Iāve been sitting on this for a while!!! I get so annoyed with the makeover trope even if itās my fav so yah!!! Here u go !! A writing expertise āŗļø
āWill you hang on a second Iāwhat are you doing?ā Jimin calls after you and you whirl on him then. And if he thought he would find tears in your eyes he was sorely mistakenāthey were glassy alright, but tinged with an almost terrifying amount of fury and intense hatred. Jimin finds himself taking a step back, āWoah.ā
āWhat am I doing? Iām putting on jeans,ā You seethe, throwing the stupid skirt he had forced you into across the room, the fact that you were only in a pair of spandex didnāt seem to faze you nearly as much as it did him.
āLook, I get that what happened at the party itās not the ideal outcomeāā
āI was humiliated,ā you hiss, tugging on your favorite pair of jeansāthey were loose enough that you didnāt have to unbutton them after every meal like you did with the ones jimin had forced you into.
āI get that,ā his jaw clenched at the reminder, fist still throbbing from where he had attempted to put it through Jeon Jungkookās skull, āand Iām sorry. But Jungkook is not worth giving up the new youāā
āI hate the new me,ā you shout, before ripping drawers open and throwing all of the shiny, uncomfortable clothes Jimin had stocked them with in the process, āThis has nothing to do with Jungkook, donāt you get that?ā
āI donāt, so why donāt you help me understand?ā Jimin grits out, yanking you back by the wrist so you were forced to look at himāor rather up at him. āI thought youā¦ we were having fun. I thought you liked being popular.ā
āI did, for exactly one minute and then I realized I never hated myself Jimin,ā you say quietly, āI didnāt need you or this stupid makeover. I like wearing jeans because skirts make my thighs chafe and I like wearing make up and heels and all that other shit on my terms. I never hated me, you did.ā
āThatās ridiculous,ā Jimin scoffs and it is because it was the exact opposite. He loved you, he didnāt know how to tell you, not two weeks ago when he realized it when you came back from your date with Jeon Jungkookāone he had arranged, surely not now while you were fuming at having been subject to his unsavory advances at the party.
āItās not,ā you laugh, āI was happy. There were times where I didnāt like myself sure, but Iām not a charity case. Iām human. The things Iām feeling are normal. Sure I had a crush on a guy who was out of my league but I realized that if I had to sacrifice myself to get him then I donāt want himā¦. and the same goes for you.ā
āIāwhat?ā Jiminās panicking, itās not something his familiar with. Not with anyone. He was calm, cool, collectedāhe didnāt chase after girls, people.. they chased after him. So why was it that your suggestion had him on edge.
āWe canāt be friends when you seem to think that every part about me needs to be madeover. I thought we could be,ā You whisper, eyes wide and ā¦ hurt as they stare at him, āI liked going to the mall with you and I liked you quizzing me on things I really didnāt care about. And I realized I just liked being with you. But at what cost? All of me?ā
ā___, no,ā he says immediately and itās a sight you never thought youād see. Park Jimināthey Park Jimin, looking almost pleading as he grips your shoulders. A month ago you were positive he wouldnāt have even known your name, never mind th fact that you had gone to the same school as the guy since pre k, āI only did all that stuff because you wanted to be with JungkookāI was trying to make you his ideal girl. I wanted you to be perfect for ā¦.. him.ā
āNo, Jimin, you wanted me to be perfect for you. You made what you liked, what you wanted to see. You think Iām stupid?ā You say, crumpling the makeup wipe you had just used to wipe off your mascara, āI get it. I have a great personality. I see the way you look at me, the way youā¦ touch me these days. But I donāt look like someone youād date, and I realized that the second it stopped being about what Jeon Jungkook would like and started being what you would like.ā
āThatās not trueāā Jimin pleads and you put a hand up.
āDo you have feelings for me?ā You ask bluntly and he feels his heart drop to his stomach. Itās a long pause that follows, a silence that tells you all you need to know about Park Jimin. āWould you still have feelings for me before all of this? Before this stupid makeover.ā
āThatās not fairāā he argues.
āItās not. Lifeās not fair, Jimin.ā You scowl. āLifeās not fair for people like me. For people who look like me. But I donāt care that most people wonāt find me desirable or worth their time until they hold a conversation with me, thatās exactly what happened with you. There are a lot of worse things to be than not found desirable by men. For instance, someone who judges someone based on their looks.ā
āOh come on,ā Jimin says and you can tell the second his defensive mode turned onāyou knew him like that knew. Knew his ticks and how he lashed out when he felt backed into a corner like now. You were calling him on his shit but he was too proud to admit that he was shallow, that he had fallen for you because you were funny and smart and into things he was into and he liked when you fell asleep on his couch during movies, and how you brought him soup when he was sick (hungover), and how you had understood him and his dreams and wishes in a way no one ever could. He was too shallow to date someone who didnāt fit the checklist he had in his head and now that you werenāt cooperating what was he to do? He was already in love with you, he just didnāt know if he could love all of you and that hurt more than any humiliation you were subjected to at the hands of Jeon Jungkook. āAre you that naive? Itās not called love at first deep, intellectual, conversation about our dreams. People donāt fall for personalities off the bat, okay they fall for looks, whether or not you want to believe it. Sue me for not knowing you were everything I wanted until I spoke to you.ā
āYouāre unbelievable you know that?ā You laugh bitterly. āDonāt make me sound like Iām crazy. Iām right, Jimin. Youāre so full of yourself and your flashy lifestyleāGod, you take twenty minutes to decide on an Instagram filter before you post a picture.ā
āAnd you take less time trying to decide what you want on the value menu at a drive through.ā Jimin retorts and the words are out before he can fully process them but the regret is instaneous, the flash of disbelief and then hurt on your features was enough to make his heart stop. Was he a dick? Yes, and regularly. Jimin would be the first to admit that. Now did he comment on girls weight to their faceāthat was another ball park entirely and he was positive even Satan would look at him with disgust were he in the room right now. He wasnāt that type of person, but something about the way you were looking at him, the way you had him pinned so accurately, made him feel no bigger than a maggot and apparently you were right.
Jiminās eyes flutter shut in defeat, his hand coming to scrub down his face in frustrationāhis tone however is soft, apologetic, āI didnāt mean thatāā
āAnd I bet it just eats at you,ā you laugh quietly and when Jimin opens his eyes you donāt even look sad, if anything you look pissed. Disgusted. Done with him. āThat you fell in love with the kind of girl you wouldnāt look twice at.ā
You knew he loved you and somehow it shatters him furtherc, made this entire situation worse.
āIām so happy you showed me who you were before I had the chance to fall for you right back,ā you say matter of factly, brushing past him to get to the exit. You stop with your hand on the door. āFor the record, Jimin I would never date a boy like you. Iām too good for you and I will always be too good for you, no matter what you tell yourself at night.ā
You were right. You were so right it steals the breath from him. Park Jimin wasnāt sure what he expected when the truth came out, but it certainly wasnāt you, looking at him with nothing short of hatred in your eyes. Of the two of you, he was well aware that he had been dealt the losing hand. You were special, everything about youāthe truth was he was positive that in your life you would stumble upon more Park Jiminās, beautiful boys who would fall for you and your tinkling laugh and the way you made them feel so at ease, the way you made them want to do more, be better. Boys who thought they had nothing more to offer than a pretty face, and you would show them things about themselves they didnāt realize were there.
But there was only one you. Park Jimin would never find another you, and thatās the part that ate at him. How easily replaceable he was in comparison to you.
āLose my number.ā Is the last thing you say to him before leaving.
