throbbing cock is nestled within your cunt. You think he might pull back, that he will get up and leave. Thatâs what he should do. But he doesnât. â Instead he jolts back into action, snapping his hips against yours with newfound force, his jaw clenching as his dark eyes bore into you.Â
âYouâre confusedâ, he jeers, and you choke back a wanton moan when his thumb circles your clit. âLot of girls get confused when theyâre stuffed with cockâ, he scoffs, âAnd youâre no different.â â Beomgyu was back to his old self, the cruel and menacing one. The Beomgyu that fronted whenever he tried to hide his true feelings, when the real him was feeling weak. You shouldâve seen it coming, really. But his words still hurt, they always did.Â
He rams himself into you, making your thighs quiver as they meekly wrap around his chest, drawing him even closer. You screw your eyes shut, not wanting to see him for as much as another second. He doesnât seem to care, in fact he hardly seems to care about anything at the very moment.Â
His fingers are harsh against your clit as he drinks in every moan you emit. And when you finally finish around his cock, your cunt fluttering around him, he doesnât say anything. You pant, still refusing to look at him as you catch your breath. His thick cock makes you wince as it continues to push into you with demand.Â
Beomgyu pulls out wordlessly. Hissing out into the quiet air as he cums all over your spread thighs, his sharp intake of air pounding in your ears. His release is warm, a sickening contrast to the cold sweats that had broken out on your body. It nearly makes you shiver.Â
A new kind of silence follows after that. One full of knowing. Because you both knew that what had transpired tonight, was not something you would ever talk about again. The unanswered questions would never be brought to discussion. And you were supposed to be okay with that. You were supposed to be okay with this.Â
You donât know if you ever will be.Â
â¸â¸Â
The bed was empty that following morning. The only trace of Beomgyu were the rustled sheets where heâd slept. And you spent nearly an hour tracing their patterns with the tips of your fingers, following every crease of duvet carefully as you memorized the shape of him.Â
You knew that this was how it was going to end, as nothing more but yet another mistake. Another reason for him to hate you, and you him. Which is why you shouldnât feel this melancholic. He sure as hell wasnât. So why should you suffer? Yet it takes everything in you to drag yourself out of bed that day.Â
The water is scorching hot against your skin, and you lean against the cool tiles as you close your eyes. But no matter how hard you scrubbed, how many layers of soap you covered yourself beneath. The feeling of his hands never went away. You almost thought you could see them, the faint outlines of his hands, all over your body. And as soon as you let your mind wander, even for just a second, you could feel him on you again.Â
With a shudder you shake your head, promptly turning the water from flaming hot to an icy cold. The warmth reminded you of him, of the fire in his eyes and the burn of his touch. Cold water did not remind you of anything, that was better.Â
Part of you had thought, almost hoped, that he would come to you, that he would beg of you to keep quiet, to not utter a single word about the night that had been. But he never did. Presentation day comes, and it passes again. It wasnât very dramatic, in fact, it was like nothing had changed at all.Â
Beomgyu showed up. He didnât look you in the eyes when he took his papers from you. He didnât look at you during the presentation, he kept his gaze ahead, fixated on the rest of your joint classes. He didnât speak to you before, during, or after it. Not even a simple, âwell doneâ or even a âthanksâ when youâd offered to take his papers and throw them away for him.Â
His indifference hurt the most. Perhaps the night had meant nothing to him. It had been just as you suspected, a way for him to forget. Forget whatever it was that had happened with Yeonjun that afternoon. â It had worked. Beomgyu seemed to have forgotten, but you remembered, you remembered far too much.Â
Winter break began a mere three days later.Â
A different kind of excitement lingered in the air. No matter how old you got, the joy of Christmas never seemed to dull peopleâs spirits. Almost three weeks to spend with family and friends, three weeks away from the tortuous hell that was college. Except you would stay right where you were.Â
This would be the third Christmas you spent on campus. And while the school offered the remaining students to gather in the cafeteria for present unwrapping and long movie marathons, it was never the same as the warm embrace of home. â But home has long since lost its meaning to you. And Christmas no longer felt like a holiday.Â
Taehyun had left as well, leaving you with nothing but your own thoughts to reconcile with. Suppose it was during the holidays you realized just how lonely you were. That hurt, of course. â You would spend your days doing mundane things, like reading, writing, drawing⌠Anything to get your mind off of the almost depressing reality you faced. It usually only worked for an hour or so. It was like a constant loop of distraction, one where you chased the comfort that slowly slipped from your fingers.Â
But you were tired of chasing.Â
â¸â¸
Your worn out sneakers make an awful squeaking noise against the polished floors and the sound rings in your ears. Itâs all you can hear, which serves to quiet your thoughts for a moment, proving to be quite the distraction.Â
The long hallways are eerily empty and quiet, it gives them an almost uncanny feeling. Campus no longer felt like campus, more like a shell of its former self. You knew that it would change as soon as break was over of course, but for now you were forced to make your way down the vacant halls all alone in order to get to the cafeteria and have dinner.Â
It was for these exact reasons that the sudden tap to your shoulder made your heart drop.Â
With a quick spin of your heel, you come face to face with the person youâd least expected to see. â His dark hair is nicely done, and his eyes glimmer with a kindness that two months ago would have had you doing a double take. Snow had melted on the shoulders of his jacket, and the tip of his nose was a bright red. An almost gentle smile is splayed across his rosy lips, and he gives a nervous chuckle. You almost didnât recognize Choi Yeonjun.Â
âHey uh..â He scratches the back of his neck rather awkwardly, his eyes darting around the empty hallway. âYou donât happen to know if thereâs someone with keys to classroom 017? - My girl forgot one of her books in there before the break you see..â â You remain silent. You donât think youâd ever had a decent conversation with Yeonjun, ever. It had all been mean and crude comments, nasty smirks and awfully childish pranks where you became a laughing stock.Â
So to say that it felt a little weird to be approached by him like this, well that would certainly classify as an understatement. Your first instinct was to walk away, to leave him hanging like he deserved or perhaps you should belittle him on his obliviousness, did he not know all keys were held in the lobby? You refused an eye roll. â For the first time since your night with Beomgyu, a different kind of emotion blossoms within your chest.Â
Anger.Â
Your mind easily recognizes Yeonjun as the one whoâd taken Beomgyu from you two years ago. It was him who youâd blamed for the way Beomgyu turned out, it was him who was at fault. It was him⌠HeâŚÂ
You swallow, giving him a small nod, âThink there should be someone up by the lobby.â The polite words sting on your tongue, your fingers itching as they clenched and unclened. Yeonjun on the other hand, smiles, his grin stretching wide as he thanks you. What had changed?Â
âI best head there then.â With his hands stuffed deep in the pockets of his jeans, he turns and begins his journey down the lifeless corridor. You watch him, eyes trailing over his figure for a moment before you call out. â âHey, wait!âÂ
He pauses, turning back to you with raised brows. You march forward without giving yourself the chance to think it over once more. The sounds of you sneakers squeaking against the floors becomes almost deafening but you disregard it as you come to a halt before him. Straightening yourself up, you hold his confused but intrigued gaze.Â
âYou were friends with Beomgyu, right?â It wasnât a question, but you phrased it like one anyway. The smile immediately falls from his face upon hearing your words, and for a split second, the old Yeonjun, the face you recognized in the halls fronted. His lips twist into a small scowl and his dark brows furrow. âWhatâs it to you?â His voice had grown sharp, almost snappy, perhaps youâd hit a sore spot.Â
Something had happened.Â
Yeonjun studies you for a moment longer, his brown eyes drinking in your frame. His tongue prods against the inside of his cheek, and he looks almost thoughtful. Then he huffs a short breath, it sounded almost like a laugh. â âOh, yeah thatâs right. I know who you are.â He stated it like it was an insult, like your name weighed heavy, and for all the wrong reasons.Â
You can feel the confusion evolve on your face, he can too. âWhy, I bet heâs told you everything. Bet he came running to you like a bitch.â Yeonjunâs menacing sneer is far from unfamiliar and your chest twists at his words. What was that supposed to mean? â âI donât know what youâre talking about.â It was true. You had no idea what had happened between the two of them.Â
Itâs silent for a moment, and Yeonjun studies you closely, as if searching for lies. When he finds none his shoulders visibly relax. He lets out a short breath, averting his gaze, as if the confrontation of the subject made him uncomfortable. â âHeâs an immature bitch, what do you want me to say?â He doesnât hesitate as his eyes snap back to you, this time with something akin to fury.Â
âCouldnât accept my girl so why should I accept him. â But come on now, heâs told you that already.âÂ
You donât answer. Your fingers nervously fiddles with one another as your hands rest by your sides. What was he talking about? What was there for you to know. â Your silence seems to make the pieces fall together in his mind, finally assembling a large puzzle and Yeonjunâs face lights up. âOh shitâ, he huffs, âHe hasnât told you anything at all.â Itâs a statement, one that makes your heart drop.Â
He runs a hand through his dark hair, a near sinister grin playing on his lips. âFucking hell.â â He glances down the hall, which was ironic considering how blatantly vacant it was, then he turns back to you. âI thoughtâ I mean Iâ, interrupting himself only to clear his throat, Yeonjun looks to be fighting back yet another laugh. âI mean I thought you guys wereâŚâÂ
Shaking his head, he drags the flat of his palm across half his face. âFuck, I guess not. Thatâs sad. Really.â â You want to object, tell him that whatever assumption he was currently making was wrong. You wanted to tell him that you and Beomgyu were exactly that. But that would be a lie. And youâd had enough of those.Â
âDo you not miss him?âÂ
The question takes him by surprise, and Yeonjun pauses as he glances back at you. For a moment he looks offended, taken aback by your bluntness. His lips curl into a small scowl, the one he used to wear in the halls, not anymore though, now it was reserved for only one person, Beomgyu. â âDonât think thatâs any of your business, no? â I mean you guys arenât even..â He clicks his tongue against the roof of his mouth in a disappointing manner.Â
âJust stay in your own laneâ, he then adds, giving you a quick one over. âYouâre better off without him anyway. â Heâll only bring you down with him.âÂ
Without another word, Yeonjun walks away. And you donât stop him. For some reason, his words hurt. They were never directly targeted your way, so why did it hurt to hear him talk bad about Beomgyu? â Why did you feel the need to take on his pain as well, why did you feel the need to carry a burden that was never yours.Â
The walk to the cafeteria feels even heavier than usual, and you barely get any food down that evening.Â
â¸â¸
The days sort of blend together when you have nothing to do. Theyâre rolling on a loop, one after the other, and each one would follow the same mundane pattern. With only a day to spare before Christmas, you finally drag yourself off campus grounds, determined to at least make an attempt at lifting your spirits.Â
Stores are beyond crowded, and you get shoved left and right as you swim your way through the large masses. God, had none of these people done their Christmas shopping with at least a little margin? â Supposedly not.Â
You didnât know what you wanted, hardly anything seemed to catch your eye. Still, you scour the near empty racks, even when nothing appeals. A small cry to your right diverts your attention in said direction where a young girl clings to her mom. â âI want this one!â She whines, her tiny feet stomping against the hard ground. Her mom sighs but eventually complies, shoving yet another toy in their already full cart. She looked exhausted.  Â
Your gaze lingers on the tired moms who rushed about with bags stuffed full, on the dads who checked off lists, on the workers who wiped sweat from their forehead as they tried to get through the long line of customers waiting to pay.Â
All this commotion for a single day of the year. As much as the thought itself made you want to snort, there was also an undeniable sense of longing that filled your chest. You, too, wanted to rush about, you wanted to have to worry about what to get people for Christmas. You wanted to stay up late and wrap presents, you wanted to see the joy on their faces, hear their laughs.Â
You didn't want to be alone.Â
Walking was nice. But it becomes tiresome after a while. With your coat wrapped snugly around your body, you stroll the campus grounds absentmindedly. The cold air made your nose freeze and your cheeks sting, but you refused to return to your dorm just yet. There was something so comforting about being swallowed by the shivers running down your spine, or perhaps it was just numbing, like medicine, only it would never cure you.Â
The frosty grass crunches beneath the sole of your shoes, and you trudge forward with heavy steps. There was but a thin and crisp layer of snow, one that could be erased with the swipe of your foot. So much for a white Christmas, you thought with a bitter scoff. â Your fingers are on the verge of falling off, but you clutch the small bag in your hand anyway, swinging it back and forth in tune with your casual strides.Â
You pass a most familiar bench, now coated in a thin blanket of white but undoubtedly the same. Without thinking twice you come to a halt, feet melting into the ground as they force you in place. Furrowed brows press against your narrowed eyes as you peer over at the very same spot where you had seen Beomgyu sitting not long ago, all by himself.Â
Everything seemed to remind you of him, even when all you wanted was to forget his mere existence. You look away, blinking the hurt from your eyes as you glance toward the entrance leading back inside, leading to warmth and to safety. You should go, you should go there now. But itâs impossible to get yourself to move forward, your legs refuse to carry you and you feel your knees buckle.Â
With one harsh shake of your head you pull yourself from the small trance. And finally you move, but it is not the entrance you approach. â The old bench squeaks under your weight, and with the help of a gloved hand you dust the worst snow off.Â
Sigh. Everything looked different now, yet it was as though nothing had changed. You close your eyes, and for a second you could almost imagine him as he sat beside you, sharing a laugh and perhaps even melting the cold away with your hand in his. The image pains you just as much as it warms you.Â
Had it not been for the cold, the moment out on the bench might have even been tranquil. But the harsh winds soared through your body, chilling you to your core as it forced you to huddle in on yourself. You suck in a sharp breath, the cold air slicing down your throat as you force your almost numb lips together.Â
Arms wrapped around yourself and fingers digging into your forearms, youâre so busy keeping the cold out that it takes you almost a whole minute to recognize the soft patter of frozen grass crunching beneath feet. But when the sound does reach your ears, your head jerks in its direction.Â
There, on the other side of the once grassy field, without as much as a uniform or school bag in sight, is Beomgyu. Youâre taken aback by his casual appearance, much so that you almost completely disregard his even more unusual visit. But only almost. â What was he doing here? He had a lot of people to spend Christmas with, no? What business did he have on campus?Â
You shift on the old bench, the squeaking noise of the wood however, catches his attention. You swallow when his dark eyes find yours, even from across the field. For a split second you think that he might just keep on walking, to continue his act of nonchalance, as if nothing had ever happened between the two of you, and that you were crazy for even suggesting such a thing.Â
But Beomgyuâs gaze doesnât harden, nor does it lessen. In fact his expression remains completely impassive, though his actions speak for him. He puts one foot before the other, and itâs not until heâs gotten about halfway across the field that you realize where heâs headed. Your stomach drops as you watch him push his hands into the pockets of his jeans, his shoulders slumped as he approaches. Your gaze flickers to the bag in your hands, swallowing nervously as you tune in to the sound of his footsteps nearing.Â
Beomgyu doesnât say anything when he sits down beside you, and you listen to the squeaking noise the bench makes in protest to yet another element of weight. You peer at him through the corner of your eye. His hair was shorter, the dark strands no longer reached the nape of his neck but stopped just below his ear. Even the bruise on his face had begun to fade, now it was a mere light purple, with splotches of red coating its edges. Lastly, the tip of his nose, which was an uncharacteristic shade of pink, one you found to be almost endearing.Â
Your attention travels to the clothes he wore, the jacket looked expensive, undoubtedly more than you could afford even if you saved all your moneyâs worth. Funnily enough, he doesnât seem to care for it as his fingers lazily pick at its seams. Beomgyu took a lot of things for granted, you could tell. â Things you could only dream about.Â
The silence surrounding you is thick, hugging you tight and keeping you from moving. Your lips part as you attempt to break said silence, despite how dry your throat feels. Beomgyu however, is quicker than you as he heaves a sigh.Â
âWhy are you out here?â He asks, his gaze still fixed far ahead as his fingers give his jacket a small break. You had expected a âhelloâ perhaps even a âhow are you?â, maybe you would even have been content with a sharp glare or a âfuck offâ. But Beomgyu leads the conversation in a completely different direction.Â
When your silence becomes deafening he turns to you. His eyes are filled with something you canât quite place, something unlike his usual self. He searches your face, as though looking for clues with the help of a magnifying glass. âItâs coldâ, he then adds, as if the obvious could not have been made any clearer.Â
You scoff, shaking your head as you fiddle with the bag in your hands. âIâm dressed for itâ, you mutter without looking at him. Beomgyu hums, and for a second it sounds as though heâs about to say something else, only to stop himself. â The thick silence returns, this time it feels almost claustrophobic. You wanted to ask him about that night, you wanted to ask him about Yeonjun, you wanted to ask him about the two of you, you wanted to ask himâŚ
âWhy are you out here?â Your quiet whisper is nearly swallowed by the whirling wind but Beomgyu manages to catch it as his attention jumps from the naked trees and back to you. There were a thousand thoughts swimming within his eyes, things that were just waiting to be said. So why didnât he?Â
âItâs Christmasâ, you add, watching as his lip twitches in amusement. â You could not remember the last time youâd made Beomgyu laugh. He shakes his head, tongue prodding against his cheek. âIt isâ, he nods in agreement, his gaze dropping to the bag clutched in your hands. âPresent?â He asks to which you slowly nod.Â
Pulling your lip between your teeth, you exhale a deflated sigh, âA stupid one.â You didnât want to admit that you had bought it for yourself, considering the fact that it would be the only gift you were to receive this year, again. Itâs quiet after that and you desperately hoped he would drop the subject again.Â
Beomgyu shrugs, âIsnât that the whole point of Christmas?â When you only frown, he continues, âI mean, wrapping things up and giving them away.â He scoffs as he runs a hand through his dark hair, âUsing gifts as condolences, itâs quite materialistic donât you think?âÂ
You wanted to argue that it was not, but as your gaze flickers over the expensive clothes he wore, you realized that he didn't seem even a tad grateful for them. Perhaps they had been just that, condolences. â Your thoughts are interrupted by Beomgyu as he shifts on the bench and his hand reaches into the pocket of his coat.Â
âIâm not much betterâ, he murmurs when pulling out a small box. It fit perfectly in his palm, enveloped in silver wrapping with a tiny bow on top. You eye the tiny present with intrigue, your stomach flipping at the sight. â He inhales sharply as he twists the box between his fingers. âReflecting, repenting all that bullshit..â He mumbles as his brown eyes meet yours, âSuppose thatâs what Iâm trying to do here.â
Confused, you open your mouth to speak but before you can get as much as a word out, he hands you the gift. His eyes look near pleading as he silently begs for you to accept it, as if it would mean you accepted his apology. Perhaps it would take the guilt off his shoulders if you did. â The frown on your face only grows, but you set your own bag down before reaching a hesitant hand out to grasp the present.Â
It feels light in your palm, almost weightless. âOpen itâ, Beomgyu encourages beside you, his warm breath ghosts across your cheek and you hadnât even realized just how close he was. â Shrugging your mitten off, your free hand carefully plucks the lid from its container. You can feel his gaze on you, watching intently as you gently tug the rustling paper aside.Â
Your breath catches in your throat and your eyes widen tenfold when they fall on the familiar piece of leather. It was the same warm brown, and the contrastingly dark navy blue. The bracelet which you had cherished for so long, the one you had clung onto in the hopes that his matching part would still exist somewhere.Â
âIâŚâ You breathlessly begin but Beomgyu quickly cuts you off. âI.. Iâm sorry, yeah, thatâs what I wasâŚâ, he trails off, shrugging as he averts his gaze sheepishly. Itâs weird to see him like that, it reminds you of a time long ago, a time before everything.Â
The reality of his words slowly sank in, Beomgyu was apologizing.Â
You had spent countless sleepless nights, tossing and turning in bed as you prayed and hoped for a time like this. Was it selfish for you to wish for things to be the way they had been? You wanted to bring back someone who no longer existed, a version of him that was but a mere memory, remembered and kept alive only by you.Â
Yet here he is, doing just as you had hoped, and for so long. But you hate Choi Beomgyu now. That was a fact. And he hated you too. So this didnât make sense, no, it wasnât right. He shouldnât be apologizing. He should have brushed it off, acted as if nothing had ever happened and given you a shoulder cold enough to bring back the ice age.Â
âThis is wrong.. â I mean, you canât just-â Biting back a frustrated groan, you twist uncomfortably in your seat as you avoid his reluctant gaze. You can sense his confusion, and it only fuels your frustration. Did he not understand that he couldnât just undo everything with a simple âsorryâ and a gift.Â
Beomgyu swallows, his adamâs apple bobbing against his throat. âWhat?â He asks, his gaze dropping to the untouched gift still in your hands, âDo you not like it? â I can get you something else.âÂ
You shake your head, âItâs not about the gift, Beomgyu.â â He frowns, âThen what is it?âÂ
âEverything.âÂ
Youâre looking at him now, your heart hammering in your chest as you fight your nerves. âItâs everything, okay? You, meââ You motion between the two of you, âYeonjun, the presentation, us.â It wasnât just something you drew a line over, something you blurred and pushed back in the depths of your mind as you tried to forget it.Â
âBut, why does any of that matter?â He wonders with a confused frown, his bottom lip slightly jutted out as he regards you with caution. You have to hold back a scoff, your fingers curl around the small box, knuckles turning white as you resist the urge to roll your eyes. âBecause it does! You might not get that, but it hurt me.âÂ
Beomgyu groans as he runs a hand through his short hair. âFuck, I already apologized what more do you want from me?â His anger matches yours in a way that instantly reminds you of just how bad you could be together, of how deeply he made you feel. â âWhat difference does it make?â You snap, blinking away the tears that threatened to spill.Â
âEverything.âÂ
âIt changes everything, alright?â His chest heaves when he exhales, his eyes flaring with the same fire they had that night, the night when he wasnât thinking straight. He probably wasnât right now either. â âBecauseâ, he swallows, tongue darting out to wet his lips as he regains his composure. âBecause I donât know how else to change things.âÂ
He drags a hand across his face, like he didnât know what else to do with himself. âYou act like Iâm the biggest asshole to walk this earth and next thing I know youâre kissing me. It confuses me and it angers me. But even when youâre mean youâre nice, and I hate how it makes me feel. â I hate that itâs you I want to go to when shit goes wrong, and I hate that I did. I hate how you let me use you that night.âÂ
Heâs barely taking breaks to breathe in between sentences, and you catch the subtle flush to his cheeks as he speaks. âI fucking hate the fact that youâre always on my mind, much more do I hate that I never even try to will those thoughts away.â Beomgyu bites his bottom lip, chewing on it for a good five seconds before letting it go as he sneaks a glance your way. âBut IâŚâ He sighs as he finally comes to a conclusion after his long battle with himself. â âI donât hate you. I want to, but I canâtâÂ
You swallow, your hand still hugged by the mitten feels clammy and sweaty. Your heart races and your mind jumps between his jumbled words with little coherence. You donât think youâd ever heard him say so many things at once, and certainly not like that. His usual mean and crude self had completely drained from his system and left was a shell of the Beomgyu you thought you knew.Â
It was then, you think, that you realized Choi Beomgyu wasnât so different from you after all. Your gaze drops to the small gift still in your hands. What had once weighed so little now felt heavy in your grasp, like you were holding all of him, all at once. The bracelet fills you with hope, something youâd long since given up on entirely.Â
You glance toward him. His jaw is clenched tightly as his narrowed eyes peer ahead, intent on avoiding you it seemed. His apology was complete and total shit, his reasoning even worse. But Beomgyu was quite shit at most things. So were you. â Your gaze lingers on his pink nose, bitten by the cold. Your own nose stings too, for the both of you had been out here far too long.Â
In the pale winter air it became clear. Beomgyu was lonely, just as lonely as you. The slump of his shoulders and the defeated look on his face surely matched your own. You imagine how the two of you must look from afar. It would have to be quite a pitiful sight. How could one be lonely in the presence of someone else? Only two jackasses must manage something like that.Â
But you didnât want to be a jackass anymore, and neither did he. â So you shift on the bench, ignoring the squeaking noise it makes as you turn to Beomgyu. âDo you want to watch a movie?âÂ
â¸â¸
Itâs awkward at first.Â
The soft rustle of bed sheets, the untouched bowl of popcorn between you, the flimmer coming from the Tv screen as a cheesy romcom movie plays. Beomgyu, who was usually more than at home in your dorm, was now stiffly sitting on his side of the bed, his back straight as he pressed against the headboard. He appeared almost nervous.Â
You werenât faring much better, in fact your hands were dripping sweat as they remained tightly clasped together. Neither of you had touched the large bowl of popcorn, and they had long since gone cold. â Despite the freezing temperatures outside, your small dormitory seemed to be burning up.Â
None of you had said a word since the movie began playing, and before that you had been communicating with fast and hushed murmurs as you avoided each otherâs gaze. â Never had you imagined that you would be spending Christmas with Beomgyu, much less on the small and squeaking bed in your dorm.Â
Did this mean that things were starting to look up between the two of you?Â
Your heart practically leaps to your throat when you feel him shift on the mattress. Everytime he moved, even if it was just a mere centimeter, you tensed up. But the dramatic beating of your fluttering heart was only increased when he suddenly appeared even closer to you. His body feels warm, scorching hot inside the already airless room.Â
He doesnât say anything, and when you steal a glance his way, you find him watching the Tv. His expression would be relaxed if it weren't for the subtle twitch of his jaw when he felt your eyes on him. â Your attention drops to his hands, they were placed on the bed either side of him, his fingers moving absentmindedly against the sheets as he fiddled with them.Â
Your lips pulled into a small smile, and oh how you had missed smiling.Â
Beomgyu frowns when you suddenly climb off the bed, leaving behind an empty spot that radiates your sweet scent. He looked as though he was about to say something, one of his hands reaching out before stopping himself again. â He watches as you reach for the same bag youâd been clutching so tightly out on the bench, the one that had been completely disregarded in the end.Â
You clear your throat, standing awkwardly by the edge of the bed as you hold it in two hands. âIâŚâ Your throat feels parched and your lips dry as your tongue wets them, âI want you to have this.â You reach the bag out toward him and Beomgyu's frown only deepens. â âBut itâs yours..â He murmurs as his eyes flit between you and the bag in your hands.Â
âI want you to have it. â Besidesâ, you shrug, âYouâre not the only one whoâs been an idiot here.âÂ
His brow raises at your words, a small grin tugging at his lips as he gratefully accepts the token of an apology from you. You take the moment of him peering inside the bag to retake your position next to him on the mattress. Eagerly you watch as his frown deepens, only for it to ease up as he realizes what he was looking at.Â
âThis is..â He begins, one of his hands reaching into the bag as he pulls out the small bracelet. Beomgyuâs jaw slacks as he turns the cool and brown leather in his fingers, thumb caressing the warm and red embroidery. âYouâŚâ He cuts himself off, whether that was because he did not know what to say next or did not dare to.Â
Your gaze flickers to the small box placed on your bedside table, perhaps you werenât complete jackasses after all.Â
âWhy did youâŚâ He swallows, and though he never finished his sentence, the question swirling within his eyes was obvious. â You shrug, nibbling on your bottom lip as you regard the bracelet in his hand. âIt just⌠felt right.âÂ
There was no other way to explain it. For as you had trudged forward on tired feet, with heavy and droopy eyes, you had stumbled upon the very thing that had haunted you for so long.Â
It has been a small stand, hardly making itself known amongst its competitors. The handmade jewelry however, immediately caught your eye. You recognized the leather, eyes widening even further as they caught glimpse of the warm red braided into it.Â
Your stomach had dropped, just the way it would on a rollercoaster before its drop. That was undoubtedly the very same bracelet heâd worn, the one that had wrapped around his wrist so delicately, a constant reminder of what you had once lost.Â
âThat one,â You had said as you pointed to the accessory. Why? Because it felt right. Words would never even come close to describing the pull you felt, the immense need to have it. â But now, as you watch it lay in Beomgyuâs open palm, his lips parted as he regards the very bracelet, you understand perfectly.Â
Things were exactly how they were supposed to be.Â
Beomgyuâs hand suddenly drops, and he twists in his seat as he turns to you. The touch of his fingers against your cheek makes your eyes widen, the subtle reaction not passing him by unnoticed as a sly grin pulls across his lips. âWhat are you doing?â Your brows knit together, the soft confusion on your face only amusing him further.Â
His breath is warm against your lips as his own hover above them. The tip of his round nose brushes against yours, the small contact sending a jolt of electricity through you. âWhat I should have done from the startâ, he murmurs before pressing his lips to yours.Â
â¸â¸
The agonizing noise of violent video games fill the open spaced living room. Continuous shots are fired, easily drowning out the sound of the doorbell. Completely immersed in his game, Yeonjun doesnât look up until he feels the cushion beneath him shift as somebody takes the seat next to him. He doesnât turn his head and look, he already knows who it is.Â
âHow did you get in?â He asks in a somewhat monotone voice, his eyes still glued to the Tv screen in front of him as he taps the controller in his hands. Beomgyu, who occupies the other half of the cough, shrugs as he spreads himself out on the soft furniture, just like he had so many times before. â As though nothing had changed.Â
âYour girlfriend let me inâ, he simply states as he, too, tunes in on the violent game. Yeonjun on the other hand frowns, his face morphing into confusion as his thumbs slow down on the buttons. At last, the game comes to an end and he tears the headset from his ears. â âOh, so you talk to her now?â He retorts, his tone snappy and sharp as he tosses the control onto the coffee table.Â
Beomgyu bites the inside of his cheek, his gaze still fixed to the âNew Gameâ flashing on the screen. âI doâ, he hums, fingers absentmindedly toying with one another. Yeonjun scoffs as he throws a glance in the direction of his supposed friend. â âAny particular reason?â He queries to which Beomgyu swallows.Â
Thereâs a momenteral silence following his question as the two of them remain quietly seated on the couch. Neither of them move, the air feeling heavy yet filled with a sense of anticipation. Finally, he clears his throat as his anxious fingers come to a halt. âIâve been acting like an asshole..â Beomgyu murmurs as he pushes a hand through his now short hair.Â
Yeonjun looked as though he was biting back a snarky remark, his gaze flickering between the other and his own hands. âNo shitâ, he mumbles under his breath, unable to hold the comment back as he sucked in a sharp breath. His gaze jumps from his hands and over to Beomgyuâs as he nervously fiddles with the seams of his jeans. He canât help but notice the oddly familiar bracelet around his wrist.Â
It takes him a good minute, but soon the pieces fall into place. His lip twitches as his eyes stray by the bracelet. â âIâm sorryâ, Beomgyu quietly adds. It seems apologies were becoming a new habit of his. It took Yeonjun by surprise, making his eyebrows rise on his forehead, all the while Beomgyu avoided his gaze.Â
âI havenât been too good either, I suppose.â Yeonjun reluctantly admits as he gives a small shrug. Beomgyu doesnât reply but still nods as he purses his lips. Another thick silence follows, itâs not uncomfortable, but itâs not one either of them want to linger in. Yeonjun is the first to break it when he clears his throat.Â
âI missed you manâ, he says, his words light and filled with sincerity.Â
Beomgyu finally finds himself looking at his friend, his eyes widening just a fraction. âYeah?â He asks, the ghost of a grin playing across his lips. Yeonjun scoffs as he leans further into the couch, âYeah, yeah. Donât let it get to your head.â But itâs already too late, for Beomgyu was smirking as he leaned over to grab the discarded controller.Â
âWouldnât dream of itâ, he drawls as he presses âNew Gameâ.Â
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Qualityâ Free Actions
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
you can't hold back when you ask, "how come you didn't tell me that you were moving?" soobin pauses, his head slowly lifting up to gauge your facial expressions. "i mean, i know we weren't super close but we were science partners and i was a little hurt when i had to find out from the teacher that you left." your voice gets soft to show that you weren't angry at him, just curious.
"i-" soobin's had comes out to comfort you, but he stops himself and drops it onto the bed and grips onto the comforter instead.
fem!reader x soobin, virgin!soobin, nerdy soobin, he blushes a bunch, making out, handjob, cum-tasting, he stutters a bunch, glasses!soobin, beomgyu and taehyun cameo!, kind of premature cumming, this is kind of long i'm so sorry !
note from luna: a request that i got carried away with and took me super long to write (Ẹ̣̼̈ᯠËĚŁĚŁĚĽ) , i really hope you enjoy it nonetheless (@mymelodying)
as far as you knew, the last time you saw choi soobin was your senior year of high school. you occasionally talked in the one class you shared together, science. he was your lab partner and you would often have to do experiments and assignments with each other, maintaining an 'A' average throughout the year. in class, soobin often kept to himself and was typically hunched over his work or books. he never spoke too much and when he did, he would stumble over his words and pink would dust his cheeks while he avoids any and all eye contact with you.
when you got the chance, you would often glance at his belongings. you heard the talks about him outside of class, the whispers in the hallways about how "weird" soobin was. the way he watches so many animated shows/films was obsessive, always nose deep in recent manga, mumbling to himself about the characters and major plot points. they would talk about the way he dressed, draped in over-sized hoodies and sweats, his glasses that were just a tad bit large on his nose and often slid down the bridge. you were endeared when you would catch him pushing them back up, a small smile creeping onto your face.
one day in class you took notice to the little stickers that littered his folders and notebooks, also the plush keychain that hung from his backpack. you thought it was cute how he showed his interests in little ways like that, especially since he wasn't able to talk about them to these judgmental students in school. you never thought it was strange like the other students saw it to be. but to soobin, your wandering eyes must have felt that way. he snatched up his things with shaky hands and shoved them in his bag, his face burning red. before you could get a word out, he sped-walked out the classroom and down the hall.
you and soobin never got close, never had the chance to. aside from playing with chemicals and writing scientific equations on a piece of paper, you didn't get to talk that much. here and there you would gather a little information about him, but he would often shut himself up from going on and on about his interests or life. he kept it short, like he was drawing a line between the two of you. it pained you a bit that he felt like he had to hold himself back, you noticed the light in his eyes when you would ask him a question and the way it faded when he caught himself. his eyes shaky and gnawing on his bottom lip, changing the subject to science-related topics.
the day before soobin left, it was a friday and you managed to get a smile from him. it was a stupid joke you made while doing an experiment involving looking at germs. you mustered up the courage to lighten the tense mood since you've been working for an hour on the assignment, jabbing soobin in the side before he pressed his eyes into the scope.
"hey," he turns to you, his eyes immediately shifting when they locked with yours. he stares at a corner of your face, but you were used to it. just like you were used to the pink that spread across his face whenever you would converse with him. "why did the germ cross the microscope?"
he furrows his brow and chews on his bottom lip, "w-why?" he stutters.
you hold back a laugh as you complete the joke, "to get to the other slide." you couldn't hold back for long as you burst out with laughter at how dumb the joke was, it wasn't even that funny. yet, you couldn't help yourself. soobin's eyes widen at the sudden loud sound, his face flushing as he turns away while trying to stifle a laugh. he looks into the microscope in front of him, but you don't miss the small smile that comes onto his face. nor the little dimple that appears on his cheek.
you were the last to know about soobin and his family deciding to leave the city for one that was three hours away from yours, which meant he would be transferring high schools. you didn't have a chance to say goodbye or thank you for all his help during the class as he just stopped showing up. you were pretty worried, it wasn't like soobin to miss a day. let alone it being three in a row, your anxiety was starting to eat you up and you decided to ask the teacher about him.
"you didn't hear, soobin transferred last week. friday was his last day."
it shocked you, he never talked about leaving. granted, you weren't the closest to him but you thought with the small-talk you often made he would mention something like that. or even bring it up the day before he supposedly left, the day you saw him smile for the first time. before leaving the classroom, you took another glance at the seat next to yours that was empty with something heavy weighing on your heart.
after he moved, it took about a month before you got use to his absence. everyday you walked into class your eyes would immediately fly to the seat he once sat in. you hoped that you would find him sitting there with his disheveled black hair, his glasses that were perched on his little nose, his lips that would be pursed in concentration as he worked out a problem in his study book. you would deflate when he wasn't there, shuffling to your seat and plopping down with a sigh.
you eventually got a new lab partner, beomgyu was his name, and the two of you would come to be good friends. often finding yourself doing the same things you would with soobin, plus some. hanging out with the boy after class and talking to him about his interests. sometimes you'd find that same glint in beomgyu's eyes that you saw in soobin and get sad, shaking the feeling off with a small smile.
you would eventually forget about soobin in the following months leading up to graduation, maybe not completely though . even though you knew he wasn't there, he couldn't possibly be, your eyes still searched the sea of graduation caps hoping to find those glasses and flushed cheeks you grew fond of.
â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ
you and beomgyu walk into your first chemistry class of the semester together, shoulder to shoulder, and laughing about some video that he sent to you this morning. the two of you ended up getting accepted into the same college after vowing to never separate post-graduation. you were happy to know one person for your first year, and even happier that it was your best friend beomgyu.
you take a seat in the third row of the classroom with a sigh, beomgyu following and plopping down next to you. you turn towards beomgyu with a blinding smile and he playfully shields his eyes, making you push him. before you could strike up a conversation about your excitement, the professor walks in along with some straggling students who didn't want to be marked late on the first day. she was a short and limber lady, with a high bun resting on her head and circular glasses that framed her face well. she looked like the kind of professor that enjoyed her job.
she shut the door behind the last student to enter, before making her way to her desk. she fumbles around with her many folders and laptop, pulling up a slide show. the room is mute of talking, the only sounds being the shuffling of students reaching into their backpacks for their computers and pencils, prepared to take any introductory notes. as she sets up, the door to the classroom creaks open and everyone's heads turn in the same direction.
a boy with wired-headphones plugged into his ears walked into the room. he was wearing a black tight-fitted shirt that hugged his sides, it was tucked into his jeans that fit his thighs perfectly, his dark hair was mussed but in a stylish way. he grimaces and his face flushes when he realizes the squeaking of the closing door was bringing unwarranted attention to him, dimples that looked a little familiar appeared on his cheeks.
"class starts at eight, young man." the professor says, grabbing the remote that controls the screen now that her slides were pulled up. he turns in her direction, popping the buds from his ears and wrapping them around his phone, his face seemed to turn even darker and he sucks in his bottom lip. you cock your head to the side, the more you stare at him and watch his actions, the more familiar the boy looks. distant memories that you can't quite catch float around in your head.
