i need juice reward so bad right now it's not even funny but apparently im not giving the researchers what they want. #sad

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i need juice reward so bad right now it's not even funny but apparently im not giving the researchers what they want. #sad

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I retook the mcat last Saturday and Iāve felt so numb ever since. Iām not sure how to feel about the exam. I feel like I dissociated for half of it. Itāll be a full week tomorrow and Iāve almost been on autopilot since⦠I thought Iād feel more, I thought Iād sleep more, I thought it would feel like a relief but I donāt think I can rest till I get the resultsā¦I wonāt get those for another 3 weeksā¦and if I did bad again? If itās not over and I have to test again? Is it even worth it at that point or do I just give up?
Iām kind of miserable and it feels permanent but its whatever
Retesting in 2 weeks
Wow what a trip. Iāll be retreating again in 2 weeks. I feel like it been years since Iāve slept an Iām so tired but at least I donāt feel like dropping out like before. Iām glad I didnāt quit or give up⦠I just wish I had more time to improve more. But there is no way Iāll be able to study for this exam and classes and research and finding a DO to shadow so I can get a letter of recommendation all at once. This exam is a beast it taken so much from me⦠I know Iāve gotten better before when I took it the first time it was more of I hope I can break 500 and maybe I can if Iām lucky but this time at least itās Iām squarely at 503 not an impressive score but itās solid. Iāll hit hard these next two weeks and weāll see how much father I can push it for the real deal. With a low 500 score I can still hope for DO⦠it just suck cause that means I need to start looking for shadowing positions to get that letter of rec cause DO schools require it
Being premed is hard. Doing this alone is even harder. I never found community with the other premeds here. The ones at community college were better but weāve lost touch. Most premeds here are insufferable they are so immature and so self important⦠maybe in the insufferable one but I just canāt vibe with them. And itās lonely⦠Iāve seen so many people dropout of the premed race, I keep saying I wonāt be one of them⦠I keep fighting for this, it would be nice to not have to fight alone for a while
Donāt get me wrong my parents help so much and friends are always there. I have built such a great support system and Iām so lucky to have them around. But they havenāt been through it
The quarter from hell is over
So far grades looking like A- for all classes. Mcat came back worse than I thought. And Iām going to be starting more structured mcat prep this week. I think with more stricter study I can do better the only problem is that I donāt actually have an exam booked. Iām got on the waitlist for as many as I could but that last day test day September 13th is booked out right now. Iām going to study as if Iāll get off the wait list but itās not a guarantee.

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I want to quit
Iām somewhere between dropping out entirely and changing career paths. I still feel like hot garbage post mcat. I know didnāt do well on either of my midterms this weeks. The quarter system has felt like to much for me since I transferred and I thought Iād get used to it but I havenāt I just hate it more. I donāt learn like this itās too fast and you need to just quickly memorize things and I canāt do that I lack the capacity I think I had it when I was younger but I just donāt anymore if I fact I ever did. Iām so tired and tired of being tried and tried of feeling like all this effort is for nothing cause I have a 3.6 since starting here. And like I objectively not a bad gpa but just not enough for med school. My dad thinks Iām being defeatist and that I should apply anyway. But the application cycle is on top of us and I just donāt feel ready to apply I donāt think itās enough I donāt think Iām enough. Iām just now learning about all these things I didnāt know I needed and just donāt know if itās worth it to apply. The premed councilors here on campus donāt seem to know what to tell me, when I talk to them treat me like I am a traditional student like mid conversation they forget that Iām not and that just makes me loose faith in there ability to actually help me for me they loose credibility. Anyway I donāt know what to do and I feel so lost
Also I havenāt been able to get anyone read my personal statement like everyone that I know who I thought might be open to it has turned me down told me just donāt feel comfortable and that I should ask someone else. And itās gotten to the point that I wrote that in January and no one has read it but me so I guess I have to find someone to read it like a paid service?
All of this just seems to add up to Iām not ready to apply this cycle. But I donāt know if I can do a gap year be willing to come back to school again. I donāt know if I can feel like a person with a life and give that up AGAIN. I donāt know that Iām strong enough
I think I have cycled through every emotion in existence at least 2 a day since taking this goddam exam. The suspense is killing me. I need to know how I did. I feel like I canāt move forward with my self and with my application till I know but the thing is that I have to. I have to start filling out this application, and i need to finalize my personal statement, so much that I need to do and Iāve no room breath. Oh letās not forget that Iām still in classes so I have midterms coming up next week and finals in just a few and like 3 presentations. Honestly maybe Iām just too old for this shit. I feel like I just donāt have the energy to spare for all of the extra stuff needed for premedā¦so what does that say about my ability to handle med school?
I think all the adrenaline from the exam has worn off and Iām crashing bad. It doesnāt help that I started my period. Everything just feels to everything right now and I donāt know how to make it stop
Ok I admit itā¦. >.< I feel pretty good about this exam⦠the p/s was almost all chem and since it wasnāt as bad without all the phys I felt more refreshed going into cars. B/B felt pretty good tho Iām not sure itāll be my best not as aa heavy but very few complete guesses I think⦠ps was what it usually is and that wonāt be anything above my usual. My truly I am cautiously optimistic⦠hopefully I donāt cringe looking at this on June 10th
MCAT
I took the MCAT today and wow. Honestly I donāt know if it was a good idea not to void but it felt wrong to. Like if I voided it wouldnāt even be graded like not even for my own records. It would be as if I sat through a seven hour exam for nothing. At the very least I hope it was enough for me to get into like low tear md or like DO Iāll even do international if I have to. The end goal has always been doctor how I get there is more or less incidental. I am glad itās over though I hope it went decently
MCAT
Taking the MCAT this Friday and I feel so unprepared. The exam is truly a beast! I see why the biggest weeder part of the process. I feel my brain has turned to mush, I want to cry all the time! The frustration of the fact that I had no one to guide me to help with where to start studying is killing me. If I had known to start sooner I would have if I had where and how to start I could have done that you know? I shouldāve realized a few weeks ago that I wouldnāt be ready and pushed back when I had the chance. Any way now I have to take it this week and more worried about not being able to have enough fight to take the test again if it come out bad⦠does that mean Iām not cut out for this?
Ever since transferring to a four year, I have had this feeling of not being good enough, or of feeling behind. Everyone here is so smart (way smarter than me), and they seem to just get it, and I have to struggle through all my classes. I guess itās hard not to compare to when I was their age and I could hear things once or see things once and retain most of the information, but my brain just doesnāt work like that now that Iām older. and I know itās silly and itās even sillier to be thinking of all of that right now. but it just kind of feels like the stress of everything has built up and itās all really started to weigh on me.
Maybe itās the fatigue physical mental emotional maybe after this Friday I can get some good sleep and take some deep breaths and I can remember that I am a person again. And truth be told Iām not even aiming for a super high score on the MCAT, which is not something that you usually hear from Pre Meds my goal is not to be the top candidate. Itās not to be the best. Itās just to make it there with a little bit of luck and a lot of hard work. Iām hoping that I can. ļæ¼

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