A place for my thoughts & selfie's

Very first photo with my new camera 📷 🤓 Canon Rebel t7 is my absolute favorite 🤓 #newcamera #canonrebelt7 #photography #petphotographer #petportrait photographer #cats #catsofinstagram #lokikitty https://www.instagram.com/p/CnrhCoDLiMp/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

I have the best boyfriend ever ❤️🖤 So supportive of me & my hobbies it really does make a difference 🥰🥰 Even supporting my makeup side hustle ❤️🖤 #love #longdistancerelationship #christmas https://www.instagram.com/p/CmZE4xTLO91/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#flashbackfriday To prove I’m still here 🤷🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️ Keep forgetting to post here but here’s a great #farmasi look using my #blackcherrymattelipstick & #sheincurve just continues to wow me 💚🖤 #farmasimakeup #shein #makeup https://www.instagram.com/p/Clrm0Afplh_/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Today is #worldmentalhealthday 02/04/21 is the day my world at the time exploded. I constantly had a mental & emotional abuse struggle that was unaddressed at the time. That night I fought for my life mentally & I fought just to exist. Everything in my mind kept telling me “it’s not worth it”, “no one will understand”, “no one will truly love you”, so on & so on. I went to a very very dark place. One of my best friends stayed on the phone with me that night so I stayed distracted. Second picture is post anxiety attack. Third picture is a bit of the torment mentally. It took months for me to realize I really needed to try to get my anxiety & depression under control. Now I’m on month 18 of active recovery for the struggle. The last picture of this post is from Sunday where I have a light in my eyes & smile on my face. The lies I believed of no one will love me God answered above anything I could have ever asked for. To from abused & traumatized to now finally confident & truly loved & adored is only by the grace of God 🙏🏻❤️🖤 #anxiety #anxietyawareness #depressionawareness #worldmentalhealthday #ptsdawareness #ptsdrecovery #anxietyrecovery https://www.instagram.com/p/Cji6kmvJLRU/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

12 years ago #braincancer took my mom. Every day I miss her. Now 12 years later I’m to the point at times I forget what her voice sounded like. I’m told every day I’m her twin & I see it more & more. A lot has happened over those 12 years some good & a lot of bad. I really do wonder what you would say now 💜🖤 Today was rough but I have felt more loved & cared for than years past 🖤 #braincancer #braincancersucks https://www.instagram.com/p/CiqkST9JTPk/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

The many different moods of my Loki kitty 😹😹😹 How I forgot yesterday was #gingercatappreciationday 🤷🏼‍♀️😹 So here’s my favorite #gingercat 😹 Life definitely isn’t dull with this one & nights definitely aren’t filled with sleep 🙄😹😹 #catsofinstagram #lokikitty #catstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/CiBdvEJJx-i/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Today was a red hot look 🔥💋 My #vivideyeshadowpalette give so much life to my blue eyes 💋 Complete with #doublelashextendmascara & #redhotmattelipstick #farmasius #blueeyes #redlips #selfiesunday https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch0JgN4JuoR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Had to play around with my new makeup today 🥰🥰 My blue eyes were so much brighter today ❤️🖤 #makeup #farmasius #blueeyes #nudelip #refreshed https://www.instagram.com/p/CexVAXFNJC4/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

My favorite skincare routine #skincare #drctuna #farmasius #teatree https://www.instagram.com/p/CewIk2KLxag/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Nothing like new makeup beginnings ❤️🖤 Super excited to be apart of the @farmasiofficial family 💋💄#makeup #skincare #farmasius #farmasiunboxing #messageme https://www.instagram.com/p/Cet076FJPjz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

A new me for this #selfiesunday Welcome back Ashley Nicole ❤️🖤 To go from struggling for 16 months to now not just surviving but victorious & thriving 🙏🏻🙌🏻 The weight lifted off my shoulders was tremendous 💁🏼‍♀️ #makeup #boohoobabes #finallyfree #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #butgod🙌 #loved #worththewait #worthy #thankful #thankgod https://www.instagram.com/p/Cetv0e_JwfN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Just another week where I forget to post my makeup pictures from Sunday 🤦🏼‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️ It’s the winged eyeliner & real smile for me ❤️🖤 #makeup #morphefeelinflirty #happiness #loved #worthit https://www.instagram.com/p/CegiPXjrgsS/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Today was hard 🖤 But my story will still be told at another date. Here’s another @sheinofficial find. Perfect fit & appropriate for my court date today 🖤 #sheinhaul #sheincurve #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #morphefeelinflirty https://www.instagram.com/p/CeUR3gQJkhp/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Just another Sunday makeup post covering a stress breakout & a new dress from @sheinofficial 💙💙 One of the worst weeks mentally but I’m getting better 🖤 #makeup #morphefeelinflirty #sheincurve #shein #mentalhealthmatters https://www.instagram.com/p/CePQHSOJwIn/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Really hate the breakout this time but well stress 🤷🏼‍♀️😂 Here’s my before makeup & after makeup today 💋💋 My green concealer to the rescue 😂🖤 #makeup #makeupoftheday #morphefeelinflirty #morphenudelipstick #selfiesunday #blueeyes https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd37h3GJcOi/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

It’s the smallest things that mean the most 🌹🌹 #worthit #neverbeenhappier #myfavoriteflower https://www.instagram.com/p/CdnyAOireLP/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Some Sundays you just got to wear the dress 👗👗 Nailed the winged eye liner today & that smile 😍😍 #selfiesunday #catoconfident #morphetalkinflirty #newmakeup #happy #loved #worthy https://www.instagram.com/p/Cdmd_I2o9Ty/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=