"s-sorry. it's not an excuse, but my alarm didn't go off." his voice was deep and smooth as he spoke, honesty laced in his tone as he apologized. all around you, the girls in the class started to whisper to their friends. presumably about his good looks, you would do the same with beomgyu if it weren't for you trying to wrack your brain trying to figure out why you think you've seen him before. he presses his lips together and bows his head awkwardly in apology. he starts to head for a seat, but he's stopped by the professor speaking again-
"i'll let it pass this time since it's the first day," she starts and he nods his head in acknowledgement, his grip tight on his bag-strap that was slung across his slim waist. "what's your name?" everyone tunes in, wanting to know the name of the handsome boy who would be in this class for the semester. he runs a hand through his hair, his eyes darting around the room and avoiding stares. "ah, c-choi soobin."
you freeze, your eyes widening at that name. choi soobin? like choi soobin that you went to high school with? choi soobin who suddenly upped and left one day? the same one who buried himself in over-sized clothing and his glasses that never sat on his nose right? that's the same guy who was standing in front of you, with fitted clothes, no glasses on his face, and a lot taller than what you remembered, that soobin?
your eyes follow him as he walks past you once the professor dismissed him to a seat that was a few rows behind you, you couldn't help it. you haven't heard that name in about a year and now he shows up again in the same college as you, in your science class? your eyes lock briefly when he goes by, his eyes immediately shifting away and his face going pink. you don't think he remembered you though, besides it's been a while and you also forgot about him until this moment.
all class, you could only think about the boy who you were semi-acquainted with in high school and how much he has changed. your body itched to turn around and catch a glance at him, figure out if it was actually the same boy you knew.
"you okay," beomgyu whispered to you, poking a finger into your side. you give him a nod before placing your face in your hand and gnawing on your bottom lip. you had to talk to him after class, right? you needed to know if he remembered you, thought about you even a little after he left.
you were lost in thought until the final minutes of class, the professor clapping her hands together sharply before clicking to the last slide. it was an announcement that she will be putting us in pairs, and we'll stay in that duo for the semester. you'll do labs, assignments, and presentations with your partner. it reminded you a lot of the class you took in high school.
"hopefully we're together." beomgyu whispers, crossing his fingers and you smile at him while also twining your fingers in hopes. we wait while professor starts calling out pairs, your heart beating fast. the both of you take a pause when beomgyu's name is called.
"choi beomgyu and-" he bites on his bottom lip and squeezes his eyes shut, grabbing onto your hand and holding it tightly in his. "kang taehyun." he deflates, throwing a pout at you and you caress his shoulder. he turns around and finds his partner who raised his hand. he gets up with his belongings and makes his way towards the boy and they immediately jump into conversation. you think he'll be alright and you shoot him a thumbs up when he looks your way with a soft smile.
you jump when your name is called next, snapping your head to the front of the room. hopefully whoever you get is nice and not someone who will slack off and make you do all the work, that's the last thing you want in a college-level chemistry class. "and choi soobin."
you eyes widen and your mouth drops open in shock. what are the odds that you and soobin would be in a science class together and be lab partners at that. it gave you a reason to talk to him again after some time, but you haven't thought about what you would say. how would you even bring up what you wanted to talk about?
when you turn around, soobin was already looking back at you. you couldn't quite read his facial expression, he looked a little surprised but also intrigued. he would shift his eyes away though, clearing his throat and rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. you gathered your belongings and headed up the stairs to his row and taking the seat next to his.
you look at him from the corner of your eye, too scared to turn and look at him and just fidgeted with the pencil in your hand instead. you let the professor finish putting people in pairs, she tells the class to exchange info with your lab partners and get to know them as our first lab will be on thursday. there's about fifteen minutes of class left and she dismisses us to be able to converse.
slowly, you turn your head towards him. "hey,"
soobin jumps and rubs his hands anxiously over his thighs. he looks over at you and bows his head, before turning away again. he squeezes his eyes shut and says something under his breath you can't catch.
"uh, so⌠we should probably exchange numbers like the professor suggested since we're going to be together for a whole semester. and we might have to keep in contact with eachoth-" you started to ramble before soobin suddenly cut you off.
"did we go to high school together?" he asks, turning towards you. he quickly catches himself, his face burning and his eyes shifting away from your stare that felt too intense. he looks down at his lap, at his fumbling hands that were there. "ah sorry- i meanâŚm-more specifically did we have a science class together?" he mutters the last part.
you freeze, so he did remember youâŚ"uh, yeah. we were lab partners back in high school." you answer his question while nodding your head.
there was the tiniest smile that came to his face, crooked and cute. "i thought soâŚ" he mumbled more to himself. his hand comes up to his nose like he was going to push up his glasses, but his hand curls into a fist when he realizes they weren't there.
"what happened to your glasses?" you blurt out without thinking. soobin's drops his hand onto the table and his face turns a pretty shade of pink.
"my-my glasses? i, um stopped wearing them awhile ago. i wear con-contacts now." his hand scratches the back of his neck as he speaks and he clears his throat often the more he talks, like he was thinking of the next words to say as he said it.
"mmm," you hum in understatement. before you could ask another question, about why he left so suddenly without saying anything, it was the end of class. the professor would announce that while also telling us to pick up our homework for the day. a worksheet to get to know all about your lab partner, like we were in kindergarten again.
soobin packs up his belongings and you can't help but to notice the keychain that hung from his backpack, the same one from when we were in high school. you smile to yourself and soobin gets up, a quick and jerky movement that startles you a little.
"i-i'm gonna go now," he stiffly says, sliding behind you and starting for the stairs that leads to the door. you bite your lip, quickly getting up and packing your stuff to follow him. you can't let him get away that easily, not when you got the chance to finally see him again.
"wait-" you say, catching his hand that was on his phone and ready to unravel his headphones. he flinches away, snatching his hand back and leaving yours hanging mid-air. when you look at him, he was blushing, his eyes looking everywhere but at yours and his cheeks were puffed out.
"sorry i- i was just wondering if you wanted to get started on the homework?" you ask him, dropping your hand and clutching onto your tote bag. soobin taps the screen of his phone with his thumb to check the time.
he opens his mouth to speak but gets interrupted by someone slinging their arm over your shoulder and ruffling your hair. you knew it was beomgyu cause he was the only person that did that to you, the little punk.
"shall we grab some lunch, i'm starving~" he asks, pinching your cheek. he stops when he realizes that soobin is standing there, looking between the two of you with wide eyes. he particularly focused on beomgyu's arm that was around you, which striked you as odd.
beomgyu nods at him before shoving a hand out in front of soobin, "hi, i'm beomgyu! you must be soobin and this losers lab partner." you roll your eyes, shoving his arm off of you and making him pout. soobin tentatively takes his hand, shaking it almost robotically before letting go.
"so," beomgyu turns to you, bringing his face completely in your view. you notice the way soobin turns his head away, his face burning. "are we getting lunch or not?"
you lean back and gesture towards soobin, "actually, i was going to get started on the homework assignment with soobin." you smile at beomgyu who drops his obnoxiously and his eyes flicker towards the boy that was standing there shuffling on his feet. he looks back at you, wiggling his eyebrows.
you never talked to beomgyu about soobin, never felt a reason to. it felt better to keep those little memories you had to yourself, instead of loading all you grievance on someone you just met. so, to him it probably looked like you were looking for a hook-up.
"oh, that's cool! i'll just get lunch with taehyun and catch up with you later?" he taps your shoulder and gives you a shit-eating grin that makes you roll your eyes even harder than the first time. he skips away, smirking at you as he heads out the door to track down his new friend.
soobin looks at you, not for too long of course, before staring down to his feet or the ground beneath them you weren't too sure. he drums his fingers against his bookbag strap, the silence stretching on.
"uh, sorry about thatâŚdo you have any time to do the assignment right now?" you ask him.
soobin's head pops up and he seems to perk up a bit at the idea of you still wanting to hang out with him, "yeah down- i'm down!"
"we can go to my dorm, it's only a five minute walk from here. if that's okay with you of course!" you offer, pointing in the direction of your room. soobin blushes furiously, but nods his head in agreement. you smile, waving your hand and motioning for him to follow you.
â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ â â â シ â â â シ â â シ â シ
"me and beomgyu share this place, but he shouldn't be back for awhile. but you already knew thatâŚ"
soobin shucks off his shoes before looking around. it was a cozy and small dorm room that he can tell is properly lived in. plushies littered the couch, there were two mugs on the coffee table in front of it, he placed his shoes next to the others that were by the door. it smelt good too, like cinnamon and something else he couldn't name.
you watch as soobin scans the place, his head turning until it lands on you. he gets startled as if he forget that it was your place and that you were actually in it. you don't fight the giggle that bubbles up and comes out.
"we can go to my room, it's more comfortable." you smile at him and make your way down the hall and to the right where your room was, opposite of beomgyu's who was on the left. he follows you into the room and jumps when you shut the door.
you gesture towards the bed, "have a seat." he nods and rummages through his bag for the assignment, a clipboard, and a pencil to write with. he settles on the bed, but he doesn't move. he looks almost frozen as he sits there and you smile fondly at how shy he can truly be.
you sit next to him, climbing onto the bed and crossing your legs with the paper in your lap. soobin mirrors you, being sure to put a little bit of distance between the two of you as he does.
"i-i'm ready when you are." he says, scrunching his nose and pushing up imaginary glasses. your eyes linger on him a little longer than you intended, soobin's eyes shifting and his cheeks turning rosy as he clears his throat.
"right- um, first question isâŚwhat's your favorite thing to do?" you look up from the sheet for him to answer first.
"i would say m-my favorite thing to do is read or watch tv, it's what i do the most." he shrugs his shoulders while you write down his response.
"and what do you like to read and watch?"
"nothing much, justâŚwhat everyone else reads and watches." he answers, his hands fidgeting around his pencil.
"and what is everyone reading and watching?" you tease. soobin stutters over his words, his tongue felt tied as he tried to come up with a lie and think about what trending shows he's heard others talking about.
"i'm messing with you," you laugh, placing a comforting hand on his thigh. he tenses under you and you pull away, he immediately relaxes when you do. "but i did notice the jujutsu kaisen figure on your bag, do you like that show? it's anime, right?" soobin's eyes are wide when he looks at you, his mouth moving like a fish.
"you know about jujutsu kaisen? have you ever watched the show?" he sounded excited that someone recognized the figure, as if it wasn't one of the most popular ones out now. he had that same shine in his eyes that he did back in high school when he would talk about things like this.
you felt a little bad when you had to admit the truth though, "i've never watched it, but beomgyu always talks about it!" you try to make the situation a little better and give him a topic to bring up with beomgyu whenever he sees them again, maybe they can become friends too.
"ohâŚ" he deflates, tapping his pencil against his paper.
"we could always watch it together, since we're going to be around each other the whole semester." you suggest to him.
"really? you would watch?"
"yeah," you answer honestly and watch with fondness as soobin smiles, sucking his lips into his mouth in an attempt to hide it. it reminds you of the day before he left, the same day you finally saw him smile.
you can't hold back when you ask, "how come you didn't tell me that you were moving?" soobin pauses, his head slowly lifting up to gauge your facial expressions and feeling the shift in the mood. "i mean, i know we weren't super close but we were science partners and i was a little hurt when i had to find out from the teacher that you left." your voice gets soft to show that you weren't angry at him, just curious.
"i-" soobin's hand comes out to comfort you, but he stops himself and drops it onto the bed and grips onto the comforter instead. "i wanted to say goodbye⌠i didn't even know we were moving until i got home that day." he mumbles with a small head shake.
"everything was already packed and they were loading up the u-haul truck. i hardly even had time to process it all and once i did i was in a new city surrounded by a bunch of new people. b-but believe me when i say i wanted to say goodbye at leastâŚ" and you do believe him. he sounded too sincere and his eyes reminded you of a sad puppy, his lower lip jutting out into a pout as he spoke.
he almost looked he wanted to cry and you couldn't have that, not over something so small. you were just curious as to why you never saw him again, you didn't mean to upset him in the process. you don't remember how or when but when you snap out of your thoughts, you're close to soobin. super close, with your hand pressed against the side of his warm face.
he was blinking at you wildly, his fingers gripped tight into your covers. you gasp, your eyes widening as you steal your hand away and pulling back. "sorry, i don't know why i just did thatâŚ"
"you-" soobin presses his lips together, furrowing his brows.
"i�"
"you whis-whispered something,"
"what did i whisper?" you nervously ask.
he clears his throat, "you said that you missed meâŚ"
you were taken aback, you didn't remember saying that but soobin said you did and he didn't have a reason to lie. did you miss him? when he left, you did think about him a lot. even after meeting beomgyu and graduating, there was little moments when he would pop into your mind and you would wonder how he was doing. if he was doing the same, thinking about you at that very moment.
you look at the boy who was so different from what you remembered. his muscular and toned body that was visible through his shirt, his legs that were a lot longer than before and encompassed by his jeans, his slender hand that held his pencil, his big and curious eyes that were no longer framed with glasses, his pretty and pink lips that were pouted so cutely. you wanted to lean in and kiss them-
your lips touch in a chaste kiss that lasts a second. when you pull back, soobin's eyes were squeezed shut and his lips were still protruded. you giggle, hiding your smile behind your hand and soobin's eyes crack open. he was blushing furiously and he had a sheepish look on his face.
"it's true, i did miss youâŚ" you admit to him. you shove the classwork aside and crawl towards him. soobin's breath hitches when you start to come closer, his legs involuntary parting and allowing you to fill the spot between them.
you bring your faces close enough so that your breathes mingle between the little space there was. you slowly bring your hand up to his face again, your thumb rubbing under his eye. soobin's breath gets shaky as he lets your explore his face, gnawing on his bottom lip in nervousness.
you let your finger trace the bridge of his nose where his glasses used to be, "do you still keep your glasses around?" soobin brain was malfunctioning and he couldn't speak so he simply nods his head and points a trembling finger at his backpack that was on the floor. with a smile you hop off the bed to grab his glasses that were in a cute case before repositioning yourself to where you were.
you raise the glasses up to his face and gently slide them over his ears and up his nose. they were the same ones he had back then, except now they fit his adult features. they looked perfect on him, against the pink of his cheeks.
"so handsome," you mutter while continuing your evaluation of his face. letting your fingers trace the bow of his upper lip, soobin's stuttering breath making them moist. you look him in the eyes, "can i kiss you, properly?"
soobin swallows, his eyes sliding to the wall behind you. "i-i don't know how⌠i've never kissed somebody before." he whispers.
you were slightly taken aback, "really?" it was a little hard to believe that someone that looked like this has never kissed anyone. he shakes his head slowly, his nervous eyes finding their way back to yours. it was cute, the contrast between his striking visuals and his timid actions. and the fact that you were the first person to kiss him, be close to him like this, defile him was kind of turning you on.
with a gentle touch, you tap his lips. "just keep these open and follow my lead, hm?" soobin nods again, licking his lips and parting them, shutting his eyes as you move in close to him. you tilt your head to slot them together with his and soobin's fingers grip onto the blanket.
you take it slow and let soobin get the feel of making out, he's clumsy at the start of course. he can't quite find the right rhythm and sometimes he'll press too hard. he pulled back a little at one point and whispered against your mouth, "is that right?" you would grab him by the chin gently and hum in agreement before pulling him in again.
this time soobin melts into the kiss, finding the pacing easier this time as you capture his lips. wrapping an arm around his neck to keep him in place, sliding your fingers into the hair at the nape of his neck and making soobin shiver. his whole body squirms as your nails scratch his scalp gently, a tiny whimper slipping into the kiss.
the sound sent tingles through your body and you wanted- no needed to hear it again. you grip the hairs and tug them just a little, just enough to tilt his back and deepen the kiss.
"ngh," soobin moans into your mouth, his pretty lips opening wider. you place a hand on his chest, pushing him back onto his elbows. you slip your tongue into his mouth and soobin allowed you to explore his mouth, moving your tongue against his. he finds himself liking the way it feels, his body heating up, his pulse racing, and there was another sensation happeningâŚbetween his legs.
he can feel the way your hand slides down his chest and tense tummy, heading right for the spot that was throbbing. his breath hitching when your hand ghosts over his crotch, your hand warm against the prominent bulge. his hips twitch up into your hand and he moans at the contact, the friction was delicious and he wanted to chase it.
it wasn't until you started rubbing at the same time as he grinds into against your hand. he found that the longer you did it, the better it felt and there was something coiling in his belly that made his breathing uneven and his body tingle. it scared him a little and he would pull away from the kiss, pushing your hand off of him, "wa-waitwaitwait-" he voice was breathy and his face was flushed, lips red and swollen.
"what's wrong?" you ask with concern, your hand that was just making him feel good was now rubbing his shoulder in comfort. soobin's skin was tingling with every graze, but it was bearable and not as intense as whatever just happened.
he ducks his head in embarrassment, his voice low when he speaks. "i-it's just that was my first time feeling something⌠like that."
"did you not like it? we can stop if you don't wan-"
"no!" he shouts, his head popping up and his eyes wild. "n-no it's not that i didn't like itâŚin fact i think i liked it too much. there was this feeling, right here." he points at his lower abdomen, right above his cock that was still hard and twitching in the constraints of his jeans.
"it was really intense and overwhelming, it scared me a little. it was too much, too fast," his speech is fast, his face burning all the while. you giggle a little and let your hand drop back down to his hard-on. soobin jerks, his legs twitching at your sides and lets out a breathy moan as his eyes flutter.
"what you were experiencing was getting close to having an orgasm. you've never touched yourself before?"
soobin's body felt like it was on fire, "no, neverâŚ"
"well," you lean into his neck, letting your breath ghost against the sensitive skin. soobin swallows when you trail your lips along the side. "would you like me to be the first to touch you there?" he moans while nodding his head, giving you the consent you needed to hear.
you unbuckle the belt that was around his slim waist, unzipping the zipper and sliding your hand into his pants. soobin watches with heady eyes, blinking slowly as if he didn't want to miss anything. you pull his cock from his pants, the tip was glistening with precum and you press a finger into the pool. you bring your finger to your mouth, lapping at the liquid.
"w-what are you doing, why would you eatâŚthat?" soobin stammers, but his eyes were glossy as he watched you lick up his precum. it made his cock twitch between the two of you.
"it's sweet," you simply reply. "wanna try some?"
soobin tentatively nods, one small motion of his head and you kiss him. immediately, you push your tongue into his mouth while wrapping your hand around him and lubing him up with his own precum.
"uhn," soobin moans, his hips slowly raising up into your fist and his hand comes up to squeeze your arm tightly. it feels so good, he feels so good that he can't even keep up with the kiss. his mouth going slack as he continously moans and whines.
the air between the two of you is humid, soobin's glasses sliding down the bridge of his nose from the sweat building there. his hazy eyes looking at you through his almost fogged lenses, letting out an assortment of needy sounds.
you start to jerk him earnestly, letting your hand go up and down his cock at a quick and steady pace. drinking up all of the whimpers and pants that soobin feeds you. he leaks profusely over your first, a tell-tale sign that this was in fact his first time being touched.
soobin couldn't think, his brain was clouded and his skin was prickling with pleasure. he couldn't control his hips that kept thrusting up, chasing after that intoxicating feeling of your hand on him.
"i-" he gasps when he feels that coil in his tummy again, coming at him quicker than the first time. he doesn't think he can stop it this time though, his body tensing as the pleasure ramps up and his orgasm builds.
"you?"
"i don't think i can hold back -" he choked on his words, shaking his head. his eyes were shiny like he could cry at an moment from feeling so good. you let your hand graze his tip briefly and that seems to be soobin's breaking point.
"i'm- i'm gonna cum," he breaths, his eyes rolling back and his hips kicking upwards in one final thrust. his body twitches, a long and high-pitched moan of your name flowing from his mouth as he comes in your hand.
he tosses his head back, his one hand that was in the sheets so tight that his knuckles were white and his other hand that was on your shoulder was shaking. he felt like he could see white as he came, he felt light and dizzy as multiple spurts of warm cum landed on his shirt and jeans.
you stroke him while he comes down, his breathing heavy and his bottom lip was now sucked into his mouth as he tried to regulate himself. "wow," you smirk, admiring the amount of cum that landed on his clothes. soobin gets shy, his face burning as he turns his head away.
"i'm sorry - i didn't mean to cum so quicklyâŚ" he apologizes.
"you don't have to apologize for that." you reassure him, sticking a hand into his mussed hair before reaching down to push his glasses back up his nose and making him crinkle it cutely.
"it-it's embarrassing⌠cumming just from you touching me." he mumbles, his eyes downcast in shame.
"not embarrassing at all, it's hot." you lift his head up and make sure he's looking into your eyes, letting him know you were telling the truth. he swallows, his throat bobbing and he nods his head.
you laugh, letting his face go and grabbing some tissues from the bedside table. "but if you came that fast just from a handjob, i don't think you would've fared if we went all the way."
soobin's eyes go wide, whimpering when the soft tissue touches his sensitive cock. "i-i⌠i could've lasted longer!" he counters, a little frown on his face as he said it. you tuck him back into his boxers and zip his pants up.
"really?" you raise an eyebrow, tossing the dirty tissue aside and climbing into his lap. you settle down, pressed directly against soobin's sore cock and moving your hips a little. soobin moans, his hands coming to your waist while nodding his head.
"well, we have a whole semester to figure that out now don't we?" you smirk, as you hop of his lap and start to head out of the room. soobin watches with a furious blush on his face as you go.
"w-wait, my pants!" he calls out, leaping off the bed to remind you off his cum-stained pants he was wearing. he pauses though, looking down and groaning. he was rock hard again. "dammit," he mumbles while shoving a hand between his legs.
how was he supposed to survive chemistry like this?
Š lucidwntrr est. 2025 - please do not steal, repost, or copy !
IN WHICH after yet another gym session with Taehyun, you start feeling weird things. Things you never thought you would have to worry about when it comes to one of your close friends. Fortunately, Taehyun will gladly help you take care of the itch he caused.
kang taehyun x fem!reader
containsâ smut, gym partner!taehyun, friends to ??, oral (f. rec.), penetration, fingering, breast play, biting/marking, reader is ovulating
word countâ 3.8k
⪠izzy speaks... Legends say they are still at it like some wild animals
request | taehyun m.list
You weren't into sports much throughout your childhood, so when your friend suggested you'd try the gym with him, you had no intentions of saying yes to him.
So how exactly did you find yourself in a gym so often after all? You're not sure. One minute you were telling Taehyun that you don't want to go, and the other you were already practically living in here. It just happened without you having any control over it, and you blame his persistence.
If Taehyun wasn't going with you so often, you definitely wouldn't be here. Every time you had a session planned together and he apologized to you because he won't be able to make it, you just didn't go either. Your motivation relied on him, so despite how much you wished to be the girl who would go work out just because she wants to, you aren't her.
"Come on, one more," Taehyun encourages and you have to fight the urge to not snap at him. One thing you learned about yourself on your little fitness journey, you hate bench press. It's so stupid. It's dangerous, dumb, and you beg Taehyun to let you off the hook every time he says that's the next machine you're going on. You know it could easily be solved if you decided to start planning your training on your own, but you like it more when he's the one in charge.
Not only does he plan the machines around in a way you can be near each other all throughout the training, but he also actually understands fully what you're training on each thing. If you were to plan your own rotation, you would just be on the same five machines every day. Which, even you know wouldn't do you any good.
"I can't," you complain, a strained whine leaving your lips as you try to push the bar up once more. Your hands won't move though. You seriously can't. "Tae," you beg, completely out of power now.
When he hears the struggle in your voice, realizing you won't push it up again, he quickly steps forward and wraps his fingers around the middle, bringing it up with ease. You sigh in relief when he does, letting your arms drop to your sides. "Let's take a break," he suggest and you look up at him. You'd love to say it's easy to find his eyes when he is standing right behind your head, but thanks to the position, the only thing you find are his pants. You quickly avert your eyes, trying your hardest to pretend you didn't just lock eyes with his print.
Pushing yourself up, you sit on the bench while he unloads the weights. You feel like you're going to die. Blinking up, your brows furrow in confusion as he comes to stand in front of you, offering you his bottle. "Finish this, I have more left than you do in yours," he practically pushes the bottle into your hands, which you're glad for because you do need that water.
"Why do you like torturing me so much?" You ask as soon as you rest the bottle on the floor again. "Is this some sort of a kink? Finding pleasure in seeing me get crushed down by weights?"
He snickers at your question. "I'm not a sadist," he assures you with a shake of his head. "I seriously thought you could do one more."
"As you can see, I couldn't," you sigh.
"Do you want to move onto legs? I need to get two more sets in," he points towards the spot he's been occupying until he came to spot you, and you nod. "Just do whatever you're in the mood for. I'll join you in a bit."
You go refill both his and your water bottle before moving on. You settle on a leg press â your favorite machine unlike the one you just had to do. It's positioned in a way that allows you to watch Taehyun as you work out, admiring his drive for this. Even all these months later, you still admire how determined he is. He is incredible.
You keep your eyes on him while pushing the weights with your legs, watching as he grips the bar above him and pulls himself up. It doesn't look easy at all, and you're glad he didn't make you do that yet. You're sure you'd fail. The last time you attempted to do a pull up was probably in high school, and even then, it ended with utter embarrassement.
Taehyun only let's go off the bar once he loses his strength completely, finishing his set. He shakes his arms on his side before reaching for the bottle you filled, instinctively looking for you with his eyes. As soon as he finds you, he smiles, a soft curve of his lips that almost causes for you to fail your set. Steadying yourself quickly, you pull at the lever on your side to catch the weights, relaxing for a second.
He takes a long sip and you let your eyes wander for a second â simply admiring what work outs do to his body, you convince yourself. His Adam's apple is exposed, sweat running down and making it glisten. You can see it even from across the room. His black shirt clings to his body, hugging every one of the muscles he built with such precision. You've seen him with it off a few times before, and you can confidently say his shirt doesn't do him justice.
His abs are perfectly toned, a sight you could look at for hours. Then, of course, there are those legs. Those fucking legs. Taehyun has strong thighs that others easily overlook. The amount of times you found yourself staring at them while he'd work out in the past months is not something you could recall. The memory of him helping you at the bench press rushing to your mind, the sight of his legs practically right on top of your head. God.
You need to get a grip. You can't be thinking about the print you saw when you were trying to look at him, not when you're in a room filled with people.
Your body doesn't listen to your head, though, and your eyes drop down on their own again, locking with the same print you are not supposed to be thinking about. Fuck me. The words are printed all over your mind in bold letters, making you feel like you're going crazy. Who the fuck stares at their friend like this and thinks about fucking them? All because of the fucking sweatpants he decided to wear.
So when it comes to it, it's really his fault.
You are not the one with your muscles out.
Fucking hell, are you ovulating?
You force your gaze up again just to find Taehyun already looking at you, a hint of curiosity in his eyes. Your lips part but no words come out. You're not even sure what you wanted to say. It's not like he'd be able to hear you if you did speak either way.
You watch as he pulls his weight up again, his eyes still on you, before looking away, trying your best to focus on your set. You must be going crazy. And ovulating. Because since when is Kang Taehyun hot? Kang Taehyun, the same guy who you met in your high school math class and stayed by his side since then. Kang Taehyun, who saw all kind of versions of you throughout the years and supported you when you needed it. Kang Taehyun, who you always thought was just a great friend to you.
Looking at him now, though, all sweaty with his boba eyes watching you and his strength out in the open for you to see, the last thing you feel is that he is just a friend.
The rest of your set goes by in a blur. You can't focus. You can't do anything but thing about the man on the other side of the gym. You're a mess. Both in your head and between your legs.
You need to get home.
"How much longer do you need here?" You blurt out as soon as he joins your side again, not giving him a chance to speak.
He blinks confusedly at first, looking around the gym. "Uhm, if you want to go already we can I was just going to doâ"
"Please," you nod, desperate to get out of here.
"Okay," he doesn't question you further. "Let me just grab all my things and we'll meet in the car?" You don't answer him, hurrying out and leaving him there, his confusion only growing.
If he's honest, he's been confused for a while. Ever since you parted ways and he stayed behind to finish his pull ups, he's noticed the change in your behavior. It wasn't anything huge so he didn't think much of it, holding your gaze just like he normally would. But then your eyes started flickering all around him, almost in distress. To say he's been wondering what you're thinking about is an understatement.
He keeps about it as he goes into the changing rooms. As he changes back to his jeans and a new shirt, as he walks out of the gym and heads towards his car, as he opens the door for you like he always does and sees your flushed cheeks, and as he drives towards your apartment. Especially as he drives towards your apartment. He can't get rid of his curiosity, trying to figure out just what exactly you were thinking about while watching him like that.
Like what? He honestly isn't sure.
As wise he knows he is, his skills apparently don't include reading people's expressions well.
"Wait," he stops you before you can run out of his car when he parks in front of your apartment. "Are you okay? What'sâ"
"I'm good, Taehyun," you brush him away quickly. "I justâ I really need to go," you excuse yourself, but just as you grab the handle to open the door, he catches your other wrist in his hand, not letting you go. Your name slips from his lips, a confused plea to tell him what's going on with you. But you can't. You need to take care of the itch he managed to cause in the gym. You're desperate to take care of it and find a release to this sudden attraction you feel towards him. He's doing things to you you don't want him to know about.
"I can clearly see you don't feel okay. Can you at least look at me? Did I do something to upset you?" The desperation in his voice makes just only that much crazier. The need you hear in his voice to understand you better sending a shiver down your spine, one that forces your thighs together. You really need to get away from here.
"It's not that," you shake your head quickly, your lips forming a straight line as you try your best to keep any signs of what you're feeling hidden.
"Then whatâ" he pauses, losing his breath for a second. "Oh." Your brows furrow confusedly at the sudden change, following his eyes to see what he's seeing.
Your eyes widen instantly when you realize you've been rubbing your thighs together. You quickly push them apart, "Fuck, fuck, fuck," you curse on repeat, brushing his hand off yours and finally opening the car door to escape.
"Wait!" He calls after you, only met with a harsh slam of the passenger door. He's quick, getting out of the car as well and meeting you at the back as you get your gym back from his truck. The sound of your name makes you freeze but you brush it off as fast as you can, heading towards your apartment. He closes the truck door and locks his car, rushing after you without a single care that what you are so desperately trying to get away from is him. "Can we talk?"
"Not a great time for a talk, Tae!" You yell back at him, searching for your keys.
"I think it's the perfect time!" He claims, appearing at your side before you can unlock the door. "Just listen to me. Let me help."
"You don't want to help with this," you shake your head, barely listening to what he's saying.
"I do!"
You stop in your track, blinking at him confusedly. "You do?" You question, taken aback.
"If you were just listening to me for a second, you would have known."
"But youâ weâ thisâ"
"Do you want me to take care of that itch or not?"
You don't hesitate any longer, breathing out a desperate, "Yes."
You're not sure how you expected a kiss with Taehyun to look like, but it wasn't as gentle as this. You dropped your gym back in the hallway as soon as you closed the door behind yourself, and he didn't waste any second, latching his lips onto yours. And while the hands gripping your flesh were anything but, his kiss has been soft and tender.
If you didn't know any better, you'd think he's been wanting to do this for a while.
With your back pressed against the front door, you moan into his lips as he pushes a knee between your parted legs. Your arms wrap around his shoulders, pulling him closer as you kiss him with more urgency.
"How long?" He asks before moving his lips lower, planting wet kisses to your throat. "You're like this because of me, right?"
"Yes," a whine escapes through your lips, your ears red from the embarrassement.
"How long?" He repeats his question, helping you rock forward on his thigh. His fingers dig into the flesh of your waist as he does and you crazy. You need to get these clothes off.
"I don't⌠know," you cry into his ear, trying to move your hips faster. "It just happened." He hums into your skin. "Taehyun, please."
You feel him smirk against you as your plea reaches him. His hands move under your shirt, cupping your breast through your bra. You suddenly regret wearing a sports bra, wishing you'd have a more flattering one instead. "Will you get this off for me?" You nod, and as soon as he has his confirmation, he lowers himself down to his knees.
Your head spins at the sight, finding him more attractive than ever as he kneels in front of you. He toys with the hem of your pants, waiting for you to take off your shirt before pulling them down. You get rid of your sports bra just as quick, locking your eyes on him again.
Unlike you, he takes his time getting you rid of the last piece of clothing, his eyes glued to your skin as he hooks his fingers into your panties. The wet fabric is clinging to your pussy and Taehyun groans at the sight. This has got to be the best day of his life.
He drops the clothing to your ankles and you step out of it with ease, kicking it aside. You run your fingers through his hair, pulling at the brown locks lightly. He looks up, his mouth opened and just inches from where you need him the most. He grips your waist again, his fingers digging into your skin. "You're beautiful," he whispers, pressing his lips to your thigh. "Do you know that?"
You shiver under him, the image of him looking at you from between your legs now planted in your head. You watch him as he pulls one of your legs over his shoulder, steadying you in place with his hands. You're obsessed with the way he murmurs your name against your skin, grabbing any flesh he can get his hands on as his mouth meets your clit.
"Fuck," you breathe out instantly. It feels like forever since someone ate you out, your body recognizing the pleasure immediately and inching forward. Taehyun's tongue flickers over your sensitive bundle of nerves before dipping lower. His tongue slides between your folds, collecting all your wetness. The grip you have on his hair tightens, causing a low whine to leave his lips. You feels the sound in every part of your body.
You want his cock inside.
Crying out, barely understandable blabs leave your lips as you beg for more. You're not sure if he can't hear you or just doesn't care, but he simply continues with what he's been doing until now, taking care of your clit with his tongue.
It's only once he hears you moan his name that he decides to be nice to you, letting his fingers join. You almost thank him as he dips one of his fingers inside you, adding to the pleasure. The second finger comes right after, moving in a slow rhythm.
Adding a third fingers almost makes you come. Despite the teasing slow moves, he is nothing if not skilled. With his fingers pumping in and out of you and his tongue working you at the same time, you could probably come at his demand.
He hums against your skin, noticing you get closer. "Will you come for me, pretty?"
You whine at his words, nodding instantly. You feel hot all over, burning with need. Keeping him right where you want him, your legs shake around his head. It comes so fast, your breath shakes as you finish on his lips.
He pulls away only after licking you clean, a satisfied smirk on his lips as he brings his fingers to his mouth, wanting you to see him suck the last bits of you off. You moan at the sight, dropping your leg back down to the floor, trying your best for them not to give out. It feels like another work out.
"Come here, I need you to know how perfect you taste," he says as he pushes himself up again, chasing after your lips. Wrapping your hands around him as he kisses you, you use it to help you stand straight, needing to hold onto him. As if he could read your mind completely, he pulls away just enough to speak. "Do you have enough energy to stay here?"
You shake your head quickly, not seeing a reason to hide it from him. He nods back, not wasting any more time and picking you up with ease. You hook your legs around his waist while he grips your ass, getting more and more obsessed with touching your naked skin. "Bedroom?" He questions. "Please."
He sounds just as desperate as you are. God. You need to feel him inside. Nodding, you point him towards your bedroom despite knowing he is well aware of your apartment layout. It's not the first time he is over, but it certainly is the first time he's made you come at the door. Hopefully, it's not the last one, though.
Before you can even register being put down, Taehyun is already undressing, enjoying the way your eyes trail down his body. If you thought he was hot before, you are completely gone now. As soon as his shirt is off and you get a look at his build torso, you get wet all over again.
"Condoms?" He asks, his eyes locked on yours as he undoes his belt. Jesus. Can't he think about you a bit more? How are you supposed to not bounce on him instantly â even without getting that condom first â when he looks like this?
"In the drawer," you nod your head towards your bedside table and he nods, dropping his belt on the ground and pulling down his zipper as he walks around the bed to get it. You make yourself more comfortable as you watch him get rid of the last bits of clothing as well, climbing onto the bed to join you.
Your eyes fall to his cock even before he starts rolling the condom over his length, your pussy clenching around nothing at the sight. You don't think you could even explain how pretty his dick is.
"Tae, please," you look up at him, batting your eyelashes. A barely audible groan leaves his lips as he closes the space between you and presses his lips to yours, his cock rubbing against your clit. Your hands wander across his naked skin, feeling the hard build muscles you're starting to appreciate a lot more than before.
Moaning into each other's mouths, his tip stretches your walls, taking his time with each inch. For a moment, you forget completely that he's one of your friends, everything you feel too much to be considered that. From the pleasure to the pound of your heart as he whispers sweet praises into your ear.
You rock your hips against his, meeting his rhythm. There's a loud yell in your head, begging for more despite his cock already filling you so much. "Turn around," you whine and Taehyun listens, flipping the both of you so he's not laying on his back with ease. As you sit on top now, you feel him even deeper, your hand resting against his chest for support.
His eyes stay locked on you, flickering between your face, bouncing tits, and the spot where his cock disappears into your body. He can't get enough. Thrusting his hips into you harder, the sounds you make get louder. It's a song to his ears.
Bringing his hands up, he squeezes your boobs, rolling your nipples between two of his fingers. You bite on your bottom lip to prevent the loud sounds from escaping, but it doesn't work as well as you'd like, the pleasure he brings you stronger than your want to stay quiet.
"I'm gonna come," you cry, rubbing your clit to help yourself get over the edge.
"Fuck," he groans. "You're taking me so well, I'm going to come too."
Still playing with your breasts, he takes you to another orgasm, moaning with you as you drop your head to his shoulders and sink your teeth into his skin, needing to focus on something other than the intense orgasm crashing down your body. As soon as you do, he paints the condom white as well. The sound he makes as he comes must be the prettiest one you've heard in a while.
Giving you a few more sloppy thrusts to help you both ride it out, he tries to help you off him only for you to sit right back down on his cock again. "What areâ"
"Please," you cry. "Just one more." Raising your head to look at him, you watch as his eyes flicker with want. His cock is as hard as if he didn't just come.
"You're going to be the death of me," he moans, claiming your lips in his. "Let me get the whole pack you have, baby, I think we'll need them."
SUMMARY: When your best friends gets a little jealous but he seriously has nothing to worry about.
DISCLAIMERS: guys idk this was random and also just smau, more fluff, all pictures are from pinterest and are not mine!!!!!! thank u enjoy, txtblr email me, intak p1harmony mention and minji new jeans ok?
đ mikaâs message heâs gonna get eaten by me. a big bite will be taken out of him and you guys are not gonna look at me okay???
"You seemed to have garnered quite the reputation for you on campusâ one that had the word âtroubleâ following you like a shadow. But when you give Beomgyu an offer he couldnât possibly turn down in exchange for helping you get your grades back up, how could he refuse? You canât possibly be that hard to handle, right?"
Beomgyu x fem!reader, ft. Hueningkai
Genre: college au, slowburn (kinda..?), tutor!gyu x rich girl!mc, fluff, angst, smut
Word count: 37.1K
Warnings: mc is a bitch, and maybe a bimbo? gyu wears glasses, and heâs like super super shy, mc gets sick for a scene, she rambles but its part of her character ok!, toxic relationships, pining/unrequited love, Yunjin is so fake here im sorry Yunjin, mentions of alcohol/drinking, the puppy gyu agenda is fucking strong here !!!
Smut warnings: multiple smut scenes first of all, fwb!huening, dom!hyuka, switch!mc, sub!gyu, (the worst case of sub gyu yet), virgin!gyu, breast play, dry humping, biting, pet names (f rec: princess, m rec: puppy, good boy, baby, slut, etc.)Â mentions of bondage (f. rec.), spanking (f. rec.), degrading, praise, praise kink, finger sucking, oral (f. & m rec.), handjobs, mouth fucking, cum eating (?), explicit, verbal consent is not stated in two scenes but both parties are willing! Semi-public sex, overstimulation, slight thigh riding, marking, hair pulling (m. rec. lol), begging, unprotected sex, creampie, multiple orgasms, cockwarming
notes: i don't even know what to say... there's really no reason for this to be so long, how did we get here. i hide my face in shame.
