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iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i have never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
errmmmm yeah!!! that is comparitively lame to a lot of people đ @p3rs3ph0n3schild @kissboybyler @the-bogginses-are-gay @willtheunwise @tbiggestman
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i have never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i have never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
Very less green lol
No pressure tags to: @wowstrawberrycow @gauntletgirlie @valar-did-me-wrong @varda-star-queen @permanentlyexhaustedpigeon88 @assortedvariety @pipis-took @itwillbeourswansong @radagastbrown @sunnyyy-daze + anyone who wants to join!!
iâm over 5'5 /I wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
Tag List: (No Pressure)
@tillywunderwing, @stellar-collective, @sml8180, @ellascreams, @heycerulean + Open Tag
i'm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don't often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i've never dated anyone / i have a best friend i've known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
Tag List >:3
@kyacchan-comics @laz-laz-ace-pilot @loki-wants-an-army + open taaaaaaaaaag
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
@altergioia @charrednewt @kikingback & open taaags
Thank you for tagging me, I love this sort of things T.T
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
I tag @valevntine @tentacleburnout and whoever wishes to join in! <3
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
Thank you for the tag @bergamote-catsandbooks â€ïžâ€ïž
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
thank you for the tag, my love @milla-frenchy đ
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
thank you so much for tagging me @iamasaddie loveee you!! đ
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
no pressure tags; @xbeababyx @aureatelys @ohhoneypascal @kunareads @whimsicalwritersstuff and anyone else who wants to do it! â€ïž
Thank you babe for the tag @pearlessance love u!đ
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
iâm over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i donât often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / iâve never dated anyone / i have a best friend iâve known for over five years / i am an only child
hi friends!! this is my very first official fic rec post but anytime my work has been featured in one i get all smiley and happy and thought 'hm, i could certainly share the love.'
i'm afraid june has been quite hectic for me and i've done a ton of writing so i've not read as many fics as i normally do, but wanted to give these ones a special shout out because i loved them soo much
note: explicit content and themes, MDNI
âă».ă» JOEL MILLER
‷ red dress by @suuuupernovaaa
sweet, protective joel who defends your honor. loved this so much.
‷ OUROBOROS by @millermouth
i'm not even kidding when i say this is only part one of this fic and it's one of the best pieces of writing i've ever laid my greedy eyes on. i'm literally frothing at the mouth for more. beautifully written, an absolutely addictive plot, imagery to die for.
‷ COMING UP QUICK (GOING DOWN SLOW) by @sceletaflores
less than 1k words but you fr could've fooled me this fic literally grabbed me and wouldn't let go, i thought about it for hours after. so diabolical so delicious.
âă».ă»TOMMY MILLER
‷ dirty dancin' by @grayandthyme
or really anything and everything by gray because. let's be serious. but i keep going back to this one, such a comfort read for me. and the last line??? killer. everyone on three say thank you gray we love you gray
‷ kiss my ass, cowboy by @iamasaddie
guys. GUYS. when i tell you the lot lizards series is so good. such a unique idea, so creative and so so SO delicious. like i didn't know i needed it, but now i don't think i could live without it. everything about this fic is just so fun to me.
‷ sweet redemption by @yeobong
uhmm yeah i was salivating by the end what can i say. i loved the way this was written, too. the pacing made it so easy to devour. spectacular i love tommy miller gimme fourteen of em right now
âă».ă»NANAMI KENTO
‷ this post by @sinkuna
nanami's internal battle, seeing the younger woman and wanting her but knowing he shouldn't. freshly divorced. age gap. yeah guys this was right up my alley is anyone surprised?? i ate it up and went back for seconds.
‷ emotional damage by @kenntoria
to me this is soo authentic nanami like he's such a provider i feel like his brain gets stuck in that provider/business mode and watching him get all flustered and nervous when he's complimented!!! ugh so sweet
âă».ă»SUKUNA RYOMEN
‷ TATT MY NAME ON YOU SO I KNOW IT'S REAL by @shelovesosa
small but mighty. loved the vibe and the line "youâre the only thing iâve ever let brand me" had me giggling and kicking my feet. i love when evil men are soft.
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mwah hello lovely! Just had a sneaky ask so basically when I'm washing my face or like doing my hair or like sewing, I take my rings off so it doesn't get caught or anything and I was like totally thinking like imagine jackson!tommy being absolutely miserable and grumpy and yous fall out but then like go to sleep on an argument and he wakes up to you getting ready without your wedding ring on and this man is stressing on another level like he is grovelling and apologising, like completely fluff, and your style of writing would so slay this!!
(could I request to be đ - also love ur work so much ur my fav right now!!)
authors note: ohhhh i LOVE this idea. i do the same thing too tbh.. and then i always forget to put all my jewelry on in the morning. excuse the horrible horrible writers block. if this was bad, then i am so so sorry, my flower.
warnings: lil bit of angst. couple disagreement. tommy is emo. happy ending. fluffy ending. implied intercourse near the end.
Winter was never kind.
Not in the last two years, anyway. The cold always came early, sharp and cruel. It gnawed at the town, and at Tommyâtightening its grip with each passing day.
Illness had started to spread, food stores had thinned, and every home begged for more insulation than they had to give.
And through it all, he carried the burdenâJacksonâs protector, whether he asked for it or not.
You hated how powerless you felt.
Ideas buzzed endlessly in your head, half-baked plans and desperate wishesânone of them enough.
Sleep had become a stranger. Guilt made sure of that.
The front door creaked open, slow, as if even the hinges understood the weight of the man walking through the entry. Tommy's boots hit the floor with a dull thud. You could hear him exhale as he hung up his coatâbone-tired and quiet.
Upstairs, you sat still, listening.
You could hear it on him. The heaviness. The wear in every breath.
It twisted something weary in your chest.
And stillâwhat could you do?
All you had was your love. Your presence.
Silent prayers that no one else would fall ill.
That no more names would be added to the list of the lost.
That he wouldnât lose himself beneath it all.
âTommy?â
Your voice was soft, coaxing, as your hands pulled your hair into its usual protective twist for bed. âIâm upstairs.â
You heard the stairs groan beneath his weight. Slow steps. Heavy. You pictured his hand dragging along the banister like he was holding himself upright with it.
He was.
When he appeared in the doorway, your heart ached at the sight of him. His face was blank, jaw tight, eyes darker than usualânot from lack of sleep, but from everything else.
He didnât smile. Didnât say anything right away.
You tried to keep your voice light. âDid you eat anything?â
âNo.â
Just that. A clipped syllable, tossed carelessly into the air between you.
You sat up straighter. âYou shouldâve grabbed somethinâ. I left soup on the stove.â
He shrugged off the comment like it was a coat he didnât feel like wearing. âDidnât feel like it.â
"Ohâ"
"I can grab you a bowl," You blinked. "Tommyâ"
"Can we not?" he muttered, already tugging off his shirt, turning his back to you. His shoulders were hunched, tense like a coiled wire.
Your stomach tightened. âNot what?â
âThis." He gestured vaguely. "The questions. The fussinâ."
"...I just want five goddamn minutes without someone needing somethinâ from me.â
Five goddamn minutes without your suffocating love.
Isn't that it? Isn't that what he really meant?
You stared at him, stunned by the bite in his voice. âIâm not someone from town, Tommy. Iâm not asking you to fix a generator or build a fenceâ"
"⊠Iâm asking if youâre okayâŠ"
"⊠If youâve eaten.â
He turned to face you, exasperation flaring behind his eyes. âAnd what do you want me to say, huh? That Iâm not okay? That everythingâs goinâ to shit and I canât stop it? You think sayinâ it out loud makes it better?â
He just isn't himself these days.
Not the man you married.
Not the man you fell in love with.
âNo,â you said, voice rising in spite of yourself. âBut shutting me out doesnât make it better either.â
He ran a hand through his hair, jaw twisting like he wanted to say something worse.
But, he bit it back.
âIâm tired,â he said finally, like that explained everything.
Like that excused all of it.
Silence settled between you, cold and thick. He sat on the edge of the bed, back to you again. You didnât reach for him. Neither of you spoke.
And after a while, you leaned your head back against the headboard, hands still tangled in your half-finished updo. The sound of wind whistled faintly through the old windows.
It was cold in the house, but colder between the two of you.
Weeks since you had last been intimate.
Days since the last time you had eaten dinner together.
Minutes since the last time you had looked at each other.
Seconds since the last time you thought of each other.
Maybe this was the breaking point.
Not the kind that comes with shouting or slammed doorsâbut the quiet, bitter kind. The kind that settles in the chest and whispers youâve had enough.
Maybe tonight you were done pretending that his silence didn't scrape at your insides.
That every sigh, every shift in the sheets, wasnât treated like a personal offense.
You stood up slowly, breath steady but hands a little tight around the pillow.
âIâm sleeping on the couch,â you said, voice low, finalânot angry, just⊠finished. You grabbed your water bottle off the nightstand, the metal clinking against your ring.
Behind you, Tommy shifted, but didnât speak. Not right away. You were halfway to the door when his voice cut through the dark.
âWhat, now youâre punishin' me?â
You turned, the weight in your chest heavy. âNo, Tommy. Iâm giving us space. You donât want me near you right now, and Iâm not gonna beg for scraps of patience you donât have.â
His expression darkened. âYou think this is about you?â He gave a humorless chuckle and ran a hand down his face. âChrist. I canât even be tired without it turninâ into a fight.â
âYouâre not just tired,â you said, trying to keep your voice calm, level.
âYouâre angry."
"And mean."
"⊠And I get that things are hard right now, but Iâm not the enemy.â
He didnât answer.
Just looked away, jaw tense, like the words were too much.
Like you were too much.
And maybe you were.
For tonight, at least.
So you turned.
Left the room with your pillow clutched tight to your chest, like it might hold the pieces of you still trying to stay soft. The floor was cold beneath your feet, but it was nothing compared to the chill in that bedroom.
Out here, at least, the air didnât feel so heavy. You could breathe without the sharp edges.
Downstairs, you settled onto the couch. The cushions were stiff, unfamiliar. You pulled the blanket up over your legs and stared at the dark ceiling for a long while.
It had been nearly two years since you last slept alone.
When you got married, Tommy had made a quiet vowânot just in words, but in practice.
He stopped working nights, made a point to come home, to come to bed.
No matter how hard the day had been, no matter how tired or withdrawn he felt. He always made it back to you.
And those nights matteredâwhether they passed in conversation, on-and-on, or in silence, with a book in your lap or his head on your chest.
He was there.
