(pairing: bf! jeonghan x gn! reader)
there's nothing more you love than kissing jeonghan.
and not just a quick peck (although those are always very nice to experience as well)-the slow and sensual and intimate make out sessions he loves to indulge in.
he's currently underneath you, sitting in the middle of the couch. his hands are gently caressing your skin, from your bare ankles that are resting beside his thighs, to your own thighs, to the soft skin of your waist underneath his shirt that you have stolen, all the way to the back of your neck and cheeks.
all while lazily and slowly kissing you, taking all of his time with you.
your own hands are busy fiddling with his short black hair, now constantly at this length due to his enlistment.
you thought the enlistment would be harder on you two, that you would miss him so much.
but as it turns out, it's even better than you have ever imagined. he gets home every night by 9pm at the latest, where a dinner always awaits for him. he has slept next to you every night, which rarely happens when he's busy being an idol.
you get to see him every day, and you have never been happier about it.
his whole body is relaxed, his brain feels like he's under the influence, intoxicated by you and your kisses.
the back of his head is resting on the back of the couch, letting you turn his face in the direction you want as you kiss him slowly. each stroke and pull on his thin lips has him humming in appreciation. his tongue masterfully dances with your own, meeting for a brief moment before he pulls away, his lips enclosing around one of yours and slowly pulling on it before they separate, only for him to repeat his moves all over again.
nothing about this feels even remotely sexual, even when you can feel his half hard on underneath your hips. but whenever you try to grind on him, he stops you with his grips on your hips, mumbling against your lips that "i just want to kiss you. don't overthink it. just let me kiss you, my angel."
he just...missed you, so much.
even when he gets to see you every night, he misses you. he wants to spend days next to you-the few hours he gets instead just don't cut it.
almost as you can sense the inner turmoil that he has going on, you pause your kisses for a moment to mumble against his raw and red lips "what's on your mind, love?"
he doesn't respond for a second, as he physically can't stop kissing you.
mumbling in raw and hoarse voice, he responds "i miss you. miss you so much, baby."
you make a little sound of confusion as he proceeds to kiss you yet again, his arms wrapping around your back in an effort to pull you closer, until your chest are touching.
"but i'm right here? you see me every night, hannie. i'm not going anywhere."
he grabs your cheeks with one hand, which makes you open your eyes to look at him. his eyebrows are furrowed, eyes dark, like they usually are when he starts to get a bit upset.
"it's not enough. a few hours i get with you aren't enough. i want days with you."
he pauses for a second as he presses a slow and gentle kiss on your cheek, right beside his thumb that is pressing your cheek.
"wanna spend a whole week with you, uninterrupted."
next is a kiss next to your ear.
"wanna wake up to your kisses, not to an alarm."
"wanna make love to you the whole night, not just for an hour."
a kiss and a soft suckle on your neck.
"wanna...be with you. every day, the whole day."
he starts sucking on your collarbone next, which makes you gasp and head fall back.
he stays there for a few seconds, leaving his mark on your skin, almost as if he wants to make up for what he has just admitted.
in a deep whisper, he then admits
"there won't ever be enough time i could spend with you. i want to be right beside you every day, until my last breath. a few hours a night doesn't cut it for me. i miss being with you during the day too. miss being home with you. you are always on my mind, even when i have to work. i end up missing you all the time. i just...i love you so much, i long for you. even when i know i will see you in a few hours."
his admission makes your eyes water a bit, lips quiver and heart break.
while you were so grateful that he could even spend those few hours a night with you, he has been hiding all of these feelings away from you. he wants you so much, he isn't satisfied with just a few hours like you are.
the realisation makes you wrap your arms around his neck, hugging him closer to your body, tightly. his face buries itself deeper inside your neck, making him get a deep whiff of your scent, which makes him close his eyes in appreciation. his arms, now buff and muscley, wrap themselves around your back again, pulling you impossibly closer.
and then you just sit there, you on his lap. hugging each other. him smelling your neck, you pushing your nose deeper in his short hair.
you stay silent as you just...breathe each other's presence in, soft fingers caressing each other-your own being buried in his soft hair, while his are hidden under the shirt you are wearing, drawing silly patterns on your back.
the longer you sit there, the later it gets, which means han will definitely not be getting his 8 hours of sleep. but that's okay for him. he doesn't need sleep.
jeonghan then wiggles his face away from your neck in order to kiss your cheek softly, whispering a little "i love you" directly in your ear.
you do the same, whispering "i love you too. so much." right back, even nuzzling your nose against his cheek a bit.
a few hours a night won't cut it.
but every minute you two get which other is so precious, jeonghan won't ever take it for granted ever again.
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