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Summary: The word âmonogamyâ does not exist in choi yeonjunâs vocabulary. Heâs used to the tears and the furious texts but heâs never had any payback. Thatâs before you, of course.
â requested! suggestive themes! angst ig? no actual smut but itâs discussed, cheater/fboy! yeonjun, homie hopper y/n, beomgyu in it for the love of the game (sex), gn! reader but theyâre wearing a skirt, soobin makes an appearance bc i canât help myself
a/n: this is an old ass request⊠and an old ass piece of workâŠ
Getting involved with Choi Yeonjun was a no-go from the start. Despite his charming demeanour and angelic looks, heâs a lowlife two-timing scum who turns his nose up at monogamy because his good looks allow him to have an endless supply of women and men running straight at him.
Your friend group warned you from the start, saying things like âdonât believe him!â but you assured them that you wouldnât fall for his shtick.
But along the way feelings start to get complicated when time is spent together outside of sex and 3am calls.
Were you foolish to think he would change for you? Yes. But did you foolishly hope that he would change for you? Yes. It sucks but you sacrificed your ego for some annoyingly good dick and a romanticised ideal of a man who could care less for you when he doesnât want his dick wet.
Youâre just like the people you said youâd never be.
Overtime you gave yourself grace because Yeonjun actually seemed to like you. He took you out in public, paid for meals and outings and you even got the occasional post on his story. Your friend became weary but foolishly thought maybe he had changed, until you were at an acquaintances party and spotted him with his tongue down another girls throat.
An annoyingly, pretty girl who has done absolutely nothing wrong.
âDude. Are you okay?â James places a hand on your shoulder when you catch the stomach churning sight. It feels like time itself is paused as you watch the way his hands naturally trace her curves and pull her in at the waist. It makes you sick because you can feel the way you can feel the exact same hands like a ghost trail over your own curves. The same act would make butterflies erupt in your lower abdomen but now it causes an angry flush to rush throughout your body.
The thumping bass of the music that would usually make you sway makes the knot in your stomach feel tighter.
In fact, youâre surprised. When you think of yourself in a situation like this you imagine the devastation â the tears that threaten to fall down your face like a broken faucet. But you donât feel like that. You feel the jealous, green monster battling horribly with the angry demon who makes you want to lurch across the room and drag the man by his stupidly handsome styled hair and punch that cocky, stomach churning smirk from his sculpted face.
Which is why itâs no surprise that a scowl presents on your face naturally. You try to take a sip of your drink to subdue your anger, hoping the cool liquid quells your burning fury. In the meantime, your other friend Megan steps in front of the scene to cast you out of your icy trance. You blink, eyes darting around her face before trying to focus on the way the dim lights make her glittery eyelids shimmer in such a pretty way.
âIâm sorry, y/n. What an asshole!â She frowns as her hands smooth across your hair. You let out a deep breath you didnât realise you were holding, taking in the empathetic looks from your friends that makes you feel smaller than what you actually are. You know they feel bad but you canât help but feel like theyâre looking at you with âI told you soâ looping inside their minds. You shake off their worries, soothing the crease that presented between your brows.
âIâm fine, you guys. I⊠Itâs not like I expected him to change for me.â But you did, you really did and you kick yourself for it. The two glance at each other before looking back at you with devilish grins plastered across their faces.
Itâs the same way they look at each other before they corner you in on one of their stupid plans.
You shoot them a quizzical look, âWhat are you two plottingâŠ?â
âShots!â
Megan takes a hold of your wrist and drags you through the crowd to the kitchen. Sheâs giggling as she does so, tipsy mind finding it funny that people are stumbling out of her way as she stomps through the clustered crowd. James gets through a little more efficiently and uses his long arms to pluck a sealed bottle of vodka from the home owners cabinets.
The kitchen is crowded with people desperate to find a drink. You spot two of Yeonjunâs friends, Beomgyu and Soobin conversing with someone youâre not sure of. You feel a lick of embarrassment when you realise youâre stuck in the same small space as them, but you quell it by complaining to your friends.
âVodka?â You groan and twist your face up as James pours the first shot. Itâs definitely teetering on a double but he shoves the plastic cup at you nonetheless.
The smell reminds you of painful hangovers and the cool feeling of bathroom tiles against your cheek. Bad decisions and drunk actions wrapped together in a pretty, pungent ribbon.
It particularly smells like the time you ended up lying on Meganâs lawn at the ripe age of 17, drunk out of your mind while your friends run around looking for you.
âDrink up!â He cheers as he clinks the bottle against the cup. You yelp as the glass crinkles the plastic and threatens to spill the strong liquid across your clothes. You cannot afford to be reeking of vodka and embarrassment.
Megan looks at you expectingly despite the fact you know sheâll regret this choice too.
âSeriously? I havenât drank vodka since high schoolâŠâ You wince at the sight of the liquid. Despite its deceiving appearance you know itâs going to go down anything but smoothly.
âBlah blah blah â stop yapping and drink, bitch!â Megan cheers when you raise the cup to your lips. You hold your breath as it enters your mouth and swallow as soon as it hits the back of your throat. Your eyes clench as the pungent taste still invades your senses despite your best attempt to avoid tasting it, swiftly chasing with your own mixed drink.
They cheer, laughing at the way you fold in on yourself. Youâll never get over the taste or the memories that come with that specific liqueur.
âHoly shit.â You wheeze, opening your eyes to witness them taking a joint shot. Their faces make you feel a bit better about your reaction. James shakes the bottle at you but you push it away with a shake of your head â âYouâre a fuckinâ psycho, dude.â
The two laugh, bickering as Jameâs pours a heavier mix into Meganâs drink. You take the chance to glance around the room before your eyes land on the alternative friend of Yeonjun, Beomgyu.
Despite his cold appearance he smiles brightly at you. You smile back and pray he knows nothing about your humiliating existence. You watch as he excuses himself to his friends before pushing though the crows to make his way to you.
âIs that Beomgyu?â Megan asks as she peers over your shoulder. You whip around, âBe cool. Oh my God.â You hush her. James snickers before busying himself with raiding what else is in the cupboards.
Megan makes a meek noise before ducking back, thwacking your shoulder so you face the oncoming man.
This is exactly what you need after seeing your situationship stick his tongue down a random girls throat. At a part he knew youâd be at.
âHey! Nice to see you.â Beomgyu greets, extending his arm as an opening for a casual side hug. You reciprocate despite feeling a bit awkward, greeting him as warmly as you can without giving away the fact that: 1.) you feel incredibly awkward and 2.) the horrible taste in your mouth is still battling with your gag reflex.
âWhatâs up?â You hum expectantly as Beomgyu doesnât really speak to you outside of close encounters. He stills, probably feeling caught before a sheepish smile curls onto his pale, plump lips. He looks around before bending his neck a little.
The sudden awkwardness surrounding Beomgyu makes you think heâs going to mention Yeonjun and his lack of ability to think about otherâs feelings.
âI just uh⊠wanted to ask if you had seen Yeonjun yet.â He asks softly, implications dancing lightly around his question. You press your lips together, eyes falling to the floor before you gather yourself together. You glance at Megan who retreats and takes herself away from the conversation.
You clear your throat to rid it of the rising tension threatening to make your voice waver, âUm, yeah. Donât worry.â You try to laugh but it comes off strained. Beomgyu smiles kindly but his eyes swirl with empathy.
You hate it.
âListen, Beomgyu. Iâm fine and me and Yeonjun were never serious. You donât need to like⊠damage control.â Beomgyu laughs a little at your last words. He shrugs, âIt seems you read right through me.â
You smile but like Beomgyu, it doesnât reach your eyes. Music spliced between the silence thatâs blanketed your strange interaction before Beomgyu motions at your cup with his own bottle - âSo, uh, whatcha drinking?â
You shrug, âCheap rum and off brand coke?â
Beomgyu snickers a little but itâs real this time. Suddenly the air between you both doesnât feel as rehearsed once he motions at your cup once more,
âWanna grab another round?â
Choi Beomgyu is a damn good kisser. It didnât take long for the drinks to start making your mind feel hazy and intentions less thought-through. The bass of the music and sway of the crowd only served to push you and Beomgyu closer until you were both wrapped up in each other.
Megan and James disappeared once you and Beomgyu got handsy. Itâs hard not to when one of the most attractive men youâve laid eyes on is practically begging to kiss you, so why would you deny that urge? Especially when it feels like heâs snatching your soul away with each needy prod of his tongue and cheeky nip of his teeth.
âShit, what the fuck? Yeonjunâs stupid as fuck.â Beomgyu pants as he clicks his belt buckle back into place. You puff, overheated and sweating from the vigorous quickie that Beomgyu managed to pull out of you.
You were never the type to fuck at a party - especially in a random bathroom where the door doesnât lock properly but you couldnât deny the urge when Beomgyuâs fingers started to wander below your skirts hem.
And when youâre running on rage and alcohol.
The cool mirror from the vanity gives your sweaty, heated skin some relief. You watch as Beomgyu fumbles with his trousers, tugging his belt to ensure itâs sitting the way it was before he entered the small room with you. Locks of his dark hair stick to his forehead as beads of sweat roll down his temples, giving him that dangerously attractive flushed look.
He looks back at you after fixing himself.
âShit, Iâm gonna get hard again if you keep looking at me like that.â He mumbles as he steps between your parted legs once more. You laugh, faltering into a mewl as his fingers curl around the back of your neck and peel you from the counter so you can meet his bitten lips in another sloppy kiss. You have no energy to battle his tongue and you let him greedily lick and nip at your lips.
âWho knew you were..â You pause to pant between each kiss, âHiding⊠all that.â Your lips curl into a sly smirk as you crotch bumps against his own. Beomgyu is surprisingly packing and God does he know how to use it. He shudders when your legs lock lightly around his thighs.
âIf you werenât fucking around with that dick I wouldâve showed you a long time ago.â He replies as he lands one last hasty kiss against your plump lips. His hands slide to hold your waist to help you hop down from the counter he previously placed you on before fucking you like a dog in heat.
âIf I knew you could fuck like that I wouldnât have fucked Yeonjun.â The reply is low - dirty even, but Beomgyu seems to get an ego boost from it despite that fact you emasculated his friend.
Men.
As youâre adjusting your outfit and attempting to ignore the way Beomgyuâs hands linger on your waist, a sudden slurry of hurried knocks bang against the bathroom door. It makes you both jump, falling into each otherâs personal spaces until youâre pressed against Beomgyuâs chest and his hand are pressing into your lower back to move you away from the door.
âAnyone in here!?â A muffled voice calls from behind the door, music seeping between the crack of the bottom of the door. Beomgyu clears his throat awkwardly as his fingers thrum against your lower back absentmindedly. You both glance at each other before realising youâre going to have to do the good old walk of shame.
For a split second you imagine the person behind the door being Yeonjun and the thought makes your stomach churn in an uncertain way. Beomgyuâs hand slips from your waist as he slowly turns the doorknob.
âUh, yea sorr â Yeonjun?â Beomgyu stills as he cracks the door open. Heâs broad enough that you canât see past him but the mention of the man who you just washed away from your memory makes your feet plant into the ground.
Yeonjun laughs, âYou dog, Gyu. Finally got some?â He coos as he takes in Beomgyuâs disheveled, flustered face. He mutters something but you donât hear it as youâre busy calculating your response.
âWhoâs the unlucky person?â Yeonjun snickers as Beomgyu steps away, leaving Yeonjun to let his eyes fall on your flushed frame. Your face falls into something stoic, unreadable as Yeonjunâs hand slips from the waist of the girl he was practically eating earlier. You clear you throat, attempting to look somewhat casual as you walk towards the doorway.
âY/n? The fuck?â He quirks a brow, eyes dancing across your figure. You have the same flushed look as Beomgyu, sweat beaded at your hairline and hair a little more messy than what you usually style it. Your shirt looks crumpled - as if thrown on half-hazardly. Itâs a sight heâs became familiar with after so many late night calls.
The look he gives you is incredulous and awfully ironic considering heâs clearly taking a girl he just met into the bathroom to do the same thing you just did with Beomgyu. It lights a petty fire inside you.
âNo labels, right?â You muster the courage to meet Yeonjunâs eyes as you slip past the doorway. The girl beside him senses some animosity and silently looks between you both quizzically. Yeonjun doesnât bother to hide his expression when you take Beomgyuâs hand to return to the crowd.
Yeonjunâs name on your phone shouldnât be surprising. Really. But for once you know heâs not calling you at 2am for sex.
âHello?â You call as you fumble with the zip on your boots as your door shuts behind you.
âDonât âhelloâ me. You fucked my best friend?â Yeonjun replies swiftly, hushed anger leaking into his words.
You hum, groaning softly as you finally pull the boot off. You hear Yeonjun exhale shakily on the other end, âI would say it was more of a quickie than a fuck but ââ
âStop dancing around it. You fucking fucked Beomgyu? Really? Then you say some corny shit when you walk past me, the fuck?â Yeonjun spews. You donât bother to hold back your amused laugh to which Yeonjun splutters angrily, âAnd youâre fucking laughing?â
âWhat do you want me to say? You have two eyes and weâre not dating â no matter how much you wanted me to think that.â You roll your eyes despite the fact he canât see you. Your other boot clatters against the other when you tug it off, wobbling slightly as you try to regain your balance.
You exhale when you bump into the body behind you, muttering out a soft sorry.
âWhen did I ever want to make you think we dated?â
âMaybe when you posted me on your story, or when you bought me gifts â or maybe when you said âI can see this working long termâ after you fucked me like I meant something to you? Or do you just slowly fuck everyone while looking into their eyes and telling them theyâre beautiful?â
Yeonjun falters on the other side. You hear fabric shuffling and you assume heâs changing out of his clothes the way you are. Or heâs angrily pacing.