Always.
Every night ended with him. And most mornings began with his warmth still lingering beside you.
Until now, that is.
Now the absence was sharp, jarring in its unfamiliarity. You lay back, blinking at the ceiling. Pretty unsure if sleep would come at all.
Morning arrived without mercy.
Early light filtered through the curtains, indifferent to your unrest. It felt like youâd slept maybe two hoursâscattered, shallow fragments of rest between the tossing and the waking.
Every groan of the old house, every twack of wind or branch against the windows pulled you back to the surface. Sleep had never been this fragileânot when you had his arms around you.
You'd almost forgotten how much quieter your mind was when he held you.
Was the world always this loud?
Even so, even bone-tired, you rose. Slowly, peeling yourself from the couch. Your body ached from the angles of the cushions, the way they never gave quite enough support. The living room was still, untouched by anyone else. Just you. Just cold.
You stood. Stretched out the tightness in your muscles, rolled your shoulders back, and breathed.
Thenâagainst the weight in your limbsâyou moved.
Back up the stairs. Not out of hope, exactly, but out of duty. Out of love that still lived, and lingered somewhere in the mess. You didnât know what youâd say. You didnât know what would be waiting on the other side of that bedroom door.
But he shouldnât be alone. Not like this.
And when you finally opened the doorâagainst all odds, against every hope heâd still be thereâhe wasnât.
The bed was made. Curtains drawn open, exactly the way you did every morning. But the room was empty. He was already gone.
And just like that, the sinking feeling returned. That familiar, dreadful kindâthe one that creeps in when you realize something is beginning to unravel. When the ground shifts beneath you, and nothing feels solid anymore.
The kind of fear that whispers, this is when everything starts to go really, really wrong.
Your chest tightened. That helpless, aching question echoing in your mind,
How are you supposed to carry his burden, when youâre starting to feel like one yourself?
It was that sensation you get when you trip over a sidewalk crackâjust for a second, your whole body in freefall. That stutter in your breath, the instant rush of adrenaline as your brain prepares for pain. Just pain. Pain all over.
Thatâs what this feels like.
Thatâs what this room feels like.
Still. Clean. And utterly abandoned.
There wasnât much you could do.
Just exhale.
Breathe in.
Gather yourself for the day ahead.
And send up a silent prayerâto whatever god might still be listeningâthat they wouldnât take him from you. Not yet. Not like this. You werenât finished. Your story wasnât done.
So you stepped into the bathroom, steadying yourself against the sink. The light was soft, cold against your skin. You moved through the motions because they were the only things you could control.
You slipped off your ring. Then your bracelet. Set them gently on the counter like they might shatter if handled carelessly.
And then you began your morning.
Because what else was there to do but keep going?
You washed your face with the clove and ivory soap a farmer down the street had made just for you. It had come in a basket filled with sweetgrass and other homemade scentsâgifts from your wedding day.
Now, these simple things were part of your daily ritual, grounding you in a world that felt anything but steady. And you routinely asked for these products.
Usuallyâmost mornings, youâd pause in front of the mirror and smile softly, your hands would reach up and dab the soap onto Tommyâs faceâgentle, playful, tracing through his mustache with quiet laughter.
He always let you.
Every single time.
That small act, so ordinary, had become a language of its ownâone that spoke of tenderness beneath the weight of everything else. And, you hadn't done that today.
After your morning ritual, you stepped out into the gray light of Jacksonâs small town market.
The heart of the community when everything else felt fragile.
The chill in the air bit at your cheeks, but you barely noticed.
There was work to be done. People to help.
You spent the morning helping vendors unload crates, set up tables, and arrange produce with practiced care. Each small task felt heavyânot just from the cold, but from the weight of knowing Tommy carried the town on his back.
And today, you were determined to carry some of it for him.
Even if you weren't on speaking terms.
A few familiar faces caught your eyeâMrs. Harper, already at her flower stall, smiled softly as you helped her lift a box of fresh daisies.
âThanks, dear. You always make things easier.â
You smiled back, brushing a stray hair from your face. âWe do what we can.â
At the bread stand, Mr. Lawson handed you a warm loaf with a grateful nod. âTommyâs lucky to have you.â
Was he?
Was he really lucky? Or had the weight pressing down on him blurred the lines between what he noticed and what he feared to see?
By midday, your hands were raw, fingers cracked from cold and work, your feet aching from hours on unforgiving ground.
But you pushed forward anyway.
An older woman had asked you to fetch a crate from the back, and youâd agreed without hesitation. You trudged through the snow, the cold biting through your gloves as you pulled them tighter, careful not to drop the crate.
ThenâThe sudden crunch of boots behind you made you turn sharply.
Tommy.
Steadfast. Solid.
Before you could say anything, his hands caught your wrist, firm but gentle.
âAre you okay?â His voice was softer than it had been in weeksâless command, more question, more a fragile confession caught in his throat.
âTommyââ You exhaled, startled by the sudden contact, your eyes locking onto his as if trying to read the worry etched deep beneath his steady gaze.
âIâm fine.â Your words came quick, but unsure. âWhatâsâwhatâs wrong?â
He hesitated, swallowing hard. His eyes flicked down to your left hand, the absence of the wedding band that you didn't know about glaring like a missing piece of a puzzle he wasnât ready to face.
âYouâre not wearing your ring,â he said quietly, his voice tautâtight with a panic that trembled just beneath the surface.
What?
You shook your head firmly, a silent no. Slowly, deliberately, you slipped your glove off, heart sinking as your fingers searched for the familiar weight.
It wasnât there.
You must have left it in the bathroom after your morning routineâforgotten in the rush of thoughts and the quiet chaos inside your mind.
âShitââ you breathed out, the word sharp and tangled with regret. âNo, no⊠I forgot. I mustâve been thinking too hard⊠and just left without putting it back on.â
He shifted uneasily, a flicker of doubt shadowing his eyesâlike maybe he wasnât sure if he believed you.
âHey,â you murmured, lifting your bare, gloveless hand slowly to his jaw. Your fingers traced the line gently, sliding back until your thumb rested softly against his cheekbone.
âIâm still your wife.â
âThat doesnât change,â you said quietly but fiercely, â... just because I slept on the couch last night. It doesnât change because you carry a weight that feels like the whole damn world.â
Your voice held steady beneath the tremor of everything left unsaidâa tether meant to hold him close, even when everything else felt like it might unravel.
He exhaled slowly, a small, reluctant smile tugging at the corners of his mouthâthough it hadnât yet reached the shadows in his eyes.
His hand slipped into the pocket of his worn jeans and pulled out the ring. A simple silver band, rough and weathered, crowned with the largest gem heâd been able to find in this fractured worldâstill bold, still fierce. About the size of a pea, catching the light like a stubborn spark.
âOh no,â you teased, a soft laugh escaping as your fingers reached for the ring. âYouâre gonna have to get down on one knee if you want to give this back to me.â
He hummed thoughtfully, eyes narrowing with a spark of mischief.
âWell, if I did it onceâŠâ His grin twisted into something fond and teasing. âI reckon I can do it again.â
You rolled your eyes, chuckling low. âGood⊠âCause itâs only payback.â
âPayback?â he echoed, sliding the ring onto your finger with a touch both gentle and reverent.
You smirked, nudging him lightly. âPayback for being just like your brother. A grumpy ass.â
He snorted, shaking his head. âHey, Iâm not that bad.â
âOh, come on.â Your grin deepened, teasing but warm. âYouâre a hell of a lot worse. But honestly, I wouldnât have it any other way.â
Tommyâs smile softened, the rough edges melting away as he closed the distance between you, pulling you in just a little tighter.
âYeah, well⊠lucky for you, Iâm stubborn as hell.â
You exhaled, slow and steady, your fingers weaving through the roughness of his hairline, tracing the familiar lines until you drew him closer still. His hands found your waist, steady and sure, anchoring you both.
âAs stubborn as a bull,â you murmured, pressing gentle, scattered kisses to the planes of his faceâeach one a small claim, a quiet promise of holding.
Tommyâs lips curved into a crooked grin, the kind that made your heart skipâa flash of the man you knew beneath all the weight and worry.
âYou know,â he said, his voice low and teasing, âif Iâm a stubborn bull, youâre definitely the matador.â He gave you a playful shove, eyes sparkling with mischief.
âAlways finding ways to make me follow your lead.â
You laughed, nudging him back. âSomeoneâs gotta keep your ass in line.â
He winked, that familiar cocky edge sliding back into his voice as his fingers tangled in your hair with a possessive ease.
âYeah? Well, donât get used to it. Iâm a wild one.â
You smiled softly, your breath warm against his skin as he pulled you closer, the weight between you easing, if only for a moment, a fleeting second. âAnd thatâs exactly why Iâm sticking around.â
With a reluctant grin, you pulled away just enough to break the spell.
âCome on, get back to work. Iâll see you at home.â
You pressed a few lingering kisses along his jawline, savoring the quiet closeness before stepping back and reaching down for the crate, the cold biting at your fingertips but your heart a little lighter.
Home was a refugeâwarmer than the biting cold outside.
Wrapped in the steady glow of the fireplace youâd left smoldering, just enough to chase the chill but not so much to waste fuel.
By the time Tommy came home, the house hummed with quiet comfort. You were already curled up in bed, half-lost between sleep and wakefulness, fingers loosely clutching the worn book resting in your lapâits pages blurred by your drifting thoughts.
Exhausted. You were exhausted.
The door creaked softly behind you, and then his presence filled the room before you even saw him.
He moved quietly, shrugging off his coat and slipping out of his boots without a sound. He slid beneath the covers beside you, his arms folding around your waistâsteady, warmâa silent promise that no matter how heavy the world pressed down, you were still his.
Here. Now. Safe.
âMiss me?â he murmured into the hollow behind your ear, his voice low, softened by something tender and raw.
You settled into the curve of his neck, breathing out the dayâs weight.
âAlways.â
But then, with a playful grimace, you pushed at his arms.
âButâyour hands⊠theyâre so fucking cold.â
Tommy grinned against your skin, voice teasing as he tightened his hold just enough to spark a little fire between the chill.
âCold hands, warm heart. You get the full package, don'tcha?â
You rolled your eyes, a soft laugh escaping you. âSeriously, youâre freezing.â
He chuckled low, the sound vibrating through your skin like a familiar pulse. âYeah? Then warm me up.â His fingers slipped beneath the hem of your shirt, cool at first but purposeful, settling on the curve of your hips before sliding slowly upward.
