Invictus

It’s been 3 months since we stopped talking but you know what? I still miss you. I still do :( Every memory of you haunts me at night. I wish I could turn back time and make everything right. I want to talk to you again. I want you to look at me, the way you do before. I want you be “interesado” on me always. But everything’s over with us now. You’re just a memory. A sweet memory I want to remember forever. Good bye lover. Jungmal bogoshipda. 

Yaaaaaaaay! Thank youuuuu. *sending hearts*

That we were meant to be I knew our fate was set That you were the one for me I didn’t even know you I only knew your name I wasn’t sure what to do I didn’t know who to blame I knew I thought you attractive I could tell that you were nice The butterflies were so active That I couldn’t think twice Everything I did that day Didn’t show you who I am Every time you came my way My heart began to ram My actions weren’t natural My reactions weren’t real I felt so very terrible But my heart I did not wield And when the group said goodbye to me My eyes were fixed on you I knew I was trying to see If you felt the same way too I liked you when I saw your face But maybe it was the touch My heart had begun to race I already liked you too much I knew the day we met That we were meant to be I knew our fate was set As friends, as lovers, as enemies

I have this feeling that, sooner or later I'll fall for him. He's sweet, funny, caring, loving. But the thing is, we're not committed. He's in a year-long relationship. Everytime we're together, he doesn't fail to make me smile, the smile that you'll see, once in a blue moon. He's not the one, he should not be the one.

PS: I have gay friends and I love them.

I still can't forget that day when we saw each other again. Parang sobrang tagal natin hindi nagkita, sobrang tagal natin hindi nagusap, pero yung pakiramdam, pareho pa din. Walang nagbago. Oo, lumipas man ang ilang taon, ganon padin pala yung pagtingin ko sayo. Seeing you again is like watering a dead flower, giving a chance to be back and continue its life. Nabuhayan ako, hindi ko alam kung bakit. I feel so much happiness in my heart everytime I am with you. We talked, we laughed, we reminisced. Though it's very different now. That night, tandang tanda ko pa. Magkasama lang tayong dalawa pero nagtetext ka padin sakin. Sinasabi mo ang taba ko kahit hindi. Nakakatawa. Para tayong nakawala sa kulungan sa sobrang saya. Kahit ang lakas mo mangasar, kahit ang lakas mo manggaspang, wala, ganon padin. Okay lang, natutuwa naman ako, masaya naman tayo. Noong araw na yun puro tayo kalokohan, parang walang pakialam. Gusto ko ulit maulit lahat ng yun. Gusto kita makita. Gusto kita makasama. If only, God will allow us to continue what we never had; I will surely be forever grateful (though I am) and treasure it for the rest of my life. I will never waste that chance again. I will never waste someone like you. IF. Alam ko isang malaking pagkakamali ang iwan ka dati, pero yun ang naging way para maging better version tayo ngayon. No, I will never close my heart, you still have the biggest space here. Hindi na kita sasayangin, kung pahihintulutan tayo. And if not, it's okay. Alam ko nandyan ka lang, hindi ka na mawawala ulit, at hindi ko na hahayaan mawala ka ulit. Still, i'm here. :) Love, Charlotte

I will never know what went wrong. Why we can’t cross the other side of the fence. I didn’t know if you got bored or you thought you were done with me already or you found someone new. You just tossed a person who happened to be there when you were in need of something, to listen to you or distract you from your issues in life. When all has been said and done, what I had was nothing anyway. I had no claim, no rights. there was never a “we” or an “us”, just you and me. We didn’t need closure because we haven’t even opened a door. I don’t have any choice but to let this all go.

True definition of happiness. #BLBSGirls #Love #Repost