âYouâre unbelievable. I wouldnât fuck Megan, you know?â
You snort, âShe wouldnât let you touch her with a ten-foot pole.â
âYou know what, whatever this is. Itâs over. You fucking homie hopping slut.â Yeonjun pulls away sex like itâs something youâre desperately seeking. You practically bark out a laugh, hands flicking on your light switch as you enter your bedroom. The door closes behind you with a soft click.
âIt was over the second I saw you at that party.â
âFuck you.â
For a second you think he hung up, but a heavy pant ruffles through on his end.
You hum, âYou know, Yeonjun. Before you go, I actually have something I need to tell you.â
You can practically hear the way he pauses before bringing his phone back to his ear. He lets out a frustrated hum, urging you to continue.
âYouâre calling me a homie hopper but another one of your best friends is sitting in my bed. Beomgyuâs dick was bigger than yours, I wonder if Soobinâs is too?â
âAre you fucking serious? You fucking cunt.â
âSorry, gotta go! Maybe reconsider who your friends are. Try not to blow up Soobinâs phone while weâre busy, âkay?â
Soobin smiles up at you from where heâs seated on your bed. The tipsy man was more than ready to go home with you the second you walked up to him and complimented his handsome face. Unlike Beomgyu, how Yeonjun would feel about this never crossed his stupidly horny mind.
Yeonjunâsâ voice faintly curses you out from your speaker before it clatters against your bed with a sharp dial tone.
At the end of the day, no labels means you can fuck whoever you want. Too bad you want to fuck his best friends.
yeah so this was sitting in my drafts for a hot minute. just cleaned up some paragraphs and i hope itâs readable. thank you to the blog who requested this your message was sweet <3
I just saw your latest post and you should take all the time you need. Itâs more important to work on yourself and the things happening in your real life then some (very good btw) stories onlineâ€ïž
thank you, this message is so sweet :)
i promise that iâll be back soon⊠just waiting for the spark to hit me again. thank you lovely anon <3
sorry iâve been quiet⊠thereâs a lot going on in my life and my general lack of creativity is really fuelling the shortage of fics on my account. iâm really trying to push stuff out soon.
thank you for all the new followers, iâm on the road to 2k! thank you all so much, i promise to work on my creative streak. i love you moablr
alpha!taehyun x fem omega!reader (part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5 â (final I), part 6 â (final II)
warnings: SMUT! ALL things a/b/o, unprotected sex (don't!), rough sex, (positions: missionary, doggy, cowgirl), psychological rewiring through pleasure, safeword (suggested), breeding kink, strength kink, manhandling, exhibitionism, multiple orgasms, orgasm control (once), degradation, choking, knotting, cum eating, refractory period at the speed of light, they break the bed, a little bit of shower action, dirty talk, (lots of: cum, knotting, squirting, crying, kissing), reader gets emotional, lots of lore & reassurance
tws: this is a work of fiction and in no way reflects the personalities of any idols in real life! reader has a pain kink caused by trauma in intimacy with jw, no descriptions of said trauma! only implicit mentions! reader doesnât use the safeword, tyun explains safeword usage to reader, jungwon is still a super ultra triple platinum villian and somehow messed with reader's phone
wc: 10.8k!
scznote: the last of the series! ah, i shed a little tear! buckle up, my lovelies! may still contain errors! x
was that a grunt or was that a growl?
â a very, very deep sound that makes your ears perk and you squeak as the hold around you tightens, solid muscle pressing you impossibly more flush against him
"mine"
you think you may have misheard, but a gasp interrupts your train of thought as his hips drive forward experimentally â charged and slow, purposeful
"mine"
it makes your breath hitch this time, your thighs tightening around his waist as you involuntarily clench around his demanding length. sensitive â he's sensitive, but he pays it little mind. he hisses through his teeth, long and drawn out â throbbing painfully inside of you once more
"t-taehyunâ" your voice is hoarse, but that's not the thing that pauses you in your tracks
it's when he lifts his head from your nape, raising his torso onto his palms that he now plants on either side of your head, that you see it â broad frame caging you in
his eyes, predatory and fully dilated, lock onto yours
"all mine"
his lips claim yours. it's not gentle. it's not slow. teeth clashing, tongues dancing, moans and grunts passing between you, hips picking up speed again
a particularly hard and angled thrust makes you whimper and tremble in the aftershocks of what was your previous, powerful orgasm
his skin is scorching to the touch, eyes almost completely blacked out and dark and his voice? it's dropped to an octave you never thought he could produce
his rut â it has arrived
shit
pulling off, he grunts, "give me a safeword, sweetheart", slowing just enough to allow you to think, hip rolls deep and delicious
"aâ a safeword?" your voice trembles and a shiver licks up your spine, desperately wracking your brain for an option
he hums in confirmation, "anything you can think of"
hell, you're barely able to think. "iâ uhmâ vanilla?", your eyes flutter shut, a whimper tumbling from your lips as he effortlessly works and strokes his length right against that spot that makes you brainless
it throbs thicker and heavier inside of you, every ridge and vein growing more prominent against your walls, stretching you the more it swells
taehyun breathes out a laugh, sharp canines and fangs on full display, an amused smile taking over his face. the sight of them makes your mark throb
you're just so sweet, it's ironic, really â because there's nothing vanilla about the way taehyun is about to fuck you
you exhale shaky moans as his mouth grazes and nips at your neck. "vanilla it is"
he pulls out until just the tip of his engorged cock is buried inside and you brace yourself, clinging onto him before he slams the entire length back in, setting a brutal pace
every push of his hips forward is a charged, powerful force, punching more air out of your lungs. a nervousness and excitement ripple through you, setting your insides on fire and driving your omega feral. she's been waiting for this, you've been waiting for this â and you let him take you the way he's been dying to since he met you
gruff grunts and moans tumble from his lips, no longer trying to contain his pleasure or his pride. you gasp softly when you hear him speak again, the sound vibrating through you
"little omega was so desperate for me to mark her, to claim her all for myself, hm?"
oh fuckâ
"saw the way you looked at me all week", he scoffs, eyes boring into yours and your breath catches in your throat
he chuckles, "watched you pretend like you weren't daydreaming about me fucking you open on this cock, making you cum all over it again and again, yeah?"
all you can do is cry and whimper in response
"your scent had me crazy", he groans, recalling the way tempting little curls of your arousal would linger around him. "always ready in case i changed my mind, little omega cunt was just begging for me to fuck you good"
you can't even bite back and tell him that he's wrong
"didn't even try touching yourself, did you, sweetheart? can't satisfy yourself the alpha does", he coos, the sound of skin slapping against skin resonating through the room
how'd he know? you thought you had been discreet, that you had done a good job at keeping your desire at bay
"and still so fucking impatient, squeezing me 'cause you can't wait for me to fucking ruin you. isn't that right, sweetheart?" â your stomach flips at his next words. "what should i do with you, hm?"
your hands grip tighter onto his arms, wrapping around his triceps pathetically
"think i should teach you patience", he leans down, breath hot against your ear. "i have an idea", he says, breaking into a dangerous grin
his head tilts as he pretends to think, length tearing through your cunt. you flutter pathetically around him, trying to prepare yourself for whatever consequence he is about to declare
"don't cum until i tell you to", he slows and your eyes widen. "if you don't, i'll go easy on you, but if you do," his eyes like pools of obsidian darken. "i get to make you cum as many times as i want. until you can't anymore"
you sob, but he cuts you off with a nip to your collarbone. "sounds good?"
you give in, barely able to utter a yes before his pace increases again â fast
this shouldn't be too hard. you can be good for him. you canâ
just when you think you can hold off, taehyun sits back, draping your legs over his thighs, angling himself to deliver perfect hip rolls right into your sweet spot â at an alarming speed too, tongueing at the corner of his mouth
you gasp, followed by a shrill wail, eyes rolling to the back of your head
no no no, not there. he'll have you cumming in record time if he keeps his unforgiving onslaught up
his eyes on you are wicked as he taunts, "that's it, that's the spot right there, hm?"
the obscene, slick cadence between your thighs become even louder as he fucks your releases back into you. it takes everything in you to not succumb to the raw pleasure, your pussy stuttering around him, breasts bouncing with every rock
you try to think about something, anything but the way he slams into you without mercy. "t-taehyun, i can'tâ"
"feels so good, doesn't it, sweetheart?" the earlier sweetness in his voice gone, replaced by a wicked taunt. "sweet little pussy can't resist when alpha fucks you like this. 'can feel you gripping my cock"
you shake your head no rapidly, his words almost making you slip
"still haven't given you permission to cum" he mocks. "but you're still going to do it, aren't you?"
your cunt's quivering obscenely with the effort of holding back and taehyun clicks his tongue, displeased â nostrils flaring slightly. he thrusts even harder, cock ramming against that yummy spot, caressing aggressively against your slippery walls
"no! pleaseâ oh please, taehyunâ"
you're reduced to a puddle of whimpery gasps, going cross eyed when his thumb caresses over your clit, drawing slick, expert circles over it that make your mind short-circuit. your knees draw together in an attempt to push him back, but he only pries them apart and you're so focused on not clamping down on his cock, you barely provide any resistance. a hand shoots to his wrist, desperately trying to pry him off, but to no avail. you're no match for his strength â your actions only making him press harder
you pant and flail, mewling when you feel him rub you just right
"fuck fuck fuckâ!" you burst with an inaudible cry
taehyun works your gummy insides until you gush, hot slick splattering from where he's ramming into you until every wave is ridden out â until your thighs are trembling and you're shaking helplessly as you try to come down. he purposely drags it out, until you whine and whimper for him to slow down. he makes sure you feel every pulse of your release and how you grip him, that you know he felt you shatter around his length â that you had enjoyed every second of it, even when you were trying to hold back
he lowers himself â your trembling hands bracing against his chest and you hide your face in his shoulder, still whimpering in the unending aftershocks
taehyun tsks, "such a dirty girl. can't even obey one command and cum when i tell her to"
"a-alphaâ"
his tone drops to a whisper that makes you gulp, "now i'm gonna make you cum as many times as i want"
god â and he does, he fulfills that promise
there are no thoughts in your head besides taehyun, his cock, his cum, his hands, lips and teeth on your skin and his beautiful, deep moans and grunts. it's all him
he's not much different than you, the only thing on his mind is you â your nails leaving marks all over his skin, your screams and cries, your pussy squeezing him tighter and tighter and your still quaking thighs. it all just made him want to fuck you harder. see just how far he can push you, turn you into his little cum-hungry, cock-addicted omega
his alpha rages at him to knock you up, to pump you so full of his cum you'll surely be pregnant by the end of this week. all that talk of yours earlier when you were on your knees â about having his pups only fuels him now
fuck and you just take it. you take all of him so well
you're so pliant, so obedient, so fucking unresisting and easy for him, he almost can't believe it. it doesn't help that you cry and beg for more more more â starved omega cunt just begging for his release again, milking him so good he thinks this must be what heaven feels like. you're just so slick, sticky, slippery and tight and he can already tell you're going to pull so many loads out of him
whatever refractory period you had with jungwon is non-existent with taehyun â he makes sure of that, pulling orgasm after orgasm out of you like it's an art he's mastered and excels in and fuck, you wouldn't blame him if he were to walk around with a massively inflated ego by the end of this week
you've lost count of the amount of times you've moaned and screamed, "don't stop" , "keep going" , "right there"
there's an old saying that an alpha can walk and talk however he likes if his omega's happy. god, you're a little more than just "happy" right now. you're out of your mind, ascending out of your body, addicted to the high he's got you on
he's fueled with coiled, simmering pride
you let him consume you, destroy you, ruin you, take you apart
you're unbelievably still turned on, ovaries rejoicing at the thought of harvesting more cum from him. you crave what you know only he can give you â and that is to fuck you full until you're sore
a dull ring cuts through you and taehyun's rough rousing â an urgent vibration shaking the nightstand on his side of the bed which you had claimed. you'd left your cellphone here for tonight's date, not having wanted any distractions, but it seems the person on the other side of the line is persistent
taehyun huffs in frustration, hips slowing only the slightest bit as he reaches for the device, turning the screen for you to see
your blood runs cold upon reading the caller-id
yang jungwon
along with a few more missed calls
"motherfucker", you hear taehyun curse under his breath, voice steely and laced with venom. "what the fuck does he want?"