A sharp gasp caught in your throat, breath hitching as you barely managed to say his name. âToââ
But he silenced you, his mouth claimed yoursâurgent and fierce, but tender all at the same time. Then his hands traced the path of your stomach with deliberate patience, pausing just beneath your fluttering ribs.
His lips moved against yours with a slow, steady heat, tracing promises. His hands, cold and sure, slid from your ribs to your sides, grounding you, pulling you closer until there was no space left between your bodies.
You melted into him, breath mingling, heart beating in time with his. The cold from earlier faded away, replaced by the fire he always managed to kindle.
That burning pool in your belly.
When he finally pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes were soft, searching, and a little vulnerable. âYou alright?â
You nodded, voice barely a whisper. âBetter than Iâve been in days.â
A slow, tender smile curved his lips as he brushed a stray strand of hair behind your ear. âMe too.â
You tilted your head, letting out a soft yawn into the quiet space beside him. His smile deepened, fingers leaving your hair, gently gripping your cheeks between his pointer finger, and thumb.
Tilting until you meet his stare.
âFallin' asleep on me?â
âThe couch wasnât exactly welcoming,â you murmured, pursing your lips in mock protest beneath his touch. A soft squish.
âToo bad,â he breathed, his head dipping down to rest against the hollow of your neck. âThereâs a whole lot Iâve been wanting to do to you tonight.â
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ive been thinking ⊠im not sure if you like or do no outbreak au, but if u do !!!! going over to Joelâs house with Tommy during the summer and having a cookout
like ugh need this man to come jump in the pool with me!!! i can see him falling asleep in a floaty but heâd totally pretend that he didnât đ
ILY SM thank u for everything
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authors note: sorry it's so so short..
i'm trying to get out of my writers block..
also not a cookout.. but banter n spice
ty ducky ily mwah mwah
warnings: unestablished age. no use of y/n. unestablished relationship w tommy. f!reader presumable.
Sarah Miller was turning ten. You realize what that means, right?
This wasnât just a birthdayâit was the birthday. Double digits.
A rite of passage.
And if Joelâs barrage of texts, calls, and increasingly frantic emojis hadnât made it clear, your presence wasnât optional.
They needed backup. Someone reliable. Someone brave.
Someone who could survive a day in the trenchesâwith the sugar-hyped horde.
You came prepared, though. Sundress swaying in the June breeze, a bathing suit tucked beneath, and your canvas tote armed with snacks, sunscreen, and glitter-bandages.
In your arms, two gift-wrapped behemothsâshimmering in blue and purple sparklesâthreatened to tip your balance as you navigated the front walk.
You reached the door, already propped open, save for the stubborn storm-door resisting your elbow-nudge and pinky-finger dance.
"Hands a lil' full?"
Tommy lounged against the garage like he had all the time in the world, watching you struggle with the door. His grin tugged at the corners of his mouth, easy and amused, the kind that always sent a quiet heat curling low in your stomach.
You gave up the door fight with a huff, your last bit of pinky dancing resistance folding like sopping wet paper.
âDo you get off to my suffering, or is this just an especially thrilling day for you?â you exhaled, shifting the gifts in your arms, trying not to drop the top-heavy one that kept threatening to nosedive into the concrete steps.
Tommyâs grin widened, toothpick tipping upward as he stepped forwardâfinallyâpushing the storm door open with one hand like it weighed nothing.
âNah,â he said, holding the door and watching you pass, âJust enjoyin' the view. But if you did need help twenty seconds ago, feel free to beg.â
You breezed past him with all the grace. All of the grace of someone ready to make this the best tenth birthday party imaginable. Inside, the house was already vibrating with the sounds of childrenâlaughter, running feet, a shriek that sounded too dramatic to be joyful but not quite worried enough to interrupt your stride.
âYouâre lucky itâs Sarahâs birthday,â you muttered, setting the boxes down on the kitchen island, âor Iâdâve left you outside to flirt with your reflection in the car window.â
Behind you, the storm door clicked shut, and Tommyâs voice followed close behind, all smirk and sunshine. What an ass.
âYou think I donât already?â
You turned just enough to give him the lookâthe one that needed no words, no translation. A look honed over years, sharp as a warning flare.
It said, Take this fucking present before I abandon it on the tile like a forgotten Amazon package.
He met it with a flicker of amusement, tongue running slow along the back of his teeth. The toothpick jerked upward with the motion, a gesture halfway between a grin and a challenge.
Thenâat lastâhe moved. Reached out, and lifted the boxes from your arms like he hadnât just watched you struggle like a packed horse in strappy sandals.
âWhat a gentleman,â you deadpanned, rolling your shoulder now that it was no longer bearing the weight of Barbies wrapped in glitter paper.
You followed, unhurried, a crooked smile tugging at your lips. âAw, does that mean youâll fuck right off for my birthday?â you asked, sweet as syrup and twice as sticky.
The tone was familiarâhalf tease, half challenge.
This was the game, the language you both spoke fluently: flirty jabs wrapped in barbed ribbon, a constant tug-of-war to see who could get under the otherâs skin first.
Tommy didnât turn around, but his voice came back clear, pitched just loud enough over the shrieks of a water balloon fight in progress.
âDependsâwhen is it again? So I can schedule my sudden disappearance. Preferably overseas. No cell signal.â
You let his remark pass with little to no acknowledgment, gaze drifting toward the deckâalready a scene of chaos.
The aftermath was unmistakable. Water everywhere.
So much splashing.
Your fingers found the handle with practiced ease, a gentle grip. The storm door opened with a smooth pull, creaking slightly in the stillness. You stepped out onto the deck, hands resting lightly on your hips, eyes sweeping the mess before you.
Assessing.
âGod,â you muttered, scanning the scene. âItâs a war zone.â
âYeah,â Tommy exhaled beside you, folding his arms across his chest.
The motion was casual, effortlessâbut it did things.
The subtle tension in his forearms, the way his fingers flexed and shifted like he was ready to react, or maybe just wind you up.
It was hot. Unreasonably hot.
Probably the weather, though. Probably.
Right?
You cleared your throat, adjusting your tote bag like it was suddenly too heavy. âSo⊠whatâs the plan? Sacrifice one of them to distract the others, then make a break for it?â
Tommyâs mouth twitched. âI was thinking more along the lines of arming ourselves. Equal footing. But I like your bloodlust.â
âIâve always been a tactician.â
He nodded, surveying the battlefield.
âSmart. And when the cake hits the table, thatâs when it gets serious.â
As if on cue, one of the smaller kids shrieked and launched a foam missile directly at your ankle. You dodged, but just barely.
âOkay,â you said, pointing at Tommy. âIâm gonna need you to take a hit for me at some point. Youâve got main-character energyâtheyâll go for you first.â
He grinned, already pulling a Nerf blaster from behind his back like it was a sacred relic.
Was that in his waistband the entire time?
âDeal. But if I go down, I expect a heartfelt eulogy. Minimum three tears.â
You grabbed a neon green water pistol from the toy bin and cocked it like a pro. âOnly if you die heroically. If you trip and fall in the sprinkler, Iâm laughing.â
He raised the blaster and pointed it at you, mock-serious.
âWe go to war.â
âWar,â you confirmed, tapping your pistol against his.
Birthday party warriors, armed to the teeth with Nerf water blasters, and pride too big for being as old as you were.
Though...
The party wasnât all chaos and noiseâit had its quiet beauty, too.
Sweet, thoughtful touches woven into the frenzy, proof of just how much love, and how much effortâTommy and Joel, especially, had poured into the day.
White and lavender balloons floated lazily above the yard, clipped to trees and beams. Some dusted with glitter, others speckled with aluminum polka-dots.
Paper stars swung from the porch beams, catching the breezeâthe string capturing a reminder of Joelâs scavenger hunt through four different Party City stores, which youâd heard about in hilarious detail.
The cake was a dreamâvanilla layered with crisp wafers and a buttercream so decadent youâd swear Tommy cross-county drove it from a bakery halfway to Dallas.
All her friends were there.
And Sarah? Radiant. Giggling, twirling in her sundress, dancing with bare feet on wet grass. When she blew out the candles, the moment held for just a second too longâand you could have sworn Joel blinked back a tear.
But your eyes?
Theyâd drifted to Tommy.
He wasnât looking at anyone but her. And the smile he woreâit wasnât one youâd seen before. It was soft, unguarded. A rare thing, reserved only for his niece.
His Brothers happiness personified. His daughter in another life.
By the time the sun began to drop behind the fence line and the sky turned that drippy pink, it was nearly seven-thirty. The last of the girls had gone home. All that was left was the remnants of the party simmering behind in lost swim goggles and forgotten goodie bags.
From the kitchen window, you could see Sarah and Joel at the counterâher voice bouncing with excitement, probably mid-monologue about the new CD sheâd unwrapped or the tiny Barbie accessories youâd chosen with precision.
Sat too damn long in that Toys'R'us.
You were barefoot now, dress peeled off and slung somewhere inside. The Texas heat still clung to everything, heavy and slow. Your swimsuit stuck to your skin as you bent to scoop up pool noodles from the grass.
Behind you, the door creaked open.
âOkay,â you murmured, not to anyone in particularâmaybe just to the door itself. âMaybe today wasnât so bad.â
âI think you might be a little old to enjoy a ten-year-oldâs birthday party,â Tommy said, exhaling a quiet huff of laughter as he leaned against the railing. He watched you from the porch, arms resting loosely, the last traces of sunlight painting shadows across his skin.
His shirt still hung open, half-forgotten, fully unbuttoned.
You were out there, barefoot in the grass, collecting waterlogged floaties in the dark. It was ridiculous, and somehowâunfairlyâendearing.
Admirable, even.
How completely, effortlessly cute you managed to be, even like this.
He stepped to the side, once, then twiceâflicked a small switch near the post, and with a quiet hum, the backyard bloomed into soft light.
Fairy lights strung overhead blinked to life, casting a golden wash across the patio and the ripple of the pool.
You looked up, strands of hair stuck to your cheek, fingers pushing them back with a tired sort of grace.
âOh,â you exhaled, the smallest smile breaking through the haze of heat and sweat. âNice touch.â
Tommy grinned, slow and satisfied, turning back toward the railing. âLet there be light, huh?â
The soft glow of the fairy lights hung suspended between you like something delicateâbut felt.
It lingered in that narrow space neither of you had quite dared to cross all afternoon.
Your bare feet whispered across the damp grass, soft pit-pats against the earth as you made your slow rounds along the poolâs edge. The last of the floaties drifted near the deep endâone stubborn noodle, lazily bobbing just out of reach like it knew you were tired.