It all starts as an accidentâ a very inconvenient accident.
Really, it wasnât your fault; how were you supposed to keep up with these endless assignments that only seemed to get worse as time went on? You had better things to do with your lifeâ studying is way too much of a headache for you these days.Â
Instead, your days have been filled along the lines of parties and trips your friends hold, gaining connections with people that always help things go next level; Empty vacation homes, yachts, even a private jet onceâ you were lucky enough to land a friendship with these type of people, the thought of taking things slow and worrying more about your education not crossing your mind anymore once you got a taste of the fast life.Â
Which is exactly how you got where you are now.Â
âThere goes your man,â Yunjinâs elbow is sharp against your side as she whispers teasingly, the jab only making your frown deepen as you weakly attempt to shake her off.Â
âShut up.â Thatâs all you can manage as you go to lay your head down on the dining hall table, your appetite long gone as your head swims and your stomach twists with nausea; her single jab is enough to remind your body of its terrible shape, your eyes shutting tightly as you fight through the urge to hurl then and there.Â
Youâre not even sure of what she might meanâ you donât remember telling her about any recent hookupsâ hell, you donât even remember gawking at anyone in your vicinity; so for her to be teasing you about this âmanâ of yours was strange, a pout forming on your lips as you try to focus on the cool feeling of the wood beneath your skin.
âI gotta go,â Yunjin says abruptly, your eyes opening to send her a confused look. All she can do is give you an eager smile, patting your head as she grabs her now empty coffee cup from the table. âYour man is coming this way.â
Before you can ask her what man she could possibly be talking about, sheâs off, not bothering to look back as she sends you a little wave over her shoulder, perfectly manicured nails glittering under the sunlight that shines through the windows.Â
The seat in front of yours is quickly filled.Â
âYou werenât at our study session yesterday.â
Jesus.Â
Thereâs not much you can say to that, clearly guilty as you choose to press your forehead against the cool table in response. Maybe, if you close your eyes, heâll disappearâ if only it were that easy. But instead, youâre stuck with Choi Beomgyu and the warm scent of coffee that follows himâ god knows how many cups he drank as a substitution for sleep. Your lashes flutter against the table as you attempt to drown out his whines, surprised that he hasn't taken your unresponsiveness as a hint to go away.
âHave you ever gone to Paris?â You ask, the sentence flying from your mouth and interrupting his rambles. Itâs enough to shut him up, sitting up as you plant your hands firmly on the table in a weak attempt to not lay your head back down.
âNo, I havenât.â
His response is typicalâ you didnât care whether or not he would say yes, leaning into the table as you stare into his eyes; itâs clear heâs flustered by the action, leaning back in reciprocation as his pupils land everywhere but on you.Â
âIf you had the chance to go to Paris right now, would you?â It takes a moment before Beomgyu nods his head hesitantly, mouth opening as he prepares a new line of questioning for you. But youâre quick to cut him off again, clapping your hands in satisfaction as you stand upâ his eyes follow your every movement, face resembling a lost puppy as he watches the way you get ready to leave.
âExactly; Paris really is beautiful by the way, definitely recommend going. So you canât blame me for ditching our study session yesterday, can you?â Tilting your head, you watch the puzzles connect in his mind. âWe can always make it up or whatever, not that big of a deal.â
Turning around, you donât bother saying goodbye to Beomgyu; your only thoughts center on your beautiful, comfy bed and how youâll spend the rest of your day in it. You can hear him calling out to you, the sound of a chair scraping against tile catching your attention as you force yourself to walk faster.Â
âWe have class in fifteen minutesâ where are you going?!â
Heâs gaining up on you. You donât care if you have to sprint out of the building, but the last thing youâll do is get stuck in another of Beomgyuâs self-righteous rambles as you curse wildly under your breath.Â
âHomeâ Iâm sick!âÂ
Carelessly, the exit door is slammed on Beomgyuâs faceâ by accident, of course. Glancing back, youâre able to catch a glimpse of his pathetic puppy face, clearly discouraged from trying to continue chasing after you.Â
Normally, one would be compelled to feel guiltyâ but the day is simply too nice, the weather so perfect as a spring wind brushes past your skin; the sun that slightly worsens your headache truly doesnât seem that bad anymore.Â
A perfect day to drive around and shop, in your humble opinion.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ
This new purse would be divine in your collection.Â
The luxury bag in your hands is sleek and smooth as your fingertips glaze over the details, entranced by its chic beauty as you let your thoughts wanderâ formal events, birthday dinners, oh, the places you could take itâŚ
The price tag is no jokeâ it has you counting numbers in your head, pondering just how much of your monthly allowance you have left; if you buy it now, youâll have to say goodbye to the girlsâ trip at Yunjinâs beach house in CancunâŚ
Treat yourself, a tiny voice whispers in your mind, you can always beg your parents for more money.Â
The devil on your shoulder is compellingâ it warps your vision, a pout forming on your face as it practically forces your eyes to see the item in a heavenly light; the last item in that specific collection, and itâs right at your disposal, only a card swipe awayâŚ
âPretty bag,â your little devil hums, âIt would look nice with that little black dress youâre always looking for an excuse to wear.âÂ
His hand is delicate and teasing on your shoulder, his hold on you tight as he pulls you into him protectively. Youâre not as surprised as you should be as you look up at Hueningkai, pouting face innocently looking up at him as you shake your head in distress.Â
âI shouldnât. Iâm supposed to go with Yunjin to Cancun during spring break,â you whine, petulant as always as you refuse his reasoningâ yet also refuse to let go of the bag and walk away.Â
Anyone who knows you knows how you get about accessoriesâ how obsessive you become with collecting them, your closet always filled to the brim as your need to buy becomes a borderline addiction.Â
Maybe thatâs why Hueningkai finds your dilemma so amusing, deft fingers snatching the purse from your hands and walking away wordlessly, leaving you to trot behind him as you continue to rant and stall, lingering by his side as a new item catches your eye; you inspect it curiously while the words uncontrollably fly out of your mouth.Â
âI mean itâs not like I donât have enough money, cause I could always ask my parents for moreâ and theyâd gladly give it to meâ but I always feel so horrible to ask for more, especially now that Iâm supposed to be getting more independent, even though they always talk about spoiling me because Iâm their only daughter, but still, I really want it but if I buy it Iâll have to ask them for more money, and itâs not even a big deal but it feelsââ
âOh my god, okay!â It seems you were too distracted by the tweed Chanel bag in your hands to anticipate the shopping bag that Hueningkai thrusts into your hands, exasperated at your ramblings as he swiftly manages to shut you up.Â
Youâre left speechless, sorting through the filling paper dumbly as youâre greeted with the same bag that Hueningkai snatched from youâ your sparkly eyes look up at him in awe, unsure of what to say as he simply smiles at your reaction.Â
âHueningâŚâ you pout, clutching the bag to your chest with one hand as you slap his chest with the otherâ his very firm, strong chest⌠âyou shouldnât have.â
Heâs quick to wrap an arm around your waist, pulling you into him and guiding you out of the store as he leans into you; you can smell his cologne so perfectly, his lips brushing against your ear as he whispers softly into it.
âItâs okay,â he smiles, endeared by the way your eyes shine with anticipation to his words, âI know of a few ways you can make it up to me.âÂ
Thereâs no need to call your driverâ Hueningkai knows the way to your apartment like the back of his hand, one relaxed at the steering wheel while the other plays with the hem of those skirts you always like to wear.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
âYouâre such a tease,â Hueningkaiâs lips are plump and bitten at as you smile against them, his hands never straying from your ass as he grasps at it, enjoying the way you grind against him expertly.
âJust wanna make you feel good,â you pant, the warm feeling of his hands on your tight-clad thighs making you whine, your pussy slotted perfectly against him as you feel the way he grows harder underneath you.
âYouâre always so good to meâŚâ you trail off the moment his lips begin to wander down your neck, attempting to pull off your thin sweater as his hands immediately find themselves on your breasts. He can only let out a breathy laugh at your words, his teeth sinking in the plump flesh softly before his fingers are working your bra off.Â
âAlways buying you your favorite things?â He rasps, groaning softly at the sight of your breasts, fingers playing with your nipples as he looks up at you teasingly, âmy princess will do anything for a pretty purse, hmm?âÂ
Frantically, you nod, his hips bucking into you as you feel the way his cock presses against you effortlessly; heâs as eager as you are, warm tongue on your skin making your thoughts run wild as you imagine what it would feel like to have him pressed against your cunt, helpless to your needs as your fingers card through his hair.
âCome on pretty girl, show me how grateful you are,â your thoughts are immediately dispelled as Hueningkai pushes you off, a gentle hand pushing away your hair before heâs guiding you down to your knees; his favorite sight, your doe eyes fluttering at him innocently as your hands make quick work of his belt. He canât help but groan at the sight before him, lip caught in his teeth as he silently wishes for you to hurry.Â
Hueningkai takes the belt from your hands, placing it to the side as he smiles down at you coylyâ you can feel your stomach flip in anticipation, your mind going back to the many memories of your face pressed into the mattress as your bound hands desperately begged to touch him. Your fingers are delicate as they pull down his zipperâ heâs become impatient, lips parting as he gets ready to make a witty comment.Â
His thoughts are interrupted by a persistent ringing of your doorbell.Â
Heâs devastated as he flops back into your mattressâ a loud groan escapes him, brows furrowing as he grows irritated at the ringing that echoes throughout your apartment.Â
âJesus, what the fuck is their problem?â He complains, running a hand through his hair before he sits back up; heâs smiling fondly at you as he caresses your cheek, sighing softly as he nods his head towards the door, âgo see who it is, wonât you princess? Make it quick.âÂ
The look that you two share is nothing but mischievous, his lips connecting with yours in a chaste kiss as he helps you up; heâs tugging your sweater roughly over your chest, straightening your skirt before heâs sending you offâ not without one last feel of you, the stinging sensation that lingers on your ass making you yelp as you send him a playful glareâ he can only send you a sly look in return.Â
This better be important, you canât help but think, sighing heavily as another three persistent rings of your doorbell echo throughoutâ you groan, rolling your eyes as you swing the door open wildly.
You canât say youâre surprised as Beomgyu stares back at you in shock, his wide eyes blinking rapidly as he takes you in.
âWhat.â Your tone is unwelcoming as you lean against your doorframe, arms crossing to cover your chest as you raise a brow at him in anticipationâ he stutters uselessly, pushing up his glasses as his eyes fly about your apartment wildlyâ refusing to look at you for more than a second.Â
âYou didnât answer my messages,â or calls, he whispers weakly, tugging at the hem of his sweater as he stares down at his dirtied shoes, his other arm hidden behind his back. He clears his throat, gulping as he looks into your eyes, pushing past the annoyed look that greets him as he continues, âYou didnât look well this morning, so I wanted to check up on you.â
Youâre not sure what to say as Beomgyu whips out what was hidden behind his backâyouâre leaning back as you stare at the cute, floral lunch bag that Beomgyu thrusts into your face, hesitantly taking it as you look back at Beomgyu in confusion; it feels warm in your arms.
âItâs soup.â He says, his ears reddening as he takes in the bewildered way youâre staring at him, âItâs my mom's recipe, itâsâ itâs really good.â
âYeah? Weâll be the judge of that,â Hueningkai has snuck up behind you as he wraps an arm around your waist, effectively pushing you back against himâ you can feel how hard he is against the swell of your ass, eyes widening as you get what heâs hinting at, impatient fingers digging into your skin softly.Â
Beomgyu seems just as surprised as you are at Hueningkaiâs appearance, if not more. It becomes your turn to become embarrassed as you look over your shoulder to meet Hueningkaiâs smug smile, his eyes glistening with curiosity as he looks back at Beomgyu, tilting his head as he frowns.
âWho are you anyway?âÂ
Beomgyu seems quite offended by his statement, looking at you in shock. Youâre scrambling to cut Hueningkai off, letting out a soft laugh as you place a firm hand on his chestâ the last thing you need is for Hueningkai to drive away one of the few people that would be willing to tutor you.Â
âHeâs just helping me out in some classes, thatâs all,â you say, placing the lunch bag in his hands before youâre shooing him away, âPut this on the kitchen counterâ Iâll see you in a bit.âÂ
Beomgyu doesnât miss the look the two of you shareâ if anything, it makes his stomach twist in embarrassment, wanting to do nothing more than turn around and pretend as though he hadnât interrupted you while you wereâ whatever it was. Hueningkai is cheery as he walks back into your apartment, not bothering to spare Beomgyu another glance as he disappears from your sight; your clearing throat is what gets Beomgyuâs mind back on track.Â
âRight. Well,â you say, smiling awkwardly as you reach out for the door, âIâm feeling better. Thanks though!âÂ
Beomgyu is unable to get out another word as youâre closing the door on him, sneaking in a last comment as you cheerily yell âtell your mom I said thank you!â Uncaring of his reaction as the door shuts in his face; he suddenly thinks back to this morning, shuddering at the memory of him having to walk back to the other exit of the dining hall, towards the building his classes were inâ your shared class, specificallyâ forced to ignore the strange looks everyone gave him as he stared straight at the ground.Â
âIsnât he younger than us? Why was he talking to me like that,â he quietly pouts, his protests left unheard as heâs forced to walk back home, eyes glued to the sidewalk in dismayâ the feeling is dreadfully familiar.
âWell thatâs sad,â Hueningkai remarks, peeking through your blinds as he watches Beomgyuâs figure grow smaller, âAre you actually gonna eat that?â
His eyes flick back to the lunch bag that sits innocently at your counterâyou simply shrug, feeling oddly protective of the item as you tuck it behind you, leaning against the counter as you sigh softly.
âHis mom made it, Iâd feel bad if I didnât,â you say, biting at your lips as you watch the way Hueningkai laughs in disbelief. You feel a bit bad as you think back to the way you turned him away, his expression pitiful and sad as you slammed the door on his face for the second time today. Yet you donât get much time to think about it as Hueningkai begins to approach you, hands effortlessly finding themselves on your waist as your head tilts to meet his lips in a sweet, slow kiss.Â
âCanât believe he interrupted us for so long,â you feel him smile against your lips as he presses you back against the counter, ready to hike your skirt up as his other hand is eagerly wrapping your leg around his waist, âwill you make it up to me?â
Beomgyu disappears from your mind like smokeâ the smile against your lips is contagious, your hand gently pressing against his chest as you roll your hips teasingly into his, a broken moan falling from both your lips.Â
âOf course.â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
The rest of the day is quite underwhelming.Â
Youâve been left with a good fuck and a nice purse, but as you lay in your bed, you canât help but notice the way your headache never really leftâ itâs been nothing but a dull ache until now, the pain persistent and growing as you sigh in exasperation; none of your usual remedies have worked for you so far.Â
Your body feels hot and weak, yet youâre left shivering as the blankets keep endlessly stacking on top of you. Not even your weighted blanket can lull you to sleep, your figure restless as you toss and turn in your bed, your phone buried in your puzzle of fabric. Youâre in nothing but painâ you hate feeling like this, and the sudden grumbling of your stomach truly isnât helping either.Â
Left with no other options, you trudge to the kitchen, opening your fridge as you mentally brace yourselfâ itâs been a while since youâve shopped for groceries; thereâs not much in there that you could eat quickly, and you canât find any energy within you to cook.Â
The cool fridge door is welcoming against your skinâ yet itâs also bothersome as you begin to shiver at the cold, closing the fridge quickly as you frown to yourself; whatever your body has come down with, it sure is annoying. Taking a moment to think, you suddenly find your eyes gravitating to a certain item; ergo, the floral lunch bag that remains untouched on your counter.Â
It hasnât been that longâ an hour or two, at most. Whatever Beomgyu gave you couldnât have spoiled by now, right?Â
Itâs soup, you recall him saying, biting your lip as you take the lunch bag to your small table, my mom's recipe.Â
Unpacking the contents, you hum in surpriseâ yeah, this looks like a mothers cooking. The Tupperware heâs provided you with is filled to the brim with a nice broth that is still warm to the touch, a side of rice and vegetables also packed inside for you; youâre unable to stop a small awe from escaping you as you take out a small container of tea that has been stored inside for you as well, surprised at how much Beomgyuâs mother packed for you.Â
Does she think weâre friends? Is this her way of making me stick with him? You wonder, biting at your lip as you hold back a laugh at the thoughtâ a poor mommaâs boy, struggling to make friends as his mother attempts to subtly help him.Â
Itâs no secret that Beomgyu was a bit of a lonerâ thatâs why you reached out to him in the first place. You knew he wouldnât be able to refuse you, because he couldnât even give you the excuse that he had no time; that, and the hefty sum you gave him in exchange for tutoring someone as difficult as you.Â
To a degree, you were self-awareâ but it only came after the fifth person rejected your offer, saying that you probably wouldnât even commit once you started. No matter how pissed you were when you were first told that, you were unable to disagree; unfortunately, it also sparked a deep spiraling of self-reflection as your new self-awareness brought you to Beomgyu; by then you were so desperate and ashamed that Beomgyu probably only accepted because he felt bad.Â
Tutoring with Beomgyu had its benefits; he was nice, and quite the pushover as well. He never protested too much when you canceled on him, and the most you ever got from being annoying was a long scolding or an exasperated sigh from himâ plus, now it seems that free food has been thrown into the mix.
Settling down at the table, you found yourself oddly restless as you went to fetch a small blanket from your bedâ it was only then that you were able to find your phone, gasping as it landed roughly on the floor. Going back to the kitchen, you were now able to make yourself comfortable, sitting at your table as you took off the lids of everything that was packed for youâ even the tea was still nice and warm in its thermos, everything packed with such care and attention to detail that you couldnât help but take a picture of it.Â
It was delicious as well; the soup was comforting and not too overwhelming on your senses as you mixed in bites of the white rice, fluffy and cooked to perfection as you melted in your seat with every spoonful. The vegetables were steamed and well seasoned; you practically squealed from happiness as you ate, not used to having such a big meal cooked by someone else these days.Â
It filled you up quicklyâ the ginger tea was soothing against your throat, the taste of honey and lime mixed in leaving you warm and fuzzy as you tiredly trudged to bed; youâd have to beg Beomgyu to invite you to his motherâs house later.Â
Maybe it did work, you briefly think to yourself, your mind quickly emptying as you make yourself comfortable in your bed, that only made me want to talk to Beomgyu moreâ maybe it wouldnât be too bad being his friend.Â
A soft laugh escapes you at the thoughtâ your eyelids feel heavy as you struggle to stay awake, eager to sleep through this brief sickness that threatens to overtake you. After this, youâre sure itâll be an easy recovery.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
You think youâre dying.Â
Youâre hot and sweaty as you kick away your blankets for the umpteenth time, irritated as your body quickly begins to shiver instead. Youâre only able to sleep for a few hours at a time, on the verge of tears as the clock on your bedside table reads nine pmâ youâre unsure of what to do, already taking medication a few hours ago that seemed to do nothing. Your body is burning up as you toss and turn a bit more, dreading the new train of thought that enters your mind.
Maybe you should call someone.
Maybe theyâll know what to do, you think, holding back nausea that threatens to knock you out as you slowly sit up; scrolling through your contacts, you hesitantly press call to the first person you could think of.Â
It rings onceâ then again, then a few times more before it goes straight to voicemail.Â
âHey, youâve reached Yunjinâs voicemail. Please leave a messaââ you sigh as you hang up, attempting to call a few times more before you give up entirely.Â
Sheâs probably at a party. Or with some boy.Â
Scrolling through your contacts, you choose your next person carefullyâ youâre sure theyâre not busy right now, theyâve never been one to go to parties as oftenâÂ
Ning Ningâs phone goes straight to voicemail as well.Â
Groaning, you lay back as you feel your head pounding, your mind racing as you attempt to go through a mental checklist of who you could callâ but all you can conclude is that theyâre busy, wouldnât want to help, or youâre simply not that close to them.
âWhat the hell,â you mumble, pressing your face against your pillow as you sniffle softlyâ your headache has become unbearable, and youâve always been a big crybaby whenever you got sick.Â
âDo I not have any friends?â You ponder, your stomach sinking at the thoughtâ thereâs no way! If anything, your phone was always on silent from the number of notifications you got in a day; you always knew at least ten people when you walked in a room, the elite definition of a social butterflyâ the last thing you would consider yourself is friendless.Â
Maybe itâs just an unlucky time, you think, playing Russian roulette with your contacts as your finger presses on a random one; Hueningkai <;3 glares back at you in bright letters, your eyes narrowing as you consider callingâ heâs always been one to spoil you, so it wouldnât be too far-fetched for him to help you this once, right?
Youâre nervous as the phone rings out into your room, your fingers tapping on your bed impatiently as you wait for him to pick upâ just when you think he wonât, his voice greets your ears like a miracle.Â
âHey baby, whatâs up?â His voice is a bit rough as he speaks, his speech slow and relaxed as your eyes narrow at the sound; heâs probably high again.Â
âHueningkai,â you cry out softly, unable to help the way you become emotional in your stateâ your voice is muffled, your face buried in your pillow as the pain becomes far too overwhelming.Â
âAre you okay? Whatâs wrong?â His voice has become more alert at the sound of your sniffling, the sounds of rustling from his side making you wince, your hand going to lower the volume of your phone.Â
âDunno. Iâm sick,â you say, flipping over onto your back as you stare up at the ceilingâ you feel tired, yet youâre unable to get comfortable enough to sleep. You hear more rustling on the other side of the phoneâ Hueningkai sighs, mumbling something to himself before he clears his throat.
âWhy donât you go to the doctor, hmm?â You frown at his words, shaking your head at the thoughtâ you werenât really expecting this outcome.Â
âIâ I canât really get up, I feel dizzyâŚâ you confess sheepishly, the realization that you truly donât have enough energy to even stand for too long weighing down on you, âI was wondering if you could come over?âÂ
âCome over?â Hueningkai echoes, humming softly at the thoughtâ itâs silent, the tension leaving you biting at your lips as you wait for him to respond.
âListen, uhm,â you sigh softly at his words, closing your eyes as you attempt to ignore the way your stomach dips with disappointment, âIâm kinda busy right now. But if you want, you can call me tomorrow and I can take you to the doctor, âkay?âÂ
Attempting to swallow down your disappointment, you nod, a moment of silence passing before you realize that he canât even see you.Â
âYeah. Okay.â Thereâs a lump in your throat as you speak, and you canât help but feel the way your body heats up as the line falls silent; from embarrassment, this time. Itâs awkward, but you canât bring yourself to care as Hueningkai mumbles a soft âokay then. Goodnight,â the sound of him hanging up the last thing you hear before youâre shrouded in complete silence, the darkness of your room threatening to swallow you whole.Â
The sound of your stomach growling angrily is the only thing that breaks the silence.Â
A frustrated groan tears through youâ youâre oddly emotional as you force yourself to sit up, pausing as you attempt to maintain balance; your head is spinning, and youâre beginning to realize how long itâs been since you last ate. The floor is cold under your feet as you trudge to the kitchen; you canât bring yourself to turn on the lights, your slippers lost somewhere in your room as you feel a shiver wrack through your body.Â
What will you do? Your fridge is practically empty and takeout doesnât sound too appealing to you; you can feel tears well up in your eyes once more, a pout forming on your face as you slump down on a chair in defeat. Sighing, you think back to earlierâ the homemade food Beomgyu brought to you, so soothing and filling it almost reminded you of the meals your cook back at home would make for youâ maybe you could call your driver to take you home for a bit.Â
Itâs hours away and heâs probably off right now, you frown, checking the time on your phone just in caseâ 9:45â yeah, heâs definitely home by now. Of course, nothing is stopping you from calling him and telling him itâs an emergency, but then youâd feel far too guilty about ripping him away from his family just for you.Â
He spends enough time at our home as it is, you think, placing your phone on the table as you go to massage your temples weakly. You need to eat somethingâ maybe youâll get some energy from it. But, picky as always, you canât seem to find anything that sounds appealing to you; even the restaurant you frequently eat at doesn't seem to be doing anything for you, your mind inevitably going back to the one thing you were avoiding.Â
Hesitantly, you pick up your phoneâ you canât believe youâre actually going to try this, you think, biting at your lip before you finally press call; then again, this isnât entirely out of character for you.
A lonely college student that doesnât have many friendsâ if anything, heâs probably up studying right now, you think, frowning as you press your phone firmly to your ear, and if he was willing to check up on me, he should be willing to do this small thing for me too.Â
âHello?â The relief that floods through you is surprising; youâre becoming lax against your seat as the sound of Beomgyuâs uncertain voice meets your earsâ his voice is gruff and soft as he speaks, unsure of whether or not you called him on purpose.Â
âChoi Beomgyu,â you whine, already feeling yourself becoming unnecessarily emotional as you allow yourself to rant to him, âIâm sick. Can you do me a small favor?âÂ
On his end, Beomgyu is oddly surprisedâ why would you go to him of all people? Heâs a bit weary as he listens to you carefully, thinking back to the way you were able to shut him out effortlessly; if anything, he mustâve been your last resort.
âWhat is it?âÂ
Youâre unable to hold back the sigh of relief that escapes youâ a smile graces your lips, and for the first time during this miserable experience, you donât feel helpless.Â
âOkay, hear me out please,â you start, sitting up as you clear your throat; unbeknownst to Beomgyu, youâre about to begin one of your infamous ramblings.Â
âI know you might be busy studying or whatever, but I promise Iâll be quick. So, you remember the food you gave me earlier? I actually ate it, and it was really good! Your mom is a good cook, but then again, Iâm pretty sure all moms are pretty good cooks. But like, Iâm gonna be honest with you, I forgot to get groceries earlier this week, so I donât really have much to eatâ I could go order takeout or something but the thought of eating something greasy right now makes me wanna puke. I was thinking that since you probably donât go out that much your mom might have given you extra servings of that soup, and I know it sounds really entitled and a bit bitchy but do you think you could please please please drop some off?Â
âI promise Iâll pay you whatever and you seriously only need to drop it off at my door, itâs just that her cooking was really good and I almost started crying when I ate itâ I get really emotional when Iâm sick so I also think itâd be best for you to leave as quickly as you can; please please please please I promise I wonât ditch our study sessions for a good week at least, Iâll be good and study! I just think Iâm gonna pass out right now and your momâs food is the only thing I can think of right now⌠please?â
You feel out of breath as you finally finish your seemingly endless rambleâ on the other side of the line, Beomgyu lets out an exasperated laugh.Â
âYeah. Okay. Iâll be there.â Youâre not sure when you began to get emotional over nothing, but youâre surprised to feel hot tears streaming down your face at Beomgyuâs words, a few hiccups escaping you as you let out a soft really? âYeah, Iâll just leave it at your doorstep.â
Standing up, you stumble a bit as you wipe your tears away. If you hadnât scared Beomgyu away before, you surely did now.Â
âDrop it off inside. My doorâs gonna be unlocked.â
Thereâs an odd pause after you say that; youâre about to question what happened before you hear rustling on his side of the phone, Beomgyuâs soft hum the last thing you hear before he lets out a soft âokay. Iâll be there.â Youâre unable to thank him as heâs quick to hang upâ and the exhaustion that has been building up inside you all day is suddenly released, the promise of food making your brain at ease as you slowly make your way over to the couch.Â
Youâre so tiredâ a small nap wouldnât hurt, right? It would be nice to wake up to the sight of food at my doorstep, you think, a small smile easing onto your face as you find yourself curling up at the end of your couch; oh, you really canât help yourselfâ your eyelids are becoming excruciatingly heavy.Â
For the umpteenth time today, you allow yourself to sleepâ even if itâll only last twenty minutes at most.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Beomgyu is a little off-put as he peeks inside your apartment.Â
He feels odd, extremely guilty, and a bit shameful as he pops his head inside, all of his calls have gone to voicemail as he chose the next best optionâ you did say your door was unlocked, after all.Â
He expected you to be scolding him for taking so long after forty minutes had passed, but he found himself pleasantly surprised (and somewhat worried) when his phone remained entirely unbothered; so now here he stands, multiple heavy bags filled with ingredients in his hands as he kicks off his shoes clumsily.Â
He finds you fast asleep on the couch; heâs extremely concerned at how trusting you are, but he decides to chalk it up to the fact that your skin is burning hot to the touch and youâre probably not thinking straightâ Beomgyu is quick to pull his palm away from your forehead the moment you stir even slightly, jolting into action as he flees into your kitchen instead.Â
Placing the bags on your table, he looks back at you in worryâ all he can do for now is wet a few paper towels, wringing out as much water as he can before heâs making his way to you cautiously; youâre burning up and sweaty as he dabs the towel on your skin, tutting softly as he finally places the towel on your forehead.Â
âI knew you werenât feeling well,â he scolds you softly, pulling the blanket that has fallen off your shoulders back on you carefully before heâs pulling away, rolling his eyes at the sight, âyouâre lucky you practically pay my bills.â
Quietly, Beomgyu gets to workâ he feels a bit bad for rummaging through your kitchen so boldly, but heâs sure you wouldnât really mind if you woke up; youâre the one who invited him in the first place.Â
At some point, Beomgyu finds himself quite comfortable in your kitchenâ itâs quite spacious and allows him to get lost deep in his thoughts; he gets so comfortable, in fact, that heâs unable to pick up on the fact that youâre wide awake and slowly trudging your way to him.Â
âChoi Beomgyu,â the sound of your voice is enough for him to practically jump out of his skin, narrowly missing his finger as he hurriedly drops the knife in his hands, spinning around wildly as he presses himself tightly against the counterâ your tired and puffy face is eerily close to his as your lidded eyes stare up at him, still heavy with sleep as you frown softly.Â
âWhat,â you mumble softly, taking in his flustered expression before your eyes are wandering to the mess behind himâ the cutting board of vegetables, the stovetop that is busy with two pots simmering away, a familiar aroma filling your apartment; your eyes flick back to the way he seems both guilty and embarrassed, your head tilting as he watches you slowly piece everything together, âwhat is all this? Whereâs your mom's food?â
Well, maybe not.
Beomgyu sighsâ the sight of him shaking his head in dismay is enough to have your eyes widening with surprise, watching as he slowly turns his back to you; the constant rhythm of him cutting vegetables is the only sound that fills the room, and it seems that Beomgyu wonât be answering your question any time soon; youâre ready to protest and annoy him until he talks, but it seems heâs quick to beat you to it.Â
âMy mom wasnât the one who made it,â he sighs, putting his knife down as he quickly goes to the pot of soup to give it a mix; your eyes are fluttering shut at the smell, a small smile gracing your lips as you fight the urge to have a taste then and there; but youâre snapped back to reality from his words, stammering as you look at him in confusion.Â
âButâ you said it wasââ
âMy mother's recipe,â he draws out, dropping the seasoned vegetables into a third pot as you watch them get steamed, âIâm the one who made the food.â
You think back to the floral lunch bag he handed to you hours earlier; how he seemed so hesitant to give it to you, oddly pouty as he watched the way you were quick to hand it to someone elseâ you feel yourself become embarrassed by your behavior, oddly defensive as you remember how much you begged for him to give you another taste.
âOh. Okay,â you say, clearing your throat as you slump back down on a chairâ you found it entirely too exhausting to be standing for that long, âit was the next best thing for me anywayâ my driver is off right now so I have no one to take me anywhere.â
âI see youâre feeling better,â Beomgyu mumbles, rolling his eyes at your actions as your usual bratty self resurfaces; he almost found your delirious, emotional self from earlier more welcoming than this, forced to listen to more of your ramblings as you watch him cook.Â
âNo. Not at all actually,â you complain, the ache in your body suddenly much more noticeable than it was a few minutes ago as you cross your legs on the chair; youâre huddled up in your blanket again, staring at his back as you practically take out your pain on him, âmy head feels like its gonna explodeâ my bodyâs so fucking hot but I canât take this blanket off or else Iâll feel like Iâm freezing my ass off. I donât know what to do because I never get sick like this; if anything, I shouldâve called our family doctor instead of you.âÂ
You feel a bit bad as the words come out sharper than you intendedâ Beomgyu is easy to read as he flinches at your statement, head ducked down and an awkward silence permeating the room as he says nothing in response.Â
ââŚyouâre lucky your mom taught you how to cook,â you backtrack, your voice oddly soft as you press your lips together; you refuse to say anything more as you curl up tightly on the chair, laying your head down on the table as you attempt to let your blanket shield you from the worldâ youâre back to your unpredictable, emotional self as you feel a lump forming in your throat, a feeling of longing forming inside you as you wish you were home instead of here, pestering your poor tutor in exchange for a hefty sum of money.
âHey,â his voice is much closer than you expected it to be as you peek up from your small fortress, raising a brow as you stare at the glass of water and pills in his hand, âtake this. Iâm guessing you havenât taken any medication for your fever in a while.â
A soft âhmphâ is all that leaves you as you reluctantly accept the medicine (because the truth was that he was right). It isnât until he shows you what heâs giving you as you take the pills begrudgingly; you hate that he can see through you so easily. Chugging down the glass of water, you fail to notice how he waits beside you patiently, sending him a petulant look as you wait for him to say somethingâ instead, he raises a small thermometer to your forehead, taking your temperature as he lets out a soft tsk.
âYour temperature is way too high. Eat, then go back to sleep,â he says, only leaving your side to get you a proper serving of soup; itâs the same meal you had earlier, but youâre oddly excited as you notice the hefty amount of rice he gave you, a new side of him peeking through as he watches you carefullyâ itâs only when you send him a questioning look that he becomes red in the face, clearing his throat awkwardly as he points back to the mess behind him.
âDonât worry about that. Iâll take care of it,â he mumbles, not bothering to look you in the eyes as he quietly begins to take care of the dishes.Â
âI wasnât going to,â you remark, your mouth still full of rice as you scoff softly at his excuseâ you find yourself oddly annoyed with him as you take in just how much heâs doing for you, unable to fathom anyone else doing all this for you, unprovoked.
He must really need the money, you reason with yourself, unsure of why else he would do such a thingâ you roll your eyes at the thought, any intimacy that might have come from all this dissolving into thin air as you become oddly irritated with him.Â
But you will admit, this soup really hits the spot.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Youâre out like a light moments after.Â
If Beomgyu said he was surprised, it would definitely be a lie; you were barely awake on your couch for more than five minutes, and by the time Beomgyu finishes cleaning up and putting away the leftover ingredients in your fridge (which was criminally empty for someone who had so much money) youâre already curled back up in your corner of the couch, your temperature only having gone down slightly as you begin to toss and turn in your sleep.Â
The wet paper towels that Beomgyu had placed on you earlier are folded neatly on your coffee tableâ Beomgyu huffs softly as he discards it, wetting some more before heâs placing it carefully on your forehead; heâs unsure of what else to do now, standing back awkwardly as he considers staying to watch over youâ your condition seemed pretty serious from how high your temperature was, and it certainly didnât help that you straight up rammed into the kitchen table and injured your shin from how unstable you were.Â
And thatâs when you became a crybaby once more.Â
He can still see the lingering tears that cling to your lashes, a soft pout forming on your lips as you shiver slightly at the touch of the cool towel. What to do, he ponders, sitting on the couch opposite to you as he watches over you carefully, heâs not sure if thereâs anyone else that could take care of you.Â
Hell, the fact that heâs here of all people is enough to prove that to him; but also, he should really be studying for that upcoming physics exam that has been concerning him a bit. He glances back at youâ calm, undisturbed, only shifting every once in a while as you tuck yourself deeper into the blanket you wrapped tightly around yourselfâ and he sighs, finding himself oddly torn as he wonders whether he should leave you or not.Â
He could go back home and study, but he knows that he wouldnât get very far, thoughts of you and your condition plaguing his mind as he desperately tried to focus. His thoughts are disrupted as you groan softly in discomfort, shifting restlessly on the couch before your eyes are fluttering open, locking with his instantly.Â
âYouâre still here,â you murmur, squinting at him as you cough softly, âthought youâd be gone by now.âÂ
Beomgyu doesnât like the way youâre looking at him; itâs oddly condescending as he finds himself standing up instantly, clearing his throat as he looks away from you and your searing gaze.Â
âYeah,â he says, feeling strangely flustered as he makes his way to the front door; your eyes follow him the whole way there, and he feels so small under your gaze as he goes to slip his coat on. âI was just leaving.â
âOh. âkay,â you shrug, shifting restlessly on the couch before youâre turning your back to him, curled into a ball as you wave at him weakly, âIâll Venmo you later.â
He canât help but feel bristled at your careless attitude, still not used to the way youâre always ready to spend money at the drop of a hat despite tutoring you for weeks now. Tying his shoes, he canât help but glance at you one last time; it pains him to admit heâs slightly worried for you, but the rational part of him tells him itâs just because he doesnât want you calling him to come back the moment youâre feeling nauseous again.Â
Yet you remain still, resembling a rock as your figure is hidden under countless piles of blanketsâ judging by the steady rise and fall of it, he figures you already fell back asleep.Â
It takes Beomgyu an embarrassingly long time to leaveâ but only because he wanted to make sure you wouldnât wake up spontaneously and start whining, of courseâ you remain dead to the world the whole time he watches over you.Â
By the time Beomgyu finally makes it out of your doorway, he feels more frustrated than anything. Because even once he gets home to study, he canât help but keep his phone close-by, worried that youâll call out of the blue asking for help.Â
His phone remains silent all night.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
The next time Beomgyu sees you, heâs reminded as to why you had so many difficulties getting a tutor.
Youâre flashy and perfect as always as you stand in the doorway of his apartment, arms crossed and eyes no-doubt narrowed behind your expensive designer shades. Your foot is tapping impatiently at the concrete outside as you tilt your head in annoyanceâ Beomgyu had made the mistake to ignore the first few rings of his doorbell, much too distracted by his game to remember that it would be you waiting for him.
âSo? You gonna let me in, or do you need to tidy up first?â Beeomgyuâs mantra consists of how short your lesson will be today and the paycheck heâll get out of itâ one of the perks of you being desperate was that Beomgyu got to raise his rates shamelesslyâ and it takes Beomgyu a second to push past your intimidating and prickly demeanor to nod his head and step aside, watching as you push your shades up and secure them on your head.
It takes you a second to slip out of your shoes as you daintily put them aside, and Beomgyu can feel his ears become hot as he watches the way you wince slightly at the pair of guest slippers he hands youâ though he tries to tell himself you donât mean to be like this, a soothing lie that lets him lead you to his living room as he ignores his insecurity.
