mercy .☠︎︎ ݁˖

thanks to all the faggots who ruined my life and made me miserable

truly i mean this. what if i wouldve turned out a shitty person otherwise? what if i didnt have the integrity principles and knowledge i have today? what if i turned out like my parents? what if what if what if

being suicidal at 11 was genuinely crazy i shouldve been aborted

why bring even more suffering souls into the world? it makes no sense. the world is full of people who need love and care but didn't receive it from their parents - because the people who bring others into this world are the ultimate egoists.

no potential “good” compares to the potential bad a future being could experience

whether i exist or not, it's all the same

you are heaven you are hell

every moment is misery. the passage of time overwhelms me. watches grafted into my skin, a cacophony of ticking washing over me for the little fragile moments i exist

this system of time fucking sucks. i should be able to exist with no start or end and not constrained to a singular current

mentally i'm a decomposing body in the woods

every evolved trait is the memory of a wound , inverted outwardly in opposing proportion to that which inflicted it originally.

the stages of earth's history have unfolded , not gradually but , in abrupt cataclysms of cascading revolution. following the pattern of tension built slowly then tension released quickly , all previous creatures , places , & atmospheres have been suddenly sundered into annihilation; whether annihilation through decreation into nothingness or annihilation through recreation into something new. the next immanent change will not be different.

all these 'reasons to choose recovery' videos do nothing for me because i dont want to live past 30 anyway

want 2 die more than anythin, anything in the entire world.