learning what dysthymia is and having a big realization
#tbh i can’t look back on any part of my childhood and feel nostalgia#i was just kind of persistently scared and unhappy#but if i had to pinpoint a Point#it was at it’s worst when i was in sixth grade#maybe started when i was in third?#everyone: wow she’s so mature for her age#yeah she is not enjoying her time on this earth and she’s only five years old lmao#i’m not mad at my parents for not intervening because how would you know?#i am mad that there was a lack of ?? gentleness with my emotions. and the solution was always well you’ll be skinny someday#because obviously i was only sad because i was fat#it’s probably deeply genetic tbh#the Behaviors on both sides of the family are interesting!#sorry i ate carbs and have become the Dweller