"i- i don't knowâ taehyun!" a harsh thrust cuts off the whine. you don't understand. you had blocked him. he had no access to you. this didn't make anyâ
"answer it", taehyun suggests, tone light like he had simply asked you to peel an apple
"no, we shouldn'tâ" "pick up the call, sweetheart", he gives you a particularly hard thrust, eyes boring into yours compelling you to obey. with a shaky hand, you reach out and answer the call
"h-hello?" you blush at the way you desperately try â and fail â to keep your voice even
"pretty" â his voice sounds from the speaker and you shudder. "took you long enough to pick up"
taehyun bites back a growl, rutting his length harder into you instead. you bite down on your bottom lip in an attempt to keep your depraved noises and breaths at bay
"we're having another pack meeting soon. father expects you to be there and so do iâ what the fuck are you doing? â y/n?"
you catch taehyun's snarl. he hates the manner in which jungwon speaks to you, wanting nothing but to wring his neck at the tone and language the insolent alpha used
"think you should ask yourself that question. what the fuck do you think you're doing?" taehyun spits and you cling tighter onto him. "what are you doing calling my omega?"
you can almost see it, how jungwon has gone still on the other side of the line, stunned â but like the menacing devil he is, he decides to mask it by taunting taehyun further
"your omega? what makes you so sure of that?" it's your turn to snarl, a loud mewl cutting through jungwon's speech. "sooner or later, she'll come crawling back to me. it's all she knows, all she's good for"
jungwon's arrogance and confidence in his manipulative tactics and old tricks amuses taehyun, tickles him as he drags the phone to where jungwon has a clear, unmistakable sound, of the wet smack of your bodies colliding with one another
his hand settles against your throat, not applying any pressure, fingers simply resting there. the cool metal of his silver bracelet grazes your collarbone, drawing a soft gasp from you, enough to grab your attention. taehyun smiles triumphantly, an idea forming quick in his mind. if your thick-headed ex wouldn't believe him, he'll just make you tell him yourself
"tell him i claimed you, sweetheart", he commands, tone leaving no room for protest or disobedience
"heâ t-taehyun claimed me", you choke out around wanton gasps and whimpers
"tell him you belong to me"
"iâ i belong to himâ i belong to taehyunâ fuck! alphaâ!" you scream when his cockhead kisses your cervix, a delicious pressure thumping so fucking deep inside â deeper than jungwon could ever get
"tell him you're never going back to him"
"i'm never going back to youâ i'mâ iâ t-taehyunâ"
"that's right, sweetheart. that's my good girl", he praises, placing the softest of kisses to your lips â a stark contrast to the brutality of his thrusts
he clicks off the speaker, lifting your phone to his mouth. "you heard her loud and clear this time, jungwon. she's not in your pack anymore and she's not coming to your pack meeting", he growls, "she's mine."
shivers travel down your spine, your moans and cries becoming shameless
"call this number again and see what happens. i won't repeat myself next time", he ends the call before the alpha on the other end can respond, tossing the device somewhere on the bed and his rough fucking only increases. the hand on your throat squeezes now and your eyes roll back and flutter shut once more
the sound of the bed now banging against the wall barely registers to you
you just know that jungwon, wherever he finds himself, is fuming. he'd never been able to coax this level of submission out of you, never had you instantly obey every command of his like this
"he has the fucking audacity to call my omega"
your head spins at taehyun's uncovered possessiveness â oh, how you've been waiting for this day
"you wanted my pups, sweetheart?"
you're so, so far gone when your core ignites at the thought, words tumbling out before you can stop them. "y-yes alpha, please"
he only laughs, high on the power trip your willing submission gives him. "maybe i should give you my pups. show that fucker who owns you"
you clench hard around him at that and it only makes him scoff louder, a shiver racing down his spine at the possibility of getting you knocked up
"look at you. you like this, don't you? wanted alpha to fuck you like this since you first saw me, huh sweetheart?"
oh god oh god oh god
"y-yes, alpha! p-please, i'm gonnaâ"
you barely finish the sentence, nails digging into his triceps as another orgasm crashes into you, screams turned feral. he pistons harder, faster as you beg for him not to stop, to keep going. every push into your sopping warmth pushes you higher and higher up his bed, thrusts hard enough to shatter your pelvic bones and leave you crippled. you can only cry and wail as taehyun makes you cum again and then again, slick flowing and splattering, making an absolute mess of yourselves and the sheets
he sits up and a hard smack lands square on the side of your thigh. it snaps you out of your drunken haze for a mere second to catch onto what he says â commands in that low tone that leaves no space for disobedience
"not done with you yet", he slows to a stop. you want to whine and protest, awaiting his instruction eagerly. "turn around for me, ass up"
your pulse spikes â he's asking you to present
there's a moment of gentleness from him as he detangles himself from you, pressing a tender kiss to the inside of your knee
jungwon never did this. his rut was always an excuse for him to be rougher, to treat you harsher without consequence. taehyun's unexpected gentleness is new to you. compelled by the tugging in your heart and the affection that makes a home in your chest, you move quickly, settling yourself on all fours before lowering your torso to the mattress, arching your back to give him a clear view of your swollen pussy, glistening in yours' and his cum
one sweep of his gaze over you has the alpha reeling, cock aching with the need to knot you again
the first thing you feel are his lips on your backside â a lingering kiss and then another. his hands, reverent and careful accompany them, brushing along your skin in appreciation
"my perfect girl", he whispers and you almost tear up again
his lips make their way up your spine, hands circling warm around your waist before you feel his tip prod at your entrance
"safeword?", he asks, smearing your juices around your folds and sliding the length over your clit â creating a delicious squelch
you moan softly, "no, keep going"
another peck of his lips and then â "good girl", before he slides in all the way. you moan out, pushing your hips back onto him
taehyun's gaze drops between your bodies, drinking in the perfect, sinful arch of your back â pretty for him, the plush curve of your ass offered up to him and your cunt, glistening and greedy, swallowing his cock with a hunger that's nothing short of depraved, like you haven't had enough
the rolls of his hips are languid, slower now while he feels out your warmth, hands gripping harder at your waist, hips and ass. drawn out sighs and rough groans sound out from behind you and find yourself wishing you could see him like this, watch the way every muscle in his torso flexes with every delicious thrust, every precise hip roll
"alpha, more", you moan out again. you're sure you're drooling onto the sheets, arching deeper just for him
"more?", he asks, wavering
you can tell he's fighting with his alpha again, fighting the instinct to absolutely brute through your swollen, leaking cunt in this position. "fuck, y/n, i'm trying to give you a breakâ"
"make me take it"
he huffs â your words enough to flip that switch in him again. a dumb, blissful smile begins to form on your face as he takes you harder, meaner again. he can hear it in your voice: you're challenging him
you hear him snarl, hand wrapping around the back of your neck, pressing you further into the mattress
you're still so fucking mouthy, provoking him like this, just like you had in the restaurant
"still need to fuck the luna out of you, it seems", he tsks, breathing rugged, still fighting to hold back
"fuck yes taehyun don't stop", your eyes roll to the back of your skull when he angles his thrusts just right. taehyun growls, eyeing the bedframe that bangs hard against the wall, screws coming loose. "you're gonna make me cumâ!" you warn through heavy intakes of air, your hands clawing at the sheets only fueling his pursuit of bringing you to your high
"yeah? make a mess again?" he taunts and god, you can hear the smirk in his voice â like the way he's fucking you doesn't exert him, not even one bit
it doesn't help that the evidence of your pleasure drips down his balls which smack heavy and powerful against your swollen clit, every punch and drag of his cock rattling you into oblivion
"harder, alpha please!" you cry and he curses under his breath
"fuck, any harder than this and we're gonna break this bed, sweetheart"
the thought makes makes you pulse and squeeze tight around him, whimpering when his hands pull you back and forth firmer. fucking hell, you're just begging to be ruined
you open your eyes enough to glance at the headboard, your vision blurred by a mixture of tears, ruined mascara and the hair that's covered your face. you don't care about the bed or the headboard, you need him deeper, harder â need him to make sure you're unable to walk when he's done with you. an idea sparks in your mind, rebellious and defiant and you know taehyun in his rut won't be able to resist
you open your mouth to spew a threat, threat which backfires, because you learn a lesson very quickly: never challenge taehyun
"taehyun, if you don't fuck me through this mattressâ oh my god!"
the pounding collision of skin on skin cracks through the air. his hips batter hard against your ass, harder than he's ever taken you before and it's not long before you feel his tip slamming into your cervix
the crack in the headboard deepens with every collision of the bed with the wall
taehyun leans down, firm chest pressed to your back and his voice is sinister as he drawls, "this what you wanted, sweetheart? 'to finally shut you up?" his breath hot on your ear
all you manage are screams and mewls of his name, pathetic gasps and cries harmonizing with his guttural grunts
"fucking begging me to split you apart on this cock. what, now you can't take it?" his hips snap harder against yours, balls smacking more obscene against your sensitive clit
the thud of the bedframe becomes background noise to you, the only thing you're able to hear is him â his melodic moans that begin to blend with sexy, unfiltered grunts
a sharp spank makes you yelp, taking the sheets between your teeth â you feel and hear the silver on his wrist jingle with the impact
"c'mon, fuck yourself back on it", he growls
wet obscene squelches sound from between your thighs, taehyun's length glistening every time he pulls out all the way to the tip, slamming back in to the hilt. you squirm to obey him, please him, working your hips back onto his. your desperate little motions are weak, sad attempts at grinding backward into his lap, considering every thrust of taehyun's sends you stumbling forward. if not for his hands having a grip of steel on your hips and around your neck, you would certainly collide with the cracking headboard
your throat begins to feel raw, but you don't care. not when he's pounding away at your pussy, moulding your insides to his length â your throbbing cunt a dead giveaway of the thrill you find in his rough treatment, the friction against your walls both delicious and overwhelming
another spank!
"look at you. dripping with my cum and still asking for more. still so fucking tight too. haven't fucked you hard enough, have i?"
the filth only spurs your orgasm on. you feel his knot forming, every vein on the swelling length pulsing against your walls
"alphaâ! c-closeâ"
"yeah? go ahead. cum all over my cock 'cause thats the only thing you know how to do" he mocks and you revel in it
loud, ferocious moans and sobs are punched out of you with every thrust, his cock abusing that spongy spot, turning your brain into absolute mush. with another deliberate thrust against it, you let go, allowing your orgasm to take over and the pleasure to wrack you â every bone, fiber and muscle. you squeeze impossibly tight around him, almost preventing his thrusts, but he fucks you through it â strength and stamina never faltering, chasing his own release
you're shaking, knees wobbling where they're spread on the mattress, vision blurring with more tears. you hiss and clamp down tighter on him when both of his hands wrap around your throat
he delivers one, two then three brutal thrusts before the bed finally gives in, succumbing to the impact of his powerful slams, collapsing flat on the bedroom floor. a guttural grunt sounds from the depths of his chest as he spills into you, knot swelling to its full size
you squirm and whine at the stretch, "alpha! bâbigâ too bigâ!" â desperately trying to crawl away
taehyun stalks close after you, not allowing you to inch away, hands around your throat and the back of your neck firming. "take it", he growls against your ear
he leans forward â hard chest sweaty against your back, pressing as deep as he can possibly get. his cum â so much of it â pumps warm and copious into your womb as he lifts you, pulling you to sit up against him, tilting your head into a soul-stealing, smothering kiss. he continues to grind with force with you seated in his lap, groaning into your mouth. his strength alone lulls you into submission, humming and sighing sweetly against him, omega overjoyed at the feel of his cum spilling out around him
the two of you still, simply savoring the closeness between you, until your lungs burn with the need to breathe
his thumb brushes over your cheek when you part. you huff out a quiet laugh when you feel him, still impossibly hard inside you
"shit, sweetheart", he exhales, disbelieving of the fact that his body continually stays ignited for you
it had usually taken him a good couple of minutes to recuperate after popping a knot, even in rut
but with you â you keep him on fire and charged in a way that is new to him
he glances at the headboard and so do you, your eyes widening as you blink away the messy mixture of makeup and pleasure
multiple cracks and fractures line the frame â caved dark wood shattered against wall and a few stray screws scattered on the mattress and the floor, bolts hanging uselessly from the sad, flimsy excuse of a structure. the sight makes you gulp and it's taehyun's turn to breathe out a chuckle against your hair
"told you we were going to break the bed"
"oh my god", you chuckle with him, your turn to be in disbelief
you were situated significantly lower than you were moments ago, the foundation of the bed having caved too when the structure came tumbling down
and tonight is only the first night of his rut
he sighs, strained when his length twitches inside of the warmth of your walls. the rhythmic pulse of your cunt does little to distract taehyun from the urge to delve deep into you once more, even more so when you wiggle your ass in his lap
"want more", you hum, hand coming up to cup the back of his head, pulling him down for another kiss
taehyun wants to stop, wants to give you a break, but when you're still this desperate and needy for him, he can't resist. the kiss is filthy, sloppy as you both are fucked out, yet still humming like live-wires with overwhelming heat
his knot finally eases and your body shivers as taehyun carefully pulls out, smirking when his and yours releases spill warm from your entrance, ruining and coating his cock and the sheets. you feel strong arms encircle your waist and taehyun manhandles you to where he's lying down, pulling you on top of him, right into his lap
your mind reels with anticipation as you plant your palms flat on his solid chest. you've thought about this far too many times this week
â what it would be like to be on top, what it would be like to take charge, to make him lose his mind, make him lose control. you start to rock steady, sliding your folds along his cock and his hands come to settle on your hips
the room smells of sex, sweat and cum, akin to a hot beach day, this time tainted with vanilla and both of you are equally obsessed with it
his fingers trace over the softness of your thighs, trailing down to where you still need him. you feel a delicate touch to your folds, caressing you with gentle inspection
it's a stark contrast to his hips lifting in hard strokes against your wetness. you keen into his touch
"taehyun", you sigh out dreamily, "want you"
"i know, sweetheart" he purrs, gathering a mixture of your juices on the backs of his fingers. you protest when he brings them up to his mouth, tongue lapping out lazily against the digits
fuck, how does he manage to make everything look so sensual and tempting?
