vee !! (no. 1 hero fan)

i think something a lot of people forget about heros character is that being praised for being "perfect" or "good at everything" and all things like that is. Not a good thing. everyone views it as good but the amount of praise and admiration he gets is extremely hurtful to him. whether its intentional or not the amount hes praised for things he does like good grades, college, cooking and cleaning etc. just sets huge expectations for him and makes him feel like its something he absolutely has to do or else everyone will be disappointed in him. hes almost never shown that kind of attention for his actual personality and how caring he is but rather what he accomplishes, and theres been so many points in his life where he isnt able to do those things because of his mental state (and cause nobody can live up to that much) no matter what he does, theres no way he'll always be able to meet everyones expectations for him so he will always feel like he is failing and not doing enough for everyone.He has so much that he wants to do in life and his own hobbies, but hes completely given up on them and everything that makes him happy just so that he doesnt disappoint his parents or other people who think too highly of him!! the amount people congratulate him for his achievements and everything hes capable of has given him extremely bad self esteem and a feeling that hell never be enough for everyone, but hes so closed off about it and will immediately mask his emotions because even showing negative emotions makes him feel like hes going to let everyone down and make them stop believing hes strong. Hes so focused on making sure everyone else is happy and nothing bad happens that he completely stops caring for himself and his own emotions, and that extreme kindness is what people should appreciate of him because its a trait that he has and will always live up to because its just how he is as a person and not something he could super easily not be able to do anymore. One of the only times in the game where hero is admired for who he is is when theyre sleeping at sunnys house and he describes hero as a person and why hell miss him ("HERO has always been someone you could rely on. He is wise, capable, loving, and always puts others above himself. He is the kind of person that will always make himself available to help you, even to a fault. You will really miss him.") all of heros friends truly do appreciate him for who he is, but he appears to repress his negative emotions towards himself so much that they assume he does as well and only feel a need to congratulate him for what he has done (it also really hurts to me that sunny doesnt talk/communicate enough to let hero know that hes one of the only ones who truly does see him and appreciate him for himself and want the best for him and what he wants uuuuu im really glad the game is told through sunnys perspective because he is so loving) when mari died, hero immediately fell into a deep state of depression and showed pretty much every sign of being suicidal, meaning he could no longer look after everyone and do things like cooking or his school work so he was extremely aware that everyones expectations for him were going to be ruined and that they wouldnt think hes doing everything right and well anymore. so im sure its understandable that after kel says "mari wouldnt want to see you like this", hero interprets it as "mari would be disappointed that youre like this too" and all of the hatred hes built up for himself and his lack of perfection comes out in the form of lashing out at him, but unfortunately for him showing that amount of anger just makes his situation even worse because it changes how kel views him permanently. even though kel is genuinely proud of hero and how hes gotten better and proud to be his brother, he will always be hurt by what happened and hero will have to live knowing hes permanently hurt someone who he loved the most because he felt like he wasnt good enough for them.

mari was also one of the only people who actually showed support in heros hobbies and dreams like cooking and things other people wouldve called silly, she was the only true support he was able to get and that made him appreciate himself more, so wehn mari died he didnt only lose her as a person and the whole friend group, he lost the only bit of belief he had left that he would be able to do what he enjoys in life and be free from everyone elses harsh expectations and enjoy the freedom that comes with being an adult

thank you @defonotacat for tagging me! <3

3 ships: eruri (the most tragic and sexy ship ever), beabato (perfect male wife and girlboss energy) and satorika/labmdabern (killsbians my beloved)

first ever ship: like first ever ever? clara and prince eric, i loved it when i was 3 years old and i still love it now

last song: sleeping beauty op.66 th13 act 1:6 valse

last movie: christmas carol i think

currently reading: before the coffee gets cold by toshikazu kawaguchi

currently watching: nothing, all my shows ended so it's yt time and watching long analysis about stuff i don't really care about

currently consuming: leftover christmas candy

currently craving: to be hugged maybe hah

3 ships: Satorika, Lisasuzy and Jaderoxy! I love crazy transgender people <3

1st ever ship: Definitely palletshipping/garyash. I loved that ship as a kid and tbh? It's still good now.

Last song: Mary on a Cross by Ghost. Best song in the danm world along with Lady Gaga's Bloody Mary

Last movie: Uhhh Lovely Bones (2009) I think!

Currently reading: Happy Kanako's Killer Life! It's soooo cute she's so silly

Currently watching: Game Changer on Dropout.tv!

