I think part of getting better is complete ego death. Like you’re not above setting a timer for 5 minutes and focusing on a task. You’re not above doing a very simple 3 minute workout to start. You’re not above reading for 10 minutes a day when you first get out of your reading slump, even if you used to read for hours. You’re not above starting slow and then building up to where you want to be/where you once were. What you are above is total inertia. Doing something really is better than doing nothing. Radically accept where you are, radically accept your limits, and go from there. Don’t let your ego get in the way.

hate your life? make a whole new one. sitting in my apartment reflecting how everything i’m doing would sound insane to me 6 months ago. I’m obsessed with reinventing myself

You literally just have to get really good at continuing.

realizing nothing can fill my void other than doing everything i promised myself i would do

Let people miss you. Let things unfold without your interference. Let life surprise you. Control is exhausting, trust is freedom.

Not every day has to count. Some days are for repairing, resting, mourning. You don't have to perform every day. Some days are for doing nothing. For sleeping all day or being on your phone. Relaxing is ok, allowed and encouraged. Do what you need to do.

when you realize that routines are actually rituals of devotion to yourself & your dreams they become much easier to follow

How lucky we are to experience boring, ordinary, uneventful days. Somewhere in the world, that kind of safety is unimaginable.

beautiful things happen when you are consistent and when you are devoted to yourself