Be The Basic White Girl

ben solo but it’s don’t stop me now 

Yes, I’m being dramatic.

No, I don’t give a fuck.

Bring him back!

Can somebody explain the sequel trilogy and STAR WARS itself to screenwriter Chris Terrio and JJ Abrams, please? 

The way these morons imagined Ben’s reunion with his wookie uncle and wanted to destroy his characterization even more to make him Vader 2.0 for their fucked up incest ROTJ self-insert movie…..

“ My deepest desire has always been to play Kylo as a human being and not as a machine. I fought so that we could feel some compassion for him… “ 

..Adam..I’m so sorry…

I can only imagine the things he had to go through behind the scenes…he had to fight with Terrio and the other asshole for Ben Solo’s humanity…for the established canon…fucking disgusting.

I don’t like to be vulgar…but what the goddamn fuck this?!

Looking at these horror movie scenes….you just know there’s something seriously wrong with JJ Abrams and his sociopath co-worker.

As for the other thing:

Rey and Ben had been set up as destinied lovers from the start and TLJ established this beautiful romance between these two lonely souls who found belonging in each other.

JJ Abrams was handed a way to close off the nine film saga, healing the wound that caused Anakin to turn to Vader by bringing together Rey and Ben to love each other, live for each other after they save each other from death. 

Meanwhile Terrio&JJ:

The concept art just tells everything about their sick mindset.

What the fuck is this?!

They used Rey’s character as a self-insert tool to fulfill their hate on Kylo Ren through her. As it seems, they were even toying with this gross idea of Rey brutally torturing and abusing Ben Solo by taking advantage of his feeling for her…I’m planning to write about the pit scene as a metaphor…I really think they had some pervert enjoyment in watching this young, groomed abuse victim suffering…

People joke about this, but it’s sincerely awful. 

The incapability…

Emotional intelligence is a hard thing, right?

Ben Solo’s raw humanity is truly scary for some people as it seems…

It’s absolutely pointless to look for any logic in this gross horror movie. Tros has literally nothing to do to the sequels. I refuse to acknowledge this OT fanboy retcon fanfiction as canon.

 It is not.

The people glad about Ben Solo’s death seem to have never once considered - or simply do not care about - the family tragedies of Shmi Skywalker, Padme Amidala and Leia Organa, and how desperately these women hoped and wished for their families to survive and be happy.

Shmi Skywalker was separated from her son and abandoned to a life of slavery by the Jedi, who - choking on hubris and arrogance - couldn’t perceive the importance of the woman the Force itself chose to mother The Chosen One. Her love stabilised and nurtured him; without her influence he grew increasingly vulnerable to his own worst tendencies and the machinations of Palpatine. Shmi gave Anakin to the Jedi with a mother’s hope that he would live a better life than the one she could offer him. She never saw him again, and died a violent death.

Padme’s dream of political justice in the galaxy was destroyed by Palpatine’s machinations. She lost her husband to the Dark Side and Palpatine, too. She died giving birth to her son and daughter, who she so wanted to raise with Anakin on Naboo. Everything she fought for and loved was ripped away from her. She died heartbroken and in the agony of childbirth, her life-force siphoned by Palpatine to keep Darth Vader alive.

Leia lost Padme, Anakin and Luke the moment she was born. Her adoptive parents, Bail and Breha Organa, and her planet were murdered when she was a teenager. Her own father tortured her. As an adult she made her own family, only for Palpatine to steal that joy from her by corrupting her son while he was still in her womb.

Palpatine invaded Leia’s body and manipulated Ben against his family just as he did Anakin. Padme and Leia witnessed their families be torn apart by the same evil. After Ben fell to the Dark Side, Leia wanted him back. She wanted him to come home to the light and LIVE. No mother wants her child to die tragically young at thirty years old after a lifetime of having the devil in their head. Ben Solo’s death means that there is no hope or justice or promise of life enduring for the Skywalkers.

But that promise existed once. There was a time of joy and belonging and renewal. A united family was born out of the tragedy of the old, determined to make a better world and live with happiness.

We thought The Powers That Be tore apart that happy ending in order to say something important about the cycles of war and trauma and evil and the need for universal balance. Instead, it was torn apart for… what? In the end, every one of Skywalker women were denied the family and lasting happiness they sought to create. The death of Ben Solo, after he has realised the error of his ways and COME HOME, erases everything that Padme and Leia (and Shmi and Luke and Han and Anakin and Rey) fought for and wanted. His contrived and senseless death renders their sacrifices in vain and condemns every generation of the Skywalker family to lives of meaningless suffering and heartbreak. To justify Ben’s death because ‘he deserved it’ is to trample upon Shmi and Padme and Leia’s hopes and dreams. It dismisses everything they symbolize as as characters - their revolutionary work, their incandescent strength, and their transformational love - as less important to the outcome of the story than an audience member’s desire to revel in death and revenge.

