My daily life as a students

I am judged, I am paralyzed

Nobody could understand, this chest closing the lights

Words crawled unending pain

Holding the tears growing in my eyes, from the words that's playing with my brain

Eyes are drowing but I'm still holding in

It's nothing new, been through this for ages, can't tell how I've been

I am here but I am unseen

Did things for people only for making me feel I am a burden

I can not cry, I can't just scream

It will be then my fault if I let this stream

I am still holding

But until when?

I want to let go, oh I really want to!

But they would not understand no matter what I try to do

I am helpless, but I have hopes

that send lightening bolts

d

o

w

n

your spine.

Haunting. Daunting.

Inviting and enticing. 

His fingers are long but strong,

tree limbs on the trunk of his hand.

They bend and beckon. 

He makes me say "oh god"

As if I were not an

ex-communicated Catholic.

He wreaks havoc in my heart.