you watch his eyes roll to back of his skull, head lulling back with a groan. "we taste so good together" he moans and before you can stop him again, his hand is back between your thighs, scooping and lifting another dollop of the opalescent mixture to your mouth
"open up" he coaxes and your lips wrap around his fingers
you hum when the perfect blend of vanilla and mandarin, bittersweet and syrupy melts over your tongue, entrancing you immediately
your omega swoons as you feed off of his hand, even holding onto his wrist, tongue swirling around his fingers, suckling around the digits
"fuck", he curses under his breath with a proud smile. he's turning you into himself, making you every bit as obsessed as him
when you've cleaned his fingers well enough to your satifcation, you pop his hand out of your mouth, placing it around your throat instead. "alpha" you moan, "please", rocking against his length, meeting his strokes
he motions for you to lift as he takes ahold of his length, lining himself up with you and you sink down slowly â or so you think
your body meets his length with faint resistance and your face scrunches into that cute frown that makes taehyun coo, struggling to hold yourself up
he comes to your aid quickly, arms cupping under your thighs, holding you up with ease
"taehyun, you're s-so big" you huff out, cunt leaking over his cock
"easy sweetheart, take it slow" he instructs, slipping just the fat cockhead past your entrance. you gasp when your body opens up, when your pussy flutters around the thickness. that's the trick â when he talks you through it, your body attuned to the sound of his voice
"keep talking" you blush and a knowing, triumphant grin breaks out on his face
he gathers you in his arms, pressing a kiss to your nape once you're close. his voice, like silk drawls right against your ear. "yeah? stay right there â just the tip. work just the tip for me. just like that"
holy fuck, you nearly moan
you love when he talk to you like this. it's the sexiest thing ever â and it doesn't help that his tip and your folds make these squelching sounds, similar to wet suctioning kisses every time you slide it in and out. you're panting at this point, drunk on him and bewitched by his patient guidance
"that's it. hear that, sweetheart? sound so perfect f'me" he nips at your flesh
you clutch onto his shoulders when he continues, "now work in another inch for me. yeahâ good girl"
the praise sends a flood between your thighs, making the slip easier. you have no idea how taehyun is holding back, considering he looks and sounds just as worked up as you
he can see it in your eyes, your body language. you're eager for him, all of him. you just need to take it slow, for now. he works another few inches inside, arms and hands guiding you along his cock. the length accidentally slips out with a lewd slap, sliding against your clit and you gasp, small and soft
taehyun's self restraint's now hanging on by a thin thread. your omega calls for his alpha, begging him to just brute through your walls and fill your womb with his seed. the lewd noises get louder, increasing in rhythm as you rock faster with his help, guiding him to your entrance once more and you sink down fully, taking the entirety of his length in
you whimper pathetically. you don't think you'll ever get used to the stretch and pressure of him â and he hits much deeper in this position
his hands now settle around your waist, ready to start his own pace when you sit back up and begin working him. sweat gathers on his forehead, bearing his teeth as his lower abdomen burns. his hands brush his hair back, biceps bulging with the action and you pulse around him at the flex, especially when he sighs breathily, placing his hands behind his head, giving you that slow once over
you begin to rock onto him, lifting your hips enough to bounce. a loud and wanton moan sounds from you at the feel, the press of him only deeper. you do it again and then again, fueled by the visual of taehyun laid out so irresistibly beneath you, bottom lip tucked between his teeth, dimple protuding
he watches you like a hawk, brows drawing in an unimpressed line. his voice is gruff when he speaks this time. "so are you going to let me take over or are you just gonna keep bouncing until you can't anymore?"
all you do is moan out, stubborn and drunk on his cock. you don't want his help. you want to prove a point, make him feel good too, show him you can be in charge
you lift once more and the drag of him, every ridge and vein brushes deliciously against your walls, plopping down again, sinking him balls deep. the soft slap of skin against skin nearly makes you drool. you can feel him in your stomach, tip reaching deeper and deeper with every bounce, increasing your pace
but fuck, you can't deny the way your thighs do start to burn, the way you struggle to bounce consistently at the speed that you want, the speed that you need
when taehyun decides he's had enough of watching you labour, his hands grip hard onto your hips
"let me take over" he grunts, thrusting upward to prove his point. your brows furrow, mouth dropping open. god, it's so much more powerful than your pitiful attempts at riding him
you slide him in and out, hips seeking more friction, but your legs are numb â weak and tired from your previous orgasms
you're still stubborn â you just want to please him. he's pleased you so much, taken charge every time. you've always had to prove yourself to jungwon. it's no surprise you feel like you have to do the same for taehyun
he can see you struggling, hears you babbling about making him feel good, taking charge, wanting to return the favor, please him like an omega should
that ticks him off
he knows what this is about â and he wants to strip you of your need and guilt to give back to him and return the favor for taking care of you. that selfish fucker probably trained you into doing all the work, into "proving" yourself to him. the thought just makes taehyun red-hot and angry all over again
his nostrils flare and he plants his feet flat on the bed, hips bucking up hard and knocking you forward. you release a sharp gasp. "taehyunâ!" you want to scold him, but your voice projects itself as a mere whine
he does it again and again, slow and deep, every thrust increasing in speed. his hand wraps around your throat again, bringing you close to speak directly in your ear. "i'm not letting you be in charge" he growls, hips beginning to piston up. you mewl, gripping onto his forearm, feeling the hard muscles flex beneath your fingers
oh how taehyun loves your flimsy grip, like you don't know if you want him to push you harder or pull away and relent
every hard thrust tempts you into submission. you feel the control slipping from your fingers. "i want to please you alphaâ! i need toâ"
the sound of a sharp spank! resonates through the room and you jolt, tucking your bottom lip between your teeth. he's jackhammering up, pushing perfect hip rolls into your sweet spot
"how many times do i have to tell you, you don't have to do any work with me?"
"i just want be good for you, alpha" you cry, tears forming along your waterline as your eyes plead with his. taehyun softens. he knows where this is coming from, knows jungwon has manipulated you in the past, that he undoubtedly made you feel like you weren't good enough in bed
over taehyun's dead fucking body
"i know, sweetheart" he soothes, still knocking into you mercilessly. "you don't have to prove anything to me"
this time, you do let it out, heart clenching behind your ribcage. warm tears trail down your face and he's quick to wipe them away
"you're being so good for me already. just want you to sit pretty and let alpha make you feel good, okay?" he instructs. "can you do that for me?"
you sob and nod, not trusting your voice
"there we go"
his pace only picks up from this point and you're rendered brainless, cunt crying and dripping around his cock as he takes you like this, as he brings you to another orgasm. he draws an endless stream of whimpers and cries from your throat as he watches you closely, seeing you lose yourself to the pleasure
that familiar smug grin returns in an instant
"he had you working hard, huh?" taehyun scoffs and you squeak when his arm tightens around your waist, the other around your throat, steering you more fervently on his cock. "this is how i like you. with me you just have to take it, sweetheart"
your mind reels at the filth he begins to spew at you, pussy fluttering with more slick
"just have to let alpha fuck you good"
"there she is, opening up for me nicely"
"pussy can't get enough of me, huh? cock-obsessed girl. can't stop cumming on it, can you, sweetheart?"
"pretty little thing can only think of getting fucked hard and split apart on this cock"
your moans have become obscene, slutty, drawn-out. your lip is tucked cruelly between your teeth and you bite down so hard you taste something metallic
he's driving you insane
you can barely keep up, recovering from one orgasm and then tumbling into the next. you can only register his voice, his cock fucking you relentlessly, without falter, his hands gripping and guiding your hips, rock hard abs flexing beneath your fingers every time you lose balance, placing them anywhere you can reach on his torso
"tell me how much you love my cock"
"love your cock so much alpha, want it all the time" you sob, thighs shaking
"tell me you don't want me to stop"
"don't want you to stopâ fuck! taehyun, i'm gonna comeâ"
"that's right, sweetheart. come for me. come all over this cock"
you release around him at the command, moans increasing in volume when he doesn't stop, only driving up higher. you're close again within seconds, every gaspy inhale a telltale sign. taehyun's brows are furrowed in concentration, abs flexing with every thrust upward into your quivering, sopping cunt
his lip's caught between his teeth, keeping a close eye on your face. he hisses when he feels you clamping down again, fucking more precise into that spot that has you seeing stars, that has you crying out louder and has your nails digging into his skin
this orgasm is going to ruin you â catching up to you fast
you're a flustered mess on top of him, unable to formulate a proper thought â pussy swelling and throbbing around him obscenely
he's hitting all the right spots repeatedly, mercilessly and the pressure in your lower belly becomes too much to contain
"c'mon sweetheart, don't hold back. come for alpha. yeah, just like that, fuuuckâ"
you let go again, this time with an earth shattering cry, slick squirting abundantly from between your thighs. your eyes squeeze shut, completely losing your balance as your orgasm slams into you. taehyun's arms wrap around your shaking body in an instant, sitting up and cradling you to his chest
you sob as your pussy continues to spasm wildly around his cock, unable to stop gushing and quivering. taehyun moans deep, hissing through his teeth at the feel. your arms loop around his shoulders as he eases in and out, much slower
"that's it, easy girl. take deep breaths for me" he soothes, a hand stroking through your hair
he holds you until the shaking stops, until the very last shiver wracks your body and you're able to put together a sentence
your face is burried in his shoulder while you still gasp for air, completely and utterly ruined. he places a kiss against your hair. "good girl, cry it out" and then â "you still with me?"
you huff out a laugh, nodding. "j-just give me a minute" you manage while trying to catch your breath. "holy shit, taehyun. you almost snatched my soul"
you feel the rumble in his chest against yours when he chuckles deeply, "that's the plan, sweetheart"
god. he's a sorcerer, you're convinced of it â using his magic to ensnare every fiber of your being. he cups your face, bringing your lips to his in a proud kiss. "you came so good for me. fuck, the bed's a mess"
you both chuckle through uneven breaths as you look around you and indeed, the sheets are crumpled, soaked and stained in cum and pleasure. when your eyes return to his, you don't fail to notice the fire still behind them. your gaze drops to his mouth when he draws you in again and again and you huff as he simply gives you loud, exaggerated pecks instead of deepening the kiss
"taehyun" you whine and he laughs at how fussy you've become. you're just so easy to tease
"safeword?" he asks once you've gathered your breath and you hope the way your walls squeeze around his still hard length is enough of an answer, his teasing enough to get you needy again
just how many rounds can taehyun go?
you slot your lips with his, whispering against them, "no. keep going" and he flips you back over, this time pressing his mouth against yours with more fervor, tongue meeting yours with urgency
you're sensitive, so sensitive when he pulls out, carefully pushing back in. you find yourself grateful you and taehyun had gotten your contraception taken care of earlier this week. your omega still craves his knot, knowing he has plenty of cum loads to give, not wanting a single drop to go to waste
a hand curls into his hair, allowing him to press you into the mattress as he begins to move again, slow
you wrap your legs around his waist, drawing him closer as he finally deepens his kiss, humming into your mouth. your ankles press into the backs of his thighs, urging him to give you more â and he does, building a faster rhythm. your moans and whimpers spur him on and it's not long before he's fucking the thick, heavy length into you, building you up to another release, chasing his own
he hits deeper with every thrust, tip kissing your cervix and he grunts into your mouth. your walls clench around him, longing for another orgasm, longing for his knot and for his thick cum to fill you
everything was going good, every second had felt good, but suddenly, it was all too overwhelming, too much, too deep
you whimper shakier against his mouth, nails raking along his shoulders
you can hold out. you can be good for him, you tell yourself. you still want him, don't want him to stop. it's just too fast and too deep all at once
"h-hurts" you choke out, immediately regretting the word the second it slips out of your mouth
your eyes squeeze shut as taehyun lifts himself onto his palms, brows furrowing as he hovers over you. ever-attentive, he immediately slows down. "it's not supposed to hurt, sweetheart. give me the safeword and i'll stop, right now"
you wrap your thighs tighter around him. "noâ please don't stop. i-i meant, it hurts so goodâ"
your words don't convince him this time. "y/n, it shouldn't be hurting at all"
you bite down on your bottom lip, tears welling behind your closed eyelids. taehyun won't have that. "open your eyes, look at me sweetheart" he coaxes you open with a hand cupping your face. you do as he asks with mild difficulty
one look into your eyes has the realization dawning on him
"did he hurt you like this?"
the question pained him to ask, like he knew what the answer would be â and that it would wreck him. his concerned gaze searches yours. you can't find your voice so all you manage is a nod and a sob
for the first time in a long time, taehyun feels his heart break
that absolute motherfucker. who could ever want to hurt you? your alpha momentarily sees red. he should tear jungwon to shreds. if taehyun wasn't stuck in rut, he'd be at that pack house by tomorrow morning, murdering enha-pack's head alpha â and he'd make sure there'd be nothing of him left
anger, hurt and sorrow burns in his chest for you. you never deserved this. how could he hurt you like this? how could anyone hurt you like this? â and worse, how could he convince you that this was okay?
taehyun wordlessly shakes his head, slowing down even more
you protest, voice meek, "taehyun, i want you to feel goodâ"
"no"
it's soft, but final and loaded with emotion and it quiets you immediately
"please y/n. just do as i say" he almost begs. "feel me, right here, sweetheart" he presses down on the outline of him in your lower belly, working against your sweet spot. it's slow and deep, but this time, not deep enough to hurt â just enough to feel good and turn your brain into mush
your eyes flutter shut. "t-taeâhyunnnâ" you moan his name, feeling a different kind of overwhelm
"tell me how it feels" he coaxes, voice low and gentle. he watches you closely, eyes following the way you bite down on your lip and the way tears begin to cascade down your temples
"it f-feels good, so good alpha" you breathe out between gasps and whimpers
"doesn't hurt at all? you don't need me to slow down more?"