It is a statement that women’s emotional lives, and the stories we create about them, don’t matter. It’s hateful and cruel.

As for Rey: she wanted Ben, and she lost him. No other in the world was her equal in spirit and love and potential. No wonder she takes the Skywalker name in the end. To be a woman and a Skywalker is to lose those you love the most, and have men write your story as if you’re an inspiration.

The Jedi invited this curse on the family when they took Anakin from Shmi. The Skywalkers have been bound to that festering cosmic trauma ever since. We thought it would be healed, but it’s still there. It will haunt the Skywalker name forever.

Palpatine wanted to destroy them, and he did. Shmi, Padme, and Leia, and all the rest of the Skywalkers: they never escaped the curse upon their family.  They strove and suffered and lost. And now they’re all gone.

Okay, so I need a place to talk about how I feel about this movie and what better place than the internet??

Yes, I ship Ben and Rey but that isn’t my main reason for being absolutely depressed over Ben’s death. It’s about Ben himself (a little bit of Rey too).

Ben was this complex character that I could relate to, I didn’t go through abuse like he did but I understood those emotional and mental battles he went through. I understood him, I knew why he was the way he was. He was this character that we could all grasp and he was just someone familiar in a way. We watch him through these movies slowly becoming a better person, the character development is outstanding. I love to write stories and such, so I was definitely amazed by Ben going from a villain to this victim you could sympathize with. But this movie... TROS definitely killed a little bit of my soul, I’m not even kidding it hurts thinking about this. We were robbed, we could’ve gotten this amazing story of Ben and we sorta did but I know the writers could’ve done better. The story was just choppy, and this is coming from some mediocre writer who can’t even finish a book. Ben’s death LITERALLY put me through the steps of grief, all freaking seven steps. I was literally in the middle of being miserable and was like “HOLD UP THIS IS FAMILIAR” and I got out my draft for a story AND IM LITERALLY IN ONE OF THE STEPS OF GRIEF. BEN’S DEATH HURT MORE THAN SHERLOCKS AND THAT’S SAYING A LOT COMING FROM ME! I just don’t understand... I want to constantly cry about it. It’s been a week since I’ve seen the movie and I just feel so down. I’m just dragging my feet through each day thinking it’ll get better. I watched this character redeem himself, kill off this villain side of him, and then he actually gets killed off?? I get it was a sacrifice to save Rey, but didn’t the alternate ending have Leia using the last of her life force to save him?? There are honestly so many leaked endings that were supposed to happen I don’t even know which one is true anymore.... Someone else says he just gets weak but survives?? These all sound like better endings, why would you throw them away??? Why would you throw away this character that is just absolutely beautiful?? He deserved better, he truly did. It breaks my heart to see that this is how the sequel trilogy ends.

And then there’s Rey, she started out alone on Jakku and you just send her back to some planet of sand?? Wtf. She was sad and in denial about her parents, she was waiting for a family that was never coming and in the end she’s back there alone because her family is dead?? I mean all her family: Luke, Leia, Han, Ben... You just killed them off and sent her back to a junkyard. Does nobody deserve a happy ending??

How I see it is that this movie should’ve been made into two parts. That way this story could run smoother and we could actually see all the characters and their stories. We really didn’t get a lot of screen time with characters like Finn, Poe, and Rose. Also there are so many unanswered questions... like the dyad, Finn’s ability to sense the force, just Palpatine in general, etc. Like we really missed out on so much. I feel like the whole story was rushed, like they just wanted the movie over with. Also what’s up with Ben and Rey fighting everytime they ForceTimed?? Like bruh I feel like a few of those scenes could’ve been more talking than fighting...

when you want to be slutty but catholicism has repressed your sexuality (okay YEAH half of it is hozier and sufjan stevens, is anyone surprised?)

i’m sad and i need to fucking cry because i’ve been repressing my emotions my entire life 

i’m so emotionally drained and i need a breath of fresh air. all about that healing, luv 

i’m dealing with a toxic breakup and BOY OH BOY do i need to process it

the perfect playlist to slow-dance to in an open, empty field

i don’t regret loving you, but wow do i ever fucking miss you. you are my musical leitmotif; everything reminds me of you… of us.

I’M SO AFRAID OF COMMITMENT 

summer fling turned sour (it’s entirely in french, though)

i miss you and i promise i won’t ever forget you. (basically if shakespeare’s sonnet no. 55 was ever made into a playlist)

feelin’ absolutely BUCK-WILD tonight! the sun is gone, it’s pitch black, and all i want to do is scream in exhilaration! wow, i’m really feeling that night-time rush. is this how teens in movies feel?

a comprehensive wlw playlist featuring soft, yearning emotions, to anger, to sadness… truly an entire spectrum

Bad Bitch Bangerz

i’m gay and i’m in love with my roommate, but he’s sending me mixed signals and i don’t know what to do (truly any mlm who’s loved a confusing boy will be able to relate to it)

imagine how things could have been if we were still together and i didn’t run away

bitch, i’m a CRAB

things are changing and i’m alright with that

is it simply that the stresses and strains of a long-distance relationship are taking their toll?