You sighed dramatically.
Enough was enough. The day had been long, the heat relentless, and now this neon foam menace was the final insult.
Planting one foot on the ledge, you leaned out, stretching toward the floatie with a strained grunt, fingers wiggling in the thick, humid air. So close. Almostâ
âYou look like youâre one bad decision away from a water rescue,â Tommy called behind you, voice amused and far too pleased with itself.
You didnât even turn around.
âIf youâre not gonna help, at least donât narrate.â
A beat of silence.
âYeah?"
And suddenly, handsâsteady and smugâpressed lightly against your back.
You had just enough time to gasp.
The world became water.
You came up sputtering, hair plastered to your cheeks, water dripping down your lashes as you whipped around mid-pool.
âAre you serious?!â
Tommy stood at the edge, arms crossed, smirking like a man who had never known fear. âYou looked hot. I figured Iâd help.â
âOh, you helped all right,â you said, treading water, narrowing your eyes like a predator.
He chuckled, crouching down with a mock-offer of sympathy.
âCome on, Iâll help you out. Hand?â
You swam toward him, grumbling something indecipherableâbut your fingers curled around his just the same. His grip tightened, already bracing to pull you up.
Then you yanked.
And with a satisfying yelp of surprise, Tommy went down like a stoneâshirt, smugness, and allâright into the water beside you.
He surfaced a second later, spitting out chlorinated water drops.
âYou fuckin' yanked me!â
You shrugged, smiling sweetly, treading just far enough away. âYou looked hot. I figured Iâd help.â
He blinked at you for a moment, then laughedâdeep and realâand pushed his hair back from his forehead.
âOh, did I?â he said, eyes locked on yours, voice low and amused, "Yeah?"
He hummed low in his throat, a playful warning, as he began wading through the waterâsteady and unhurried, like a predator who already knew the chase was pointless.
With his height, the water barely reached the middle of his chest, droplets glinting across his collarbones as he moved.
You let out a laughâhalf-giggle, half-gaspâand twisted away, kicking into a frantic swim. Not graceful, not coordinatedâjust pure, desperate doggy paddle, arms slicing water in wide arcs, trying to keep distance between your body and the inevitability behind you.
âDonât you fucking dare!â you shouted over your shoulder, already knowing it was useless.
He surged forward, sending ripples across the pool, cutting through them with ease. You felt itâthe shift in the current, the moment beforeâ
Splash.
His palm landed with a gentle thump on the crown of your head, and down you went with a yelp, water closing over your ears in a rush of soundless blue.
You popped back up, coughing, flinging your hair out of your eyes with dramatic flair. âOh, youâre dead,â you gasped, launching a wave of retaliation.
A war broke outâslapping splashes, arms thrashing through the shallow light, laughter echoing off the patio tiles.
You clawed through the water like a gremlin, trying to pull his arm down; he countered with a full-body wave, sending you stumbling back into the deeper end.
You squealed. He grinned. It was mayhem.
Thenâhis final move.
He moved fastâtoo fastâhis hand pressing down again, dragging you beneath the surface.
Your shoulders sank, hair swirling like silk strings in your vision.
Then, just as quickly, you broke through the waterâs edge, gasping, water spilling from your lips as your eyes blinked to clear the haze.
He chuckled softly, the sound low and warm as he stepped closer, the splash of his movement echoing faintly in the cool night air.
His hands rose, gentle but certain, framing your face with careful tenderness.
His thumbs brushed lightly over your eyelids, wiping away the remnants of mascara and stray droplets clinging to your skin.
His touch was soft, deliberateâthe pads of his thumbs moving to rest into the apples of your cheeks, holding you steady.
The air between you thickened, charged with something unspoken but undeniable.
Heat pooled low in your belly, spreading through your chest and settling behind your eyes.
The world narrowed, the fairy lights flickering like stars caught just for you two.
His breath hitched slightly, mingling with yours, and the distance between your lips shrank, breath mingling in the space where everything changed.
"Tommyâ" You could only exhale before he tilted.
And you met him halfway.
His mouth met yours.
It began softâtentativeâlike a question into the hush between heartbeats.
Your fingers found his damp hair, tangling there, grounding you as the kiss deepenedâunhurried, each brush of lips carrying the weight of something that hadn't been foretold.
The night held its breath. The pool lapped quietly at your bodies, a gentle rhythm beneath the tension, as heat sparked and settled into something both wild and unbearably tender.
"Tommy." You said his name again, barely more than a breath, needing him to hear it.
To see you.
Your palm pressed flat against his chest, fingers curling against the soaked red fabric like a plea.
He exhaledâsharp and loudâas if heâd been holding the moment back, afraid to let it break.
âStop talking.â The words slipped from him like instinct. Then one step, and he had you pinned to the cool wall of the pool, his hands cradling your face with a reverence that contradicted the urgency in his touch.
He pulled back, just for a moment, his gaze flickering toward the back porchâsearching.
For Sarah. For Joel.
But the kitchen light was already dark, the house hushed.
Then he looked back at you.
His pointer finger curled inward, knuckle grazing a slow path down your throat, stopping where your collarbones met like an unspoken pause.
âTry to keep it down,â he murmured, his voice lowâthreaded with dark amusement. His hand slipped beneath the water, slow at first, but purposefulâtracing heat through the quiet current.
Then came the snap of fabric, deft and sudden.
His fingers slipped beneath your swim bottoms, knuckles brushing skin, deliberateâeach movement a slow invasion, a quiet claiming. Just a curl, a touchâand then he was guiding you forward, folding you gently into the water.
âWouldnât want you to ruin a birthday party⊠now, would we?â he said, almost laughing, the words soaked a semblance of control.
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I found your page just a few days ago, and I just wanted to say that one- youâre writing is actually incredible. I read A LOT, and the way you write is just *mwah* chefs kiss. I binged all your fics in one day, they are amazing!
And two- Summer of 1989 has become like top 3 best fics Iâve ever read! The angst, the drama, the tension?!?! Everything Iâve ever wanted all in one! Seriously itâs amazing, keep up the AMAZING work!!
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thank you so much ;( oh my god.. this is so sweet ty ty mwah mwah xx
summer of 1989 is only going to be like roughly 9 or 10 chapters.. super short just because my attention span is tiny.
Synopsis: Summer night drives with Tommy are routine. Hiding your feelings from each other is also part of that routine.
Word count: 1.6k
Warnings: brief mention of rough childhood. Not a warning, but Tommy & reader are both around the age of 25. Tommy was in the military, but it is only very briefly mentioned. No outbreak!
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Austin summers could be brutal. The heat, the humidity that made your clothes stick to you, all of it. Even during the nights, it was definitely more bearable, but damn, was it still hot. It didnât help that the air conditioning in Tommyâs old truck had kicked the bucket months ago. Your only reprieve was having the passenger window downâyour arm stuck out, making waves in the blowing air with your hand as Tommy drove down the Austin roads, almost on autopilot now from how many times you both had made this same trip.
He tried to sneak glances at you, watching your arm glide through the wind, your hair blowing messily as you tried, and failed, to tame it with your unoccupied hand. Your knees tucked into your chest, your brown sandals discarded in the front floorboard below you. Sometimes, you would catch him. Meeting his eyes as your head turned in his direction. You always smiled, that infectious smile that he loved, and he would return it before going back to pretending that he wasnât looking at you.
Austin had never felt truly like home to Tommy. Enough so that he left as soon as he could, but he somehow ended up back in the city after telling himself he would never return. Sure, it was the city he grew up in, but the unpleasant memories that tied themselves to the city made it hard to feel like this was the place he was meant to be. Though, being with you was making Austin feel more and more like home to him everyday. It was as if you were creating a sanctuary for him every time he was in your calming presence. Somewhere he could go to replace the uncomfortable memories with new memories that he actually enjoyed and was happy to look back on.
Though, he could never tell you that, of course not. Proclaiming something that significant, that raw, would be the end, in his mind, to the comfortable relationship that you both had created together. It was easier to drive, ignore the growing feelings. Did you feel them too? He occasionally wondered to himself, but pushed the thought back into the basement of his mind where he could lock the door and throw away the key. Which worked, sometimes.
Your nights together were routine at this point.
Tommy would pick you up on Saturday night, order two banana pudding milkshakes from whataburger, then drive to your favorite lookout over the Austin skyline. Neither of you would take a drink of your milkshake until he put the truck in park. Sure, they tended to be melted slightly from the heat, but that was the routine.
And you both stuck to it.
âMmm,â you hummed, taking the first big drink of your milkshake. âI thought maybe by the third time we had these that Iâd be sick of them, but I donât think Iâd ever get sick of these milkshakes, Miller.â You admitted truthfully, swirling the large straw in circles through the thick milkshake.
âAnd I believe you have me to thank for that,â Tommy chuckled, setting his milkshake down in the cup holder between the two of you before adjusting his seat back slightly. âYou know, introducinâ you to the banana puddinâ flavor? Isnât that right?â He questioned, your name falling from his lips easily as he spread his legs slightly, making himself comfortable before turning his head your way.
âIâll give you credit, it was a wonderful recommendation and I will forever be indebted to you for it, Tommy Miller.â You tease, turning to meet his gaze. You both hold it for a moment, not saying anything. His eyes are truly beautifulâespecially when theyâre directly fixated on you. They somehow look different. More alive? Now you know youâre just making things up. You end up being the first to tear your eyes away, focusing your attention back on the skyline, but Tommyâs attention stays on you.
You try not to notice it. Not to think too hard about it.
You both are quiet for a few minutesâtaking in the views, listening to the faint voices coming from other cars. Itâs peaceful. Being with Tommy makes you feel fully at peace. Just like kintsugi, he fills your cracks with gold and mends all your broken pieces back together again. You hope that you can make him feel even a quarter as good as he makes you feel.
âSo,â you break the silence, wiping the sweat from your cup from your palm on the rough denim of your shorts. âHow long have you been coming up here? To the overlook?â You inquire, tilting your head to the left to see Tommy taking a long drink of his milkshake.
âUh,â He clears his throat, resting the styrofoam cup against his jean clad thigh. âSince high school. I would take my dadâs car sometimes when he was sleepinâ. Then I got my license and I just liked to drive. Drivinâ cleared my mind when I needed it, which was most of the time.â You watch him shake his head slightly as his brow furrowed, thinking to himself. He was in a battle with himself over how honest he wanted to be tonight. âIt was easier cominâ here and beinâ alone with myself than beinâ at home sometimes. I enjoy the quietness up here.â He says finally, and you know exactly what heâs saying without him actually saying it.