âWait, canât we just go to your room? I donât feel like studying on the couch right now,â the yawn that rips through you is uncontrollable as you face away and cover your mouth politelyâ Beomgyu tries to not let his jaw drop to the floor in response. For someone who had never been to his apartment, you sure were demanding. He shouldnât feel too surprised though, given how blunt youâve proved to be the entire time heâs known you.Â
Heâs unable to say no as he gathers the textbook and notebooks on the table and leads the way; he can feel his heart pounding against his chest in fear that youâll judge him, heart pounding slightly as he goes to lead you to where his room is. (He just hopes youâll judge him internally, at the very least.)
Meanwhile, youâve been biting back a smile this whole time; you know youâve been quite bitchy to him this whole time, but youâd like to think itâs karma for making you study first thing at nine in the morningâ his excuse had been the long shift heâd have to cover straight after the tutoring session.Â
Youâre quite surprised at the size and state of his apartment, expecting something much⌠cheaper, as you kept in mind how quick Beomgyu was to do something whenever you offered him money. Yet as you walk to his room, youâre left quiet as you take in the way everything in his home practically shines; his coffee table, the couch that lacks any crumbs or trash, and his carpet that seems to be recently vacuumed.Â
You find yourself so caught up in the appearance of his apartment that you fail to notice another presence in the living room; specifically, one that lets out a loud chirp, your body jumping back from the startle and eyes growing wide as you search for the source of the soundâ your eyes land on a cage tucked in the corner of the room, a bright green bird with big eyes staring at you curiously from within.Â
âWhat the fuck is that?â you say softlyâ much louder than you intended, reallyâ and Beomgyu is turning back around to see what youâre talking about, eyes widening as he realizes youâre currently staring down his bird with a slight wonder.Â
âOhâ thatâs Toto,â Beomgyu says, rushing to put everything in his arms down and scurrying after when he notices you beginning to get closer; heâs hovering over you, taking in your expression of curiosity carefully before he continues. âHeâs my parrot.â
You let out a soft oh. You seem rooted to your spot as you watch the bird continue to climb around the cage, clearly much more active now that Beomgyu is nearby; the said man notes your obvious curiosity, and before he can stop and have any second thoughts, heâs reaching over you to open the cage.Â
âWait wait, whatâre youââ a yelp escapes you and youâre jumping back the moment Beomgyu is reaching inside, hiding behind him and peeking over his shoulder to watch the way he extends a finger out to the birdâ Totoâ your mouth falling open dumbly as you take in the way the bird immediately climbs onto his hand.
Beomgyu is careful to take him out; youâre still peeking from behind him as you stare down his bird with wide eyes, body tensed as though it could fly away any given momentâ youâre flinching in surprise when heâs turning to face you, hands coming up in defense as the bright green bird swings along, not a thought in its beady eyes as itâs suddenly thrust into your faceâ you step back again, the movement sudden and startling the bird as its wings flap slightly, which in turn startles you againâ Beomgyu merely watches in amusement, and he tries his best to contain his laugh in fear of facing your prickly attitude.Â
âWhat the hell,â you breathe out softly, brows twitching and knitting together as you stare at Toto as though it were a foreign creature youâve never seen, âItâs so⌠weird looking.â
Beomgyu can only gawk at your comment.Â
âHeâsâ heâs not,â is all Beomgyu can say in rebuttal, offended as he looks over at Toto, examining him in reassurance before he pulls his pet closer to his chest.Â
âHeâs a handsome little bird,â Beomgyu mutters, and youâre sure you definitely werenât supposed to hear that, watching in amazement as Beomgyu strokes Totoâs head fondly, the said bird bowing its head so he can get better access, âyouâre such a cool guy, donât listen to her Toto.â
Glancing back at you, Beomgyu seems to realize what heâs just said, and blushes a soft pinkâ though youâre not sure why heâs acting so shy, youâve literally been standing there the whole timeâ and he clears his throat awkwardly, casting his gaze back to his pet and running his finger along the bird gently before heâs speaking again.Â
âDo you wanna hold him?â
âIâ what?!â you say indignantly, eyes growing the size of saucers as you stare at him, acting as though heâs just told you something extremely offensive, âI donât want that thing near me, what if itâ itâŚâ
Youâre trailing off slowlyâ Beomgyu looks absolutely dejected. You can tell heâs trying not to show his hurt, avoiding your gaze and staring down at Toto instead, but he simply reminds you too much of a kicked puppy to let you continue your baffled ramblings; a moment passes where the two of you donât say anything, but you finally break the second Beomgyu looks like heâs about to put Toto back in.Â
âFine.â
He looks back at you immediately; his eyes look like theyâve been filled with stars.Â
âGiveâ give me the bird,â you mumble offhandedly, outstretching your hand awkwardly and finding yourself unable to look at him for once; you can feel the heat of embarrassment threatening to creep onto your skin, but you will it away and bite your cheek as you wait for Beomgyu to do something.
After a second, you feel it; the pressure on your finger, the weird texture and the claws that dig into your skin as the birdâs little feet wrap around you, unable to contain the way you shudder at the feeling; your arm has gone rigid and youâre reluctant to look at the pet that is now perched on your hand, afraid that it might attack you or somethingâ but after a deep breath and some mental encouragement, you do it anyway.Â
This thing is so fucking creepy, you find yourself thinking, face screwing into one of disdain as you take in the way it simply remains still, freaking you out even further when it suddenly tilts its head in curiosity.Â
It begins to climb up your arm.Â
âWhat the fuck, what the fuck,â you breathe out in a panic, extending your arm away from you as steadily and quickly as you can, the thing now perched on your forearm as you bite back a squeal of fearâ youâre looking over at Beomgyu in a haste, expression blatantly screaming help me!â and he quickly springs into action the moment your eyes meet.Â
âToto,â Beomgyu coos, clicking his tongue and reaching out to place his hand at Totoâs feet; but the bird only continues to climb up and runs away from Beomgyu, a long, slightly terrified, groan leaving your lips as you can only watch it in horror, much too afraid to jerk your arm and send Toto flying; the moment itâs talons find its way onto your shoulder, you find yourself looking away and praying.Â
âToto,â Beomgyu tries again, a little stressed now as he watches his bird perch peacefully on your shoulderâ you, on the other hand, are in utter distress, shoulders tense and eyes screwed shut as you mentally pray for the thing to not peck at youâ you think youâve started to hold your breath now.Â
Through your eyes that peek slightly in fear, youâre able to see Beomgyu reach down at the storage unit beneath the cage and grab something; Toto seems to shift on your shoulder from the sight, and you grow tense as you wonder what the hell the man could be up toâ with another call of Totoâs name, the bird finally jumps off your shoulder and over to Beomgyu.
Your body practically slumps in relief.Â
Beomgyu is back to holding Toto in his hand; your brows furrow at the sight of it eating something strange, your obvious confusion making Beomgyu smile slightly.
âItâs millet,â he explains, slowly moving to put Toto back in the cage before he places the said millet inside as well; with one last gentle scratch at Totoâs head, Beomgyu closes the cage. âItâs like a treat for him.â
âWhatever,â you say dismissively, glancing at Toto one last time before you shudder and turn away, âI donât wanna see him again.â
Beomgyu isnât too offended by your comment; if anything, he smiles in amusement, muttering softly that Toto seems to like youâ you make a point to blatantly ignore his comment.
Any confidence Beomgyu had built up from before disappears the moment you finally arrive before the door that leads to the room; heâs found himself nervous once more, shifting the materials in his arms and reach out to open his door cautiously; he hopes you didnât take notice of the way his hand shook slightly.
His room is no different than the rest of the apartment as you stand in the doorway, curiously surveying it all; your brow raises in amusement as you take in the way his personality is scattered throughout the small room. His bed is neatly made and the sheets are pressed to perfection, and the nightstand contains a stack of books that are both thick and annotated.Â
In front of you, you watch Beomgyu awkwardly place the books in his arms down on the bed, pushing up his glasses as you allow your eyes to continue drifting aroundâ they instantly land on the desk setup in the corner of the room, your eyes widening as youâre able to recognize how expensive the setup is; two monitors display a random game you seem to recognize, and you let your curiosity get the best of you as you approach it slowly.Â
The keyboard is lighting up before you and a headset is hung on one of the monitors, and you let out a soft tsk as you take in the empty coffee cups beside the mouse, the only messy thing about his whole room; you wouldnât be surprised if heâs spilled the liquid over the setup before.Â
What surprised you the most however, are the countless picture frames and cute figurines that are scattered all over the roomâ a lucky cat is perched right at his windowsill, waving at you repeatedly as youâre unable to hold back your laugh of bewilderment; everything seems to be dusted and well taken care of, youâre surprised Beomgyu can ever find the energy to do such things.Â
âYou play League of Legends?â Is all you say, turning around as you meet Beomgyuâs flustered face; Beomgyu had been on the verge of melting into a puddle of embarrassment the entire time you looked around his room, unsure of what to say or do the moment you approached his gaming setup. He was sure youâd make fun of him, but instead heâs pleasantly surprised as he silently hopes his face isnât a raging red at the moment. (It definitely is, but youâre kind enough to give him a break and not tease him about it.)
âOhâ yeah. You play?â Itâs oddly adorable to watch the way his eyes light up and his whole body perks up excitedly, but you find it even more adorable to watch the way he deflates as you bark out a laugh of surprise, your whole face lighting up as you cover your mouth in apology, feeling a slight pity for managing to make him look like a kicked puppy again.Â
âFuck no!â You say in amusement, unable to imagine yourself doing such a thing, âHuening used to be obsessed with it though.âÂ
You roll your eyes at the memory, recalling all the nights back in high school where heâd leave you alone in his bed, staying up late gaming with his friends while you hid in his room during social gatheringsâ but now he âoutgrew that childish game,â according to him. If anything, you think he outgrew gaming all together, especially after you expressed how ridiculous the whole thing seemed to you.Â
âHuening, the guy from your apartment?â Beomgyu says meekly, eyes downcast as he flips through his notes mindlessly; you scoff, flopping on the bed next to him as you cross your legs daintily.
âYeah, the guy from my apartment,â you say, leaning in to try and catch his gaze, âwhat, you jealous?âÂ
Your comment is enough to have Beomgyu a sputtering mess; you donât think he could get any redder than he is now as he shoves his notebook into your lap, clearing his throat weakly as he scoots away from you, leaving an offending amount of space as he squeaks out a defensive no.Â
âWouldnât blame you if you were,â you tease, staring down at the notes as you try to decipher what the hell it could all meanâ itâs embarrassing when youâre left on your own for a good minute, unable to say anything about the material before Beomgyu is finally jumping to your aide and explaining things to you; slowly, you settle down and allow him to begin the session.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Youâd like to pat yourself on the back for lasting so long. Lasting so long without being difficult, that is, because the hour of peace Beomgyu got was short lived before you became a short-tempered brat before himâthe only thing that surprises him at this point is the confidence you get to be like this all the time.
âI seriously donât get this stuff,â you whine, kicking Beomgyu softly as you hold back a smileâ it was clearly done to tease himâ laying back on his bed as you cross your arms childishly, âI think I should just change my major.âÂ
Beomgyu isnât surprised that you find that so easy to sayâ for a moment, he dreams of being able to do the same when times get tough, but he was quick to come back to reality as he watched you kick at him petulantly; you managed to lay on his bed and make yourself comfortable, splayed over his pillows as you continued to mess around with him.Â
âCanât we take a break? Iâve been good,â you pout, tapping your fingers on your bicep as you look at him sweetlyâ Beomgyu has to look away in order to say no, tapping his pencil on his notebook as he quietly prays for you to settle down and focus again.Â
âCome on, youâre lucky I showed up in the first place,â Beomgyuâs gaze is glued to his notebook as you roughly sit up, your denim shorts riding up your thighs as you kneel close to him; taking a deep breath to calm himself proves to be a mistake as he gets a good smell of your expensive perfume, biting his lip as he watches you try to get his attention by getting closer to him.
âYou only showed up because I did you a favor,â itâs odd that you find the way his voice trembles and his ears turn red adorable, but then again, youâd be a little sad if a man didnât react that way to you.Â
You have him wrapped around your fingerâ itâs a fact that dawns on you as you watch the way he doesnât shut you down and forces you to study. Scooting closer to him, you lean down, pressing your cheek against his bicep as you stare down at the countless notes that lay before him.Â
âWell, that and because youâre kinda cute,â you admit, holding back a smile at the way he flinches at the sudden contact, âBut seriously, Iâm so bored.âÂ
Beomgyu thinks you might have gone insane as he watches the way you take the materials in his lap away from him, setting it to the side before youâre stringing yourself across his lap, stretching cutely as you stare up at him with wide doe eyesâ heâs quickly looking back up as he fails to find the strength to push you off.Â
âI canât believe I actually came here this early,â you say, adjusting yourself on his thighs before youâre grabbing his hand, playing with his sleeve coyly as you wonder how far you can take this, âHowâd you afford this place all by yourself? Itâs in a good area too.âÂ
âI didnât,â Beomgyu stutters out, clearing his throat as he pulls his hand away from your grasp shyly, âI have a roommateâ Yeonjun.âÂ
âChoi Yeonjun? Captain of the baseball team?â You say, eyes widening as you watch Beomgyu nod softly; youâre sitting up, ignoring the way Beomgyu visibly relaxes at the action, âIs he here right now?âÂ
âNo, heâs out,â Beomgyu frowns, watching as the gears turn in your head, your pout obvious as you take in his response, âhe wonât be home for another three hours.âÂ
How in the hell did he and Beomgyu become roommates? Itâs a question youâre quite literally fighting the urge to ask, but knowing that one of the most attractive guys youâve had your eye on currently lives in the same house as the man before you makes you want to stick around longerâ though you think you might be too obvious about it, judging by the way Beomgyuâs frowning at you.Â
âThatâs nice,â you hum, feeling a bit bad for the way Beomgyu looks away in defeat, âbut that means weâre all alone here?âÂ
Your question is enough to have Beomgyu sitting up straightâ your tone is so dangerous, the way you slowly crawl to him even more so.
He quickly finds himself scooting back, eyes flying around wildly as he almost falls off the bedâ youâre quick to catch him, pulling him by the collar of his sweater as his adamâs apple bobs visibly. His long hair falls back and his face is left exposed to you, your body finding comfort on top of his as you straddle his thighs comfortably. His glasses are left on the tip of his nose as his ears quickly turn red, cheeks dusted with the same color as he uselessly props himself up on his elbows; youâre practically nose to nose as you tower over him, your cute blouse hanging and exposing your breasts in a way that has Beomgyu staring straight above your headâ in return, the reflection of your sunglasses is all that meets him.Â
âDo you ever take a break?â You ask, letting go of his collar before youâre gently smoothing it out; heâs shivering at your touch, eyes fluttering shut nervously as he exhales at the feeling of your warm handâ he knows you can see the way he tenses as you begin to trail your palm down his chest, pressing teasingly where his heart resides as you tilt your head cutely.
âEver stop studying and justâŚ. Take care of yourself?â The implications of your words couldnât be more obvious with the way your voice drops, your thighs clenching around his body as you watch his breath hitch at the action; your fingers delicately drum against his chest as you wait for him to say something, to push you off and tell you to never speak to him againâ instead, he shakes his head, his shyness intensifying as his eyes remain shut.Â
âWill you let me take care of you?â You breathe out, entranced with the way his eyes finally open to meet yoursâ within them, he sees no malice or mockery, just an intense fire and need that has his stomach twisting and his hands grabbing at his neatly pressed sheets in anticipation.
Softly, he nods.Â
Youâve never experienced this before; youâve never had a man pliant and weak under you, ready to take whatever you give him with adoring eyes that sparkle under the lights. Youâre so used to being the one in that position, of allowing yourself to be used and molded how theyâd likeâ so to say youâre quite surprised at the thrill you feel is an understatement.Â
âYouâre like a little puppy,â you mumble sweetly, reaching up to caress his heated cheeksâ the whine that escapes him is involuntary, your eyes clouding with lust as you take in the way he reacts to your nickname; leaning up, you grab the collar of his sweater as you guide him to sit up with youâ youâre in awe of how obedient he is as he follows your command, hands hovering politely as he waits for your next move.Â
âDo you like it when I call you that?â You tilt your head, laying your hands by Beomgyuâs collar bones before theyâre sliding up, intertwining lazily behind his nape as youâre leaning in teasingly; youâre so close to him, you can feel his breath fan on your face as you tease the corner of his lips with your ownâ youâre pulling away the moment he tries to chase you, giving him an expectant look as you wait for him to answer your question. âPuppy?âÂ
âYâyes, IâŚâ heâs unable to finish his sentence the moment he feels your chest press against his, soft breasts teasing him as he squeezes his eyes shut; youâre everywhere, your lips planting feather-like kisses on his cheeks as you begin to overwhelm his senses. Your warm thighs that encase him, your hands that play with the nape of his hair, your perfume that he gets to inhale as you tilt your neck closer to himâ hell, as you reach his jaw, heâs able to smell your shampoo, the scent addicting and no doubt expensive as you press yourself firmly against him.
This is insane. There should be no universe where Beomgyu should have one of the richest girls in his university pressed against him and on his lap, and thereâs no way heâs the one submitting himself so pathetically in it. Yet here he is, practically leaning into your touch and chasing after you the moment you pull away, feeling a whine escape from his throat as he finally finds the courage to place a hand on your hip; keeping you in place, fingertips splayed over the swell of your ass as you try and fail to hide the smile that breaks out on your face.Â
âStupid puppy wants me to kiss him?â You pout mockingly, and instead of feeling the usual shame bubbling within him from your condescending tone, Beomgyu can only feel himself melt pathetically, pouty face and shining doe eyes begging you to give in as you brush away a strand of hair that fell in his eye; Beomgyuâs eyes flutter shut at the gentle touch, lips parting before he finally feels you swoop in and take him by surprise.Â
Your lip gloss is sweet and sticky as you ravish the boy below you, able to feel his inexperience and eagerness with the way heâs practically ready to push you back into the mattressâ but he holds himself back, allowing you to swipe your tongue along his lip and tease him before youâre venturing further.Â
Itâs all so lewd and desperate, and Beomgyu feels dazed by the time youâre finally pulling away, a Cheshire grin on your face as you swipe his bottom lip thatâs shining with lip gloss and saliva; like instinct, his lips part and close around your thumb, eyes never straying from yours as you feel his tongue swipe over the finger teasinglyâ your gaze darkens at the sight, mind racing with all the things you could do to him as you watch the way his plush lips circle around the digit.Â
The pop that sounds throughout the room when you pull away is enough to make you let out a soft groan, your eyes tracing along his body until you finally find the very thing youâre curious aboutâ smiling, youâre not as surprised to find his dick straining against the neat fabric of his trousers.
âCan I touch you, pup?â You ask, your voice breathy and deep as you wait patiently for his answer; once again, he gulps, shining eyes just as dazed as you are before he finally lets out a soft yes; slowly, your perfectly manicured hand makes its way down to his khaki trousers, playing with the button before youâre finally undoing itâ the sigh that Beomgyu lets out once you undo his zipper is practically lethal, your lips twitching in delight at the sound.
Itâs cute to see the way his hips buck up into the air as you reveal his boxers, helping you pull down his pants until youâre face to face with the very thing youâve been wanting the most. Itâs odd, but it seems as though Beomgyu brings out a side you didnât think existed, a teasing smile creeping its way onto your face as you plant your core firmly on him; heâs letting out a strangled gasp at the sudden pressure and warmth, his eyes screwing shut as his lips are falling open, the sight tempting as you resist the urge to kiss him again.Â
Beomgyu is like an instrument under your touch, and youâre eager to learn how to play as you slowly begin to rock your hips back and forth; the reaction is instant for him as he bucks up into you, whimpering cutely as his eyes remain shut the whole time. Your thighs feel so soft against his own, and heâs sure he wonât last long if heâs forced to inhale your intoxicating scent the whole way through.Â
It isnât until youâre climbing off his lap that Beomgyuâs eyes are finally flying open, meeting yours in a confused haze as he allows you to push him back and tower over him as he lays; he looks so enticing and pretty with his hair splayed out around the sheets, lidded eyes and fucked out expression oddly addicting to you as you go to straddle one of his thighs.Â
âYouâre so cute,â you coo, pushing his sweater up as you run your nails teasingly over his stomachâ you laugh softly as he flinches at the feeling. Slowly, youâre pulling the waistband of his boxers down until his cock is finally springing out and smacking against his stomach; his tip is red and sticky as a line of precum is left connected to his stomach, his eyes shutting in embarrassment once more as he turns his head to the side in an effort to turn away. Heâs so long as you take him in, appreciating the vein that runs along the curve of his shaft with a soft hum.
âPlease,â he whines, covering his face with his hands as his body grows hotter the longer you stare at him; you can only laugh fondly at the sight, watching the way his hips buck up uselessly at the sound.Â
âMy puppy, youâre so pretty,â you sigh, spitting in your hand before youâre finally reaching down to grab ahold of him; the feeling is unexpected as Beomgyu lets out a soft yelp under you, his cries dying out the moment youâre beginning to stroke him teasingly.Â
âHow long has it been since you let out some steam?â You tease, running your thumb across his tip and spreading the precum along as he simply moans in response; heâs so whiny and breathy as none of your words seem to register in his head, enamored by the pretty girl thatâs sitting on his thigh and stroking his cock so well.Â
You canât help yourself when you readjust to kneel between his legs, his face still covered by his hands as he doesnât anticipate your next moveâ Beomgyu swears he almost came the moment he felt your mouth wrap around his tip. Your mouth is practically watering around Beomgyuâs cock as you slowly take him in, surprised by his length yet determined to hear more of his pathetic gasps and whines as you slowly take him in.Â
âOh god, oh god, youâre soâ y-youâre so warm, oh,â Beomgyu is a babbling mess as his hands land helplessly on your head, unsure of what to do with them as he feels the tip of your nose press against his navel; his eyes are practically rolling back as he feels the mess youâre making on his cock, your mouth so hot and wet he canât help the way he subtly thrusts into it.
âIâm sorry, Iâ I didnât mean toâŚâ his words are dying on his tongue the moment he feels you reach for his hand and pull back, guiding him to set the pace as you run your tongue over his tipâ thatâs enough to have Beomgyu whining and out of breath, but heâs able to pull himself together as he slowly begins to fuck your mouth.Â
âShit, youâre so pretty, I canât believe youâre doing this to me,â Beomgyu breathes out, fascinated with the way you remain completely cool even as he begins thrusting his cock into your throat, âso good.â
The sudden confession doesnât process in Beomgyuâs mind, but it has your mind reeling as you close your eyes, determined to make this man fall apart under you as you ignore the flutter of butterflies in your stomach.Â
It takes Beomgyu a second to find his pace as heâs gently stroking your hair, face warm and shining with embarrassment as he tries to ignore how inexperienced he may seemâ contrary to what he might think, you donât really care; the only thing you care for is how melodic he sounds as his hips begin stuttering into your mouth, the feeling of your tongue running along his shaft too much for him as his breath hitches pathetically.Â
âWait wait waitâ oh my god, Iâm soâ Ah, please donât stop,â heâs whimpering and babbling at your touch, his hand attempting to pull you off as he nears his release; you only sink further in retaliation, the loud moan that Beomgyu lets out giving you satisfaction as you feel his cum spurting against the back of your throatâ your eyes are barely able to catch his expression as he throws his head back, hips stilling entirely as he rides out his orgasm.Â
Beomgyu is still trying to catch his breath when he feels his hips bucking subconsciously, the feeling of you pulling away making him whine softly from the sensitivity. Slowly, his eyes flutter open, his glasses skewed and his vision a haze as his gaze meets yoursâ heâs able to catch the way you swallow, your mouth empty as a teasing grin sneaks onto your face.
His stomach flips at the sight.Â
Heâs unsure of what to do as you sit up, your hair mused and your clothes in disarray as you take him in with an intense stareâ he feels oddly shy as he tugs down his sweater to cover himself, gulping nervously as he begins to wonder if this was all a twisted jokeâ some sort of childish dare, anything that was meant to humiliate him.Â
Instead, he feels you reach forward to fix his glasses, brushing away the hair that was stuck to his forehead as you smiled sweetly; Beomgyu thinks he forgot how to breathe as he takes in your proximity, left frozen as you leave a slow, chaste kiss on his lips.Â
âI should goâ you have work, right?â The question is enough to snap Beomgyu back to reality, nodding softly as you finally get up from his bed; turning to his mirror, you fix your appearance, brows raising in curiosity as you notice the guitar thatâs propped up beside itâ you briefly wonder if heâs good at playing it, and find yourself wanting to ask if he can sing; you refrain. âIâll let you get ready then.â
Thereâs not much Beomgyu can say as he watches you go to his door like nothing happened; he flinches in surprise as you turn back to him one last time, a grin on your face as you send him one final goodbye.Â
âThis was fun.âÂ
Beomgyu is left to decipher your words and intentions as you walk away.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Why did you do that.Â
âOh god, why did I do that?âÂ
Youâre a puddle of embarrassment as you roll around in the back of your driverâs car, your hands plastered on your face as you try to melt away from this realityâ instead, the memory of Beomgyuâs flustered and fucked out face is the only thing that meets your eyelids.Â
Youâre not sure what took over youâ what in the world possessed you to fuck your tutor? You knew that if you told your friends youâd never hear the end of it, but you think you might be at risk of losing the only thing that was helping you get your grades up after this.Â
It was already difficult to get Beomgyu to agree to be in a room alone with youâ and now you had to absolutely fuck up and push the boundaries to a place where youâd never return.Â
Out of all the men, it just had to be Choi Beomgyu. Itâs a fact that makes your face heat up and your head hit the back of the car seat in defeat as you stare out the window in dismay; instead of going for someone who was in your league, you chose to go after a nobody.Â
You didnât even get anything out of it! The thought is humiliating as you shut your eyes and groan, ignoring the way your driver glances back at you in concern; you sucked his dick and dippedâ that is so unlike you.Â
Everything about the situation is unlike youâ you would never go after someone like Beomgyu, he didnât align with your type at all! The feeling of dread in your stomach is only worsened as you mentally go through the people youâve been with in the past, cringing the more you realize how much of an outlier Beomgyu is.Â
âMr. Kim,â you call out, pulling down your shades as you avoid the rays of sunlight that are hitting your face. Heâs perking up in response immediately, glancing at you through his mirror before he nods his head to indicate heâs listening.Â
âTake me to Hueningkaiâs house please,â you say, taking your phone out of your purse as you absentmindedly text Huening that youâre on your wayâ Mr. Kimâs yes maâam is left unanswered as you watch Hueningkai respond within secondsâ all you can do is sink further in your seat at his eagerness to see you, the implications of his message more than clear to you.
The drive to his home is long and silent, and youâre forced to reflect on yourself the whole way throughâ the more you do, the more flustered and confused you feel, forcing yourself to set those thoughts to the side as Mr. Kim pulls up to Hueningâs driveway.
Yet even as youâre walking to his doorstep, an eager smile forced on your face as you wait for Huening to answer, you canât help the way your thoughts stray. It all seems to linger on the same subject, gulping nervously at the way Beomgyuâs small whines still ring out in your head.Â
âHey,â Hueningkai smiles, leaning against the doorway as he takes you in; you try to ignore the way his hungry eyes take you in, greeting him softly before youâre pushing past him and going inside, kicking your shoes off at the doorway.Â
âWhatâs up?â Hueningkai immediately asks, noticing the way you donât indulge in any of his games or teasing, your face blank as you plop down on the couch. âYou need something?âÂ
âNo,â you say, oddly defensive as you lay along his couch, crossing your legs as you proceed to do the same with your arms, âCanât I just chill at your place without needing anything?âÂ
Hueningkai raises a brow at your huffy comment. Tilting his head, he smiles, a gesture sly and teasing as he watches the way you stand your ground.Â
âWell, whenever you come over itâs usually not to just chill,â he says, repeating your words with clear amusement, âso forgive me for thinking something was off.âÂ
Youâre in a bad mood today; Hueningkai is quick to pick up on it as you scoff at his words, looking away from him and pouting as you remain silent. Slowly, he makes his way to you, testing out the waters before heâs sitting down at your feet.Â
âWhatâs wrong baby?â He asks, slowly beginning to hover over you until you canât help but look at him; heâs everywhere, a holding himself up with a hand by your head while the other finds its way to your hipâ playing with the hem of your shirt, slowly teasing you until heâs pushing past and caressing your skinâ you flinch at the feeling of his cold hand.Â
âCome on, we can talk,â he says, but you know he doesnât really mean it with the way his leg is trying to pry your thighs open, pressing up against your core as he feels something unexpectedâ his eyes are lighting up as he smiles down at you, raising a brow as he takes in the small change of your expression.Â
âOr maybe you donât wanna talk?â He says, the surprising heat that meets his thigh is more than welcome as he watches you become flustered under him.Â
âFuck off Huening,â you groan, pressing a hand against his chest as you turn away from himâ all you get in return is a dark laugh, his lips ghosting along your jawline as he presses a firm kiss under your ear, his hand pushing your shirt up as it wanders towards your breasts.Â
âHmm, are you sure?â He huffs, adjusting his position so that heâs able to place a hand on your hip, grinding your hips against his thighs as he bites his lip at the sight, âwonât you put those pretty lips to use at least?âÂ
The irritation that had been brewing inside you is far too much to handle as you scoff at his words, your head snapping back to glare at him as you push against his chest firmly, catching him off guard as you knock him off his balance entirely; heâs knocked out of his lusty reverie as he stares at you with wide eyes from the other end of the couch, lips parting as he attempts to say something, only to be cut off by you.Â
âSeriously Huening, Iâm not in the fucking mood!â You snap, pulling your top back down harshly before youâre standing upâ heâs left to watch in confusion as you readjust yourself, your brows furrowed in a mean frown as you glare at him once moreâ and to think you thought youâd be able to spend more than five minutes with Hueningkai without him wanting to fuck you.Â
âCome on baby, you know I didnât mean it like thatââÂ
âDo you ever think without your dick when youâre around me?â Itâs annoying to see how nonchalant Hueningkai is as he laughs off your words, crossing his arms defensively as he tries to play off what just happened.Â
âYou didnât even think to check up on me when I was sick!â You thought you were over the bitter moment, but the memory still seems to sting as you remind him of a time where you needed him the most, âever since we started this whole⌠stupid friends with benefits thing, youâve been acting like such a prick!âÂ
âDonât be like this,â Hueningkai groans, throwing his head back as he runs a hand through his hair, âyouâre being dramatic.âÂ
âOh my god!â You bark, left in disbelief as you pace around his apartment, âlike seriously, are you listening to yourself right now?!â
Youâre more than fed up as you make your way back to the entrance, gathering your things and slipping on your shoes as you hear Hueningkai following close behind, spouting excuses and other nonsense to try and make you stay.Â
Youâve opened the door when Hueningkai grabs onto you desperately, tugging you back into his chest and asking you to listen to him as he sets firm hands on your hips; youâre looking at everything but him as you remain silent, your hands pressed defensively against his chest as you give him on last chance to redeem himself.Â
âCome on baby, you know I donât wanna lose you,â he says, his voice soft and vulnerable as he leans in, watching as you tilt your head away from him and continue to refuse to meet his eyes. Feeling him press you harder against him, your jaw clenches as he places a sweet kiss on your cheek.Â
âLemme make it up to you. Please?âÂ
You know perfectly well what his words entail as you push him away from you once more, swinging your purse and smacking him harshly as you let your anger out on him. He has the audacity to laugh and cower away from you as he apologizes, telling you that it was just a joke as you continue to hit him relentlessly.Â
âFuck you!â You say, out of energy and left a huffing mess as you swing the door open behind you, âasshole!âÂ
You donât stay around to see his reaction as you slam the door shut, storming away and walking along the sidewalk as you pull your phone out.Â
Pick me up please.Â
Hueningâs being an asshole, Iâm waiting outside.Â
Itâs moments like these where you regret being irresponsible with your car, left with nothing but your driver as you still wait for your precious baby to come out of the repair shop; to this day your parents still scold you for an accident that happened over a month ago, the words âbad driverâ tacked on along with the rest that curate your reputation. Â
In a perfect world, Hueningkai wouldâve come out by now; he wouldâve gone after you, apologizing and hanging his head in shame in regards to his behaviorâ in a perfect world, he wouldnât have turned into the person he is now, forgoing your friendship entirely to satiate his needsâ you hadnât given much thought to what the consequences to this âfriends with benefitsâ thing would be, but if you could go back in time to the moment where he drunkenly proposed it to you, you wouldâve been quick to shut him down with an incredulous laugh.Â
It was your fault for having a soft spot for him. Your fault for wondering what his lips would feel like one too many times, for being caught staring at him back when you were just kids and you were forced to attend dinner parties together, trying and failing to conceal the way he could fluster you with just a single smile.Â
Now that his desires have been satiated, you doubt he has any use for you nowâ which is why you find yourself waiting pathetically outside his apartment, not used to this feeling that festers in your stomach as you wait patientlyâ whether itâs simply for your driver or for the glimmering hope that Hueningkai will own up to his actions and take you back, youâre not sure.
But what you do know is that youâve never felt so small.Â
Moments later, your driver arrives; you swear you try to hold back, but you canât help yourself from turning around and taking one last peek at Hueningâs quiet, dull apartmentâ gritting your teeth, you flop inside, groaning obnoxiously as you rub your temples in annoyance; your driver is unfazed by your behaviorâ meeting his eyes, you sigh.Â
âI need to go shopping.â
Wordlessly, he nodsâ you donât bother to stare out the window once you finally feel the car moving, in fear that your mind may begin to imagine scenarios that simply wonât happen.Â
The car ride is silent, and you realize with a frown that you may have left with a mood worse than before.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
This department store is useless.
Geez, did you piss off some god above or something? Because as you stand in your tenth store in the past hour, nose scrunched and brows furrowed unpleasantly, you feel as though you may be getting karma for somethingâ though what it may be exactly, youâre unsure.Â
Everything around you is either already in your closet or simply outdated. Your fingertips tap rhythmically against your crossed arms, eyes narrowed as you take slow strides around the aisles of the storesâ a part-time employee follows closely behind you, hands folded neatly and a pleasant smile glued to face as she comments on every item your eyes fall on, even if itâs just for a second; your jaw ticks at her cheap tactics to sell to you.Â
Thereâs only one thing that would make your mood at this timeâ a limited edition purse you have had your eyes on, trying your best to catch your usual stores at the right times in hopes of getting your hands on it. Yet, with every failed attempt, your frustrations and efforts only grow, and youâve found yourself visiting these stores more often than youâd like, always leaving with an item or two despite telling yourself not to do so.Â
âExcuse me,â you say sternly, your steps coming to a halt as you slowly turn to the employee. Sheâs meek and her voice is airy as she speaks to you, eyebrows raised as though she seems genuinely interested in what you might say nextâ her act only displeases you more.Â
âIâm trying to shop in peace, please leave me alone.â you say, watching as the woman simply flinches at your comment, smile stiffening on her lips before sheâs swiftly apologizing seconds afterâ if you werenât careful, you couldâve missed the way her lips turned up with irritation as she turned, muttering quietly to herself as though you werenât two steps away to hear it.
Rich snob, you pick up, blinking in surprise as you watch her steps becoming hasty with her retreat. You donât allow yourself to be fazed by it, a smile tugging at your lips from amusement before you turn back around; scanning the store, you glance at the mannequins on display, taking in the outfits briefly before you catch onto something elseâ and before you can control yourself, youâre walking again.Â
Donât be stupid, your brain tells you, yelling at you as you exit the store with haste, pushing past the people standing around as you make your way to the store across, Donât do this, this is a bad idea, donâtâ
Do it, your heart tells you, pounding against your chest as you adjust the purse strap on your shoulder, gulping slightly as you swing open the door, youâre not here for him, youâre here for the very thing youâve worked so hard for.Â
And if it so happens to be in his hands right now, then is it really your fault that you find yourself standing before the very man that hurt you mere moments ago?
âCute purse,â you breathe out, eyes glued to the way it shines beautifully under the lights of the store, âThough I donât really think itâs your style.â
Hueningkai doesnât bother looking up. Heâs too busy handling the limited edition purse that youâve so desperately been searching for, nimble fingers running over the details as though he were actually taking his time to inspect it; instead, he hums softly at your words, pretending to ponder for a second before heâs frowning.Â
âYou really think so?â he asks, tsking softly to himself before heâs shaking his head, straightening up before he runs a hand against the surface; you watch the way his fingers slide across the material, teeth tugging at your lip as you fight the twitch of your brows, wanting nothing more than to take the item from his hands and walk away.Â
You stand there in silence, for a moment; you wonder slightly if Hueningkai is simply ignoring you, and the idea is enough to have you bristling with anger, your jaw clenching as you decide that itâs better to leave now than to look helpless before himâ but heâs looking up at you, lidded eyes catching you in a daze as he tilts his head, sending you his signature charming smile.Â
âIt wasnât for me,â he says, looking down at the purse in his hands and holding it close to him, as though gauging its weight, âIt was going to be a gift.â
âA gift? Quite the gesture on your part,â you scoff, looking at the display area in exasperationâ fuck, the only purse in this awful store is in his hands, you realizeâ leaving you with no other choice but to hope that heâll stop playing games and leave the purse he clearly never had any intentions of buying, âBut I donât think those other girls you talk to would be very interested in such a specific item like thisâ Iâd suggest appealing to their own interests a bit more.â
With gritted teeth, you reach out to take the bag; an impulsive move on your part, not exactly surprised with the way Hueningkai immediately backs up and holds the bag close to him. You can practically feel your blood boil from the sheer anger thatâs taking over from his antics, unamused entirely at the way he merely sends you an innocent smile.Â
âDonât be rude,â he smiles, taking yet another step back, making more distance between you two, âWho are you to say what they would or wouldnât like? Plus, I saw this first, and I had full intentions of buying it.â
You remain silentâ whether youâre too baffled to speak or are simply trying to not explode and yell at him in the middle of the store, youâre not entirely sureâ but, as you watch him raise a brow challengingly, you can only find yourself thinking one thing.Â
Fuck this. Youâll just order it online.Â
The idea takes away the very joy of being able to find it by chance, but youâd rather die right now than grovel to Hueningkaiâ like he very clearly wantsâ in hopes that heâll take pity on you and give you the purse; spinning on your heels, you make your way out with brisk steps.
You donât get very far before you hear him calling out your nameâ but you ignore it, a baffled scoff escaping you in response to his sheer audacity to act so shameless after belittling you a few hours prior; youâre a few steps away from the exit when you feel a tug on your wrist, jolting you back and preventing you from leaving.
