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Leon Kennedy Tramp Stamp

Resident evil characters as tarot cards

louis gets to be black and desired, cherished and wanted with his whole personhood. louis gets to fuck up, be fucked up, forgive and be forgiven; he gets to be black and a whole person. claudia is disabled into helplessness by her little girl body that seems to keep signalling people to treat her like a boxed doll. its not a coincidence that she gets louis to plot against lestat by telling him he’s a kept thing, telling him he is all the things she experiences. the anger in her voice when she calls louis a slave, it feels situated against the incessant inertia she was always running on because she had no other choice.

in nola, its claudia micromanaging with an eye and ear on everyone. she nurses louis after the drop, she maintains the thread of their plotting. in europe, its claudia learning the languages, claudia keeping up the story, claudia maintaining hypervigillance. she notices the bombs about to blow while louis’ being woeful and hallucinating lestat. louis gets to be lost in lestats eyes; louis gets to dance with humans in romania; louis gets to run around paris ‘out on the streets’ while shrugging off armands warnings. louis gets to be careless, gets to be oblivious, gets to drown in his pain and still be protected and unconditionally loved. what louis couldnt even give her

Because I knew, from the moment I first watched Episode 1x04, when I saw the show gave Claudia more than one diary, that we were headed for the reveal from the book Merrick wrt to them both, taken from this passage from Claudia's diary:

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So yeah, I knew that this reveal, that we just finally got in EP306, was coming at some point.

I'd been saying so since Season 1, actually.

And because I did, I saw all the signs of it being set up, starting all the way back at EP105.

Yeah, when Claudia walked back into that house and was trying to get Louis to leave with her, I knew right then and there that she'd already come up with part of her plan to try to manipulate him into doing what she wanted.

That said, though? I didn't even guess about the train scene, that it was something she made up to do so -- not until a few weeks ago at least. I already thought it was false, but for other reasons, related to Armand trying to prevent Louis from wanting to end his life.

So yeah, I feel like I owe Armand an apology for that. He really had nothing to do with that scene and Louis' recollection of it. He, however, just knew how ruthless Claudia was, and was -- at least back in 1973 -- just trying to get Louis to open up his eyes to that.

Anyway, I do think Claudia did have love for Louis. Very much so, or she wouldn't have hated him as passionately as she did. Because, as has been said, the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference.

And Claudia was never indifferent about her fathers.

They failed her. Both of them. And there will never be a way for them to correct that.

And I will honestly never begrudge Claudia and her vengeance against them for it all.

But she did have it. And she acted on it. Because she was ruthless. A true vampire, a killer. She was raised to be such. And so did as such, even, yes, with Louis. Who was always just as culpable as Lestat was for the situation she was in.

Louis is self-aware of his selfishness at this point, as we know from EP305. Yeah, try to work on that fact about yourself, man. It won't ever make things with Claudia right, that will always be impossible. But hopefully it will help as you continue on.

And maybe... if you and Lestat ever have another daughter together (hi Rose!), this time you'll not fail her in the same way you did Claudia.

*sigh* Four years. Four years waiting for this reveal and moment. It really was, like, the second thing I most anticipated being adapted after Devil's Minion.

I wish they had just done it back in Season Two, at the trial, and gotten it over with then, but okay.

Daniel, that traumatized former slave from Delhi who was forced to submit to other men’s sexual predations did not unleash his inner repressed psychosexual fantasies on you during one memorable week in San Francisco for you to call him the bottomest bitch.