Le Samouraï

wanting a relationship in this generation is genuinely a humiliation ritual

It's really not, it might be with the person you are trying to get with or be with, but it only becomes a humiliating ritual when the relationship is one-sided. Game is game.

I like seeing some of you ""regulars"" in my notes it's like oh hey that's my Coworker from Tumblr

#my family does this thing#when we've majorly unfucked a room or done chore that we were putting off#or whatever. Any sort of household Improvement.#'Come brag on me.'#I means come look I cleaned/rearranged/did dishes/put away the laundry#and the scripted response is 'oh nice it looks SO much better in here now'#like my mom did this when we were kids.#'girls comr brag on the garage I finally organized it so I can get my car in there'#and we go and 'ooh' and 'aah' and tell her how nice it looked and how she did a good job#and we could have her 'come brag on' us for like doing the dishes or cleaning our rooms#I do it to my wife now too#it's a dialogue that means#'I did a chore and it feels like an Accomplishment even if it objectively wasn't a big thing. Please acknowledge this.'#and#'Wow you sure did do a thing. It has improved our material circumstance even if only in a small way. Thank you for doing it.'#like yeah scrubbing the pans is my Job and it's a Little Task but sometimes it feels like a Big Task#and it's nice to have an Accepted Script where I can just demand 'I have functioned as an independent adult praise me with great praise' - by @thepioden

sorry for the mixed signals I don’t know what I want or what I’m doing mostly

Old person from 1996 here. Can confirm, I'm tired.