HazelHealer

I realised a while back that we live in a crazy world that is hard to comprehend and even today it seems to be getting crazier. 

I feel I’ve been deceived many times, trusting too much that relationships I had  with various people had my best interests at heart without realising that this trusting without really discerning can be a dangerous thing.

Since realising how much I haven’t been in my power, still treating myself as small and putting other people on a pedestal. Allowing myself to believe for so long that I was not as good as the people around me. Starting as a mother issue, you could even say taking on my mothers issues. 

Always being small has affected my life in so many ways, I’ve been scared of responsibility, I’ve never really progressed to a management position, because I’ve always been told what to do and I’m beginning to feel more uncomfortable with this than ever before, I’ve been criticised more than supported or encouraged. When I’ve been in control I’ve had amazing experiences but when I listen to this criticism and control of these authority figures - I’ve done myself a disservice. 

I made the mistake of listening to other peoples doubt and taking it on, doubting myself when I know I’m perfectly capable. I have been too trusting of my mother, teacher, lovers thinking they must have my best interests at heart, when really always being discerning is a far better approach if I wish to live the life I truly love, with no regrets.

Yes it is true we are all human and our we all have room to grow and learn, We can definitely learn from each other but be careful not to give yourself away, find your center, find what truly makes your heart sing and be your own best friend. Trust yourself you know what feels expansive and what feels dependent.