âWhat, Hueningkai?â you say, huffing exasperatedly as you shake off his grip on you, âCanât you just leave me alone for once? Iâm not in the mood to play your stupid games.â
âWell then why donât you talk to me instead of running away childishly?â he says sharply, and you have to bite your tongue in order to not point out his hilariously hypocritical statement, âyouâre acting so weird, what the hell happened?â
You think you might just do something thatâll get you banned from the storeâ but something catches your eye before you can act out on your impulses, and youâre ripping your wrist from Hueningkaiâs hold with one last harsh tug. Your gaze is no longer on him; he tries to follow your line of sight, but fails to catch onto what youâre looking at.Â
âGet out or leave me alone,â you say, giving him one last cold look before youâre brushing past him, âIâm not interested in talking to you.â
Youâre weaving through the displays and getting out of his sight quicklyâ and Hueningkai is left with a purse he had no interest in buying, looking down at the item before he scoffs; he throws it off at a random shelf and exits promptly after.Â
Your footsteps are haste and your heels click rhythmically on the tiled floor; youâre making your way to the cash register, watching his meek stance and the way he flinches under your gaze, a flush running up the back of his neck and coloring his ears redâ but you donât dare to look away from him, placing a rough hand on the counter and leaning close as you inspect him.
âYou didnât tell me you worked here.â
Beomgyu is attempting to stutter out a weak response; his cheeks are colored and his hair is tied back neatly, and you can see the way his hands twitch, undoubtedly resisting the urge to run a hand through the neat style.Â
âWhyâ why would I tell you? Itâs not something youâd need to know. Orâ is itâŚ?â
Youâve confused him, that much youâre sure of. His brows have knitted together and he remains flustered beyond beliefâ youâre sure you can guess whatâs running through his mind right now, and you fight the twitch of your lips at the mere thought.
âI thought you worked as a server.â
âIâ I do?â heâs tilting his head in confusion, glasses slipping down the bridge of his nose slightly, âI have two jobs.â
âThree,â you quip, drumming your nails against the counter rhythmically, âyou tutor.â
âI⌠guessâŚ?â Beomgyu says, fighting back the urge to correct you that he really doesnâtâ youâre the only one heâs ever tutored before.
âWhy would you need to work three jobs? How do you get the time for this?â you donât really know why youâre pestering Beomgyu about this so muchâ but youâre also fascinated by it, now beginning to understand where Beomgyuâs lack of social life stems from.Â
Heâs unsure of how to answer your question again; you donât seem to be particularly patient today, (but then again, when are you?) so youâre waving him off with a dismissive swat of your hand, shaking your head and clicking your tongue before youâre changing the subject; Beomgyu is left to watch as you pull your phone out, scrolling on it for a bit before youâre placing it on the counter and spinning it around for him to seeâ his eyes are narrowing in concentration as he takes in the picture.
âThis purse,â you say slowly, tapping your nail on your phone screen, as though Beomgyu wasnât currently looking at it, âdo you have it in stock? This guy already got one, but I need to know if you have othersâ Iâve got to have it.âÂ
The urgency in your voice is a bit surprising to Beomgyuâ he takes in your expression, solemn and a bit scary, and gulpsâ then he watches the way you melt in relief the moment he nods hesitantly.Â
âIâm sure we just got a shipment in todayâ we, havenât really, uhm, stocked up properly yet,â he stutters, wincing slightly at the sound while you remain unfazed; your brows lift expectantly, and heâs snapping out his daze and sending you a shaky smile, âIâll go check.âÂ
He scurries out of your sight and into the employee door quicker than you can processâ and when he turns around to take a peek at the small window, he finds you leaning on the counter and on your phoneâ probably texting, judging by the way your thumbs fly by on the screenâ and he feels another heat of shame wash over him, his head spinning and his legs turning into jello.Â
How can you act so casually? He wonders, glasses slipping down just a bit farther down his nose, nimble fingers pushing it back up with ease, like you werenât just in his bedroom a few hours prior⌠like he wasnât under youâŚÂ
Beomgyu practically jumps the moment your eyes flicker up and meet his; you simply smile, glossed lips stretching slowly before you give him a wink.Â
In response, he spins around and begins to actually lookâ his heart hammers in his chest.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
So pretty.Â
So perfect and smooth to the touch, cool under your fingertipsâ you take your time to feel, to trace over every detail, intricate and crafted by the gods as you let out a shaky sighâ your eyes meet Beomgyuâs, and you have half the mind to feel a bit sheepish, retracting your hand quickly and returning to a socially acceptable state of mind.Â
âSorry,â you say, beaming at him before youâre reaching into your current bag and handing him your card; his eyes widen comically at the smooth black plastic you place in his hold carelessly, âItâs just⌠all I could ever ask for. I canât believe I finally have my hands on thisâŚâÂ
Meanwhile, Beomgyu rings up your inexplicably expensive item, swiping your card and watching the way you donât even flinch at the sum that shows up; he feels a bit jealous at your nonchalance.Â
Youâre carrying the purse like it were a baby; it isnât until Beomgyu offers to bag it for you that you finally let it go, placing it gently on the counter and smiling fondly as you watch Beomgyu place it carefully in the equally luxurious gift bag, placing filler paper on top and handing it back to you, his movement practiced and calculated as he says his usual linesâ his mind is running on autopilot once more, but youâre particularly eager to break him out of it as you reach out to take the bag from him, warm hand wrapping around his and tugging him slightly towards you.Â
âThank you for all your help today,â you purr, shining lips stretching into a coy smile, leaning against the counter and watching as he gulps, adam's apple bobbing, âI think Iâll do well on our upcoming quizâ youâre such a good tutor.â
You donât bother to stick around after that; your steps are brisk and youâre hugging the purchase close to your body, as though someone were after it and ready to take it, confidence in your step as you exit the storeâ Beomgyu, on the other hand, practically crumbles the moment youâre out of sight, fingers turning white from how hard he grips onto the edge of the counter; his heart pounds and the sound of blood rushing fills his ears, mind inevitably going back to your teasing action before heâs flustering again.Â
Youâre laughing to yourself the whole ride homeâ his reaction plays on your mind like a loop, beyond amused by the sight as you pat yourself on the back for being able to come up with something so clever on the spot.Â
What you donât realize, however, is that there are consequences to your actionsâ consequences that are far beyond your control.
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
âAre you for real?â
âUh-huh,â you grin, placing a fond hand on your cheek and batting your eyes at Yunjin, âtotally aced it.âÂ
âThatâs something I never thought Iâd hear from you,â your friend says, poking her fork at her salad before taking a bite; she furrows her brows as she takes in your expression, mouth agape and eyes wide, as though you were offended. âWhat? Itâs true.â
âOkay, first offâ Iâm not stupid, just lazy,â you clarify, pointing an accusing finger at your friend as you pout, âand second of all, you should really believe in your friend a little more.â
âI mean, it was a little hard to when all you would do was skip classes and go shopping instead,â Yunjin says, raising a challenging brow when you open your mouth to refute her claimsâ then proceed to promptly close it again, finding that you really canât deny thatâ and a small smile tugs at her lips, the kind that lets you know that sheâs about to say something really annoying, âbut I guess your study sessions with your little boy toy really did work.âÂ
âBoyâ?!â youâre in the middle of taking a sip from your iced coffee when she says that, the straw slipping from your mouth and a bit of the liquid escaping from the sheer surprise of her commentâ you wipe at your mouth with the back of your hand, feeling a slight heat rush to your face as you stare at her incredulously, âboy toy?âÂ
âI mean, am I wrong?â Yunjin challenges, tilting her head in curiosity while you simply try to deny her claims, âyou were literally just telling me about the way you had him wrapped around your finger a while agoââ
âNot like that though!â you huff, feeling worked up from the mere idea of Yunjin finding out the complete and utterly stupid slip up you had a while ago, âgod, heâs literally such a fucking loser, donât try to pair me up with himâ other people might get the wrong idea. Itâs already bad enough that I had to get a tutor, because itâs not like I was doing bad in my classes until recently. I mean, itâs still my fault and I did let myself go, but I didnât think Iâd have to stoop so low! And now I have to take so much time out of my day to spend my time studying with him and even worse, youâre trying to insinuate something that definitely isnât trueâ!â
âYes! Okay! Enough of that please!â Yunjin says exasperatedly, glancing over your shoulder briefly before sheâs taking another bite of her salad, muttering something about you having a motor mouth, âgod, itâs just that⌠people have seen you two together a lot, you know? And with the way heâs looking over at you right now, anyone would think that heâs like⌠in love with you, or something.âÂ
Youâre sitting up straight and whirling around at that; following Yunjinâs previous line of sight, youâre able to pinpoint the said boy immediatelyâ sitting a few tables away, catching him staring at you over his laptop, clearly distracted from his workâ the moment your eyes meet, he flinches, hunching down so the screen hides him; it doesnât work very well, and youâre able to see his downcast eyes and reddening face with ease.Â
Oh my god, you think with horror, a cold wave washing over you as you stare at him longerâ and after a few seconds, heâs peeking back up from his screen, meeting your eyes once more and scrambling to hide unsuccessfully yet again. You decide to turn back around before anyone else around you catches on to this interaction.Â
âOh my god,â you breathe out, meeting Yunjinâs gaze as she simply nods at you, her face screaming I told you so, âhow long has he been there?âÂ
âLike⌠basically this whole time,â Yunjin says casually, not fazed in the slightest by your horrified expression, âbeen staring at you for a while too.â
âUgh, gross,â you groan, throwing your head back in defeat and staring up at the ceiling with a frown, âI think I mightâve gotten his hopes up too much.â
âCâmon, go easy on him,â Yunjin teasesâ your head is straightening up to look at her again, but a single glance is enough to tell you she merely finds this situation amusing, âitâs probably his first time properly interacting with a woman.â
âThatâs even worse,â you mourn, slumping down and placing your head in your hands; a sudden reminder of your schedule is popping back into your head, and your peeking through your fingers in dismay as you relay the information to your friend, âand I have a study session with him today too.âÂ
âAww!â she coos, clearly having a blast as she grins, glancing behind you and undoubtedly at Beomgyu once more, âIâm sure he just canât wait to see you again.â
âGod, please shut up,â you whine petulantly, but your friend brushes off your pleas with a mischievous smile, âyouâre making me wanna throw up.â
âWhat, you gonna cancel then?âÂ
Silence. Any other day, you wouldâve immediately jumped to say yes, pulling out your phone to text him and bailing like it was nothing. But today, you find yourself oddly reluctant to say this three letter word, unsure of why the answer is difficult to voice before you finally give in to the truthâ your head slumps with defeat and youâre too ashamed to look Yunjin in the eyes.
âNo.â
âOh wow,â you hear her say, still blatantly teasing you as she laughs giddilyâ you donât bother to react at this point, choosing to ignore the unspoken question of why youâre not ditching him this time.
âHope you have fun,â she muses, taking one last glance behind you before sheâs giggling to herself, âtry to go easy on him, mâkay?â
Fuck, this was so embarrassing.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Today, youâve changed up your meeting spot quite a bit; Beomgyu was thoroughly surprised when you asked him to study later on in the day, in a more secluded area on the upper levels of the library, telling him to pick a table and wait for you to get there afterâ usually, you tried to make your meetups as convenient for you as possible, choosing places that you could easily flee from.Â
When you finally come into his line of sight, Beomgyu frowns. You carry your bag with you, along with a troubled expression and tense posture, glancing around you continuously even if there was no one around, even if the table was hidden behind bookshelvesâ as though you were afraid of getting caught for something.Â
Youâre dumping your things onto the table unceremoniouslyâ and instead of taking your spot across from Beomgyu like always, youâre sitting next to him, catching him off guard and missing the way he tenses at the actionâ youâre scooting your chair closer to him and filling his senses with your scent, making him gulp thickly as he tries to not let his mind wander off; he realizes with dread that itâs really not working.Â
Beomgyu is a stuttering mess today; you pick up on it with ease, frowning at the way he continues to blunder through his explanations and having to repeat things to you multiple times, hands shakier than usual as he points out certain things in the text before heâs relating it back to the assignment.Â
âThatâ thatâs one of the things the⌠the uhm, the professor said would be important to remember,â Beomgyu stutters, feeling his body heat up at the way you raise your brows at the sound of his cracking and meek voice. With one glimpse at your (clearly) judgemental and demeaning expression that you didnât even bother to hide, Beomgyu is scrambling to get his act together.Â
It works, for a while; the two of you are left in silence as you work on the homework your professor assigned to you, and you remain unfazed at the feeling of Beomgyu catching glimpses at you from time to time; whether that be to look at what you had written down or simply to look at you, you couldnât really bring yourself to care.Â
Youâre snapped out of zone of concentration at the sound of rustling; a peek from your peripheral vision allows you to watch as Beomgyu has now begun to dig through his bag, wondering what he could be up to; with a roll of your eyes, youâre focusing back to the question you were working on, not bothering to glance back again even once the rustling has ceased.Â
Without warning, something is placed gingerly on the open surface of your textbook; youâre blinking in surprise before youâre registering what it is that has been put before you, brows knitting together as you wonder how you should react.
Itâs a⌠mini paper flower bouquet.Â
Youâre staring at the item for a solid few seconds before you slowly turn to look at the culprit. Beomgyu meets your intense gaze the best he can, putting up a confident front and fighting back the heat that threatens to engulf his face.Â
âYâYouâ I heard you did well on your test.â He says, glasses slipping down his nose and bangs falling into his eyes, gaze flickering away for a split second before he wills himself to look at you again. Your stare is dead and unreadable.
âI never told you that.âÂ
Beomgyu is losing this battle, his confidence visibly wilting away as his cheeks begin to get dusted with pink. His eyes are wide like a deer caught in headlights, unsure of what to respond as you give him a look that is expecting an explanationâ his cheeks are now a bright red.Â
Even without his explanation, you both know how he got a hold of this newsâ and youâre thinking back to Yunjinâs teasing, the fear of being seen with him during todayâs study session, and the flustered boy in front of youâ and your mouth is running faster than you can stop it.
âChoi Beomgyu, do you like me?âÂ
If the floor around you was already quiet before, itâs dead silent now; youâre even able to pick up on the stuttered breath Beomgyu lets out, his eyes growing comically wide as he simply stares at you; almost as though he couldnât believe what you just asked of him.Â
âActually, donât even answer that,â you wave him off, choosing to ignore the way this seems to spring him into action, stuttering and failing to put together a proper sentence to tell you that no, he definitely doesnâtâ you just caught him off guard!Â
But itâs not like you would believe him anyway, with the way he remains flustered long after you asked the question, unable to even look your way for the rest of the session, staring straight at the textbook and nowhere else whenever you would ask him a questionâ after a while, you begin to tire of his behavior.Â
âChoi Beomgyu,â you call out again, soft and dangerous as you turn to face himâ he was attempting to explain a question to you, words dying on his tongue as he took in your sudden proximityâ leaning in toward him, you tilt your head as you observe his reaction, watching the way his lips press together and his adam's apple bobs as he gulps softly; his puppy-like eyes shine as he waits for you to say something.
âAre you okay?â you ask him, your voice beginning to dip into that coy lilt that youâve used on him only one other timeâ and thatâs enough to have Beomgyuâs mind spinning, the poor boy thinking thoughts that heâs tried to suppress this whole timeâ your affect on him is beginning to show once more.Â
âYou look a littleâŚâ your eyes flicker down beneath the table, a smile tugging at your lips before youâre looking back into the boy's eyes; catching where you were looking, Beomgyu canât help but tug his sweater over his lap in embarrassment.Â
Youâre leaning even closer nowâ your breath is fanning against the shell of his ear, the boyâs face practically on fire as his hands remain clenched and tense on his lapâ heâs practically a statue due to your proximity.Â
âDistracted.âÂ
Your hands are mischievous; curious, setting your pencil down carefully before they begin to wander, sliding across the table before it falls off the edge, nails scratching at the wool material of Beomgyuâs sweater before it lands on top of his hand that covers his lapâ you grin at the choked breath of surprise he lets out from the simple touch.Â
âWhatâ what, what are yâyouâ?â Beomgyu is about to bite through his lip at this rate, eyes wide and panicked as he watches your hand push his away, taking in the bulge in his pants as a flush of shame rises up his neck; youâve caught him, but you donât seem to be fazed in the slightest as youâre cupping him gently, looking up at him with doe eyes and lashes that flutter innocentlyâ he thinks his heart might just explode from how quickly itâs pounding.Â
âWait, wait waitâ weâre inâ other people mightââ heâs tripping over his words, saying so much yet nothing at all, but the way his eyes skirt over the perimeter is enough to tell you what heâs thinkingâ yet all you see are bookshelves that surround and hide you wellâ beneath the warmth of your hand that has yet to move, you can feel Beomgyu hardening within seconds.Â
âItâs late. Thereâs no one else here right now,â you say sweetly, too sweet, a bit patronizing as you lean in close and coo the words directly into his earâ youâre brushing back his long hair with a gentle hand, tucking it behind his ears that he always seems to hide; theyâre a pitiful bright red and decorated with silver piercings, absentmindedly caressing along his jaw with the back of your hand; his eyes flutter shut at the tender action, along with the feeling of your hand finally beginning to rock against his cock gentlyâ and he melts into the chair, like putty in your hands as you watch his shoulders slump and cave into himself, his head hang at the stimulation; youâve barely done anything, yet heâs already a messâ the sight surprises you.
âGo ahead,â you continue softly, hand cupping his jaw and cradling it carefully, attempting to get him to look at you againâ and he follows your commands effortlessly, pretty eyes fluttering open and his head turning at the gentle push of your handâ and heâs looking at you with glassy, wide eyes, cheeks flushed pink and mouth parted as his eyes begin to flutter shut againâ and your thumb is rubbing soothing circles along his cheekbone teasingly, leaning in slightly to whisper again, close enough that he can feel your breath fanning against the tip of his nose, âPuppy, look at me.â
He follows your command in a heartbeat; heâs met with another of your sickeningly sweet smiles, deceiving and comforting all at the same time.Â
âGo ahead now puppy,â you murmur, any movements of your hand ceasing entirely as you watch him with eager eyes, watching the way he seems to sober up at the loss of your touch, âtake my hand offâ câmon, take it off if you really want to.â
A moment passesâ he really should be taking your hand off, shouldnât he? But his mind is clouded now and you look so pretty under the warm library lights, pristine and perfect as always, glossy lips and lidded eyes encouraging him with a deceivingly fond lookâ but Beomgyu loves it, and he loves the way you laugh mockingly at him, unable to control the way he whines petulantly and shakes his head, giving you your answer by thrusting his aching cock into your hand desperately.
âGood boy,â you utter absentmindedly, a compliment that makes Beomgyuâs hips stutter as you finally begin to inch up his bulge, careful fingers making quick work to undo his pantsâ and with one last glance at the deserted area around you, youâre slipping your hand inside and past the tight waistband of his boxers.Â
âHaahâ!â Beomgyu is slapping a hand over his mouth and beating you to it, eyes wide and face even more flushed than before as he stares down at the way your hand disappears beneath the material of his boxers, expertly wrapping around his length and slowly beginning to jerk him off underneath the table.Â
You donât seem to be worked up by any of this at all; your eyes are lidded with a slight boredom, a tiredness heâs seen at every one of your study sessions, watching the way you turn back to your homework and begin reading the instructions, hand still working expertly at his length as you do; Beomgyu has to press another hand firmly against his mouth the moment your thumb is swiping over his tip, collecting the constant arousal that collects there and using it as lubeâ you donât even bat an eye at him during all this.Â
After a few minutes, youâre able to hear the slick sounds of your hand working against his cock effortlessly; the poor boy is aroused and leaking beyond belief, now sporting a wet patch against his pants that you seem to be dead-set on worseningâ your pace is picking up and you donât bother to glance at Beomgyu to check up on him, though you also donât bother to hide the way your lips quirk in amusement at the sight of him trying (and failing) to keep his composure.Â
âMâmmh, aghâ close, sâcloseâŚâ Beomgyu stutters out pathetically, bucking his hips up messily and turning back into that desperate and rambly mess from the first time you sucked him off; his voice is deep and breathy as he whispers out these pleas to you, begs to not stop, to go faster, toâ
âBeomgyu,â you whisper coyly, using this chance to finally put your plan into action, âBeomgyu baby, dâyou wanna cum? Hmm? Want me to make you feel good?â
Heâs nodding thoughtlessly; of course heâs nodding, his mind has gone blank and thereâs nothing else in there that seems to make sense except for the way your warm hand wraps around his cock so perfectly, unable to stop the choked whines he lets out every time he feels you squeeze him teasingly.Â
âThen you gotta do something for me, okay pup?â you coo out, making sure to use the nickname you know he loves so muchâ he lets out a choked whimper at the sound, brows knit tightly together and hair falling in front of his face with the way he hangs his headâ and youâre leaning in close to him again, breath fanning on his skin and your palm slapping his cheek softly, tapping at it to get his attention; it works like a charm, and his glassy eyes are meeting yours once more. âPuppy, are you listening?â
âIâmââ his words get cut off by a weak whine, feeling your hand tighten teasingly around him, âIâm listeningâ Iâm listening.âÂ
âGood,â you coo out, feeling the way his hips buck and he starts becoming restless, ânow if you wanna cum, you gotta promise me something, okay?âÂ
Anything, anything for you, he breathes out absentmindedly, and youâre sure he has no idea what heâs even agreeing to at this point.Â
âDonât act like you know me when weâre in public,â you say sweetly, muddling his mind by increasing your pace, by doing exactly what youâve noted makes him squirm and cry the most, âI donât know you, you donât know meâ weâre strangers.âÂ
You notice the way his face is twisting up in confusion; his mouth is parting and heâs fighting to say something, to ask whyâ but youâre not giving him a chance to, brushing his hair back and cupping his face, turning him to look at you and digging your nails into his cheeks to get him to meet your eyes; through the intense pleasure you give him, you can still see the hurt that swims within. You let out a soft coo at the pathetic sight.
âCome on, promise me, okay?â you pout, âyouâre a good boy, right? Youâll keep your promise?âÂ
His hips are stuttering and fucking into your fist again; youâve got him pinned down precisely. Any coherent thought is fading out of Beomgyuâs mind and the only thing heâs concerned himself with is his impending orgasm, the feeling of pleasure that is only heightened with every string of praise you say to him.Â
âBe a good little puppy and say youâll promise me,â you say, thumb swiping over his bottom lip before youâre pulling at it, dark eyes observing the way he melts before your touch and finally gives inâ heâs nodding, youâve got him right where you want him, and all you needed was a little bit of mindless praise. âcâmon, say it, say it and you can cum.â
âI promise,â he breathes out, whiny and high pitched and strained, as though speaking was a challenge for him, âIâll do anything, pleaseâ pleasepleaseplease, let me cum, Iâllâ I promise.â
âThere we go baby,â you hum in approval, pressing a peck to his pouting lips and taking in the way his waterline is filled with tears that hang precariously, âsuch a good boyâ my good boy.â
His hips stutter, rising off the seat, and youâre feeling warm spurts of cum land on your skin. His mouth is falling open and youâre sure he might just let out a loud noise, so before you can think twice, youâre pulling his face close to you and smashing your lips against his; he whines weakly into mouth, and youâre swallowing it greedily, kissing him languidly and guiding him through his high with praise that makes his breath stutter and his knees weak.Â
Youâve got him wrapped around your finger, and good.
It takes a while before Beomgyu is finally coming to his senses. Heâs panting softly against your mouth, lips swollen and bitten at, his cock sensitive as the feeling of you continuing to pump him slowly suddenly becomes too much; with a shaky hand, he presses against your shoulder and attempts to signal you to stop. Youâre pulling away immediately.Â
Beomgyu looks, for lack of a better term, absolutely destroyed. His face is flushed and his eyes are droopy with exhaustion, hair mussed and messy and his clothes in complete disarray; you look down, and youâre wincing in half amusement and half pity at the sight of the wet spot against Beomgyuâs jeans. Heâs following your gaze, and if he could turn any redder, youâre sure he definitely wouldâve; his ears burn.Â
Your hand is messy; his cum is still coated on your skin, sticky and incriminating as it sticks to your fingers and pools in between, a grimace twisting your face into a look of dismay as you stare down at the messâ before you can even think of what to do about it, Beomgyu is handing you a tissue.Â
His hand is shaky as he extends it out to you; your gaze is snapping up to meet his, only youâve found that he canât look at you at allâ it seems as though the fog in his mind has already subsided and heâs realized what youâve asked of him, lips pressed together and face still flushed as you finally take it from him. He turns away from you immediately, pulling his sweater over his lap and staring down at the disarray of textbooks and notebooks before him.Â
The silence is suddenly unbearable. You feel awkward as you wipe at your skin, even more so when youâre stuck with nothing but a soiled tissue and a hand thatâs still undeniably dirty, the tension between you two now growing tenfold by the second as you finally decide that you should probably just goâ itâs not like heâd be surprised by it anyway.Â
Youâre opening your mouth to excuse yourselfâ to ignore the elephant in the room, to simply run away with a coy smile like you always doâ but Beomgyu is beating you to the punch, and you canât even hide the startled flinch your body does as he stands and begins to pack up hastily, shoving his materials into his book bag without a second glance to see if everything is perfectly aligned and neat.
You can only sit there and watch; itâs clear that your words seem to have gotten to him, and though you were expecting the awkwardness that would stem from it, you didnât expect Beomgyu to be upset; your mind races to find reasons why, to try and wrap your head around why he would be feeling this way.Â
âI asked the professor how you were doing in the class, since you never seem to want to tell me,â Beomgyu finally says, breaking the tension and adjusting the materials in his bag to be just the way he likes it; he zips his bag shut in one aggressive swoop, and you canât help the surprise on your face when he sends you a harsh glare.Â
âHe says youâve been improving greatly; said you were a good student from the very start, that you only needed to catch up on the materials.â heâs slinging his bag over his shoulder, pushing the chair in and taking a step back from your dumbfounded figure, âso it looks to me that you achieved your goal with our sessions.â
A moment passesâ and your eyes widen slightly, catching on to what heâs trying to tell you, finding that you really want to deny the professorâs claims, even if they are true. But your pride impedes you from uttering a single word, knowing that it would kill you to try and coax Beomgyu to stay with you, to keep these study sessions goingâ and through this sudden urge, you catch yourself wondering why you would even want this to continue.
âIâm glad my help seemed to workâ but it seems that you donât even need it anymore,â Beomgyu finalizes what he needed to say, and you can see the way his shoulders practically sag from the relief of getting his thoughts across; his hand goes to tug his oversized sweater down, completely covering his lap and the mess you leftâ he grimaces softly.Â
âWhat? So thatâs it?â is all you can say, watching his face harden at your words, âJust like that? What about me?â
His face twists up in angerâ your words have struck a nerve, and suddenly, heâs remembering why no one wanted to tutor you in the first place.Â
âIâm sure youâll do fine,â is all he says, taking another step back and increasing the distance between you two, âanyone would be willing to tutor you with the rate you like to offer.â
You both know what he really wants to sayâ just use your money on someone else to get what you want, like you always do. You find that you canât really say anything to that. You remain silent.
Beomgyu turns around, and leaves; he doesnât bother to say goodbye, and youâre left to watch his retreating figure, the hastiness of his pace and the way he continuously tugs his oversized sweater down over and over, even if it doesnât move an inch.Â
Thatâs it, you tell yourself, leaning back against your chair, staring down at the display before you, at the notes you were actually taking, the work you were finally doing, you finally got what you wanted.Â
After a moment, the seat next to you is feeling a lot emptier than it did seconds ago; the room feels endless, as though you were left alone in this lonely labyrinth. Beomgyuâs words echo in your head, and you frown.Â
Is this what you wanted?
 Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Beomgyu has kept his promise well; you havenât seen him in weeks.Â
Not around campus, not around the dining halls, not even in the library, a place youâve found yourself actually attending regularlyâ not even in the only class you sharedâ and it seems as though heâs vanished off the face of the Earth.Â
Youâve found yourself thinking about him more often than youâd like; wondering if heâs okay, if heâs off at one of his many jobs again, if heâs restingâ it makes you shiver with disgust every time you catch yourself, grimacing at the idea that you would even find yourself worried about himâ and while you tell yourself that youâve finally gotten rid of one of your biggest burdens, you can still feel the nagging feeling to talk to him every time you see his contact in your phone.
âDid you finally get him off your trail?â Yunjin asks you one day, when youâre busy checking the due dates for this weekâs assignments online, making a mental schedule of what to work on first as you leave your food untouched; her words are snapping you out of your trance, looking up at her with a gaze that screams I wasnât listening, what?Â
âYour little playthingâ the loser guy?â she drawls, watching your face carefully, taking your small reaction as a sign that youâve caught on, âdid you finally shake him off?âÂ
âIâ yeah, I did,â you say apathetically, letting out a soft tsk as youâre looking back at your laptop, âfinally.â
âWow, look at you,â Yunjin awes, seeing the way your brows furrowed in concentration and you have yet to eat, too immersed in your course load to roll your eyes at her clear, mocking tone, âlooks like he really did a number on youâ I didnât know you used your laptop for anything other than shopping.â
âYunjin, come on,â you sigh, jaw clenching as you suddenly donât find yourself in the mood for her teasing, âI mean, I know Iâve been slacking really bad recently, but you know thatâs not true.â
She doesnât seem to take you seriouslyâ then again, no one ever really does, a constant in your life that makes you jaw tick and your eyes mentally rollâ and she laughs, shaking her head and pouting as though you were a thing to be pitied. You wonder how much of this is supposed to be friendly teasing.Â
âYeah sure,â she sighs, leaning her chin on the palm of her hand and leaning over to look at your screen, âDonât work too hard though, it might hurt your brain.â
You ignore her comment; Yunjin doesnât seem to care about your silence, doesnât bother to gauge your reaction as she continues to poke at yet another of her salads, pushing the contents around with her fork in boredom as she speaks up again.Â
âYou know, hopefully he has the same effect on me.â
This gets your attention immediately. Yunjin is looking at you with surprised eyes that feign innocence, raising a confused brow at your narrowed eyes.Â
âWhat do you mean by that,â you ask slowly, attempting to keep your tone indifferent as you speak.
Yunjin shrugs, as though what she was about to tell you next wasnât of any importanceâ and it really shouldnât be, but you still canât ignore the way it makes your body feel like youâve been shocked with a wave of electricity.Â
âI mean, your little tutor seemed to be such a good influence soâŚâ she stabs at her salad lazily, bringing up the fork to her lips before sheâs sending you a small smile. âI thought Iâd give him a try.âÂ
You bristle quite visibly at that; your mind is running a million miles an hour, wondering where this sudden idea is coming from, being friends with Yunjin for longer than you can remember as your mouth begins to run before you can stop it.Â
âYou said your parents have tried to set you up with multiple tutorsâ the best in the country,â you say, brows knitted together as Yunjin simply shrugs her shoulders, raising her brows as if to say and? âYou said youâd rather die than to get tutoredâ you said it was a waste of time.â
âYeah⌠butâŚâ Yunjin shrugs again, and you wonder how much of this is just an impulse from her as she continues, âI donât know, my parents are on my ass again about giving me a tutor, and I donât wanna deal with all those stuck up pricks they send to me.â
She admits her true motives with her next words.Â
âAnd I donât know⌠heâs kinda cute?â she says, laughing like a schoolgirl who was embarrassed to admit a crush, âIn like, a pathetic kinda wayâ and now that heâs done tutoring you, Iâm sure he has a slot that opened up.â
Your mind is spiraling with things to say to her; you want to tell her to stay away from Beomgyu, to not try to mess with himâ tell her that heâs a loser that isnât worth her time, a nerd with an obsession with a lame game and the owner of a creepy birdâ but you catch yourself, biting your tongue and taking in the way Yunjin simply looks at you expectantly; as though waiting for your embarrassing outburst, you realize.
With a scoff, youâre slamming your laptop shutâ Yunjin flinches in surprise.Â
âIâm sure one didâ Iâm leaving,â is all you say, knowing that nothing would change, even if you tried anything. Yunjin scrambles to try to get you to stay, but all attempts fall shortâ you tell her thereâs an exam you need to study for, and she sighs in defeat.Â
âYouâre coming to the party this Saturday, at least?â she says, clearly annoyed at your sudden sensitivity, at your sudden change in attitude, âyou promised you would.â
Your mind is attempting to remember what she could be talking aboutâ then youâre finally remembering the event she spontaneously planned a few weeks back, telling you that she hasnât seen everyone together in one place in so longâ and while you found yourself agreeing excitedly back then, you donât have much energy to do so now. But Yunjin is staring at you expectantly, raising a brow at your silence, and you find that thereâs really not much of a choice for you. (There is, but you know thereâd be consequences if you chose wrong.)
âYeah. Iâll be there.â
âPerfect!â she beams, eyes crinkling and her hands clasping together happily, as though there was no previous tension between you at all mere moments before, âIâll see you then.âÂ
You merely nod, turning around and taking your food to the nearest trash canâ you werenât really hungry, anyway.Â
You can feel Yunjinâs eyes pinpointed on you the whole way out.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Youâve always loved parties.Â
You loved to dress up, make yourself look pretty and catch the eyes of everyone with your pretty dresses and makeup done to perfection; loved the attention that came with it, the way you could let loose for once and not worry about your image, drinking and feeling your body become loose, mind finally being allowed to forget about any worries you had.Â
You were known to be a social butterfly; the pretty airhead that couldnât stop talking once you got her startedâ always the life of the party, never one to cling to the wall and stare at the dance floor wistfully.Â
Standing before the beach house of Yunjinâs parents, one they didnât use as much as they once did when Yunjin was only a little girl with an affinity to the sea, you begin to wonder where that part of you has gone.Â
You feel dreadfully out of place. You havenât even gone inside yet.Â
Music is blasting and the windows are dark, save for the bright neon lights that come from an unknown source; Yunjin has always been a sucker for that club vibe, anyway. You want to go in, want to walk inside and pretend like itâs nothing, but this time, you can only stand at the bottom of the steps and tug your dress down a little more. You feel like a prude.Â
Deep breaths, you tell yourselfâ one in, one out, your chest rising and falling slowly as you try calm your racing pulseâ and with a silent okay of reassurance to yourself, you will your body to begin its trek up the steps.Â
The door is unlocked; itâs not like you needed to knock to get in, anywayâ only those with an invite even knew this party was happening. The place isnât packedâ nor is it meant to beâ but itâs a bit crowded at least, filled with familiar faces for the most part; all people you grew up with or around, sons and daughters of influential families that grew to be nothing but partiers and troublemakers. In other words, your usual crowd.Â
There are some exceptions to these guests, however. People youâve seen around campus, student athletes with a scholarship and business majors that have already found themselves internships to the companies others in the room are a part ofâ and it seems that no matter how much everyone here tries to pretend and deny, they can never really separate their personal lives from the responsibilities passed down to them at birth.Â
Your first instinct is to beeline it to the kitchen; in other words, to the makeshift bar Yunjin always sets up, an impressive display of alcohol and even a hired bartender making drinks left and rightâ you immediately ask for two jello shots, something Yunjin always made for herself and in extension, you, not in the mood for anything stronger as you opt to get this nervous energy out of you instead; you proceed to get two more a second after, just out of habit.
You should find Yunjin; let her know youâre here, make sure she doesnât try to scold and bitch at you for promising to go to her party only to end up ditchingâ youâre sure sheâd never believe you unless she saw you with her own eyes.Â
The kitchen is empty. The makeshift dance floor seems to be empty as well, spending a few minutes scouring the place and shrugging off any passing advances; with a heavy sigh, you decide that you should check upstairs, just in case, ready to make your way up before a rough hand is grabbing at your elbow and tugging you back; the smell of alcohol greets you before Yunjin can.Â
âYou actually came!â Yunjin yells over the music, her face flushed from the alcohol and her balance off as she stumbles slightly; you make a quick move to catch her, eyes drifting down before youâre catching sight of the uncomfortable heels she donsâ meeting her gaze once more, she pouts.Â
âI donât even know why I wore these,â she groans, running a hand through her auburn hair, watching the way it falls back into place perfectlyâ she then proceeds to scan over your own outfit, letting out a sound of awe as she smiles, âyou look great! Pretty as always.â
Sheâs muttering something else, but you canât really hear it over the sound of the music; eventually, you find your eyes drifting away to the dancefloor, wondering if thereâs anyone else you could recognizeâ your eyes lock with a particular, infamous athleteâs, one that youâve been dying to get with since the beginning of the semesterâ and youâre suddenly thankful for the buzz the jello shots provided you, Yunjin eventually following your gaze and cheering at the realization of what you were planning.Â
Sheâs pushing you forward before you can even think things through; the man with dark hair simply smiles at you, coy eyes beckoning you closerâ and with a deep breath, you decide to let go of any worries you had and go back to being your airheaded, carefree selfâ even if just for a moment.Â
âHey,â he says simply, a hand going to rest on your waist; the music is much too loud for you to converse properly, but you donât really seem to mind as you allow yourself to get lost in the rhythm insteadâ that, and because your tipsy brain has forgotten his name, and the low lights that obscure his face arenât exactly helping either.Â
But it seems as though he was thinking the exact thing; heâs leaning down to ask the exact question you were wondering into your ear, deep voice and pouty lips that brush against the shell of your ear making you shiverâ youâre muttering your name into his ear, tilting your head toward him to allow him to do the same.
Yeonjun. Your head seems to clear for the moment.Â
âLooks like we finally meet,â he grins, still close to your face in order for you to be able to hear him; your face twists up in confusion, and he laughs softly before continuing. âYouâre just as pretty as Iâve been toldâ my friend talks a lot about you. Youâre trouble, hmm?â
âYour friend?â is all you can say in response, placing a hand against his chest and leaning in closer, the music muddling his words slightly; his hand continues to hold you steady, and the two of you continue to sway to the rhythm.Â
âYeah,â he laughs, staring at your face thatâs twisted up in obvious confusion, âMy roommate, Beomgyu? I heard he tutored you for a bit.â
His name is enough to clear your head entirely, as though a bucket of ice water has been poured over your body and drenched your figure.Â
âHeâ he told you about me?â you ask, mentally slapping yourself for sounding so pathetic, for feeling so curious as you stare at Yeonjun with undeniably hopeful eyes; instead, all you get is another amused laugh from him.Â
âAre you kidding? You practically traumatized him!â he jokes, though you donât find yourself laughing along to that, lips twitching and a frown threatening to take over your features, âYouâd think he was scared of you from the way he talked about you.â
You donât respond to that; youâre not sure how you would respond to that anyway, letting out a weak laugh and falling silent as you look over his shoulder and fall back into the beat of the songâ but it seems as though Yeonjun is too drunk, and frankly, unaware to take in your reaction, because heâs leaning into your ear and murmuring words that strike the final blow into your heart.
âHeâs here, actuallyâ Yunjin and him really seem to be hitting it off. Didnât think he had it in himâ
You chose to bite your tongue, biting back a bitter comment about how he really doesnât have it in him to woo someone like Yunjin. But Yeonjun is too amused by his own comment to pick up on the sudden sourness of your mood, mouthing the lyrics to whateverâs playing and guiding your hips with a hand, a smile tugging at his lips as he sends you a wink. But youâre too shaken by this sudden news that you no longer feel the need to play along, much less try to hook up with him tonight. Now that you think about it, the once superficially important goal of chasing after the athlete before you had been pushed down the list of your priorities long, long ago.Â
ââM gonna get a drink,â you mutter miserably, pushing against Yeonjunâs chest and ignoring the way he immediately begins to complain, untangling yourself from his grip as you leave with one final, half-hearted sorry!
