(gotten out of jail, been on house arrest @ mom's)

I've been nothing but bored and tired

Depressed

One straight line.

Probation sucks.

I started taking antidepressants

I'm not prescribed them, but I'm taking them. I think they are working a little, but maybe i started on too high a dose because I'm jittery, i feel weird. I've only been taking them for a week, so I guess I'll give it another week and hopefully i feel kind of better(?).

I'm getting off the ankle monitor the day after tomorrow.

Also I've started learning Russian alongside my Spanish that I've already been doing for a while now. I started Russian because my bf is from the Ukraine and he speaks Russian and Ukrainian so i wanna learn.

Long story short: i feel like shit. But at least the sun is out today and i can skate again soon... And find a job. I wanna save up for some more Tamas.

Pretty much can't stand myself when I look in the mirror

The way I look, the way I sound

I'm angry

This isn't supposed to be me