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I have now had multiple people express interest in such an essay, and I need no further excuse to write one (technically one person was all the excuse I needed, there's just been more interest since I started on it).
@itsallalldeadair, @saltygalaxyruins
This topic is of particular interest to me because one of my earliest observations about Vox's behavior was on his relationship with physical touch, specifically in contexts where it isn't a requirement (so not while dancing, fighting, etc). The main thing that caught my attention was that, while he touches people a lot, he's rarely on the receiving end (and when he is, he doesn't seem to like it much). At the time, I theorized that he's either touch averse, or he acts like he is to maintain some emotional distance from the other Vees.
Since then, I've expanded my dataset to include all forms of social touch, and have embraced the Secret Third Option: other people touch him a normal amount, he's just so incredibly tactile that it seems rare by comparison. And what initially read as an aversion is, in fact, a pattern of tolerating even unwelcome contact.
Considering his poor boundaries around touch are literally a plot point in the show, it's hard to say whether he's intended to come across the way he does, or if it's one of those accidental representation things. But there's actually a real-world explanation for his behavior, and it's completely supported by canon.
(This got long. A very "be careful what you wish for" situation).
If you spend any amount of time watching how Vox interacts with his environment, it's quickly apparent that people aren't the only things he touches a lot. He's constantly tapping or drumming his fingers on things, running his hands over surfaces, leaning on furniture, messing with his clothes, and handling objects. If anything is close enough to touch, there's a high chance that he's touching it. If he isn't, he's either talking with his hands or tucking them behind his back (and even then, I've caught him tapping his fingers on his arm).
All of this is sensory seeking behavior, which occurs in people whose nervous systems require a high level of stimulation to meet sensory needs. Specifically, it's tactile seeking, which can also manifest as a strong desire for physical touch. And because it is a need, the sensory seeker will automatically try to satisfy it. Which can cause problems when the thing that satisfies it is something they shouldn't be doing.
For various reasons, tactile seekers often have trouble with personal space and boundaries.
People are less capable of noticing and responding to social cues, and more likely to act on impulse, when they're excited, stressed, or understimulated. These also happen to be the exact states of being that trigger sensory seeking behaviors, because the nervous system is trying to regulate itself.
The desired sensory input activates the brain's reward system, so the seeker may want to do The Thing even if they know they shouldn't.
While sensory seeking can occur on its own, it's more commonly seen alongside autism and ADHD, which have their own impact on impulsivity, social boundaries, and ability to recognize and interpret social cues.
It's also common for sensory seekers to suppress their needs (which leads to a whole different set of problems), or find ways to meet them without being obvious about it. Vox mostly falls into the latter category; while there are moments where he seems to do it without thinking, he tends to be very intentional with social touch, and consciously uses it to direct, influence, and ingratiate himself to others (or at least try).
Interestingly, he also seems to have a sense of boundaries, albeit one that's a little to the left of socially acceptable. While he freely touches strangers and acquaintances, most contact is restricted to the other party's shoulders, arms, and hands. Anything else is normally reserved for the other Vees and Alastor, and even then it's innocent touching; belittling or domineering sometimes, especially during Don't You Forget (Reprise), but never sexually inappropriate.
(Before anyone comes at me about the "Alastor doesn't have a tail" thing, do me a favor: find yourself a nice pair of socks (maybe two if they're ankle cut), roll them up, and tuck them in the back of your pants. Then look in a mirror or put your hand on your lower back. If you can see or feel the socks through your clothes, congratulations! You have successfully completed a non-invasive tail inventory).
It's also worth noting that Vox lets people pull away if they want to. The most commonly cited example being when Alastor does so during Don't You Forget (Reprise), but we also see it when Vox asks where Alastor is during his hotel visit, and Charlie easily steps out of his hold.
To summarize, Vox clearly understands that some touch is acceptable and some isn't, and that what counts as acceptable changes depending on the relationship. While he seems to regard consent as implied unless explicitly withdrawn, he understands that too. He's playing by his own rules, but he is playing.
But then we get to the other side of the coin. Because other people's boundaries aren't the only ones tactile seekers can have trouble with, and Vox's own boundaries around being touched are. Questionable.
We don't know what his limits are with strangers, but people he knows are granted a lot of leeway. To the point where he repeatedly allows unwanted, sexually suggestive contact, with no attempt to avoid or escape it, even from someone who regularly harasses him.
It makes sense that he'd be more permissive with Valentino (though obviously being Val's partner doesn't mean he's obligated to accept unwanted advances). But Katie does it in front of a room full of people, after he'd already turned her down, and he sees her reaching for him. Yet he still doesn't move away from or comment on it. And she's so unhesitatingly wanton, even though he could easily obliterate her if he wanted to, that she clearly knows she can get away with it. All evidence points to this being a common occurrence.
And then there is Alastor, who seems incapable of leaving Vox's screen alone. To put this in perspective, Vox does not touch his own screen. He does grab the corners of his monitor a lot, especially when he's excited or upset. But apart from cleaning it after Angel spits in his face, he only touches the screen itself twice that I can remember, and they're both moments of distress: at the end of Stayed Gone, and after being muted. Even Valentino doesn't usually touch his screen (and when he does it to be a nuisance in Stayed Gone, Vox actually knocks his hand away. Though that might be more a result of his anger over Alastor's return).