Tommy wasnât one to often be open about his childhood, but occasionally he would let bits of information slip out. You were able to complete the puzzle of his childhood in your mind through the scattered pieces he would throw out at you. You didnât meet Tommy until both of you had graduated, but Tommyâs childhood was something you wish you could have been there for. You only wished you could have scooped up the youngest Miller boysâ gentle heart and cradled it close to your body, providing it with warmth and protection from the harsh reality that he lived.
You could tell Tommy wasnât wanting to venture too much further into the topic of his childhood tonight, so you eased both of you out of the conversation. âWell, baby Tommy chose a good spot,â That caused him to let out a small laugh and you gave yourself an imaginary pat on the back for successfully navigating the conversation elsewhere. âAnd thank you for sharing it with me, it truly is my favorite place in Austin.â You smile, finishing off your milkshake and setting the empty cup in the cup holder.
âWell, just add it to the list of reasons why youâre totally indebted to me for the rest of your life.â Tommy teases, mimicking you and setting his now empty cup in the cup holder beside yours. âSo, you bring all the girls up here? Or only certain ones?â You say, playing it off as a joke, but regret it after the words fall from your lips. You arenât sure if you want to know the answer tonight.
âOnly the important ones. Only ever you.â Tommy says quickly, speaking before he has time to really think about his answer. Fuck. The words hang in the air, and Tommy knows itâs too late to swallow them back down and spit out a more casual answer.
Luckily for him, his small confession is quickly overlooked when a car alarm begins to blare in the small parking lot. In turn, it causes you to jump almost completely out of your skin and before you realize it, youâve thrown your arm over and your hand has landed right on Tommyâs forearm thatâs rested lightly on the console between the two of you. âOh my God! Tommy, I almost had a heart attack!â You exclaim, turning towards him with wide eyes.
In turn, Tommy laughs. Truly laughs. The deep kind that rips its way out of his chest before he can stop it, the kind of Tommy Miller laugh that you absolutely adore hearing. You feel your heart rate falling back down to normal as his laugh calms your nerves almost immediately and you mimic him, beginning to laugh along with him without a care in the world now.
It takes a few seconds before your laughter begins to die downâbefore you realize youâre gripping his forearm still. âSorry.â You say quietly, retracting your hand back to yourself.
Tommyâs arm is suddenly cold with the loss of contact. âPut it back.â He says quickly, firmly. He doesnât know where his courage is coming from tonight. This is certainly not a part of your routine. Tommy silently prays that heâs not overstepping the invisible wall that he has fully convinced himself is between the two of you.
You replace your hand on his forearm. The invisible wall has taken a hit and it is beginning to crack.
Youâre still looking at each other. Really looking at each other. Heâs searching your eyes for any regrets, any reason or excuse for him to not do the one thing heâs wanted to do all night. Hell, the one thing heâs wanted to do for months.
Then,
âKiss me, Tommy.â You whisper, just loud enough for him to hear. His breath hitches and he swears his heart stops beating in his chest. He recovers quickly, reaching across the center console and placing both hands on your cheeks, your small hand still resting on his forearm as he places a needy, but sweet kiss on your soft lips. The type of kiss that shows you that he, too, has thought about this very moment many times before. He feels your hand move to his curls, tugging on them to pull him in closer to you. He breathes your scent in, smelling the sweet vanilla perfume you wear. The perfume that lingers in his truck long after youâre goneâthe perfume that drives him absolutely insane.
He pulls away first, but doesnât retreat very far. He leans his forehead against yours, rubbing his thumbs against the apples of your cheeks. Youâre smiling.
âBeen waitinâ for you to do that for months, Miller.â Tommy canât help but let out a breathy laugh, which you return, before gently pecking his lips one more time. The invisible wall between the two of you has now been demolished, completely obliterated as if it was never even there.
And Tommy? Tommy couldnât be more grateful now that it was finally gone.
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summer of 1989 is sooo heart wrenchingly good omg i havenât been able to stop thinking about it since the first chapter dropped !! itâs also so house in nebraska (ethel cain) coded?? im not sure if that was intentional but i hope you know itâs now reader and tommyâs anthem -đź
omg hii <3 mwah kisses xx
ty for your sweet words, youre so cute.
ANYWAY theyre SO ethel cain coded... you're absolutely right. knuckle velvet?? crush?? like yes pls yummy
i write based on music a lot of the time.. so i always need a song.. with younger tommy and reader i always lean ethel or taylor. its the best amount of yearning and angst</3 give me all of that mutual pining
special day for his special girl ~ tommy miller x f! reader
A/N: happy birthday to my twisted sister @heavens-whore !! I love plotting and coming up with ideas with you as well as talking about sex and the city and men (the good kind, the dilfs) I hope you enjoy this!! everyone, go check out her blog and works!! đđ„łđ«¶đ» sorry for the delay and the length
mentions: so much fluff!!!! tommy making it the most special day for you, loving on you, soft possesive tommy, praise kink activated in tommy??, doting, spoiling you rotten in the best way he knows. smut. oral receiving (fem reader!), fingering, piv, tommy talking during sex, princess treatment. if im missing any mentions let me know.
minors dni with my blog or my works.
do not copy, translate or claim any of my work as your own.
The buttery smell of pancakes and the unmistakable sound of Tommy cursing snap you right out of your dreams.
You blink against the sunlight pouring through the half-open curtains, your cheek still warm and squished against Tommyâs pillow, which still smells like himâfaint soap, cedar, and something undeniably his. You stretch in the wide bed, limbs still heavy with sleep, and sit up slowly. You steal a shirt of his that's lying around and tug it down over your bare thighs.
You tiptoe out of the room, sleep-soft and quiet, already smiling like you know whatâs waiting for you.
Tommy is facing the stove bare-chested, only wearing checkered boxers that hang low on his hips. He grips the spatula in one hand as he stares intensely at the pancake waiting to be flipped, his brows furrowed in pure concentration.
You lean on the doorway, watching him, biting your lip trying not to laugh.
âNeed help there, chef?â you ask, voice scratchy from sleep.
Tommy startles, eyes flicking over to you but then softening completely when he sees you standing there in his shirt, hair a mess, legs bare, face still half-dreaming.
âYou werenât supposed to see this, I was going to bring them to bedâ
You move like you might actually do itâalready starting to turn on your heelâbut his hand slides to your hip, stopping you before you can take a single step.
âNow where youâre goinâ, birthday girl?â he murmurs, voice low and warm in your ear. âCome here.â
You let him pull you in, smiling up at him like youâve already gotten every gift in the world just from the way heâs looking at you.
His lips meet yours in a soft, unhurried kiss, the kind that steals the air right out of your lungs without even trying. His hand cradles your cheek, thumb brushing gently along your skin like youâre something delicateâlike you matter more than anything else in the room. When he pulls back, just barely, his voice is tender.
âHappy birthday, my sweet girl.â
The words melt right into you, warm and grounding. His eyes search yours for a moment, brushing a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
âSleep well?â he asks, still cupping your face like heâs not ready to let go.
You nod, smiling softly, hands resting on his bare chest. God, itâs broad, solid, and warm under your fingertipsâand itâs hard not to think about it. The way his skin feels under your touch, the strength in him, how safe and stupidly good he smells. Youâre supposed to be focused on the birthday part, but your brain keeps short-circuiting every time he shifts slightly, and those muscles move under your palms like sin itself.
Tommy catches the flicker in your eyes and smirks, just a little.
âOh,â he drawls, dipping his head closer, âyouâre thinkinâ somethinâ, sweetheart?â
âIâm thinking,â you say, trying to sound casual as your thumbs glide along his chest, âthat maybe I should be the one sayinâ happy birthday to myself.â
He lets out a low chuckle, warm and amused, nuzzling into the side of your face. âWell, you do look good in my shirt. But if I let you get distracted now, weâll never get to breakfast.â
You roll your eyes, wrapping your arms around his neck. âWhat a shame.â
âTerrible way to spend a birthday,â he teases, nuzzling your nose. âLoved up and fed pancakes.â
You laugh into his chest, breath hitching when his arms wrap tighter around you. His body is warm, the scent of him all maple and skin, and you can feel his heartbeat slow and steady beneath your cheek. He holds you there like time doesnât exist, like itâs the most important part of his whole day, like nothing else is calling his name this morning except you. Not even the pancake threatening to burn on the pan.
"Tommy," you murmur into his chest, voice muffled by laughter, "your pancake"
He groans dramatically and finally lets go of you, hands lingering on your waist for a beat longer than necessary.
âGo take a seat, baby,â he says, kissing the top of your head with a warm press of lips, âIâll be right there with you.â
You pout a little, dragging your fingers down his bare chest as you step away and make your way to the table.
He chuckles, already turning back to the stove, spatula in hand. His focus shifts, brow furrowing slightly as he rescues the now deeply golden pancake and slides it onto the tower of pancakes.
You slip into your chair with bare legs tucked under you, still wearing his shirt and nothing else, the hem brushing your thighs. The tableâs already half-setâyour favorite mug, a little vase with a small bouquet he chose from the garden, and the distinct smell of coffee waiting to be served.
From where you sit, you watch him work, the way his back flexes as he leans forward, and how his shoulders move with each motion.
Tommy hums to himself under his breath, a tune you donât recognize, and you canât help the smile that pulls at your lips.
He didnât just make you pancakes.
He made you feel chosen.
And you hadnât even opened the real gifts yet.
Tommy makes his way to the table, careful hands holding the plate like itâs an offering to a god. The pancakes are stacked high, warm and golden, your favorite fruits all arranged delicately on top. And nestled right in the center of it all is a single, crooked little candle. You can tell he found it last-minute, probably dug it out of a drawer somewhere, and it only makes your heart ache more.
He sets the plate down in front of you, clears his throat dramatically, and starts singing.
Not the whole song, just a soft, mumbled, very Tommy version of âHappy Birthday,â like heâs trying to be goofy but canât help the warmth in his voice. Heâs a little off-key. He winks at you halfway through. You laugh through the entire thing.
He finishes with a proud little bow, and youâre already looking at him like heâs strung up the stars just for you.
The way your eyes meet his is soft, full of that quiet kind of awe that steals the breath from his lungs. Youâre smiling, but thereâs something deeper under it. You lean forward and blow out the candle, a tiny wisp of smoke curling into the air.
Tommy leans in without a word and kisses you. Soft, lingering, like he doesnât care that the pancakes are getting cold.
