Dead Air

I'm just really boring, like i don't even feel anything, im just bored n pissed all the time.

lol (sobbing)

Ingrown toenail is actually threatining my life rn, cuz I may have sepsis, like tf?

I changed my mind, I wanna be famous, ignore the fact I didnt use tags before pls and just spam reblog me, like my whole acc, I mean if you dont mind getting bullied for reblogging cringe ass shit. Or make a side blog, cuz you know I'm the only person that matters and everbody should do what benefits me /s

Hey guys please follow me and like all of my posts and comment stuff like wow this so so relatable and real youre the best so my need for attention is finally filled, and maybe I wont feel so lonely anymore? I will do absolutely nothing in return, but I'm sure youre pure enough in the heart? also I know no one will se this, thats why i do this, but I also do this cuz I want somebody to see this. idk but I kinda do but obviously not really.

I'm just posting here nonstop cuz I have no one to talk to, cuz nobody understanmds, cuz I dont understanmd. I mean non stop like I just posted 10 posts in the last 5 minutes and theyre jsut random shit. Is this what adults miss when they say they miss their teen years? well fuck

I'm not sure if I feel, or just take whatever I have and try to describe it as a feeling that I have heard of somewhere through logic. I'm very dumb though, or more like average, so I'm not very good at it.

I feel ill, not really much, but I do. It's either the heat getting to me, or how my body chooses to manifest all of my being (thats pretty mean and egoisitcal and antisaocial but craves people but is mildly annoyed by everyone) being rightfully punished. I dont feel very ill, cuz I am only moderately bad, the rest I am, and I am probably like every other person, I just know that, and that makes me different, but I already know I am like others, so maybe they know too. Maybe I just don't know.

can someone hold me while I despretaely sob in their arms and then we go back to like nothing happend but we suddenly develop a special bond, fall in love, and I get my happ end? or like I OD in your arms. or ill just stare there, in thought, and be slightly uncomfortable while also craving somebodys touch after denying myself of it so long. Latter seems most likely, but also really boring. I'm so boring.

I should probably decorate this blog so it's less ugly and bland but im to lazy to do that. idgaf but I do, I wouldn't be writing this if I truly didn't.

I wish I wasn't average, really bad, I want to be special, something but even my wish to be something truly unique makes me as delusional as the next person. Even my want for something is rather dimmed, not even that could be something special, something strong. idk bro

I'm bored and midly annoyed and pissed, and Im so tired of doing nothing, but I cant do anything cuz I'm tired, adn I wanna indulge in my usual coping mechanisms, but even they are tiring. I am at my limit, but everything is chill rn.