@sungracdāāā Ā Ā Ā»Ā Ā unpromptedĀ Ā (Ā alwaysĀ accepting Ā ) :Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā ā¦ do you despise her? ā Ā their voice is gentle as it breaks through the silence lingering in the air. but rather than tense and filled with discomfort, it's one of pensive calm as they busy themself with the task at hand, fingers weaving torn fabric with needle and thread. Ā ā the one who created you? ā
šššššššĀ Ā Ā ššššššš,Ā Ā Ā awash Ā in Ā the Ā red Ā purple Ā hues Ā of Ā blunt Ā force Ā trauma.Ā Ā Ā it Ā is Ā a Ā good Ā thing Ā they Ā arenāt Ā looking Ā at Ā him,Ā Ā Ā because Ā heās Ā mimicking Ā the Ā impression Ā of Ā a Ā fish Ā right Ā nowĀ Ā Ā --Ā Ā Ā parted Ā lips,Ā Ā Ā closed,Ā Ā Ā parted,Ā Ā Ā closed.Ā Ā Ā the Ā temper Ā comes,Ā Ā Ā but Ā itās Ā molasses Ā thick Ā and Ā a Ā moment Ā too Ā late Ā to Ā disguise Ā what Ā it Ā really Ā isĀ Ā Ā (Ā Ā Ā painĀ Ā Ā /Ā Ā Ā flared Ā somewhere Ā in Ā the Ā cavity Ā of Ā his Ā chest Ā where Ā a Ā heart Ā should Ā sitĀ Ā Ā ).
his Ā head Ā jerks Ā away,Ā Ā Ā hand Ā swiping Ā against Ā his Ā cheek,Ā Ā Ā clawed Ā fingers Ā curving Ā palm Ā into Ā a Ā light Ā fist.Ā Ā Ā the Ā answer Ā itself Ā is Ā wrapped Ā in Ā layers Ā of Ā stillness,Ā Ā Ā like Ā the Ā quiet Ā of Ā the Ā world Ā in Ā the Ā center Ā of Ā the Ā storm.Ā Ā Ā outside,Ā Ā Ā it Ā rages.Ā Ā Ā he Ā doesnāt Ā bite,Ā Ā Ā but Ā his Ā teeth Ā ache Ā all Ā the Ā same.
restraint,Ā Ā Ā if Ā only Ā for Ā the Ā sake Ā of Ā hiding Ā how Ā well Ā that Ā perception Ā pierces Ā him.
a Ā long,Ā Ā Ā long Ā moment Ā passes.Ā Ā Ā theyāre Ā so Ā calm Ā in Ā their Ā corner,Ā Ā Ā unflinching Ā in Ā their Ā task,Ā Ā Ā diligent Ā as Ā if Ā there Ā is Ā nothing Ā else Ā half Ā as Ā important.Ā Ā Ā as Ā if Ā they Ā havenāt Ā just Ā driven Ā a Ā stake Ā straight Ā through Ā his Ā chest.Ā Ā Ā no Ā one Ā has Ā dared Ā to Ā ask Ā him Ā aboutĀ Ā herĀ Ā since Ā heād Ā woken Ā up,Ā Ā Ā and Ā heād Ā nearly Ā killed Ā the Ā doctor Ā for Ā that Ā infraction.Ā Ā Ā it Ā is Ā a Ā testament Ā to Ā time Ā that Ā history Ā does Ā not Ā repeat Ā itself Ā hereĀ Ā Ā --Ā Ā Ā not Ā that Ā it Ā can Ā heal,Ā Ā Ā but Ā that Ā it Ā can Ā erode.Ā Ā Ā awash Ā the Ā hurt Ā in Ā dust,Ā Ā Ā so Ā it Ā is Ā fuzzy Ā at Ā the Ā edges,Ā Ā Ā and Ā harder Ā to Ā identify.Ā Ā Ā Ā
āĀ Ā Ā what Ā a Ā stupid Ā question.Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā he Ā is Ā resolutely Ā not Ā looking Ā at Ā them.Ā Ā Ā picking,Ā Ā Ā instead,Ā Ā Ā at Ā the Ā fading Ā polish Ā on Ā his Ā thumb,Ā Ā Ā its Ā sheen Ā catching Ā the Ā light Ā in Ā a Ā myriad Ā of Ā colors,Ā Ā Ā like Ā the Ā wings Ā of Ā a Ā beetle,Ā Ā Ā like Ā an Ā oil Ā sheen Ā beneath Ā lamplight.Ā Ā Ā he Ā feels Ā like Ā that,Ā Ā Ā too.Ā Ā Ā if Ā they Ā shift Ā wrong,Ā Ā Ā maybe Ā heāll Ā catch Ā fire.Ā Ā Ā a Ā sneer,Ā Ā Ā pretty Ā and Ā petty Ā and Ā cruel,Ā Ā Ā is Ā on Ā his Ā mouth.Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā is Ā that Ā what Ā you Ā want Ā to Ā talk Ā about?Ā Ā Ā Ā philosophy?Ā Ā Ā Ā ā
like Ā a Ā pinned Ā specimen Ā under Ā harsh Ā light.Ā Ā Ā the Ā feeling Ā isnāt Ā so Ā different Ā from Ā someone Ā poking Ā around Ā his Ā guts;Ā Ā Ā more Ā instead Ā like Ā shrapnel Ā shaking Ā around Ā in Ā his Ā lungs.Ā Ā Ā every Ā reaction Ā feels Ā like Ā he Ā is Ā giving Ā something Ā away.Ā Ā Ā Ā
āĀ Ā Ā do Ā you Ā hateĀ Ā yourĀ Ā creator?Ā Ā Ā it Ā doesnāt Ā matterĀ Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā they Ā donāt Ā even Ā think Ā about Ā you.Ā Ā Ā you Ā arenāt Ā real,Ā Ā Ā arenāt Ā worth Ā the Ā thought,Ā Ā Ā arenāt Ā alive Ā to Ā them.Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā it Ā is Ā spilling Ā from Ā his Ā mouth Ā like Ā an Ā insult,Ā Ā Ā but Ā thereās Ā something Ā there Ā beneath Ā it Ā all.Ā Ā Ā greater Ā depths Ā within Ā the Ā shallows.Ā Ā Ā he Ā finally Ā looks Ā at Ā themĀ Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā the Ā temper Ā is Ā swirling,Ā Ā Ā a Ā violet Ā glow Ā in Ā the Ā flash Ā of Ā his Ā eyes.Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā doesnāt Ā that Ā make Ā you Ā mad?Ā Ā Ā Ā ā