Currently consuming: Nothing! I'm sitting in a doctor's office rn getting medicated in a real cute outfit. The doctor even brought me a pink clipboard and match

Currently craving: Boba tea, which I'm about to go get! ^_^

first ship: ???????????

last song: rhythm + control by aesthetic perfection

last movie: same as op, a christmas carol (the 1984 one specifically)

currently reading: the last metal by brandon sanderson !!!!!!!!!!! sorry if u arent a cosmere fan you wont understand

currently watching: well i still need to finish succession i guess

currently consuming: mixed appetizers

currently craving: a haircut

first ship: idk

last song: calico by fever the ghost (its sooo groovie)

laat movie: angry birds movie with my frind

currently reading: wings of fire graphic novel 6

currently watxhing: new fnaf interview vido also with my friend cos we r hanging out

currently consuming: granola bar

currently craving: chili

Three ships: Suntan (Omori) (Sunny x Kel), whatever the hell im supposed to call Vakama x Matau (Bionicle), idk I can't think of a third one help

First ship: uhh probably Freezerburn (RWBY) (Weiss x Yang)

Last song: "SCAPEG♾T" by GHOST

Last movie: Guillermo Del Toro's Pinocchio

Currently reading: The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson

Currently watching: Cowboy Bebop (1998)

Currently consuming: Cheese :)

Currently craving: Cheese :)

3 ships: Sunnflower, Bingyuan, annddd umm!!!! Hananene!

First ship: I don't remember...... ???

Last song: ヒカレイノチ - Kitri

Last movie: The Addams Family Values

Currently reading: Forever, as he had promised (a fic ahhehehe)

Currently watching: Little Women

Currently consuming: chocolate yummy

Currently craving: my friends infodumping me hell yeah

3 Ships: I like most ships. Though if I were to choose 3 it'd be HeroMari, Krusie, and Lumity

First Ship: Don't know XD

Last Song: Musician - Porter Robinson

Last Movie: Coraline (This was on Halloween XD)

Currently Reading: Zelda Twilight Princess Comic Book

Currently Watching: By The Grace Of The Gods

Currently Consuming: Swirl Cookies 🍪

Currently Craving: Drawing, playing rpg games, planning out my rpg game and aus

3 Ship: Sunburn a.k.a Sunny x Aubrey (Omori), Nightwing x Starfire (DC Comics), Amourshipping a.k.a Ash x Serena (Pokémon)

First ship: Ness x Paula (Earthbound)

Last song: Sonic Underground theme song

Last movie: Die Hard (watched it on Christmas!)

Currently reading: Reckless Abandon by 2m8tos (it's on fanfiction.net)

Currently watching: Static Shock

Currently consuming: Pepperoni Pizza!

Currently craving: for my AU to end up in those weird crossovers, like the hunger games thing that just happened/motivation to keep writing/friendship/voice acting gigs

Tagging:

Wow! I guess I have an online friend! Yay!

3 Ship: uhhhhhhhhhh. Paintball (Kel x Mincy), Dream Team (Sunny x Madotsuki), Kimbrey (Kim x Aubrey)

First ship: No idea

Last song: ......1000 Doors by The Living Tombstone

Last movie: GUILLERMO DEL TORO'S PINNOCHIO GO WATCH IT

Currently reading: idk

Currently watching: YouTube babyyyyy

Currently consuming: Taco wrap thingies

Currently craving: the A Hat In Time fandom to revive itself

Tagging: uhhhhhh

3 ships: suntan, photobomb, and kimbrey

First ship: i dont remember LMAOO

Last song: laplaces angel by will wood

last movie: sonic 2

currently reading: nothing

currently watching: schaffrillas productions 6 hour long bojack horseman analysis

currently consuming: werthers originals caramels

currently craving: cookie

3 ships: lumity, paperboat, and... photobomb. sure.

first ship: uh... i think it was ruby x sapphire (steven universe)

last song: i want you by mitski

last movie: on the basis of sex (ruth bader ginsburg documentary on netflix) (highly recommend)

currently reading: last night at the telegraph club by malinda lo. live laugh love lesbians!

currently watching: kallmekris's video on the ant hill kids

currently consuming: wint o green lifesavers. i might be addicted.

currently craving: a warm blanket tbh

three ships: Sunflower (🤍), Kimbrey, and… OOOH Batterie (the batter x zacharie) from hit game OFF 👍👍

first ship: …it was probably Michael x Ennard from fnaf 😭😭 that was back when I was twelve though I’d consider Sunflower to be like, my first true ship that I became crazy about

last song: フラットライン (Flatline) by Kikuo :3 (please listen to Kikuo please please plea-)

last movie: The Wild Robot (I’ve yet to finish it though we started it in class last week)

currently reading: I haven’t read a book that wasn’t for anything school related in so long but I was a Wings of Fire kid back then :D

currently watching: la rosa de Guadalupe jksjsjsj

currently consuming: popcorn !!

