especially fuck you

alex smiled softly at that. she stood and wrapped her arms lazily around his neck and rested her head against his since hers felt heavy. “mmm. i feel so numb…” she admitted to him, smiling. she just loved it. “no pain…” she whispered with a smile though it was a sad statement. 

louis laughed at that. “me too. so numb and so great.” he told her as he danced, jumping up and down to the beat. “that’s good.” he said and kissed her softly.

lex opened her eyes slightly hearing lou’s voice. “mmm…” she said softly, lazily reaching for his hand and slowly standing. 

louis smiled and pulled her up. “mmm let’s dance.” he said, already moving about to the beat with the little rhythm he had.

lex felt so numb. it was her new favorite feeling. it was one she needed. she put her hand to chest to see if it was rising up and down she felt so numb. 

louis smiled at lex and held a hand out for her. “come stand up.” he told her, still moving all about.

lex felt the tension in her body leave. she fell back against the couch more after lou got up since she was leaning on him. her eyes felt so heavy. 

louis shook himself off, trying to move every part of his body at once since that’s what he felt like he needed, the tingles going all through him.

lex sat back more and her eyes closed shut. her head started slowly falling back as she felt it hit and take control. it was a perfect feeling. she was numb and she loved it. nothing hurt. 

louis got up and rolled his shoulders, always feel the need to be moving when he took pills. 

lex popped a couple pills. she had taken one earlier at the party secretly as well. she sat back and leaned her head on lou’s shoulder after finishing off the rest of her drink. 

louis leaned back and closed his eyes, letting his feeling of the high take over him, it was such a good rush. 

“fist bumping us not being dumb as fuck? yeah. absolutely.” she laughed and fist bumped him before leaning over and kissing him. she looked at the table and leaned over, grabbing a couple. 

he kissed her back and then leaned down and got a pill of the table, taking one and leaning back in his seat. “always count on you nialler.” he grinned.

“ayyyy not us.” she smirked and held her fist out to lou for a fist bump. “honestly. it’s like they don’t know how it happens and how to prevent it.” she chuckled and shook her head. 

he nodded his head. “mmm i’m glad.” he gave her a little look. “we really fist bumping to that?” he laughed but did it anyway. “exactly, i don’t understand it.”

lex smiled and fell into him some. she kissed him and rested her head on his shoulder. she took a sip of her drink. “there was some shit going on but i didn’t pay attention. someone slept with someone and now someone thinks she’s pregnant or something. i don’t know.” she shrugged and chuckled. 

louis chuckled. “who isn’t having some sort of pregnancy scare at the moment, it’s ridiculous.” he laughed.

lex sat on the couch and thanked pez once she brought the drinks. she watched them both run upstairs and chuckled. she pulled a blanket off the back of the couch and covered up her and lou. she was cold. she turned and kissed lou deeply, feeling safer and happier now. 

louis wrapped an arm around her and smiled. he took a sip of his drink and then turned to kiss her back. he rested against the sofa and sighed. “might crash here tonight if that’s good with you p?” 

lex followed them in and kicked off her shoes as they got there. she slid down the hall in her socks, something she had dome at her house since she was little. she giggled as she did and went to help perrie with the drinks. 

louis went and helped himself to some snacks. he’d been friends with perrie since they were kids, he was more than comfy in her house. he laid them out on the table and sat down.

lex smiled gently to him and nodded a little as she walked with them with her arms crossed over her chest. it wasn’t something she could ever get off her mind since she had to live it. 

louis walked to perrie’s and went inside with them all, excited to drink and have a party again. he’d been having a good time and wanted to feel the buzz of it all again. 

lex walked with him and crossed her arms over herself. she looked at niall and nodded. “yeah. costs money i don’t have and would also mean i’d have to have a permanent place to stay outside of their home, which i also don’t have. just not feasible”

louis knew that with his family life and low funds he couldn’t offer her permanence right now, there literally was not much he could do. “right! let’s get this off our minds and go drink!” he said.

lex nodded a little and turned into him as he put his arm around her. she heard them and sighed. “i’m sorry guys. i’m really sorry….he’s such a dick…” she sighed, aggravated it ruined their night. 

louis nodded. “that he is.” he said and nodded at perrie. “yeah i’m up for it.” he nodded, knowing her parents were never home.

alex ran with him, thankful she was wearing trainers. they finally stopped. she was fine since she was fit for soccer. she pulled her lips in her mouth and nodded, swallowing. if she spoke she’d cry. 

louis took in deep breaths for a moment, really needed to catch his breath. “fuck.” he said and coughed a little. he then stood up and wrapped an arm around her. “it’s all good babe.” 

alex swallowed hard to fight back tears. she heard her dad shouting for her that he needed money. he was always trying to get money off her for drinks as if she had anything. she took lou’s hand and hopped over with, trying hard not to cry. it was humiliating. 

louis got away with her, making sure they were a good block away from him and in a darker place. he leaned down and held his hands to his knees, bending over slightly, out of puff. “are you okay?” he asked lex.