Heavy Clouds Below

sorry for the mixed signals I don’t know what I want or what I’m doing mostly

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

depressed at 11 was crazy i should have become a child prodigy

So like an hour ago I just lear🪨︵︵ned that— what the fuck was that. Someone just skipped a rock across my post did you see that

sits on my own blog like it’s the edge of a lake wistfully

skips a stone over a few posts

i wont worry about it i say to myself with the always worried disorder

going with the flow in a face down in a river kinda way

girl with ptsd voice: hey, so something really bad is gonna happen, right? you guys are picking up on that too, yeah? The other shoe is about to drop, I just know it.

Genuinely, thank you so much for this.

The really unfortunate thing about mental health progress is that sometimes you realize you've made it in the form of "wow, I haven't felt this bad in a fucking while"

On the one hand it's a bit of a pick me up in a dark place to know that this will pass because it has passed before on the other hand sometimes it isn't entirely a pleasant thought to go "wow, I used to feel like this all the time. That was pretty fucking bad. It's pretty bad right now too also."

Someday your current baseline will be the sort of thing you consider A Really Bad Day. It does get better.

@gloomcreature ♡

my top hobbies are shame and embarrassment but i also occasionally dabble in envy