actually there's one thing that would make me feel better and is sending two (2) people a kys text but I guess I won't

and I don't even smoke weed anymore or enjoy any food in particular or like going to the movies or can concentrate on reading for long enough it's just endless suffering with no distractions

can't speak without thinking every single word through, can't think so much that I realise that the best choice not to speak , can't be seductive or unattractive , can't be affectionate or keep my distance, all of this has been punished... well anyway

every time something bad has happened to me I have tried to learn from it but all the knowledge amounts to nothing I'm afraid

the trauma of bullying is something I don't even want to look at because what do you mean people were insulting me and throwing stuff at me and sticking chewing gum on my hair every day and nobody ever did anything, nobody adult or peer thought I was worth protecting, my feelings were invisible or insignificant, every day

during elementary school I had a period of time where Every Day as I walked home from school I was thinking "today has been the worst day of my life"

imagine if you could have sex with a random man and know for certain that he would be at least decent at it and not a murderer

just started Famesick and the whole first part about how nice it was to be in her early 20s partying with friends from uni and belonging in an artists' community is making me sewer sidal

goes back in time and gives my parents a condom

walking to places and stuff feels like an insurmountable chore lately

I'm like the sixth useless finger that someone is born with and gets cut off

guys I can't my whole life has sucked so bad