Screw jello-shots, you think to yourself, stumbling back to the kitchen with sore feet, I need something stronger.Â
Something stronger comes in the form of a mysterious drink you let the bartender make for you; you didnât exactly keep track of the ingredients he listed off to you, simply nodding instead when he asked if thatâs what you wantedâ if you think itâs strong enough, you replied with a smile, choosing to ignore the hesitant nod he gave you in return.Â
The speed at which you downed the drink was enough to have the bartender at your side with a water and a warning lookâ you ignored it, of course, drinking the water with a slight pout, only bothering to drink half before you were back to the dancefloor; maybe you could distract yourself with Yeonjun for a while, you think.Â
But any plans to track down the said man come to a glaring halt the moment youâre stepping out the kitchen; your eyes widen, surprised expression mirroring Hueningkaiâs as he stands before youâ his eyes scan over your figure, running back up and stopping at your hazed eyes and flushed face, the slight sway in your movement helping everything click in his mind; youâre a few drinks away from getting utterly wasted, and it seems as though thatâs the path youâre getting ready to take.Â
âDidnât think youâd be here,â Hueningkai says, watching your face scrunch in confusion, taking a step forward to hear him better, âThought youâd be too busy doing another study date to come.â
âShut up,â you sneer, rolling your eyes and scoffing at the implications of his words, âAnd why do you care? Iâm surprised youâre not fucking a random girl in Yunjinâs bathroom right now.â
âI tried,â Hueningkai rolls his eyes, smiling in that obnoxiously smug way as he watches you frown. He leans in, placing a hand on the doorway and above your head as he reaches out to grab your waist; tugging you close to him, lips ghosting the shell of your ear as he mumbles quietly, âbut she wasnât anywhere as good as you.â
âYouâre gross,â you glare, leaning back as you let your lips upturn in disgust, already knowing what heâs implyingâ asking of youâ with a simple look at his face. âLeave me alone, I donât want to talk to you.â
âAre you still mad?â Hueningkai asks, beginning his chase even after youâve successfully escaped his clutches, ignoring him with a roll of your eyes as you cross your arms and make your way out to the living room, âyou never even told me what was wrong, you just ran away and kept bitching at me.â
You huff; it doesnât seem like Hueningkai will give up anytime soon, so youâre whirling around and sending him a pointed glare as you finally give him the closure he so desperately keeps asking for.Â
âI did tell you what was wrong,â you start, clenching your jaw at the way he immediately opens his mouth to refute that, âyou treat me like nothing more than a fuck buddy, acting as though we werenât actually friends before that! All you do is make me feel worthless, then you have the audacity to turn around and play the victim?! Like seriously, Hueningkai, is this all you see me as? A body to fuck?â
Hueningkai began asking you to keep it down the moment you felt yourself get riled up; volume rising, face heating up, you ignored him, ignored the odd looks you got from others, deciding that since the man before you wanted to hear your thoughts so badly, youâd let it all out.
âWe used to be friends. We grew up together!â you say, feeling ridiculous for continuing to grieve the past, the days where things werenât so complicated and all you felt for Hueningkai was a harmless crush. âI canât believe I let you use me like this, just because I thought I likedâ god, Iâm so stupid.â
You donât give him a chance to retaliate; youâre turning around and ready to weave your way through the faceless people and go outside, only making it halfway before Hueningkai is grabbing at your elbow and asking you to wait. His persistence garners yet another roll of your eyes.
âYou what? Hang on, what was that last part?â he asks, trailing behind you and desperately asking for an answerâ because of course he would hone in on that part. You continue to ignore him, tugging your arm out his hold and beginning to push through the crowd at the dancefloorâ seriously, how many people did Yunjin invite? You seem to have severely underestimated the capacity of this place.
âYouâ did you like me? Do you like me?â Hueningkaiâs last attempts to get something, anything from you are childish and do nothing but make your stomach churn, âCome on, we can talk this out, be mature about itâ I can fix things, I can make it up to, yeah? Hey, donât bail on me nowââ
âEnough!â you yell, getting yet another round of side glances and strange looks from others; listening in like always, pretending horribly to be ignorant to it all.
Youâre right before the doorway; so close, yet you know that if you leave now, Hueningkai will continue to follow and pester youâ so as horrible as the timing is, you realize with a heavy feeling that now is your chance to do what youâve been debating on for so long.Â
âPlease, I donât want to do this anymore,â you say, your words weak as you look right into his eyesâ and everything surfaces into your mind once more, the innocent hope you once had of stealing his heart one day, âLetâs just end thisâ everything.â
The words feel familiar on your tongue, only this time, you realize that this is the person you shouldâve directed this message to in the first place.
âWe donât know each other,â you say, jaw clenched at the way it takes Hueningkai a second to process things due to the music that tries to drown you outâ you still catch onto the exact moment where it all registers in his head, eyes widening and mouth opening to protestâ but you beat him to it, not giving him another opportunity to try and haphazardly fix thing, albeit momentarily. Your eyes meet his, and your heart wrenches upon seeing that heâs more annoyed than hurt.Â
âDonât talk to meâ weâre strangers now.â
The final blow is like a weight that is immediately taken off your shoulders; you reach to open the door and slip out. This time, Hueningkai doesnât follow.Â
The air is cool on your face and a nice contrast to the stuffy air inside the house. Slowly, you make your way to the corner of the porch fence, stumbling over due to the soreness of your feet and the alcohol that still runs through your system. So many emotions course through you, seemingly wanting to bring about a wave of nostalgia and sadness, lingering feelings for the man youâve just let behindâ but you wonât allow yourself to cry over him, scoffing instead at the way you allowed yourself to foolishly bend over backwards for him for so long.Â
âWow,â you hear a voice say, not bothering to look back as you immediately recognize who it is; Yunjin joins you, leaning against the fence and craning her head forward to properly survey youâ you donât bother looking at her, even more so when she finally continues,âThat was harsh back there.â
You sigh. Because of course Yunjin heard that, and of course sheâs the one to bring it up immediately after.Â
âDidnât think youâd actually cut him offâ I thought youâd always be like, head over heels, hopelessly in love with himâ like a little girl, you know? You never seemed to grow out of him.â You glare at her, but continue to remain silent; she laughs, throwing her head back at the sight, only to wobble back slightly from the sudden motion.
âOh come onnnnn, you know itâs true!â she coos, proceeding to poke at you teasingly and twist her voice to sound like you, âHuening called me pretty. Huening bought me the purse I really wanted. Huening wants me to go with him to dinner with his parents. Huening Huening Hueningâ!â
Her laugh is obnoxious, even after youâve hissed at her to be quiet; she continues to mock you under her breath, drunkenly quoting things she overheard from your outburst, and you realize with a disappointed sigh that she definitely wonât be stopping soon.Â
âHeyyy, donât get all sensitive on me now!â she whines, grabbing your hand and tugging you back when you attempt to leave; it doesnât work, and you merely tug yourself out her grip, not even bothering to respond to her cries to stay.
Yunjin pauses her dramatics the moment youâre turning and leaving, scoffing at the way she offhandedly apologizes, words slurring together as she says that sheâs sorry if you feel offended! Youâre shaking your head at that, making your way back to where the stairs are, glancing back at the home one last timeâ and youâre freezing for a second when you meet Beomgyuâs gaze, the boy wide eyed and awkward as he stands at the doorway. Behind you, Yunjin cheers drunkenly.Â
âBeomie! Hey, could you tell her to stop being so dramatic? Like come on, Iâm just trying to have fun,â Yunjinâs rambles are left unacknowledged by you both, and you finally find strength within you to walk away after a second; itâs not like you and Beomgyu had anything to talk about, anyway.Â
Behind you, Yunjin calls for Beomgyu to go to her and give her attention; her pleas fade from your ears and youâve finally made it onto the beach, pulling out your phone and fumbling through your contacts before youâre finally ordering an Uber to pick you up insteadâ it was too late in the night for you to bother your driver.Â
The closest driver will be here in fifteen minutes; youâll spend those fifteen minutes sitting before the ocean, clothes riddled with sand and body still sobering up slowly, your shoes placed to the side as you dip your legs into the waterâ fifteen minutes of silence, allowing you to ponder if these people are really the ones youâve chosen to affiliate with for half your life.Â
Youâve become so entranced with the white noise of the waves that you couldnât pick up on the approaching footsteps of another; it isnât until the said person is sitting at your side that youâre finally snapping out of your trance.Â
Beomgyu settles down beside you without a word. You watch him for a second, taking in his appearanceâ he mustâve been dragged here, if anything, his attire not straying from the usual sweaters and jeansâ and you look away, staring back out into the horizon as silence continues to drag down between the two of you.Â
âYouâre not sensitive,â Beomgyu suddenly says, his voice so quiet and hesitant you almost missed it, âOr dramatic.â
You laugh humorlessly.Â
âI know.â
âYou deserve to feel wanted,â Beomgyu adds, glancing at you from the corner of his eye, taking in your troubled expression and distant gaze, â...And, your friends are all assholes.â
â...I know.â
Itâs quiet. Youâre staring down at your feet, at the waves that slowly make their way up your shins before they retreat. Tonight made everything clearer than everâ why did you ever bother to associate with those people? Family and social status was the answer, but as you sit on the beach and away from the rowdy, ruthless crowd, you realize that you feel much more comfortable where you are.Â
âNo one ever takes me seriously,â you say suddenly, staring at the ground and tracing shapes into the sand, âI mean, I never really gave them reason to; it was all just fun and games at firstâ since I was a girl, I mean. Everyone thought that because I was so obsessed with superficial things that I just didnât have anything going on in my head, and I guess that was enough to let me become a joke to everyone. A pretty airhead who just thinks about makeup and clothes and purses.â
âI mean, I worked hard to get to where Iâm at, yâknow? Thereâs more to me than just that. I wonât deny that my parents and their wealth helped get me a lot, and I certainly wonât deny that I seriously slacked this semester, but Iâ I donât know, I just wish people wouldnât take the shit I say and do like an absolute cosmic joke sometimes; that everyone I know and surrounded myself with wasnât so superficial and fake.â
Your mouth just began running without you realizing it, forcing you to spill everything thatâs been weighing on your mind; you donât even bother stopping yourself, refusing to glance at the boy beside you as you continue.Â
âAnd you wanna know what the worst part is? For a while, I started to believe what they thought of me, started to play into it if it meant them⌠liking me more. Ugh, that sounds so pathetic, seriously. I need to get it together.â You roll your eyes, tossing your head back as you scold yourself midway through your rambling, âI thought that if I acted all cute and stupid, if I just molded myself into what they liked, they⌠he would choose me. Would decide to keep me around for more than just a fuck. Would reciprocate years and years of pining and pretending to be cool with him fucking around with other peopleâ all while he got all sulky if I even mentioned other guys.â
Silence. You go quiet for a moment, hand stilling for a moment, brows knitting together as you stare at the mess youâve made in the sand; Beomgyu opens his mouth to say something, but is swiftly cut off by the sight of you sitting up straight abruptly.Â
âBut Iâm worth more than that, yâknow? I deserve to have someone take it slow with me, to like me for who I am, to really take me seriously. Even if I act ridiculous sometimes.â You sigh, your lips twitching in a soft smile as you finally look up from the mess in the sand and at Beomgyu; his eyes meet yours, doe-like and wide as always. You laugh at his expression, and his face heats up at the sight.Â
âGod, Iâve been really insufferable, huh?â you laugh, looking away from him the moment you felt your heart beating a bit faster, âI just never shut up, Iâve been told itâs really annoyingâ I didnât mean to dump that all on you like that.â
âItâs alright,â Beomgyu says hastily, biting at his lip and averting your gaze as he continues, âI like listening to you talk.â
Your eyes widen and his words echo through your mind, bouncing off the walls and repeating the message over and over. I like listening to you talk.Â
Your mind seems to have entirely blanked out at that; how do you even respond? All you know is that your body seems to heat up entirely after a second, shivers running through your spine as you attempt miserably to find something to say, something thatâll probably shatter the mood entirelyâ but you canât, and youâre stuck in a silence that grows tense as minutes pass.Â
The ding of a notification sounds from your phone; the two of you are looking down at the screen that lights up, and you immediately scramble to leave the moment you read that your car is here.
âIâ I have to go,â you say lamely, wincing at your accidental stutter; you donât give Beomgyu a chance to say anything more, wiping the sand off your clothes and giving him a half-hearted wave goodbye. âSee ya.â
If anyone accused you of running away like a coward, you wouldnât even bother to deny such claimsâ because itâs true, and you all but sprint away in order to get out of Beomgyuâs sight, eyes frantically sweeping over the street until you finally spot your Uber, sending a small wave and getting inside quickly.Â
âSorry about the mess,â you say sheepishly, glancing down at your shoes that tracked in remnants of sand; slowly, the car begins to move, and youâre staring out the window and watching Yunjinâs beach house pass byâ in the very distance, your eyes catch onto Beomgyu, who remains sitting still by the shore.Â
Your mind echoes his words to you, and youâre failing miserably to push down the way your stomach seems to be filled with a flurry of butterflies, the way your face heats up and a smile threatens to break through your face.Â
Fuck, you think to yourself, realizing with dread that youâve only felt something this intense one other instance, many years ago.
Fuck.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Itâs been a few weeks since Yunjinâs party; a few weeks since you stopped talking to her, a few weeks since you dropped all your snobby friends you only made for connections, a few weeks since you finally broke things off with Hueningkai.Â
A few weeks since you realized that you might see Beomgyu as more than just a nerdy, pathetic loser.Â
Youâve found that you have a lot more free time these days; now that youâre no longer worried about attending worthless cocktail parties or going golfing to help Yunjin impress a CEOâs son who sheâs had her eye on for days, youâve found that your life has become a lot more peacefulâ or rather, boring.Â
Your social life is nonexistent; what else did you expect, after cutting off practically everyone you knew? Youâve become a homebody, much more focused on your work and finding more mundane hobbiesâ your grades have never looked better.Â
Avoiding Yunjin and anyone associated with her was simple; it was nothing, passing by her and pretending like you two never knew each other, like the two of you werenât once attached by the hip. It never phased you to be in the same room as her, not even batting an eye when she found herself sitting a table away from you in the dining halls.Â
You just wish you could say the same about Beomgyu.Â
God, what the hell has gotten into you? Youâve become a fumbling, ridiculous mess, not even able to look him in the eye when you spot him in the halls, in the library, in cafes; your body heats up and words get stuck in your throat whenever heâs so much as close in proximity, always finding a way to flee as soon as possibleâ you donât even bother being inconspicuous anymore.Â
It was apparent to anyone who knew you that this behavior was a complete switch from your usual selfâ cocky, flirty, boldâ and Beomgyu, who had to spend hours on end with you, knew that better than anyone.Â
Heâs able to spot your odd behavior immediately. Though unfortunately for him, heâs unable to come to a proper conclusion as to why you may be acting like that, and simply decides that you must be holding up your promise still; the promise to act like complete strangers, that is.Â
Beomgyu frowns, staring at your back as you stand in line at the cafe across the campus library; youâre rigid, as though turning around and acknowledging the man behind you could kill you. Did you really hate him that much? He thought he made progress back at Yunjinâs party, your moment of vulnerability allowing him to see you in a completely new lightâ because after a moment of thought, after you fled the scene with an awkward wave and an empty smile, Beomgyu began to think; he really didnât know anything about you. He didnât even know your major.
All he knew about you were superficial thingsâ and Beomgyu found himself oddly irritated by the thought, wondering if he was any better than the very people you were complaining about; it weighed his mind, finding himself prattling off to Yeonjun about it one day, laying on the couch and petting Toto absentmindedly as he stared up at the ceiling.Â
âSheâs an architecture major,â Yeonjun said from the kitchen, looking up from the stove and meeting Beomgyuâs surprised gaze, âYunjin told me once that sheâs been working to try and get an internship at her fatherâs companyâ starting from the bottom up and everything. Heard itâs super competitive over there.â
You were a lot more hardworking and studious than Beomgyuâ or anyone, reallyâ gave you credit for. And as he watched you recite your order to the cashier, something so convoluted that the boy wondered if it was even good, he found himself wanting to learn more about you. You stood off to the side, staring down at your phone with a concentrated pout, and he wondered if he should bite the bullet and finally attempt talking to you.Â
Just as Beomgyu was mustering up the courage to say something, just as he was about to open his mouth, your name was called and you picked up your drink with a swiftness heâs never seen before, making your way out and passing Beomgyu in the blink of an eye. Heâs left waiting for his drink long after, snapped out of his reverie by a text notification.Â
Huh Yunjin:
im at the library rn r u coming ??
dont keep me waiting :(
Beomgyu sighs, and trudges his way to the library with a pout; the feeling is reminiscent, but he canât help but find himself thinking that it was you he was studying with instead. He spots Yunjinâs bright head of orange hair instantly, eyes glued to her phone and brows knitted together in a soft frownâ and though Beomgyu apologized for being late and asked her to start without him, she didnât seem to bother to even get her materials out.Â
Internally, Beomgyu finds himself rolling his eyesâ But heâs masking that with a soft clear of his throat, his calm voice asking Yunjin to get her textbook out so they can start their sessionâ and she finally looks up from her phone, bright eyes filled with confusion before she smiles sheepishly.Â
âOh right, the textbooks,â she murmurs, looking over at the seat next to her where sheâs placed her bag, then across where Beomgyu sits; his eyes widen at the sight of her collecting her things, standing up and rounding the table before she sits next to himâ before he can question what heâs doing, she scoots her chair closer to him, shoulders touching as she sends him an innocent smile. âI⌠forgot mine⌠you donât mind if we share, right? You said you took this class last semester.â
Beomgyu canât contain the way he lets out an exasperated breath; he pulls out his laptop, pulling up his digital copy as he mentally complains about how unprepared and demanding Yunjin always seemed to beâ he canât remember the last time she actually brought her own supplies; if anything, Beomgyu was sure she hadnât even bought her required texts.Â
And as he scrolls through the index in search of the needed chapter, he feels Yunjin leaning in closer; all under the guise of seeing the screen better, but Beomgyu knows better than to believe that her intentions are all innocent. And despite Beomgyuâs multiple attempts to scoot away from her, he quickly finds himself trapped by the girl again, frowning at the way she laughs at everything little thing he says and tugs at his sleeve when sheâs confused about something.Â
For a moment, Beomgyu wonders if she might actually be hitting on himâ but he soon catches onto the way she peeks over his screen after each attempt to be touchy, how she glances in the same direction after every soft coo of that same nickname that makes him winceâ and he follows the path of her gaze eventually, not entirely surprised at what he sees; if anything, it helps everything click together.Â
Beomgyu spots you sitting two tables away, face twisted up in concentration and headphones obstructing your ears, head bobbing rhythmically as you scribble things on your notebook, glancing back at your laptopâs screen ever so often; he catches sight of numbers and equations, and he realizes that you must be working on math homework.Â
Without realizing, heâs found himself staring at you; this side of you that he never saw much, private and calm and hardworking, the image you said you wished others saw in youâ and, as though you could feel it, youâre looking up from your work, meeting Beomgyuâs eyes instantly and watching as he flusters and looks away; your eyes then fall onto the girl who has him backed into the corner of the table, who leans into him and glances over you with a slight quirk of her lipsâ she sends you a small wave, then turns back to Beomgyu, calling out his name softly.Â
Undeniably curious, you lower the volume of your music slightlyâ you didnât expect Yunjin to actually go through with her plans of getting Beomgyu to tutor her, and much less her lasting this longâ youâre bringing up a hand to your head as subtly as you can, moving the right side of your headphone away from your ear slightly and allowing yourself to listen in to whatever it is they talk about.Â
While Beomgyu attempts multiple times to tutor her and teach her materials, Yunjin canât seem to stop steering away in a completely different direction; asking him entirely unrelated questions, blatantly flirting and acting coy as she pulls at his sweater everytime he seems hesitant to answerâ the sight is slightly amusing, but you canât deny the way it makes you wince with annoyance.Â
âTodayâs your day off, right?â Yunjin asks eventually, smiling widely when he nods, albeit hesitantly, âGreat! You know how you said youâd take me to dinner if I got a good score on my test?âÂ
You hear the sound of Yunjinâs nails clicking against a screen; undoubtedly searching for something, the soft mutters of Beomgyuâs you were the one who struck up the deal, making you bite your tongue in a desperate attempt to remain inconspicuous; from the corner of your eye, youâre able to catch the way the said boy glances over at you.Â
âWell⌠ta-da!â Yunjin squeals happily as she shoves the phone into Beomgyuâs face, allowing him to see her results for the said test. Beomgyu hums absentmindedly at the sight.Â
âYour place at seven?â Yunjin grins, poking his shoulder teasingly; Beomgyu doesnât answer, but she chooses to take that silence as a yes. âGreat! I have to go actually; promised my girls Iâd have brunch with themâ you understand, right?âÂ
Instead of fumbling with his words and asking her to not leave so abruptly, Beomgyu simply nods and hums a soft uh-huh. The sight is enough to have Yunjin scoffing, slinging her purse on her shoulder and reaching over to grab Beomgyuâs chinâ she tugs it and makes him face her, the action so sudden that his eyes widen drasticallyâ and she smiles, squishing his cheeks teasingly and pouting at his distant behavior.Â
âDonât get all pouty with meâ Iâll see you soon âkay?â before Beomgyu can even process anything, Yunjin leans down to press a kiss to his cheek, feeling her lipstick transfer onto his skinâ heâs slightly dazed, reaching up immediately to place a hand over the spot, staring at Yunjin with furrowed brows; she simply laughs and waves at him one final time, practically skipping out from how giddy she seemed.
From a distance, you watch Beomgyu quietly reach for his bag, his expression blank as he pulls out a tissue and his phone; you watch him use his front camera as a mirror, wiping at the lipstick with a soft frown.Â
From a distance, you laugh to yourselfâ the distaste that appears on his face is obvious to you, and you canât help but shake your head at Yunjinâs ridiculous behavior; god, was that what you looked like whenever you would bail on him mid-session? The very thought was terribly humbling to you.Â
Yunjinâs attempts to get back at you by using Beomgyu were more than obvious; you think back to her actions, the way she blatantly flirted with him, the plans she suddenly tacked on himâ on his day off, not to mentionâ and you roll your eyes, deciding that you might as well put an end to all these dramatics; not just for your sake, but for Beomgyuâs as well.Â
  Ëâ¡ ÍÍÍÍâłâĽÂ Â
Beomgyu is groaning to himself the moment he hears a sharp knock on his doorâ the last thing he wanted to do on his day off was spend his time entertaining a girl who was clearly using him for some odd, petty reasonsâ but he got ready nonetheless, texted Yunjin his address hours prior after being told that her driver would come pick him up, (he hadnât gotten a response in relation to that message, but sheâll probably see it soon) and waited patiently on the couch, albeit much earlier than the proposed plans.Â
Another sharp knockâ Beomgyu wishes he had some proper excuse for her, told her that he already had plans with his roommate, but the said man was off on his shift alreadyâ he trudges over to the door, twisting the doorknob with a heavy reluctance, and sighs. He braces himself as he swings open the door to greet Yunjin with a halfhearted smile.Â
âHey,â you pant instead, leaning against the doorway and ignoring his confusedâ and shockedâ expression, âIâ am I late? I thought I was early, did you get ready early?âÂ
You gulp; since when could Beomgyu clean up so nicely? Heâs forgone his usual, comfortable and casual outfits in favor of a perfectly pressed button up and a clean hairstyleâ Yunjin mustâve planned to take him to quite the expensive place, you think to yourself.Â
âOf course youâd be the type to get ready an hour early,â you mutter bitterly to yourself, the comment enough to have the said man glancing at the nearest clock in confusionâ and just like you said, a bright six oâclock greeted him on the digital clock.Â
âYouâ whatâre you doing here?â Beomgyu stutters pathetically, unable to do much but relent to the way you step inside, closing the door behind him and turning around to face you, âI thought you didnât want to talk to me anymore.â
âYeah well, I lied.â you simply say, the words confusing the poor man even more, âI came to tell you to cancel your plans with Yunjin.âÂ
âCanâ huh?â he searches your expression for the traces of a joke, but finds that youâre dead serious. âWhy would I cancel? Thatâs rude.â
âJesus, canât you see?!â You say exasperatedly, reaching out to place your hands on Beomgyuâs shoulders, fingers digging in so he can look at youâ itâs only when he finally does that you continue. âShe doesnât want to do thisâ sheâs using you. Sheâs doing this to get back at me.â
âBut why would sheâŚâ Beomgyu utters, and you wonder with a roll of your eyes where that boy genius of yours went.Â
âBeomgyu,â you start, the sound foreign to the said boys ears as he blinks at you owlishly. You bite at your lip, brows furrowing at you think over what to sayâ you start again, but your words are hesitant and muddled. âSheâs using you because sheâs petty and because⌠becauseâŚâÂ
He gives you a look encouraging you to continue.
âBecauseâ god, are you really gonna make me say this?!â you break, letting go of his shoulders and taking a step backâ your face feels like itâs on fire and your stomach feels like itâs been twisted into knots, your hands clammy as you glance over at Beomgyu againâ and he looks at you with the most stupid, oblivious expression known to mankind.Â
You take a quick, deep breath, and you start again.Â
âChoi Beomgyu. Sheâs using you because IâŚâ you say sternly, reaching over suddenly to grab his face, cupping his cheeks and taking in the way he becomes red at your touch. You bring him close to you, pressing your lips in a fine line and hesitating before you observe his faceâ and god, he looks so pathetic and lost that you donât even seem to mind the way the next words tumble out of you, fluid and clear and true.Â
âBecause I like you.â
Silence. Youâre waiting anxiously in response, looking into Beomgyuâs eyes in anticipation, but all he does is stare. He stares and stares and stares, and for the first time in a while, youâre unsure of what to make of this reaction.Â
âAnd Iâm not lying either.â
Still nothing. His skin is warming up under your fingertips, and his mouth opens hesitantly to say something, only to close againâ he must still doubt you, so you decide to take a leap of faith and reassure him the only way you know how.
âI think youâre cute and kinda pathetic in an endearing way, I think that those glasses really compliment your face and make your eyes look super doll-like, and I donât really mind Toto. I think heâs still a bit weird to look at but I love that you love him, and it makes total sense to me that out of all the pets you couldâve had you decided to get a big freaky green bird of all things, and I think itâs super cute that youâre attached to himâ I think you look kinda hot when you get frustrated on a problem, and I think itâs really hard to hold myself back from kissing you when you start stuttering at me like an idiotâ also, itâs really not that bad that you play League of Legends, and I canât believe Iâm gonna admit this, but I started playing it myself and itâs not that badâ but thatâs not the point, what Iâm saying is that youâreâ youâre a nerd and a loser but I donât mind because I reallyâ fuck, I really likeââ
His lips are mashing onto yours before you can process his sudden movement, rough and sloppy and desperate that all you can do is slide your hands into his hair and pull him closer; his hands wrap around you in response, one on the small of your back and the other against the back of your head as he pulls you closer still, close until your bodies are pressed flush together.Â
The two of you are so rough with your movements that heâs stumbling back, knocking against the wall and groaning softly at the impact; youâre sneaking your tongue into his parted lips, listening to the way he pants and moans against your mouth, slotting a leg between his and feeling as his thigh is quick to retaliate and press against your core.Â
âMghhâ ugh, fuck,â you moan mindlessly, feeling his hand press against the small of your back, forcing you to arch and push your weight onto his strong muscle, allowing yourself to rock against it desperately; your mind is running a million miles an hour, pulling away from his lips breathlessly and staring at the gloss that has transferred onto him; his eyes look dazed, lips parted and in need for more as he tries to lead your head back to his.Â
âCanât believe she tried to use you against me,â you mutter, going back in to press quick, chaste kisses all along his face; he curls in shyly at the gesture, weakly grasping at your clothes as he feels the way you begin to trail them along his jaw, sucking and biting until youâre seeing the beginnings of marks that will bloom there, âshame it didnât workâ cause youâre all mine, right gyu?â
Like clockwork, he nods; his face heats up and he feels a bit ashamed at how quickly heâs melted under your hold, but any embarrassment is washed away the moment he feels your hand begin to fumble with his belt, clumsily undoing it before youâre moving to undo his jeans.Â
âWait,â you breathe against his neck, feeling him shiver softly; heâs confused, whining softly at the sudden loss of touch until heâs watching as you pull away, glancing behind your shoulder before youâre meeting his eyes with a blank expression, âtake me to your room.â
For a second, heâs confused about the sudden switch of your behaviorâ but then heâs looking over your shoulder and right at the direction you glanced at, a sudden laugh breaking through him when he spots Toto in the corner; sheepishly, he nods.Â
âOkay,â he says, smiling shyly at the way you reach out for the hand placed on the small of your back, intertwining your fingers so naturally itâs almost instinct, âyeah, okay. Letâs go.â
He watches you kick off your shoes and allows you to lead him straight to his roomâ heâs surprised you even remembered where it isâ and smiles at the way you tug him closer by the collar the moment you step inside, palms pressing flat on his chest and making him walk backwards until his knees are hitting the edge of the bedâ he falls back, hair splaying prettily on his sheets as he looks up at you with expectant, adoring eyes.Â
Youâre straddling him immediately after; planting your core directly on his prominent bulge, taking in the way he lets out a broken whimper at the feeling of your heat pressing against him so wellâ his hands fly to your waist, fingers weakly digging into the meat of your hips as he attempts to subtly buck up into you; you tsk, shaking your head and leaning down to place a hand firm on his chest.Â
âBad pup,â you say softly, hovering above his lips and watching as he desperately chases them, âYou need to be patient, okay?â
He nods frantically, eyes fluttering shut the moment you press your lips against him slowly, feeling the way he desperately seeks to taste youâ you allow him to, wandering hands beginning to unbutton his pristine white shirt slowly as he remains distracted.Â
Beomgyu is a lot more fit than you expected; lean muscle greeting you the moment you slip his shirt off his shoulders, leaning up to let him take it off and raking your nails down his skinâ his stomach flinches at your nails scratch at it, and you smile childishly at the sight, the action reminiscent to the first time you got your hands on him.Â
âSo prettyâŚâ you mumble to yourself, tracing a path along his chest, down to his navel, watching as he shivers at your touch; a shaky gasp escapes his lips, hands grabbing at his sheets and eyes fluttering shut as he fights back the urge to buck up into you againâ your eyes flicker up to study his expression, titling your head curiously as a smile tugs at your lips.Â
âYouâre so pretty, Beomgyu,â you say again, leaning down to plant soft kisses along his neck, beginning to trail down until youâre at his chestâ youâre able to watch the way his skin flushes a soft pink at your words, shy gaze averting quickly the moment youâre looking back up at himâ and you laugh softly to yourself, hovering over his lap and trailing a hand down as you begin to undo his pants with ease.Â
âYâknow, Iâve never seen you so dressed up before,â you comment offhandedly, taking a moment to observe his pristine clothes, his styled hairâ and your jaw clenches at the thought of Yunjin seeing him like this, an inkling of jealousy beginning to rear its ugly head the longer you think about it; youâre tugging at his pants, watching as his hips lift to help you tug them down more, and scoff at your wandering thoughts.Â
âBet you wouldâve loved to have her attention on you, hmm?â you say, beginning to roll your hips against his the moment he opens his mouth to protestâ a sharp moan leaves Beomgyu instead, mouth falling open at the feeling of your cunt grinding against his, the only thing separating the two of you being your thin panties and his boxers that are quickly becoming ruined; his eyes flicker down to where you continue to roll your hips, the sight of your skirt riding up and bunching up at your thighs enough to have his cock twitch.Â
âJust canât control yourself when youâre with a cute girlâ just canât say no,â Beomgyuâs hips jump and he lets out a long whine at a particularly harsh roll of your hips, feeling his cock slot perfectly against your cunt, the material of your panties soaked and sticking to your pussy, able to feel you better the more pressure you add; his hands fly to your hips once more, but instead of trying to guide your pace, they simply remain there, grabbing at your skirt and fisting the material in his hands, flushed face and shining eyes begging silently for more.Â
âNoâ canât, canât say noâ ah!â Beomgyu begins, unable to speak properly with the sight of you on top of him and the feeling of your warm cunt on his aching cock, âcanât say no to you⌠fuckâŚâ
His words are enough to catch you off guard; your pace is stuttering and your eyes are widening, the brief pause enough to give Beomgyu enough confidence to continueâ his eyes are glassy as he stares up at you, thumbs absentmindedly rubbing circles on your hips as he speaks.Â
âCould never say no to youâŚâ he says softly, face reddening as he continues, âyouâre too pretty to say no to.â
He doesnât quite meet your gaze after that; heâs too shy to, but with the way you immediately begin to undress before him after a moment, heâs sure that he mustâve flipped a switch inside you.Â
âGod, youâre so cuteâŚâ you mutter, throwing your shirt off in a random direction before youâre sliding your skirt offâ and Beomgyu is growing flustered at the sight again, practically malfunctioning from seeing your body for the first time.Â
Youâre left in only your underwear when you finally decide youâve had enough of his shyness, grabbing his face with a firm hand and turning it to look back at you; your nails dig into his plush cheeks and his eyes grow wide at the gesture, meeting your eyes as you simply give him a coy smile and a peck to his lips.Â
âSo pathetic too,â you continue, watching his adamâs apple bob at your condescending words, âI love it.âÂ
You lean close to his ear; slowly, you take his hands and begin guiding them along your body, feeling the way his breath hitches and his chest begins to take shallow breaths, shaky fingertips grazing against your skin, up your biceps until youâre leading him to your back, straight to your bra strap.
âUndo it,â you murmur against the shell of his ear, able to listen to the way he gulps softly; nervous hands fiddle with the clasp, the way you place chaste kisses to the spot behind his ear not helping in the slightestâ and after a moment, youâre finally able to feel the garment loosening around you, along with a soft sigh the boy lets out.Â
The straps slip off your shoulders slowly, and with a coy smile, you make a show of discarding your bra, sitting back and watching as Beomgyuâs face turns impossibly red; his eyes are wide and his hands are frozen, unsure of what to do as you simply huff at the sightâ and your hands are taking his once more, guiding them slowly until heâs cupping your breasts; he gulps again, and you pout at the sight.Â
âDonât you wanna touch me?â you pout, tilting your head and watching as the man underneath you remains reliant on your instructions to do anything; his eyes snap back up to meet yours at your words, shaking his head softly and opening his mouth to stutter protests.
âIâ I do, I do,â he says, licking his lips nervously before looking back down at your breasts, thumbs experimentally swiping across your nipples; you shiver at the feeling, the sight of even your smallest reactions making Beomgyuâs cock ache, âI just⌠Iâm not sure what to doâŚ.what youâd like.âÂ
âItâs okay,â you immediately say, absentmindedly guiding his hands to touch and caress your breasts just how you like, your back aching slightly at the stimulation, âI can teach you.âÂ
âPlease,â Beomgyu whines out, hands finally beginning to move on their own as a smile grows on your face, watching the way looks at you with needy, fucked out eyes, âPlease, wanna make you feel good.âÂ
âDo you now?â you tease, titling your head and raising a brow at him questioningly; he nods his head fervently, eyes filled with an undeniably desire that leads him to take your body in hungrily, trailing from your chest down until he stops right at your cunt thats pressed so perfectly against him.Â
His line of sight is terribly obviousâ though you donât think it was Beomgyuâs intention to hide his desires anyway, not with the way your back is suddenly colliding against his bed, a gasp escaping you the moment you feel warm hands prying your legs open; youâre propping yourself up with your elbows, wide eyes meeting Beomgyuâs; the said man kneels on the floor and is now at eye level with your soaked cuntâ his fingertips dig into the soft flesh of your thighs, and with a soft laugh, you realize that Beomgyu is yet again waiting for further instructions.Â
âCan I taste you?â He asks meekly, eyes shining behind the lenses of his glasses, the sight endearing and a complete switch from the words that leave his mouth, âwill you let me?â
Silenceâ all he gets in response is a slow sigh, the boy peeking through his lashes to get a gauge of your expression; he gulps at the sight of your narrowed eyes and pinched brows, mind undoubtedly thinking of scenarios that sour your moodâ but the sight of you like this is much too tempting, and Beomgyu will be damned if he doesnât get to lose himself in your pussy at least once; his cock pathetically twitches at the mere thought.Â
âI donât know puppy,â you murmur, sneering at the way he pouts immediately, strong hands tugging at you and pulling you towards him more, body sliding at the movementâ and though you can feel him breathe against your clothed cunt, he still refrains from doing anything, waiting loyally for your okay with pleading eyes.Â
âDo you think you deserve it?â you ask, throwing a leg over his shoulder, digging the heel of your foot in between his shoulder blades roughlyâ he practically keens at the feeling, a poorly stifled whimper escaping him, followed by a shaky sigh, âafter seeing the way youâll give anyone who approaches you all your attention like a slut, I donât think you do.âÂ
You make sure to punctuate your words with another dig of your heel, but Beomgyu remains unaffectedâ if anything, it manages to spur him on more, and youâre left to pretend as though his next actions donât leave you terribly weak.Â
âPleaseâŚâ he whispers, the sound so soft you barely miss itâ heâs pressing a soft kiss to the inside of your knee, lips lingering on the skin before he looks back up to meet your gaze; his eyes are glazed with nothing but need. The single word continues to leave him like a mantra, unable to do anything more than watch as he begins to litter kisses all over your inner thighs, soft begs slowly increasing their intensity the longer you deny him.Â
I deserve it, I do; please, please let me make you feel good, promise youâre the only one for meâ please? Please, please please pleaseâŚ
Itâs quiet, save for the sounds of Beomgyuâs broken, repetitive beggingâ his hair brushes against your sensitive skin that has been peppered with endless kisses, and if it werenât for the way Beomgyuâs eyes were beginning to become watery from his desperation, you wouldâve allowed yourself to enjoy the show a little more.Â
âYou want it that much?â you seethe, a hand going down to tangle itself in his long hairâ and, just as expected, he lets out a broken whine, followed with an immediate, breathy âyesâ that affects you much more than you let on, âGo on then.âÂ
Youâre guiding his head to your cunt without another word, fingers still entangled tightly in the roots of his hair; he begins with a soft kiss to your cunt, the sight making you roll your eyesâ for someone so eager, he sure was hesitant.Â
His tongue is hot and heavy against your clit; heâs running the tip of it along your slit, listening to the hitch of your breath and taking in every miniscule reaction you provideâ heâs teasing you, albeit unintentionally, and the realization has you tightening your hold on his roots in warning; you feel the way he lets out a shaky breath at the action, and soon after, his fingers are tugging at the waistband of your panties, making slow work to properly take them off.Â
Beomgyuâs every movement is feather-like and hesitant; itâs clear heâs testing out the waters, unsure of what to do in order to please youâ and while a part of you is endeared at the messy kitten licks of his tongue and the way he circles your clit sloppily, the other part of you seems to be feeling much more unforgivingâ youâre tugging his hair and telling him to look at you with a harsh voice.Â
âWhat happened to wanting to please me? To deserving this?â you mock, lips quirking to a satisfied smile the moment his face heats up, ears tinting a soft red, âare you too much of a virgin to know how to eat a girl out?â
His face turns a bright red and he remains silentâ you can only manage a bewildered laugh at the sight.Â
Of course, how did you not piece it together before? It seems as though you were much too generous to give him the benefit of the doubt before, because as you stare Beomgyu down with a gaze thatâs nothing short of predatory, youâve realized that his silence tells you more than enough; Heâs a total virgin.Â
âOh, you donât know anything, do you?â you coo softly, letting go of Beomgyuâs scalp to caress his face softly, a grin threatening to break through your face from the simple sight of the man melting into your touch, âyou need me to guide you through it?âÂ
With a shaky sigh, Beomgyu nodsâ it barely takes a moment before youâre pushing at the back of his head and guiding him back to your cunt.Â
He didnât bother to take off his glasses; you didnât bother to remind him, smiling cruelly as you murmur soft instructions to him, telling him to suck on your clit or guiding his mouth to lick at your entrance, responding with soft sighs of pleasure whenever he does something particularly well; heâs sloppy, inexperienced, and undeniably nervous, but you suppose he makes up for its with his eagerness to do well as he continues, slowly taking note of what makes your hips buck and your fingers tighten against his hairâ and after a few minutes, youâre no longer instructing Beomgyu step by step, but instead throwing your head back and letting your mouth fall open with unabashed moans.Â
Beomgyuâs eagerness is abundant and blatant. Heâs pressing his face against your cunt after having gained confidence, mouth sloppy and hanging open as he allows you to grind against him, feeling his glasses slip down the tall bridge of his nose and fog up with every pant of breathâ but he finds that he doesnât really mind, eyes fluttering shut and lips circling around your clit as he hones in to the sounds you make instead.Â
You think Beomgyuâs head is completely empty at this point; his fingers dig into your thighs and he continues his attempts to bring you closer against his face, greedy mouth drinking up any arousal that slips from your entrance before heâs fucking you with his tongueâ your hips buck unintentionally against him at that, and from the way he only increases his efforts even further, you think he mightâve enjoyed that.Â
âBeomgyuâ puppy, fuck,â you hiss, grinding your hips against his face, feeling the way his nose is now pressed against your clit from how close heâs attempting to get to you. Your chest heaves and you can feel a tight knot forming in your stomach, body beginning to become restless as Beomgyu remains unfazed at your sudden squirmingâ youâre close, so close, and Beomgyu wants nothing more than to feel you fall apart against his face.Â
âShitâ right there, just like thatâ donât stop, god, fuckâ!â Your eyes are screwed shut as a sudden wave of pleasure breaks through you, your hand pulling at Beomgyuâs hair and your heel digging sharply into his back as you cum; the boy only lets out a pathetic whine at the feeling of you rolling your hips smoothly against his face, mouth left ajar and eyes fluttering shut as he lets you use him, riding it out with twitchy legs and soft moans.Â
Beomgyu only moves after your grip slips from his head entirely; your whole body is falling slack, a deep sigh escaping you as you attempt to catch your breath, eyes bleary and slowly opening after a momentâ youâre able to watch as the said boy goes to stand, a weak hand of yours stopping his motion and grabbing at his shoulderâ and youâre guiding him to hover over you, smiling coyly at the wrecked sight of him.Â
His glasses are completely skewedâ a slight heat burns at your face from the sight, but itâs all washed away by the lopsided smile Beomgyu gives you, entirely unaware of his flushed and messy appearance; gently, you reach out to slip off his glasses, putting them off to the side as you reach to adjust his mused hair nextâ he merely watches your face with doe eyes as you brush his hair away gently, tucking it behind his ear before you cup his jaw, tugging him down to kiss you again.
