my "suicidal hermit" lifestyle has been largely detrimental to my emotional wellbeing

being an early bird is soooo awesome taking the longest slowest most leisurely start to the day and it is now 8:25am

And this is of course not even mentioning the worm

pjackk is kindof a dead wife who came back wrong but nobody can tell because nobody liked him the first time around either

they’re desecrating his corpse

i need a new computer and i’ve been keeping an eye on the apple refurb store for one with specs i’d like - m4/m5 macbook pro w/24gb ram and 512gb ssd but there hasn’t been a restock of the m4 mbp since march so i’m assuming they’re scarce - and a few m5s have popped up but i keep psyching myself out of the purchase when i see the price and thinking ‘i’m not paying that much for this shit’. i think i’m trying to persuade myself into thinking that maybe i could just get a 13” macbook air with the same specs and save a few hundred dollars, especially if an m4 air pops up, but i’m not confident enough that it’s a good long-term set up for using photoshop/lightroom and blender. even though i’m only doing fairly simple stuff in blender for 3d printing, i’m not like animating or doing crazy sculpting, and at this point in my life my adobe usage is like hobby-level at most and maybe once every few years am i processing a bunch of pictures. and i’ve been doing all this, albeit sometimes slowly and with some occasional program crashing, on a 2015 macbook pro with 16gb ram/ 512gb ssd, so whatever i get is going to be an insane upgrade either way?? people on reddit feel strongly about the macbook pro for adobe cc and 3d programs but when i look at if a macbook air can handle those things it seems like it’d be fine actually, especially considering my very low ambition. but i don’t knowwwww. can someone send me $1700 so i don’t have to debate about this. or at least tell me if i would regret getting the air.

somebody tell me what to do

i would have engraved "bring back the oa netflix"

on what ?

On everything in sight

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i need a new computer and i’ve been keeping an eye on the apple refurb store for one with specs i’d like - m4/m5 macbook pro w/24gb ram and 512gb ssd but there hasn’t been a restock of the m4 mbp since march so i’m assuming they’re scarce - and a few m5s have popped up but i keep psyching myself out of the purchase when i see the price and thinking ‘i’m not paying that much for this shit’. i think i’m trying to persuade myself into thinking that maybe i could just get a 13” macbook air with the same specs and save a few hundred dollars, especially if an m4 air pops up, but i’m not confident enough that it’s a good long-term set up for using photoshop/lightroom and blender. even though i’m only doing fairly simple stuff in blender for 3d printing, i’m not like animating or doing crazy sculpting, and at this point in my life my adobe usage is like hobby-level at most and maybe once every few years am i processing a bunch of pictures. and i’ve been doing all this, albeit sometimes slowly and with some occasional program crashing, on a 2015 macbook pro with 16gb ram/ 512gb ssd, so whatever i get is going to be an insane upgrade either way?? people on reddit feel strongly about the macbook pro for adobe cc and 3d programs but when i look at if a macbook air can handle those things it seems like it’d be fine actually, especially considering my very low ambition. but i don’t knowwwww. can someone send me $1700 so i don’t have to debate about this. or at least tell me if i would regret getting the air.

and a third part of me is like maybe i’ll just get my battery replaced at microcenter or whatever to hold me over for a bit, but it would be like $150, because the battery is more complicatedlyyy attached in my old ass mbp, and i’m like well i don’t actually want to spend $150 for a bandaid for my old and slow computer.

unconvinced i'll ever find "the vitamin" that makes me all better so i can get real work done but i do expect they'll elucidate whatever my deal was post-mortem, after which what i did manage to accomplish with my life will be regarded on the level of Beethoven composing despite being deaf or Gordon Ramsay cooking despite being british