When he pulls back, his thumb brushes your cheek. âMade any wishes?â
You look at him, still dazed with how good this all feels. And then you smile and shake your head. âI donât need to wish for anything,â you murmur, voice quiet and full, âIâve got you.â
His lips part like heâs gonna say something. But he doesnât.
Tommy just kisses you again, deeper this time. He doesnât need to say it out loud for you to knowâ
Youâre his wish, too.
You take the fork from your left and dig into the pancake stack, still warm, fluffy, and soaked just right in syrup. The fruit on top is perfectly sweet, and there's a hint of caramel that melts on your tongue like some kind of birthday miracle.
âOh my god,â you groan, rolling your head back dramatically as the first bite hits. âThis is incredible.â
Tommyâs at the counter pouring the coffee, and he turns just in time to catch the full theatrical displayâyour eyes fluttered shut, your fork already going in for another bite, and the pleased little hum you let out like heâs just cooked you a five-star brunch.
He grins, proud as ever. âThat good, huh?â
He grabs a fork from one of the drawers and takes a seat next to you. âLemme get in on this,â he mutters, spearing a big forkful off your plate without asking. Typical.
âHey!â you swat at his hand as he tries to steal another bite, âThatâs my birthday tower!â
Tommy laughs, full-bellied and unapologetic, already chewing on it like he didnât just violate your sacred pancake territory. He then leans back with an exaggerated groan of pure satisfaction, like a man who just discovered fire.
âIâm so fucking good at this,â he declares around the food, eyes rolling back just slightly for dramatic effect. âGoddamn. Someone give me a Food Network show.â
He nods solemnly, already going in for another bite. âInsanely talented. At breakfast. At lovinâ you. At everything I touch.â
âHumble too, I see.â
Tommy just winks, leans over, and steals a piece of fruit from your fork before you can react.
"Hey!" you gasp at the audacity.
âYouâre welcome,â he says smugly.
You shake your head, heart stupidly full, thinking that if the day ended right hereâjust pancakes, kisses, and him stealing your foodâitâd already be the best birthday youâve ever had.
And yet, you still havenât opened your real gift.
Tommy left the kitchen with a little smirk and disappeared down the hallway to bring your actual birthday gift leaving you with the tower of pancakes.
You sip your coffee slowly, eyes narrowing in suspicion. âTommy,â you call out, âyouâre not bringing out, like⊠a puppy or something, right? Because I swear to godââ
âNo puppies,â he calls back, voice echoing from the bedroom. âBut you might scream anyway.â
You almost choked with your coffee as you took another sip. âThatâs not comforting!â
A few moments later, he comes back with a box behind his back. Itâs big. Wrapped in paper thatâs a little crooked and taped like a man who definitely tried to do it in a hurry, and definitely did it with love.
He stops in front of you, eyes shining like a kid about to unveil his science fair volcano.
âOkay,â he says, bouncing just slightly on the balls of his feet. âThis one⊠this oneâs real special.â
You raise an eyebrow, grinning. âBetter than pancakes?â
He shrugs one shoulder. âDifferent category of good.â
He sets the box in your lap.
You tear it open slowly at first, like savoring the momentâbut the second you get a glimpse of leather and stitching, your fingers fly. You peel back the paper and pull back the lid, and thenâ
You gasp.
Not the polite kind. The full, sharp, hands-to-your-mouth kind.
Your heart skips. Your whole body lights up.
Inside the box is a pair of cowboy boots.
But not just any boots.
Theyâre beautifulâbrown leather, soft and sturdy, embroidered with delicate little flowers in your favorite colors curling up the sides. Subtle. Sweet. Thoughtful. And at the back of each heel, stitched just above the sole in rich thread:
T.M.
Your fingers hover over the letters like they might vanish if you touch them too fast.
âOh my god,â you whisper, eyes wide. âOh my god. I love them. I LOVE them!â
You pick them up and screamâand hug them to your chest like he just handed you a newborn baby.
Tommy lets out a laugh so pure and giddy it couldâve knocked you over. âThere it is! I knew youâd do the little scream!â
Youâre already halfway to your feet, boots clutched to your chest, spinning in place. âTommyâ theyâre perfect. Theyâreâlook at the stitching! Look at theâyou put your initials on them?!â
He walks over, hands sliding around your waist, pulling you close.
âWell, figured now when you walk into a room, everyoneâll know who you belong to.â
You bury your face in his neck, laughing breathlessly. âI canât believe you did this.â
He presses a kiss to your cheek. âIâd get you ten more pairs just to see you smile like that.â
You pull back just enough to look at him, eyes shining. âIâm wearing these everywhere.â
âYou better.â He steps back. âGo on. Try âem on.â
And when you stand up in your bootsâbare-legged, still in his shirt, grinning like a foolâTommy lets out a low whistle, shaking his head like heâs helpless against you.
âLook at you,â he murmurs. âPrettiest cowgirl I've ever seen.â
You blush, cheeks warm as you tryâand failânot to smile too hard. You give him a handful of playful little poses. A hand on your hip, knee popped, chin tilted up like youâre about to step onto a runway. Another one with your feet up on a stool, showing off the boot.
Tommy lets out a soft whistle again, eyes trailing over you with so much heat and affection it makes your stomach flutter.
âWell, damn,â he murmurs, low and awestruck. âI really outdid myself, didn't I?â
He opens his arms without a word, the silent invitation clear as day.
You donât hesitate. You walk straight into him.
His arms wrap around you instantly, snug and familiar, hands smoothing over your back and down your sides like he just needs to touch you, to have you there. He buries his face in the crook of your neck and mumbles, half-mocking, half-serious.
âGonna have to fight people off with a stick if you leave the house lookin' like this.â
You laugh, fingers curling into his hair. âYou did this to me.â
âYeah,â he says, smiling into your skin. âAnd now youâre never takinâ these boots off.â
You shake your head, smiling like your cheeks might split. âNever.â
His grip on you tightens just slightly, like the idea of you, in these boots and his shirt, pressed to him like this, might just undo him completely. And then he leans inâslow and deliberateâand presses a kiss right to the sweet spot beneath your jaw.
You let out a soft hum, eyes fluttering shut as the warmth of his mouth sends a ripple of heat down your spine.
âTommyâŠâ you murmur, one hand sliding up his chest, fingers brushing the curve of his neck.
He hums against your skin, not moving, just resting his mouth there for another second like heâs memorizing the shape of you. âMm?â
âYou keep kissinâ me like that and Iâm gonna forget we have pancakes to finish.â
He pulls back just enough to look at you, his lips curved into a smug little grin. âBaby, if Iâm lucky, Iâll have you forget everything else today but me.â
Youâre still wrapped in his arms, his lips against the sensitive spot on your neck, when his voice dips lower, warm, rough, that familiar, dangerous softness that makes your knees a little weak.
âWeâve got a lot planned today, unfortunatelyâŠâ he murmurs, fingers skating along the hem of his shirt that barely covers you, âbut if you ask me twice⊠weâre droppinâ all of it.â
You blink up at him, breath catching.
âIâll keep you right here,â he goes on, gaze molten, âin this kitchen, in those boots with my name stitched in âem⊠keepinâ you all to myself.â
Your stomach flips. Your whole body burns. And the worst part? He knows exactly what heâs doing.
He leans in like he might kiss you againâbut stops just short, lips hovering.
âGo on,â he murmurs, the smallest smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. âSay it twice.â
You inhale like you mightâand then you step back, smirking right back. âYou are evil.â
He chuckles, shaking his head as he grabs your plate and refills your coffee. âJust givinâ you options, birthday girl.â
âOkay,â you say, clapping your hands once and trying to ignore how shaky it feels, âwhatâs on the agenda, cowboy?â
Tommy raises an eyebrow, clearly amused at your attempt to shift gears. âWe back to business now?â
âIf I donât move us along, weâre never making it outta this house,â you mutter, grabbing your coffee and sipping like you havenât just been one word away from canceling your entire birthday schedule for a reroute to poundtown central.
He chuckles low, licking syrup off his thumb again just to mess with you. âWell, maâam,â he says, slipping into that teasing drawl, âWe're already behind schedule so you might want to take a quick shower 'cause we got a whole day of spoilinâ you planned"
You cross your arms, trying not to smile. âSpoiling, huh?â
âYup.â He walks past you with a pat to your hip, completely unbothered. âWear somethinâ cute. Youâre gonna wanna take pictures.â
The weather is the perfect kind of sunnyânot sweltering, just warm enough to kiss your skin, with a breeze that plays in your hair as you step out into it. The kind of morning that feels like it was made for you.
Tommyâs already waiting by the truck, sunglasses pushed up on his head, that easy grin tugging at his lips. He opens your door for you like a gentleman, but his hand doesnât leave the small of your back until youâre seated, buckled, and blushing.
He drives with one hand on the wheel and the other resting on your thigh, thumb tracing lazy circles into your skin.
He takes you to a little downtown stripâbrick sidewalks, ivy-covered lampposts, locals setting out chairs for brunch service. Thereâs a bookstore on the corner with a crooked sign and a bell on the door, and the moment you walk in, you feel it: this is the kind of birthday that feels like home.
Your arms are locked as you wander past shelves of cracked spines and well-loved covers. Tommy trails his fingers down the rows like heâs pretending to browse, but really, heâs just watching youâhow your face lights up when you find an old copy of a favorite, how you flip it open to smell the pages without even realizing.
âGet it,â he says before you can put it back. âBirthday rule.â
âWhat birthday rule?â
âThe one I just made up. If you touch it and smile, itâs yours.â
That candle that smells like vanilla woods that makes you close your eyes and hum? He buys it. The little necklace with the tiny star pendant you keep circling back to? Already bagged and paid for before you even say a word.
âTommy, I donât need all this.â
âYou donât,â he agrees, slinging an arm around your shoulder, âbut you deserve all of this"
From there on it's all kinds of shops, a boutique with sundresses that he insists on helping you pick out, whistling low when you hold one up to your frame. He carries every bag, every single little wrapped trinket, and refuses to let you even think about checking a price tag.
âTommy,â you say, laughing, âyouâre gonna go broke.â
He shrugs. âWorth it.â
By the time you stop for lunchâopen patio, iced drinks, your favorite sandwichâyouâve walked miles but barely noticed. Your legs ache a little, your face is sun-warmed and flushed, but you feel full. Not just from the food. From him. From this.
And when he leans over the table, brushing a crumb from your lip and saying, âYou havinâ a good day, baby?ââyou donât even have to think.