âYouâre sure you wanna do this?â you mumble against his lips, hands absentmindedly running along his skin soothingly, lips beginning to wander off as you trail soft pecks against his jawline, smiling at the way he doesnât hesitate to nod, âyou want it?â
âNeed it,â Beomgyu whines, letting out a shaky breath as he grabs your hand, guiding it down his chest slowly, adding pressure once youâve reached the bulge of his boxersâ you can feel the way he twitches the moment you touch him, gulping softly before the continues to plead, âneed it, need to feel you.âÂ
His voice is sweet and soft in your ears, and you find that you canât really bring yourself to put up a front and resist; itâs physically impossible to, especially with the way he ruts his cock against your hand, leaking pathetically and twitching at even the slightest stimulation.
Beomgyuâs attempts to remain calm and collected falls apart the moment you relent, face red and eyes wide with anticipation the moment he feels your hand go to pull his cock out; he falters above you for a split second, teeth sinking into his lip to suppress a whine that builds up in his throat. But his attempts are futile as always, a broken whimper leaving him the moment you press the head of his cock against your cunt, tightening around the shaft and proceeding to run it along your slit teasingly.Â
Heâs practically panting above you, fingers gripping onto the sheets as he allows you to toy with him, eyes glassy and meeting yours as you simply coo mockingly at him, teasing him for being nothing but a toy for you to use.
The moment you press his tip against your entrance, the two of you tense; a shaky sigh escapes you at the stretch, looking up at Beomgyu and whispering for him to just put it in already; and he swallows, eyes watering at the feeling of him finally pushing into youâ warm, wet walls that flutter around him, stretching and adjusting to his size; your hips that jolt with every inch he slides in, eyes widening and mouth falling open as you try to contain your composureâ but his size is no joke, and curses leaves your mouth endlessly at the feeling of him filling you up.
âGodâ youâre so⌠so warm, so tight,â Beomgyu cries above you, hips stuttering and making him push himself deeper into you; a yelp escapes you at the feeling, hips pressed flushed against his as you stare up at him with wide eyes, cunt clenching at the anticipation of him fucking you.Â
But he simply remains still, and youâre just about to complain for him to move when you catch sight of his expression, screwed up into concentration as he lets out a deep breathâ probably trying not to cum, you muse to yourselfâ and he sits up, no longer hovering over you as his hands move to your hips, thumbs rubbing circles on the skin as he looks down where the two of you connect; he looks up at you, puppy eyes begging for one thing.Â
âYouâ you can move,â you breathe out, cringing slightly at the weak sound of your voice, the way you trip over your words; Beomgyu nods, sighing shakily again before he finally begins to move, slowly pulling out until the only thing you feel is his tip catching at your entranceâ then he thrusts back in, and you donât bother to swallow down the moan that manifests from that.Â
Beomgyu isnât faring any better than you; his brows are knitted together and his fingertips dig into the soft flesh of your hips, voice pitchy and whiny as he attempts to fuck you properlyâ but his thrusts are sloppy and rough, and it seems as though heâs too concentrated on the feeling of you around him to find a good pace.Â
Youâre opening your mouth to tease him about it, only to get cut off at the feeling of him bumping his cock against your sweet spot; a whine leaves you unexpectedly, the sound accompanied with the feeling of your legs attempting to wrap around his waist to pull him in enough to snap him out of his pussy drunk daze. Heâs drinking up your expression, his pace slowing down enough to allow him to search for that spot againâ it takes a few attempts, but once he catches onto it, he doesnât relent.Â
âShâshit, just like that,â you whine, his thrust becoming more calculated as he begins to take note of what makes you feel good once moreâ though itâs still slightly sloppy and uneven, his weak pants and pitchy whines enough to tell you that his mind is much too hazy to care.
Absentmindedly, your hand snakes down to circle at your clit in search of more stimulationâ only to get it knocked away roughly by Beomgyuâs, eyes widening at the action until heâs replacing you hand with hisâ and though you wish you could make fun of him for being such a desperate bitch, the stimulation has your voice getting caught in your throat. Â
âDoesâ does this feel good?â Beomgyu suddenly asks, puppy eyes watering and glazed as he picks up his pace, one hand gripping onto your waist while the other continues to rub your clit, âAm Iâ ah⌠am I doing good?â
You almost miss the last part with how softly he says itâ but once you process his question, you let out a breathy laugh, biting at your lip in an attempt to suppress the smile that tugs at your face; you fail miserably, but all the patronizing look in your eyes does is make Beomgyuâs cock twitch inside you a bit.Â
âDoes my stupid puppy need something? Need my approval?â you ask, pouting at the way he hesitates to answer, âI wonât know unless you tell me, baby.âÂ
The pet names are enough to have Beomgyu short-circuiting again; his face feels hot and he lets out a petulant whine at the way you continue to tease, ignoring his pleading look as you reach up to cup his jaw, cooing his name so sweetly heâs unable to be ashamed at how easily he breaks.Â
âTell me Iâm doing good,â he whines, and you simply smile at him, stuttered breaths and soft moans the only thing leaving your lips as you notice the increased sloppiness of his thrusts, his erratic voice and face that slowly nears yours, hovering over you as he speaks.
âIâmâ âm good, right? YourâŚâ he trails off, punctuating his next word with a harsh, deep thrust that has you yelping, âyour good boyâ tell me, tell me Iâm good, just wanna hear you say it, ah, wanna be good for you.âÂ
Heâs a babbling, whining mess, hiding his face in your neck immediately after the words escape himâ and with a request so sweet, how could you ever deny him?
âSo good for me,â you immediately respond, listening to the muffled whimpers as he buries his head deeper into your neck, wandering lips sucking and biting at the skin, âgood little pupâ fuck, are you close? Gonna fill me up?âÂ
You feel the way he nods frantically against you, his hand leaving your hip to circle under your back, pulling you flush against him as he continues his rough, haphazard thrustsâ and you turn your head to face him, pressing a kiss to his head before you lean in close to his ear, the sounds of your breathy moans and sweet voice enough to bring him over the edge.Â
âCâmon, cum for me puppy,â you coo, listening to the long whimper he lets out in response, hips stilling and pressing flush against yours as he follows your command, warm cum filling you up as he rides out his orgasm, cock rutting subtly into you all the while, âthatâs itâ such a good boy, so perfect to me.âÂ
His chest heaves against yours; his other arm comes up to sneak under your body as well, successfully hugging you close against him, bodies pressed together and practically one with how tightly heâs got you in his gripâ his cock remains inside you all the while, head nuzzled deeply in the space of your neck as you merely let out an amused huff, giving him a moment to catch his breath before you tease him again.Â
The moment of peace between the two of you is cut by the abrasive sound of his phone ringing, the two of you looking at the source with furrowed brows; neither of you make a move to get it, watching it continue to vibrate on the bed before it goes silentâ youâre both falling back against the bed the moment in bliss the moment the ringtone disappears, and you can feel Beomgyuâs arms tightening around you even more, not expecting him to be so openly clingyâ
âYou didnât cum,â Beomgyu suddenly gasps, head popping up from his hiding place as he hovers over you with wide eyes. You simply reassure him that itâs alright, already feeling your body get heavy with exhaustionâ but he isnât having it, shaking his head and standing back up as he looks at you with an unbelievably solemn expression, wincing softly as he pulls out of you, âNo, I wanna make you cumâ wanna feel you cum on my dick, wanna make you feel good.âÂ
The words sound clumsy coming from him, oddly shy to say what he wants out loudâ and it makes you laugh, attempting to tell him that you really donât mind when youâre getting interrupted by the annoying sound of his phone ringing.Â
âSeriously, who the hell isâŚâ youâre trailing off as you watch Beomgyuâs eyes widen, leaning over to snatch his phone as he reads the contact name, his horrified expression telling you all you need to know.Â
âDonât answer it,â you seethe, ignoring the way he stutters about how he totally forgot to cancel, feeling a hot anger bubble in your stomach as he talks about how bad he feels for not communicating properly, âBeomgyu, donât answer it!âÂ
âIâ what if sheâs waiting outside right nowâ?!â
Your movements are much too sudden and swift for him to process; he can only watch and allow you to snatch the phone away from him, rough hands gripping his shoulders and hissing at him to fucking sit; heâs quick to comply, and youâre even quicker to climb onto his lap and situate yourself just how you likeâ he cries softly at the feeling of you grabbing at his sensitive cock, stroking it for a moment and aligning it with your entrance before youâre sinking down on him slowly.Â
âWho cares if sheâs outside right now,â you scowl, digging your fingers in his cheeks and forcing him to look at you, swollen lips red and pouty as he merely whines at the feeling of you rocking slowly against him, âitâs the least we could do to get back at her for trying to fucking use you.â
His protests die down once you pick up your pace; oh, his face practically screams, eyes glazing over at the feeling of your warm pussy using his sensitive cock to get yourself off, soft cries leaving him as he merely watches you begin to ride him expertly, already feeling himself get hard inside you, the sight of you on top of him and the sounds of skin against skin riling him much more than expected.
âHnng, wait, slow down pleaseâ!â he whines softly, hands flying to your hips yet making no attempts to control the paceâ and you can only laugh at him, the sounds of his soft cries enough to encourage you more.Â
Youâre closeâ so, so close, and all Beomgyu can do is sit and take it, tears of sensitivity pricking at his eyes and falling along his cheeks the moment he feels your walls clench against himâ but heâd rather die than stop you, sp entranced with the sight of your face twisted with pleasure that his body screams at him to do what he can to make you feel good.Â
Like instinct, your hand tangles itself in Beomgyuâs hair the moment he latches his lips against your nipple, back arching and the tight knot in your stomach falling apart the moment his wandering hand goes to play with your clit; the way your walls spasm and hug him tightly is enough to have Beomgyu cumming inside you again, a pathetic keen sounding from him as he buries his head in your chest, beyond sensitive with the way you continue to ride your orgasm long after.
Itâs quiet, save for the sounds of your panting and Beomgyuâs soft whimpersâ but it doesnât last long, a tired groan escaping you at the sound of Beomgyuâs phone ringing again; without much of a thought, you reach for it and finally answer.Â
âLeave him alone. Heâs busy.âÂ
You hang up immediately afterâ the girl on the other side didnât get the chance to utter a single word, and you find that you couldnât care less as you toss his phone to the side and look over at Beomgyuâ youâre smiling softly at the way he seems mortified at your action.Â
âOh come on, donât tell me you feel bad,â you sigh, placing your hands on his chest and pushing, gently guiding the two of you to lay downâ he remains inside you as he pulls you in close, your limbs heavy and tangling quickly as he mutters a soft no, I donât; you smile. âGood. Cause I almost got mad again.â
He chuckles softly at that, falling quiet after; you look up at him to gauge his expression, finding that heâs lost in thought. After a few minutes, he meets your eyes meekly and finally speaks.Â
âDid you really mean what you said earlier?â
A pause. You said a lot of things earlierâ but as you retract on every little thing that's come from your mouth, you realize what heâs talking aboutâ and you laugh, reaching to cup his cheeks fondly as you nod.Â
âOf course I did,â you grin, pecking his lips, your heart fluttering wildly at the way he immediately chases after you for more after you pull away, âI meant all of itâ and more.âÂ
Softly, he smiles. His arms that were wrapped around you pull you in close, closing the space between you and bringing you in for a slow, sweet kissâ he pulls away, leaning into your ear to whisper something with a coy smile.Â
âSo do you wanna play League of Legends later?â
You let out an annoyed yell and punch at his chestâ you practically fuck his brains out, and this is all he can say?
âYouâre such a fucking loser,â you mourn, hiding your face in your hands.Â
Beomgyu laughs, and places a kiss on the top of your head.Â
âBut Iâm your loser,â he says sweetly, nuzzling against your hair with a content sigh, âall yours.â
âŤ: Seven, Jungkook // Lovefool, The Cardigans // I only want to be with you, Tommy february6
âIn which Yeonjun is more than willing to show you the lengths heâll go for you.â
yeonjun x fem!reader
Genre: established relationship, inspired by âSevenâ mv, fluff, angst, smut
Word count: 10.6K
warnings: donât take this story seriously pls. itâs ridiculous. yj is clingy. and emotional. and a bit pathetic. the mc is avoidant⌠and a bit of a bitch ! Lack of communication smh, a bit toxic if u squint ur eyes but itâs supposed to be cute idk (seven mv type toxic skdjdj) yj is a frat boy & a himbo (pick a struggle, pls), arguing, mc has acrylic nails, use of the phrase âboyfriend-girlfriendâ bc iâm obsessed w it
smut warnings: mean dom!mc, sub!yj, (mentions of dom!yj) service top!yj, unprotected sex, manhandling (m. rec), hairpulling, name calling, (bitch, stupid, slut, etc) pet names (baby, good boy), dry humping, biting, marking, scent kink (?), scratching, dumbification, dacryphilia, forced orgasm (kinda), multiple orgasms, overstimulation, yj rambles. a lot. breast play, handjob, humiliation, creampie, subspace, implied oral (f. rec) (lemme know if i should add anything!)
Notes: fucking hate arguing with men w/ pretty puppy eyes like i will fuck the shit outta y-
Yeonjun hates when youâre mad at him. It makes him feel guilty and leaves him with a gross feeling in his stomach, pouty and annoying as his friends are always left to deal with the mess.Â
It doesnât happen oftenâ he tries his hardest not to make you mad, always saying yes and going above and beyond with youâ he loves to please you and make you happy, which is exactly why it hits harder when you look at him like you never want to see him again.Â
âI donât want to see you around, donât talk to me!â
But sometimes, he just canât help it.Â
He seriously doesnât know what he did wrongâ there were no anniversaries forgotten, no plans he stood you up on, no petty argumentsâ and yet, here he sits, sinking into his couch and burrowed in blankets as his friends try to get him to come out of his cocoon, all with no success.
âIs she mad at you again?â Beomgyu asks, his voice muffled despite sitting on top of Yeonjunâ literally, he couldnât feel his legsâ and he hears him groan at the sight of Yeonjun nodding under the mass of blankets, cursing quietly to himself and undoubtedly rolling his eyes, âdude, what did you do?â
âI donât knowww,â Yeonjun cries out, throwing the blankets off him and onto Beomgyu as he whinesâ he watches as Beomgyu flails about for a second, running his hands through his hair as he continues to stress about you, âsheâ she said she didnât wanna see me again, but I miss herâŚâ
âFuck, sheâs probably just saying that because she wants spaceâ dude, are you crying?â
âWhat if she was breaking up with me?â Yeonjun asks, and Beomgyu is amazed to see the way his wide eyes are welling up with tears; god, heâs actually crying now, the sight childish and unhinged as he watches his (older) friend sniffle and hiccup through his sentences, âwhat ifâ what if sheâ she, she, she really meant itâ god, I donât wanna break up, I donât even know what I did wronggg!â
âOkay, okay,â Beomgyu grimaces, watching the way his friend breaks down before his eyes; his hand is stiff and awkward as it pats Yeonjunâs back, trying his best to comfort him, wincing at the way Yeonjun only cries harder, âItâs⌠probably nothing, Iâm sure sheâll talk to you again tomorrow, or once sheâs calmed down.â
âYou think?â Yeonjun asks, peeking through his hands and up at Beomgyu with sparkling eyes, full of hope as Beomgyu can only crack a nervous smile.
âYeah,â he says, patting Yeonjunâs back again in reassurance, âYeahâ just, be patient, okay?â
Patient is the last word one would use to describe Yeonjun.Â
-ËËâĄËË-
MONDAY
This is it.Â
Yeonjun has been waiting all weekend for this moment (Or just Sunday, to be more accurate), restless on his feet as he finds himself pacing back and forthâ heâs nibbling at his lip nervously, arms sore and tired from the weight of the gift he holds in his hands; a bouquet of your favorite flowers, pristine and in full bloomâ itâs large and quite heavy as it practically covers his face, but Yeonjun knew that a small bouquet would do nothing to show his love for you.Â
He would try to talk to you as soon as your class ended. He needed to know what he did wrong, and he sure as hell would not do it again. You didnât text him after the argument, and it only left him uneasy at the thought of you really wanting to end things.
He didnât want to lose you. Not like this.Â
Admittedly, he got a bit ahead of himselfâ heâs been waiting outside for the past half hour, arriving much too early as he stood out in the hall awkwardlyâ at some point, he tried peeking into the small, rectangular window next to the door, hunched over slightly and pouting as he scanned the room for you.Â
When he spotted you, he was delighted to see you had already been looking at him.Â
He couldnât contain the wide smile that stretched across his face, waving at you excitedly in hopes youâd do the sameâ unable to realize that the whole class was now looking at him, he was confused to watch the way your face screwed up into an expression of sheer embarrassment, shielding your face with your hand and looking away as some students began following his line of sight.Â
Why did you do that? You were ignoring him, and it hurt like a bitch as Yeonjun frowned. His mind was racing as he began wondering what he mightâve done wrongâ he was so focused, in fact, that he failed to notice the professor blocking his view, his reaction time much too slow as his eyes flickered up to meet the manâs gaze. Flustered, he backed away quickly, his face heating up as he bowed in apologyâ he hugged the bouquet close to his chest as he did, mumbling out a soft sorry the man probably couldnât even hear.Â
You, on the other hand, could hear the way your professor laughed at Yeonjunâs actions, absolutely mortified by the way he turned around and began to joke to the class, saying that âIt looks like someone here has an admirer,â whilst looking in your direction, your classmates laughing along before he went back to his lecture.
Shit, this was so embarrassing.Â
Yeonjun is so fucking stupid, you cry to yourself, peeking over at the doorway in hopes that he took the hint and leftâ but no, he definitely didnât, because you could still see his figure through the window, leaning against the wall and holding an item the size of his whole upper body close to his chest.Â
The last thing you wanted to do was go outside and see himâ but thatâs exactly what happened anyway, even if you lingered behind once class ended in hopes that Yeonjun would get impatient and waitâ patience was never his strongest virtue, after all.Â
But for you, anything could change.Â
This is exactly why you find him outside the door, face hidden with what is, to your surprise, a large bouquet of your favorite flowers.Â
Fuck, you seriously donât want to talk to him right now. Gritting your teeth, you use this moment to sneak past him, a slight guilt tugging at you as you look back, spotting the way he seems oblivious to the fact that youâve left already.Â
Looking back was your first mistake.
Because Yeonjun, in a truly creepy fashion, is almost able to sense it, whipping his head to you and perking up at the way you only walk fasterâ then begin sprinting, refusing to look back again once he starts chasing after you.Â
âBaby,â you hear him call out to you, the ridiculous rustling of his bouquet slightly muffling his words as his footsteps thud against the tiles; for an athlete, youâd expect him to catch up to you already, but you quietly pat yourself on the back for the slight head start you gave yourself.Â
âBaby, wait!â he continues to yell, ignoring the strange stares from those passing by, âPlease, let me talk to you!âÂ
âI donât wanna talk!â you growl out, your emotions taking over as you remember why youâre mad at him, âleave me alone!â
Youâre outside now; youâre a huffing and sweaty mess, but you refuse to slow down for even a second, the threat of Yeonjun hot on your heels fueling your stamina.Â
âCan you please tell me what I did wrong?â He yells, exasperated as he watches you run off the sidewalkâ youâre attempting to lose him, but countless running drills and morning runs have prepared him for this momentâ without a second thought, heâs following you, attempting to peek over hisâ inconveniently large, he must admitâ bouquet, watching the way you simply continue to run, glancing back every once in a while to see if heâs still there.Â
âPlease, can we be civil and talk about this?!â his words have you turning around to send him a glareâ instead, you stumble to a stop as you watch Yeonjun trip, eyes widening at the dramatic sight before you.Â
Heâs fallen flat on his face, a puff of petals blowing up around him as you winceâ heâs face-first into whateverâs left of the flowers, the rest of the petals fluttering in the air around him and falling delicately on his figure as you stare, the place eerily silent save for the chirping birds and rustling leaves.
He doesnât say anythingâ he doesnât make a sound, doesnât even attempt to get up, left splattered all over the grass as you stare at him in slight concern.Â
âYeonjun?â you call out uncertainly, shifting on your feet as you pause. He doesnât respondâ heâs left frozen on the ground, and youâre frowning at the sight as you slowly make your way to him; you approach him slowly, as though you were approaching a wild animal, tense in your movements as you lean in to observe him.Â
âDid you die?â you ask quietly, taking in the way he still hasnât moved. Not an inch. You feel more concerned than you want to admit, crouching down in front of him as you bite your lip in worry.Â
âDo you hate me.â the sudden words have you flinching, staring down at Yeonjun, whoâs still eating dirt and flowers. You frown, scoffing at the way he weakly reaches out for youâ swiftly, you slap his hand, watching the way it flops back onto the ground.Â
âNoâ yesâ a little,â you stutter out, angry at the way you bounce between responses just from the mere pathetic sight of him.Â
âCan you forgive me?â he asks, the words muffled as it takes you a minute to decipher what he may be sayingâ you canât help but roll your eyes at his antics. Â
âFor what?â you ask, picking a petal off his back absentmindedly as you waitâ if he could answer properly, you might consider giving in.Â
âFor existing.âÂ
God, Yeonjun was such a sap. It has you biting back a smile as you resist the urge to stroke his hair, mused and riddled with petals from his grand gestureâ but his answer was not the one you were looking for, and youâre standing back up and readjusting your clothes without another word.Â
âpleaaaaseee,â you hear him whine, watching the way he shrivels up into a ballâ then, heâs sitting back on his legs, whipping his head up and looking at you with wide, teary eyes.Â
âPlease take the flowers with you at least,â he pouts, thrusting the bouquetâ or, whatever was left of itâ up at you with pleading eyes.
Pressing your lips together, you sigh; a moment passes before youâre taking the gift from him begrudgingly, ignoring the way he perks up happily at your action.Â
âIâm still mad at you,â you hiss, and he immediately deflates at your words, âDonât visit my class like that again. Please.âÂ
He says nothing, left to watch as you turn your back to him and walk away; he has yet to get up, his heart pounding against his chest as he watches the way you hug the flowers close to you, shaking your head at the state of them.Â
This was⌠progress.Â
But youâre still mad at him.Â
-ËËâĄËË-
TUESDAY
Visiting you in class was a big no.Â
Visiting you in general, however, wasnât off-limits.
You donât want to talk to him? Fine, he can understand. In fact, he wonât talk to you at allâ a feat much greater said than doneâ but hey, he always loved staring at you anyway.Â
Well, itâs a little hard to stare by the way youâve propped up textbooks around your face like a fort.Â
Heâs staring. Heâs still staring. You can practically feel his puppy-eyed gaze burn into your brain telepathically; no matter how hard you try to focus on your work, itâs become damn near impossible with the way you can feel Yeonjunâs presence, your neck beginning to ache from the way youâve remained ducked down this whole time.Â
It was easy to deal with at first; you chose not to do anything the moment you saw Yeonjun emerge from the staircase and onto the top floor of the libraryâ otherwise known as the quietest level.Â
He wouldnât be able to talk to you without disturbing the peace of othersâ and potentially being asked to leaveâ so you decided to not make a scene and go back to studying, even when you felt his eyes lock on your figure and beeline to you.Â
He sat across from you first. Though, you were quick to move, pretending as though you were looking for a book as you quickly ran away to the other side of the library. You felt the way his eyes followed you the whole timeâ he looked like a kicked puppy, and damn did that stupid tactic of his always work, because you even felt yourself pausing for a second, wondering if you should give in and talk to him.Â
But, you are a horrendously petty person.
You were holed up in some random corner. You didnât even know there was a table there until today, the spot so secluded and quiet that you silently celebrated getting him off your trail.
It was peacefulâ for like, a good ten minutes.Â
You didnât think much of it when you first heard it; footsteps, slow and calculated as they rounded about the bookshelves. You could hear the sound of books being pulled out clear as day, though you chose to ignore it all and keep focus on your assignments instead.Â
After a moment, the footsteps disappeared.Â
It was back to being completely silent. And, in your bored state, you began to look around the area you were huddled up in; curiously, you allowed yourself to walk around, reading the spines and pulling out books that seemed to pique your interest even slightly.Â
There seemed to be another person here as wellâ maybe it was the same person as before, or maybe it was someone newâ you didnât pay mind to it nonetheless, continuing your journey as your eyes locked in on a particularly colorful book.
Slowly, you pulled it outâ on the other side, you watched the book adjacent to yours slowly get pulled out as well, and a smile tugged at your lips at the odd coincidence.Â
Then, your eyes met with Yeonjunâs.Â
His gaze filled with admiration was only returned with a mean scowl from you. You were quick to shove the book back into its place, storming off to your table without a momentâs hesitation.Â
Yeonjun was quickly able to find your hiding spotâ one might think you could cry from the way you buried your face into your hands defeatedly, refusing to look up from your dark refuge as the sounds of a chair scraping against the carpeted floors met your ears.Â
Thatâs how you found yourself here, ignoring what people might think as you hide behind your fortress of textbooks. You didnât feel good staying in a secluded area with Yeonjunâ not because you thought he might try to do anythingâ but because you were afraid of your own resolve crumbling, especially after youâd spent so much time trying to ignore him.Â
You wonder if heâs still here. Who are you kidding, of course heâs still here, though you canât really bring yourself to check and see for yourself.Â
After a while, you hear scribbling sounds.Â
You canât hide the way you jump as a piece of paper hits your head, folded into a perfect heart and landing in front of you with a dull thud.Â
Open me :( it says, and though you wish you could say you were strong enough to ignore it, you definitely arenât.
Can you pls let me look at u at least?
You donât get much of a moment to process the message. Another paper lands directly in front of you, shaped into a heart and scrawled with the same words as the lastâ slowly, you open it, dreading what might be written inside this time.Â
I miss you so so so so so much.Â
You shake your head at his words. Sliding the paper to the side, you ignore his request, choosing to focus on your work instead of giving in to his silly tactics. After a moment, you wonder if youâll be getting another paperâ instead, nothing happens; the sigh of relief you let out is almost comical, your body relaxing a bit as you allow yourself to wonder if heâs finally left.Â
That was your second mistake.Â
Because after a few minutes, another paper hits you. Itâs another heart, and you find that you donât need to open it this time, the message scrawled on top for easier access.Â
Iâm sorry.Â
Another paper flies over your fortress.
Iâm sorry.
Then, another.Â
Pls forgive me.
Then another. And another, and another, and another.Â
Pls, I hate making you mad. I feel so gross and sad rn. I seriously canât go a day without you. I miss you sm, pls :(((
You feel like youâre under attackâ the way he continues to throw paper after paper is rhythmic and almost impressive, the endless stream of hearts covering your keyboard and forcing you to sweep them to the side after seconds.Â
Itâs useless to study. How can you, when Yeonjun keeps throwing his apologies at you? Itâs stupid and childish and is enough for you to take your textbooks down, your jaw clenched and your eyes pointed in a sharp glare that has Yeonjun pausing in his actions.Â
Thereâs a small pile of hearts next to him.Â
Neither of you moveâ heâs frozen mid-throw, his eyes widening as though he canât grasp the fact that youâre actually looking at himâ even if itâs filled with rage and annoyance.Â
Slowly, the corners of his lips curl upâ you canât find it in you to react as he throws the paper in his hands, feeling the way it smacks right onto your forehead before it falls to the table.Â
Can I show u how sorry I am??
You donât seem to think of the consequences as you reach for your bag in the seat next to youâ devoid of anything except a few pencils and your hoodieâ and throw it at him, watching the way he yelps in surprise, your bag spilling out itâs few contents all over the floor. The sound is enough to have the people around you glancing at your table, curious or angry at the sound of the ruckus.Â
Youâre worked up and huffing as you watch Yeonjun scramble to gather the spilled contents of your bag, watching as he stutters out whispered apologies between his actions.Â
âExcuse me,â the hand on your shoulder is firm as you twist your head to look at the librarian, your expression falling at the realization of what youâve just done.Â
âIâm going to have to ask you to leave.âÂ
Whipping your head around, you meet eyes with a sheepish and guilty Yeonjun, gritting your teeth as he holds out your bag for you to take.Â
Wordlessly, you snatch it from him, shoving your computer and the rest of your items into it before youâre turning around to face the librarian; you whisper out a soft âIâm so sorryâ as you bow in apology, waiting for her to leave before youâre facing Yeonjun again.Â
Iâm so sorry, I didnât mean to, he mouths to you, though you ignore it all as you choose to whack his shoulder with your very-full bag instead; the pained whimper he lets out has you gritting your teeth in irritation, watching the way he pouts up at you as he rubs his arm pathetically.Â
âDonât pull this shit again,â you hiss out, storming off before he can get another word out.Â
There goes all his progress.Â
-ËËâĄËË-
WEDNESDAY
Today has been an oddly nice day.
Itâs niceâ too nice, you wonder, pondering what may be different enough to have you walking with a smile on your face, appreciating the beautiful weather in a light mood.Â
A guy your age is leaning against a tree up ahead. He holds a bouquet of roses, and you smile at the way he seems to be passing one out to every person that passes him. Thatâs so sweet, you think to yourself, and you canât help the way your stomach twists in anticipation the moment his eyes meet yours.Â
âWould you like a rose?â he asks you, his blond hair shining under the sunlight as he sends you a bright smileâ you donât hesitate to say yes, taking the flower from him with a cute thank you!Â
The flower is in full bloom as you twirl it between your fingers absentmindedly. The smile on your face is seemingly permanent as you make your way to your favorite cafe, though as you think back to the interaction, you canât help but wonder if you know that man from somewhere.
It isnât until you stop at a crosswalk that you notice itâ thereâs a tag on the rose, and though you initially thought it was just a price tag, you realize that itâs something else; pausing before you cross the street, you take a moment to tilt your head and read it, feeling your jaw drop as your brain registers the words in disbelief.Â
Yeonjun says heâs sorry.
âWhat the fuck,â you mutter to yourself, ripping it off without hesitation and shoving it into your pocketâ you definietly recognize the man from earlier, you realizeâ that was Hueningkai!
You roll your eyes at Yeonjunâs weak ploy to talk to youâ you canât help the way it leaves you irritated as you stand in line to order, trying your best to recite your regular order to the barista with a smile on your face, the man before you giving you a dimpled smile before heâs off to make it.
By the time you get your order, youâve calmed downâ youâre quick to exit and make your way back towards campus, using this small break between classes to study again. (without Yeonjun around, hopefully.)Â
Your fingers are absentminded as you trace over the printed sticker on the side of the cup that has your order printed on it, glancing down at the text before you take another sip.Â
Yeonjun is really sorry.
âŚWhat?Â
You were more unnerved than anything. The lengths Yeonjun had gone through to communicate almost concerned you, though all you could do at this point was rip the sticker off and shove it in your pocket, ignoring it like the other one. You wracked your mind for answers as you began to wonder if you had seen that barista anywhere else, and after a moment, you settled on the vague conclusion that you think youâve seen him in Yeonjunâs frat house before.Â
Heâs so annoying, you sigh to yourself, rubbing at your temples as you fear an upcoming headache.Â
Youâre startled back to life at the sight of a puppy running up to youâ youâre frowning at the sight, unsure of what to do as it stops right at your feet, jumping up on you and barking excitedlyâ almost like it recognized youâ squinting, you observe the dog.Â
Oh god, you think to yourself, realizing with dread that you do recognize this damn dog.
âMatcha, who let you out,â you huff, leaning down to scoop the tiny dog into your armsâ in the distance, you can see someone running in your direction, though you choose to ignore it as you notice Matchaâs brand new collar.Â
Yeonjun misses you more than anything.Â
The words are wrapped around his collar, leaving you to throw your head back and groan at the sight; the footsteps are much louder than before, and youâre looking forward again as you spot yet another familiar face.Â
âBeomgyu,â you sneer, shoving Matcha into his awaiting hands. All he can do is laugh sheepishly, muttering out what a coincidence! Petting Matcha, he pauses, giving you an expectant look that only leaves you confused.
âCould you forgive him?â
âGo away!â you say in return, weaving out of his way and practically running off to the library; you can hear Matcha barking at you, though you choose to ignore it as Beomgyuâs calls of your name fuel you further.Â
You feel out of breath by the time you finally enter the library, finding the nearest help desk and beginning to rummage through your bag for any books you need renewedâ the librarian simply smiles at you patiently as he waits, adjusting his glasses before he quickly turns around to get somethingâ by the time heâs back, youâve laid out your books for him, thanking him quietly as you watch him renew them quickly.
When he slides them back towards you, you frownâ thereâs a bookmark on top of your small stack of books, laminated and shiny under the lights as you pick it up to get rid of the glareâ reading it, you can already feel the need to tear it, though it seems as this cheeky worker is already one step ahead of you.Â
Yeonjun just wants to talk to you again.
Three ways to better communication in a relationship:
The glare you send the workerâ Taehyun, his name tag readsâ is lethal, though he doesnât seem to be affected by it as he simply sends you an innocent smile. Without another word, you gather your books, shoving them into your bag as you turn to leave.
âIgnoring him wonât solve anything,â he calls out quietly, though you donât seem to appreciate the advice by the way you donât even bother to turn back and react. Instead, you walk right back out, storming home as you type on your phone furiously.Â
my baby :((
stop using others to relay messages damn it!!!
my baby :((
and donât use matcha against me you loser!!!!!!
Through his end, Yeonjun is just happy that youâre texting himâ though, the mean name is not much appreciated.Â
Choi Yeonjun.Â
can you pls let me talk to you instead?
You donât bother opening the notification.Â
That was your third mistake.
-ËËâĄËË-
THURSDAY
Today has been relatively peaceful. You have yet to be bothered todayâ no Yeonjun, no Matcha, and certainly none of his friends.Â
Maybe because he was aware of your plans today; you did tell him a while ago about your reunion with one of your friends, always chatting his ear off about how excited you were to finally see her againâit slightly warms your heart to know that he actually listens to you.
Well. Most of the time.Â
âYouâre fighting right now?â Tzuyu asks, leaning forward in her seat with wide eyes. You didnât expect this sudden change of topic, but you can only nod grimly in response, watching as she sighs in dismay at your situation.Â
âWow, you guys never fightâ at least, not to this level,â sheâs deep in thought over your relationship as she frowns, crossing her arms over her chest as she stares down at her empty plateâ you both chose to forgo dessert, and now you wait patiently for your check.
âWell, what are you guys even fighting about?âÂ
âItâs justââ youâre cut off by your server placing the check in between the two of you, thanking him with a smile on your face before youâre freezing; youâre unsure of what to make of the plate that he places before you, stuttering out unintelligible sentences that you didnât order⌠whatever this was.Â
âFree of charge,â the man says, before bowing politely and scurrying away; youâre barely able to get a word out before you huff in defeat, looking back at the treat in front of you as you take in Tzuyuâs amused laughter.
