to be wanted more than anything.

hey guys, you may have noticed that i've been pretty absent on this blog lately! i've been more active on my sideblog @dearlycbeloved. i'm also considering trimming my F/O list down to just three (mr. CB, windsong, and aphelios) for personal reasons. i might either remake properly or just turn this into a hub blog or something. i can't foresee using my main like i used to, not because of anything bad but because i feel like i'm moving on from most of these F/Os. the love wasn't wasted, it brought me closer to where i need to be :]

i'm hanging out on my other blog tn @dearlycbeloved

i've been having some weird mix of icepick cluster occipital neuralgia (?) Painful In My Head since last night but that did not stop me from staying up late as hell so now i take a nap because i am so special and i deserve it

the misogyny on this website is fucking insane right now because why are some people trying to Umm Ackshually and go "the patriarchy doesn't benefit ANYONE actually 🤓 " actually i think it benefits men! it benefits some men less than it benefits others sometimes but that's the fucking thing privilege is relative it's not like pokemon types where it "sometimes get cancelled out 🥺" or whatever. mark my fucking words we are going to be seeing posts soon about how misogyny "isn't real" either or about how it "hurts men just as much as it hurts women!!!!!"

i love my sini my best friend ever literally my favorite #mysini it's 6:30 in the fuckin morning and i'm trying not to audibly laugh because i'm talking to it

everytime i actually play hsr too i remember how much lingsha means to me... she legally owns the back of my neck i think. it doesn't feel right to imagine anyone but her kissing me there. also, she'd coo and fuss over me after she's been working all day and curl up in bed with me like "hi, my baby" and just breathe me in and hold me so close to her