It is kinda interesting because maybe "I'm not a person anymore, I'm a cute toy that miss can touch and use however she wants!" does reflect some true deeply held truths and feelings. A disidentification with humanity, a desire for contact, a need to be wanted. You know?
But just as much the eroticism comes from how embarrassing it is for it to say out loud so cheerfully. Its forced grin wobbles, it squeezes its knees together, and its double peace signs shake with anxiety. I think that if it didn't take some work to get it to say the line, it wouldn't be very hot for either of us. Thus we have to engage with it on both levels. Both as desire and both as fear.
Which is why I keep forcing it to say it out loud over and over again, to really get it in the right headspace and attain a more complete understanding. Meditating on it. And for no other reason.



