While you wait for the waitress to come back with dessert and the check, you sink a little deeper into your chair, stretching your legs out under the table with a quiet sigh. The late afternoon sun is warm on your skin, lazy and golden, wrapping around you like a blanket. The dayâs been long in the best wayâyour arms full of little shopping bags, your heart even fuller.
You tilt your face toward the sky, basking in the light, then slowly turn your head to the side, peering at Tommy over the rim of your sunglasses.
Heâs half-reclined in his seat, arms crossed, watching people pass by on the sidewalkâbut you know that relaxed posture. Itâs an illusion. Heâs still watching you.
You take him inâscruffy jaw, sun-touched skin, those damn forearms resting just rightâand you smile. Then softly, like itâs been sitting on your chest for hours, you say,
âYou donât need to keep buying me things, Tommy. Really.â
He blinks once, like youâve pulled him out of a pleasant dream.
âI donât want you to spend all your money on me,â you add, giving his hand a little squeeze. âYou give me so much already.â
His thumb stills under yours.
For a second, he just looks at youâthose steady brown eyes searching your face, reading the sincerity there like itâs written in bold. His expression softens, that crooked smirk of his fading into something quieter, more serious.
âI know I donât have to,â he says finally, voice low. âThatâs not why I do it.â
He flips his hand over so he can lace his fingers with yours, rubbing his thumb along the inside of your wrist.
âYou never ask for a damn thing, baby. Never have. And I know youâd still be sittinâ here smiling at me even if all I gave you was a cup of gas station coffee and a damn paper hat.â He chuckles at that, eyes crinkling. âBut I like doinâ this for you. Gettinâ you things. Seeinâ your face light up when I get it right.â
You look down at your joined hands, thumb tracing his knuckles.
âI just donât want you to feel like you have to earn my love,â you whisper.
He lifts your hand to his lips and kisses your knuckles, gentle and sure.
âIâm not tryna buy your loveâI already got it. But cause of that, it makes me want to give you everything.â
Your heart squeezes in your chest and he offers a small smile, tilting his head. âBut if you ever say stop, I stop. You know that.â
You nod, a little overwhelmed, a little breathless.
And for a second, the day pauses. Just him, you, sun-warmed hands
Later, when you finally get back home, Tommy carries the heavier boxes inside like they weigh nothing and then disappears straight into the bathroom meanwhile you put away all the boxes and bags, filling your shared wardrobe with all the clothes you got, smoothing fabric, arranging shoes, smiling softly at the memory of each store, each comment he made, each look he gave you that made you feel like the only person on the planet.
Once you're done you walk into the bathroom to see him sitting at the edge of the tub watching it fill up.
The bathroom door is cracked open, soft light spilling through.
You push it gently and peek in.
Heâs sitting on the edge of the tub, elbows on his knees, watching the water fill with the same focus he gives everything he cares about. The tub is already half full, bubbles foaming on the surface, steam rising in slow curls. Candles flicker on the counterâyour favorites, the soft vanilla one, the clean linen scent he always says reminds him of you.
He looks up when he hears you and smiles like heâs been waiting.
âAll done?â he asks, voice low, lazy.
You nod, leaning against the doorframe. âYouâve really planned this whole day out, huh?â
ââCourse I did.â He pats the spot next to him. âCome sit.â
You do, tucking your legs under you on the cool tile. The two of you sit in comfortable silence, listening to the water trickle in, bubbles popping gently at the edges.
âYou spoil me, you know,â you murmur, resting your head on his shoulder.
Tommy kisses the crown of your head and wraps an arm around you, holding you there.
âGood,â he whispers. âThat was the plan.â
âGet in with me?â you ask, voice soft, almost shy even after everythingâthe gifts, the kisses, the way heâs looked at you all day like you hung the damn moon.
Tommy lifts his eyes to meet yours, and thereâs no hesitationâjust a warm smile, gentle and sure.
âYeah, baby. âCourse I will.â
He stands, fingers gripping the hem of his shirt, and pulls it off with one fluid motion. You canât help the way your eyes trace the lines of him. His broad chest, tan skin, his muscles. He unbuttons his jeans next, sliding them off along with everything else, slow and easy.
He steps into the water first, settling into the tub with a contented sigh. Then he holds out a hand to you, palm open, eyes soft.
âCâmere, birthday girl.â
You let him help you in, one careful step at a time, the water hot and perfect, your skin already tingling from the warmthâand maybe from the way he watches you like youâre something sacred.
Once youâre in, he guides you between his legs, your back pressing to his chest, his arms wrapping around your middle like he has to keep you close.
You sink into him with a quiet sigh, your head resting against his shoulder, water sloshing gently around you both.
âBest part of the day,â he murmurs against your temple.
His fingers start tracing idle patterns on your stomach, your arms, soft touches like heâs painting you with affection.
You smile, eyes closed, letting yourself be completely held. âYou said that after pancakes.â
âOkay, best new part.â
You giggle, body melting against his, and he kisses your cheek, your jaw, the side of your neck, your shoulder.
He doesnât rush it. Doesnât try to make it anything more than this quiet intimacy. Just two bodies in warm water, limbs tangled, hearts full.
Youâre quiet for a while, letting your body relax completely against his, lulled by the soft lap of water and the slow rhythm of his breathing.
Then you feel itâhis fingers gently gathering your wet hair, brushing it back over your shoulder. He reaches for the shampoo with one hand, the other still holding you close.
âLemme me wash you babyâ
You hum in approval, eyes closed, and tilt your head back slightly to give him better access.
He lathers the shampoo into your hair with a tenderness that makes your heart ache, strong fingers massaging your scalp, slow and unhurried. His thumbs stroke just behind your ears, down the nape of your neck. You melt, a low sigh slipping past your lips as your shoulders sink lower into the water.
âYouâre gonna put me to sleep,â you mumble.
âNah,â he says, rinsing carefully, cupping water over your head with one hand. âStill got plans for you.â
You giggle, blinking up at him lazily. âMore plans, huh?â
âYouâre damn right.â He sets the bottle down, hands sliding over your arms under the water, thumbs stroking slow circles over your skin. âBut first I gotta get my girl squeaky clean.â
You shift, turning around in the water slowlyâknee brushing his, water sloshing quietlyâuntil youâre straddling his lap, arms resting on his shoulders.
His hands settle at your waist without hesitation, and his eyes darken just a little when you lean in close. You cradle his face in your hands and kiss him.
Soft at first, then it grows slightly hungrier.
Then he smiles against your mouth. âYou tryinâ to distract me from washinâ your back?â
You pull away just enough to smirk. âIs it working?â
He chuckles, fingers tightening just a bit at your hips. âKeep kissinâ me like that, and I swear, Iâm not lettinâ you outta this tub.â
âMaybe thatâs the plan,â you whisper, lips brushing down his jaw.
He groans softly, tilting his head back like heâs surrendering already.
You kiss him again, slower this timeâmouth pressing firm against his, hands sliding down his chest, and you feel it the second his grip tightens at your waist. His breath hitches, lips parting just barely as you deepen it, your body shifting just enough in his lap to make the water ripple around you both.
âMm-mm,â he murmurs against your lips, voice thick and low, âyou are tryinâ to distract me.â
âYouâre not exactly resisting,â you breathe, trailing your fingers down his neck, along his chest, under the water. His skin is warm and slick beneath your touch, and he swallows hard when your nails drag ever so lightly over his ribs.
âCan you blame me?â he rasps, eyes half-lidded as he watches you. âYou, in my lap, in my boots this morninâ⊠youâre lucky we even made it outta the damn house.â
You giggle, fingers now resting just above his hipbones. âYouâre lucky I let you finish the pancakes.â
He laughs, head falling back against the edge of the tub for a second before you lean in and kiss the hollow of his throat. Slowly. Purposefully. You feel him exhale hard through his nose, hands gliding up your back, under your arms, holding you close against him.
And just when he starts to pull you back in for another kissâ
You pull away.
His brows lift, breath caught. âOh? Whatâs this now?â
âYour turn,â you smirk, reaching for the body wash. âBirthday girl gets to return the favor.â
Tommy groans dramatically but doesnât move, sitting back with a hand over his heart. âNow I know Iâm dreaminâ.â
You lather your hands and start running them over his chest, deliberately slow, watching the way his muscles tense, the way he watches you. His lashes are low, jaw tight, but he lets you guide the momentâquiet, trusting, completely in your hands.
You wash his chest, his shoulders, even tilt his head to the side to kiss under his ear when he lets out a little hum of satisfaction.
âRelax,â you whisper.
âI am,â he says, smiling lazily. âDonât stop.â
You rinse him off gently, kissing his temple before leaning back with a sigh, the both of you warm and drowsy in the water now, steam curling around your skin.
Tommy could stay in this tub with you for the rest of his life but unfortunately he had one last trick up his sleeve. He cursed himself in his mind for the dinner reservation.
âWhat time is it?â
You glance over at the fogged-up clock on the wall and squint to read properly.
â8:23,â you say.
His brows lift. âShit.â
You tilt your head, resting your chin on his chest and glancing up at him from under damp lashes. Tommy exhales and runs a hand through his damp hair, water dripping down his neck.
He doesnât answer right awayâjust stares at the clock like it personally offended him.
âTommy,â you say, slower this time, âwhy âshitâ?â
He blinks, like heâd almost forgotten where he was, eyes snapping back to yours. Then he sighsâlong, theatricalâand lets his head fall back against the tubâs edge with a thump.
âBecause,â he mutters, dragging a hand down his face dramatically, âI made a reservation for nine. And I knew if I got in this tub with you, we were never gonna get out on time.â
You smile slow, teasing, tilting your head a little. âThen whyâd you get in?â
He lifts his head just enough to meet your eyes again, the corner of his mouth tugging up.
âBecause you asked me to.â
His hand slides up your back, fingers curling in your damp hair. âAnd Iâd get in a thousand more times if you asked like that again.â
Then, with another sighâone that sounds like heâs trying very hard to convince himselfâhe murmurs,
âAll right. We gotta wrap this up or we wonât make it on timeâ
You groan dramatically, still not moving. âI just melted into you.â
âYeah, and Iâll put you right back here after dinner,â he says, already nudging you gently. âBut if we donât leave now, weâll miss the one thing Iâve been lookinâ forward to all week.â
That catches your attention. You lift your head again, narrowing your eyes. âWhat is it?â
He just smirks. âGo get dressed, birthday girl. Iâll tell you when we get there.â
Tommyâs standing in the bedroom, already dressedâof course he isârolling up the sleeves of his button-down, the fabric stretched perfectly over his arms. Youâre perched on the bathroom stool with a towel wrapped around your shoulders, legs crossed, a half-full glass of wine in hand as you try to wrestle a brush through your wet hair.