"no, this is perfect"
"there we go, sweetheart. this is how you should feel, every single time. this is what the safeword is for" he informs, working against that mouthwatering spot again and again, so slow and steady and you feel your orgasm building and approaching once more
your warmth's spilling slick, so much of it and you're moaning uncontrollably through your sobs and tears, wet squelches of your pleasure reaching yours and taehyun's ears
"it's not about meâ fuck, it's never just about me. it's about us, feeling good together, you hear me?"
you give him a small nod, but it's not enough for him. "open your eyes, look at me sweetheart, please"
he needs you to understand this, to grasp and relearn it until you've internalized it
it doesn't matter if he's in rut or not. what he wants doesn't matter if it's not what you want. he needs you to know and understand that he'll only ever feel good when you feel good
you do as he asks, finding his eyes. obsidian, deep and warm is fixed on you, thumbs wiping away your tears
"understand?" he tries again and you nod, "yes, alpha. i understand"
"that's my good girl" he affirms, placing the most featherlight kiss against your lips that completely melts your resolve and etches away your unease and pain
"i love you" he whispers against your lips as you breathe him in, brows furrowed in seriousness
the confession makes your breath hitch, eyes flickering between his
"i don't ever want to hurt you. you let me know when i do. i don't care if i have to hold myself back. is that understood?" he asks, a hand sliding down to your little bundle of nerves. your body sings, arching into him, into his slow, long strokes
you focus hard on not letting your eyes roll to the back of your skull. "y-yes, alphaâ oh my godâ" you choke out, mind numbing on the pleasure he brings to you
"good girl. now cum for me again. show alpha how good you feel"
taehyun doesn't even have to finish the command. you're already spasming around him, milking him for all he's worth â the sound of his name on your tongue a prayerful whisper. your hands clutch onto his arms as he talks you through it, talks you through the shakes, the aftershocks and the high. "there we go, let it all out for me, sweetheart"
he groans, slotting his lips to yours and your heart soars
you don't fight more tears from falling. so this is it. this is what it feels like to be made love to â to be loved selflessly
taehyun had placed you far above himself. even in rut, he still considers you more important, his first priority. he never wants to be the cause of your discomfort and pain, never wants you to go through any of what you've gone through in your previous relationship
you cum for what feels like forever, taehyun knowing just how to prolong every ounce of your pleasure, making sure to set a new standard
not too long after, you feel him spill into you, knot locking him into place. he presses soft kisses to you, arms wrapping themselves snug around your waist, holding you close. he cradles your trembling body warm in his embrace. only when you come down, does he lift his head, finding a blissed little smile on your face
glassy eyes stare up at his adoring ones and he bares his teeth in a smile of his own
"i love you" he repeats it once more
it comes out bearing weight, like a promise and your entire being keens and dips into warmth
he'd compliment you right now, tell you how beautiful you look like this, how perfect you are for him, but a compliment simply wouldn't suffice, wouldn't come close to describing the feeling in his chest â when you trusted him enough like this to lay yourself and your soul bare before him
he had to let you know
you've ruined him, utterly and completely â and he'd celebrate and cherish your vulnerability every single time
until you understood, until you just knew, until you allowed the knowledge of his love to become a part of you â to envelope you until there is no more fear and uncertainty left, only the sense of home
you swallow the lump in your throat, arms hugging around the wings of his back. "i love you too" you confess
he shivers, your voice washing over him and he steals your breath as his head dips and your lips meet once more
you thought you had gotten close to taehyun in the days that had passed, but you feel closer to him now more than ever â right here, in the warmth and safety of his arms, attuned to every word of affirmation that spills from his mouth â a neverending song of his devotion. the one genre he never seems to run out of, notes and keys that rewire your brain and your heart
you've finally become one with him, in every sense of the phrase
when his knot goes down, he carefully withdraws from your warmth
your lips are still caught together, limbs still tangled and more i love you's are whispered between dreamy sighs and giggles. he's content just seeing you like this
his skin is still feverish, heat radiating off of him in waves as you stay wrapped around each other. he laughs when you tease him with a mischievous question
"you think you broke your record?" you ask and he answers you with a smitten little hm?
"âŠhow many times you could make me cum" you add, chuckling again when he laughs. you'd coo at him, tell him how cute he looks smiling from ear to ear and his dimple protudes â but you know where that will lead you
it seems you don't have to, however. taehyun already beats you to it. his voice lowers to where he's right by your ear, a low rumble which sends tingles down your spine
"oh sweetheart, i'm far from done with you"
oh god
your breath hitches as he continues, "i just think we need to take a little break." a piece of your hair is tucked behind your ear and he doesn't hesitate to capture your lips with his again, tongue sweeping into your mouth. you let him kiss you silly, moaning softly as your hands roam over his skin
he's beautiful â honey-like skin glimmering with perspiration, coated in your scent. equally yours as you are his. he's large and broad in your hands, firm too and you find that you'll never tire of the feel of him beneath your fingertips
his hands wander too, cupping and kneading the flesh of your breasts and thighs where he can reach, groaning in appreciation into your mouth
it doesn't last long before taehyun feels a stirring, burying his head into the nape of your neck. you're about to ask him what's wrong, when you feel it â he rests heavy and hard against your lower belly, precum leaking warm onto your skin
he's panting, heatwaves wracking his body and his teeth clench. your brows knit together when his forehead rests on your collarbone. "alphaâ?"
"it's okay, sweetheart. i can take care of this one myself" he strains, throbbing painfully against you. another pained groan escapes him and you cup his face, making him look at you
"let me help, please" you offer. "you won't hurt me" you give him a small peck
his pupils dilate, alpha raging to take over at the sound of your voice so soft and sweet â but still, taehyun refuses to give in. "it's fine, i can justâ fuck y/n"
your hand slides down between your bodies, wrapping around his aching, leaking length
"come on, taehyun" you purr, stroking him up and down, body beginning to pulse with a newfound need for him already â mate-bond claim making you adjust instinctively to his needs. "i can take it"
your voice is bathed in seduction and taehyun curses himself, curses his nature and his rut for getting turned on so easily
he's a goner when you guide his tip to your entrance, sliding him up and down your slit, right between your soaked, puffy folds. the alpha curses under his breath when you hum sweetly, bucking your hips to work him against your little bundle of nerves
his hand on the mattress fists in the sheets, caving at last. "need to clean you up first. shower?"
your heart warms, he's always wanting to take care of you. you clench around nothing, "yes, please â and afterward, we take this to the spare"
he snickers in response, "trying to break the bed there too?"
"doesn't sound like a bad idea to me. besides" you purr, "we'll still have the couch", you kiss below his ear, "the kitchen counter", below his jaw, "the walls", against his throat, "the floors. a little housewarming for meâŠall week long"
you feel his jaw clench, hands on your body tightening. you just love riling him up, he thinks. "now that's an idea i'll gladly take"
"yeah? show me" you hum, breathless when he slots his lips together with yours, taking his bottom lip between your teeth, eliciting a sexy groan straight from his chest
oh you love how easy it is to switch him on when he's in rut
he disconnects your lips only to whisper against them, "we're seriously taking a break after the shower, though"
"fine" you respond and his tongue slips into your mouth again, devouring every sound you make. his arms curl around you, ready to lift you when a ringtone sounds from the bedside table, stopping him in his tracks. he pulls off and you whine at the loss. "i fucking swear, if it's that fucker againâ"
"yeonjun?" you both voice in confusion upon reading the caller-id
taehyun sighs heavy, and this is why being next in line for head alpha is not the best position to be in. he wonders briefly how soobin does it, answering the call
"tyun! i uhâ i need your helpâ"
"you have about thirty seconds 'till i hang up. make it quick"
the deep octave of his voice sends another shiver down your spine and you gasp as his tip slides over your clit, biting back a moan as he teases over the little bundle of nerves. you motion for taehyun to flip the two of you over and he does, watching you kiss a hot little trail down his body
"thirty seconds?! okay, uhhâ! so i've told you i met my mate at the party and we've been talking for a bit. we've hung out since then, but i don't want toâ i don't know, rush anything orâ"
he pays the alpha on the other line little mind, sliding a hand into your hair, a dangerous grin forming on his face as he gives you that loaded once over. he follows you, sitting up and your hand scrambles to grab his phone. you squeak into his shoulder as he lifts you, making his way to the bathroom
"get to the point, yeonjun. i'm losing my patience here"
he takes the phone out of your hand, placing it on the basin counter and turning on the shower. you're pressed against the shower wall in record time, tempted to wrap your legs around him and let him slide into you, to have him take you again, slow and deep. instead, you shimmy yourself out of his arms, wordlessly sinking to your knees just like you did earlier tonight. you almost forget about your friend on the line when you take him into your hands, the length throbbing as you stroke him, pace agonizing to his rut-clouded mind
"how do i plan a date?" yeonjun's voice echoes through the space
that's enough to stop both of you in your tracks. your eyes meet, wide with half desire and impatience, half excitement for your friend
â but you're impatient, squeezing your hands around him as you lather his cock in the precum that's leaked from his tip. the last of taehyun's resolve crumbles, thrusting shallowly into your tight hold. it's not long before you sheath him into your mouth, hollowing your cheeks with every inch you take
"fuck, i'll get back to you in an hour, yeah? do me a favor and hang up. my hands are occupied"
"tyun, manâ don't do this to me! i really need your helpâ"
you see him snarl. he can't resist you much longer. your mouth is just so eager and warm, lips stretched around him, still so eager to please him despite having taken him for hours. he's usually a patient alpha, but that wears thin when his rut is coursing through his veins â the primal need to stuff you full of his cum, until it spurts out of your nose, returns in no time
he draws all the way back, pushing back in, fat cockhead hitting the back of your throat. you're unable to suppress the loud gags and moans that spill from you as he sets a brutal pace, eyes rolling to the back of his skull
the realization dawns on yeonjun. "holy shit?! y/n? fuck dude, i'm sorryâ"
"yeonjun, hang the fuck up" taehyun growls and you can't help but whimper at his possessive tone. you're too far gone, drowning out their voices as you continue to suck and slurp around the heavy length
you peer up, humming around him when you see his head tipped back, water droplets cascading in hurried streams down his muscular torso, an arm braced against the shower wall over your head for stability â steam curling around him and the bathroom light creating a halo around his silhouette
"right! shitâ i'll call you back!" the line finally goes dead and your alpha groans
"he seriously needs to work on his call timing" taehyun huffs, curling his fingers more firmly into your hair and you squeak. you giggle dumbly when he pulls back for a few seconds, allowing you to breathe. "agâgreedâ" you splutter around the glossy mixture that drips from your lips before taking him into your mouth again, bobbing your head faster, meeting his ruts
he grunts and moans deeply, chanting your name as the band in his abdomen ignites like a wildfire. he can barely focus with you swallowing and licking around his length so fervently, massaging his balls in your hands on the upstroke, intent on making him cum
a gentle tap against your cheek makes your eyes refocus and your breath hitches upon surveying the look in his eyes. the obsidian irises are almost boba-like â warm and filled with adoration, a look only reserved for you and your own gloss over
"i love you" the declaration spills from him, overwhelming and clouding his mind just like it had earlier
these are the words that rewire you, until all you know is this: how to be loved and cherished. he'll remind you, every single time, no matter how long it takes for him to rewrite the phrase to you
despite the water overhead steaming, goosebumps erupt over your skin. your heart warms, dazed smile on your face widening, tears gathering in your waterline
"i love you too, taehyun" you whisper in return when you ease back to take in another deep breath, heart pounding in your chest as his thumb strokes lovingly over your cheek
he chuckles endearingly at how dazed you are, pressing down on your bottom lip
"that's my good girl. best girl i could've ever asked for" he praises before cupping his hands around your face and pulling you up, slotting his lips together with yours and you melt when his arms wrap around you. this time, you do ask him to take you, you do ask him to make love to you again and you preen when he scoops you into his arms once more, wrapping your legs around his waist
in his arms and hands are where you writhe, soar, let go â and it'll be in his arms and hands forever where he'll continue to unravel you, undoing every threaded pain of the past and replacing it with something gentle
and in this moment you knew â you simply knew that this is where you could rest your soul â here. with him, with the one whom the moon goddess has destined you to be with
your alpha, your mate
your taehyun
for the rest of your days
scznote: that brings us to the end of the alpha!taehyun series! i would love to know all of your thoughts and your fav lines & details! don't be shy to comment or reblog! with that said, stay tuned! x
pairing: dr. choi beomgyu (neurology) x dr. reader (cardiology)
warnings/tags: doctor au, medical au, neurology x cardiology, hospital, enemies to lovers, fluff with smut, slow burn, workplace romance, neurosurgeon beomgyu, cardiologist reader, soft dom!beomgyu, established relationship, explicit, use of the petname âbabyâ
synopsis: you're the youngest doctor at the hospital, and you've worked hard for it. no patience for pretty brained surgeons who think they own the place. dr. choi beomgyu is exactly that. wonderful, annoying, with hands that can save lives at three in the morning but apparently can't stop stealing your coffee almost all the time.
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you've been fighting for two years. trading insults in hallways, pretending you don't notice how his scrubs fit or how he bites his lip like it hurts when he's reading your charts.
but when a bad night brings you together, things change because beomgyu doesn't want to fight with you anymore. he wants to know why you drink black coffee, why you have ink on your hands all the time, and why your heart beats fast when he's close.
and you? you're starting to wonder if his hands are really as skilled in bed as they are in surgery.
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the first time you meet dr. choi beomgyu, he's inside someone's head and you're trying to keep a patient alive.
not you personally. the patient. a kid on a motorcycle who hit a wall quite hard. you'd been called from your afternoon appointments to get to the trauma room. you arrived to find chaos.
"where's the brain doctor?" you snapped at the nurse, already gloved up.
"in surgery," she called back. "car accident, head injury, they took him up twenty minutes ago."
"and the other brain doctor?"
"stuck in another surgery. we've got the trainee covering, but..."
but. there was always a but in trauma case. you checked the patient yourself, confirmed the tear in his heart, stabilized him enough for the scan, then walked up to the surgery floor because if you were going to fix this kid's heart, you needed to know what his brain was doing first.
that's when you walked into the operating room without knocking, and found him.
he was young. younger than you expected for a brain surgeon with his reputation. top of his class, trained overseas, recruited back to build their strict program. you'd heard the gossip in the break room, the way the nurses sighed, the way even the tough emergency doctors spoke about him with respect.
he was also, unfortunately, gorgeous.
not in a soft way. in a sharp, and dangerous way. dark hair under his cap, focused doe eyes above his mask, long fingers working with a gentleness that seemed impossible given what he was doing. he was doing brain surgery, you realized, relieving pressure with movements so perfect they looked practiced a thousand times.
"pressure's dropping," the anesthesiologist said.
"give me two more minutes," beomgyu murmured, not looking up. his voice was lower than you expected, warm even through the mask. "i need to get this last clot."
you should have left. you should have waited outside, checked the board, found the trainee. instead, you stood there, frozen in the doorway, watching his hands move. steady, unshakeable, confident in a way that made something low in your stomach tighten immediately.
he finished, finally, stepped back, and only then did he look up. his eyes found yours immediately. dark, smart, stripping you bare.
"can i help you?" he asked, and there was something almost amused in his tone, like he knew exactly who you were.