Alastor touches Vox's screen no fewer than three times (four if you count a tentacle to the face while they're fighting), and apart from the flashback, they only have two in-person interactions where he isn't tied to a chair. And Vox clearly doesn't like having things jabbed in his face all the time (who would, really), but even when Alastor's staff is resting against his screen, he just stands there until it's pulled away.
So why, exactly, might a tactile seeker struggle even with their own boundaries? Once again, the reasons vary:
Threat detection starts with the nervous system, which is less responsive to touch in tactile seekers. If physical contact fails to register as intrusive or threatening, the urge to avoid it isn't there.
If their current need for sensory input is greater than their discomfort with certain forms of contact, they might accept it or find it settling even if they don't want it.
They might miss social cues and interpret touch as more innocent than it is.
Like anyone else who's been repeatedly forced to accept unwanted touch, they might simply have been conditioned to allow it.
In Vox's case, my guess is that he just doesn't feel threatened. He could obliterate Katie if he wanted to, so her harassment is merely annoying. Valentino is a familiar and primary source of physical contact, so his touch probably registers as safe or steadying. Even Alastor (who should register as a threat) does no damage the one time he goes for Vox's screen in a fight, and Vox only flips him off in response. So at least from Alastor, that particular form of contact seems to be annoying, not threatening.
Speaking of Alastor. Tactile seekers tend to do best with boundaries that are clearly stated and consistently enforced through clear verbal and visual cues. Quietly grumbling and expecting them to take the hint isn't going to do much, especially if they want to be close to the other person.
Speaking of Alastor. Tactile seekers tend to do best with boundaries that are clearly stated and consistently enforced through clear verbal and visual cues. Quietly grumbling and expecting them to take the hint isn't going to do much, especially if they want to be close to the other person.
The interesting thing is that Alastor very much DOES use clear verbal and visual clues to express that he absolutely doesn't want to be touched. Except with Vox.
Alastor when some other man touches him: creepy noises, glowy eyes, body bends in unnatural ways, death glare, explicit spoken warning. It communicates extremely clearly that he does not want to be touched.
Alastor when Vox touches him in the flashback: extremely soft radio noises that 99,9% of people who watched the scene completely missed. It communicates nothing.
Alastor is the furthest thing from a shrinking violet, if something displeases him you'll know.
Except 70 years ago he made the conscious decision to hold his displeasure in not to scare off this guy he supposedly didn't care about.
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the fact that coco and agott both have issues relating to their mothers just makes them perfect foils to each other.
one from a loving mother who she lost due to tempering with magic,
the other the child of a skilled witch shunned for her lack of talent,
and both of their circumstances push them to improving their magic capabilities. ugh just perfect.
(also this is just a head cannon; but agott pointing out to coco that what happened to her mom was her fault is sooooo her projecting her own feelings about failing her own mother)
anyone else notice how when "digital assistants" were just supposed to do specific tasks when you asked for them we had Alexa and Siri and Cortana, but now that they're being marketed as smart enough to take actions and make decisions on their own they've got names like Claude and Devin
“Eridians dislike earth because they abandoned Grace.” *Incorrect Buzzer Sound* ya missed the point of the story buddy! It’s not about someone being ‘bad’ it’s about the incredible power of love and that love being worth dying for!
Gimmie Eridians who are absolutely heartbroken to hear that humans where so desperate and so scared that they where willing to part with not just one Grace, there were three of them! Gimmie Eridians touched to find that the humans planned a way for their sacrifices to be as comfortable as possible. Gimmie Eridians who send earth a message saying “We know it must have hurt to send your heroes to die, but one made it and he’s safe here. We lost 22 good Eridians on the journey we would have lost 23 if not for your Grace.”
Give me humans sitting on Earth slowly coming to the conclusion that when we look up not only are we not alone, someone out there is alive because of one of us. That no matter what we think of ourselves a whole species thinks highly of us because we helped save the galaxy. Give me humans who figure out how to send a probe to Erid filled to the brim with messages for Grace and footage of a monument being raised that reads his name, his crews names, and then “in memory of the 22 Eridians who lost their lives on the journey to save the stars.”
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the "isn't she lovely" montage literally doesn't make sense for any explanation other than the fact that jax is a closeted trans woman
Isn't she lovely?
Isn't she wonderful?
Isn't she precious?
Less than one minute old
I never thought through love, we'd be
Making one as lovely as she
But isn't she lovely? Made from love
and the fact that it plays at the end of her life, when she passes the point of no return
when, in her final moments, she allows herself to be accepted and forgiven after years of pushing people away and self-isolating
when she allows her vulnerability and femininity to be seen not as a point of weakness, but a gift that makes her understood and loveable
although it's devastating, there is tragic beauty in that hug with pomni, where jax lets a small part of herself -- the inner little girl who never got to exist -- be born and realized. through an act of love.
no, it's not a perfect full circle moment, but it's a huge step for her
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As much as I love Gangle being desi, I do have issues with her human name. It's part of a larger pattern though. It really does seem to be the norm that for Indian/south Asian characters that aren't stereotypes (because stereotypes get the absurdly long names that usually are two real Indian names smashed together) get a name that's Western first name + Indian last name. And, while I'm not going to say that's impossible as a name for desi people, I will say it's pretty rare. I've known maybe one desi person with a name like that and that Western first name was a nickname. So it's kind of weird that that seems to be the default for desi characters (Connie Maheswaran, Victoria Javadi, Belinda Chandra, Zoey Raghavan) with very few exceptions (Yasmin Khan, Samira Mohan).