Itâs not going well.
You tug gently at a particularly stubborn knot near the nape of your neck and sigh dramatically. âGod, why do I have so much hair?â
Tommy appears in the doorway, glancing over. âWant me to do it for you, doll?â
You turn, arching a skeptical brow at him. âAre you sure you can do it?â
He leans against the doorframe, arms crossed, smirking. âIâve seen you do this a million times. Iâm sure I can handle it.â
You hand him the brush slowly, like itâs a sacred object. âAlright, cowboy. Good luck.â
At first, itâs sweet. He stands behind you, brushing gently, trying his best to mimic what heâs seen you do. But five minutes in, heâs muttering under his breath, the blow dryer in one hand and the brush caught in a mess of damp curls in the other.
âOkay waitâhow do you hold both at the same time? I donât get itâ
You giggle, sipping your wine as you give him yet another demo. âBrush from the bottom, then work up. And use the nozzle, not the actual body of the dryerâno, babe, like this.â
Tommy grumbles, but listens. Tries again. This time, a little more confident.
After a while, he starts getting the hang of it. You tilt your head back slightly, smiling into the mirror as the warm air flows through your hair, his hands focused and steady now.
âGood job, baby,â you say, voice a little soft, a little smug. âYouâre doing amazing.â
You take another sip of wine just as his eyes flick up in the mirrorâcatching your expression, the praise soaking in.
And he blushes. Just the faintest red blooming across his cheeks.
You smirk into the glass. âAww. That did something to you, huh? You like me calling you a good boyâ
He clears his throat, but doesnât deny it. âKeep talkinâ like that and weâre not makinâ that reservation.â
You bite your lip, grinning. âI thought nothing was gonna stop us from this one last thing?â
Once your hair is doneâfinally smooth, shiny, and out of your face thanks to Tommyâs determined and slightly chaotic effort, he reaches for your necklace and fastens it gently behind your neck, fingers brushing your skin, careful and tender like heâs handling glass.
You smile, lips curled around a quiet thank you, and then slip into one of the dresses he bought for you earlier that day â soft fabric, perfect fit, something youâd eyed in the shop window but never wouldâve picked for yourself.
He helps you zip it up from behind, his hands warm as they run up your spine. You feel the cool slide of the zipper, then the pause as he shifts your hair over one shoulder.
His lips press to the back of your neck, soft and deliberate, and you feel your jaw clench instinctively, a slow pulse building somewhere low and dangerous.
He lingers there. Kisses you once more, just a little lower.
âTommy,â you warn, voice breathy, âweâve got less than ten minutes to get there.â
You glance at him over your shoulder, eyes narrowed.
âYou better not start something you canât finish.â
He chuckles low, and it rumbles right against your back. âOh, baby,â he murmurs, eyes darkening as he meets your gaze, âI absolutely plan to finish it.â
You swallow, heat rising to your face, but you hold your groundâbarely.
âLater,â you mutter, observing his reflection in the large mirror.
He steps back, smirking. âWe will get back to this.â
Tommy wraps an arm around your waist as you walk through the doors, murmuring something about âyour tableâ and how itâs âin the back, real private,â and you nod, expecting a quiet, intimate dinner for two.
But the second you step past the hostess stand and into the dining roomâ
âSURPRISE!â
You freeze. Blink.
Thereâs a long table tucked near the back wall, candlelit and overflowing with peopleâfriends, cousins, familiar faces you didnât think were even in town. Some you havenât seen in months.
You let out a breathless little scream, one hand flying to your mouth, the other gripping Tommyâs forearm like a lifeline.
He chuckles softly beside you. âYou like it?â
You turn to him, wide-eyed, stunned. âYou did this?â
âI made a few calls.â
You laugh, then launch yourself into his arms, wrapping your arms around his neck. He catches you easily, warm and steady.
âThank you,â you whisper into his neck. âThank you, thank you. Thank you.â
He pulls back just enough to kiss your cheek. âAnything for you, baby.â
Dinner is perfect. Laughter echoing off the walls. Shared bites. Toasts raised. One of your friends starts a birthday chant. You roll your eyes and blush and still let them sing. Tommyâs hand is on your thigh for most of the mealâfirm and groundingâand every time you look over at him, heâs already watching you, eyes soft, lips pulled into a little smile like he canât believe he gets to love you out loud in front of everyone.
There are so many photosâyou with each friend, the group together, you and Tommy cheek to cheek. Someone gets one of him kissing your temple while you laugh, wine glass tilted, eyes squinting from the grin. It ends up being your favorite of the night. It definitely ends up being your phone screen by the next day.
By the time you get home, youâre stuffed, glowing, and emotionally wrung out in the best way. You toss your clutch somewhere near the nightstand, flop back on the bed with a long, satisfied sigh, your arms flung over your head.
âGod,â you mumble. âI am so full and so tiredâ
Tommy sits at the edge of the bed and gently begins unbuckling your heels.
You glance at him, hair a little messy now, cheeks still pink from the wine, and your voice softens.
âDo I tell you that I love you enough times?â you ask. âBecause what you did today? It was out of this world, Tommy.â
He looks at you, holding your ankle gently in one hand, then leans forward, presses a kiss to the inside of your knee.
âYou tell me all the time,â he murmurs. âBut I still like hearinâ it.â
You grin, dreamy. âWell. I love you. A lot. I would cry right now but Iâm too full of ravioli.â
He laughs, deep and low, slipping off the second heel. Then, without warning, he crawls up the bed over you, hands braced on either side of your hips, eyes darkening as he hovers just above you.
His voice drops low, soft with promise. âNow⊠where were we?â
âWell we were in the tub, kissing, hugging, loads of teasingâ you say, lips curving into a smile.
He kisses you slow, like heâs savoring the first quiet breath after a day full of motionâthen pulls back just enough to hover over you, one hand brushing the hair from your face as his thumb traces along your cheekbone.
âNow Iâve got you all to myself,â he murmurs, voice low and rough, just for you. âNo more plans. No more runninâ around.â
He leans in closer, presses a kiss to your jaw, your neck, your collarbone.
âJust you,â he whispers. âMy special girl.â
Your chest flutters at the way he says itâlike a secret, like a prayer. You slide your hands up his arms, slow and lazy, smiling up at him, completely warm, completely his.
All day heâs been showing you his love in gifts, in pancakes, in friends secretly gathered, in making sure you were seen. But now, itâs in the way his lips brush your skin like youâre something holy. Now itâs in the way his voice drops when he murmurs your name. Now itâs in the way he undresses you not like a man trying to get what he wantsâbut like one unwrapping a treasure thatâs already his.
He takes his time, worships every inch. Fingers skimming, lips trailing, body moving slow against yours like he has nowhere else to be. The wine warmth of the day sinks deeper into your bones with every sigh and every kiss.
âBeen thinkinâ about this all night,â he confesses as he kisses down your body. âYou⊠in that dress. All done up and laughinâ with your friends, lookinâ at me like you knew I was gonna ruin you later.â
You giggle, breath catching as he slides back up, hovering over you, his nose brushing yours.
âYou gonna ruin me, cowboy?â you whisper.
His smile curves, dark and sweet. âDamn right I am.â
He spreads your legs and glances up at you before he dives in.
Your whole body shudders when his tongue presses against your clit.
Your head falls back against the pillows, a moan slipping out, raw and helpless.
He glances up at you, eyes dark and so full of hunger, his hands tightening on your hips to hold you right where he wants you.
âGod, youâre delicious,â he rasps, voice low and ragged. âSweeter than my pancakes, baby.â
You whimper, thighs twitching around him, but he doesnât stop, it's like heâs savoring every sound you make, every roll of your hips, every breathy plea.
He brings two fingers to your entrance and begins to thrust them ever so slowly while he's busy giving your clit sloppy kisses. You whimper, breath catching in your throat, and your fingers slip instinctively into his hairâhis messy, damp, curled-up mane, you need to touch him, to ground yourself.
He groans low at the contact, like your touch alone is enough to spur him on. His hands grip tighter at your thighs, anchoring you to him, his mouth working with such focused hunger it makes your toes curl.
âTommy,â you breatheâhalf a moan, half a plea.
His only answer is a deeper sound, something low and satisfied, possessive, like heâs right where he wants to be and heâs not going anywhere until you fall apart beneath him.
And when you do, trembling, shivering, gasping his name like itâs the only word youâve ever knownâhe doesnât stop right away. Just eases you down gently, drawing out every little aftershock, until you're limp against the pillows, boneless and dazed.
Once he's got you stretched out and ready for him, he positions himself and brings your legs to his shoulders. You feel it before it's even inside you. He enters slowly before thrusting completely, and your hips lift off the mattress. His grip on your hips tightens as his thrusts become repetitive, and he lowers himself until his face is inches away from yours. âSo fuckinâ pretty,â he mutters against your skin, voice rough like gravel and honey.
âYou feel like a dream, baby,â he groans as his rhythm fastens and his thrusts become deeper. âYouâre mine, you know that?â
You nod, completely dazed and breathless as you dig your nails into his back. "I'm all youâyours Tommy."
âSay it,â he pants, lips trailing up your throat in between groans. âTell me whoâs makinâ you feel this good.â
"You Tommy" You moan, soft and broken, panting against his shoulder as your body trembles. His thrusts become deeper and rougher as you repeat his name, your voice becoming shakier every second that passes. He feels you tighten around him and gives a final thrust, coming undone at the same time as you. His forehead rests against your chest as he recovers his breath.
The sheets are warm, tangled around your legs, and the only light left in the room is the soft golden spill of the lamp on his nightstand. Your bodyâs still hummingâlazy and sated, every inch of you touched and loved on until you melted right into the mattress.
Tommyâs lying on his side beside you, one hand tracing slow, absent-minded circles on your back, the other tucked beneath his head. His chest rises and falls steady and deep, and every now and then, he kisses the top of your head like he needs the contact to keep himself grounded.
âI love you,â he says against your hair. âSo much.â
And you smile, slow and sleepy, murmuring back, âI know. You showed me all day.â
He smiles, thumb brushing your cheek again. âYou deserve more than one kind of spoilinâ, baby.â
You press your nose to his body, inhaling him like oxygen. âRemind me to return the favor on your birthday.â
He laughsâlow, sinful. âOh, sweetheart. You absolutely will.â