"dr. choi," you said, and your voice came out steadier than you felt. "i'm dr. y/n, heart specialist. i need to know your patient's brain status before i fix his heart. if he's not going to wake up, i need to know now."
something flickered in his expression. surprise, maybe, or interest. he pulled down his mask, revealing a mouth that was unfairly shaped, soft lower lip and sharp teeth that showed when he smiled.
"dr. y/n," he repeated, like he was tasting your name. "the wonder kid from cardiology. i've heard about you."
"and i've heard about you," you replied. "the whole hospital has. something about a terribly handsome man and stealing people's coffee."
the nurses went very still. the anesthesiologist looked like she was trying to disappear.
but beomgyu laughed. it was a startled sound, and it changed his whole face from cold to something warm and approachable, being much more dangerous.
"i only steal the espresso," he corrected, pulling off his gloves. "and only when it's been sitting there for more than ten minutes. when itâs been abandoned."
"is that what they really teach these days? theft 101?"
"advanced theft, actually. with a minor in not taking shit from heart doctors who barge into my operating room." he stepped closer, and you realized with a jolt that he was tall, taller than you, which was rare, and he was using it to crowd your space in a way that should have been rude but instead felt like a difficult challenge. "my patient will wake up. brain activity is good, pupils responsive, and no brain death signs. i'll have him stable within the hour. does that meet your standards, dr. y/n?"
âyes.â you responded.
you turned and walked out then, spine straight, with your heart pounding against your ribs in a way that had nothing to do with caffeine and everything to do with the way he looked at you.
that was two years ago.
now, standing in the break room at 6:47 in the morning on a tuesday, staring at the empty coffee pot where your coffee should be.
"looking for something?"
you don't turn around. you know that voice now. you know it in your sleep, unfortunately, you know the way it drops when he's tired, you know the way it sharpens when he's about to say something seriously cutting.
"my coffee," you say, keeping your eyes on the empty machine. "which someone drank. all of it. again."
"how tragic," beomgyu says, and you hear him moving behind you, the sound of his shoes on the floor. he's close now. "you know, there's a solution to this."
âenlighten me, doctor."
"make your own coffee. orâŠjust throwing this out there, learn to share."
you turn then, and he's right there, leaning against the counter with his arms crossed, he looks tired. dark circles under his eyes, because he's been practically living at the hospital. there was a burst blood vessel last night, you heard. emergency surgery at two in the morning.
"you look like hell," you tell him.
"you look like someone who needs caffeine," he returns, and then he's reaching past you, into your personal space, brushing your shoulder with his arm, then retrieving a thermos from behind the microwave. he holds it out. "here. i made extra."
you stare at it. then you stare at him.
"what's the catch?"
"no catch. i'm being nice."
"you're never nice."
"i'm nice sometimes." he shakes the thermos, and you can hear the liquid inside. âno sugar. i've noticed you don't take sugar. probably because you're already sweet enough."
"that's disgusting," you say, but you're taking the thermos from his hand anyway. "was that a line? did you just try to flirt with me using coffee?"
"did it work?"
you unscrew the lid, then take a sip. it's perfect. exactly how you take it, exactly the right temperature, and the fact that he knows this, that he's memorized all of this without you even realizing, makes something flutter in your chest that you blatantly ignore.
"it was mediocre at best," you lie.
beomgyu smiles, slow and knowing. "you're a terrible liar, dr. y/n. has anyone ever told you that?"
"has anyone ever told you that you have boundary issues?"
"daily. usually by you." he pushes off the counter, and for a second you think he's going to leave, but instead he shifts, trapping you between the counter and his body in a way that should feel threatening but instead feels warm. "i have a consult in twenty minutes. patient with heart problems after brain bleeding. large bleed in the head, heart enzymes through the roof, and heart function down to thirty percent. your department's already involved, but i wanted to give you a heads up personally."
this is how it is with him. professionalism wrapped in closeness. you've learned to separate the doctor from the man, but some days the line blurs more than others.
he's looking at your mouth now, which you realize immediately, and you should move before it becomes something else, but you don't. you never do. "dinner," he says suddenly.
"what?"
"dinner. tonight. after rounds? there's a soup place near hongdae that stays open late, and i'm starving, and so are you. i'm tired of eating alone in the break room while you glare at me from across the table."
"that's not..."
"it is.â he glare. it's very intimidating.
you should say no. you've been saying no for two years, or at least you've been saying not yet, not now, not while we're colleagues. but his eyes are soft underneath all the annoying teasing, and you can see the exhaustion there, the loneliness that comes with being good at something that requires everything from you.
"just dinner," you say, and you're not sure if you're warning him or yourself.
beomgyu's smile this time is different. more real, something that reaches his eyes and stays there.
"just dinner," he agrees. "i'll meet you at the south entrance. 8:30. don't stand me up, dr. y/n. i have a fragile ego."
"you'll live," you say, but you're smiling too, and he sees it, and his expression shifts into something that looks a lot like hope.
he leaves then, finally, and you stand alone in the lounge with your coffee and your racing heart and the feeling that you've just crossed a line you can't uncross now.
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the patient is a disaster.
not the brain part. beomgyu fixed the bleeding by 10:00 in the morning. you spend six hours in the intensive care unit adjusting medications, watching the heart images closely.
you consider canceling. you're exhausted, covered in sweat, and your hair falling out of its tie. but when you check your phone, there's a text from an unknown number. "south entrance. i'll be the one in the leather jacket looking pathetic. don't worry, i showered. -b" and something in your chest loosens.
you change quickly, washing the hospital smell from your skin and changing into the spare clothes you keep in your locker. you catch a glimpse of yourself in the mirror and wince. you look like what you are. a doctor who's been awake for twenty hours, pale and bruised under the eyes, too thin because you keep forgetting to eat.
but beomgyu has seen you worse. beomgyu has seen you at three in the morning with blood on your scrubs and tears in your eyes because you lost a patient. he has seen you furious, you grieving, you competent and cruel. this tired woman is probably the most honest version of yourself you've ever shown to someone.
the south entrance is quiet at night, just the glow of the emergency lights and the occasional taxis passing. you see him before he sees you. leaning against the wall, he's on his phone.
then he looks up, and sees you and that smile that spreads across his face is so open, so relieved.
"you came," he says, pushing off the wall.
"you invited me."
"i invite you a lot. you usually find reasons to be busy." he falls into step beside you, and you're walking now, away from the hospital, into the night air that smells like rain. "how's our patient?"
"stable. for now. we'll need to watch her for the next two days. rebleed risk, blood vessel spasms. but her heart's recovering."
"because of you."
"because of medicine," you correct, but you're pleased despite yourself. "your surgery was clean. no leftover problems. she'll wake up if the brain lets her."
"that's the trick, isn't it?" beomgyu says, and there's something sad in his tone. "we fix what we can reach. the rest is just... waiting and hoping."
"you did everything right," you tell him, because you know that's not what he's saying but it's what he needs to hear. "the bleeding was unstoppable when she came in. she would have died without you."
"i know," he says, and it's not arrogant, just factual. "but knowing doesn't always help. at 3:00 in the morning, when you're staring at the ceiling in the on-call room, knowing doesn't make it easier."
you understand. you've been there.
the soup place is small, warm and steamy and smelling of broth and kimchi. beomgyu seems to know the owner. an older woman who smiles at him with real affection and leads you to a corner booth without asking for an order.
"he comes here after every big surgery," she tells you, patting your hand. "first time he brings someone. you must be special.â
"colleague," you say quickly.
"mm," she says, clearly not believing you, and bustles away.
"she likes you," beomgyu says, sliding into the booth across from you. the table is small, your knees brushing under it, and you don't pull away.
"she likes you. not me."
"no y/n." he's looking at you seriously now, all the teasing gone. "
the way he says your name. y/n, not dr. y/n, not the formal distance you've maintained for two years. it makes your breath catch. you've heard him say it before, in passing, in anger, but never like this. never like it's something precious.
"beomgyu," you start, not sure what you're going to say.
but then the food arrives. seafood soup for you, kimchi soup for him, rice and side dishes that give you time to compose yourself. you're starving, you realize, and you eat with the single-minded focus of someone who's learned to take food when it's available because you never know when the next emergency will pull you away.
beomgyu watches you eat with something like fascination. "you're the only woman i know who eats like she's performing surgery."
"precision is important."
"is that why you became a heart doctor? the precision of it?"
you pause, chopsticks halfway to your mouth. no one's ever asked you that. not directly, not caring about the answer. they ask about the money and the challenge. they don't ask about the why.
"i like rhythms," you say finally. "the heart has a rhythm. even when it's broken, even when it's failing, there's a pattern to it. you just have to learn to read it. brain work is... messier. electrical storms, chemical imbalances. the heart is mechanical. honest."
"and the brain is dishonest?"
"the brain lies. it tells you you're fine when you're bleeding out. it hides things. bleeding, tumors, memories. the heart just... beats. until it doesn't."
beomgyu is quiet for a moment, stirring his soup. "i think that's why we work," he says finally.
"what?"
"heart and brain. they're connected, you know. physically, through nerves. but also... metaphorically. you need both. the steady rhythm and the electrical spark." he looks up at you, and his eyes are dark, intense. "i think you're my rhythm, y/n. and maybe i might be your spark."
you stare at him, and you feel something shift in your chest. something that feels like the moment before a storm breaks.
"you're ridiculous," you say, but your voice is soft.
"probably. but i'm also right." he reaches across the table, and his hand finds yours, his fingers threading through your fingers with a confidence that makes you want to both pull away and lean in. "two years, y/n. two years of fighting with you, of wanting you, of telling myself that colleagues shouldn't, that we're too busy, too tired, too broken by this job to be good for each other."
"and now?"
"now i'm tired of waiting. i'm tired of pretending that what i feel when i see you is professional respect. it's not. it's... you're the first thing i think about when i wake up. not my cases. not my patients. you. the way you looked at me in that operating room, like you wanted to fight me and kiss me at the same time. i've been chasing that feeling for two years now."
your heart is beating now. his thumb is tracing circles on your palm, the way he's looking at you like you're the only thing in the world that matters.
"i don't do this," you whisper. "i don't date colleagues..."
beomgyu interrupts gently. "but you're allowed to have more. you're allowed to have this⊠to have me."
you should say no. you should pull your hand away. instead, you tighten your grip on his hand and say, "okay."
beomgyu's smile lit up immediately.
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the first time he kisses you, it's in the doctors' parking garage at 1:00 in the morning, three weeks after the dinner that changed everything.
you've been dating, if you can call it that. stealing moments in supply closets, trading texts that start with patient updates and end with "i miss you" and "when can i see you?â.
you've learned that he's gentle, underneath the arrogance. that he cries sometimes after bad outcomes, where no one can see him. that he's terrified of spiders and allergic to shellfish and that he became a brain surgeon because his grandmother died of a stroke when he was twelve and he couldn't understand why the doctors couldn't fix her.
you've learned that when he looks at you, he sees you. just you. the person who laughs at his terrible jokes, who brings him coffee when he's been in surgery for ten hours, who understands what it's like to hold a life in your hands and wonder if you're worthy enough.
tonight was hard. you'd called it at 12:47, and then you'd walked out of the trauma room and straight into beomgyu, who was somehow already there, already knowing and already reaching out for you.
he didn't say anything. he just took your hand and led you to the parking garage to his car, and he leaned against the hood and pulled you into his arms.
"i'm sorry," he whispered into your hair.
"i did everything right. everything. and i still..."
"i know." his hands were rubbing circles on your back, steady and warm. "i know, baby. i know."
you'd cried, ugly, loud and desperate, into his shoulder, and he'd held you through it, murmuring nonsense. pressing kisses to your temple, your forehead, anywhere he could reach.
and then you'd looked up, and he'd looked down, and the space between you had narrowed to nothing.
his mouth was soft. that was the first thing you noticed. how soft and careful he was, like he was worried you might break completely. the kiss was gentle and questioning. you made a sound against his lips, needy and embarrassing, and he responded by deepening the angle more, one hand coming up to cup your jaw, with his thumb stroking your cheekbone.
you could feel his heart beating against your chest.
when you finally pulled back, both of you breathing hard, he rested his forehead against yours and whispered, "i've wanted to do that for two years."
"show off," you managed, and he laughed,
"i'm going to take you home," he said, and his voice was rough, wrecked. "and i'm going to pretend that i don't want to kiss you again. but i will. i want to kiss you everywhere. i want to learn every part of you."
your breath hitched. "beomgyu..."
"just let me take care of you tonight," he murmured, pressing another kiss to your jaw, then your throat, right where your pulse felt like it was going to pop out. "let me be good to you."
you nodded, unable to speak and he kissed you again, harder this time, with a slight edge of hunger that hadn't been there before. his hands moved to your waist, pulling you flush against him, and you could feel him. hard and hot against your hip and the knowledge that you did that. it made you dizzy.
"your place," you managed between kisses. "now."
he didn't need to be told twice.
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his apartment was small, cluttered with medical journals and coffee mugs. he led you to his room where a nice, polished bathroom was connected to. "shower first," he said, already pulling his shirt over his head, revealing a torso that was lean and softly defined. "you're shaking."
you hadn't noticed, but you were. the adrenaline was kicking you hard.
he drew you into the bathroom, started the water, and then slowly, and carefully began undressing you. his fingers were steady as they pulled your sweater up and pulled down your jeans. he unhooked your bra and stared carefully. "beautiful," he whispered, looking at you in the harsh bathroom light without a trace of self consciousness. "you're so beautiful, y/n."
"you're not so bad yourself," you said, and your voice was husky.
he smiled and stepped into the shower, pulling you in after him. the water was warm. he immediately reached for the soap, lathering his hands and running them over your shoulders, your back, down your sides. he washed you with a thoroughness that was half intimate, his fingers lingering in places that made you gasp at some moments.
when he reached your breasts, you moaned, head falling back against the tile. he made a soft sound that was almost pained, and his thumbs brushed over your chest.