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!

stuck in a painting 

1) First time we spoke was a week after the beggining of freshman year she summed up my entire character and most of the events of my life Sherlock style. I asked her how the hell she knew all that. She just shrugged and said she figured out our entire class already.

2) The one time we had religion class instead of ethics she listened to the teacher for a few minutes, laughed and told me:

“Humans have wished to be gods so much they’ve forgotten they have to ability to create them. Imagination has truly suffered from this ‘monotheism’ stuff.”

I was confused and asked her if she was an atheist. She rolled her eyes and said:

“Oh I believe in god alright. I just don’t think the bastard deserves to be worshipped.”

3) Out of nowhere she gave me this advice:

“The only truth a liar ever told was that lies weren’t going to save you. Don’t become the liar who has to pass that wisdom on, because they speak from experience.”

4) To this day, she has one of those old-timey phones with buttons she only uses to ocassionally call someone. When I asked her why she never got a smartphone she got pouty:

“I hate social media. On Facebook they talk a lot but never say anything. If I wanted to listen to people moan about their problems and ask for help they don’t expect I’d listen to their prayers.” (Notice the choice of words)

5) I noticed she was stiff and I offered her a massage since I’m really good at it but when i started kneading her back I swear to this day those were not muscles I felt. I asked her what she did to turn her muscles into rocks covered with a thin layer of skin and she kinda froze then shrugged and said she was just really, really stiff. My hands hurt after ten minutes when I can usually go for an hour. Next time I offered she seemed surprised and laughed. She still has rocks for muscles.

6) We were having a debate over the way neural pathways are formed (I study biology and she forensics) and I jokingly asked if I could have her brain for study when she dies. She laughed.

“Sure, if you find a way to kill me you can have it. I’m actually curious what you’re gonna find.”

7) One time she was tired and miserable and I tried to comfort her. We both have really dark sense of humor so I told her she could scare the dead out of their graves with that glare. She told me the dead can’t come back and I rolled my eyes and said 'obviously’ but she continued:

“When you die you descend to the underworld with nothing to lose. To keep you, they give you something to lose. When you want to return, they will demand it back. That’s why nobody ever leaves. The only way out is to never enter.”

8) One day she just came up to me with a disappointed look on her face. When I asked her what was wrong she was quiet for a few seconds and then just told me:

“Betrayals committed in good intentions are still damning. Just… keep that in mind.” Then she left and didn’t speak to me for three days. I still don’t know what she meant but even three years later I haven’t forgotten it.

9) We were casually sitting on a bench when, out of nowhere, she asked me: “Is it just me or have humans gotten dumber? Or have they always been this stupid and I just haven’t been paying attention?”

10) She asked me if I ever wondered what it was like to die. I said no but told her I would tell her when I found out. I meant it as a ghost joke but she smiled at me and said:

“Great. I’ll wait for you to come back. Maybe you’ll even remember me.”

In conclusion, she is some kind of low-key god and she lost her faith in humanity even before we lost our faith in her but she’s stuck with us because immortality is a bitch.

P.S. I just remembered her name is a variation on 'Eve’. Maybe I should reconsider my atheist status?!

Alex zubat was formerly a popular blogger on this and other platforms. After the suicide of trans teen Leelah Alcorn, Alex started The Leelah Project. It was supposed to be a non-profit charity that people sent donations of money, clothing and make up to, which were then to be sent to trans youths in need. They received around 16k USD in donations (on gofundme) and apparently additional 5k and then at least another 2k (via paypal), on top of a lot of items that were never sent out. Not to mention that there were companies sponsoring them and partnering up with the charity as well, so the real numbers were never known, but it was a lot. Alex then disappeared off the internet, seemingly keeping most, if not all of the things that were very obviously not meant for anyone but the trans youth that everyone who donated wanted to help. Alex also claimed to be Native, which apparently isn’t true, claimed to have had a tough past working as a sex worker, which there was little to no proof of, claimed to have worked for NASA, was a licensed nurse, studied to be a paleontologist… The list goes on. I believe Alex used to go by they/them, but now goes by she/her, if the IMDb is to be trusted. Alex is now on Instagram, Twitter and other sites as @/playwithkiko. Alex keeps resurfacing on the internet every few months under a different alias, then somebody exposes them/her, then they/she deactivate/s for a while and then do/es it all over again.

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