Hello! I was wondering if you maybe rec some very Angsty Victuuri fics? Possibly which revolves around Yuuri’s anxiety/depression? Thank you so much in advance!
Here are some angsty fics that deal with Yuuri's anxiety/depression:
Broken by rinsled05 / @dreaming-fireflies [T, 1K]
Yuuri knew his family loved him; there was never a doubt in his mind about that. But they had a hot spring inn to run, and, really, the last thing they needed was his fragile emotions pulling them away from more important things – far more important things. A story in which Yuuri's inner voices just refuse to go away. (
castle of cards by @simplydrasticvoldy [T, 3K]
“Can you pass the salt, please?”
Something tightens inside Yuuri’s chest and settles like a rock. “What are you reading?” he asks hurriedly, wanting to sound curious. He would’ve smiled too, but that would’ve looked cartoonish in this situation.
"Lincoln in the Bardo."
Victor answers as much was asked, nothing about the story, or the author, or something he might've found funny. Yuuri doesn’t try again, his throat closing up so fast he barely knows how to push his breakfast through. He just wants to get this over with and go to the rink; then maybe, just maybe, he’d be able to breathe again.
A week ago, they had a fight.
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In which they have an argument, a surge of mental breakdowns, miscommunication and emotional constipation follows, but their relationship only grows stronger out of it.
here comes a thought by @crossroadswrite [G, 7K]
Yuuri dreams about his last competition a lot. How could he not when it changed his life so viscerally.
In his dreams, it’s always falling. It’s never hitting the ground, because Yuuri knows what happens when he hits the ground – torn ACL, mild concussion and a nasty bruise on his head that had lasted for weeks. It’s never the pain he’s afraid of in his dreams, Yuuri’s well used to pain.
It’s the act of falling, the promise of pain and failure. It’s what falling means. It haunts Yuuri, even now when the bruise on his head is completely gone and his knee is slowly healing.
(Or: Yuuri struggles with being forced into retirement by an injury, Victor struggles with getting Yuuri to talk about it, and they still love each other through all of it.)
Hold Me Tight by @smudgesofink [T, 12K]
Katsuki Yuuri is not a tactile man. Anyone who’s spent a minute with him can tell you that much.
Victor, however—
To say that Victor is touchy-feely is the understatement of the century.
So when Victor just stops touching Yuuri, without explanation, without reason, it makes for a painfully jarring experience.
(Alternatively titled: Five Times Victor Hugs Yuuri, and the One Time He Doesn’t)
Nerve Endings by Phyona / @rageofthenerd [E, 74K]
When Yuuri moves in with Victor in St. Petersburg, they have to work through Yuuri's anxiety and Victor's secrets to find their balance.
Rivals series by Reiya / @kazliin [E, 452K]
An altered universe where a single event changes the course of both Yuuri and Viktor's lives, a rivalry is formed that spans across many years and both of them tell a very different side to the story
solo and pair by @calciseptinefic [T, 25K] *WIP
Yuuri keeps his mark hidden.
Undiscovered Country by @shysweetthing [E, 114K]
Yuuri wakes up in Victor’s room the night after the Sochi Grand Prix Final banquet. Did they sleep together? No. Instead, last night, Drunk Yuuri taunted Victor that he hadn’t earned the right to get in his pants…and spelled out exactly what Victor would have to do to get there.
Now, Victor intends to do everything on that list…
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“The conversation,” Victor says, “went something like this. You said I wasn’t getting in your pants that easily.”
Victor says this in a normal tone of voice. Anyone could hear him. Yuuri looks around, but if anyone is paying attention, they’re pretending not to.
“Naturally, I asked what I would have to do to get in your pants.”
“Ah.” Yuuri blushes. “How embarrassing. What do you mean, naturally? Why would you ask that?”
Victor tilts his head. “Because I want to get in your pants. I thought that much was obvious by now.”
Other recs are welcome!
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ETA - Other people's rec:
Yuuri Forgetting by Viktor Forgot by Mats / @hanarezu-ni
Thanks for the rec @a-midnight-luna! ❤
