I NEVER LIKED YOU ANYWAY

Trip to Denali/ sleep over at Megan's

I don't think it's bad. I miss a couple people. There are people who have moved away that I miss so much I can't breathe sometimes. It's a part of life I guess

My dad's girlfriend is leaving us and he is taking it hard. He hasn't been eating or sleeping. I have also been depressed lately and seeing him depressed makes it worse and of course my brother doesn't notice because he is a self centered D bag. I don't know what to do. Help

I haven't written a post in a long time. Usually I just look through my dash and occasionally reblog. I figured I might as well use my tumblr. I'll update my life then. I have a new boyfriend his name is zach (will post pic later) I know I say this all the time about every guy but zach really is the one I'm gonna marry. The only problem is I'm so, i dont know how to explain it, every time we are together around his friends or any group of people really I can't function. I just can't think of something to add to the conversation and zach will ask me if I'm having fun and I lie and say yes even though he knows I'm lying. My brain just instantly buries me in thoughts that all these people hate me, they don't want me here, they are hoping zach dumps me. I try not to freak out or cry but some times I can't help it and I run to the nearest bath room to throw up. He is so good with people. He can tell jokes and be funny and everyone likes him and I'm just that girl attached to his arm who can't speak. Ugh I wish I could make friends. Even my friends aren't really friends....