âWhat?â you ask, frowning as you watch her turn the plate towards youâ youâre left a bit speechless by what you see, mouth falling open as your brain attempts to comprehend how you should react to this.Â
Itâs dessertâ well, more specifically, three full scoops of ice cream, the caramel drizzle and other toppings decorating it to make it look like a cat; more specifically, a sad cat. All along the plate, more caramel drizzle decorates it to form a sentence.Â
I miss you. Please, talk to me. YJ.Â
Your head snaps up in the direction the waiter went in; looking out the small window of the kitchen door, you spot none other than Yeonjun, his eyes widening before heâs ducking out of the way like a deer in headlights.Â
âHow the fuck did he get back there?!â you cry out, running a hand down your face in disbeliefâ but no, one more glance back in his direction is enough to catch him peeking at you again, flinching in surprise before heâs ducking out of your sight once more.Â
âWho let him in there?â you hiss, placing your head in your hands as Tzuyu merely laughs; you ignore the way she begins to dig into the dessert after you express that you wonât touch it, humming happily that it was a sweet gesture.Â
A momentâs thought is able to remind you where you areâ in Beomgyuâs older brotherâs restaurant, of course.Â
Defeatedly, you open the checkbook to offer to payâ though the price has your eyes practically bulging out, reading and re-reading the strange excuse of a check this waiter has brought to you.Â
Your meal was free.Â
The only thing you read on the paper was a poor excuse of Yeonjun replacing the food items with âi miss youâs and âiâm sorryâs, the sight baffling you as Tzuyu turns the check towards her in curiosity.Â
âInteresting,â she hums, closing the checkbook before sheâs fishing for tip money, âAre you sure you wanna lose a guy like him?â
You take a second to think her question through.Â
Yet another mistake on your part.Â
-ËËâĄËË-
FRIDAY
Remembering what happened today is enough to have your head hurtingâ so, youâll keep it short.
You were workingâ working, minding your own business, prey to unsuspecting eventsâ when it happened.Â
Fridays were always rush days. Maybe thatâs why you didnât think to pay attention to your surroundings, to the blasting music, the yell of your coworkers calling out drinks and names, or to the endless chatter of the customers around you.Â
You should have paid attentionâ maybe, if you did, you wouldâve been able to spare yourself the embarrassmentâ another mistake of yours, if you will.Â
The break of music from the radio was not what caught your attentionâ radio hosts do it all the time, speaking in between songs with useless chatter as they find a song to play nextâ no, what did catch your attention, however, was the eerily familiar voice, and worse, the eerily familiar message he broadcasted all over your local station.Â
âThis next song is called Seven,â he spoke, smooth, suave, and relaxing as the track rolled in quietly in the background, âa song about a man more than willing to show how devoted he is to his to his partnerâ ___, come home, the kids miss youâ well, more like Matcha, but still.â
You could feel your coworkers freeze around you. You could feel their gazes slowly drift to you, could feel the way customers got a good look at the decorated name tag you once showed off proudly.Â
âIsâ is heâŚ?â your coworker whispered beside you, watching the way you caved into yourself in attempts to hide your nametag, âis he that frat boy you were talking about?â
âNo.â you say, avoiding everyoneâs gaze as you focus on making your drink instead, âNo. Thatâs not him. This isnât about me, I donât know what youâre talking about.â
â___, Iâll keep waiting for you patiently. Have a good shift today.âÂ
Christ!
Your coworkers could only laugh lightheartedly at his wordsâ they found it cute, which was even worse for you, because all you could wonder was how the fuck he was able to get into the broadcast stationâ this time, you seriously couldnât figure out any ties between him and the place.Â
âLooks like he wonât give up,â to say you were horrified at the way a customer told you this was an understatement, her eyes alight with amusement as she spoke to you with a tone so genuine you almost thought she was in on itâ fuck, maybe she wasâ âif anything, you should turn him down soon before he goes too far.â
âYeah, youâre right,â you breathed out, tired of these constant antics as you thought over her words, forced to go through the rest of your shift pretending as though Yeonjun hadnât broadcasted his pleading message to the whole cityâ well, more like anyone who was listening to the local radio station willingly.
You feel like youâre on The Truman Show, or something.
-ËËâĄËË-
SATURDAY
You were scared to talk to Yeonjun.Â
Scaredâ why were you scared? You donât know why, but you couldnât bring yourself to send him a text message, pacing around your room like an idiot instead as you wondered what you would tell him.Â
Would you talk? Would you finally break up with him?
The way your stomach sank with dread at the mere thought of the second option was enough of an answer for youâ no, you shouldnât break up with him.
However, it was storming todayâ there was no way in hell you would be going outside to meet him in such weather, so you opted to psych yourself up to send him a text message asking to meet up instead.
You were pacing around your room again when you noticed it.Â
Thereâs a bright umbrella outsideâ shit, you recognize that umbrella, you realize with a heavy dread, walking up to your window and pulling your curtains open as you stare out in dismay.
Why the fuck is Yeonjun outside right now?
Itâs perfect timing, the way his umbrella raises to show his figure; oh my god, you think to yourself, biting your lip as you take his expression in, heâs crying!
This was not your intention. You never meant to hurt Yeonjun like this, but you also were not ready to see him yetâ so, with a slight pang in your heart, you shut the curtains again, leaving just enough of a crack to make sure that heâll leave.
Instead, he stayed there. In true Yeonjun fashion, squinting up at your window in hopes that youâd at least tell him to go away. Instead, he watched as you peeked through the crack of the curtains, his heart fluttering slightly at the way you thought you were being discreet with your actions.Â
Slowly, Yeonjun turns his phone to you; thereâs writing flashing by in his phone, though you have to squint your eyes and wait for the whole sentence to roll by to see what heâs trying to tell you now.Â
I know you donât⌠want to see me⌠right now but I ⌠seriously just need⌠to know what I ⌠did wrong.Â
God. Fuck. This whole âghostingâ ordeal was harder than it should be when someone like Yeonjun was involved.Â
 Itâs been like⌠a week and you⌠still havenât talked⌠to me.
Oh, the guilt is seriously eating you up right now. You werenât supposed to ignore him for days on end, but each time Yeonjun reached out for you, you couldnât control the way you ran away in return, still hurt by the things he didnât even realize he did.
Youâve finally gotten a good grasp of his obliviousness.
Iâm sorry⌠I love you⌠I love you⌠I love youâŚ
Only three words are rolling by on his phone now. You think youâve gotten the gist of what heâs trying to tell you as you sink to the floor, out of sight and exasperated as you reach for your phone to make a call.Â
âHello?â
âPlease come get Yeonjun. Heâs outside my apartment in the freezing rain.â
âUhm, let him in then?â
âIâ I canât,â you mutter sheepishly as you feel your face heating up, your stomach sinking as you hear Beomgyu scoffing on the other side of the line, âI donât want to talk to him right now. Not like this.â
âThen I guess heâll stay out in the freezing rain.âÂ
âHeâll get sick!â you say, and itâs only now that you feel stupid for this push and pull youâve created, âplease. Iâm begging you.âÂ
âYou need to talk to him.â
âI want to. I will.â you say, placing a hand on your forehead as you sigh, âTomorrow.â
âPromise?â
âPromise.âÂ
A pause. Then, you hear rustling, and the sounds of Beomgyu grumbling quietly to himself.
âIâll go get him,â he says, and you can feel yourself sink further against the wall in relief, âyou better not back out on your word, okay?â
âOkay.âÂ
You hope youâre not making a mistake.Â
-ËËâĄËË-
SUNDAY
This is awkward. You feel awkward. You probably look awkward, too.Â
Yeonjun, for once, looks just as awkward and tense before you. His whole body is rigid as he sits on your couch, feeling more like a stranger in your home than the man youâve spent the past few months with, the way his eyes wander around making you feel like itâs his first time here.Â
âYeonjun,â you sigh out, catching his attention as his eyes zero in on you immediately; you feel nervous under his gaze, unsure of what to say as your brain begins to stutter, your mouth opening and closing in hopes that a proper sentence will come out.
âWhat did I do wrong?â he cries out, snapping you out of your troubled reverie as your eyes meet hisâ theyâre glossy, and youâre afraid he might just start crying again if you look away, âcan we start there?â
âYouâ you seriously donât know?â you ask, bewildered by his question as you sit back on your couchâ Yeonjun simply shakes his head reverently in response, and youâre blinking owlishly at him as you stare at him in disbelief.Â
âWe didnât have any arguments before this,â he says, nibbling on his lip as he thinks back to the moment you yelled at him, tearing his arm off you as he attempted to keep you from running away, âYou just snapped at me then disappearedâ I, I want to know what I did wrong, at least.â
âYeonjun youââ youâre dragging a hand down your cheek as you clench your jaw, taking a second to breathe to not snap at him again, âthatâs the problem, youâre just soâ so oblivious, I seriously thought youâd be able to put two and two together by now!âÂ
Oh, oh this is embarrassing; you should not be getting worked up right now, your hands immediately coming up to hide your face as you hear Yeonjun cooing out your name softlyâ heâs next to you at the speed of light, attempting to take your hands away as he quietly tells you to breathe in his stupid, calming voice.Â
âYouâre always at those stupid parties, you stupid frat boyââ youâre stuttering through your sentences, the heat in your face humiliating as you feel your emotions finally tumbling down, âand I know I told you Iâm okay with itâ I am, I really amâ but what Iâm not okay with is how fucking flirty you are!â
You can feel Yeonjunâs hands stiffen; slowly, his mouth drops in shock, his face beginning to pale as he realizes just why youâre mad at him.Â
âIâve told youâ time, and time againâ that, that I donât like when you feed into people like that, that you never reject advances and tell them that you have a fucking girlfriend,â you know he never means it in a harmful way. You know that, nine times out of ten, Yeonjun doesnât even realize those advances are happening, but itâs always just as painful to watch, knowing that charming attitude and cheeky voice is exactly how he got you, âand it just makes me feel so⌠so stupid and jealous and unwanted!âÂ
You feel out of breath by the time you finish. Though you remain silent and try to calm yourself, you instead begin to feel more anger festering inside you as you take in Yeonjunâs face, full of dread and realization as he begins to think back to how he was acting back at the frat party that caused this mess.Â
Yeonjun was used to people acting the way they did around him. It never fazed him, and most of the time he simply followed along because he found it fun. No, he never thought of having anyone else but you, youâre his everythingâ though, he does realize how inconsiderate heâs been of your feelings now.Â
âBaby, baby, Iâm so sorry,â he says, his words genuine and filled with guilt as he cups your face gently, âI didnât know.â
âFuck!â Your response is unprecedented as you shake his hands off you, pushing him back and forcing him to lay across the couch as he looks up at you in surprise. Heâs unable to do anything as he watches the way you throw your legs on each side of his waist, grabbing a fistful of his shirt and tugging him up as you sneer at him.
âThatâs your problem, you just donât knowâ!â pushing him back on the couch, he lets out a soft oof! unable to help the way his stomach swirls in anticipation of your next move, âYouâre just too stupid, you donât know anything unless someone spells it out for you!â
Shit. Yeonjun has never seen you like this, frustrated and restless as you shift above him, your eyes alight with rage as you begin tugging your hoodie over your head; his eyes widen comically at the action, shifting nervously under you as he realizes that oh, youâre not wearing a bra.Â
âYouâve seriously left me wondering if youâre even taking this relationship seriously, itâs ridiculous!â Yeonjun feels like heâs been left on autopilot as he lets you tug him up again; heâs sitting up, hands hovering precariously as you glare at him, the sight enough to have him gulping nervously.
âIâ I do,â he stutters out, watching as you send him an accusing look, âI do, I do I do, I take you so seriously, and fuck, I havenât been thinking of anyone but you all week.âÂ
âYeah?â you ask him, patronizing and unexpectedly mean as you look down at him, âYou never fucking act like it.â
âYes I doâ!â he yells out, though itâs cut off by the way you sit down firmly in his lap, a hand threading into his hair and yanking at the roots as you tug his head back cruelly, âIâve shown you this whole week just how much I think about youâŚâÂ
Yeonjun is hard. Painfully so, and you donât think youâve ever seen him get turned on so quicklyâ itâs enough to have you laughing breathily, tugging on his hair again and listening to the way he only lets out a high whine in response.
âWhat youâve shown me this week,â you hiss, bringing him close to you, your lips grazing against his as you speak, âis that youâre a desperate bitch that doesnât know how to be patient.â
âYou were ignoring me,â he fights back, letting out a breathy wince at the way your grip tightens on his hair, âyouâve been so mean to meâ!â
Yeonjun doesnât get another word in on the matter. The way you bite his lip ruthlessly and sneak your tongue into his mouth has you feeling the way he practically turns to putty under you, his cheeks just as red as his lips as he gasps against your own, feeling the way you begin to grind against his cock without remorse.Â
âMe? Iâve been mean to you?â you wonder out loud, hands running down his chest before youâre tugging his shirt up; you donât bother taking it off as it rests against his chest, leaning him back and running your hands over his skin as you take in the way his stomach twitches in response. âdo you know how many people think theyâve actually got a chance with you, all because you refuse to use common sense and say, oh, Iâve got a girlfriend!âÂ
Yeonjun shakes his head; thereâs no way your words are true, especially when heâs literally obsessed with you. But of course, youâre always rightâ which is exactly why youâre fueled to rake your nails down his skin, leaving him to hiss and twitch at the feeling of your acrylics digging into his stomach and leaving bright, red scratch marksâ acrylics he paid for because he thought they were pretty, the reminder only making his cock twitch pathetically.Â
âThereâs no one in this world that has a chance with me but you,â Yeonjun insists, pouting at the way you only scoff at his words, âIâve never done anything to fuel other peopleâs strange fantasies.â
âGod, youâre stupid,â you say, and Yeonjun thinks he mustâve lost his mind from the way he can feel a whine building up in his throat, âand to think I found that endearing.â
âYouâre so mean,â he poutsâ though heâs quick to regret it, letting out a loud cry as you begin grinding against him, able to feel the warmth of your pussy through the thin shorts you wear, your breast bouncing from the way your body begins to move.Â
âYou donât like it?â You ask, tilting your head to watch as he merely shakes his head in responseâ all you can do is plant yourself to where you can feel his length pressed up against your slit, throbbing against you as you pout at him in false pity, âno you donât like it, or no you do?â
âIâ IâŚâ he doesnât know how to respond; it seems as though Yeonjun hasnât figured out the response for himself, but you can feel it from the way his hips buck up into yours, stuttering and without rhythm as he remains defenseless under you.Â
âYou do like it,â you say, mocking at the way he only whimpers from the feeling of your nails digging into his hips, âFeels nice to be on the receiving end, baby?â
Fuck. Fuck, oh fuck, this was strange and new and Yeonjun was definitely enjoying himself more than he thought he should, a melted pile of remorse and love as he pathetically waited for your next move, doe eyes staring up at you as he felt his mouth part, unable to say anything as he gave in to the mean look you sent him.Â
âBeen waiting patiently for me, hmm?â you ask him, thinking back to his earlier words as you watch him nod eagerly in confirmation, âSo you bothering me every day of the week was you being patient?â
âI just wanted to talk,â Yeonjun whines out, chest heaving at the way you begin rolling your hips against his, your rhythm firm and dangerous as he feels weak moans leaving him like a stream, âbut youâ you kept avoiding me, I wanted to get some confirmation that you didnât break up with me that dayâŚ!â
âYeah?â you mock him, your voice just as whiny and breathy as his as you lean down to him; placing your hands on his chest, you tilt your head, grinding your cunt against him in a way that has him panting and looking for someplace to grab onto, âand did you get your answer?â
Yeonjun doesnât even think he registered what you said. All he knows is that the way youâre sitting on him is genuinely cruel, especially with the way he hasnât felt your body against his in so long. His mind is muddled and he can feel himself losing control from the way his hips begin to buck up, his brain going blank except for the thought that he hasnât felt you against him in what seems like ages, his body so pent up with frustration that he canât help but chase after the slight pleasure you offer him.Â
Yeonjunâs mind has blanked out. You can see it in his face, the way itâs twisted with pleasure as he fails to respond to you, body bucking up into you so wildly that you have to steady yourself with two hands pressed firmly against his chest, your balance getting screwed over at his attempts to fuck up into you.Â
The feeling of your warm hands is enough to bring Yeonjun back, eyes widening in realization as his eyes meet yours, clouded with so much need that it has Yeonjun slowing his pace immediately.
âFuck, fuck, wait,â he stutters out, eyes widening at the way your cunt is practically leaking onto himâ he can feel it through the layers of clothes, âwait wait wait, Iâm soâ ah, pleaseâ so⌠sososo close, baby, pleaseâŚ!â
âWait?â you echo, brows furrowing as he nods frantically in response, âthought you didnât like waiting?â
âNo, please, please,â he whimpers, though his hips donât stop their mindless rutting into your warm cunt, âplease, donât wanna come like this, wanna be inside you.â
âNo?â you repeat, the mocking tone of your voice making his eyes screw shut, âwhy donât you stop then? Itâs all up to you.â
Oh, of course he can stopâ though, that doesnât mean he will, your hips slowly grinding against his as you watch the way his mouth falls open, not a sound falling past it before his hips buck up into you wildlyâ slowly, you feel a warmth spread beneath you, Yeonjunâs eyes screwed tightly as tears begin to peek from the corners.Â
âNooooo nonono, no, not like this,â he cried quietly to himself, ever the hypocrite as his hands fly to your waist, riding out his orgasm with loud, shameless moans.Â
âOh, my baby,â you say, pouting at the way he apologizes to you under his breath, âIs that it? Are you done now?â
âNo, not done,â heâs quick to respond despite his rattled state of mind, looking up at you through bleary eyes.Â
âNo?â you hum, taking a moment to watch him carefully.Â
âNo,â he repeats, breathless as his grip tightens on your hipsâ even through the sensitivity, you can still feel his hips roll up into yours, quiet whimpers and whines leaving him as he does soâ though, he canât find it in himself to stop, at least not with the way he has yet to feel you around him.Â
âGod, this is so pitiful,â you say, frowning at the way Yeonjun struggles to sit up underneath you; youâre cupping his face as he looks up at you, teary eyes and flushed face unable to say anything as he simply leans into your touchâ the way you coo softly has him pouting, and you canât resist the urge to hover over his lips, teasing him with a smile as you brush over them, placing chaste kisses that only have him chasing you for more.Â
âWhat a good bitch,â you hiss, feeling the way his hands have wandered up to play with your breasts, obsessed as always as his fingers tug and circle your nipples, eager to feel them harden under his touch, âdoesnât matter how many times you cum, hmm? Just need to make me feel good?â
âYes, yes yes yes,â he babbles, wincing and moaning at the way your lips have begun to wander along his neck, nipping and sucking and leaving enough marks that a person could spot from far away with ease; the way your teeth sink into his skin practically has him crying, and he can feel his heart pounding against his chest the moment he feels you pause, your nose nuzzling into the spot behind his ear, your breath ticklish on his skin as you laugh.Â
âAre you wearing my perfume, junie?â You mumble, hearing the way he can only whine in embarrassment; he doesnât answer you, and you bite at his earlobe softly as you wait, silently demanding a response as his hands fall to your hips, gripping them pathetically as though his life depended on it.Â
âI missed you,â he repeats, the words making you roll your eyes as your hand finds itself in his hair; youâre tugging at it, tilting his head and exposing his neck to you as you begin to nose along the column, closing your eyes to confirm if this is really your scent, âcouldnât smell you on my clothes anymore, love your scent sâmuch, ahâŚâ
His neck has always been sensitive; thatâs exactly why you choose to focus on it so much, not leaving until itâs covered with your marks and his tears have run down them, his soft sniffles making you glance up as you take him in, overstimulated and a mess as he bites his lip in an attempt to quiet himself.
âToo much, baby?â You coo, running a hand through his hair and pushing it back comfortingly, watching as he shakes his head adamantly, his wide eyes shiny and tear-filled as he looks up at you.
âNo,â he mumbles, wrapping his arms around you and tugging you towards him; his face is buried in your chest, and you canât hold back the gasp you let out as his mouth immediately attaches itself to your breast, plump lips sucking at it as his tongue runs along it, messy and spit-filled as he looks back up at you, grinding you into him with weak whimpers, âwant you to use me, you can do anything you want to me, just wanna please you.â
âSuch a good boy for me, junie,â you say, his eyes fluttering close at your fond comment. âAre you gonna listen to me, for once?â
âI always listen to you,â he insists, and you feel irked by his words as you scoff.
âLike hell you do,â you sneer, easily angered as he shrinks down from your cold gaze, âShow me thenâ strip.â
Yeonjun is eager to listen, eager to please; you donât think youâve ever seen him get undressed so quickly, kicking off his pants and throwing his shirt off in some random direction as he looks up at you expectantly, his cock a mess and already beginning to harden as your eyes fall to it.
âHard already?â You muse, watching the way his cheeks blush red at your comment. Your hand is teasing as you wrap your fingers around his length, your perfect nails shining under the light as you slowly begin to move up and down, the cum from his previous orgasm guiding your movements as he begins to twitch under you, crying softly at the overstimulation.Â
âGuess you werenât lying,â you sigh out, finger swiping over his throbbing tip as you hear him yelp at the feeling, âjust a cute body for me to use, hmm? Youâre nothing but a dick for me to get myself off on?â
Yeonjun is mindlessly agreeing with youâ your words are clearly affecting him, his cock leaking and throbbing in your hand, making a mess of it as his head falls back, throat displaying all the marks you left on him earlier like a trophy.
His head is snapping back up the moment you sink onto him. Youâre warm, tight, and so fucking wet, his body jolting at the feeling of you clenching around him, taking him inch by inch as he feels the way your walls stretch to adjust to him.
âFuckâŚâ you hiss, your arousal practically dripping on him from how good he feelsâ âYeonjun, shit.â
âWaiiittt, wait, oh god, noâ donât say my name like that, fuck,â Yeonjun begins moaning, your lips quirking into a smile as you watch his eyes screw shut, already knowing whatâs coming from the way he holds onto you tighter, head buried into your chest as he tries to still your hips.
âHmm? Whatâs wrong?â You ask, feigning innocence as you roll your hips into him, moaning dramatically as you do, âOh, Yeonjun, Yeonjunâ fuck, junie, you feel so good, feel so fullâŚâ
Heâs shaking his head hopelessly; you know what youâre doing to him, and he feels pathetic by the way he loses his senses the more you sink onto him, his cock twitching in you uncontrollably as he warns you to stop, stop, stop before IâŚ!
âThis is embarrassing, Yeonjunie,â you pout, feeling the way a warmth spreads inside you the moment you sit on his hips snugly, feeling him bottomed out inside you as he attempts to muffle his sounds. His ears are bright red and he refuses to show you his face as he keeps you close to him, his arms still hugging you flush against him as you feel the valley of your breasts become wet with his tears.Â
âWhy are you crying, hmm?â You ask him, looking down to see the way he still hides his face, âYouâve already come twice, shouldnât you be happy? Youâre so easy, Yeonjunie.â
Your words are degrading, your voice cold as continue to mock himâ and though you pretend otherwise, you can feel the way he ruts his hips into you with every mean comment, clearly enjoying himself more than he lets on as he lets out a broken cry against your skin.Â
âFuck, are you seriously getting off to this?â You snap, bored with pretending as though you donât feel your boyfriend clinging to you tighter as you degrade him, âYouâre such a fucking slutâ you get off to anything, donât you?â
The way you pull him away from your skin is sudden and rough, a soft yelp leaving him as heâs finally forced to face you, eyes fluttering open and meeting your own, your face twisted in annoyance as you look down at him.
âActing like a bitch in heat, already came twice from nothing,â you grit, rolling your hips against his as you watch the way his eyes roll backâ your other hand comes up to grip his cheeks, digging into the flesh and squeezing them together as he pouts at you, eyes welling with tears as he feels your nails dig into him.
âDonât you feel bad? How am I supposed to get myself off if you can barely keep your dick up for more than a minute?â Your eyes darken at the way he simply lets out a pathetic sorry, âm so sorry baby, âWhat? I donât think I heard you right.â
Your pussy feels so good around him; Yeonjun is barely able to think straight from the way youâve begun to bounce on his cock ruthlessly, the sight of your breasts bouncing before him hypnotizing as you jerk his head back up to look at you, towering over him and demanding as you slow your hips to a mean grind.
âIâm sorry, Iâm sorry,â he whines out, his words incoherent and mushed together as you keep a hold of his face, listening as you hiss out for what? ââM sorry for being so impatientâ ah, ah, pleaseâ ngh, sorry for coming too soon, sorry forâŚâ
He doesnât finish his sentence. He canât find the ability to, distracted by the way your sounds have picked up, your fingers rubbing circles on your clit as you continue to use his cock like a toy; his cheeks feel sore as he stares at you with wide eyes, watching your face contort with pleasure, your rhythm become sloppy as you feel your legs getting tired.Â
You didnât think Yeonjun would pick up on it; without any warning, you find your back colliding against the couch, your eyes widening as you feel Yeonjun still settled in between your legs, cock still nestled deeply inside you; heâs still a pouty mess above you, hands gripping onto your hips as he begins rutting into you, his thrusts rough and out of control as he takes in your figure hungrily.Â
âSorry for making you feel unwanted,â Yeonjun babbles, feeling you throw your arms around his neck from the sudden confession, bringing him in close as you feel his face hover above your own, âI only want you, want you to use me and mark me so others know who I belong to, Iâm all yours babyâ please, please please please tell me youâre close, wanna feel you come on my cock, wanna make you feel good, missed you, missed this pussy, fuck, mmh, ugh, feel so good, so good, soso good, please, babyââ
Yeonjun thinks youâre something of an aphrodisiac to him; at least, that must be the explanation if heâs able to cum the moment he feels you unravel around him, unrestrained and addicted to the feeling as he listens to your pretty sounds, practically melting as he hears your voice purring under himâ so good, fuck, youâre all mine Yeonjunie, all mineâŚ
You donât think youâve ever felt Yeonjun cum this muchâ his cock continues to twitch and release inside you even after youâve come down from your high, the man above you burying his head into the crook of your neck as he cries softly at the feeling, unable to help the way his hips buck forward to ride out his orgasm.
This shift in dynamic is newâ but itâs addicting, and you find yourself thoroughly enjoying the way Yeonjun clings to you, his head hazy and needy for your comfort as he lays on top of you, uncaring of how heavy he may be as he wraps his strong arms around you.Â
Missed you sâmuch baby, missed you, please donât do that again, you could hear him mutter into your skin, a bit out of it as he peppered kisses along your collarbones.
âAlright, alright, I wonât,â you breathe out, running your fingers through his hair soothingly as he leans into your touch like a cat, âIâm sorry I kept running away from you.â
âBut then again,â you trail off, tightening your grip on his hair teasingly, feeling the way he immediately whines softly, âyou shouldâve given me space when I asked you to. It was kinda cute, but donât do that againâ okay?â
âOkay. Of course. Whatever you say,â his response is immediate, not an ounce of hesitation as he stares at you with eyes shining with devotion. After a second, his lips part, and heâs hovering over you again as he looks down at you in wonder.Â
âDoes that mean weâre boyfriend-girlfriend again?â
You laugh.
âYou idiot,â you coo, placing a soft kiss on his lips, unable to control your laugh as you do, âWe didnât stop being boyfriend-girlfriend. I was just mad at you.â
âHmm. Then, can I eat you out?â His words have you freezing, looking at him in bewilderment as he simply smiles at you sheepishly, âTo like. Show you how sorry I am.â
A pause.Â
ââŚAnd, because I really missed eating you out.â
You sighâ and try not to show how eager you are as you nod softly. Yeonjun however, is shameless as he immediately pulls out, hissing softly at the feeling before heâs sinking to his stomachâ youâre gulping at the sight.Â
âYouâre insatiable.â Your comment doesnât faze himâ if anything, it makes him smile, his pretty eyes staring at you with enough adoration and love that youâre squirming slightly under him.
âFor you, yeah.â
-ËËâĄËË-
On Monday, the sight of Yeonjun on campus is enough to have you spinning on your heels and running in the opposite direction. He wears nothing but a thin tank top, wondering why youâre yelling at him to cover up the moment he answers your phone call.Â
âWhy? Itâs hot outsideâ âŚand, like, I wanna show everyone who I belong to.â
(You refuse to stand by his side until he covers upâthough, you canât ignore the way his words send butterflies through your stomach.)
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
â Live Streamingâ Interactive Chatâ Private Showsâ HD Qualityâ Free Actions
Free to watch ⢠No registration required ⢠HD streaming
Anyone remembers this yeonjun fic where it was basically just yj yearning and lowkey toxic, and i think it was titled 7 days a week? Something along the lines of that. Plot is ab something he did that makes oc mad and she ignores him till sunday..?
Pls tag me in it if u do rmb! Or tag the author pls thankyou!
pairing: sub nice guy roommate!soobin x devious!reader
summary- He's so nice to everyone, and so infuriatingly oblivious and you're nice enough to jerk that out of him ;)
warnings: reader pretends to be dumb to get her ways mwaha. Jerkings off only!! handjobs đ look at the header to imagine lmao. soobin is a sub boy because that's all I like to write about, apparently. soobin crying. soobin likes to be a good boy :p
-
Soobin's always so nice- so-so- damn nice. Always dubbed as the "nice innocent type,". From being a courteous gentleman to being an attentive listener, not to mention his height of 6'3, Choi Soobin has all the traits women want in a partner. Yet, he is so blatantly oblivious to everyone's advances towards him. You wonder if there is more underneath the surface than what he lets on. Surely, he cannot be this chivalrous all the time?
It pisses you off, really. You can't even have a simple lunch with your roommate without girls whispering around your table- plotting a way to slip their numbers in folded tissue papers. He will unfold the tissue, reading the note "We really like your style... call us xxxxxxxxxx" and look back at you with a wide shit-eating grin.
"Look, Y/N! Those girls like the outfit you chose for me." and wave back at them shyly. "You can ask her for more tips if you really like my outfit, she picked it out for me...!" The girls glance around, grimacing at your table before turning back.
"It's almost commendable how you manage to cockblock yourself, Soobin," you say with a sigh- rolling your eyes. He will look back at you with round eyes and pukered lips, tilting his head every so slightly. "What do you mean? They just said they like my outfit...?"
Sigh. You want to smack him, smack his pretty head and yank him by the jaw and yell at his face. You wanna scream and tell him how hot he is, and it's so frustrating watching him throw away all these advances. "You're so blind, dude! Seriously. Like, I get annoyed seeing you be so dumb-"
"How am I blind?!"
"You could've had some action tonight but you chose to be blind and not notice shit! Do you seriously not pick up on hints?"
He shrugs, "I only pick up on things from people I want to notice."
"I could be grinding on your lap, and you would still think I'm being platonic- that's how blind you are." Soobin's expression flickers for a split second before he pouts again. "Whatever. Like you'd ever do that."
"I just might."
It's almost midnight when you reach home after hanging out with your friends. Your apartment is fairly clean by courtesy of Soobin doing the chores before you came back. Light strays from underneath the door of his room, he is still awake- you take a mental note. Without bothering to lock your door, you begin trying to unzip your dress from the back. You struggle for a few seconds before cussing loudly.
"Hey, you're back?" his muffled voice calls out from the other side.
"Yup! Just came back." you glance at the stack of neatly folded laundry on your bed. "Did you do my laundry again? I swear I was gonna do it tomorrow..."
"Heh- it's okay. I was doing mine, so I thought I might as well do yours."
Your dress is awkwardly hanging off your shoulders as you step closer to see he's washed your underwear too- with fabric softener (you could smell it evidently) "See- this is what I kept talking about, you're too nice Soo-" you tripped over the length of your long dress, falling to the ground with a thud.
The door swings open with him yelling, "Are you okay?!"
"Ouch..." you didn't have time to process what was going on- too busy dealing with the bruise you can feel forming on the side of your hip. You don't realise you're left with a black pushup bra, your dress half unzipped and falling to the side, exposing your mismatched pink sailor moon underwear. Soobin goes quiet. He stays in the awkward half-bent position, not meeting your eyes. He doesn't walk away from the room either.
"fuck." you whisper to yourself, ready to die from embarrassment. Then you glance up to finally see Soobin. He was still wearing the navy dress shirt from lunch earlier; a few buttons popped open, revealing some of his chest. His ears blushed into a deep shade of red, his hands shaking a little as the seconds go by. He's still looking away, yet unmoving. You smirk. Let's see how long this facade of a nice guy stays.
"Are you gonna help me up or not, Soobs?"
"O-Oh yeah lemme just-" He reaches down with both hands to pick you up by the waist and the dress slips off a little more but still very much on you. He hasn't spared you or your body a glance, eyes trained to the white walls of your room.
What a nice guy, you chuckled internally.
He sits you down at the edge of your bed. His hands fiddle with themselves, knuckled popping. You will admit he looks rather good- sleeves rolled up to his elbow, shirt messily tucked into black slacks. His black hair was neatly combed after being styled today morning. His skin looks especially white and almost soft under the mood lighting of your room. He looks so cute, yet so hot. You bite your lips unconsciously- you can't wait to mess with him a little more.
"I can't seem to unzip the rest by myself. Can you do it for me, Soobin?" your eyelashes bat, fluttering with a pious facade laced with devious motives. "U-uh sure. yeah." Of course, Mr. Nice Guy Choi Soobin would never say no to you.
Laying down on the bed, you angle yourself for him to reach the zipper on your back. His fingers glide over your skin a little as the dress comes off, burning your skin. His hands are cold, but against you, they warm up; they haven't stopped shaking yet.
Now you're left with just a bra and panties. He gathers the dress, folding it and placing it on your desk. Your heart swells a little before you look at him again. "Thank you so much, Soobin-ah."
"No problem. Are you okay, though? The fall sounded pretty bad..."
You friegn an innocent pout, shaking your head. "No, will you check it for me, please?" You swivel your hips, making sure he can see the pink panties cupping your mound.Â
Soobin gulps and closes his eyes- probably sending out a prayer. You smile widely. Without a word, he sits on the bed, one leg down. His hand slowly inches near the side of your hips, a clear purple bloch forming. You arch your back more as your body shifts closer to his sitting one. His fingers trace the bruise very gently.Â
You can feel your panties getting wet, your legs press closer to relieve some pressure but to no avail. His eyes are locked in on your lower body, his eyes drag a little lower to see a dark patch on your underwear. He gasps silently. His hand drifts down a little, now dangerously close to your clothes pussy. You yank his hand away, sitting upright to face him. Your nose almost touching his nose.Â
âStupid. Stupid. Stupid Soobin. You still think Iâm being friendly? When Iâm laid out in front of you with nothing but my panties and bra? Fuck- you still donât get any hints?âÂ
He looks away. What he says next makes you raise your brows and tackle him down on the bed. âYou havenât exactly grinded on my lap yet, you know?âÂ
âFuck- you sly fox. I knew you werenât all innocence-â you grab his jaw, angling his head towards yours before crashing your lips onto his. The kiss is rushed and messy, your teeth clanking against the others a few times. Soobin doesnât seem to mind, eyes closed as he melts into the kiss.Â
You straddle his lap, clothed pussy rubbing right over his clothed dick. You can feel how hard it is. Soobin doesnât even try to fight his tongue into your mouth, youâve got him beat- tongue hastily slipping into his parted lips- exploring his mouth deliciously. You grind on his lap in round motions, in sync with your tongue. Before you pull back, you gingerly bite his soft yet chapped lips a little.Â
A string of saliva connects you both as you huff back. His face is a contrast of red blush and his pale white skin, eyes looking at you with a fucked-out expression. Youâre just getting started. His dick sits uncomfortably tight under his black slacks and you look at him with bright eyes. âF-fuck, Y/N wait- I- You- fuckâŚâÂ
âWhatâs wrong, Soobin?â you coyly ask, fingers sliding down his pants. âArenât we going too fast?â you pause.Â
âToo fast? I see the way you look at me everyday, you little shit.â you aggresivly pull his pants down, exposing his white boxers where you can see tiny bit of precum leaking through.Â
âYoure always looking at my tits, watching my ass when I wear skirts, always being so fucking oblivious to everyoneâs flirting. I know you, Soobin.âÂ
His eyes widen, chest heaving as your fingers touch his clothed cock. âSo nice to everyone, so nice to me. Youâre just a dog, arenât you? Look at you now, letting me do what I want with you. You wanted this, didnât you? You want me to fuck you up, babeâ
âS-shit yes! Ngh, Yes. I did. Iâm sorry, I just wanted you, Y/N and I didnât know how to-â
âShhhâ you place a finger on his swollen lips. You come closer to lick his adams apple, messily going down to where his shirt is buttoned open. âSince youâre nice with everyone, be nice with me now, yeah?â He nods firociously.Â
You get up to sit behind him after taking off your bra. You can tell Soobin wants to touch them, but he doesnât get the liberty to ask yet, and he knows. Your boobs press against Soobins back, making his spine shiver. Your hands spring his cock free and it sticks up over his shirt- standing hard and straight. You press yourself even closer, nipples brushing against the fabric of his shirt as you begin slowly stroking his cock.
 Your body moves along with his. His head lolls back in pleasure as you fondle with his shaft. Two veins are running down from the base to the tip, you can feel it throb within your palm.Â
His breathing becomes faster with the pace of your strokes, chest heaving up and down.Â
âYou like this, Soobin?â He bites his lips, brows curled as he nods. âYou make me feel so good, Y/NâŚâÂ
âOh yeah?â your hands tighten around his cock for a few seconds then you jerk him off even quicker. His balls feel heavy, and you can tell itâs going to be a big load. You suddenly hear sniffles emerge among his whimpers and moans. Your other hand reaches up to his face to feel hot tears streaming down to his lips and neck. âBaby- whyâre you crying?â
âSo good, Y/N. So good. Please, Please, Please, I wanna cum-â You pause once again, earning a whine out of him. You giggle before kissing his neck, sucking onto his supple flesh as you leave love bites all over. His body starts to shake uncontrollably, whimpers escalating to full-blown yelps and moans. You can tell heâs close.
âBe a good boy and cum for me, âmkay?âÂ
âYes-yes- Iâll be a-a-good-â he doesnât have time to finish his sentence before ropes of thick white cum flies out. Some land on your finger, and the rest stain his shirt and pants. He heaves a sigh. You turn him around and he looks at you with a dazed and confused expression. Your lips are laced with an evil smirk as you lick your fingers clean of his cum. His eyes widen. He just witnessed the hottest thing a woman has ever done. You yank him by the neck and spit his cum back into his mouth as you continue to sloppily kiss him.Â
He happily gulps down the remnants in his mouth, and you acknowledge him surprised.Â
âFrom now on, youâre just allowed to be this nice with me, âkay?â
-
a/n: unedited persuzzz. As you can tell, I think with my none existent dick while writing smut- no I'm no ashamed of it. tell me how you like it and leave some nice comments while you're at it!
if you guys wanna req some prompts, feel free to cuz I'm not that creative to come up with more ideas lol