"beomgyu," you whispered.
"let me," he murmured, leaning in to kiss your neck, your collarbone. "let me touch you. i've thought about this so many times⊠i thought about having you in my hands and making you feel good."
his hand drifted lower over your stomach, and you parted your legs without being asked. needy and desperate in a way you'd never been with anyone else before. his fingers found you, sliding through your folds with confidence that made you cry out, and then he was circling your clit precision.
"steady baby," he whispered, arm wrapping around your waist to hold you up. "i've got you. let go, baby. i've got you."
he worked you with his fingers, one hand holding you carefully while the other drove you higher and higher. he knew exactly how to make you feel relieved and you realized with a dizzying rush that this was what it meant to be with a man who made his living with his hands.
when you came, it was with his name on your lips, your body shaking against his and your nails digging into his shoulders hard enough to leave marks. he held you through it, kissing your neck, your face, whispering praise that made you blush easily.
"that was just the beginning," he said, and there was a promise in his voice that made you shiver.
he turned off the water, wrapped you in a towel, and carried you to the bed.
he dried himself quickly, then climbed onto the bed, settling between your legs. he kissed you again and you could taste yourself on his tongue, which somehow made you even more turned on. his hands were everywhere, learning your body, and mapping the places that made you moan and squirm and beg.
"please," you whispered, arching up into him. "beomgyu, please."
"what do you want?" he asked, voice rough. "tell me. i want to hear you say it."
"i want you inside me," you said, and the words felt filthy but right. "i want you to fuck me. please."
he groaned, the sound torn from his chest, and reached for the bedside drawer. he pulled out a condom, rolled it on with practiced ease, and then he was there, hard against your entrance. he entered you slowly, so slowly you thought you might die from it. inch by inch until he was fully inside, filling you in a way that made your eyes roll back. he paused, breathing heavily.
"you okay?" he asked. the concern in his voice was clear as day.
"more than okay," you whispered. "move, beomgyu. please."
he started slow, pulling out almost completely before sliding back in, setting a rhythm that was in its control. but you didn't want control. you wanted him wild and free, wanted him as undone as you felt.
"faster," you demanded, digging your heels into his lower back. "harder. i won't break."
he groaned, and then he was moving, really moving. "you feel so good," he panted, his thrusts becoming rough, losing their precision as his own pleasure overwhelmed him. "so tight, so perfectâŠfuck, y/n, i've dreamed about this."
"me too," you admitted, and it was true. you'd touched yourself to thoughts of him, memories of his hands, mouth, the way he looked at you like you were the only thing in the world that mattered to him the most. "baby, i'm close. don't stop. please don't stop."
he reached between you, found your clit with his thumb, and that was it. you came apart, crying out his name. he followed you over the edge, burying his face in your neck and groaning as he spilled into the condom, his hips stuttering through his release.
for a long moment, neither of you have moved. he stayed inside you, breathing hard against your skin and you ran your fingers through his hair, holding him close.
"i love you," he whispered, so quiet you almost missed it. "i know it's fast and i know it's crazy, but i love you. i've loved you for so long.
you felt tears prick your eyes, happy and overwhelmed. "i love you too," you said.
he pulled back then, smiling that soft, real smile that was just for you. he kissed you. "stay with me tonight. and tomorrow. and the next day. stay with me as long as you'll have me."
"that might be forever," you warned.
"good," he said. "that's exactly what i was hoping for."
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the first time you have sex in the hospital, it's six months later, and it's completely his fault.
you'd been dating openly by then, the hospital gossiped, of course, but you didn't care. you were happy and beomgyu was somehow even more insufferable now that he had you, constantly touching you, kissing you, bringing you coffee and lunch and little gifts he picked up on his way to work.
you'd just finished a difficult case, a heart surgery that had gone longer than expected, and you were exhausted and hungry and in desperate need of a shower. you stumbled into the on-call room, intending to nap for an hour before your next shift, and found beomgyu already there, sat on the couch, reading a journal.
"hey," he said, looking up with a smile that made your heart skip. "tough case?"
"the worst," you groaned, flopping down beside him. "four hours of trying to fix a valve that didn't want to be fixed."
"come here," he said, setting the journal aside and opening his arms.
you crawled into his embrace, burying your face in his neck, and he held you, one hand stroking your back, the other playing with your hair. you relaxed into him, feeling safe and loved.
"you're amazing," he murmured against your hair. "you know that? the way you work, the way you care. you're incredible."
"you're just saying that because you want something," you teased, but you were smiling.
"i always want something," he admitted, and there was a new tone in his voice, lower, hungrier. his hand moved from your hair to your jaw, tilting your face up to his. "i want you. right here. right now."
"beomgyu," you protested weakly, even as your body responded to his suggestion. "we're at work. someone could walk in."
"the door locks," he said, and then he was kissing you, deep and dirty, his tongue sliding into your mouth that made you moan. his hands moved to your waist, pulling you on top of him, and you could feel him, hard and ready beneath you.
"you planned this," you accused, grinding down against him.
"maybe," he admitted, grinning against your lips. "or maybe i just can't be near you without wanting you. maybe you drive me crazy just by existing."
he placed you on his lap and his hands were everywhere, pulling at your scrub top, palming your breasts through your bra, you arched into his touch, already forgetting why this was a bad idea, already desperate for more.
he pulled your pants down, your underwear with them, and then his fingers were in you, curling to find that spot that made you see stars. you bit down on his shoulder to muffle your moan, and he hissed, the sound equal parts pain and pleasure.
"need you," you whispered. "beomgyu, i need you inside me."
he didn't hesitate. he reached for his wallet, pulled out a condom, and rolled it on with shaking hands. then he was guiding himself into you, filling you in one smooth thrust that made your back arch.
"quiet," he reminded you, his voice strained. "you have to be quiet, baby. can you do that?"
you nodded, biting your lip hard enough to draw blood, and he started to move. it was fast and dirty, nothing like the careful lovemaking at his apartment. this was need. two people who wanted each other too much to wait.
he fucked you hard, harder than you couldâve ever imagined. he groaned as you continued to ride his lap.
"so good," he panted. "always so good for me. my girl."
"only yours," you agreed, and you were. completely, irrevocably his.
after, as he holds your waist while you rest your head on his shoulder, trying to catch your breath, he pressed kisses to your shoulder and your collarbone.
"i'm going to marry you someday," he said, casual and certain.
"is that a proposal?" you asked, smiling.
"no," he said. "that's a promise for when i propose, you'll know it. i'm going to do it right, but i'm telling you now, so you can start getting used to the idea. you're the one for me y/n.â
you kissed him then, and you knew, with a certainty that you would say yes. that you would spend your life with this man.
"love you," you whispered.
"love you more," he returned, and then he was kissing you again, forgetting that you both were still at work.
a/n: a request for anon! i was supposed to have this uploaded yesterday, but i kept proofreading due to being a nervous wreck because of the hospital terms i had to include that i am not that familiar with. i hope this is alright T-T. i apologize for any grammatical errors that i mightâve missed out on!
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A writer in a world that scorns women with ambition. A beauty besieged by suitors who covet your fortune more than your heart. Love is a game you refuse to play, for its players were predictable as much as its outcome tiresome.
That is until, your views on it were altered by a new presence.
A tutor. An outsider. A man with no claim to your hand or your wealth. He does not seek you, does not chase you, does not weave empty poetry in your name. Yet â you find yourself drawn to him.
Your heart and mind seek him for reasons no words could describe â an irony not lost on you, a writer, a weaver of words. And yet, when it comes to him, even you fail to stitch together the language to explain his existence in your life.
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Nobleman!Choi Beomgyu x Noblewoman!afab!reader
[NOTE that: Specific warnings will be listed before every chapters]
tags: inspired by regency era but not entirely accurate elements, heavy slowburn, mutual pining, yearning, strangers to friends to lovers, reader faces misogyny, mystery, action and crime solving, drama, use of original characters, (more to be added)
[MDNI] This series contains explicit sexual contents.
.âïž ĘË The chapters of our story;
ACT I:
If one is observant enough, one can remain untouched by power.
i. you return like autumn
ii. you warm the winter
iii. you chase the first thaw, the earliest green
iv. you sow the first seeds of bloomÂ
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Summary: Bad days follow bad days for you, an endless cycle of humiliation that follows you like a bad plague. Whatâs worse is that you meet someone new who finds your mishaps hilarious even if he caused them.
warnings: beomgyu being a dick but like in a loveable way, sexism (towards reader), kai and soobin feature. very barely proof read icl
Big meetings are always a hectic day in the company. The heads of each department scramble to put together presentations that donât actively bore every participant in the room. Similarly, itâs also a professional way to show that theyâre still needed by the company and that their department doesnât need to be merged with another.
So by the middle of the day, itâs not surprising that your soul has left your body.
Between the 3 cups of coffee and jittery nerves itâs no surprise that youâre not functioning quite as well as usual. Your fingers have long turned jumpy which has resulted in dropping one too many pens and pages as you run between rooms.
The small break between presentations gave you a minute to breathe, kinda. While everyone filtered out of the room for smoke breaks or coffee breaks. Yoon excused himself for a phone call which is just code word for âI canât stand to pretend to care about you for a second longerâ while all the other department heads took the break as an excuse to calm their nerves.
âYou really are like a personal assistant.â Soobin muses as he walks over to your end of the table. Itâs long with various seats scattered on each side. One end held Yoon and the other, the poor presenting department heads. You snagged a seat next to Yoon and scribbled down the main things Yoon wanted to look back on.
You glance up from your scribbles and let out a sigh of relief once seeing Soobin.
âYeah. Add note-taker to my resume.â You laugh lightly as you set the book and pen against the table. You stretch out your fingers to alleviate the cramp in your hand but the dull ache persists in your poor palms.
Soobin smiles as he stuffs his hands into his slack pockets. He glances around the room before his eyes settle on the clock.
âWe have 10 minutes, wanna grab a coffee?â Soobinâs offer does sound nice but your half empty cup is a reminder that you probably shouldnât have more. But surely the walk wonât hurt?
âUm, yeah. Sure.â Soobin nods at your reply before motioning for you to step out of the room first. You smile as you snatch your phone, leaving the notebook and pens behind.
The walk to the break room is filled with mindless chatter. Soobin directs you to the room on the further end as less people will be at it and you agree, thankful for the opportunity to be in a less crowded room. Itâs bad enough that the presentation room screams âmale energyâ but a break room with that culture? Hell.
âYour presentation was really good.â You compliment Soobin politely. He grins a little, eyes flickering to the floor as he thanks you softly. He glances back at you, something shining in his eyes, âThanks. Same boring slop every year.â He shrugs.
âWell for as much as I know about tech â which you know is nothing. I actually understood you⊠well enough.â Soobin titters at your honest reply. Itâs become easier and easier to slip into a natural conversation with Soobin as the weeks go by. Youâre thankful that his friendship with you extended past the lunch.
âYou lost me at the numbers and graphs but everyone does.â Again, Soobin offers you a toothy amused grin. As you reach the furthest break room he initiates longer strides so he can hold the door open for you.
âI think if I didnât have a degree in my field Iâd feel the same as you.â His honesty makes you laugh this time. Itâs moreso a polite response but one your body exudes naturally.
The break room is empty. The only sound taking up space is the click of your heels and the humming of the bulb thatâs due to blow out soon.
âSo, any new friends?â Soobin asks as he flicks on the kettle. You sigh as you slip onto the sofa pressed against the back wall of the room.
âHonestly, no. You and Kai seem to be the only ones who can stand to hold a conversation with me.â You shrug, âIt feels like high school all over again. How do adults find the time to be clique-y?â
âTrue.â Soobin hums. He spins on his heel so he can press the small of his back against the counter as he looks at you. He crosses his arms over his chest in a casual manner but the way his biceps squeeze against the restriction of his rolled up sleeves makes your eyes wonder. Soobin rolls his neck as he eases any taught muscles, âIt took me a while to make a friend here too. Mainly other department heads.â
Soobin definitely meant for his words to be comforting but you feel bad as you realise he abandoned his other friends to take you for pity coffee.
âYou couldnât went with them, you know? I was fine waiting.â You mumble as you fiddle with the rings on your fingers. Soobin shifts a little as he readjusts his weight, âI didnât want to go with them. I see everyone else enough.â
You nod silently. The weight behind Soobinâs words weigh on you like a weighted blanket.
âBesides, itâs more fun with you. We still have things to talk about that we donât know about each other.â You suppose thatâs true. You attempt to ignore the pricks of heat poking at your cheeks. The kettle whistles to signify itâs done boiling.
Your mind wonders as Soobin turns his back to pour new drinks. You fiddle with your fingers as you absentmindedly think about the meeting youâre having to go back to. Business men in suits who sneer down their nose at you. For what? Being a woman? Being âless superiorâ?
âAnd by some floosey, having to switch to the new company with the green emission trucks â we are technically spending more but the tax return from going green actually increases our income.â An older man taps the remote against the board projecting his presentation. You scribble down a barely legible note, circling the trend he was droning on about.
Youâre sure Yoon would care less about going green in his warehouses as long as he brings in the money.
âYou sure you got all that, sweetheart?â The sarcastic coo from the older man stalls your own mid note. You blink, looking up from your notebook as the heat from 20 gazes rests on your baffled face. Youâre shocked by the blatant disrespect so any retort gets lost in your throat as he speaks again, âOr should I dumb it down for you? Here, I even put the graph in pink so you can understand.â
The cackles from the older men make you shrink in your seat. Yoon looks unamused, lifting a hand as to silently stop the laughing. A few chuckles still ring out at your expense.
âEnough.â Yoon speaks gruffly, annoyed by the distraction. You shift in your seat, gaze flickering to Soobin who shoots you a confused yet empathetic look.
âHere.â The sight of a styrofoam cup breaks your daze. For the second time today Soobin has stopped your thoughts from running too wild.
