Rin

hi i’m back still mentally ill and finally in a relationship with another neurodivergent, i would say life is good but i still live with my toxic mother but i’m doing better.

i’m taking lexapro now and all i can say is i am the embodiment of “i miss having sex but at least i don’t wanna die anymore” by waterparks and i hate it

why do i always have my ptsd attacks at the worst time possible

my best friend has picked up on how i blink when i’m dissociating and it’s apparently different than normal so now i gotta try dissociate with my eyes closed when she’s around cause i hate when she ask if i’m okay cause i don’t fucking know

i.... i relapsed a week ago and i haven’t stopped since i just needed to say it somewhere please scroll past

i went into a shutdown with a friend around and was unable to use some of my coping mechanisms so when i was out of it i googled some to see what i could do next and i was unable to find any that fit and are for the person in the shutdown. so i was hoping those of you who also experience shutdowns could comment some of your coping mechanisms that you feel comfortable sharing and i could attempt to compile a list for us. comment anything that works for you alone or not please !!!

i have severe social anxiety but the minute you put me in front of a room full of teenagers talking about a topic i’m passionate about my God complex comes out

anxiety and dissociation ??? time to make my special comfort ramen and watch adventure time to cope

my mother ridicules me for watching children shows like she didn’t steal my childhood