Guys i think im just lesbian. Idk. Everything in my life is falling apart already and my bisexual identity was something that was with me since my very very early ages. And it was the only true thing that was left from my childhood that didnt turn out to be a lie. So seeing that being taken away from me would make me crash out. Idk what to do. Also finding out that my trauma indeed had an affect on my sacred identity is gonna break me more. Like what do u mean whole men part of a trauma response. WTF. My attraction to men has only been very very niche but still like at least it was there and it was true emotion. It hurts to know my emotions were not even emotions.
I dont even care about men like they are not part of my life anyways so this is not about oh male validation this male validation that or comphet etc. No connection to society. It is purely about my cptsd
