maybe love was superstition, a prayer we said to keep the truth of loneliness at bay. i tilted my head back. the stars looked like they were close together, when really they were millions of miles apart. in the end, maybe love just meant longing for something impossibly bright and forever out of reach.

i. blood // water - grandson // ii. brick by brick - arctic monkey // iii. hustler  - zayde wølf // arsonist’s lullaby - hozier // iv. i’m a wanted man - royal deluxe // v. glory and gore - lorde // vi. achilles come down - gang of youths // vii. r.i.p. 2 my youth - the neighbourhood // viii. the devil you know -  x ambassadors // ix. cutthroat - imagine dragons // x. monsters  - ruelle. and more.

i am not ruined. i am ruination. 

because with her he was human again

My mother is Ketterdam. She birthed me in the harbor.

anyways, guess what i’ve been reading

Crows remember human faces. They remember the people who feed them, who are kind to them. And the people who wrong them too. They don’t forget. They tell each other who to look after and who to watch out for. — KAZ BREKKER.

for the living and the dead, she would make herself a reckoning. she would rise.

i. perfectly wrong, shawn mendes; ii. it's killing me to love you, vancouver sleep clinic; iii. flesh and bone, black math; iv. saints, echos; v. i run to you, missio; vi. together, the xx; vii. hoax, taylor swift; viii. sunlight, hozier; xi. holiest, glass animals; x. you kill me, paper route. [+more on my spotify]

— Nikolai Lantsov, Ruin and Rising

Six days.

You are the sun in reverse, all energy flows into you and is abolished; you refuse houses, you smell of catastrophe. - Margaret Atwood

fear is a phoenix. you can watch it burn a thousand times and still it will return.

SHADOW AND BONE (2021-)

“greed may do your bidding, but death serves no man”

SHADOW AND BONE (2021-)

▪ the dregs as high school tropes ▪