#good student

✞︎ Mikasa (20) had a very bad reputation, she fights a lot, smokes, parties all the time, her goth style intimidates others and they wisphered rumors that she slept with lots of guys etc... And Eren (19) is in the same class as her, top of the class with his best friend Armin, is quite distant and discreet, doesn't interfere in anything.

✞︎ One day when he comes home, he's walk in an empty corridor like every normal days, when suddenly, a hand with very long black and red nails pulls his shirt and slams it against the wall, it's goth Mimi and she looks at him with a little devilish smile and says : "Hi pretty boy."

✞︎ Eren's a bit panicky, but basically, Mikasa's going to ask him to help her because in two weeks, it's the final assignment, but she's not ready. Eren at first refuses, and even rather sassy with her, telling her it's a little too late to ask at the end, or maybe it's better to stop parties and instead study for a better life, but Mikasa is desperate so she almost begs him (she's having very heavy conflicts with her parents so that's why she's like that at school). When Mikasa at the end tries to seduce him in a last attempt, Eren leaves, saying it's none of his business, not wanting to get involved in serious trouble, telling her in a more angry way it's also because the group she's with had also made cruelly fun of Armin, and had torn up one of his favorite books. (He leaves, hiding that he's blushing because yeah, he can't lie she's absolutely beautiful, her light gray eyes are the most beautiful eyes he's ever seen.)

✞︎ He sees her again in the library the other day, all alone with too many books, being panicked, and he decides to come and help her. He can't help wanting to help her, seeing that she looked really sincere and...He wants to see her eyes again, look into them again...

✞︎ And so for a while, they're going to be in the library, and so begins a kind of friends to lovers, and we progressively learn that Mikasa from the beginning always looked at Eren from afar, wanted to talk to him but was too embarrassed to, his glasses and his laugh made her want to get to know him, she saw in him a kindness that the others didn't have, that she'd like to rub shoulders with, even if she didn't think she deserved it. And Eren saw her too, but just wasn't interested in the conflict since she hang out with unkind people.

✞︎ She fell first but he fell harder...way harder 🔥

✞︎ And more and more, Mikasa start to teasing him a lot, starting to have quite a bit of physical tension, and surprisingly...Eren reacts in a really hot and flirtatious way the more they get to know each other, and this makes Mikasa shy (despite the rumors, she dates actually just two guys that didn't last) and she's also very very jealous because Eren at first was talking a lot with a girl from their class, like the "perfect" girl, and it escalates pretty fast, until Mikasa decide to distance herself and avoid him for a couple days, even weeks. But during a party, Eren is trying to find her because it's the day before assessments...

✞︎ ...And he sees her with her group, Eren tries to take her hand so they can leave, but Mikasa refuse, telling him to leave, that she doesn't care about him, too afraid of her own feelings. When Eren start to walk away, defeated and sad, he hears behind him a guy saying : "Well, my favorite slut is back, come here baby" And everything happens fast : He gets furiously mad, extremely enranged and beats the guy so violently infront of everyone until someone stop him. He wouldn't have stop.

✞︎ The night ends with Eren taking Mikasa home and just before she leaves, he kisses her passionately, his hands still with the other guy's blood, telling her that from now on, she is his, that no one would treat her badly anymore, he doesn't care about the consequences, he wants her. Madly.

"I'll do it, as many times as it takes, over and over again, if it's to get you in my arms at the end."

✞︎ And in bed, Eren is actually the most bold and the unhinged one...🔥 Lots of dirty talk, pretty rough, can't stop looking at her to observe every little tiny reactions of her because he loves that's it's him who can make her feel like this, and Mikasa who thought she had power at first, let herself lose control, and discover sensations she'd never experienced before thanks to Eren, she'd never have thought for a second he'd be like this, but the learning of this curious and irresistible pleasure is magical, trusting him and being vulnerable enough with him to show him her true self.

✞︎ Eren has never once judged Mikasa and doesn't give a damn about her past, about the rumours, if it's true or false, (now that she's his girlfriend, he's still become very jealous and possessive and he doesn't hide it) Because he wants to hear her truth, when she's ready to truly talk about her life. He's fallen madly in love with her, with her laugh, with the little things she likes, for instance when she goes home, she always secretly feeds two lonely little cats, he also learns that she was the mysterious person who had placed Armin's brand-new book beside his door. He loves everything about those little things of her.

✞︎ Mikasa had gone into a unhealthy spiral, thinking that she only deserved to be with that kind of person because of the conflicts with her parents and what she was hearing, her father and mother argued constantly at home since she's a child, and when her father, during an argument, said that the problem started when they made a child, she felt unbearably rejected, unloved, and totally alone...

I'm appreciative of being smart and a good student righttt- BUT FUCKING HELL THE PRAISE IS TOO NYCH

I've got so many useless certificates, it's actually insane- I get invited to all this shit and stuff... The teachers really like me, sure, but they expect me to do everything and more 😭

I think the worst thing was that I decided in my Senior year that I would not participate in my phys ed class. I had Senior projects and a bunch of other things that were going on at home, so during that time I just followed two other girls around with mild commentary so I could plan the rest of my day. Most freeing hours I've ever taken for myself.