currently craving: drawing Sunflower 💔💔

Three ships: Sunflower (Sunny X Basil), Kelbrey (Kel X Aubrey), and Sockathon (Sock X Johnathon). First two are from Omori, third is from Welcome To Hell :3

First ship: Also Mennard/Enchael 💀 (Michael X ennard from fnaf) (specifically in gacha vids ofc)

Last song: Cat’s Cradle - Pyrefly Forest, from Omori. Buttt the last song I was humming was You Are My Sunshine TvT

Last movie: Cruela (it’s so freaking good istg and I love how we literally see her mental health decline throughout the movie in a way that makes you feel kinda empathetic for her) (I’ll stop rambling now)

Currently (re)reading: Magnus Chase And The Gods Of Asgard by Rick Riordan

Currently watching: my mental health decline in real time

Currently consuming: Ice water :3

Currently craving: Physical touch, affection, love, and also fanart of my favorite ships bc for some reason there isn’t enough of a lot of them and it hurts my entire freaking soul istg-

Three ships: Sunflower (OMORI), Harujion (Saihate Station), Momokarun (DanDaDan)

First ship: Ough I can't remember, I think it was MoanaXTe Fiti when I was a kid because I was projecting like crazy and wanted to be lesbian with a goddess fuzodbdukd, but I remember looking through karmagisa fics on Wattpad. I would also ship myself with kaga kusha from yansim hfoebfjdl

Last song:... I'm that predictable. Otonoke (Sena Kiryuin version)

Last movie: Mmmhmmm the fucking MINECRAFT MOVIE LOLLLL

Currently reading: The Summer Hikaru Died

Currently watching:...Miraculous Ladybug season 6. I AM DISEASED.

Currently consuming: Irish green tea (i Will consume. I'm still in my towel lmfao)

Currently craving: more Harushion and THE ENGLISH TRANSLATION FOR THE DLC HIIISSSSSS

Three ships I like: Hmm, I'm not too much of a shipper nowadays but I can enjoy any of the main omori ships!! Heromari is my favorite though :) I also enjoy the MLB love-square hehehe

First ship: OOOF I really don't remember, but if I had to guess, probably Sunny and Starflight from Wings of Fire? Maybe? I really wasn't that much of a shipper until like, the pandemic-ish so I don't remember CYOHPHCPVHP

Last song I heard: I play project sekai so it was Stella!!

Last movie I watched: There was a local film club festival just this weekend so it was an amateur mockumentary of some schoolteachers!

Currently reading: CRIME AND PUNISHMENTTTTTTT AAAAAA I LOVE THIS BOOK SO MUCH it's so peak bro

Currently watching: Nothing atm D: I don't make much time for shows except my main ones (doctor who and miraculous ladybug, BUT I WATCH THOSE WITH MY SISTER AND SHE NEVER COMES OVER TO WATCH THEM IM GOING TO TWEAK

I know you're seeing this. I know you stalk my socials. Grrr... Come over so we can finish themmmmmm)

Currently consuming: my saliva :)

Currently craving: chocolate sounds good rn fr

YIPPEEEE THATS IT!!! Aight time to whip out the people I'm tagging that I wanna get to know because I don't interact much with people here... but I wanna.... And also people I think are cool ahem anyways WHAPAM!!! @dark-lord-lumi @duck-mann @tsunih @herochuu @pepperpeltz @saucebou @snowdraconic06 @akindredskillet @alpinesquib @patiencekilljoypk @sketch-traits @yonkagem @spinnileaf @br0-k3n-sch00lb01 @pickledmintpie @carlostck @clegfly @starrysilv3rse @b33viemm @goooseroni @mon-chert @knifecroww

Aha... That's... Totally nine people trust !! (/J PLEASE I WANTED TO ADD SO MANY PEOPLE so I did!! AHAHAHAHA NOTHINGS STOPPING ME!!) /NF if you wanna do this or not!! 100% up to you :D And even if I didn't tag you but you want to do this or get to know me, PLEASE REACH OUT I LOVE TALKING WITH PEOPLEEEEE :D ALSO TYTY AGAIN TOST FOR TAGGING ME :DDD

three ships i like: kelbrey, heromari and eternalmilk!!!

first ship: HHHH I DONT REALLY REMEMBER I THINK IT WAS FP AND FINN FROM ADVENTURE TIMe OR DOGGY X BUNNY FROM PIGGY

last song i heard: mass anasthesia🔥🔥 its so good..

last movie i watched: PERFECT BLUE…IT WAS SO TRAUMATISING, 10/10

currently reading: nothing atm

currently consuming: lime and chili lays chips…

currently craving: mangoes

now its my turn to tag people..