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But once Troy joins the centaurs and becomes Ilya’s friend and then has then has the audacity to come out? As if that erases everything he’s done? Watching people accept and forgive him when Shane was the one taking the brunt of Troy’s treatment? Watching Troy come out at a pride night and celebrate with his team and fall in love when Shane has put himself (and Ilya) through hell remaining in the closet for nearly a decade because of the pieces of shit like Troy? Is still actively going through that hell?

And then when Troy actually becomes best friends with Ilya and Shane joins the team and Shane is expected to be friendly with him? Oh he is fuming. He does not give a fuck that Troy is a better person now and it was his own fears/internalized homophobia making him behave that way. Shane was gay and in an actively hostile environment and you know how often he said slurs in his career? Never. Ilya is in a closeted relationship and from a country where homosexuality is criminalized and you know how often he said slurs? Never. Same with Scott Hunter. The fact Troy was gay the whole time makes it feel like a betrayal. Troy knew what it was like to be othered, and that didn’t stop him.

Shane is so tired of having to bear these responsibilities he never asked for. He’s so tired of taking the blame for his own pain. He’s tired of being the Asian role model who doesn’t get to get angry. Who has to grin and bear it. He never had the option to behave like Troy, so all his internalized homophobia was only ever pointed inward. Troy took the easy way out and he still got the happy ending Shane fought tooth and nail for. It’s not fair.

And now Shane is finally out. He’s finally on a team with his husband with players who support him. But fucking Troy Barrett is there. And he just has to grin and bear it.

HE STIIIIINKS

meme translation:

think about future

I am fucking INSANE OVER THE KARAOKE

None ever wanted nothing from me.

The Terror, episode 8-"Terror Camp Clear" /Cuchito-Kiltro The Terror, episode 4-"Punished, as a Boy" /Oliver Twist-Charles Dickens The Terror, episode 9-"The C, the C, the open C" /The Sins of the Cities of the Plain; or, The Recollections of a Mary-Ann, with Short Essays on Sodomy and Tribadism The Terror, episode 7-"Horrible from Supper"/The thief's journal- Jean Genet The Terror, episode 8 & 9-"Terror Camp Clear"/The thief's journal- Jean Genet The Terror, episode 9/Funeral Rites-Jean Genet

Ohhh Mr Hickey you complex little freak.

El hombre que yo amo // The man that I love

Another last minute thing (probably not the last, sorry) for the @terrorculturesandlanguagesfest

My most personal song for fitzier bc cmonnnn. 🇨🇱Chilean realness, love, peace, yararryara.

Ir de cubertada. (To go around as deckload) Comes from how the cubertada is transported on the upper deck, the exterior of the ship, therefore is not involved with the lower decks.

A little something for the @terrorculturesandlanguagesfest

Based on:

I was gifted a sailing encyclopedia for my birthday and let me tell you it's the fucking best. It has a glossary on hispanic (Coast of Chile, Buenos Aires, Bogotá and Caracas) and english slang used aboard ships- such pages cointain the most loveliest of caricatures also so I couldn't help myself upon finding a perfect saying and a perfect caricature for Hickey and Crozier. II would love to do more in the future tbh

Jared Harris talking about filming The Terror with Tobias Menzies in Russell Potter's class at Rhode Island College, November 2018

I never knew you could hold moonlight in your hands