Lets Cause A Little Trouble

I remember dancing in an empty school hall with her. I remember lying in bed looking into each others eyes neither one of us wanting to make the first move but both desperate for it. I remember finding solace and comfort in her hugs. I remember singing jungle book with her mother. Drinking with her cousins, laughing with her family. I shared my first everything with her. Stolen kisses when no one was looking. Laying on her chest to sleep. Dancing in the kitchen at 3AM. Midnight walks in the rain. Getting high to fall in love all over again. We promised forever. So don’t tell me I won’t love her forever. Love ripped me apart and I’ll be damned if I ever let it do it to me again.

Seeing you with someone else devastates me. Every picture claws at my eyeballs. Every discovery sets my heart alight. Seeing you drop me and leave me for less than dead crushes my bones and wrings out any traces of happiness. A shell, that is all I am now. You changed. Now I’m left with a shadow hanging so deeply over me that I can’t shake.

I want to cry and lay in your arms, letting it all out knowing you’re the only one who can comfort me.

You'd rather wrap your son's hand round the trigger of a pistol than catch him in the mirror with a motherfuckin' lipstick

Reasons to be sad