You take it softly. The sloshing dark liquid feels hotter in your hand than usual. Your nerves are already fried but the comfort of sipping on something warm rather than your icy cold drinks brings a subtle relief that you didnât realise you needed.
Soobin checks his watch out of habit but swears lightly when a notification pops up on it. You shoot him a subtle looks but he reads it easily.
âShit. I swear people canât do their jobs. I need to head down to the second floor, are you okay going back by yourself?â Soobin asks a little frantically. You snicker a little before motioning at yourself with your free hand, âIâm a grown woman, Soobin.â
He nods, âIâm aware. But still, itâs like feeding you to a pack of wolves.â Youâre grateful he doesnât bring up the earlier incident. You roll your eyes and step ahead, brushing him off despite the cooling anxiety pooling in your gut.
âIâll survive!â
Survive? Definitely putting it lightly. Attempting to swallow back the nerves is always a challenge but itâs a feeling youâve gotten used to. Yoonâs company feels like being out of your depth every day, instantly being thrown into the deep end from the second you clock in until you clock out.
Youâre decently surprised when you make it back to the room that it doesnât seem to be occupied. No laughter or surface level chatter echoâs from the room or the same unadulterated anti-woke chatter from older men that half of the office is forced to listen to.
Slipping in before the chaos can arrive is a nice difference. Or so you hope.
âOh shit.â The sight of a suited man hunched over the spot where your notebook is residing is surely confusing, your feet become rooted to the floor at the sight. He fidgets, unaware of your presence until you decide to cough to warn him of your presence.
His shoulders shoot past his ears as he jumps at the sudden sound.
âOh my God!â He yelps like heâs been caught red handed. The young face is one youâve only spotted today. Though you wonât lie, his shaggy haircut caught your attention first. Compared to all of the neat trims adjacent to Kaiâs and Soobinâs, this guyâs rebellious haircut makes him stick out like a sore thumb.
Something like a grungy teenager who was forced to put on a suit.
âUm, are you looking at my notes?â You query softly as you try to peer around his broad frame. His frantic behaviour makes your anxiety stew a little further than youâd like. Why is this guy being so fidgety?
He shoots a hand out when you step forward. You pause, foot hovering lightly as you take in his boxy posture. Like a child with its hand found deep in the cookie jar, his wild expression makes you assume heâs done something wrong.
And something tells you that something has happened to your notebook.
You side step a little and catch a glimpse of a wad of tissue piled on the desk. It looks damp and soaked to the surface of the table.
âW-What..?â You question softly in your strange standoff. He steps to meet where youâre standing but you swiftly step in the other direction and round him.
You canât help your outbursts when you see the sight, âYou spilled coffee on my fucking notebook!?â
He squaks and reaches across the table to grab the damp pile of tissue before flopping it on your soaked pages. It sounds with a heavy slap, though the stained pages have already smeared your penmanship past the point of return.
The shaggy haired man squabbles as he shakes his hand about in a desperate plea for forgiveness. He bundles up more tissue in his hands as he spews out excuses.
âIâm sorry! I was just taking a peak and my cup just slipped out of my hand.â He apologises profusely, rubbing the tissue but the liquid just squeezes out and begins to dribble past the pages and onto the clean flooding. You swear and jump back before it can stain your shoes or clothing.
You scoff, head whipping around as the sounds of approaching footsteps. The wolfcut continues to fiddle with the sopping tissue despite the fact itâs actively soaked his blazer sleeves.
âWould you stop? Youâre just making it worse!â You sneer as you slap the wet mess out of his hands. The mixture of despair, sorry and worry flickers across his expressive features as his hands fall uselessly to his sides.
âIâm sorry! Umââ
âWhy were you even looking? Theyâre notes from the same presentation we were all looking at! You havenât even presented yet!â The scalding tone is one you donât even catch yourself using as you lift the drenched book from the table. Droplets of brown liquid create a small puddle where it was once lying, leaving a crude outline of the crime much like a chalk body outline.
ââ I donât know! Iâm sorry okay!?â He rambles as you examine the book. You know itâs all gone but you somehow hope the longer you look at it that maybe itâll fix itself.
The man busies himself with ripping a new load of tissue to throw on the soaked table. You just frown as you stare at your hard work being turned to nothing but slop.
âWhatâs going on here?â One of the department heads question as the rest pile on in from the break. You glance at the young man who still looks like heâs been caught red handed doing something bad. Which technically he was⊠But you still feel slighted.
âI uh⊠Spilled my coffee on her notebook.â He rushes out, eyes glued to the vinyl flooring. You can barely hold back your irritated scowl and twitching eyelid as the page youâre holding tears under the weight of the liquid. It slops against the table, as if affirming his confession.
What a long meeting this is going to be.
âThank you for presenting today. I will gather you again when I come to a decision.â Yoonâs usual passive ending comes as a Godsend to you today. You barely had anywhere to take notes, scribbling on one of the back pages and ignoring the way that the paper felt more malleable than usual.
Yoon rounds past you as soon as heâs done. You know he expects the notes soon but the dismissive glance he sends you makes you feel like a scolded kid. Itâs not your fault that who you now realise is Beomgyu, Head of Advertisement, is too stupid and nosey to hold a fucking cup in his hand as he reads a page.
Now you wish Soobin stayed behind.
âCanât even take down notes without making a mess.â One of the department heads snicker as they walk past your slouched form. You sigh, feeling impossibly useless.
âSeriously. Sheâs almost as useless as her job.â
You stare at the wrecked book before deciding that thereâs no point in keeping it. Itâs slipped into the trash can beside the desk before you can think twice. Maybe if you send a strongly worded email theyâll send digital copies of their presentation over? Who are you kidding? These guys would spit in your face before they think about helping you.
The same flushed, hot feeling that rushes to your face and sting prickling in your waterline is one too common.
âHey uh⊠Iâm really sorry. Again.â Beomgyu whispers from the doorway of the meeting room. You shift your gaze to witness the pathetic slouch in his shoulders. The sight of such a tall man deflated subsides your sadness for a few moments.
âNothing you can do now.â You whisper passively as you gather the only material you can take back with you. A stupid fucking pen and the wet slab of tissue that you throw into the overflowing trash can. If you didnât have an audience you wouldnât thrown it across the room in a bout of anger.
âNo, seriously ââ
âListen, Beomgyu. Thereâs nothing you can do now â thereâs no point in saying sorry. Iâm already a laughing stock just go on about your day.â The blank expression on your face makes Beomgyu feel ten times worse than he already does. You slip past him, shoulders slightly knocking as you press yourself against the wall to create the most distance between your two bodies.
Beomgyu follows you like a lost puppy. It invites comments from the people at the desks but youâre so caught up in your anger towards your newfound stalker that you donât find yourself caring.
âLet me rewrite your notes!â Beomgyu offers. You throw him a snide look over your shoulder, âDonât you have real work to do?â
âIâll get everyone to email their presentations! Iâll take notes.â He offers. It stops you in your tracks. If anyone can get the presentations itâll be Beomgyu. This could be what stops you from facing Yoonâs wrath.
Beomgyu steps back before he can barge into your back. He watched with hopeful eyes as you turn around.
âI want those notes to me by the end of the day. Itâs what you owe me for making me look even worse in front of everyone.â Beomgyu nods. His pliant behaviour isnât the same person that was presenting so confidently in front of 20 other people.
You nod, finally pleased with the outcome youâre faced with. You donât bother excusing yourself as you turn on your heel and continue your trek back to your desk.
Finally, someone who causes you a problem is trying to fix it themselves.
âHey! Wait.â Beomgyu calls as he jogs up the hallway. You wince a little at his louder volume, slowing down your pace. Beomgyuâs long legs means that he catches up to you in a few seconds, falling into stride with you.
âI um⊠I just want to say that it was cool the way you stood up for yourself earlier.â Beomgyu reminds you of your conversation with the misogynist department head. He continues, âThose guys suck. Really. Itâs like they think itâs still 1950 or something.â
âBecause any person with any level of critical thinking would know that going green saves money. Do I need to spell it out for you?â
âYeah, itâs not.â
Although an awkward reply, itâs true. Beomgyu kicks himself for putting himself is such an awkward situation. You kick yourself for even replying to him.
âUm, this is me.â You announce stiffly as you motion to your desk. Beomgyu shoots you an awkward smile, exhaling a little too hard from his nose. You clear your throat, eyes dropping to your shoes.
Beomgyu silently watches the way you curl in on yourself the longer he looks at you.
Beomgyu breaks the silence, âIâll get those to you soon. Give me like 2 hours.â
Five oâ clock rolls round yet it feels like a lifetime. The speed at which people leave the office is one you should time as itâs nearly comical how quickly people can shut off and leave. The chairs are practically still spinning as the elevators ding closed. Your eyes droop heavily as the exhaustion from the day creeps up on you.
âThanks, kid.â Yoonâs gruff voice acts as tape for your eyelids as you muster the last of your strength to look at your boss. Heâs readjusting the expensive watch on his left wrist as he closes his office door with a half-assed kick of his foot.
You straighten in your chair as he walks past your desk, eyes lingering in your face. You donât know if heâs trying to read your expression or if heâs just genuinely taking in how tired you look but you feel a little self conscious under the attention from your higher up.
âFor your notes. I know it was probably hard to get those assholes to send you over their presentations.â Yoonâs reply makes you laugh a little. From your short time under him, heâs barely said more than 10 words to you outside of a professional environment. Though surprising, you canât help but smile.
You fiddle with your belongings as you stand from your chair, head bowing just slightly, âThanks, sir. Iâm sorry about the mess⊠and any trouble I caused today.â You try to ignore the waver in your voice and hope that Yoon does too. He simply nods before walking away, already occupied by his forever buzzing phone.
To anyone else the interaction looked casual - maybe less than riveting but to you, it leaves you feeling a little more hopeful. You canât help but smile as you collect your things and dust off your clothes. Not only is it Friday but Yoon also initiated a decent and slightly praising conversation with you.
Thankfully no one is around to see the stupid smile on your face or the way you slip towards the elevator as if youâre floating. A part of you feels so silly for being so appreciative of bare minimum praise but this is Yoon. The same guy who wouldnât even say thanks to someone who cut off their own leg if it benefited him. Itâs an extreme example but nonetheless, fitting.
âSo⊠I guess weâre even then?â You jump at the sudden voice, swear tumbling from your mouth before you can catch it. You blink and snap your head towards the perpetrator and jump again at how close they are.
Beomgyu towers beside you, head angled so he could purposely speak closer to you in order to spook you. The wolfish grin on his face looks strangely natural for him and you scowl at the way he seems pleased with your reaction.
A total 180 from earlier.
âWhâ What are you â Oh my God, were you here the whole time!?â You stutter stupidly as your heart beats wildly in your chest. Beomgyu snickers, hand jolting out to hit the call button for the elevator as you press a hand to your own chest to slow your racing heart.
âI gotta say, donât think iâve ever seen anyone skip in here.â Beomgyu muses teasingly. The way he looks at you feels like heâs seeing too much of you and you instinctively curl away from the attention. Your hands turn clammy under the pressure of his gaze.
You quip swiftly, âI was not skipping!â
âSure.â He snorts as he settles his hands into his pockets. You roll your eyes and face the elevator door, trying your best to ignore his reflection in the sparkling silver doors. Curse the hard working cleaners in this damn office.
Life has a funny way of messing with you. From a low to a high to a low â and thereâs an elevator and a handsome guy involved again!
Your phone buzzes in your hand and youâve never been happier for a notification. You glance at Beomgyu who is whistling softly, gaze situated on the small screen that displays what floor the lift is currently on.
soobin đ°: heard you met beomgyu⊠good luck!
you: thanks for the warning, iâm already being traumatised.
The lift dings and brings you out of your daze. Beomgyu already stands inside and thanks to his bigger body, it feels like heâs taking up more space than what he actually is. You saunter in, shoes scuffing against the floor as you try to situate yourself the furthest away from your new nuisance.
âI mean I wasnât really expecting a thank you but like⊠I literally saved your ass.â Beomgyu brings up your conversation with Yoon like he was involved in it. You huff and cross your arms across your chest like a scorned child, lips jutting into a pout before you can control it.
âYou didnât âsave my assâ and iâm not thanking you for ruining my work. I wouldâve done it anyway if you didnât spill your stupid coffee all over my book because youâre so damn nosey!â You feel red in the face as you spew out your frustrations at the man who seems to care less, âAnd I donât know why youâre acting all cocky when you were basically on your knees begging meââ
âPause. I was not on my knees!â
âYou might as well have been! And donât be so dirty!â Your hand fly out as you begin to bicker with Beomgyu. He squabbles back, âYou canât just say I was on my knees â Hold on!â
âYou were basically crying for my forgiveness and now youâre acting like a cocky asshole!â Beomgyu splutters at your reply. Youâre both so caught in your argument that you donât realise that the lift has already met its destination and the doors are beginning to peel open.
âExcuse me I was not crying!â
âYou followed me to my desk like some⊠like some duckling!â
âWell excuse me for trying to apologise!â
âApologise? I think it was just to fill your stupid ego so you can throw it back at me!â
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âUm. What is going on?â An awkward cough breaks you and Beomgyu from the little scene youâve both created. It must be funny how you both straighten up and act like civilised people as if you werenât both fighting like teenage girls just seconds prior.
âI expect this from Beomgyu but⊠you?â You wince as Kai furrows his brows at the new side of you. Heâs only seen a pathetic, petty side but now seeing your argumentative side, youâre starting to realise heâs barely seen you in a regular state.
You pull together what you can muster and itâs surely a strained smile. Beomgyu coughs, tapping his foot lightly against the elevator floor.
You glance at the two men before making a break for it. Youâre swiftly stepping from the lift and rounding Kaiâs broad frame in seconds. âAnyway. See you both on Monday!â
They both glance at each other after your body has completely disappeared from view.